i forgot the following incident. to tell to police when i went here. in stalk incidents, as told, some people shouted names different names guy or woman names  in stalk in cafes. in shouting "sleep!" word. here, in Spandau, a very short guy, with white black mixed hair, shoutedly said some name that were shouted alot in incidents and shouted "if you dont listen i would shoot you" like thing. i ddnt understand. at the moment of stalk i ddnt understood. i wish i noted the day, so camera records would help. i forgot this incident, i forgot to tell this incident to police when i went to police.
i think i can call police and tell this also. maybe they would more actively help more priotize the psycho of ferikoy case. i remember in stalk incidents a serdar name were shouted. i thought i had a serdar named stalker. that shouts me sleep!. then i understood it might be names tried to be assigned by these psycho of ferikoy people. i think i am really stalked by bad people? seems so. i newly remembered this. trauma like things are weird. you remember partially things. this one i coulndt label it as any serious or any to me. i ddnt think it were told to me anyn. but i remembered, in stalkc incidents where people shouted "sleep!" or such things, this name were also said alot. so it might be really that people. these people tries to assign 10 or alike names to the woman they target in stalk with shoutings of "sell!" "sleep!". so that the woman couldnt understand whats happening. i always thought i have got stalkers a group of maniacs stalking me. now i see that the stalker tries to give me man names/woman names.  the trauma like things are weird. its all shouting based this stalk i confront. in streets outside etc. i confronted shoutings of "sell!" of "sleep!". i am super sad i forgot to tell this incident. when i went to police here. the guy were super short. had eye glasses and had white and black mixed hair.  i didnt any cared nor looked thinking its not said to me. but now i remembered this suspicious incident and understand that that name of man might be tried to be told to me. this psycho of ferikoy whom stalks me tries to assign me man and woman names:S its super scary thing i confront. how i wish i told this to police cause police would say why didnt you remember last time. but trauma things are like this. you dont understand or remember everything when such a thing happens. i newly understood it might be stalker psycho of ferikoy that super short guy. were super short like 145 or 150cms. were little bit fat. had white and black hair mixture. i think the ferikoy psycho whom assigns names and stalk like this and whom shouts "sell!" "sleep!" might be this super short guy. or might be the whistle voice i heard in stalk incidents. i dont know.i think the ferikoy psycho the maniac of ferikoy might be this white black hair mixedd super short, eye glasses wearing little bit fat guy. how i wish i understood the incident as happent. i took it like, it must not be said to me. now thinking now i dont know it popped up to my brain and i understood that super short guy  might be the psycho of ferikoy whom does these acts of creating names stalk and shouting "sell!" "sleep!" sentences. i always thought its the whistle voiced guy.  cause the stalk started with that gyus shoutings. but might be this super short guy. ok so the stalker also threatened my life. gosh. psycho super short sociopath assigns me names gives aliases, shouts me sell, shouts me sleep and  also threatened my life:S gosh:S i think this thing i confronted is a super hard thing to confront in life:S guhu confronts stalk of a psycho of ferikoy. either a whistle voiced guy or that super short guy in the bus stop in Spandau. i am over trauma. but whilst i were in trauma, it were super hard. its overall very super hard to get stalked by a sociopath psychopath guy from ferikoy.


in another incident, a woman shouted "my sina" sina name were also another name i heard in stalk incidents alot. specifically in ankara. so its also a name tried to be assigned by this psycho guy's psycho woman helper? :S i am stalked by psychos:S

ok i dont know why i dont scare any. i am over trauma. but i do think i should go to police and add this incident also  to the incident sets. how i wish i could remember the day of this one. causes they would have cct cameras that would might have chance to catch this super short psycho of ferikoy guy.
i try to remember the day. so that they would have camera records.
i think i could have a 5 day range to figue out the day. since i remember it were from my last days in Spandau. i were still living in aunts home but then aunts husband would say some nasty words in one day saying when i came late saying where were you and i said i were with friends and he sayed were you with a guy? is your friend a guy? after hearing such sentence, i never stayed there since it were quite inappropriate to have be queried on my friends.   anyway its i think i could lower the week days to some day. lets see. i would rego to police with adding this incident. it newly popped up to my brain. i definitely forgot it. when police asked me frequency of things in Berlin etc, i ddnt remembered this very serious one. i think my brain put this to "is this short psycho joking? wtf? it must not be told to me" compartment. and forgot about it.

ok i have got a psycho sociopath stalker whom even threatened my life with name he tries to assign to me. gosh:S i wish i wont be a statistic which are destroyed by pscyho sociopath people. i dont know why i dont scare. i have got a sociopath sstalker doing such psychopathy sociopathy acts, but i feel none scare i dont know why. i feel secure whilst having a sociopath stalker. i think i missed feeling secure in 4 years of stalk of psycho of ferikoy that, i feel secure even if it might not be secure since the psycho of ferikoy threatened my life.
 

a total bakirkoy mental hospital run away like sociopath psychopath has came to last level of stalk: threatened my life:S anyway. i dont know why but i feel secure. i dont know how but i feel secure. my gut feeling i trust in life alot. i mean i feel completely secure. my gut feeling me  myself i feel completely secure. i dont care the sociopath psychopath mental hospital runaway like person of psycho of ferikoy.

i think i would go to police tomorrow to add this detail. so that we could check cctv records to catch identity of this short guy since he would be the key to capture these psycho person of ferikoy and his helpers.ok maybe we finally have a clue to reach out identity of this psycho of ferikoy guy and his helpers. yuppp. tomorrow would go to police to report this. so they assign also a prosecutor to this situation whom would help capture this psycho of ferikoy. i wish there are cctvs in bus stops here. cause i would narrow down the week it happent. it is not super far date. it were the times i still lived in aunt's home. ok we now finally have a clue to reach out this psycho of ferikoy guy.

i remember aga word in stalk incidents alot. and in one case some people shoutedly told "aga is doing religious things in Meccah". and the woman shouts me "my sina". so is this the stalker this woman? calls me sina like 10 or alike names she wants to call? or that short guy? or that whistle voiced guy?  ok i am stalked by a psycho sociopath thats from ferikoy. either a maniac woman or a psycho guy. and thes epeople shouted me "sell!" "sleep!". ok gonna go to police tomorrow again to add this detail of threatening of life.  are these people a maniac religious cult? since they are a group of people doing such stalk acts of shoutings? i wish this doesnt get understood as islamophobia. cause i have known very nice very great people that are from Islam rleigion in many places i worked. but in every religion, it might happen to have psycho cults? is a psycho cult stalking me? (psycho cults are out of religions i think, they are psycho people using religion for psycho purposes).  since they shouted me sleep. is it like some religious cults we heard woman are turned to sex slaves? ?  where woman aree expected to sleep? or is it just a mafia of ferikoy and not any religious cult? ok i wish police would interrogate all these maniacs and learn in behalf of me for these queries i wonder.
ii now have  a real clue to reach out identities of these psycho people set from ferikoy.  i wish super much that bus stops have cctv cameras here. via this super short guy, now we have a clue to reach out to the sociopath pscyho of ferikoy guy.


one other detail, 4 or 4.5 years ago, i used to lunch in a cafe in some altunizade nice restaurant. there were a guy who would come. who were black haired, thin. and were epilepsy likke. he would have come with his friends and during the meal, his head would fall due to epilephy i infer. i always felt pity seeing that. he would look  to me and i would feel pity to the guy for such hard illness everytme i see. he always came to cafe when we dined with friends there. and sat in a desk thats front to ours desk 2 or 3 desks away. and his head would fall to his plate. and i said, gosh, God should help this person's illness.
  then i remember in last year in one stalk, a guuy that resembles that guy alot saying "dont expect guher to sell.she wont sell". ok so an epilepshy guy wants me to sell myself? wtf? whom are these people?

anyway now we have a clue to reach out these psychopaths sociopaths. the super short guy. he were either 145 or 150 or i dont think 150cm even. he were 145 cm i think. and shouted that in bus stop. ok woudl go to police to add this incident. 




ok having a life where i want to forget this trauma.


its really weird whilst i plan happy things like my hobby gadgets costs like gloves etc ofthe fun snowboarding hobby. but i think i would tomorrow also go to police to add this incidents to the stalk situation i told. i think this one happent in between 1st and 14th of november. cause its not too far day. but i were also sitting still in aunt's home. o i could narrow down the day that the bus stop incident happent to such time frame.  i dont remember which day. i hadnt noted down this incident. maybe because it were kind of super serious traumatic my brain erased it or not popped up it.

i remember also they calling in stalk incidents some as "şah" in shouting based stalk incidents from building. which religions does `şah` passes? these people might be from religions cults where `şah` concept happens ? if its a psycho religious cult doing these? i dont know if this is a ferikoy mafia or a psycho religious cult.  also in many incidents i remember "boris, tania, olga" shoutings. ok a multi national and also muslim people with 'şah` concept stalking me? there is a whistle voiced guy, a maniac woman whom shouts me "my sina", an epilepsy guy whom liked to stalk me  in cafes 4.5 years ago, and i would in my mind say, oh pity to his illness, a boris, olga, tania names.
 this is for sure super duper confusing. ok i wish police would interrogate and catch these psycho people from ferikoy.


this thing i am super sick of tryring to deal with. i think i might postpone going to police another day. i mean, i am a middle aged engineer, i am not a crime case solver right/ i mean, i am tired of tryign to understand this crime case i confront as some maniac woman shouots me "my sina" and many shoutings with sina name and also "sell!" word and a whistle voiced psycho stalker from ferikoya dn all these. i am sick of the psychopathy and sociopathy i confront whilst i am an amazing woman of coder type who actually likes to travvel instead of solving crime cases.i am sick of trying to solve a crime case i confront. i am really sick of dealing with psychopathy sociopathy of the ferikoy psycho guy or psycho woman (mayb e the stalker is the woman whom shouted "my sina"? i have no fckng idea whats going on. they just look like maniac people since they shout "sell!" "sleep!" like words and also very sexist curses. i am really sick of dealing with people's sociopathy psychopathy:S fck you all psychopath psycho from ferikoy and his or her helpers! if its a religious cult, fuck you all you psychopath cult!. if its a mafia, fuck you all you ferikoy mafia! these people are maniac psychopagths and i am really sick of dealing with psychopathy sociopathy acts and trying to solve a crime case. i dont want to go tpolice tomorrow i am really sick of dealing with this.i would go another day maybe 2 days later or 1 week later but rihgt now i am really sick of dealing such things.

yuppp i would go like my ages like people like me (coders) (we coders have nice hobbies instead of solving psychopathy sociopathy situations. its not my task to solve the sociopath stalker from ferikoy's stalk. i am sick of this. its either a psycho woman whom shouted me "my sina" (gives me names psycho and people shouted "sina sell!" "sina sleep!" ) or a whistle voiced psycho guy from ferikoy or a maybe psycho religious cult. i dont fckng cafre. i just am a coder that codes to earn her life. what the fck is this psychopathy sociopathy i confront. ok i really have no energy to deal with this. i think after holiday i would have energy and would go to police to add up the life threatning thing of the super short gy to things i told. maybe a prosecutor would be  interested by then i wish so. but right now i am going to holiday like people in my ages in my professions. people of my age/my proffesion does hobbies instead of solving psychopathy sociopathy. wtf is this? if this is a religious cult? fck your religious cult you son of bitches! fck your selves instead of trying to turn woman to sex slaves with shouting sell or sleep. psychopath sociopaths.  i want to live my life like my age group like people like me but a psycho from ferikoy stalks me like this. but ok i wouldnt care for a while and collect energy.then after return from holiday, for the incident in between 1 and 14 november i would ask help from police and prosecutors to help me analyze cctv reecords for since life threatning happent. which popped up newly to my brain. visibly my brain put that erased that saying thats trauma. i dont know. but i newly remembered that life threatening thing in bus stop froma super short guy.


how my psychology is: i dont feel any trauma. i feel safe also.  i believe German police would catch this psycho of ferikoy (its either an old psycho woman (had a very old voice) or a guy) and i feel safe.  


ok one other stalk incident happent. i think i thought i had a serdar named stalker but i think these psychopaths might be calling serdar to me.  a psycho woman shouts me "my sina" then many man names:S names are randomly taken from people from linked in. for instance, i had a tom named manager, a nice person not any related to this stalk, but they do i observe, check where i am working, randommly select a person working in same place and use that name in stalk,cause in one stalk inciident i remember, from nexr tbuilding a woman shouting "it is tom!". and in street i been shouted "tom get horny!" a psycho sociopath calls me man names and woman names she or he randomly selects.and another name stolen taken is srra which is very nice cousins name whom is again any unrelated to this. but they shouted srra name also alot in various sentences. i always initially thought there is a serra named person in this stalk thatcurses me says me curses etc. but i understand that all those names, are what these psychopaths tell to me. they select random names from my friends, from my linkedin. its they shout a socio psycho sentence using other people's name so you dont understand any shit and you look wth null stare and have no chance to reply either cause you have no fckng idea thatthey call that name to you. this is how these people what kind of psychopathy acts these people do as i confront done applied to me. in the stalk incident that my life is threatened, the short guy said "serdar vururum". i remember serdar name alot in stalk incidents. but serdar name isnt i think taken from profile pages in linkedin scl media etc, cause i have no friend named of serdar. its that they use 10 or  alike names. they shout a sentence and you look null with tyring to understand what the shit this guy or lady said, they have this strategy of confusing the mind of the victim they target with giving many names to him or her as i become victim to these spcyhopaths stalk.a guy walked in street 20 or 30 minutes ago shouting "serdar is ass".in all serdar named shoutings i had no idea i were called serdar. until recent year when i understand the stragety of acts of these psychopaths. that they assign names so that the stalked victim doesnt understand that psycho sentence is shouted with subject of her or him but thinking there is a stalker with such name.i thought i had a serdar named stalker, a hande named stalker, a serra named stalker, a tom named stalker, a tugra named stalker. i think this mafia selects a target and chooses names from her his public profiles and randomly uses such names in stalk. its that, i most of the times in stalk happent, i looked with null stare, and if i had any idea i were called that name, i would react i would reply with saying what the fuck are you saying you psycho, but the thing is, their schema in that is intelligent, they dont make the victim understand she or he is called that name and they do say whatever sentence they want and victim never shouts back since victim doesnt understand she or he is called that name. they have a very twisted strategy in stalk. and they can stalk in every cafe. they stalk as if they have GPS. in one stalk incident i rememberi were sitting in zeroth floor cafe, and a guy passed with phone saying "serdar sleep". and in cafes when i pass some people shouted "serdar sleep" i thought there is a psycho serdar whom wants to sleep with me and his friends are also psycho and say such sentence. now i understand, these people's schema of targeting woman is like this. they make the woman ignorant of the fact that she is said such sentences. they use other people's names in stalk so that woman doesnt understand she is shouted such sentences. they select names from her profiles like linkedin or other public profiles. they try to make woman mentally ill with using even a relative's name in that. i think these people are woman trafficers or a psycho religious cult. i wish the German police catches these son of bitches. they stalk very intelligently, they make the stalk victim not understnd she is shouted such sentnece. i only understood their this intellignt scheme in 4th or 3rd year of stalk. in before, when shoutings happent i just stared null. if i had any slight idea that i am shouted such sentence, i would reply back with saying what the fuck aree you saying you psychopath? but they make the victim unaware that she is a victim. they have a intelligent agenda in doing such acts. they use other people's names in shouting sentences to her, so that she never has any idea that she is the subject of the sentence.I wish super bad that German police catches these son of bitches these dishonest freaks maniacs psychopaths sociopaths.i think i gonna rego to police tomorrow. i mean today. in afternoon.
to add this detail of life threatenig wtih serdar word. in 1st year of stalk, i confronted constant shoutings of "serdar! sleep!". i thought there is a serdar named maniac stalker, and he decieves his friends as if i want to sleep with him (that i am a maniac who likes to sleep with serdar?:SSS?) and they shout such sentnece due to that. i thought i had a serdar named stalker. they use this scheme. they use other people's names in stalk. so that the stalk victim never ever understands she is shouted psycho sentences. i only udnerstood in 3rd or 4th year of stalk what the shit schema these psychopath have use in stalk.

ok but finally i have tiny clue to reach out the identities of these psychopath stalkers.  i wish super bad that Germany has cctvs in bus stops. cause i exactly confronted "serdar vururum " like sentence from a super short guy and i think this quite matches to the schema of "serdar" name i confront from these psychopaths. i pray Germany has cctvs so that we could reach out this organization of psychopaths whom try to make woman turn woman to sex slav4es as i understand. since they shotued sleep! many times in stalk. "sell!" and "sleep!" words were alot shouted. i  never replied. i never talked. like the stalk incident happent from street 1 hoour ago, i ddnt shouted back. i wish after saying the death threat also they priotize this and give a  prosecutor whom helps to catch these psycho people.  i am super happy they have no idea of this blog. the stalkers dont know about this blog. cause as i toldthe street incidents, they continue street incidents. if they knew this blog, they would scare of attending stalk in street. i am super happy ths blog is secret to the stalkers. so guhu is an unlucky whom has a mafia living in next building and mafia fixating her and calling her serdar or other names:S shit:S holy shit:S this is super unluck:S i remember a woman shouting "serdar! and socio sentences from one near building.but the thing i am lucky is, the stalkers have no idea of this blog. and they continue their stalk incidents in street. and which would give us and German police to catch these people. ok today i am going to police again, since i remembered the death threat. they shouted "sleep!" to me and i also received a death threat. i think this is enough for to go to prosecutors to investigate this crime i confront. i figure out my brain behaved like i dont know i dont know how i forgot this death threat thing. i ddnt took as if its told to me at that instant but subconsciously thouoght it might as well be said since serdar name were frequently used in stalk and i know the schema that they use other people's names which includes serdar name. i went to police here. but i didnt remembered this. i ddnt thought of this from the time it happent till this. i now understand the concept that brain forgots traumatic things. it happent to me as i understand. cause i ddnt remembered this stalk incident of death threat. until this night. ok ii am regoing to police with this new incident detail which i ddnt remembered last time. now i understand how people forgot traumatic moments, it also happent to me. my brain erased this traumatic moment in bus stop till this night. gosh. i newly remembered.

i think i gonna dont care. when i told mom she always said  dont care what pscyho people say.i would go to my holiday. and i dont feel in any threat. the psycho also calls me a label of aga, so there is an aga who goes to Meccah, but they also want to say "aga" label to me. the guy shouted "eg!" (meaning i infer boyun eymek meaning iradesine boyun egmek) also. ok sometimes i create drama on what these psycho people say, but then i get over, like now. i remember a pscyho eastern guy trying to make me a "kuma". since they shouted such things. is this aga this who tried to make me a "kuma" and since cant do, tries to make me a bitch, calling me gay, creating man names to me like serdar, and asking me to sleep. ok this might be really like this. there in eastern part of country, in illiterate regions, there is kuma accustom, that guy marries 2 woman at the same time if first one couldnt give  birth to chidl. so that they take another woman to create descendants. only in illiterate part of some eastern city. there they also kill woman if they dont do "boyun egmek" to man's requests. the guy 5 minute ago shouted "boyun eg". i do think, this illiterate people dont any look istanbul nor ankara nor iskenderun people but people of eastern region where such customs exist very minorly in very low ratio.why do i think this criminal thing i confront is related to "kuma" shoutings? cause they shout "aga" like words. and kuma like things belong to aga culture, eastern culture. (feodalist things). in that subregion of even if my mom's side might be Kurdish, i dont want to even say any bad thing to Kurdish people, but that religious Kurdish people tiny fraction of them kill woman when they dont obey. in very eastern regions. and upon hearing "aga" words, and before hearing "kuma" words, i do correelate the crime i confront with the psycho who shouted me kuma whom tried to make me a kuma. cause shouted many times "boyun eg". then if a woman doesnt boyun eg (obey) then she is either killed or her life is tried to be killed with trying to make her a bitch. i constantly ask whom these people are. but thinking, they dont any look like istanbul nor ankara nor iskenderun nor any middle/west part of Turkey. they shout "sell!" things.  it might be unrelated but this crime i confront since they also use "aga" words, might be rooted from an aga who tried to make me a kuma.or its unrelated. and just correlation. the thing, i observe is, my life is tried to be killed with trying to turn me a bitch or a like thing. and i dont know whom is doing this. but since they overuse aga word, and since i once heard "kuma" word, i correlate that, the possibility that, these people are from such culture where woman obey big feodalist families where aga's exist and since guhu got not interested to obeying, they try to kill her life with everypossible way with trying to turn to a bitch or alike.cause there is a lot "aga" word be shouted in air. 4 years ago, a "kuma" word were shouted. so these people might be trying to kill my life with trying to turn me a bitch all because i dont obey a feodalist culture where woman obey?  this is not any ankara nor istanbul's culture nor iskenderun's. its in eastern cities in mardin like very beatiful cities but very little part as we see from movies they want woman to obey. and the psycho shouts me "obey". so i correlated with "kuma" incidents and i labelled these psycho as that feodalist culture members. even if its a very tiny fraction. he shouted "bir ey.  bir ey". psycho maniac.they are trying to kill my life with trying to make me a bitch, with very intellgnt ways like making even me unaware of that with using other people's names they learn from public profiles.
ii just feel for instance this mornign to not fight and just simply dont care. and continue planing my holiday. cause its all shoutings. even if super disturbing. a psycho shouts me "bir ey! bir boyun ey!".

i want to reply in my inner side with sezen aksu's some ssong, about kardelens. i am not a kardelen either and i wont do any "boyunn egmek"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this black hair psycho also shouted me "hurrem". he tries to make me something very bad. consistently for 4 years. this dark haired psycho guy. never endingly does such acts.


i think i wont let this psycho disturb my life. psycho sociopath loser who messes woman with shouting them to sell or shouting them hurrem. psycho. then also shoouts other labels. iwont let this psycho sociopath disturb my life. he shouted "bir ey! bir ey" 20 minutes ago! he repeated similar words in another stalk. i remember the look fo this guy. i once went to a cafe thats very weird place. and this guy came and sat right beside my desk. i were coding code of a startup trial. i were sitting in other side. then i changed my chair to the side thats more near to him not knowing he is a stalker, i changed my chair because i had to charge laptop. then he said when i sat like that, he said "eydi" (meaning boyun eydi) then i called my brother and told a psycho is stalking me etc to show i am not gonna ever "boyun egmek"!!!!! the psycho is fixated to make me "boyun egmek". tries to kill my life with shouting me "sell!" "sleep!" or labels or names. all his goal is to make me "boyun egmek" but since he couldnt succeeded for 4 years, he shouted "bir ey!  bir kez ey!" in outside 20 minutes ago. i have got a psycho sociopath stalker that tries to kill my life with doing every possible thing in intellgnt ways.

what i feel like, i just dont want to care.
i would find a bf or husband in future. and also continue planning my holiday. and psycho would continue to shout at outside. my mom always said in this, dont care what psycho people say. so i wont care. let the psycho shout constantly in my home street. yuppp. i wont care. what kind of maniac people also exist in this world beside normal non maniac population:S
i am not in mood of dealing with maniac behavior of psycho sociopath. maybe after holiday, i would go to woman's institution to tell the things i confront from a stalker from ferikoy.

guhu the guhu who fights against a psychopath sociopath stalker from ferikoy. i think names the sociopath tries to assign me became 10 or alike many.  constant names/labels creation and constant stalk as if has GPS. and they do shoutings things very intelligently. for instance they i now understood they call me serdar? labeling me as gay since i dont have any hsband? then they would shout "serdar sleep!". i receiving such sentence, i would think, there is a serdar named psycho who tells his friends this girl wants to sleep with me. i always understood that sentence like that. i had no idea those names/labels were shouted to me till last year of stalk. so they do these acts very intellgntly. without even making the acts victim be aware. they stalked like they have gps. for instance i would go to ashopping center to dye my hair in coeffr. in finish of that, i had gone to upper floor to eat somethig at food stores/side/cafes. and the woman inside a cafe when i pass there would shout "serdar sleep!" i would i understood that there is a serdar named psycho whom deceives his friends as if i want to sleep with him. i thought all the time i had a serdar named stalkeer.but its not just serdar name i think 10 or alike names are created and also labels. i know it looks hard to believe such things happens in life, but people trust me really happens. there are this much illiterate people in world also. not any Turkey's culture actually. just feodalist some tiny fraction where woman dont have any rights they have culture of killing woman whom dont obey in eastern clture side. and this psycho sociopath from ferikoy tries to kill my life with psychopathy sociopathy acts.

i am not in mood of being a fighter and caring this this much. i am in mood of folowing mom's advise of not caring what psycho people say advise. and the psycho sociopath would come to street, get mad of anger since guher doenst obey to feodalism and shout loser ways "bir ey! bir ey" shouts guhu labels names shouts "sleep!" a loser psychopath sociopath stalker efrom ferikoy.

i do think these people come from the "kuma' shouters. from eastern cities of Turkey. cause this illiteracy i confront neither belongs to istanbul nor ankara nor any other city. super much level of ignorance i confront in behaviors of tryig to kill my life with trying to even make me a bitch. such behaviors of killing woman's life i only heard in from eastern side in cities where feodalist things exist yet.  its definitely not Turkey's culture. its a fraction. of maniac people whom have feodalist culture where they expect woman to obey and man to obey feodalism and we heard in things that they tend to kill woman whom dont obey. i wish my country sociologically engineers the culture problem of that womans enemy culture fractions that tries to kill woman's life when she doesnt obey. the gy shouted "bir ey! bir ey" 1 hour ago. (he shouted "obey" "obey").i do think my country already working on to fix such things hopefully but since there is a lot population, i guess its taking long time and such maniac people still exist who try to kill woman's life when they dont obey.
or its not such a thing but a sociopathy story this thing i confront. thats also possible. maybe its not any related to kuma shouting but a sociopath in very big city life targets me (a socio from ferikoy). or its a religious cult. thats also possible since i were stalked in every cafe i went as if they had GPS.
its similar to sociopathy stories i read. in some stories i read the stalker creates labels/aliases and tries to shame the victim with such ways with labels he creates and shouts.  the thing i confront looks like also socioppathy. but the thing is, if its sociopathy it would be just 1 person, now a group of people are helping the sociopath guy's acts. so this doesnt look like a simple sociopathy situation, but either a mafia sub cult like thing, or a religious cult (a psycho religious cult), i think either one fo these.what i do think, i do think these people look like mafia like thing. snce htey repeatedly shouted "sleep!" like things. so guhu the unlucky guhu is targeted by a ferikoy mafia most possibly.

i would revisit police to also add the incident in bus stop to the history of incidents of 4 years i confront. but i dont feel in any mood to deal with this psychopathy i confront now. maybe after holidya. yepp after holiday.


how what kind of maniac these people are. to make an metu grad engineer as bitch? and try to make her mentally ill with shoutings? i remember a woman shouting "guherim" (means my guher) from next building. and these stalks happent. and i would shout stop stalking me psychopaths. and they would say things like "thats tom". "thats sinan".... and also like "ork! serdar is still not over (from thinking she would run from our stalk)" in street, "we dont think serdar would get over". aka she wont turn toa bitch. in street in building shoutings "olga! olga!" then in ankara i figure out in mayn incidents after they also try to shout olga to me from 10 or alike names. constant names and labels creation and stalk. and you dont get that naames are told to you in first three 3 years. for instance,i were trying to build causalera that time. an ecommerce startup. for SMBs. due to stalk from nexrt building in home i wanted to study in cafes,it were 4 years ago.e.g. in galata i study 3 hours reading World Bank's economy reports /world state reports/freight industry repoprts (since i am trying to build an SMB ecommerce startup) then in out of cafe, whislt going home, some woman i remember shouted "ork! it is hande". i remember ork shoutings from other stalk incidents so i thought sentence is said to me, but i get it as, there is a hande named stalker.3 years later, in stalk in ankara, i understood these people try to call hande to me like they try to call olga to me. first sell shouting happent in ankara. i wnet to subway to pass to armada, during passage a woman shouted "sell guher!". i never looked nor replied saying wtf in my head. then next time i went to armada, i remember some people making jokes as if i am a bitch.
i remember now more. i remember these people also shouted "ege" name. i dont know if its shouted to me like  other names or is there any ege named stalker. but stalk were persistent. like i liked kilyos, i went to in that summer kilyos, and in pool side i remember people say<ing ege names such sentences. in first the time this stalk started, i remember people shouting "fukara!". "ac!".  then coming further time to ankara, when i once wnet to armada (a nice shopping center) to buy some clothes,some people shouted "fukara!" and ege names and sell like words making fun as if i am a bitch.i remembered in my public blog i were fan to a famous guy that time. then the stalker started using that name as name to hisself. the famous guy were tall guy. and the stalker is a short fat guy and he told he is that famous name. they tried to make me mentally ill with even using my public blogs and taking names from there. from next building they shouted things to make mentally ill. they would take names from also i see that from linkedin public account. causes they used tan name alot. he has nothing no relatedness with this stalk. just they choose random names that are meaningful to me since from linkedin or else, and they tried to make me mentally ill and also turn me to a bitch also via that name thingy. in last year, sell shoutings started. even from home street in ankara. then as told i changed my home . and i remember these people renting a flat beside my home that i changed. because, i remember whilst passing by the stairs, a guy shouted "tom is a genius". i know that they take tom name from linkedin and use it to call me. cause they also whle shouting curses, they also once more shouted "tania is a genius". tania is another name used in stalk incidents. they had a very weird name selection strategy. from my public blogs, from linked in, from any open information i had, they took names from there. then in ankara they started shouting sell! and i never replied but i entered to super trauma state confrnting such psychopathy sociopathy. for instance everytime i go to a cafe i were stalked. like i were living in my brothers home in my first move to ankara and went to some starbucks near there. those times i wernt scared of goign outside yet.then  aguy would sit beside and with phone shout curses to one of woman names i heard in stalk incidents. those times i had no idea i were told that name. i just wouoldnt care but would think ok, these people and these stalker with these people set, they curse themselves the guy is cursing the woman with that name that i heard in stalk. then after i understood the schema of these people's acts, i understood guy were actually cursing to me with sitting  beside my desk whilst talking to aphone. with using a surrogate name they select from profile pages etc.they would shout sell. every cafe i were stalked. then i stopped going any outside so that i wont cpnftont this psychopathy sociopathy. then but via my familys suggestions, for not scaring of going outside, i sometimes went and in one incident i remember this. i went to a cafe with my math book. and studied. then in line they shouted "boris should sell this ork". (the boris name were also said alot. like olga and tania names). they tried to make me look like a bitch or worse. with such shoutings. then i didnt cared. then in outside of cafe, like they said "sell words, a woman laughed out loud without endingly lauging "she sold!". whilst they couldnt make me sell, they started to make fun as if i sold. than after that, i recontinued not any going outside from home, and just going to work and home and not going to any cafes or any outside city for 1 year.  they shouted things like ass/hole etc. in iskenderun similar shoutings happent so i also scared of going outside there.

i do think this is either  a sociopath doing these . mayb e its the laughing out loud hard woman in outside whom tries to make fun saying "she sold!". quite possible. this really looks like sociopathy stories i read. but the thing is i also confront real mafia like things other than sociopathy, like  "sleep!" shoutings "sell!" shoutings. i mean these people if they are sociopaths they have connection to mafia also and could articulate mafia to try to turn an engineer woman to a bitch. and even if they failed, they do make fun like that. they tried to make me mentally ill with using names from my blogs/even linked in (i understand that they took tom name from linkedin). but the sociopathy still continues. i confront names/labels and shoutings such sociopathy yet still from street shoutings. also here. they try to steal a person's innocance/look with shouting her labels etc. and even if they failed, they make fun i saw in the cafe a woman laughed out loud endlessly saying "she sold!". ok maybe the root sociopath is this woman. cause she were taking pleasure from such sociopathic sentence. i never sold, they never succeeded in making me a bitch or mentally ill, but she were laughing out loud. they moved to such agenda in last phase of stalk. this guhu the coder cant give any meaning to this psycopathy sociopathy she confronts whilst she were trying to build startups or work as engineer in workplaces.  i think this might be a really sociopathy situation. i think this woman whom laughed out loud might be the root sociopath behind this scheme i confront.i think sociopath people ar esuper dangerous. i think this miight be just based on sociopathy. and i think that woman whom laughs out loud with such sociopathic lie might be the root stalker/sociopath. ok after returning from my holiday, i would rego to police with the detail i rmeembered. and with a clean ordered written history of things i confronted from these ferikoy psychos. (in terms of shoutings. its all about shoutings and stalk. not any physicqal damae. its all about giving psychlogical damage. with shoutings) I wish the police captures all of these psycho socio people.
they created labels of selling last year whilst also making fun with sold! shoutings. i never sold nor never slept. but they invested this much effort to sociopathy to sell sleep shoutings and last year even if they failed, they made fun like that. they try to steal innocence of a person with shouting bad things. this is very hard to confront such thing in life. i dont know where to ask help in dealing with a sociopath stalker from ferikoy. i went to police here. but i think since i cant reemember everything in that session that police tried to help me, i should i think write down with focusing on remembering everything i confronted of shoutings and rego to police to find a prosecutor whom would help me. cause last time i ddnt remembered the serious threatening sentence of "serdar vururum". the psycho tries to give serdar name to me. this name scheme i very long in 3rd year of stalk i understood their schema of giving names to me. ok lets buy some nice mini notes thing and write down everything i conftonted in this stalk torture of ferikoy person ordered in holiday and then rego to police to find a prosecutor  with that non missing thing. last time police talked with me 3 hours. thanks alot. but since its shoutings and they said we cant help when you dont know whom is the assaulter whom is the stalker. they said we can init a case but it would work noone and prosecutor would open it but it would be frozen becuase there is no known identity of the stalker. i know that stalker is from ferikoy cause it started from shoutings from next building. but i dont know the identity of. i would in time ordered wise note down all the sociopathy psychopathy i confronted from theses ferikoy maniac and rego to police. cause last time i wnt, the police said, we could open a case that prosecutor would read, but it wont go further since there is no assault thats direct, and its all shoutings. they said cursing here is also taken as assault. but they said since i dont know the assaulter, the thing the case would go no where and it would be kind of meaningless to init. but they also told, its my choice to open or not open a case. but the police also said, would talk with his director more intensly about this andmight call me back. the police really show great interest, listened me 3 hours and i am super thankful for that. maybe they are silently helpoing me i dont know, cause i told my street my everything. maybe they are monitoring the street who knows. but i think in holiday nights, i would try to note down every detail of the stalk torture with sleep sell shoutings and innocence stealing afterwards with shouting "sold!" and laugh out louds with that. i would note every detail of this thing. including life threatening in the bus stop. and rego to same police station with this time a written text. that i might change to german either. for if the main director police there is not super english liker, i dont know, i want the main director to read my case if possible so that they assign a prosecutor to this case seriously.i wish German justice systems helps me in capturing the psycho of ferikoy whoms talks me like this. it has been quite traumitc time. one label i heard alot were kava last year. that label started with: i went to dining in shopping center in bilkent. those times i dined in noons outside. then a tall large  brown haired white woman shouted "bitch! get over! kava!". and then this kava label started to be shouted in various stalk incidents also. they create names/labesl. i still wonder wtf kava means:S after this incident i started eating at workplace every noon and never ever went to outside to dine unless its team meals that we should attend. i would try to find excuses to not attend but in some i attended. and everytime every cafe every restaurant i went i were stalked like as if these people have GPS info. i would buy a notes thing and would note down every detail i remember in ordered fashion in this stalk torture i confronted with names/labels scheme.  a psycho of ferikoy targets me stalks me like this. in many cities.


yayy back to holiday planning acts. and cooking some food. if any person thinks his or her life is hard, please read above thinks and then be consent with your life :) :P i mean what kind of unluck is this to be targeted by a ferikoy psycho who tries to turn me a bitch. i mean its really hard. i also make fun of that when i dont feel super stressed. i mean for unluck situation for confronting such a psychopathy sociopathy in life from a psycho of ferikoy. i think one of the hardest thing in life is confronting psychopathy sociopathy.

i were stressed last day. today at this hour i am ok. i see that trauma not fully passed. specifically when i confronted stalk incident in street last night again.  anyway this morning or afternoon now, i feel better. and my agenda is as said, i would note down every detail and rego to police and init the case with asking for a prosecutor. for to catch this psycho of ferikoy who does these sociopathy psychopathy acts.


and if anyone thinks they have a hard life, they hadnt confronted any psychopath's sociopath's targeting in life. my life were super easy, then it became super hard after targeting of ferikoy sociopath started 4 or 4.5 years ago. i wish nooone ever goes through what i go through.this thing i confront in life, is really hard.ok maybe worsesr things exist like being e terminal ill with limited life time etc. but this is one below harder than that. i think this thing i confront in life, is one of the hardest experiences i life a person could confront.i wish noone gets ever targeted by psychopath sociopaths. i wish people screen humans from childhood for sociopathy psychopathy things so they try to heal those type of people so that they dont disturb people like this like i am disturbed. sociopath psychopaths are super dangerous people. they can steal 4 years from our life with making it pass with trauma like happens in my situation. i wihs police soonly captures this psycho of ferikoy and his helpers. or it were that lauging out loud lady in cafe in ankara? i have no idea whom these people are. its just some people from sisli district because this started there. and continues in 4 cities. ok. i wish i pray polce captures this psycho from ferikoy soon. i would note down every stalk detail and would also try to convert it to german with google translate. and rego to police. to find aprosecutor who is interested to this case.i wish police captures these psycopaths sociopaths soon so i see justice happens. i wish they are even from now silently helping me with monitoring street passing people. all its needed to capture is telephone records. anyone' who passes in street could be tracked with phone base station registration. but it would be less resolution i think. but for instance last night at either 1 am or alike hour stalk happent. so maybe phone records of base station registrations might really help to capture these pscyhopath sociopaths. i wish i find a prosecutor thats interested to catch these psychopath sociopaths and interrogate them throughly. so that all of them are captured and justice happens. i note down day of this day, causes stalk incident happent last night at 1am or such night hours. its 25/12/2019. ok. so this might if prosecutors have access to phone registration base station records, the prosecutor directly might reach out to the stalkers wihc would be super nice. i would try to note down date and time anc check time very clearly every time stalk incident happesn so that prosecutor might have chance to learn identities of these psychopaths from phone base registration records. i wish police/prosecutors have access to such records and i wish super much these psychopath sociopaths are captured and interrogated.so to have a prosecutor i need to write down what i confront from the socio very clearly in both english i would write and via google translate i would also try to translate to german sentence by sentence. i wish my future prosecutor helps me to catch these pscyho stalkers of ferikoy. i wish there is a near base station here or the antenna device so that resolution would be high whle prosecutors/polices captures these psychopath stalkers of ferikoy.maybe if ther eis cctv here, it also would work, like in this street. cause last night stalk happent.


they always shouted 'ork get over! serdar sleep!" (get over thinking havina  life cause you would be our sex slave like get over thing with constant stalk ).  a guy in outside shouted he has no honor and shouted ork get over! and also insulting words for me to stop investigating them. you would see psycho guy of ferikoy, you all would be captured by police here maniac psycho sociopath. he came street to shout get over, but this time not get over like "get over! serdar sleep!" type. it i get that this time it were like, get over investigating them. ok lets record the time and date: 25/12/2019, 15:53. lets record everytime these things happens. like creating labels/names and stalk. which happent for 4 years. now they are trying to sweep their crime under carpet with shouting a sentence. if these people are not having responsibility in this crime i confront, why would he come to shout my street. and in advance how this psycho knows my home address. you ferikoy psycho and his helpers all would be captured by the police for this psychopathy sociopathy acts. i gonna note down every  stalk incident with date time. and also construct a letter to prosecutors/police for asking their help  with high detail of things i confronted from these psychopath sociopaths (shoutings its shoutings but innocence stealing/degracing/all very maniac sociopath shoutings). (its not phsyical but shoutings) but they ca n catch these maniacs if i note the day time here since i think there might be antennas base stations so people wandering street might leave footpritn so that police could catch them for the stalk/sociopathy.

its super unnice to confront such form of sociopathy. i think the sociopath is neighbouor in next building cause they would shout such things.  and they i think hearing i were building a startup, they did everything of sociopathy whilst i lived there with such shouitngs of degracing every form of psychopath sociopath sentence, shoutings of 'sell!" shoutiings of "sleep!" (that which i misunderstood that there s a serdar named maniac whom tells people i would sleeo withh him (that as if i am such a maniac, telling me as such a maniac) but i lateer understand that they try to call me serdar these maniacs. as other 10 or more names. i do think confronting sociopathy is the worst thing in life. i figure out this is a jealous socioppath maniac lviing in next building of our building. its a constant effort of trying to destroy my life likke such acts. like trying to make me mentally ill with shoutongs. the socio hates me and tries to destroy my life constantly. i do think this like sociopathy things i read in internet, that a sociopath fixates a person and tries to destroy, i do confront same thing and its really super hard. creates me names labels and stalks even in Berlin in home street. is fixated to try to show me as a  bitch and shouts such things. and shouts sell! sleep! then last year tried to started making fun with "sold!".  i nhavea got a sociopath stalker from ferikoy that hates me super much and tries to destroy my life with such acts. its really hard. neighbour from hell. jealous maniac. psychopath sociopath neighbour. would constantly shout things like serdar, tan name he/she uses in stalk. or olga name and constant shoutings of names/labels. persists also here. shouts me label here also from street. a psycho of ferikoy that lives or lived (i dont know if lives there still) right next building to mine. tried to turn me a bitch with shouting sell. tried to make me mentally ill with using things names from my profiles and shouting such things. tried to show me as a bitch or alikke things. and consistently does such acts also in berlin from home street. a sociopath lady or a guy thats fixated to try to destroy my life. i do think sociopaths are the most dangerous type of mentally ill people.this psycho also articulates mafia likke people and they also shout sell like things. and then even if their all efforts failed this psycho neighbour, even if failed, last year they first, last 2 years, they first shouted "sell!" like things. then last year they started to make fun as "she sold!". they try to show me as a bitch. i think the sociopath might be the woman whom laughed out hard in starbucks in ankara in outside in incek. she is fixated to try tos how me as a bitch as a bad thingand constantly stalks constantly articulates mafia like people to disturb me with shouting "sell!" and they also constantly shout "ork! get over" (to think you could stand against this defamation or stalk). i think this woman is a predator sociopath and since i had an ugly nose i captured her attention.  and she tried to first make fun of me with shouting me ork. and fukara. ac, poor, etc. first it all started like that. and also serdar shoutings. psycho calls me serdar something i very lately understood. not only serdar, many other names, calls me. and even articulates bad people to try to turn me a bitch. i remember. in one incident  i went to park in ankara to walk. a very lux mercedes stopped 2 ladies went by and lady started shouting ork! oluk! af sina! i thought there were a sina named woman in that time. then i figured out they call me also sina. this happent whilst even i were talking with matthias. very llong before sina named shoutings started. maybe i think4 years ago. actually. yeah 4 years ago. or 4.2 year i dont know. i remember  i went to oba cafe to study. and i were talking on skype to matthias. then a woman on next desk shouted somethings using "sina" name a disturbing sentence. she were so loud that i remember that. then i continued talking with Matthias. it were very long ago. i think whats happening is either these people are a religious cult and try to destroy my life since their religion dislike we atheists? or its just a sociopathy situation of neighbour that tries to destroy guhu's life. cals her many labels/names and stalks her like this. i do think this is not a religious cult but just sociopathy of a rich neighbour whom could even articulate mafia to do whatever she or he wants that lives in next building. tried to turn me to a btich. when   i were building a startup, she would resemble, he would resemble them would shout bad things resembling my startup to bad things. whilst i were trying to create a recommender system anyway for SMBs something like shopify or alike.if you people think your life is hard, please read my last 4 years and be consent with your lives, you dont have a psycho socio neighbour thats fixated to try to destroy your life with even articulating mafia to stalk. these people hate me, they would resemble my startup in shoutings to very ugly things. they would love to make me depict me as a bitch or like in shoutings. and also they shouted "fukara!" in start or "ork!" since i had an ugly nose by then. i think i have got a predator sociopath that lives or lived in right next building. all started with ork and fukara shoutings. then it elevated ot shoutings of sell or serdar sleep. then in last year, it elevatted to making fun depicting me as a bitch or alike in cafes, and making fun as a"she sold!". this is the thing i lived through 4 years. i wish prosecutors would help me here to catch this predator sociopath person whom lives or lived in next building and visibly is a rich either a mafia or something. and articulates many people. tried to make me mentally ill this woman. i think this might be a woman. cause i do think, the person whom laughed out loud in startbucks might be this woman, she laughed out loud saying "she sold!". they for a year in outside shouted "sell!" then i never replied and just walked away with not caring the psychos. then later of that, they this time started making fun "she sold!" "bitch" "sleep!" . i do wonder i do wonder the level of sociopathy this thing. a sociopath that is fixated to make me a bitch shouts me sell, and sleep. and else. and makes fun as if i am such a person later shouting such things. this is a pure form of sociopathy. i wish prosecutors captures these people and they confront this crime act of trying to steal innocence of a person with such shoutings. the socio creates n many names labels and doesnt stop until i turn to a bitch or alike. so she also stalks me in berlin. or he. i dont know the root stalker. its just neigbour right next neighbour cause they would try to make me mentally ill with shouting things.anyway in stalk incidents a dark haired guy psycho guy shouted me hurrem. he in after i stopped blogging, he passed through street again with shouting hurrem or alike thing. ok somebody saave mef rom sociopathy psychopathy of these psycho peopleset from ferkoy please. they wont let guhu live a life whilst she is just an engineer, they try to turn her to a bitch with such shoutings. they were super jealous of my startup trial and would make fun of my startup degracing it with bad things. i have got a psychopath socio neighbour that lives or lived in next building. but the stalk labels names is not ended, still continues. the sociopath wont give up until i turn to a abithc. she tried to show me as a bithc with shouting me some things. and makes shouted also here.i feel as i am confronting some psycho as serial killers levle. cause she or he tries to kill my identity persistnelty for 4 years with shouting me degracing me in any possible way and tryign to show me as a bitch, making fun in cafe as if i am a bitch. and continues here in Berlin also. a predator sociopath i think this thing i confront is. she sensed i am weak due to my ugly look and due to my week look. and she applies her sociopathy in limitless ways for 4 years since she hadnt recevied any reply cause in the begining of sociopathy i had no idea what i were confrontting. i thought a serdar named maniac is stalking me. turns out she tries to call me as a serdar named bitch and shouts me sell/sleep. she creates labels names and does stalk constantly in cafes with those. i dont know if this thing i confronted is any ethnic cleansing? i dont think so cause i know my friends none of have ethnic biases. i mean since my mother side is Kurdish i wondered if this thing is such thing. but id ont think so becaussei lived very nicely in Turkey with no such thing and had many Kurdish friends and there is no not any separation from people. there is really not. so i dont think this is any such probability. then i also thought is it a psycho religious cult trying to destroy me since i am atheist or alevi rooted. this possibility still persists. since we know some maniacs tried to make alevi rooted people sex slaves in war zones and i be confrontde dsuch trying to make mentally ill and trying to turn me to a bitch in lowest form of occupation type whislt i am an engineer that works in serious projects. this probability still persists but i never seedn such thing happent to my other atheist friends. so this probability is low. i think, what happens is,just a sociopath neighbour situation. cause they started doing this whilst i were trying to build a startup. i think they are maniacs. and they were somehow jealous of me buildinga startup or else. andthey tried to destroy my life due to jealousy/sociopathy. they would shout things from other side of wall. with trying to show me asa a bitch. it wer every traumatic. i tried to be depicted as a bitch whilst i am actually an engineer tryign to buidld a startup. and they would for instance shout:in street "tom get horny" i thought i had a tom named stalker. i even suspected its a previous manager which has none relatedness to this actually. i later understood they take names from my recent workplace linkedin accounts, like searching whom else work there and use names like that. they shouted many man or woman names. i thought i had a tom named stalker. turned out the psycho treis to call me tom and tries to make me mentally ill. they would say things  like tom is prey. they would constantly stalk. they would shout "its tom" from next building. so i would shout back psycho stalker stop stalking me. i remember shouting endlessly so that my voice would go away. it were really hard. like i told to my family my tom named manager told me genius. right? i think they somehow someway learnt tom and genius words and would use in stalk. like shouting tom to me. whilst i get it as i have got a tom named stalker,and stalks me. very later i understood these people try  to call man and woman names to me and tom is such aname from the nameset they create. i wonder whom my mom tolld that my tom named manager told me i am a genius. cause they heard that somehow. and used in this stalk. cuase i rememebr, in street, one name other is tania, i thought there  is a tania named stalker, but i now i understand its just another name they use. they would shout "oluk! tania is genius!". its like as if my mom flattered me with saying my managers tells me genius, and theses people hate hearing that, and use such things in this stalk i confront. my mom always used to talk about lot about their children i ddnt liked that since she flattered us. and i think someone she told about us hated that, and tries to destroy  my life and lives in next building. and when i tell these, my parents behaved me as if i am ptsd. or i told to cousin and that also labeled me as ptsd and ddnt believed there is a maniac thats trying to destroy my life with trying to depict me as bitch or alike things and stalks me in multiple cities. my mom liked to praise us lot. like if ther eis any success they would talk that without thinking other side has such story to tell. and i think this thing i confront might be rooting from such a psycho neighbour whom my  mom praised us. cause i did confronted also "genius!".thats personal information that only my mom and us know that by that time that a manager thoguht i am genius (i am not any by the way) .  but i do think, what happens is, somewhere some neighbour mom talks to, she praised us. and we confront a kind fo socopathy from a sociopath neighbour that lives in next building. i dont remember mom had neighbour in next building. maybe its someone else but articulates the next buildign stalk.by the way tom named manager has nothing related to this stalk. its either neighbours heard tom name from my mom praising us or its they do create names from my recent workplaces to take names from there from linked in. i mean any of names are created as i observe and has none relatedness to names of people same name. i remember, i entered a cafe, and an old woman said "tom is prey'. ok these old womans tried to make guhu mentally ill and stalked with trying to make her a bitch whilst she is actually an engineer. and still happens. they creates labels/names/characters and stalk with that. ok i gonna write down every detail of these, and ask a prosecutor to help me to find these maniac sociopath ferikoy person whom tries to depict me as abithc whilst i am actually an engineer. they were super bad people. they would shout "sell!" "poor!" then they would in last year make fun as "she sold! ahahahhahah". (the laughing out woman). they would create labels names and use in stalk as i mention. and this destroying life of an engineer effort still continues. but i wish prosecutors would help me and this psycho of ferikoy gets caught. maybe pareents shoud never praise their kids in front of neighbours or other people(mom loved to do that both against relatives, she would talk about our successes and iddnt like that. cause the person you tell your kids successes might be a sociopath and would say prey to guhu and stalk her for 4 years with trying to depict her as a bitch whilst she is actually an engineer. ). (in the end it might be like: look that girl is creating a startup what are you doing thing like talk in a sociopath family and the other person might fixate to these acts due to such unnecessary praises of my cute mom. )(i mean its risky to talk about personal life in any domain, including parents i think should never talk success of their kids in front of strangers for as i observe, the stalker of mine mmight be rooting from that? or not maybe its not from that. and just a socio neighbour. i dont know. what happent and this sociopath neighbour fixted to try to make me depict as a bithc. hates me and also would disgrace my startup efforts with resesmbling  that to bad things.  i couldnt stand the psychopathy i went to sivas home in that summer and stayed 21 days then found a job in ankara since my money finished than i stopped startup. then but this trying to depict a sa bitch, such things persisted happent also in ankara. as i told all here. i have got a psycho sociopath stalker from ferikoy and wont give up trying to show me as a bitch.  i wonder its reason is because we were praised? and jealousy? or is it just predator neighbour which labels guhu as a weak person to attack with sociopathy? i dont know what the fuck is happening. but i confornt insourmantable amounts of psychopathy sociopathy for 4 years. would pass from street shoyting things resembling me to a bitch like thing. happent 30 minutes ago again. and would say i am powerful. bithc is powerful. like thing she siad. psycho sociopath predator labeled me asa powerful since all 4years of trying to depict me a sa abitch and trying to make me mentally ill hadnt worked and she shouted "bitch is powerful". i confront a real sociopath woman's stalk. its either her. or her friend which is guy? i dont know whom these peopleare. i just know there has been shoutings from next building and in cafes, and in street. and also here from street. so would note down everything and ask help from prosecutors to capture this psychopath sociopath who has sociopathy of levels of serial killers i think. is fixated to turn me to a bithc or like. and continues doing such acts also in Berlin. hates me sociopathically and tries to depict me as a bitch. ok, this life is sometimes super hard, but i am super glad internet exists, so that i feel not alone while confronting this hard time and i have a chan ce to report the stalk incidents and this thing whole. i am super glad that internet exists so i have a way to make my voice be heard whilst i am stalked by a psychopath sociopath from ferikoy whom is fixated to destroy my life with trying to show me as a bitch or like. i feel in truama little bit when stalk incidentt happens, then after blogging about it i feel relaxed, cuase the internet becomes my voice.  in dealing with this traumatic thing i confront of fixation of a psychopath sociopath from ferikoy whom is fixated to turn me to a bitch. creates names/labels etc aliases. i felt alittle bit truama then after i blog, since its like therpahy i felt relaxed. and  i would buy a moleskine and write down all these things in time ordered way. and would go to prosecutors in here. they last time asked me to open a legal case that a prosecutor would be assigned. but they told me nothing would happen sinc ei dont know whom is stalking me. then i said, if it wont create any output any help, lets not open any case. but i would rego and with a detailed ordered stalk incidents record of english and german and this time would request to ask help being assigned a prosecutor so that someone from justice systems helps me in dealing with this stalk of psycho from ferikoy. i would investigate all options to catch this sociopath stalker thats stalkingmme and trying to depict me a bitch and trying to destroy my life like that. i would open a legal case this time i go to police. police also said you could recome to open if you like. i in my first going to police, after hearing since i dont know the stalkers and since there is no pshycial assault against  me, the prosecutor cant do anything on legal case. but they also said, we dont either suggest or not suggest opening. then i said lets not open. but the police said he would talk to his director in detail and he might call me back. i said ok. the police were super helpful. ok things to do:  write down all these stalk incidents very ordered clear form of 4 years from this psycho ferikoy stalker and even translate it to German via google translate (which works good i think. i sentence by sentence once translated my resume there to German and works very good really) and would open a legal case and ask a help of prosecutor that deals with this case. yupp. everything gonna get better. yuppp. sometimes life is hard. and we have to be strong. but everything gonna get better. but as a suggestion to all pareents out there, never praise ytour kids around anyone, cause people might be sociopath and would try to destroy their lives with trying to show them as bitch for since you praised, adn since they got jealous of, i think this might be whats happenning to me. that mom praisesd me and i targeted to hatred due to that or it is not?. i dont know why a sociopath ferikoy person stalks me like this with trying super hard to depict me as a bitch and try to destroy my life like that. 

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. cause i think this thing i confront might be even rooting to such reason. or i dont think. i think its just a sociopath neighbour situation.  but the thing is its really disturbing. the psycho of ferikoy gets satisfaction of shouting me labels and trying to depict me like that. and even articulates people for that. and even uses mafia i think. cause people with scary voices stalked me shouting "sell!" i think they were mafia. so i do think sociopath people are super duper dangerous. even articulates mafia to stalk me and tries to show me as a bitch whilst i am actually an engineer. psycho of ferikoy.



i sometimes i felt as i got over trauma, but i think i didnt actually quite got over. i mean its lesser trauma for sure. than before. how i wish i find a prosectuor thats interesting to catch sociopathic poeple/criminal mindset of sociopathy. i have hope. i feel as sun would sun shine again. when this stalker of ferikoy is captured. seems as a rich man or woman from next building since articulates even mafia like people in stalk acts.
sun would shine again in blue skies:) the ferikoy stalker would be caught by prosecutors. yuppp.

sometimes i feel like i am over trauma and sometimes i feel i am inside. of course lesser level. but i am not fully over the trauma of confronting tried to be turn to a bitch events trauma. and stalk like that. and people making fun as if i am abitch and people shouting "sell!" shouting "sleep!" and then making fun "sold!". its really hard years. its really hard. even if its not any physical damage done but it created trauma. but i wish prosescutors helps this guhu and catches this psycho of ferikoy. a new mental illness form i think this is a very new in sociopathy cases, cause the psycho creates man and woman names and assigns to the stalk victim, and also labels. and stalks with n many names. i wish the prosecutors catch this sociopath from ferikoy and protect me from his her trying to destroy life fixation with sociopathy acts. psycho person from ferikoy:S

i listened edm music now and it remembered me when i went to party in ibiza:) i had no stalk problem those years:) i went ibiza and stayed 3 ddays and hired a car and traveled all coasts. there you can drop by any place and enter sea. there is no beach concept every wher eis beach. i couldnt managed to hire a boat or find friends in 3days to talk to. but even solo it were really nice. cause i likked those years edm music super much. vodka+edm music goes super fun. i think i might go again:) and repeat this opening party of ibiza thing. i hadnt gone to any party long years:) the dj were Bob Sinclair i think or maybe David Guetta. i like all these dj's compilations alot. and pasha club has quite nice sound system that its suepr fun to listen music there cause it were really very good sound system and awesome music.i think i dont like edm as i used to but i think that sound system is amazing an di would like to repeat hearing that boombastic sounds with a vodka in hand and dancing and the awesome songs, it were the best sound system i ever seen. i ddnt visited many places in life. so there mgiht be better sounds but it were closed place and sound were super nicely engineered and it wer eBob Sinclair or David Guetta, both's compilations are super awesome. but i think this time i would get a more lightweight luggage cause i used the cheapest airline ticket version and had to carry luggage in my hadn and had also math books inside that i wanted to read on plane:) or in beach. then the luggage carrying part were hard, other than that it were amazing.

ok guhu would go to opening party in ibiza again this year. its super fun. but i wish i found friends whom like edm music and would come with me. maybe future snowboarder friends would come who knows.in previouys workplace noone were interested to edm and people interested got mad at me since they had no time to arrange VISA so i went alone.


ok in 3d shop sector, like my failed startup, i could create VR shops thinking like shopify apps but in 3d for SMBs?yupp this thing came to my mind while i were resting with thinking life.
ok but there needs a game engine and i think developing game engine to hte game would creeate enable such platform also. and also i konw machine learning so would create personalization of product lists also via that. ok i might create a vr shopping world with real world  srtm data? yupp and shops in 3d / and trying to take also cty information if possible. hmm. i think i might turn the game to this? i knw machine learnig, i know game engine developmnet, ok, lets buy opengl book to code this.i lst time studied alot to shopping recommender lists and inpsected things there likke how netflix uses rbms to do personalization or how SVDs were the main utility for many years and how neighbourhood based algorithms are prefered now. i could utilize causalera's information in a new startup. yuppp. a 3d shopping app. i have sday sun information. i have world's SRTM data. i only need cities. and would add 3d shops to be visualized in 3d toolkits whether its  internet(webgl) or VR toolkits. yupp. 3d commerce. new startup idea. causalera failed but its study notes about recommender systems would be utilized in this new startup idea:)\

ok we wanna be entrepreneurs or entrepreneurs, life sometimes gets hard but we are strong people. i dont think there is any other entrepreneur in world that haas been tried to be turned to abitch with sell/sleep shoutings. ok i confronted worst thing of life a sociopath's from ferikoy's targeting. but i do think i am also an amazing person even whose sail doesnt fail even in worst storms like a sociopath stalker thats fixated to destroy guhu's life for 4 years.
my dad's companies were all named yelken. its their village's name. and it had logo of their company were a ship a sailboat.:)

and as said would go to prosecutor to ccatch this psycho sociopath. calls me labels names psychopath sociopath and passes through street. mmy first startup were  trying to build a shopify like thing. and whilst i am reading world bank reports, coding machnile learning, these psychopaths fixated in creating names labels to me and it still happens. sociopath calls me label and stalks me with that. happent recently again. i mean while i learn machine learning, these psychopaths try to focus my attention to their curses maniac words to their ssociopathic sentences. this is definitely unfair. not every woman confronts fair share of life opportunity. i confront a sociopaths names/labels to me. this is unfair. but i am strong. he assigns a labels to me. thats not even in my communication range.my communication range is algorithms life love traveling happienss some type of sports etc. and a psychopath sociopath fixates in destroying my life with creating labels names to me and passing my street with shouting such things. this is deintiely unfair. i confront a stalk thats not even in my comunication range. its super hard to be targeted by a psychopath sociopath stalker from ferikoy. one label he calls is "aga". before they shotuoed  someone else "aga". cause i remember in one stalk incident htey shouted "aga" is in meccah. i never been in meccah. then i think this among names/labels creation, aga is another label from this psycho. i thinkits most possibly a guy. cause passed street recently with similar sociopathy act.   like "kav" label, this label is also shouted. he calls me "aga". psychopath sociopath. i wish there is any justice in this world and this psychopath stalker gets captured by the prosecutors.he tries to call me a"aga" label. what the fck "aga" means?  like 10 or more names he creates this psychopath. a brand new label. i confront this for 4 years. its definitely unfair. not every woman in world live in fair conditions. anyway, i would go to prosecutors and ask their help to capture and interrogate this psychopath.so this is the new way to deal with woman when people hate woman, do they shout labels names to them to destroy their life? psycho shouted me "aga". "aga" name is one thing i heard long alot in stalk incidents. i wish prosecutors capture this psychopath sociopath guy from ferikoy. i wish super bad.
what is wrong with this maniac's brain to think i would be interested to be a bitch? i am interested to learn machine learning maths and stuff like traveling. but he psycho sociopath calls me labels names tries to depict me as a bitch. what is wrong with this guy? why does he thinks an engineer would be any itnerested to be a bitch? maniac psychopath!   i like things like being happy, partying in ibiza, doing engineering. whyt the fuck this psychopath calls me labels names and tries to show me as a  bitch or like thing? what is wrong with this maniac's brain? i mean why would i be interested to such being bitch things? i am an engineer who has had a fun life of going to ibiza, learning maths, learning ml, doing hobby projects, and working as engineer in work time. and then a psychopath sociopath fixates and shouts creates labels names and do stalk like that for 4 years. wtf? why this psycho thinks i would be interested to things he says? why would i? i mean the lack of rationality in this sociopath guy's brrain is really shocking levels. cause i mean why would i be interested to be any bitch? i am an engineer psychopath sociopath from ferikoy. i mean what is wrong with this psycho's brain to think i would be interested to be any time any bitch? he creates names labels and shouts. from street. ok. this thing would be solved by help of prosecutors. this psycho sociopath would be captured.the psychos shouts sell! sleep! whilst i try to build a starup with ml etc. what is wrong with these psychos? why would they thing an engineer lady from one best university in turkey would be interested to be a bitch ? what is wrong with these people? things i confront are not any in my commuinication range nor my life style. my life were before stalk, all about traveling, learning building things and i also liked partying.  then after stalk, whilst i am trying to build a sociopath, this psycho shouts things that are not in my commumnicatoon range nor life style any. cause i am an engineer a bright engineer from metu. and the psycho plersistently creates names labels and shouts in stalk for 4 years. shouts sell! shouts sleep! then after 1 year of shouting such thigns, makes fun "sold her self! " then creates labels names etc. why this psychopath thinks such activities i am any interested? why would i be ever interested to be a bitch or alike? why? i mean why this psycho expects such things from guhu? and stalks her with such shoutings. i am interested to do engineering, coding, learning, traveling, partying things. not any bad things like being bitch or such. why this feerikoy psycho sociopath creates names labels and shouts sleep sell like things for 4 years? this is puree sociopathy psychopathy and  definitely unfair. life is unfair. i just cant understand this sociopath's brains' working way that he thinks i would be interested to be a bitch and he shouts sell ur self! sleep! labels namess for 4 years constantly. what is wrong with this psychopath sociopath for thinking an engineer would be interested to such stuff he shouts? i mean this is super levels of irrationality. i figure out criminal people's minds works irrational. i do think this guy from ferikoy hasa criminal mindset and i think this irrationality of criminal mind set is really shocking level. ok i think i would note down all stalk incidents and i wish my future prosecutor helps capturing this criminal mindset sociopath stalker from ferikoy soon.tthis is defamation thing. happening for 4 years. confronting such thing for 4 years from a psycho sociopath from ferikoy. and i wish i could fastly find prosecutors. to capture this psychopath from ferkouy whom is fixated to destroy my life with cocnstant pasasing through my street with shouting thigns with defamation acts. this guy is really fixated to guhu visibly. to do sociopathy acts. ok lets fix this. i am an atheist. but i still scare of defamation acts of sunni religion cults which stole innocence of alevi rooteds as we observed in recent history. i do confront similar things. so i do scare this is some kind of religion based? i dont think so, i do think this is sociopathy. not any religious cult or such thing. in our country's history, some alevi rooteds were stolen away from their innocne by defamation. and i confront a maniac sociopath that tries to do defamation creates names labels aliases to me. so i have tiny probability on probailities desk that this is a sunni cult that targets alevi rooteds to do defamation? i dont know. but i constantly conftont psychopathy sociopathy. and names labels shoutings from street.  for 4 years.they are alike executing a theathre. they create characters names and shouts things with that character names. and there has i observed 10 or alike names. in stalk incidents. its all about defamation. shouitngs its all about defamation. psycho selects names and labesl and shouts such things. for 4 years. ok. i wish prosecutors would help dealing with this sociopath psychopath's stalk like this for 4 years. i understand aga is another label. i first thought aga is smmeone else. they shouted aga is gay. they one shouted "aga is in meccah". i were stalked iwth alot aga shoutuings so i said, ok there is an aga whoms talks guhu that is in meccah now. then in further years, i now see that they also try to call aga to guhu:S like kav label. ok this is pure form of defamation. i confront a theathre play. of names/labels creation and shouted. not any pshycial stalk. but constant shouting with creating names labels. its all shouoting based. the psycho sociopath creates names labels and shouts in outside. in stalk in cafes similarly theathre play. sits in beside desk and uses n many names from 10 or alike names that are created by the theathre's scenario writer the psycho from ferikoy. and is fixxated to do this repeatedly.  like here also continues. shouts aga label. shouts kav label. shouts ork. i confront defamation for 4 years from a sociopath in ferikoy. i do think there is tiny possibility that these people aree a cult of sunni religoon cause, i saw in recent history of Turkey that, people's innocence were stolen with theathre plays. and then their innocence were boldly visibly and granted back. i do confront defamation from this ferikoy socio for 4 years. so i think this guy is either a sociopath or is froma religious cult that targets alevi rooteds. i would fnd a prosecutor and make this sociopath of feirkoy be caught with reporting stalk incident times. so that justice happens soon.ok anyway if this socio is froma rreligous cult and motive for doing such sociopathy against me is that,  then it would be visible when the police prosecutors interrogate him.  everything gnna get visible when this psycho sociopath gets interrogated by justice systems of here. i gonna go to police again. but this time with detailed written record of stalk i confront. cause when you are talking you forgot, or due to language barriers at times, topic is lost. i would write an english, turkish, and a german version of stalk i confront and reego to police. to cath this sociopath stalker from ferikoy. and whether he is from a psycho religious cult or not would be visible when he gots interrogated. yuppp. i mean motive of his sociopathy would be visible upon that time. i wonder his motive. in doing this. is it pure sociopathy & psychopathy? or is it are they a mini psycho religious cult targeting alevi rooteds? we would see learn when the psycho is catched and interrogated by police. i would continue reporting this things here and its results etc.

i dont think its any ethnic cleansing op. its something long before such crimes i think humanity did stepped further against being maniacs about ethinicity.whish is the worst thing.
but i do think same is not similar in religion topic. people still do crazy things for religions like psycho relgiious cults.  or its just dumb sociopathy. i dont know what the fck i confront. i confront shouting based theather for 4 years. they disgrace my startup, they call me bitch, hole ork or else, they create names and labels. like kav. and a theathre gots played. llike some people shouts "sell ur self!" "sleep!" then they make fun later "she slept! she sold!" constant such acts i confront a constant theathre of nonexisting acts but constant a theeathre be played. with shoutings. i confront a theathre where these maniacs assigns me names labels and shout such things. i last year dddnt go out scaring from confrontingt these maniac people's such sociopathy. 10 or such much names i heard in stalk incidents.i wathc a theathre be played from maniacs fixated in destroying my life with even creating theathres. i am over trauma of it. and the motive of these maniacs would be visible when the prosecutors of here interrogates them. i do inspect whether its a religious motive (since i saw in news before recent history alevi rooted people's innocence were stolen with theathres then that were regained but a long time passed) or is it just dumb sociopathy reason? that the guy is a sociopath fixated in destroying my life with even creating theatre of names/labels etc and a constant stalk like that? anyway everything would be visible when the police captures this psycho and interrogates him. yupp we would learn his motive in doign these. either he is a super dumb sociopath that fixates in destroying peoples life with theathers with shouting from street or he has sme agenda of destroying life of alevi rooteds since he is from a sunni cult? we dont know his motive. police and prosescutors would learn. yuppp. or its related to kuma shoutings. a psycho aga from ferikoy fixated to make me a kuma? and since he cant get reply he tries to destroy my life like this calling me aga while he is an aga? wtf?:S and today "hurrem" word were again used. maybe this psycho ferikoy guy has a harem of woman and i remember a dark haired guy shotuing she would have been my hurrem in street in ferikoy. and today in stalk incident hurrem word also be said/shouted. so everything is possible in motives of this theathre i confront. its either an eastern aga trying to mess with my life with sociopathy, its either a dumb sociopath from ferikoy, or its a psycho religiouys cult thats targeting to destroy life of alevi's with theathres? we wuold learn these people's motive when the police interrogates them.






this song makes me in to tears thinking if we ar elike unlucky children whom never get good chances of education, in my engineering life, i been made felt like this since a sociopath stalker doesnt let me live my life creating names labels to me :S

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cxDIlqQWPQA


its likke i am a kardelen but people try to throw me from my grounds and trying and ddoing everything for me not to bloom. this song made me tears as i confronted a psychopathy sociopatyh for whatver motive it is in life.

i always had a lucky life where my parents are powerful and suppoprting me. but in adult life i felt like children whom couldnt find education chances like this song. i am not let to live my life as a woman. a psycho sociopath stalks me and constantly stalks me.
i lived my life honestly. i earn every dime of my money with coding. it just feels as i am not let to live my life last 4 years due tp a psychopath targeinng me for stalk sociopathy:S
i were like a person who lives life traveling, coding engineering and liking partying also (like going to ibiza once since i like EDM).  then this psycho started shouoting me ork and bitch and all like things. and constantly i found myself fighting against a theathre in which the sociopath centers my character as a bitch and constant stalks with shouting sell! sleep! and constantly shouts ork! oluk! fukara! .and i observe theathers happening. it has been quite theatrical 4 years i observe.  a psycho tries to turn me to a bitch. a psycho from ferikoy. makes fun of as if i sell myself. shouts me ork sinc ei am ugly. stalks me every cafe i go.

ii just feel like children in this song whom cant find education chances in life. i feel like that in adult life. being a person full of energy to learn, things to build but i do deal with stalk of a ferikoy sociopath who is fixated to make me a bitch. this makes me have tears when i listen this song. cause i am not let to live my life last 4 years. i constantly find myself running away from stalk or entering to trauma due to stalk. normally i were a person who liked traveling and constaant learning. like i also took my math book to ibiza to read in plane. i mean i had a fun life. and last 4 years a psycho tries to a dark haired psycho calls me hurrem, tries to make me a bitch, shouts theatre in street, and makes fun as if i sell myselff, constantly constalnyt ocnfrintng this for 4years. its really has been a super hard life last 4 years.a spcyho from ferkoy. i remember seeing that hurrem saying guy. he has blunt dark hair and is brown skinned. and shouted in one incident "she were going to be my hurrem" and i confront various types of sociopathy psychopathy and hurrem word were told in street stalk also today. i dont know if these people are doing this for psycho religious reasons or is it just psychopathy sociopathy? but i confront myself in unnecessary fighting running away from stalk whiwlst my age group travels be happy i live in trauma for 4 years only because a psycho from ferikoy stalks me. he tries to make me a bitch. he creates theathres as if i am a bitch. i confront theathres last 4 years from this psycho of ferikoy constantly. luckily i am in lesser trauma now. as told i would go with notes of all this stalk i confront from this psycho of ferikoy to the police again but this time with written in 3 langauges so that the director also reads. and i would open a case to get help of a prosecutor in dealing with these maniac psychopaths from ferikoy a psycho guy that looks super illiterate. that has dark hair. etc. creates prepares names to me in stalk, like tania like olga like hande. and stalks with such theathres. its been super hard 4 years. a psychopath a sociopath with such acts tries to turn me to a bitch like this with such acts for 4 years. a dark haired psycho from ferikoy. i confront super scary theathres. they create many many names. also man names. and also try to make mentally ill as i observed. and constant curses constant stalk constant trying to depict showcase as bitch. constantly. for 4 years.

i know life is gonna get better. its already better than before. i gonna go to moundtainside snowboard learning thingy. and alsoi would find snowboarder friends and we would snowboard in patagoine in summer and we would go to camping there. and also i would write down notes of the stalk clearly and go to open a legal case and find a prosecutor. to catch this  psycho sociopath stalker guy from ferikoy.
i know things gonna get better. but i see observe my life has been super hard last 4 years. so psychopathy/slociopathy things are really super dangerous things. as i get targeted by a psycho from ferikoy to be turned to be a bitch and theathres where he assigns me names and stalks and shoutings, with names/labels, i just think psycho people are super dangerous people. cause confronting such thing were super hard.

aha also we would go to ibiza to partying with my future snowboarding friends yupp. for happy future plans of guhu. life gonna get better. prosecutors police would catch this psycho from ferikoy and he wont be let to do psychopathy sociopathy acts against guhu. yuppp. guhu has happy future plans like her happy life 4 years ago where she planned attending parties/traveling with trains etc.

bby the way, 30 min ago one of the psychos of ferikoy entered a car. she laughed out loud with "aha did she sold!" narratives and laughed out alot. then i figure out this lady is one script writer in the theathre i confront, they laughed out loud and entered a car. she showed she is the author of these scripts i confront.  she laughed out and showed repeating aha thats a lie but i created this kind of saying and laughed out loud.  ok she also used a name she steals from my blog. ok one of the script writers showed them in 20 minutes ago. she laughed out alot. she is hanging around beside my home. ok definite stalk. and the painful words that hurted me, she said in such ways that aha its a lie but i created this lie and laughed out loud kind of thing happent. ok one script writer of the theathre showed her self 20 minutes or 30 minutes ago. the scary part is these maniacs hang around my house:S ok i have got maniac stalkers and creates sociopathy and they make fun of creating sociopathy and this happent 30 minutes ago. but the scary creepy part is, this socio hang arounds my house:SSSS guhu scares:S


ok that were the only one theathre i confronted. i wonder if other theathres are written by her or other people? they went on a car. i dont know where they came. i scare they rented a flat in place i live. but no stalk happent in place i live in housing. so they must have parked their car to front of my home. one of the torture with stalk and sociopathy authors i figure out is a lady. and she showed herself with kind of showing her signature kind of act she did.like you know,  killers come to place in movies of murder, this woman came to front of my house and showed her signature of stalk and laughed out loud. so she is also the authoer of sina named character? ok one sociopath stalker showed herself.30 minutes ago.she laughed out super hard. and entered a car and they went away. so i had a chance to learn that the "sold!" and laughings root from this lady this sociopath. she said such thing with its a lie i dont know such thing mood but definitely showing her signature that she actually creates that sociopathy. and laughed out super hard.
ok i scare since this sociopath hangs around beside my home. i dont know what else sociopathy she plans:S i wonder what kind of characters theathres names i would confront. she is definitely not done with this sociopathy since she hangs around my home. and i do find this super creepy.
   all the trauma i confronted is created by this laughing woman cause she laughed out super hard with aa is such lie exists? no its a lie like way of told that. and laughed out loud. she shown her self. the sociopath. she shown her signature that she is doing this. maybe not all of them. but i had a chance to get know that its a lady that devises scripts of theathres  i confront. and its super creepy in the sense she is not done with me still(i scare she plans more sociopathy). she hangs around my home. its super scary and creepy to me. she laughed out super hard. whilst showing ehr signature that she is the author of this sociopathy theathree i confront.i am super scared cause this sociopath hangs around my home.
ok what to do in life when stalked by a sociopath:S ok going to police i did once but would do twice. with this time notes of details of stalk i confront.
i do think i would fastly build a startup and build a castle so that this sociopath cant stalk me. 

in during painful 4 years of stalk i confront, i alwys tried to fastly build startups based on this idea. buying some place some land and creating a castle so that the sociopath cant stalk me.

its really super unlucky situation i think. i have got a real sociopath stalker and she even hangs around my home even in Berlin. this is super disturbing.

ok i think the only soution is building a starutp than building a castle. and having ditches filled with water around castle.

 she finds doing sociopathy very funny. ok.

i think i should fastly build a startup then build a castle with alligators in ditch or creating tornadoes around my home that i would learn to code so the sociopath cant come to around my home.ko tornadoes couldnt be most possily controlled like that. but some kind of protection for sure there would be.


i hated being in survival mood due to stalk. due to scaring of stalk sociopathy. but these incidents again put me to survival mode ( and initiated goals for to build a castle with a startup) and i think i am coding till morning whatever startup possible today.  wont sleep. and code yupp. for my castle. for protection from sociopath lady. :S



i never went to any holiday in survival mode. (Except belgrade). but due to this incident, i am back in survival mode. the sociopath hangs around my house. only survival depends on building a castle i dont find any other way when i have a sociopath stalking me.
i were in survival mode. everyholiday i would code anything to build a startup.  i wouldnt go to holidays or anything. every free tiem were spent to startup tpics whatever startup is possible. but there also happent tukenmislik syndrome i dont know its english so i wrnt any fast in coding any startup either.
by the way, how fun it would be to have a house thats protected by controlled tornadoes:) i liked this idea:) house of tornadoes. future house name. if i learn thermodynamics. 


  to feel not impacted by stalk if she cames aroud my flat for sociopathy again, i opent metal music. and today planning the new startup time. the ecommerce app for 3d versions. 3d spotify 3d shopify for SMBs.for webgl and webvr and vr sdks.

i do think people might already do this. but i could be the 4th or 5th one doing why not.

it feels asa not complex startup topic so easy to code a demo with webgl. yupp. already starting. then apply to funding firms and then when it creates capital i am for sure buying a big land some where and create  ahome that has ditch around it. or protecting robots i dont know some kind of strong security measure against this socio lady whom turned my life unlivable with sociopathy acts for 4 years and she hangs around in my home 45 minute ago. ok. for sure securing robots if  they could be rented are gonna be employed. better than ditches. should follow newer trends in security.
though i dont think security robots exist. if they exist i would buy around my future home.

ok back in survival mode. ok having a socio stalker is worst thing in life but is also a  battery to init startups to build castles to protect self from maniac stalker.

life is super unlucky when being targeted by a psycho from ferikoy. anyway.
but survival skills guhu has but i hated being in survival mode and thought i could relax little bit and the sociopath ferkoy stalker came around to berlin house also. ok at least felt little bit time relaxed. but back in survival mode (to build a castle to live so that socio ferikoy person cant stalk me). what kind of a maniac this lady is. she also came to berlin home's street. what is problem with these maniac people. i infer i must be giving somekind of satisfaction to this psycho when i scare. cause i mean what is this? i mean why does she always come to my house's surrounding.what kind of maniacs stalk people in their home's surrounding:S today she shown she is the author with saying some sentence and meaning its a lie and  laughing out super loud also beside. the sina creator. sina name creator. visibly. or maybe all character names all stalk is her thing. possible. ok, back in survival mode. sociopath came to home's street and as if showing that she is the author (as i asked whom is doing this here, i think she reads here visibly)  of this theathre this stalk i confront. she said such a sentence meaning its a lie she crafts and laughed out loud.ok guhu back in survival mode. yayy destination? not unknown:) destination is building my castle:)and buying security robots also:)

talked with brother in canada. he didnt super liked my startup idea thinking it doesnt solve an imminent problem in ecommerce. right. but i still like to do it cause this guhu is expert of recommendation thingies (she might have to remember) and making in 3d for whatever purpose even if not solving people's problem seemed as an easy and fast thing to do. game would take more. lets build something lesser art, something more infrastructural,  something faster, cause survival mode is back. there no shopify thats 3d yet, so lets have it. why not. maybe there is. i hadnt investigated. would be on webgl and webvr and on tv platforms also. for phones maybe, a different version. i know idea is not as told is not solving a problem of people. bubt seems nice to do. since i can do it faster than game. if its game, i cant code it faster cause to me its like an art project that i cant give any bounds of time for any subtask of it. but when its ecommerce projects, its a normal project not focusing such that much effort fixation to getting loskt in building in its parts super detailed ways likke game project.in ecommerce project sky would be just skydome. not any game targets are set. so would be quite faster to develop mvp.  


yepp brother is also in a mvp or research project proposal but much more complex than mine. his target sector is not commercial. a research project it is.


me mine is commercial sector.

ok lets fix triangulation problems and have geoid back to life. and for coloring of sky, hmm would initially add a sky dome or alike. how nice it would be if we have also shops in different planets and people on amazon/alibaba could create their vr shops also in this universe? a more 3d shopping center. than current 3d shops e.g. when you buy a camera you could see it 3d with exact size. (in VR mode). i g uess people do already build such products now? but it would be another such product then. and the worlds that shops exist might change. and shops could have vr shops that has separate campaigns than usual shops? so would compannies be interested to open shops in this shopping place?  if its free for them why not? and actually not free: if we take commission from every transaction just a little bit like shopify like places does, would people be interested to create 3d shops there. might be possible.

ok metal music has been my protector against stalker. constant music from nowon. cause the psycho constantly hangs around home which is super disturbing. maniac sociopath. i thought this sociopath would stop stalking me if i change city but it never fixes and likes stalking me and i figure out creating a castle is the only solution to feel safe when there is such maniac stalker lady stalking.



guhu back in ecommerce businesses:P
causalera name is not any good any short. it should be something like yahoo or alike. something not that syllables as causalera.
ok  and since i confront how life could be hard, i also beside working to create a castle, i also would like to work for humanity liketrying to enhance economy of developing regions. and for sure i would if i create super income, would create safe house like things for stalked people by psychopaths sociopaths. causse i figure out changing city never solves the stalk problem when a sociopath is stalking. visibly she gets some satisfaction from her sociopathy acts and comes gto even Berlin to do again. ok, i do think if i have lots of capital, i would create safe houses for people in trauma due to confronting stalk.  houses protected by robots in outside so that people inside would feel safe.  and it would be singular homes. cause if multiple count of people could live there, there is chance that stalker and stalked goes to same residency so for sure it would be just single homes and be protected super much. for people confronting stalk trauma by sociopaths. ok. my sociopath stalker is from ferikoy. it might be even very artistic homes in forests. but all would be protected with a sphere of protection by robots. so the insider would feel no trauma of confronting constant stalk of socio as i do had felt via this socio lady's stalk. i am always interested to architecture topic. would might be minimal houses built in. but not super expensive ways. but very safe they should be. and there should be enough robots around home to create the region of safety. robots would be super expensive. dont know how to make them lesser costly. i do think security robots must be very priceful. maybe another protection mechanism would be put in to practise. dont know. buit the overall goal is making the person in trauma due to a stalker feel safe feel out of trauma.






ok this might advance to housing for homeless people also. yupp. architecture is fun. why not.  (they wont have that much security around house like stalk free house cause stalk free house is a different concept than normal houses) .anyway its further goals. first focus on this ecommerce project first.
 i think ecommerce is fun because ther eis a lot money in it:P  i mean its always an interesting area to build project :D since easy money it is.


ok cloth dynamics, coud we project a cloth to person's bbody  type tto give an appearance on how it woul dlook. possible i think. its cloth dynamics i infer is like thermodynamics project and chapel might work in there and some analysis on that topic whihc seemed fun since there is  chapel n it. but if users cou;dl try things they might want to spend time there jut only to try things with vr kits.  since they spend no energy and create an outfit that is aligned with their body shape.



a woan shouted guher is gay from outside. i am nt any gay.

andlast day also ada name passed. the ada name were used super much in shoutings from next building. the stalker would use a.a nae alot. must be a name the socio assigned to me as i understand now like all 10 or like names. some man names some woman names. they would shout htings with a.a name and also using names i write in public profile blogs 4 years ago. for instance i am fan of a person right, they would use that name as alias and use that name in their theathres they create and they would try to make me mentally ill. they would create theathres using info from my profiles/public pages. in cafes they would sit beside my desk and to take my attention they would use aliases with names they take from my blog.  they would create 10 or alike names. alieases and create theathres. and try to make me mentally ill and get satisfaction from the theathres they create and constant stalk happent outside. i remember the guy shouted a.a is oluk. and curses. i now thinking oluk curse alot, i now understand a.a wree another name they use in theathres. they would do this and stalk me from next building, in cafes. and they visibly get much fun of it they created other names like tania and they would shout curses etc. and they really get alot satisfaction from this theathre act that they extended it very bad. but i do think these people and the hurrem calling dark haired guy are separate. i think i had 2 stalkeer neighbours. one is this theathre likking peeople and making fun of people with creeating theathres of names. and stalking with that. and other is this hurrem shouting dark haired guy. he passed in street yesterday shouting hurrem again. ok one psycho maniac dark haired guy whom tries to makes me hurrem (maybe he is behind that bitch theathre stalk) and the theathre of names from psycho neighbour whom creates n many names and use that to make mentally ill. and visibly gets satisfaction from that cause does it many years. the freaks building i would call this place i think. that 4 years ago place. the sociopath stalker lady last night showed that she is the script writer last night. she went on a car and went so she is hanging around my house visibly. she laughed out loud saying an alias she creates and laughed out loud with proud of her seed lies. and went on a  car. she hangs around my house:S she said meant its a lie she creates and laugh out loud. its like killers coming to place where murder happens. this sociopath wanted to show herself. and laughed out loud whilst doing that.freaks building! and but scaries thing were serdar character. a serdar stalked me alot. i thought like that. i understand its a character from theather. they would shout serdar sleep!. ok maniacs freaks building. freak people.these people get satisfaction from creating characters and articularing things and stalking peson with the theathree of names they create. freaks. a sociopath freak and her helpers.  i been depicted as a bitch. i remember people shouting curses to a tania name and then saying tani is genius than saying tania is oluk. freaks. definite freaks. n many names:S and the scripts writer passed down my street last night. ok anyway. i figure out in life there are various types of crazy people. one is sociopaths. one should for a life thats secure should have castle. and for other people also, we should build castle for people impactedd by sociopath people's stalk. in future, i would build many houses safe houses to peole who are stalked by sociopaths or people who try to turn woman to bitcches. there would be houses protected by robots.  for all people stalked for psycho purposes.

ok i opent my metal music. in case socio lady hangss around my home i would be safe from her stalk. to feel out of trauma, i need to open constant music cause i cant predict when this sociopath predator lady would come street. so metal music or music that disables sound from outside is the protector. it were super hard to be stalked by a sociopath predator lady with resources whom even articulates people in her stalk and could stalk me in many cities. there are predator sociopaths outside. and we should build safe houses to people targeted by them. even this requirement is missedd by current civilization/societies (i observed people dont care that much stalked people topic) i wuold when i have things would build such places alot. for this need of civilizations/societies. cause there is really predator sociopaths and thye could do creepy things to the target they stalk like theathres. the civilizations all miss the requirements of safe houses for people impacted by socio psycho predators.  noone really cares that much i think these things this requirement of society. i would in future create safe nohuses to woman who are tried to be turned to be a bitch with stalk that is protected by killer robots. or similarly that are stalked by sociopaths like that socio lady who parked her car in front of my home and walked out and showed she is the sccript writer with laughing out a sentence and some word very used and laughed out very hard and as killers come to murder places, she wanted to show that she is the socio of theathres and wanted to show her signature. tecnology will replace the society's lack of protecting people from sociopaths things. goals creating safe houses for woman that are constantly tried to be turned a bitch or a hurrem of a psychopath dark haired or a victim of a sociopath predator lady whom creates theathres. and laughes out with lies. and these people even use mafia in such acts. not kidding. really. they make the victim stalked by mafia even. they create characters andd even articulate mafia in that. and i remember mafia like people shouting me sell for a long time. then also i remember sleep shoutings. then i remember these rich maniacs in cafe shouting me "she slept!" like things and laughing out loud.  they create theathres and articulate that these rich maniac stalker lady. then last night she shown herself and showed she is the author. cause i ask here whom is doing these. she shown her signature last night. a sociopath preedator lady is stalking me. and everytime she creates theathres when she shows her self, she laughs out loud alot. for her crafts. then also a psycho dark haired guy stalks me to make me a hurrem. ok that building i think is a freaks place.  i would write all the stalk details very clearly and go to police again. in my fun snow holiday in nights i would do thiis. because this sociopath needs to be stopped cause i might be the only victim. i wish police/prosecutors catches this sociopath and her helpers. a socio type that tries to make the stalked victim mentally ill with creating theathres. and laughing out loud to such theathre creations. i think in sociopaths we could create a such category. ok would go to police again. this sociopath needs to be catched by police and also interrogated.  i dont think i am nor would be the only victim. ths socio lady needs to be cathced and interrogated by police. cause the things i confronted were like what very bad movie characters does.  confronting sociopathy were the scariest thing i ever seen in my life.  i dont exactly movie character which louds out laugh when doing super bad things. this lady resembles that for real. she does create theatres and get satisfaction from that and laughes out super loud in that act.people told sometimes genius people are fixated byb people and stalked like hell. i am not genius but might be confused and this happens due to that? i dont know but a lady thats creepy as very bad movie characters targets me for 4 years. it might be all my mom's fault if she praised us unnecessarily in neighbourhood and this socio targeted me due to that? i dont know. anyway would go to police. though my mom never told me any genius cause i ama really not any genius. maybe she said people think like that at times (confuse like that, i am not. i never been anygenius in any field ever in my life). i just know she likes to praise alot when childs succeed something. and i think parents shouldnt do that because there might be jealous maniacs out there. i think this thing i confront might be such thing or not. i dont know. i am confronting sociopathy of a socio predator lady but dont know her motive. she is fixated to stalk and do create theathres and laugh out loud to heer theathres also. i think her psychopathy  sociopathy level matches with such level of killer people. that day 1 year ago or 0.7 year ago, you should see her laughs. she is like that bad character from movies whom laughes whilst doing crime. i dont remember exactly the charcater. i think she were kind of jealoys of me(maybe mom's praisals might be root cause) and tried to make me a bitch with destroying my life like that. making fun of my starrtup wtih resembling to bad things. there were visible jealousy. she tried to create theathres with ggiving me names labels and constantly does. like saying "you cant be any business builder! you are just a poor bitch!". when i blogged of my startup, they would make fun of me resembling bitch like things.  and she created many many theathres and many names. and even visibly hired mafia to stalk me in that. and tried to destroy my mental health with constant stqalk from next building also.  i dont know her motive. but i confronted such a criminal level psycho's stalk.she always laughes when she shows herself in stalk.i would note down everything i confronted from and go to police again and i wish prosecutors and police catches this psychopath and interrogaates her. cause i might not be only target of her sociopathy/jealousy.they would make fun of my business effort of causalera startup creation to bad things. jealous sociopath lady and her psycho friends. they would when i tried to build a business, they would try to resemble me a bitch and my business would be bitch like acts. i think maybe really jealousy is the root of this sociopathy i confronted.they would always try to disgrace me, make me mentally ill and also disgrace my business effort that time. and reesembling my business building with making fun of as if its a bithc business my startup as if i am a bitch and i would do bitch things. they did these for 4 years. she even hired mafia to stalk me whom shouts me "sell!" "sleep!". it wer every creepy to observe theathres she crafts. a sociopath rich woman. and laughes out loud to her acts also. she also stalks me in berlin. i gonna go to police again and tell all these thiings in very clear form to the police. because i dont think i am the only victim of this psychopath sociopath stalker's sociopathy acts. she looks has having lots of resources.
ok i wish mom hadnt had praised me in outside alot:S  she took my business building as i dont know something sociopathic view she had and tried to tunr me a bitch with meaing oh poor! you could be only be a bitch! these people also shoouted many times fukara and made laugh like that. real maniacs. i confronted constant fixation and stalk like that. i would rego to police and befor egoing would note down all things clearly before in english and german, cause i dont any think i am the only victim of this psycho stalker lady. she needs to get mental hospital treatment i think. or something like that. to win over her sociopathic levle of jealousy which i see think that is the motive of doing sociopathic acts against others. i been allegedly tried to be turned to be a bitch and my mental health were tried to be stolen in ways i told. i confronted such sociopathy level i cant define levels of. i wish police and prosecutors catches this maniac and her helpers. a psycho from next building. a type of worst thing type that could happen in life:S i dont know if she still lives there. but i confronted a true form of really hard time due to her messing from next building. and also in cafes. constant theathres. when i go to cinema. when i am in cafes. 10 or alike names count. and recent years also labels as i see. it were like, when i blogged about my startup, the psycho neighbour would shout ork! you could be only bitch type of sentences. they tried to turn me a bitch allegedly. i think the motive of these looks as jealousy. or its a psycho religious cult i dont know. but it were like this. i been allegedly tried tobe made mentally ill, and alsways disgracingg for when i blogged of my startup i were shouted curses, ork and sentences like i could do only bitch things. and then,not via only shoutings, i confronted stalk from mafia even. so they even used mafia to try to turn me to a bitch. which i never replied nor talked. but i confronted such schema of events of trying to steal mental health, 10 or alike names assigning by the stalker,  and such things. it were a real psychological torture. i think sociopath jealous people are super dangerous types. they even would allegedly try to turn to a bitch they are jealous of. and laugh out loud whilst doing that. i think sociopathy is really super dangerous thing. i ccant forget the theathres and in one incident i went to cafe in incek listening mom's "go outside, dont scare from psycho! dont let a pscyho ruin your life" advise. and in that night she sat in outside and laughe out loud saying things like i am abitch. i confonte dthese type of allegedly trying to turn to a bitch effort with theathres everytime i went out to a cafe. this lady socio lady really has resources in doing sociopathy against target she targets. they allegedly tried to turn me to a bitch. and when they show theirselves in that, they laughed out loud in that acts. sociopathy is reeally very dangerous. i would rego to police with asking for a legal case and prosecutor this time. and with detailed notes of what kind of maniac acts i confronted. maybe German and Turkish police works together to catch this psychopath stalker lady or guy. maybe its not the lady but the dark haired brown skinned guy who shouted hurrem. maybe he is behind this sociopathy i confront to make me mentally ill and allegedly be tried to be turn to a bitch. i wish these psychopaths from ferikoy are caught by police.

and i have plans of creating safe houses to woman who are stalked to be turned to be a bitch and or by a jealous sociopath lady? and it be protected by very scary robots that move very fast. for 4 years of pain of confronting sociopathy, i have such fantasies:) ai for good purpose when a criminal psycho fixates to try to turn a woman to a bitch and does such things allegedly and also after doing such acts of theathres of depicting her like a bitch and asking her to be a bitch also all time, and then after all laughing out loud to her craft of sociopathy.  i wish for woman whom are stalked to be made bitch, i think in future we should build houses protected by very scary ai forms. snce i confronted such thing in life. theathrees in which i am a bitch, and shoutings and theatress, and more names, and constant stalk. and when i say things about my startup in blog, the psycho from next building wuld shout "ork! fukara! you could be just a bitch" like sentences. and tried allegedly to turn me a bitch. and it were really hard years confronting this sociopath's sociopathy psychopathy. i only understood the name schema in 3 years after 3 years i understood this psycho creates names and assigns to me. it were really hard to confront psychopathy sociopathy. and i am not fully over truma i observe. i do think these people are either a psycho religious cult or they are just doing such acts to womans just for sociopathy and for to try to turn them to bitches maybe. it were really hard living in a place where neighbour is a psychopath sociopath. when my parents moved to the summer home for summer travel, i moved there. then i found job in ankara. but the theathres of showing me as bitch also continued there. so i became agoraphobic. i have a psycho socio stalking me in multi cities with trying to turn me a bitch. i wonder its the hurrem shouting guy. cause he passed last day street shouting hurrem. maybe this dark haired brown skinned guy is the author in this trying to turn  a bitch effort. not the sociopath lady whom stalked last night. maybe she is just helping this dark haired guy. i dont know. i just confront sucha stalk for 4 years. anyway gonna rego to police. and would ask opening a legal case this time. the problem is i dont know whom these people are. but i think it could be caught as stalk happens. cause the sociopath is fixated to stalk, would pass another day from home street for sure, cause is a spcyhoo stalker. and then police would be able to catch this stalker dark haired guy or the sociopath lady also. i dont know if they are working together or whether they are separate stalkers. i have none idea. 








yayy as well as metal music is loud i feel outside trauma.


ok i think of shops selling their cheaper version of vr utinsils to do shopping in a personlized vr way?   and glasses that have ar so people shopping inside when they come physically to shop, would find out different promotions. and they could also endlessly shop in vr side. with cloth dynamics on.

and i am losing weight. i liked that. i had a nasty trauma behavior that comes from early childhood. maybe freudian explanation for such addiction. for mom not enough breast feeded me? i dont know?  it passed. but in trauma moments i repeat that.   eating mucus of my nose. and since last days i were in trauma i repeated that and my nose i think got uglier. in many years i stopped that. but in trauma years i over did. of course when noone sees.

anyway but i liked my thinner state. yupp lets try to get back to zero weight.

my breakfast has been just drinking honey today cause i am tired to go outside to buy breakfast things.(guhu turned to a bear i think) (ok but i dont try to drink alot and beside i eat little i lose weight actually even if i consume honey at times like breeakfast replacement today. )

ok lets bake pizza today i know it wouldnt be good. but would be still delicious. since this breakfst replacement doesnt super work and it has been 2pm and its noon time. i dont want to go outside food ingredients. would use whatever at home. this salami i bought is delicious. it would be any way a good pizza even lacking ingredients like cheese. and i dont know how to make pizza even if i had ingredients it wouldnt be any good pizza cause i dont know how to do bake pizza.
 yayy delicious pizza is being ready yummy!


ok i cant create ecommerce thing in clothes cause i work in such sector. ok it would be about other shops like electronic utinsils.
a gathering place where people talk/shop in 3d. and try various outfits if it could have been such shops also. which would have been fun since there would be cloth dynamics investigation and modelign how which cloth types look how on which type of body types. would have bene fun to include such simulations in these vr and or 3d shops. people might endlessly get lost in trying outfits in normal life its harder to go to a shop and try infinite outfits but when its 3d it could have been even in 1am or 3am. but i cant do that since i work in fashion sector. so it would be gadgets or alike shops.

i liked this pizza thing. i think i would cook to myself when i dont have breakfasats in weekends if i could find time from snowboarding:) i wish after learning it, all weekends would for a time in winter season pass in mountains with snowboarding. so the physical device is just for to create the lack of realm of pshycial world of shopping experience. i mean the user could also use better vr devices. but the vr device of shop would be her or his own device that shop gives and user would when wanting to go to physically shop, the existence of this per shop vr device would replace the feeling of walking to the shop? could it replace such feeling? but it would for sure give a definitely a feeling of authenticity to the shop and the customer of the shop. that a personalized vr device with specific apps on it. e.g. h&m's or new yorker's self vr kit and users get that nicely designed not super powerful not general purpose vr kit. i mean it wouldnt be a super powerful vr kit but would be just built for the shopping experience.  and the existence of such kit would make this 3d shopping all personal to the brand and to the customer. would add some realm to it.  i might be thinking wrongly but i think this could really work. just the shops should build vr devices and do such investment. so that people could also shop at 3am with trying out 100 or 1000s of dresses with cloth dynamics being done perfect. and it would be a gathering place also. wouold have integrated to coffee shops so in while vr cafes one could drink a personalized coffee, a food service would deliver coffee to the person so would also experience drinking coffee in vr shop. and there would be surprise promotions also. i liked this idea this product idea. cloth dynamics seems fun to learn and try out to simulate. when the topic is simulation, guhu is always super interested. ok i would try to build such product also awhile. yupp so simulation topic temproarily moves to cloth dynamics topic:)

there should be cameras that could do create body shape based on pictures, that turns the person to 3d rendered version. i saw products doing that. would investigate that. so that people couldshop like that easily.



i think while guhu is built to build products or like simulations/maths, she is dealing with stalk of psychopath sociopath's sociopathic stalk from ferikoy for 4 years whom tries to turn her to a bitch:S this is unfair.  as i said before. life is never fair.
ok would try to build safe houses for stalked woman in future asi told. i would try to fix this problem. of psychopath sociopath stalker whom tries to turn a bitch things. ok world holds maniac people also and confronting such a maniac psychopaths fixation targeting with creating theathres to turn me a bitch were the scariest thing i ever sesen in my life and i wish to build safe houses for people who conftont such things like me . if i get some economic power to do that, i would defintiely do this.



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talking with family, i resent holiday plans, instead i could take them here to holiday. yupp would suggest that. they are economically little bit bad due to some a member's job issue. yuppp maybe i snowboard later but take family to holiday here. yupp lets call and suggest that. they need holiday also like me.

i tried to make them accept ddnt worked they had things to do there. wanted to take them here and travel together in holiday here. but seems as it would happen next months. yupp. so snowboarding not cancelled.

ok then:) yuppp i wish i find lots of friends in these snowboarding things. that people addicted to snowboarding. i want to get addicted to:) i like nature, i like snow, and i liked rollerblade little bit, seems as intersection of all of them, but i wont know until i try.



yayyy product building time. lets continue fixing srtm renderer\s defeccts for this vr shopping toolkit. then investigate the cloth rendering animation dynamics. 


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mom liked that i lose weight. i have still lot weight i wish i turn them to muscles in snowboarding things.
aaaargh too exciting. this snowboarding hobby. mountains and forest and snow, mom said why do you like snow this much:D she laughed, you could also travel cities etc she said. noppeee its snowboarding timeee:)

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mont blanc timeee! :)

(of course couold change if i couldnt find hotels) (i would try to find the cheapest staying options cause because i would be already spending alot to my first snowboarding outfit/gadgets) 


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bug fixing time! of srtm renderer thing! i think i would rewrite the game engine of osgjs. to modify if i want parts. for this vr shops and webgl shops. for to work in webgl context. maybe later non js version would be done but with osg engine then.



my cute code i likde it even if its not super efficient:)

package sim.flux

import sim.{ Step, StepMethod, Executor, ExecutorWithContext }
import sim.spark.{ SparkStep, SparkExecutorWithContext }
import com.github.jpbetz.subspace.{ Quaternion, Vector4, Vector3 }
import utilities.sampler.non_random.{ SphereCoordinateSample, SphereSampler }
import models.atmosphere.earth.{ EarthAtmosphere }
import models.atmosphere.{ Atmosphere, AtmosphereLayer, AtmosphereContent }
import org.apache.spark.sql.{ SparkSession, SQLContext }
import org.apache.spark.SparkContext
import org.apache.spark.SparkConf
import utilities.shape.{ Sphere, SingleEndedLine }
import models.planet.Planet
import models.planet.earth.Earth
import models.light.{ WaveLength, Flux_of_Wavelength }
import sim.{ StepMethod, Step, Model, Stage, Executor }
import scala.language.postfixOps
import models.light.spectral.SpectralPowerDistribution
import breeze.linalg._

case class FluxExtinctionModelParams(
  atmosphere:    Atmosphere,  planet:        Planet,  sun_light_dir: Vector3)

object FluxExtinctionModel {

  def main(args: Array[String]): Unit = {
    var planet = Earth()
    var atmosphere = EarthAtmosphere()
    atmosphere.build
    var sun_light_dir = Vector3(1, 0, 0)
    execute(FluxExtinctionModelParams(atmosphere, planet, sun_light_dir))
  }

  def execute(params: FluxExtinctionModelParams): Any = {
    var planet = params.planet
    var atmosphere = params.atmosphere
    var sun_light_dir = params.sun_light_dir
     
    var range =380 to 780 by 5 toArray
    
    var range_dist= SpectralPowerDistribution.planck(
        new DenseVector[Double](range.map(
                (a:Int)=>a.toDouble)),5778.0).toArray.toList
    
    
    var wavelengths = (range zip range_dist).map((a: Tuple2[Int,Double]) => Flux_of_Wavelength(WaveLength(a._1.toDouble), 80000.0*a._2)) .toList

    var sphere_sampler = SphereSampler(atmosphere.layers(
      atmosphere.layers.length - 1).radius)

    var samples = sphere_sampler.generate_samples.toSeq.zipWithIndex

    var initialFluxExtinctionStepMethodArg =
      FluxExtinctionStepMethodArg(
        samples.map(p => {
          Light(p._2, LightIntersection(
            atmosphere.layers.length - 1,            p._1.entity, wavelengths) :: Nil)
        }),        sun_light_dir,        atmosphere,  planet)
    var steps = List.fill(atmosphere.layers.length * 2 - 1)(SparkStep(FluxExtinctionStepMethod()))
    //  var steps = List.fill()  (SparkStep(FluxExtinctionStepMethod()))
    var model = Model(steps)
    var stage = Stage(model)
    var executor = SparkExecutorWithContext()
    var tmp_light_trace = stage.execute(executor, initialFluxExtinctionStepMethodArg).asInstanceOf[FluxExtinctionStepMethodArg]
    
    //print(tmp_light_trace)
    var next_step_input = tmp_light_trace.light_trace
    var next_steps = List.fill(1)(SparkStep(FluxLayersSaveStepMethod()))
    var next_model = Model(next_steps)
    var next_stage = Stage(next_model)
    next_stage.execute(
      executor,      FluxLayersSaveStepMethodArg(next_step_input, "data_out"))

  }

}

revising which kind of scala code i had written. revising scala style i forgot writing code in scala but i liked my base stage classes i added to model execution but they arent super efficient and i forgot my silly scala skills. would get back in to while writing i think.


ok since i would suppoort one family member for this month also, i would rent ski things and  i would go to Chamonix by plane i think and wouldnt rent a car.   or might do rent when i come back and travel 1 day more here maybe to Hamburg.
next month   i could rent a car.  now trying to lessen budget as much as possible since would assist a family member yupp. so would only buy ski clothing . and i would also pay credit card/bills  so would make the budget tightened as i would support family yupp.
i think i would rent car since it looks very nice prced. and thinking i could tighten the budget with leaving one day earlier from hotel and last day putting luggage to car and again skiing:) guhu the budget genius:D :P  what can i do, i would support family also. ok i think i 1ould rent hotel for then for 2 days from 1 to 3 and on 3rd day i would skii still but would dcheckout from hotel on 3rd day. or i might find it non comfortable and do stay also at 3rd. lets find cheap hotels than also. there is no cheap hotel at skiing centers, everything starts at 120 euros per day i think:S or maybe 200 euros per day. anyway lets check:) ok i would hire car since driving car in roads seemed fun. ok might as well do this, hire car earlier and stay in relatives in hamburg one day. and drive all to chamonix?  it would be too much driving though. but i missed driving also. lets see. ayy when my wage comes to my bank account i am initing the holiday:) yupp :) this car hiring thing i would also get addicted to:) snce is really very affordable:)

ayyy holidays are very nice things:)

ok its better i hire the equipment before buying for what if i fail cases. i liked the renting options of ski/snowboarding gadgets. guhu silly in holiday:) as soon as her wage gets loaded. maybe it happens on 30th i dont know when:)normally it is on 28ths as i observed. but this time 28 is on sat. so i expect it to be on 30th. lets see. if wage gets loaded tomorrow, i would go to holiday from saturday:) to hamburg i think. first would visit relatives here then would go to Hamburg. then from there to Geneva/Chamonix. i think i would go by car since i really missed driving a car thing. yupp. i think 3 days skiing would be enough for first time. maybe in other weekends i again visit relatives in hamburg. ok renting a car i might get addicted to. since is really very cheap prices i saw.

so in these conditions, next skiing thing would be in next month. ok then:)
yayy i found cheaper hotels also:) nice:) and also chalets:) nice:)

ayyyy holiday planning is super fun:)
holiday concept is super fun:)


ok by the days if i cant find a hotel in  Chamonix(if all gets full), i can also find some place in Geneva and then drive to the ski lift places. by 1.2 hour yupp. not that far it is. yupp it also seems as a nice option. ok lots of options of holiday. is super fun to plan a holiday:)

if i had more budget(if wldnt support family) i might have more alternatives in staying in Chamonix. but for sure not any higher than 200euros per day:D.  i saw 500 euros per day places. for not my budget any:P:D
yayyy its super exciting. i might change the days and make it earlier. i dont know. if my wage gets in on tomorrow,  i would do shopping tomorrow and rent the car and rent the hotel and go driving by car at 04 am or such hours.  yuppp.

ok i think i would also rent the outdoor coat since i dont want to spend alot seeing my budget is tighter. next month i would buy things. not this month.

ok Berlin to Geneva is 11hours:S nope i should go by plane to Stuttgart, hire car then and then take on the car. yupp. on return if i want to travel more i can hire car again.

ok i checked car prices in Geneva and its higher, so i would rent in Stuttgart and drive 5 hours to Geneva if hotel is in Geneva, and if hotel is in Chamonix, i would drive to there:)

yayyy :)

hey my psychology of trauma is ok back:)

i use music shield in case psycho socio stalker from ferikoy comes to street to do stalk, i wont even hear. yupp:) i were very trauma state the day before after confronting stalk then but i opent music all day and listened nice musics and i am over trauma yes:)


and and exciting things:
our salary has been set so i can go to holiday actually today:) would investigate:) yayyy so not starting agt 1th but i celebrate new year at chamonix:) yupppp:)

and also for projects, i analyzed source code i written. and would continue but its first holiday time:) stuttgart, hiring a car, moving to either Chamonix or Geneva:) yuppp then snowboarding things:)


i woke up today with a super cute song:) thats so nicely sang. i like it alot. ok ibiza people knows song compilations. this is last song of a compilation and its super romantic and super cute. i like the sound of this song alot:) wont share it. since its in very personal. i have headphones and used headphones. ways to deal with ptsd. but its not super ptsd because the stalker might come any hour to street to stalk and i want to be ready beforehand. and my trauma psychology went back to normal. i feel super today:) and i woke up with a song  i like:)




ok lets go to snowboard things shop:) aaa super exciting. and lets first pay credit card things yuppp :)


lets go to snowboard shop also. yuppp:)
i think i would do at least 4 days snowboarding:) i want to learn and snowboard alot.


yayyy :) what i want. for going there, i might rent a car here maybe. and drive 11 hours. hmm. or lets go with plane to Stuttgart first :)

ok holiday be starting:) and all plans in holiday that i written here i would try to do.

lets find my hotel first. aww they would finish if i dont rent. ok i would pass new years day also there. so if i cant find cheaper options i would try searching other near places and using car to reach out Chamonix daily.
lets see:)

yayyy i booked a 3 star (nice) hotel in Switzerland  thats 14 miles to Chamonix:) great:)
and it has fireplace and also indoor pool:) and i would celebrate new year in Chamonix then :)

i am returning on 2th of jan or since i would have car i might even try snowboarding that day also yuppp.

super exciting. so 5 days of snowboarding:) and also this place is near to Switzerland skiing place. yupp. full of snow time:)

lets rent the car also. i would drive all. or with plane. lets see.

ok i booked a nissan qashqai (how its written. i wondered that 4*4. since there ight be snow, (for sure it would be:)) i selected that:)


ok i  go to stuttgart by plain on tomorrow morning. then take my car, ride maybe 6 hours to the hotel. so first day, i wont have chance to do any snowboarding it would be next day :)

in returning my checkout is on 1st of jan and i would return the car on 2nd of january midnight. so i would also snowboard on 1st of jan. then would return to Berlin all by car. which would be fun:)

i think i wish i didnt fastly booked the hotel even if its amazng hotel, i wish i found a cheaper place since i felt i spent lots of money and my budget is meant to be tight for this holiday.
yuppp exciting holiday starts tomorrow. now i would do some shopping and drop by work place to get my some residency paper in case its asked (andelmung or such word) for my passport type. and also would search winter sport shopping centers for to buy inner clothes i would just hire the outer coats but inner things i should buy like thermal isolating inner layers and socks and such things. yuppp :) lets go to the snowboard shop:)

but first lets wahs my self since i stink like a skunk i think my armpits skunk again after not washing myslf for a day. 


ok i am super hungry also i hadnt eaten anything due to holiday reservations lets eat yoghurt soup i did yesterday.


ok i made dish of protein (goulash like thing)  (snce i try to lose weight and make snowboarding muscles)

i arranged a 2 hour course on sunday in mont blanc i wish the skier would accept there are course sites. its like usually either 70 euros per hour or 80.

i arranged my snowboard hire. now would wash my body(armpits very bad stinking) and go shop for coats cause i dont know if i would also rent an outside coat.  i might buy here.

ayyy my plane ticket even if i bought 1 day ago is just 75 euros! (though i only of course could carry handluggage) i remember price were 30 euros if its further days. ok 75 euros is also very fine.

guhu the nomad wanna be snowboarder's first snowboarding trials starts at this side of Alps. yuppp. at Mont Blanc. i always wondered this mountain even years ago. i also wonder other places with glaciers.bles.

i missed snow super much:) is one of the things i like alot in life. i would lie down in snow in hotel's garden and make also a snowman :D i missed snow so much.

my course starts at 9:15 so i need to be there at 8. aha i need to go to chamonix on 28th also because i need to take my snowboards. i hired for 29ths but would go in 28th to take my snowboard since if course giver accepts course starts at 9:15 at mount blanc i dont know which part of mountain. so should take the board one day earlier. and now also should go to shopping.

exciting holiday:) starts tomorrow:) wov:)



i like snow crazy much! i think that much that i can even live in antartica:D i am a snow person. crazy much like snow! the snowflakes, the foot prints of mine in snow, the feeling of pressing my foot in snow heaps, its all things i like alot! so snowboarding if i learn i would really i think get addicted to. cause i like snow crazy much!



aha i saw a funny reference from friend:D from an internet friend. ok funny internet friend, you like making funny references to guhu:Dyou made me smile/laugh with that:D its funny&lovely:D  funny&super cool friend:)hi from Berlin :) all the best wishes from Berlin:) all good greetings for Christmas and new year to you and your family:) hi:)





yayyy:D
this guhu is crazily excited for hefr snow holiday:D this guhu likes snow too much!


yayyyy n hours left to holiday!

counting hours!


yayyyy:D


lets buy my cool skiing gadgets(i super like those polaroid glasses) and maybe 50level sunscreen cream for protecting my nose my cheeks from burn. since they say it could really burn since atmosphere is thinner and lesser light extinction happens and snow also reflects so it could really burn my skin as i read badly. so would buy 50 level cream.


 its super exciting!
i hadnt taken bath yet. (guhu the skunk. my armpits stink alot when not washed i dot know why. its i think some people stink more and i am those types, i have to wash my armpits daily ) (or my room is super hot i actually wear summer clothes in my residency.  i should lower the temperature of the heater maybe. maybe being skunk is due to that. )
should go do the holiday shopping asap!

guhu the stinky nomad:P ok lets wash my body and be less stinky:D

ok i would get addicted this thing and would even do in summer i think:) in patagonia. if i be advance level some day, i would also go to hills with helicopter and snowboard. but i think such level mmight be only possible in 3 years or a like. or i might never be able to do that. but i dream of that. jumping of helicopter and snowboarding down a mountain hill with people. its the dream of wanting to do things, ultimate adrenalin activity. racing against avalanches!  its the ultimate dreeam of my goals in this new hobby i start:)
racing against avalanches:) or without avalanches wishfully. but noone knows what could happen in such hills. i have such crazy target to establish in this hobby:) crazy guhu with a crazy target in snowboarding. ayyy its super exciting this snowboard hobby i want to dance with happiness for starting course of it. then i wish in future i share videos like guhu versus avalanche:Pif i get to such levels in 3 or 4 years. definitely to be tried:)



ok i think i would spend nothing for rest of month. i konw its cheap even, but since i have nothing related to snow coating, i had to buy all from inner insulators to outer coat and to those glasses and, everything took 538 euros, i found cheap mountain jacket (waterproof) : 89 euros and the pants for outdoor: 100 euros, and remaining were those shiny snow glasses, inner insulators, socks,some neck cloth protection i forgot name of, i had to buyu everything cause i have nothing related to snow. i am happy next time i go to snowboarding, i wont need to buy coats etc or socks or everything i bought, maybe i would buy more socks cause i bought only 2, i think if the temperature were -20 these things would even protect me in that cold, i think its -15 -16 i hadnt checked i would check,
  things i seen, snowboarding is an expensive hobby in terms of its init costs. then it wont be anyn expensive after next months i also would buy my snowboard.

ok i am super excited for tomorrow.

now have to visit a reelative. since called me and it would be rude. but their home is 6th or 7th floor and there is no lift, and i been walking to find clothes, swimming suit (i liked the swimming suit i bought:), this time i  bought swimming suit since i liked it and it were 39 euros). cause my swimming clothes i think are worn.. needed to buy one since hotel has indoor pool. i dont know if i could use or not  i would see. but i forgot to buy sun screen. then i also bought gifts to relative's daughter (in college) as neww year's eve christmas gifts. and now i have to go there and yeah the relative is curious of my journey and invited super impulsively so i have to attend and actually looks fun to go outside  and talk her daughter i hadnt seen for a long while. ok so it has been passed with shopping and shopping and shopping for snowboarding clothes. its an expensive hobby. my drawing hobby is much less costly. i would spend nothing on rest of month.


yayyy the car has gps so i wont have to search addreesses i would just follow car's suggestted way. but it took 60 euros more. but it were already 130 euros so not that costly car renting op it had been.

but for sure i would spend nothing more till end of month since i really spent alot. i hadnt thought it would take this much cost:D
ok but its super exciting also. and i would init a very nice life long hobby (maybe i would stop in my 70s) so i think its worth it even if is expensive.

i think i am a good holiday planner. planned holiday. bought all things necessary to it. arranged everythiing just in morning then afternoon handled all shopping. i am really a good holiday planner ithink:)  or it wernt any hard holiday to plan.

i cant believe i bought a mountain very hard conditions waterproof coat for only 89 euros! it were the cheapest one all other were like over 150 euros and in internett its also like that, so i really bought it very very cheap.  and similarly pants. its 100 euros or alike. its not that cheap but were the cheapest and its really good. i definitely super liked karstadt sports cause it has everything i neednt go to another shop for my needs in snow boarding and also swimming suite. i really liked that shop. normally coats are 400 euros or alike in other sport shops. here there were also 89 euro one thats under sale, but i mean it were very nice price.

ok i need to go to relative now. ayyy snowboarding  costs are alot:D i hadnt expected this much:S but next times it would be jsut buying snowboard or hiring it and nothing else costs yupp:)


now going to relatives time:)

ok finally back at home, my face felt as froze its so cold:P. now need to prepare my luggage. and try my things. aha need to wash the clothes? i dont think so. aha i need to check in the flight also. yupp.

:P i felt as i just went to fulfill curiosity of relative of where i am going whilst i have things like luggage packing. ok but also felt resonsible to visit since hadnt visited them for long and her daughter came and felt needed to buy present to them since they bought me. and its christmas/new year time, i felt i needed to visit.


i wish menstruation thing dont happen so i could use the pool for a while. cause has snow view. i liked that. i liked my hotel but i think its kind of expensive also to my budget. but anyway, i bought.


wov its unbelivable i am on roads tomorrow. wov guhu the nomad:) going to Salvan :) i could also do snowboarding in Salvan. first 2 days would be at Chamonix, or first 3 days at Chamonix and last day in Salvan.
i want to get addicted to this activity. it looks super exciting as watching videos of it. this is definitely this really looks like my thing in life, that something i should definitely try out and i feel as i would get addicted to it. cause i like snow so much. and skating also.

ok luggage time

ok i have impulsively invested money and effort to this hobby. but its my thing.
everyone has an addiction whether its projects or else. i want this to be one of my addictions since looks super exciting and super fun. since there are many slopes to be investigated. not like bicyling where i cycle in similar streets which created a sisyphean feeling. i can try out different regions in skiing centers.  so it wont create such a feeling. and there is much more fun than bicycling to me such adrenalin sports. but bicycling is very healthy. i mean one would have lots of muscles and lots of healthy if does bicycles. but i am searching things to do aside everything. and i think  bicycling is not the thing for me. but i now target this snowboarding thing and i am pretty sure it wont any create sisyphean feeling. cause its adrenalin, there is no chance of such feeling. its little effort but much adrenalin type of sport as looking from outside. i liked that. i like little effort everytime:) but i might be wrong. it might require lots effort. than i would still like it since there is the adrenalin factor. i cant do any activity that lacks adrenalin otherwise i feel sisyphean type of feeling. as i observe this doing trying many activities. there should be some kind of boost of adrenalin in thing i do. but i feel like that i might fail also i mean i have no predetermined success route in this new hobby type. i would try and i wish i dont have problems withit and i wish i also get addicted to it.




i liked my swimming suit and saw i have at least 10kgs to lose to comeback to my previous state. i lost weight, but i got so much that, there is alot still. i want leg muscles not fat. wish snowboarding things help build so.

i learnt there is ski centers in osterreich also. yupp next time there then:)

i liked karstadt sports too much since i could find a swimming suit. buying swimming things are always usually pain to me. this time second thing i tried fit.