yayyy sunday starts

now that i stopped card tests: 

i would spare time to ai project/math studies and some portrait drawing exercises.

last time i couldnt succed drawing portraits again :S but i wish i could learn with new pencil set. 

I try and try to learn to draw and still hadnt learnt. but i am hopeful.

i even intend to write comics with drawings yupp :)  

i intend to create comics books. though i dont have story creation power so i might as well draw comics of some story writers/creators cause i dont have talent to create stories of comics.

but that would be too tiresome. right? hmm maybe i would write create some not very creative story and draw comics. i just want to create one such many pages leaflets of my drawings later :)

but i couldnt learn how to draw portraits yet.

but i think it is learnable with new drawing tools.

since even did not drastically increased quality of portraits any, i could at least managed to draw some drawings better. 

sooo,  this sunday passes with: some math studies imho mostly and some fun of drawing or so

for correlations to card tests to world news:  (or like Leia incident trauma or like Darcella incident trauma i mean) --->  

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i think i could manage to stop looking to world news today. yesterday couldnt manage to stop reading world news but i think reduced frequency of and today i think i would manage to stop reading news. 

as i think my checking news poses risks to world due to multiverse topics. i just need to stop checking world news or news of local or any news at all. 

any people imho whom did not observed correlations could safely read news imho. but i think people whom observed correlations should not follow news to not impact other people's universes by just multiverses correlation power. its my opinion that such multiverse correlation factor/power exists which makes it necessary for me to stop reading news. i couldnt fdully stop checking news yesterday but i believe i can today.  i got used to reading world news for a very lot time. but i think i would stop today. 

so  coming to cards discussion: 

I am stopped of any card tests anymore. due to some traumatic observation of coincidence. no more card tests anytime afterall. 

nor either alsonot only Darcella incident, also Leia incident is severe traumatic. so i think its not only card tests. i believe it might also happen in drawing someone either might impact someone's life. so i never would read news after all cause its very traumatic to do think of e.g. in mind some structure with some colors and some sad news hapens where such images with sch specific colors passes  or like doing a sculpture 6 years ago or so and unintendedly hair style resembles Leia i say to myself thinking like that i mean, then reading such horrorful sad news very severe tragedy news:S so or i believe if i draw someome public i might even hear bad news of from either:S after all:S so this traumatic experience makes it very important to not read news ever.  since its severely traumatizing. eitherwise i mean correlations of multiverses happens (e.g. some curse news i mentioned unrelatedly which werenot horrific(2 times such coincidence happent with curses)  and that sometimes very horrificly death news :S ) and its severely traumatic e.g. Leia trauma or Darcella trauma either i mean its just so scary :S and so horrific :S so i should never ever read world news ever in my life. its just so much traumatizing. i mean to see death news being correlated :S its so scary & horrific :S

i were used to reading news but aftre this Darcella incident i stop. its not ok. its very scary. seeing the same colors i thought in my mind of a death news its just so scary :S so much traumatizing:S

or i thought Leia incident were random and just coincidence. but from this new incident i understopod it were not coincidence:S  so in that then also multiverses correlations happent. but also this means Leia is alive in other universe versions still, but just in my universe she passed away. but still very horrific very scary :S so i should take the most care to not read any news ever. 

now today some unbalanced luggage and books over it fell itself it were unbalanced and fell today and whilst i were telling these scary topics the bicycle drinking bottle which has a tap created weird sound.

today is weird. i mean last time such coincidences happent iknow:  e.g. me watching a horror movie where birds were falling from sky to home's windows or things falling inside home, such horror movie it were and then 1 day later coming to home and firs tthing at night some glass fells from 3rd floor of home (many years ago) by a carpet that mom and dad fittedd there that day in noon somehow losing balance and making glass bowls fall all 3 stairs with very loud sound and 2 days later a bird from net of balcony door finding a very tiny cut in the net and throwing itself inside and hitting my mom\s head alike.  

or me listening a song which candle passes and then the tea light candle in home that day i discover starts to flame like alot hight (most possibly capilalr force, maybe tea pot i put over i might not knowingly drop some water from which created capillary force which made flame became very high) but it coinciding with me discovering such song from a docuymentary i wathced that day. 

or alike: 

in a week, i see some ripple in my coffee mug inside coffee that is circular wave and find it interesting since never seen such circular wave in my coffee mug before. somehow some movem4nt of desk or so idont know must created it but tooks my attention. then 2 days later the coffee holder carton cup fells from coffee place in room somehow due to inbalance. and i wonder how it inbalancely were staying there i wonder how it fell. then in night i watch star trek and in there an aliens interfere to ship and makes capt\ains coffee have waves the camera shows the captains coffee mug being having waves .then he drinks it and enters to aliens realm of faster entropy. 

i mean these multiverse coincidences also happens like this. but i dont know what my luggage fell coindided it did not coincided actually. but me talking of being scared of death news  coincidences, and the such sound coming from the bicycle drinking bottle kind of increa\sed momentalrily scared feeling, so maybe scared feeling this time correlated imho. 

ciorrelations can happen in anything imho. 

i just told when the fall sound happent in room today told a religious word i know :D cause i mean i know it were staying not that very balanced i know it were already not good condition since i mean it were sliding some week ago and i pushed it to rebalance. but i think it went overall after. i mean at somepoint lost balance imho. but such loud sound that i scared and said some religious word i like to use when feeling very scared.  it must be just random falling but again instantly such loud sound is very scary imho. 

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now that i also have more spare time from card tests to my life after being traumatized during card tests: 

 i mean my hobbies/ intellectual studies(ai/cultural anthropoilogy readin thats been long awaiting):

e.g. ai project. math studies. lots of books unstudied yet. 

hmm i found a new tea brand and this tea:

Cupper: Cranberry & Raspberry Infusion

very liked: 

this is one of the teas that tastes very good and also did not had negative impacts on my digestive illness and tastes very good at the same time.

i arranged internal medicine appointment to tackle this illness since i wish to fix it if fixable or if they took some part of my digestive system it would be also ok if the sickness goes. or if its unfixable illness than i would try to live by it. lets see if this illness is fixable. i would try to fix it.  whatever illness it be.

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hmm illness of cancer of dad and my digestive illness is one more motivation to ai project.

now that cards tests has stopped i can resuem ai project studies asap. 

hmm might even build my spaceship later with ai right?

 yuppp some quyantum gravity topics to be tackled afterwards right.

so as i stopped card tests due to being traumatized by a coincidence during card tests, now there is more alot time to intellectual studies/hobbies again.

before for a while all time went to card tests. as a very horrific scary coincidence happent, i instantly abruptly stopped any card tests and wont intend to do any card tests in future either.

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today feels very nice since digestive symptoms did not happent that much last night.

and watched 2 moives. first one did not liked alot. second one were like marvel movies, where it were avengers infinity war.  i also wish to draw comics someday. a comics leaflet like e.g.  or at least such leaflat i wish to create and publish on blog as an accomplishment of my life. yupp :) 

i wish to accomplish such accomplishments in such sides. e.g. 

in maths:

ai project

in drawing:

creating of a comics many pages leaflet and publishing such book of comics i drew :)

in other arts i also intend to get better/excel. 

i postpone violin learning or not i dont know. maybe next month i would resume either piano or violin learning experience. 

in that i dont have any goals but just for me just for me playing songs/compilations i like that be the only goal in intention of learning violin or piano. i mean in beginner level. e.g. just trying to play some dramatic violin music when i am sad alike :)  or when i bored to play some Bach on piano or so? or some i dont know other musicians i like to listen piano recordings also and play those either. but not expert just beginner level just only like that. cause one can't come expert violin or piano player in short time. and plus i might not have any talent and might not be able to learn either. I wouold check later.

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