for i had no chances no time to focus on domain knowledge studying for 1 or 2 weeks, today back in domain knowledge studying yayyy
i think i want to finish part of it today.
i saw an earthquake news from Elazig. I wish things recovers fastly and wishing condolences! (and I had no idea Elazig were an critical earthquake region. )
also read scary news about a scary epidemic. i read its 1280 people were infected and 40 like people passed away. ~1/30 is quite scary thing. i once very long years ago had slight pneumonia and it were really ntany easy illness(i stayed in hospital for 4 days i think). virus infections scare alot. bacteria is kind of easier maybe (for instance my pneumonia were bacteria based one so antibiotics worked. scary news:S 1/30 is quite scary metric:SS
quite unnice news. wsh it fixes heals fast, without taking a lot lives:S
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in that slight pneumonia days long years before, before i were super sleepy falling asleep in meetyings. then my throat got all very hurting a day i woke up. then i went to hospital they labeled it as normal flu or cold. and then in evening i got even worse even if i took their prescription and went again. and this time they labelled it as pneumonia and i were hospitalized for 4 days or 5 days. in end of days i remember i were trying to increase my respiratory breathing capability. since that such things slightly contaminates lungs with mucus like thign i think. but the sore throat were super bad in the first day.
this year i also had very bad sore throat and when i went to doctor, she said severe infection very severe she said. anyway antibiotics fixed. i hate sore throat thing. never got ill related to cold/flu afterwards. i usually dont get ill alot in adult life. not super frequently (in my childhood times i were super keen on getting ill constantly with high fever) ok once i had stomach problem but its not cold/flu. i feel as whilst other people can fight illnesses i cant, cause i observe sometimes people heal by themselves by immune system(in flu/cold), i usually dont,if i get illness i have to take antibiotics/medicine to heal. my immunity system is not great i think but happy that it exists also since i dont get ill alot, maybe my immunity isnt bad as it seems. but when i get any ill it doesnt ever heal without medicines, the usual treatment of resting in cold doesnt work in me. i need to take antibiotics to heal (of course in virutic things i dont know what kind of medicines are given). some lucky people can heal themselves without antibiotics, i am not such type.
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ok epidemics and flu is completely super scary topic i think.
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ok today wash center of building is super populated. and my sheets hadnt dried out yet and i cant sleep since dont have secondary sheets that are my bed size (i have but are smaller. ) ok maybe i should sleep on couch today i dont know what to do. yupp couch is also possible. ok i put the sheets to yet another 30 minuntes of drying period. i believe they would dry after 30 minutes. lets continue studying domain knowledge awhile. one thing thats sure, this sleeping place is really very comfy. this IKEA really does it good even if might not be specialized in that, but really comfy. i some days dont want to wake up since its too comfy. definitely the most comfy bed i ever slept in my life. we bought special healthy types of bed in istanbul home but it wernt any comfy like this. it were the exact opposite of cushion that healthy type of bed and but this one is super cushion and i liked alot.
Gosh please the drier machine dries out my sheets soon cause i dont any want to sleep on couch any.
ok tomorrow is an exciting day, i have my first art meetup in new city. but if might not attend if i have too sleep and might attend next one. i just feel shy. i am not sure if i would attend. i wish i attend. yepp i would attend. but i dont have carbon pencils ok i might attend next one. but not this one. cause i also want to iterate in project. but i think i should socialize. passing all weekend home is not any good thing to do. ok i am attending. yuppp. its just sleep is the problem, deprivation of sleep since due to my late dried out sheets and so i wouldnt sleep well and event is in 11 i think i need to go outside at least at 10. which means i need to wake up at 9. ok i think i can manage it. yuppp.
ok i read that there is also modeling in that drawing session. ok i think this is initially too much for me, i think i should first try to draw people i saw in internet like i did sometimes. this model drawing in real time is a very new thing. but maybe i should go attend. but i think this is the best way to learn portrait drawing, if i would be shy to attend tomorrow's one (i think i want to buy carbon pencils and drawing paper and do some reinit drawing of people i see in internet thing) i am definitely attending other sessions of this study group. since its the best way to learn. it would work both good to get over shyness:) (since there is modeling part that wish i wish i wont be selected, its randomly selected) but its a good way to get over shyness since 19 people would look to me while i stay still. (i even dont like taking photographs of me since i dont most times like them, it would be very courageous to have be modelled for portrait drawing whilst i even hate being photographed by selfies etc most times since most times i dont like the way i look in selfies. ) i think this is the very best way to learn portrait drawing. i think i should definitely attend this community's events. what scares me most or makes me shy is that i hadnt tried out portrait drawing for many ages (my portrait drawing trials would be just selecting an image from internet and tryig to draw). i mean never attended such thing before that is done really via models. i think i should attend or maybe attend the next time. would see tomorrow. what i would do whether i would attend even without specific pencils or not. i would had felt more confident if i reinited portrait drawing trials beforehand:P i think reason i feel shy is mainly this. ok so goals: this week buying pencils and also painting utinsils and attending next such event with preparing beforehand. maybe i should connect my phone to pc and try to draw portraits like that. i did this many times, like selecting a picture from internet and i really could realistically draw. but hadnt done for ages, nor hadnt done with real models. so to feel confident i think i would not attend tomorrow and go remember portrait drawing myself first to collect some confidence beforehand then would attend. so i think i would remember portrait drawing skills and reremember my confidence in that before attending this. i remember 3 years ago, selecting random internet images and drawing very exactly very nicely. but hadnt done this for 3 years this image selection adn drawing act. i dont feel confident enought to attend tomorrow. ok next time. and in while i would reremember my confidence in that. cause i really created nearly mostly same image. if i chose a drawing and i would have established nearly same of it in short time. i need to do rehearse that to feel confident to attend such event. its just my volleyball experience puts a barrier in my mind to remember how to do draw portrait type of drawings before attending such event. ok so would collect confidence with drawing trials with specific portrait styles beforehand and then i would when i feel confident back, i would attend, would attend next week's event yupp.i remember 3 or 4 years ago, i would select drawing i see in internet and i would draw exactly nearly same. but i hadnt done this for ages for at least 3 years. so would first do that drawing trials for portraits and than would attend. ok i think i would reflect image from phone to tv and do try portrait drawing like that and buy specific pencils and drawing paper and next time next sunday would attend. since happens every sunday. yuppp would attend next sunday. its the best way to become a portrait drawing artist i think, since you exercise the craft of that like if you are a portrait drawer. ok next sunday. yupp. or i mght change my mind in morning and might attend this sunday also.
one thing bad i did, i did eaten carbohydrates alot today. i shouldnt buy again any carbohydrates, i always eat when i buy. i try not to buy most of the times. in diet. any bread or cake like things. this morning i just bought. anyway.
i think i want to finish part of it today.
i saw an earthquake news from Elazig. I wish things recovers fastly and wishing condolences! (and I had no idea Elazig were an critical earthquake region. )
also read scary news about a scary epidemic. i read its 1280 people were infected and 40 like people passed away. ~1/30 is quite scary thing. i once very long years ago had slight pneumonia and it were really ntany easy illness(i stayed in hospital for 4 days i think). virus infections scare alot. bacteria is kind of easier maybe (for instance my pneumonia were bacteria based one so antibiotics worked. scary news:S 1/30 is quite scary metric:SS
quite unnice news. wsh it fixes heals fast, without taking a lot lives:S
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in that slight pneumonia days long years before, before i were super sleepy falling asleep in meetyings. then my throat got all very hurting a day i woke up. then i went to hospital they labeled it as normal flu or cold. and then in evening i got even worse even if i took their prescription and went again. and this time they labelled it as pneumonia and i were hospitalized for 4 days or 5 days. in end of days i remember i were trying to increase my respiratory breathing capability. since that such things slightly contaminates lungs with mucus like thign i think. but the sore throat were super bad in the first day.
this year i also had very bad sore throat and when i went to doctor, she said severe infection very severe she said. anyway antibiotics fixed. i hate sore throat thing. never got ill related to cold/flu afterwards. i usually dont get ill alot in adult life. not super frequently (in my childhood times i were super keen on getting ill constantly with high fever) ok once i had stomach problem but its not cold/flu. i feel as whilst other people can fight illnesses i cant, cause i observe sometimes people heal by themselves by immune system(in flu/cold), i usually dont,if i get illness i have to take antibiotics/medicine to heal. my immunity system is not great i think but happy that it exists also since i dont get ill alot, maybe my immunity isnt bad as it seems. but when i get any ill it doesnt ever heal without medicines, the usual treatment of resting in cold doesnt work in me. i need to take antibiotics to heal (of course in virutic things i dont know what kind of medicines are given). some lucky people can heal themselves without antibiotics, i am not such type.
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ok epidemics and flu is completely super scary topic i think.
------
ok today wash center of building is super populated. and my sheets hadnt dried out yet and i cant sleep since dont have secondary sheets that are my bed size (i have but are smaller. ) ok maybe i should sleep on couch today i dont know what to do. yupp couch is also possible. ok i put the sheets to yet another 30 minuntes of drying period. i believe they would dry after 30 minutes. lets continue studying domain knowledge awhile. one thing thats sure, this sleeping place is really very comfy. this IKEA really does it good even if might not be specialized in that, but really comfy. i some days dont want to wake up since its too comfy. definitely the most comfy bed i ever slept in my life. we bought special healthy types of bed in istanbul home but it wernt any comfy like this. it were the exact opposite of cushion that healthy type of bed and but this one is super cushion and i liked alot.
Gosh please the drier machine dries out my sheets soon cause i dont any want to sleep on couch any.
ok tomorrow is an exciting day, i have my first art meetup in new city. but if might not attend if i have too sleep and might attend next one. i just feel shy. i am not sure if i would attend. i wish i attend. yepp i would attend. but i dont have carbon pencils ok i might attend next one. but not this one. cause i also want to iterate in project. but i think i should socialize. passing all weekend home is not any good thing to do. ok i am attending. yuppp. its just sleep is the problem, deprivation of sleep since due to my late dried out sheets and so i wouldnt sleep well and event is in 11 i think i need to go outside at least at 10. which means i need to wake up at 9. ok i think i can manage it. yuppp.
ok i read that there is also modeling in that drawing session. ok i think this is initially too much for me, i think i should first try to draw people i saw in internet like i did sometimes. this model drawing in real time is a very new thing. but maybe i should go attend. but i think this is the best way to learn portrait drawing, if i would be shy to attend tomorrow's one (i think i want to buy carbon pencils and drawing paper and do some reinit drawing of people i see in internet thing) i am definitely attending other sessions of this study group. since its the best way to learn. it would work both good to get over shyness:) (since there is modeling part that wish i wish i wont be selected, its randomly selected) but its a good way to get over shyness since 19 people would look to me while i stay still. (i even dont like taking photographs of me since i dont most times like them, it would be very courageous to have be modelled for portrait drawing whilst i even hate being photographed by selfies etc most times since most times i dont like the way i look in selfies. ) i think this is the very best way to learn portrait drawing. i think i should definitely attend this community's events. what scares me most or makes me shy is that i hadnt tried out portrait drawing for many ages (my portrait drawing trials would be just selecting an image from internet and tryig to draw). i mean never attended such thing before that is done really via models. i think i should attend or maybe attend the next time. would see tomorrow. what i would do whether i would attend even without specific pencils or not. i would had felt more confident if i reinited portrait drawing trials beforehand:P i think reason i feel shy is mainly this. ok so goals: this week buying pencils and also painting utinsils and attending next such event with preparing beforehand. maybe i should connect my phone to pc and try to draw portraits like that. i did this many times, like selecting a picture from internet and i really could realistically draw. but hadnt done for ages, nor hadnt done with real models. so to feel confident i think i would not attend tomorrow and go remember portrait drawing myself first to collect some confidence beforehand then would attend. so i think i would remember portrait drawing skills and reremember my confidence in that before attending this. i remember 3 years ago, selecting random internet images and drawing very exactly very nicely. but hadnt done this for 3 years this image selection adn drawing act. i dont feel confident enought to attend tomorrow. ok next time. and in while i would reremember my confidence in that. cause i really created nearly mostly same image. if i chose a drawing and i would have established nearly same of it in short time. i need to do rehearse that to feel confident to attend such event. its just my volleyball experience puts a barrier in my mind to remember how to do draw portrait type of drawings before attending such event. ok so would collect confidence with drawing trials with specific portrait styles beforehand and then i would when i feel confident back, i would attend, would attend next week's event yupp.i remember 3 or 4 years ago, i would select drawing i see in internet and i would draw exactly nearly same. but i hadnt done this for ages for at least 3 years. so would first do that drawing trials for portraits and than would attend. ok i think i would reflect image from phone to tv and do try portrait drawing like that and buy specific pencils and drawing paper and next time next sunday would attend. since happens every sunday. yuppp would attend next sunday. its the best way to become a portrait drawing artist i think, since you exercise the craft of that like if you are a portrait drawer. ok next sunday. yupp. or i mght change my mind in morning and might attend this sunday also.
one thing bad i did, i did eaten carbohydrates alot today. i shouldnt buy again any carbohydrates, i always eat when i buy. i try not to buy most of the times. in diet. any bread or cake like things. this morning i just bought. anyway.
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