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----------------  some stalk incident report:
ok not the direct   but the one beside neighbour definitely has link to sociopath stalkers. 100%. they  used the word of hami which i saw in stalk incidents, and impersonation name. and also hamit name. and they said hamit is shizoid. ok the 1 left side this neighbour has direct link to the sociopaths/stalk for sure. these people are linked to a family who works in one saudi  country. they also named saral name whom distrbed me with stalk all 3 years. ok trying to understand wht the hck is going on and why these people do sociopathy acts against me?they repeated stalk narratives i heard and they shoutedly said about "boyun egmek" . ?ok that saudi place working people are super rich. are they behind this stalk? btu why? i dont think so:S but why these maniac people repeated stalk narratives? are these people the people behind this stalk? ok wh<t the hck is going on:S this is super absurd and super confusing. so from these, i get that, the root stalker is hamit named stalker and is related to this neighbour. and they repeat ed sociopathy narratives of that labels i heard last year in stalk. (i doint even live in this city by the way, i been ehre newly).one guy outside shouted "serra (its not any my cousin, my cousin is parsecs away from ths psycho topic, not any related, this name is just as i get a random name selected by these people) make me shizoid". then this night, i sat outside since wer had guests at home. these people used the "kava" word which i as said, heard last year in stalk inciden ts(it s a new label, not somthing constantly said for 3 years of stalk) and these epople repeated same sociopath narratives. then some people left their house then they said sentence of "hamit is shizoid". ok so i get that, there is really for real an naniac neighbour situation happening. i mean the stalker is directly related to neighbour.they also said same stalk narratives i heard constantly. so, these people have ahamit named either relative or friend? then that sociopath stalks me. and whislt this happens, i confront m any labels that some i dnt even know meaning of (e.g. what the fck kava means?). i remember in one stalk incident some one shouted "boyun eg" like sentence. the woman shouted sentence like "boyun egdi" :S what the fck? whom are these sociopath people? so, the sociopathy really roots from a maniac neighbour. i havent been living in this city for 19 years. my mom and dad newly moved here also. whom are these sociopaths? mom and dad temporarily in summers came here. i mean we are  not even from here. mom and dad this winter came. and before, they only for summers visited here. i mean we dont even live here (except newly) and this stalk happens like this for 3 years. ok but its super disturbing and these people do allegedly sociopathy act against me:S  i dont care whoemever they call hamit is shizoid or not. they are themselves are whilst  doing sociopathy acts against me! they used that kava label! that i been stalked with such label last year!.i mean i dont care whether their sociopath hamit has mental illness or not. i do care what people that dont have mental illness does! i mean these people are responsible for the sociopathy they do against me! they allegedly cursed/shouted that kava label this night. so these maniacs are behind this stalk visibly. they told "***** to this hungry". ok this ***** is from **** *****:S what the hck is going on:S so my stalk is done by someone from ***? what the heck? i do think mayube thats not like that, i do think maybe ***** seen these people and tried to warn them for sociopathy so thats why they named her name in such sent ence? thats quite possible. maybe ***** named person observed their sociopathy? and war ned them. anyway, so figuring out, the stalk i confront is a maniac neighbour situation. they have a hamit named relative or friend? whom is a sociopath/shzioid stalker  and calls serra to me:SS (again and again cousin  serra is not any related to this sociopathy. not any tiny not any little bit related. this is as i get that mentally ill's hamit's random name selection. truly 100% not any related to my cousin. this psychopath stalk i see) they also told hande name but it were woman talking so hande name were someone there. so hande named impersonation be establishe dby someoone with real hande name? they said a sentence like "brs should sell this ork". and i heard this same stalk sentence same 0.7 year ago in a cafe. and in same cafe a hamit named guy stalked me in same day. i were studying maths and tried going outside that day. i tried to go outside. and after that stalk incident i continued not going outside state. to these psychopaths, i am something that could be sold? what kin dof maniac people are this? is this degracing effort is because, revenge of rejec tion? i do get something like that is happening? due to revenge of rejection (since this guhu hasnt ever replied to sociopath hamit ever) they try to degrace me with worst possible degracing effort?(like saying sentences which means i am a selleable thing?:SSSSSSS i would prefer being dead instad of such thing :S) and also an allegedly done sociopathy against me:S? so i finally understand that my stalkers is a maniac psycho socio negihbour.  so finallty everything b ecame clear. this is 100% a maniac neighbour situation. i had many theories from a spcyho religious cult stalking me(since i am atheist) to a cmmnst group stalking me (since i am rightist ).  but turns out its a maniac neighbour situation. since i dont look to their psycho hamit named relative or whatver shit that guy is to them, they dehumanize me as ork, try to degrace me in worst possible ways ever, do allegedly sociopathy acts against me. so these psychopaths are inventors of kava word? what the fck kava word means? in 3 years of stalk, in last year, i started hearing kava word in stalk incidents.unrelatedy to that, so since i have no bf, they tagged me as gay?   but thts not disturbing the gay topic, just the labels are dstrb ng. i mean charctrs devlpd has unnice labels (gay topic is nt a ny dstrbng. i wldnt be distrbd fr being called gay whlst i am nt gay also. since being gay is cool. but the disturbing thing is labels. ) so as i inspected, as i inferred, those gay woman whom stalks me were articulated by this hamit nam ed sociopath. i remember a movie named "neighbours from hell". this is really such like situation i think:S i have got a sociopath neighbour thats hell bent to try to destroy my life with sociopathy acts against me.so my analysis on this stalk is, this disgracing effort all is due to revenge of rejection and jealousy? mentally illnesses are genetically carried? since this sociopathy holding people and t heir acts, and their shizoid told hamit named relative or friend? i wont be shocked if this hamit named psychon whom stalks is relativge of these sociopath people:S these behaviors are super sociopathy+borderline. this neighbour is not our direct neighbour, just one beside house its. not direct home's surrounding. so all this psychopath stalk rooting from a neighbour in iskenderun home? ok i do thin k, i shouldnt erase out the possibility of a psycho religious cult or a coimmnst people set stalking me. cause this is super levels of sociopathy i confront. i mean you dont expect suc h sociopathy from normal neighbours. its either super levels of jealousy and mental illness. or its something other, like they are a psycho relgiiosu cult or cmmnsts? cause they are allegedly doing crime of sociopathy. normal people dont do such acts. there is something wacky happening. either these people are super jealous super maniacs and do crime of allegedly sociopathy against me like this. or there is something more worse happening like they are hidden cmmnsts(that t argets right sided people) or a spcyho religious cult (that targets atheists). these maniacs are doing  a crim e against me. visibly they are the ka va word inventors? and the root stalkers?  it really looks to be quite to be titled as "neighbour from hell":S  a sociopath neighbour.    ok i have a weird t heory. this wmn from tht people set has had con fronted  a super dishonest super unnice honor stealing thing in past as  we heard.  a worker fell in love to her. and some bad people tried to steal her honor with bad words. and she committed suicde as we were told.  (since she has no fault nor she never looked to that worker. she has no fault.) and their marriage wth her husband get saved. is there a little possblty, this neighbour had ptsd, and thought my moms are also from people set whom meant bad words to her(whilst never ever:S ) and doing such psychopathy sociopathy  to me due to that? cause they talked a sentence of "'this woman's name' shld get over":S ok this is super unnice:S  if this wojman is behind this stalk iconfront? or she became a sociopath and tries to torture every  lady she sees with such narrative afterwards? what the heck is going on:S ok this is the last theory. i wont name the name of this woman. cause it would be indecent :S but i do confront a honor stealing trial with such super unn ice sentences an  d with super psycho stalk as i talk about.  by the way i heard this story this year. and defntly my mom and my dad never ever said anything bad to her ever:S noti even for once. but the things i confront the pattern of it, that its a sociopathy with such psychopathy, and that my honor is tried to be stolen, with such sociopathy acts, made me query whether this woman has some mental problem and being super rich, ius the root stalker of this? disgusting stalk i confront? and allegedly done sociopathy acts/labels/words/names?      a person that confronted dishonest honor stealing operation  by others, doing same thing to all ladies she sees? is this whats happening? what the heck is happening i have no idea. i constantly confront such sociopathy. and i heard these people are inven tor of kava word. so i am just thinking over possibilkities. i always knew/inferred  root stalker si very rich, cause has power to stalk me in 3 cities.       is whats happening is a woman confronted a dishonest honor stealing thing trial by psycho neighbours (who arent my mom nor dad. we dont even live here. we just used to be direct confronting their house. but  mom and dad never ever are people who would do such bad talk.) whilst she has no fault. i heard this 2 weeks ago, what this woman confronted, a very indecent thing, a worker has fell in love to her, and disturbed her. but people started telling bad things to her since the worker is inlove to her, while she never looked to the worker. so she coinfronted dishonesty of such insult. and she committed suicide. but her husband saved her or like and they are happy now. (nice that they are happy). but the thing i confront is similar to this pattern. some psycho in love to me? (a hamit named)? i confront a sociopathy i cant define by words, a super level of sociopathy, i wish my blog could describe its level. as told, t hey allegedly tell label to me as i heard today, then they later on alsio said "'that woman name' should get over". ok we definitely have mentally ill neighbour situation than? a ptsd or some problem holding person fixating to stalk mne due to mental illness and being rich being succesful int his  acts of disturbance with stalk. is this whats happening?   my mom an  d dad are like an gels. i never seen they talked about anyone outside an d whatever we talk is always  work/economy like things. we arent ignorant people whom talk  about people. or mom or dad isn t like that. so, is this sociopathy done by such mental illness? that that woman has ptsd and wrongly sets targets to stalk to do sociopathy acts since she lived a dishonest trumaa that she ddnt any did any fault for that either. i mean its very sad she has confronted such indecent dishonest acts from others. but being ptsd? she sets targets rabdomly? like being evil neighbour to mom and dad due to ptsd? and targetn gtheir daughter (which is me)? is this whats happeniung?  let me clarify, i never ever heard even for once mom  and dad talking about someone out of our family. and tyhey neve rtalk bad things about people. i all mylife never seen else even for once.  is there such wac ky thing that i am targeted by a ptsd due to wron g targeting? that she selects everyone everypeople as people whom talked bad about her and tries to destreoy their lvies sicne she went throug such trauma? but she  definitely choses definitely wrong targets. cause my mom or dad never ever talks about people, and never ever talks such topics about people. i never even for once seen they did such thing. i never ever seen. they arent such people. they arent ignornt people. only ignorants do such acts. so maybe this is whats happening? this sociopathy i confront is a mistargeted sociuopathy act of a ptsd person? i am confronting allegedly sociiopathy acts and my honor is thrown to ground with such sentences as i tell here:S this is super disturbing. is this sociopathy rooting from such situation? that i am target of a ptsd with mental illness and mistargeting ? e.g a frenemy of our family targeting their daughter? is this whats happening? 

i still have not understood whats happening :S     but i guess its an evil neighbour situaiton(that has mental illn ess and selects targets to do sociopathy due to that?) ? or ar ethose people a psycho religious cult? or commnsts? i dont know whats goin gon but i do thin k its one of these three things. 

i remember olga shouting and olga is one impersonations like other names i mention. from that same house. i tried to think itsnot any related. but this night i confirmed these people are the sociopath stalkers, the root stalkers caause they repeated stalk narratives the sociopathic sentences. or the label kava what the fck kava means? anyway.  so i do think, on this crime situation, the most possible situation is as: this unlukcy ricvh woman whom confronted dishonest insults to her honor grew up ptsd. (Cause i heard the story 1 week ago, that she after confronting dishonest insults whilst she is innocnt, even cmmtted sucide, but luckily after she and her hsbnd have merged and their marrge saved.) so she is trauma? in ptsd? and randomly selects woman to make them confront similar truama? of honor stealin gthin g?  is this whats happening? cause this night, they told allegedly the stalk sociopathy narratives. then in one sentence they told "**** shld get over". **** is this rich woiman's name. ok, so i wish i go away from here to very far places and get run away from this mentally ill woman's targeting? what the fck? what kind of unluck situation this is:SSSSSSSSSSS i dont know what the fck is happning, but this quite is a possible inference. or these peole are cmnsts? or a psytcho religious cult? i mean its either mental illnes or some political hatred or religious hatred? cause this sociopathy, cant be done by normal people. either either some mentally ill behind this, or some political hatred? (since i am rightiest? and some commnsts behind this? ) or religious hatred? (since i am atheist and a religious cult behind this? ) have non e idea on whats this? but for sure its sociopathy a severe form of sociopathy:S what kind of unlucky person i am:S to confront such socioipathy:S


ok so goals: coding game and buying either a cute home in Alaska or a mini island so that i become protected from sociopathy:S this things i confront are super disturbing  an d super traumatic and super disgusting and super psycho and super sociopathic:SSSSS  i want to be protected from sociopathy:S so continueing coding game whilst i feel a strong disgust to sociopathy i confront in my recent life:S

ok i wish we never had guests today so that i hadnt gone outside to hear sociopathy. i were happily studying in my room to game. ok tomorrow i would be happy again. yepp. i would forget this disugsting feeling of confronting sciopathy feeling. i were happily coding my game. and so i had to sit in outside with guests. and afte rthat whislt i heard the sociopathy of that neighbours of 2 flats away neighbours. :SSSSSSSSS i wihs guyests hadnt came and i had a peaceful codeing night instead of spending time with guests outside in gazeb o of our house.




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one thing/one clarification whilst i confront such sociopathy: i am not for sale nor never been nor never would ever been. i would prefer being dead instead. i dont  need to get money from other people, my family is always beside me and beside i am an engineer. i really would prefer being dead instead of using money for such thing:S i whebnever need money my family is always present for me. and this is super level disturbin g to confront such sente4nce to m e due to this stance.  i even resigned from a workplace when manager said to m e you have btfl face. i resigned from another workplace since one manager shown me alot interest of talk an d i found it disgusting. he were trying to promote me and i left/resigned finding that super talkativeness super disturbin g .  i mean, i really dont any even tiny little bit a person that would  use self to gain any thing.  i mean this is reverse of what i am.  and i would prefer being dead instead of such thing. so, whgen i confront such insult, or such sociopathy, its super levels of disturbing to me, cause its reverse of what i am. i am a proud person. and    to me money is something thats earned with hardwork or intelligence (e.g. creating a software project etc) but not other ways ever. i left 2 workplaces only because i suspected managers were showing un watned attention. just only b ecauise i suspected. and i felt strong disgust. and left very good work conditions. so these things this sociopathy i confront is super disturbin gto me. since i never been such person. in my life, whatever i won whatever i established depends on either hardwork or my intellgnce. i am a proud person that lives life 0on her own power and also parents power. so this sociopathy i confront is super duper levels of disgusting.i mean such sociopathy acts to a person who always won her life with hardwork+her intelligence, is super dishonesty/severe form  of sociopathy.for me, money is for buying things, nto ever for love topic:S i mean i find it as a super disgusting thing that these people told such sociopath sentences like "boris should sell this ork" :S  this narrative also repeated by this psycho neighbours. so boris is relat ed to these people? so this is a "neighbours from hell" situation? looks as like that? (i mean we have a sociopath neighbour situation). so wanted to clarify, whilst such sentence be sociiopathically be told, i wnted to tell that i am not any sale nor ever been nor would ever be. its reverse of what i am. i lived my life on always my own power/my brain;s power and whenever i needed money, my parents supported. and i pay back always also in later years their support. i am a proud person.

so i do think, this thing i confront is either rooting from someone's mentall illness(is it that woman who had unrelated trumaa? or hamit named sociopath stalker? ) or some cmmnst grp? (since i blogged in intern et that i am rightist, do cmmnsts target me? ) or some religious cult ? (since i blogged i am atheist, become stalk target of such cult like thing?)? what the fck is goingon?

as i heard that that neighbour had previous trauma of being trying to have her honor stolen by lies and tried suicide but saved luckily and luckily their marriage is restored, i just wonder , since i confront honor stealing opeation like thign or trying to disgrace things, i wonder, could these people have trauma and do sociopathic acts around due to that? most possibly not? a nd is it a hamit  named sciopath doing this sociopathy? or is it some religious cult? whom is doing this? this sociopathy? its either hamit named sociopath stalker or that ptsd? neighbour? (mentally ill? and doing sociopathy acts against others that what she had gone through ?) what the fck is going on:S? i am sick and tired of trying to understnd whts going on.i wish no guests come to house so that i dont go outside and continue coding my game. then i would go very far away either buying a mini island or buying a cute home in Alaska with a huge garden.


ok  so agenda continues: were at very fun place at game. in coding game. tonight i became little bit unhappy. but would become super energetic tomorrow again:) so gam e coding agenda continues.  and then would continue on goals. i think i like swimming so i might also buy a mini islan d after. yepp i were super fun point at coding my game. were reading srtm file. and its rgb values and looked to mountain  Evereest's height to quantize the grayscale rgb colors to world's heightmap:) then guests came:S anyway would continue working tomorrow. and as told  i would go far away from sociopath stalker's reach.  and buy either a mini island or a cute home with huge garden. after my game gets popular. i would make sure its super btfl so that it gets popular. so there is lots of tons of hardwork still but i am super excited to work for the game. and that it might become online soon i think a non game version maybe this week and a game version in end of this month.



ok so summary of everything abo ut stalk:

the stalk roots from "neighbours from hell" like situation. 2 houses left , the neighbour repeated stalk narratives alot. and in end of night, one woman said "get over this naive" to one other person. so this stalk sociopathy labels names creation roots from a sociopath neighbour. either they are sociopath, or they are commnsts? or they are a religious cult? i dont know what their motive is, but last night as hamit named be named there and also the stalk narratives that i confronted the harrassing sentences be talked from there. so the root stalkers is a maniac neighbour visibly.  so this is a local crime like thing that extends to multiple cities. this stalk harrasment i confront is not limited to this confronitng in this city i newly came, but extends a 3 years length duration of stalk. they repeated the same narratives that  were used in stalk incidents. they used the kava label (thats newly said label in last year's stalk) they repeatedly used that label. have none idea what it means but from other stalk harrasment sociopathy incidents, i infer this one is also some bad label.an d they used a rich woman's name i dont know for what purpose. i made up a theory based on that. since they said "*** should get over". and since this rich woman i here learnt has  had a traumatic honor stealing opearion confronted whilst she is innocent and bad things happent. i wondered if this woman is men tally ill due to such trauma and applies such sociopathy to every lady she sees? but then i thought maybe they mean t "**** should get over" (maybe **** tries t o stop these people's  sociopathy. maybe **** saw their sociopathy and trying to stop this sociopathy acts. i mean maybe ***** is the angel. not the devil. i am trying to find out the devils behind this stalk. so thinking ***** is also adevil is quite incorrect since only such sentence wouldn t mean any such thing. ok i am sick and tired of trying to be detective. i confront a blatant sociopathy acts against me. i remember 3 weeks ago they shouted olga. i thought must b e unrleated. but olga were one other name used to harrass me with impersonatin g with olga name and some sentences. so i never thought initially there is sociopath neighbours. b ut turns out the stalk i confront is from a sociopath neighbour. i dont know whats their motive. either they are jealous sociopaths trying to do such acts to a lady they are jealous of. or they are cmmnsts and does these acts due to political hatred. or they are a religious cult that is of psycho types and do these acts since i am atheist. i dont know what is their motive. but   i confirm the root stalkers are the neighbours. n  house left neighbours.its either revenge of rejection that they are sociopaths and since i dont look to this hamit named psycho (maybe its their relative? ) and they do this sociopathy due to that? or  they have worse motives like they are  religious cult and torture atheists with scoiopathy? or they are cmmnsts and try to torture rightist people with sociopathy torture type?  i have non idea of the motive. but t his is the summ ary of this stalk incident.they also used saral name. so they might be related to this "kuma" shoutings 3 years ago. so my inference is that these people are related to "kuma" topic(that somepeople said kuma but  i never replied nor talked nor even  cared such sociopathy). or else whatever sociopathy i confront.


i am sick and tired of fighting against sociopathy:S and sick and tired of blogging about it to fight against it. its not an y pleasnt to blog about it either. i just blog about it to fight against it. since i am given labels, to tell back its socioipathy i have to blog in accordance. an d i am sick of this sick cycle of confronting sociopathy and being mandated to blog about it to fight against it. i am so sick and tire dof fighting against sociopathy. blogging about it is not any pleasnt either. i mean i dont like spen ding time to blog about it. i just feel i have to to fight back against the sociopathy. and this cyle of constant confrontation of sociopathy and me havin ghave to blog about it to fight back to report the sociopathy (to fight back against it) is super tiresome. i am sick and tired fo confronting this trauma. why some people ar esociopaths? why not  everyone is normal?   i am sick and tired of fighting against this sociopathy i confront. i definitely feel fatigue & disgust feeling to this cycle of sociopathy i confront.i am  super sick and tired of fighting against sociopathy that i confront. turns out the root stalker is our n house left neighbour. ok. they shouted also saral name, saral name were shouted with kuma word. so these people are all maybe relat ed to this kuma word (that shouted 3 years ago) and such psychopathy sociopathy i confront from such these sociopaths.


so things to do: as i confront a ment ally ill's stalk (the n left  neighbours), things to do:
code the game. buy a mini island somewhere or a cute home in Alaska with a huge garden. so that these negih b our from hell cant ever again even for a tiny instant could ever do disturb me with sociopathy.i would make sure i would  be in a place this sociopath sta;ler neighbour cant reach me out to do psychopathy/sociopathy acts against me.
ok so having goals of buying a m ini isla nd and or a cute home in  Alaska with a super huge garden.


ok lets reconstruct happiness. i lack energy today little bit. so lets get coffee. i were at super fun place in game:) i checked Everest mountain's height and added to code:) (i also want to visit Everest one day:))but i am more a Patagonia person than  Everest:) i mean Everest is not my super interested holiday type but i would prefer cam ping in Patagoina or such places more as holiday type. cause i never been super interested to climbing/hiking in mountain type of sports.


ok so lets code my game which for sure would scale alot:) i would make it so b etfl that there is no chance of failure:) and then as told i would either buy  a mini island or cute home in Alaska with huge garden thing (so that the socio negihbour n houses left cant reach out beside where i live to do sociopathy mixed stalk/harrasment to me) an allegedly done sociopathy effort i observe. as i told what kind of sociopath acts are done for 3 years.   i gonna make sure this sociopath neighbour cant reach out to my home with buying a home that is not possible to be any neighbour to. either a mini island. or a cute home in Alaska with a super huge garden.



and a note:  (i dont  knoiw if anyone would wnt to be friend to a person with such b log either :) i mean  a person wit h  such maniac probnlems:)) (i mean i would have understood if i wont have any friends since i ahve such blog that talks constantly of sociopathy(turns out the root stalker is n left house neighbour). but as told, this is  the only way i fight against the sociopathy i confront. blog thing. )
and as told if ever any wnna be friends exists? my life is super hard currently, in such prob lems i cant have friends right now i first need to establish the goals i mention. but in future,  any wannabe friends are always definitely invited to parties/events. i actually like friends. but  i am inside a traumatic condition. first need to fix that.  than if ever any one wnts to be friends, definitely invited to parties/events/noons/coffees etc.





ok  collecting energy for today:) today gonna be so fun:) hmm would listen nice musics and code the ggame and as told i am in a super fun place in game:) that i would maybe add a geode to my game. or maybe later on:) and might add world with respect to srtm data: )and atmosphere also:) but as told, first shader would be just a 4 vertices and a sky colors rendering trials  not the geode initially. hmm as i know sun's position in sky due to kepler's simulation in my game, time is to check sky coloring algorithms absed on scat tering  that also would take in to account the srtm data. so defintiely suiper fun point, all i needed to alst add is generation of spherical coordinate based 2 d texture and flux extinction (i would iterate 1kms along world's atmosphere. i mean since constants i have is like optical depth is for 1kms so the flux would be get extinct in iterating 1 km by 1 km along with the sun's loc and accordingly sun light's direction.  so i am happy i could move to shader side of project finally after the example 2 d texrtures are going to be get generated. then i would add some cloud trials that clouds would really be at 8kms high and 1 km -5 km -10 km wide and would be rendered in some precomputed ways again. would experiment on rendering clouds. then would come the initial geode addition and srtm based heightmap rendering. then there comes the DTED data based real terrain rendering  thing with lod things also and various optimizations. thne there comes character rendering (that part would be super hard because osg game engine's i thin k weakest part is import problems of models. other game engines do it much easier usually. but osg is super strong in game engine side so models side?could take time to import and iumport anuimations also. but lets first finish the init ial world planet and then after characters, vegetation (actually vegetation  might be handled in terrain task side also) than cities. for 2100 world would be differnt. it would be apost war world. (i wish no wars happens in real life by the way:) i mean its just a game) (in this game, aliens wuold have attacked etc. the stereotypical sci fi topic:)) any way the game's agenda is like this. its targeting to be amulti plasyer massive online game.




ok today's study playlist starts with this and some techno music.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OdV6SkGZb3g
(i like the music in above link alot)


yayyy coding fun starts right now:)

this techno music i listen now i used to listen 4 years ago or alike time ago:)yayyy its still very nice i think this compilation:)

its super exciting:) look out this silly code piece:)
var col:UInt =  (img.getRGB(0,0).toUInt - 0x0c0c0c.toUInt) & 0xff.toUIntvar col:UInt =  (img.getRGB(0,0).toUInt - 0x0c0c0c.toUInt) & 0xff.toUInt

since its grayscale :) fun super fun:) since i am reading world's SRTM data:)yayyy:)

ok deletion of 0x0c0c0c is wrong, :D i would erase that, its the basic sealine color but so why the heck i deleted it:) just should note that as sea height and would use it as separation of sea and continents. but lakes? those to be checked later on from maybe vectorel data if i could find? yayyy i missed listening to this music:) it has been 4 years or alike:) its still amazing compilation:)

its a compilation by Adrian Eftimie.


ops lets check the comic strip i like alot:)

 awhile a guy shouted in outside saying "guher is ege. i am in jail"  ok so whats this thing of giving guy names to me also in this impersonation thing. this is super absurd/super illogical sociopathy i confront:SSSS i remember the ege name first in ferikoy 3 years ago. some people shouted with hatred "ege! ork! ege get over!" . ok so this is like i dont know but its like as if i feel like as jason bourne movies:D i mean i am not any agent either ever. i am just a computer engineer. but these things i confront is super illogical super absurd. i just had job offer from  NSA but ddnt accepted since i had other plans. is thewse people whom stalk me think i am agent or alike and stalk with torture due to that? are russian agents stalk/torturing me? cause this isthis stalk i confront is super absurd. this sociopathy i confront of being impersonated as many people is super absurd. either these people whom stalk me are a religious cult that tortures atheists?  or they do confuse me as an agent or alike? so t hey do torture of stalk? ok this is the craziest theory i made up. but the thin g i con front is super crazy, there is no other way than creating crazy theories on the things i observe. this sociopathy is  super disturbing an d super disgusting. i still have no idea whom  these sociopath people are:S but i don t thin k its any confusing me as an agent or else? cause i remember this tugra named impersonation thing even 4 years ago.(i had nsa job offer 3 years ago and i declined cause i had not dream to work in such sectors.. so there is no chance i am stalked like this since people confuse me as an agent or else:S? but i remember boris name stalking. 3 years ago. in cafe again stalked. by this boris name. ) i thought thjose times(4 years ago) tugra is a separate person (i understood i am impersonated last year a n d i undrstood tu gra  is anoter name. i checked internet tugra is a guy name. what t he fck? i am not man. secnodly i am not gay either. ok this things i confront is super absurd. last  day some one walked the street shoutedly told "mert is a trouble(bela)" .so i also heard this mert name in this stalk inciden ts. ok this is really like a theather. its for sure i have got a sociopath neuighbouyr.  but this impersonation as men names is super disgurbing :S i mean this thing i confront is super illogical. super absurd. super disgusting. super disturbing:S my main theory is that, these people are some kind of religious cult. and torture atheists like this. cause other wise why somepeople stalk a person just words based like this for 3 years. i mean they cant  disturb me physically. they just do this impersonation thing or else. i mean this much effort to try to disturb someone with impersonation, this wont cmoe from normal people. either the motive is sociopathy (the psycho neighbour) or its something  else like a religious cult like thing is stalking me. anyway.  cause whom else would do such sociopathic acts. normal people wont do. this looks like either a crazy religious cult thats stalking torturing atheists,  or its a sociopathy situation t hat i am stalked b y a sociopath neighbour.  ). i wish i had power and could hire detectives to learn whats happening. i am just so helpless in learning whats hap[pening, i have non idea whom these people are. one word thats shouted is "hami". it looks like a religious cult's word. our neighbour entering home 2 days ago, shoutedly told "hami is gay". i guess these sociopaths also shout me hami. and many impersonations/many names/many labels. to me this looks like a religious cult,, i mean i strongly think a psycho religious cult is stalking  me with torture since i am atheist. the twin house's neighbour shoutedly told "hami is gay". this hami word i also repeatedy heard in stalk incidents.       and the house n house left last night repeated stalk narratives other stalk labels. so there is something wacky going on but i couldnt be able to decrypt what the fck is going on. whom are these people? what is their motive in doing this impersonation thing?  and names and labels?how i wish i were a powerful person and could hire detectives to get identities of these people and learn their motives for such impersonation including torture effort.to me, these people really look like a psycho religiouys cult like thing.what the fck hami means? what the fck kava word means? a self contained terminology? i think its 99% sure that, these psychos are from a spcyho religious cult. cause what the fck those words mean? and what is this impersonation effort? anyway lets continue coding game. but i defntly thin k these people are a bun ch of psycho religious cult people. tjhat people whom stalk me are.  i wish i were an important person so that i could hire detectives to investigate these psychos whom stalk me with such torture of impersonation thin gs and all the way ork/oluk/fukara shoutings. its either a psycho neighbour situation or a psycho religious cult i think. i even get stalked from a boris named person in this stalk. i sometimes wondered, is it i as rejctd wrkng in NSA,  but russans thinks i am in NSA and torture stalk me due to that? but then i remember, tugra name impersonation i first heard (those times i hadnt known i were imperson ated as tugra)  happent 4 years ago, before such job offer. so i still have no idea why i even get stalked by a Russian name holding person ?  this things i confront are super absurd and super illogical  and super disturbing also.4 years ago, a bunch of woman passed saying "srra is not good. tugra!". i those times thought i had a srra named stalker. turned out in last year, i were called srra all these years b y these stalkers. and i also confirmed i am given also man n ames, like tugra or whatelse a foreign man name and what else. maybe they also called saral to me.  i dont know whom these people are and why they do such psycho sociopathy acts. its either a sociopath neighbour situation/case, or its a psycho religious cult stalkin gme like this since i am atheist.   ok this is super ab surd/super illogical thing i confront. my strongest  bet on the meaning of this absurd things is, that, these people are a psycho religious cult. my strongest bet on why such thing s happens is this. that since i am at heist, they stalk me torture me with trying to make me mentally ill an d torture mylife with sociopathy/stalk. this is my highest bet on the happenstances. otherwise, its a sociopath neighbour, thats the second strongest bet. anyway. how i wish i wer e apowerful person and could hire detectives to catch these stalkers/sociopaths stalk and learn their motive. i wonder what s the  motive of this sociopathy/stalk/impersonation crime applied to me.  i most wonder that. the motive behind this. why this shit impersonation/stalk/sociopathy is applied against me? is it a sociopath rich neighbor? or is it a psycho religious cult? or is it revenge of rejection of sociopath rich neighbour's vicinity people? (hamit named sociopath stalker?is him behind this sociopathy i confront)  what the fck is going on. i have none idea. i wish i know. i wish so bad i know the motive/goals. the neighbour last day shoutedly told "bu safi aş"  means "get over this naive " . so either this is a rich & sociopath neighbour  situation or its something worse like a psycho religiouys cult doing these things.

during these impersonations, want  to state i am not gay either like  i dont uynderstand wht the fck hami means:SSSSS  this thing i cobnfront is super disturbin g:S being an  attheiust and confronting such things is super duper level disturbing :SSSSSSSanyway, i wish i had power to hire detectives to solve to learn what the fck is happening and whom these people are and their motive. in morning a guy wer etalking in phone to a tolga named person. this name i also heard alot in stalk incidents. he told things like "tolga, aga, get over. some sentences i forgot. bla  bla. she is a computer en gineer. get over" so an aga doing this stalk torture to me? that the neighbour also be related to him? thats the highest bet on possib le motives of this stalk torture i confront.

ok this is a super insance 3 years of life of confronting such torture of stalk/impersonation/sociopathy. i guess it s a psycho rich neihbour doing this psychopathy/sociopathy or a psycho religious cult.


this is so insane. even a boris named person stalked me.  i mean i think i get stalked by a Russian person. i got that he called me srra. i thought srra were a dffrnt person had no idea it were told to me. e.g. i went to kadikoy 3 years ago, soime people sat beside my desk and started talking about srra/boris names. (want to restate, srra has none relatedness to my cosuin ever. she has no any relatedness to this stalk i confront. i guess these stalkers randomly chose names and srra is just another name chosen. i mean 100% my csn  has none not any little bit any relatedness to this stalk i confront. its just nmes cncdnce. i very lately actually only lst year got that tht were one nmes used in imprsntn and be clld to me.(i get tht in one stlk incident) )

so i am  really so powerless in decrypting what the fck is going on  adn whats motive of these people whom stalk me. i wonder alot the motive topic. what is the motive of these people?

i guess its either a psycho neighbour who has a psycho hamit named relative whom stlaks me and all of them do sociopathy acts against me sdue to reven ge of rejection\?  or these people these psycho people are from a religious cult that is psycho type? my hgihest bets on meaning/motive of this sociopathy i confront is this.


i mean i would call these pthings hapepns since my bro solved p=np? but 4 years ago he hadnt solved yet. but he wer ea bright maths person. i mean if i had been genius i would think i am stalked to destabilize/break  a genius person  for reasons i dont know. but i am not genius also either. so what the fck is goin g on?



for my brother:
i wish my brother hadnt left the book writing project (Radar book to UN). i wish he had resumed.  anyway, whislt i am  not any genius, i have a little bit genius brother.   i guess he were bitter to the book writing team since they hadnt read his p=np article. so we understood/inferred he left the writing book project being bitter tto such reasons.  I had no idea my brother left writing the book till recently. learnt 2 or 3 weeks ago.



ok lets contin ue coding the gamey thing.


ok this impersonation thing doers are maybe manipulated by others since bro solved p=np? since this thing i confronted amp-lified with such disgusting mode  last year .i mean whtvr kava means or hami nmean s, they started to be told last year. so one possblty is that, these are done for some purpose but somehow related p=np innovation? i mean  i am tried to be turn to mentally ill by some people for reasons i dont know but for since due to p=np innovation? i mean i have no idea of what the fck is going on  and whom are behind this impersonation stalk thing?

its either a sociopathy situation i think, that we have a sociopath psycho neighbor, or a psycho religious cult is doing this acts. i think whats happening is either two of thesde things. i dont thin k its any related to p=np innovation.

as told, 3 years ago i were shouted kuma. i think such kuma culture might be doing this sociopathy acts. or its a psycho religious cult. i wish i had power that i could hire detectivesw to investigate what the fck is going on. i wonder these psycho people's motive super much. is it a psycho religious cult (not normal relgiions cults. a psycho version of a cult?) or is it a psycho sociop[ath stalker? some guy shouted me "hurrem" in istanbul. so is that guy whom made me shouted "kuma". so due to reven ge ofg rejection, he does such psychopath sociopathy acts? thats quite possible. i do think the possibility of a psycho guy doing this is more than a psycho religious cult behind this soc iopathy.   a guy shouted hurrem in istanbul 3 years ago(it means that guy has many wives and forcefully tries to make me one) and like before that a kuma word were shouted. so this sociopathy i confront might be done yb him for revenge of rejection.  I am sick and tired of trying to udnerstand wht the fck is gng on. i wish i were a powerful person and could rent detectives to investigate whats going on an dwhom these psycho sociopaths are.



anyway lets continue coding game. and dreams of buyging a mini island or a cute home in Alaska with a huge garden. 


i defintiely feel as this is really like stranger things:) that me trying to decrypt whats going on:)

and there are funny stranger thing  s like things even happent in  my life as i told before:D thats the weirdest part. (e.g. princess leila incident. i dont do any sculpture with any hair style afterward that incident. ) (it wer elike, maybe i told 10000th times, i made scultporue a n d her hair resembled prcnses Leila and next day heard real prncss Leila passed away. )


or recebntly, talking about Conjurnig movie, the next day a bird entered our house from 1cm opening and hit my mom 's head . and the other day the carpet fell and crushed a glass so loudly to 3 stairs all.

or its like in dream seeing my bro's nose bleed and in morning they telling me nephews nose bleed t hat night.

ok one weird incident, those years since i thought i had a psycho stalker nmd srra whm curses me etc (turned out thy called me srra as i tell) i hated srra name those times and in quora article i saw a woman's name of sierra. i said what is this name that stalkers name also foreign version also exists. i looked to the screen with disliking the name. then next day, in world, in Sierra Leone a mud flow disaster happent. the day before i said, i never heard Sierra name. the day after i said i had never heard such place on earth before. I had no idea those times that srra were said to me by stalkers. i thought i had a stalker named srra that curses me stalks me and etc. last year i understood they cll srra to me. (again this topic is not any related to cousin:S its just a random name selected by stalkers. they select lots of names to do impersonation things. i mean cousin is a very nice very good person and has none relatedness to any of this stalk thing. its just a random name they selected as i get. since i see impersonation by many names. ). this sierra incident still shocks me. cause it were first time i saw sierra name. and i said what a diffrnt name. but remembered srra named stlker and felt dislike to name. then the next day the disaster news hppnt and i said asked what there is a place with this name also. those times i thought i had a srra nmd stalker. turned out it were just one of the names told to me in this impersonation thingy.

another weird thing. i said i blogged i would have rhinplsty in phillipines and next day a ferry disaster happent in phllpnes due to bad weather conditions.
and another weird thing:i thin k the weirdest thing were, i think it were, that me randomly selecting a podcast from past and podcast told something like. i that day blogged i confuse plant names. the podcast were about anthropology and told whilst talking of anthrop;pgy or cultural evolution i dnt know what were the exat topic, but it said the thing "sometimes children forget plant or house hold names". i blogged i forgot my plant's name 1 or 2 hours ago. i think this were weird timing thing. and the podcast were from past. i selec ted years ago podcast. and it wernt personalized view. i mean the podcasts were ordered by time order. i selected something  from earliest pages. so it wernt a peorsonalized feed either. so this were the weirdest thin g i think.

i th ink these were all coincidences. nothing weird. but the last one were weird. other ones were coincidences. (or its a simulation:P i mean if they arent coincdnces my bet its a simulation this thing :P ) (b ut i do think these things are all coincidences that  happens to all other people. i just ddnt frgt but happens everyone's else life right?) (ok a modernists self stigmas against things that are things like simulation. i mean i felt shame of telling such storiesw whilst being a modernist:) ) (i mean i told with excitement, but then i felt shame for telling such thin gs since my core is a modernist:))i mean they must be just coincidences. and if they arent, then my bet this wer ea simulation like thing:) but i feel ashame for thinking correlation as nonmodernist things etc. but that children forget plant names were really weird. it were reallky a weird coincidence. its as if i am a children of what i thought if it were a simulation?  though i dont thin k its a simulation. and those were just coincidences. such coincidences happen to everyone else. not specific to me.
people that were weird. i b logged 2 hours ago that i forgot this plant's name. then 2 hours later, the podcast i chosen, thats not personalized to me, that is timely ordered, had such sentence of "children forgot plant/household names sometimes". i think i would never forget this incident. since it were weird. i were living in a very nice hme by then in 35th floor:) lived alone. my living room were cute empt y. there were all big windows and an amazing view.

or some people made a joke to me? changed the server of university's podcast to his/her own streaming thing and said such sentence to make joke to me? i dont know what happent that day truly. but thats the weirdest event.  like a joke, saying "what kind of memory you have? only kids forgets plants/households names" kind of joke?    or it were jusrt a coinciden ce. but it were a weird coincidence for sure.but the podcast were like its sound were like given in auniversity hall by a proffessor also. so it were interesting.



so absurd things happen both this like and both that like. its the most absurd 3 years of my life:S and its has been torture like years:S i am stalked with impersonation/sociopathy(by a hamit named sociopath as i get), its torture. the impersonation thing.




while returning backt o normal life times: a  memoery from when my life wer enormal:
the guy who told me genius resembled me to intelligent woman in Lucy movie whilst i am a dumb:D    but i am dumb as hell:D it were all misunderstanding of confusing me as a genius person:D  (that guy un officially told wortking in NSA chance but i had no such dreams (i have strartup dreams) so i rejected, hmm  3 years ago. or maybe 3.5 i dnt remmber. )the guy constantly insisted i am not using my full capacity like wor ds. whilst i have no actual capacity other than what i use:D i am dumb person:) i consistently rejected being told genius since i am not any, not any little slightest degree:D i am just a generalist computer engineer. tght likes to learn many t opics.vbut being dumb beside also. nto any genius.due to my generalist behavior, i were confused as genius. i am not any. i am just a generalist. this is a memory from normal years of my life.

for nonnormal years (last  3 years):
so i do think, this impersonation stalk is done by guy who made shouted kuma and hurrem. or its a psycho religious cult like thin g stalking. i mean either of two possibilities. its either a psycho sociopath thats stalking(a hamit named psycho sociopath) or a religious cult i think. 



yeppp:)
ok lets return back to coding  :) i rested a little bti while.

my moms sabotaged my diet unwantedly:D. i ate so light todya but when they came home they returned some high calory food with them to me. (a fast food) ok diet has gone for today:)


ok so things to do: continue diet tomorrow:P continue coding yepp. :)


wov this  chillout music is awesome for sure:) i am lost in melodies/vocals.  wov super nice



ok i watched 2 awesome movies last night:) i the first time ever watched interstellar (shame on me for nt having watched yet)  and it were very nice movie.


wov this voice: (met the song from the Adrian Eftimie's compilations)
Skye - not broken

i dont like usually these type of songs and but the voice,  so btfl. This voice sounds like a mixture of many voices. wov.


yayyy last day my head ddnt worked i dnt know why i think air were super hot yesterday and i lacked sleep frm prev day.

hmmm so yayyy spark integration time:)
the sun's light 1km extinction scattering per 1 hour angles among mini latitude angles separations hmm there would be many shells around atmosphere maybe. lets being silly lets avg take 0.5 km distances among each atmosphere shell. hmm that wouldnt be appropriate hmm ok lets take 1 km shells aorund world. in spark i would in tandem execute lights extincing among many lattitude angles *24 hours    among 16 selected points in Earths orbit aroud sun. not taking into accoutnn the Milankovitch things of course. i am not a scientist. my models my simulation is very simple:)



ok somone resembled to Lucy:D  unrelatedly, after that year,  my life has been very hard like Lucys movies' life that i am stalked by pscyho sociopaths who said very creepy sentences and i last year stopped going outside. constand dehumanization/constant trying to degrace/constant impersonation of diffrnt names and ork things. and unrelatedly or i dont know why ev en a Boris named guy also stalked me with such nrrtves. so thats why i created theory that i am confused as an agent?(while i am just a computer engineer) and stalked tortured with impersonation of many names due to that?. i have been very bad tortured with stalk with impersonation last 3 years. i know its non related. but as visible i created many theories and my strongest bet is i have got a hamit named sociopath stalker. second is a psycho religious cult is doing this. third is i have none idea actually:) could it be as: i am confused as an agent and stalked with such impersonation torture due that? cause one main stalker had Boris name. e.g. when i went to kadikoy district 3 years ago, some people sat beside me and talked Boris and srra names (had no idea it were like other impersonation names, like srra, like hande. (its not my cousin. but i had no idea i were impersonated with such name than. i thought i had a srra named stalker by those times)) then every cafe i went i were stalked. in other city, i were stalked again. very horrible stalk/impersonation i confronted. i neve rthought it resembles stalk like in Lucy's movie until mentioneing yesterday. after that year, i st arted to get stalked by such sociopaths. so one possible thing could be i thought whether i am confused as an agent? (i am definitely not) so that rssns stalk me? with information manipulation and impersonattion? i dont know but i know that i confront ed a horrible stalk/torture type of impresonation/constant dehumanization (ork thing)/constant stalk.  like when you sit in a cafe, they would talk of olga named person, then you would in maybe 4th times of such stalk, you get that you are called olga by them. or like hande name, in that i understgood super lately that were another imperosnation name.i got stalked by such psychio people that i even started to scare from going outside. (like hard as Lucy movie character's life). i been confronting impersonation crime for 3 years or alike. i just even scared of going outside last year. constant stalk.  constant names assignment. so i do think, my human rights has been harshly violated for last 3 years with impersonation torture type. one name assigned were tomris like and they shouted even tom name to me. the nsa agent that offeered job were also Tom named. so this backs up my theory that, its Russian or like that trotures me thin king i am an agent? i have no fckng idea what the fck i confronted last 3 years. but even got impersonated with tom name as a simplificaiton of tomris name. whislt the nsa job offer were done by a tom named person. and i confronted a horrible stalk by  people in 3 years. i do think, people confused me as a agent or else? so they stalked me horribly ? (e.g. commnsts stalked me?? since as to9ld, one name in stalk were Boris . one main stalker harrasser were Boris named. ) i confronted a horrible stalk. constant dehumanization(as ork) from these people. so maybe really cmmnsts stalked me i have no  idea. to get impersonated, is a severe psychologically torture type as i observe whilst seeing its applied to me. severe form of labels, misinfomraiton campaigns like thing. like giving labels etc. unnice labels etc. giving names etc. and a constant high degree of high vicinity of stalk.i lived vrey hard 3 years. i think i get stalk torture by rssns? since they think i am an agent? i dont know what the fkc happent? i am nto any agent. and i am defintly against cmmnsm also. but i am not any agent or else. i am jut a silly computer engineer. but confronted such horrible stalk last 3 years.  these people do so bad impersonation things/misinformation things/manipulation thigns as i get stalked, i observed these partterns. of gibing multi names etc.

it were so disturbing. its so disturbin g. i still scar eof going to outside. cause getting impersonated is the uttermost disturbing thing i ever sdeen in life. cause for instance, i discovered hande for instance the hande name, were asked to sell (maybe sex?) since a woman in  cafe shouted me "hande! sell!".so i were even impersonated as a prostitude. this much bad human rights violation and torture i confronted. i thought i had a tom named stalker , then i figure out it were jut a nother name assigneed, a name of tomris name. i dont know what tomris name is given meaning of? i  have no fckng idea. but the stalk were as, in ankara, i were living in a house  (my first house), in 1 below floor some guy loudly told "tom is super intllgnt". these people called tom to me and stalked me even with renting a house  in beside  floor. so tomris, just a nother name /impersonation applied to me. as told, the time to figure out, that there is not a tom named stalker, but its told to m e take a lot time. i figured out th is pattern only last year, after 3 years of stalk like this. i do think these people are maybe cmmnsts or like and do such torture to people who are not commnsts, who confuse as maybe NSA people. i am 100% against commnsm. but i am not any agent. but i do think, i been confused as oen and stalked tremendously afterwards for 3 years. i do think its maybe most possibly Rssns behind this stalk. cause one main stalker name wer eBoris name.
i found myself in a universe where some psychos shouted me "hande sell":S i were impersonated by a prostitude like characer even:S its been super hiorrib le life time:S last 3 years. i always run away from stalk places when stalk happens. thats why i repeatedly done. and in last year i stopped going outside anytime except the times of going to workplace.
one other name i captured used in stalk were tania. a woman i remember sitting in entrance of house talking tania, its late etc words to another person in remote line. and when i wer ewalking in kizilay i remember some guy saying tania! sell!. so i were tried to be impersonated as a prostitude as i get:S this were super traumatic/super levels of horrible/scaring creepy moment.
so rssns do very bad stalk torture to people who are anti-commnsts or alike as i get. they try to impersonate you with bad characters. i guess its Rssns cause the guy, one of the main stalkeer in this stalk inciden ts were Boris named. I am capitalist minded person.  and they confused me as an agent or else? i dont know what, but i been stalked/impersonated with awful roles as i tell for last 3 years like that. that the guy who told me as intellgnt as lcuy movie's characerr, i really started to get stalked afterwards like that woman by visibly bad characters.  the people whom stalked me were as if they know e veryplace i go. they have lots of people everywhere kind of situation. so my guess, since i am a capitalist and anti-commnst, and since i were cnfsd as an  agnet? (NSA persn or else?)  i were tortured by Rssns? with impersonation type of torture, that i am tried to be impersonated as awful roles like prsttde or else. and beside that, i confronted constant ork shoutings etc. ork/oluk etc. just 2 days ago, a guy in outside shoutedly told such sentence again. shouted oluk. this stalk type of impersonation is the i think one of the worst torture types, i do think my human rights has been violated with impersonation type of stalk very hasrshly for 3 years. and last year, new labels came up like kava. i have non idea wht the fck it means. or new label like "hami". so many names/many labels, this impersonation torture is applied with such schema as i observe. and there happens a severe torture/high vicinity stalk in accordance to that.

like i said, i were so scared at that home, than i changed my home to anoter home with getting de bted. then my mom and dad ddnt liked the home i moved to and make me move to an awesome home at 35th floor.  it were such a beautiful home:) mom and dad payed, but i payed them back so i got debted nmore:) but now since i am awhile unemployed(i have astarting contract in 1st september) mom and dad pays my bills. (lucky to have such supportive mom and dad. they always pay my bills when i cant. thanks alot to them :)  but ofc ourse again i would pay them back what i took in this 3 motnsh. ) were i safe in that 35th floor? no. because a woman in corridors shotued "aga/srra" names which i heard alot in stalk incidents. i now know srra is a label/name given to me by these stalkers. so in 35th floor, i felt safe from stalk  (because in other house, as told, the stalkers rented a flat in below floor to stalk. and also came to front of house to stalk. and i  couldnt go to cafes there beside home(there wer e cafes 800meters) cause  there i were stalked also. so in 35th floor, at least phsically i felt safe. i mean i am away from street level i felt safer. since the stalker cant stalk me from street. but hadnt felt fully safe, because a woman shouted  the impersonation name in corridors. so i styill scared alot. but felt safer than previous home. and truly, it were the most amazing home i ever lived:)

so rssns stalk with torture people whm they think  they mght be NSA people. this might be whats hppngng. because the torture of stalk i confronted is beyond imagination a horrible form of stalk torutre. since i were tried to be impersonated as super bad roles:S constantly:S it were the most horrific years of my life.

so among possiblty set of what hppns in this 3 years of stalk: among possblts of a sociopath stalker (hamit named_), alonmg possibiluity of a religious psycho cult stalking me, there exists tiny little bit possblty of Rssns stalking me torturing me with impersonation sicne they confuse me as an agent (i am not any agent. i am just a silly computer engineer). (but of course i am anti-cmmnsts, and i am capitalist)
impersonation acts still continue. nearly everyday or most days. very awful labels. very awful curse. many names. i am even told man names. and consistently done. this impersonation torture is a severe form of human rights violation i do think. in psychological wise. its a psychological violence type. giving a person awful labels/awful characters(and my cousin isnt any related(she is an awesome person not any related to this stalk, its jst names coincidence) i mean i its a random name they chosen like hande name as i get. i mean they even shouted me mens name like tom/tomris. i thought all these people are stalkers, turned out they like to impersonate me with dffrnt names. and i definitely think this is a strict form of human right's violation. if justice exists in world, i wiush these people doing this injustice would be catched. since this is a severe form of injustice, trying to impersonate a person/giving her characters /labels. if justice exists in world, i wish the people who does this 3 years of impersonation torture and high vicinity stalk like that would be catched by police and or international police deprtmnts. i confronted a severe form of human rights violation. its either a sociopath doing this(hamit named?) or a psycho religious cult? or cmmnsts? whomever are doing this, i wish they catched by international/national police system so bad. cause this is a severe form of human rights violation. a psychological  torture type. impersonation thing is super disturbing form of a psychological torture. if justice exists in world, i wish so bad that international or national police deprtments catch these epople and learn their motives in doging such human rights violation acts. impersonation is a human rights violation, a severe form  of psychological torture. i wish so bad people whom do this to be catched. as told i crafted theories, but still dnt know whom these people are ro whats their motives. i had crafted 3 possible explanations. one is a sociopath stalker(hamit named?), one is a religious cult(psycho religious cults? as we seen in reality shows etc? ), one is the theory that they are cmmnsts?     )  and stalking with like that. i do think these people really might be cmmnsts. and doing ths torture thinking i were an agent or else? (thinking i work in NSA or like firms?) i am not any agent. i am just a dumb silly generalist computer engineer. but of course, whislt, i am anti-communst and i am rightist and i am capitalist.and confronted severe form of human rights violations last 3 years. its either froma socioapth stalker (hamit named i guess) or a psycyho religious cult( i dont say religious cults ar epsycho in such definition, i mean the psycho type of religious cults) or else or cmmnsts.


the reason i resembled to stranger thins is being stalked by a person which has a Rssn name. as in new season of stranger things, we saw Rssns doing bad things. and some people tryign to decrypt what is hppnng. so me resembling to Stranger Things came from there, sinc e i am in the middle of a puzzle like stalk. its either a sociopath stalker (hamit named) or a psycho religious cult (since  i am atheist?) or cmmnsts?


and that Leila sculpture, i dont kbnow what else to do other than telling it. come on people, if you do a sculpture with some hair style unintendedly, i were just palying with hair and said: look this hair resembled princess Leila, oh at least hair has become awesome (i like star war movies), then the next day i hgeard she hs pssd away (disaster). and i asked whether if i am a medium or alike if this were to be a simulation, aka eitgher Christian or Muslim definition, i mean simulation means one or multi Gods based religions. i queried little bit whether this could be asimulation in that and i could be amedium?  bvut then i said it mst be some weird concdnce.
but it hadnt ended with that.
let me tell this  guhu the medium's weird things: (i am atheist, but when i think these i wnt to ask if i am a medium)

other thing is Sierra incident. i saw in internet the Sierra name and ddnt liked (cause thought i had a srra named stalker) and i said, wov its first time i saw this name (since simlr name exists in Trksh, but its like its English version). then next day in news, tv showed a storm based disaster in Sierra Leone. and i said i also first ever heard this name thatg there exists such city in world. (since i am super ignorant truly).
then i blogged i would have rhinoplsty in Phillipines and next day again a storm happent in Phllpones with  causing a ferry disaster. and i said wcky medium like cncdnce:S
and i said i normally dont use such emojis in twitter, i used squid emoji or octopus emoji, than laterly i saw my friedn talked about octopus robots 2 hours earlier than my tweet but we both hadnt saw our tweets. its like mediumship to friends? :D ok too much pseudo science? :D yes but these things really happen this weird concndnces. about strms etc.


--breaking up this paragraph to report stalk incidnet.

as i am tried to be impersonated as a "kava" (i dnt even know wht the fck it means)  last year, a guy shouted such sociopath sent ence 2 minutes ago outside. are these people cmmnsts? or a psycho relgiious cult? i mean this much effort? to impersonate a person. what is the motive? what is the mtive to try to do impersonation to her? i wonder that.  kava is the new impersonated role. it has been told last year. for 3 years, i told lots of names/labels. last year, to impersonation stack, kava and hami labels added. i dotn know what the shit they means either, but i do think they mst be somethibng unnice like all impersonated characters.

---end of stalk incident report


----returnuing to paragraph of weird medium like things. 


another one:  i think this is the weirdest one. as told. i were blogging about my plants. in home. in that sweet home in 35th floor (i miss that home:D it had amazing sunsets)   then i said i forgot one plant's name. then 2 hours later, i said, lets listen some anthropology podcasts. there are 100 or alike podcasts in anthropology area. i went to earliest pages with clicking next/next/next... tyen selected randomly a podcast (thats from past). the podcast talked a bout i doint know it talked about some sociology or cultural evolution or such topics but  in the middle of it, guy said a sentence (children sometimes forget household/plant names). and i said what the fck. again a weird concdnce i said like the abve things i mentiond. i ddnt liked that podcast because it repeated knowledge commntly known like Erikkson's developmental perspective or alike thing s i think, i mean the common topics it told about. a general course introduction it could have been. but that coincidence were very weird. i just dont forget this incident, i think this were the weirdest one. cause the podcat from past. ok, so i religions are real and if mediums are real, mediums could evben predict past. lets read more special relativity to understand time in further time. but i am atheist. but these weird coincidneces really happnt which would kind of ask me whether its a simulation (that religions are really real?) ki nd of queries due to them. 

the octopus one were also weird. i said some tweet including sayign i am a cute octopus like silly sentences. and later saw a friend tweeted 2 hours ago a tweet something tht octopus robots are built. and we ddnt tweeted both without seering our tweets. so if religions existed, i would say i am a medium? that talks similar topics with her friends :D or this is another weird concndcen. (but i never talked of octopuses until that day. i just used it as a emoji for the first time. and hadnt read friend's (not my follower, but i followed, but also dd references to my feed so might be friends) feed i mean we talked on same octopus thing at the same time with 2 hours diff. i know its ok to have this type of coincdnces. but i never used octopus emoji before:D it were a weird coincdnce. ok this one is just a super normal coincidnece i think. cld have happen with high frequency in evryone's life. 

one thing more:
i were studying neural networks topics and saw Gabor function. i said wov this name looks cool and this mathemathical function looks cool while studying thge deep learning book's that chapter. then: in that night or the other night, the news anchorman told a news about a mountain named Gabor and someincidnet there. and i said wht a weird cncndnce. this were even earlier than Leila incident.

so i do think, these coincidences happen to everyoine else right? i mean its just coincidneces. actually these type of coincidences happen in everyone's life, just people dont give attntion alot. i gve attntn since curious to.


aha another one.
i talked about trinity/religious topics(philosophy of religion). the tv show i watched talked abou t a trinity named person from past in the same day. it were an planned tv show on the most famous broadcast tv channel here i mean its not improvision b y the channel, it were visibly a planned tv show by a famous tv channel. so that were also weird .



another one:
i watched a movie and in movie a movie character blatantly lost her weddng ring to do some bad thigns. and i said what an unnice character(since deceived people (tried to steal things wth losing a weddng ring(whlst she snt married :D) , stolen money from people lke tht, thats why i said unnice to her character.  and also since also constantly deceived the other movie characters n mny times, thats why i ddnt liked her chrctr actlly since felt sad to the main movie chrctrs:) ). then i finished movie. then i watched another tv show this time in tv. in there a woman again lost her wedding ring but this time not for bad purpose of dcvng pple(she wre really married unlike the film character). i said a weird concndnce again. since the film were in netlflix, then i clsoed netflix and opent tv that is broadcast type and as i told why the woman lost her weddng ring, the tv show thats not improvised, had section where a woman again loses her wedding ring. i said wht the hck. again  cncndnce i said. the thing is, i watcha netflix movie and inside movie i say in my brain, why does she deceives peple as if she married whilst she is not and why she loses a weddng ring.then 1 hour later i opent tv, this time antrh wmn also lost her wedding ring in a public popular channel that has static content /broadcast. so it were again weird i think.

i think these coincidneces happens in everyone's life. bu t they dont give attnetion right? there is nothing weird in these coincidences right? am i right? i mean mediums dont actually exist right? i think so. i do think these are just coincidnces.


anrhtr one: i blogged these tihngs in private unpublished blog. and i said i want justice. and then i randomly selected a movie and it ended in sntnce of a robo woman saying "i am justice".  this is nt exctly a super cncdnce because its  both personalization but i could have wtched another movie. and also, how could my unpublished blog's data cld go to my movie slction.   and i blogged. and clsed the blog and then opent a movie. so thjis might b e just persnlztn. but i cld had wtched another movie. it were a cyberpunk movie. A famous Japanese anime based movie it was. Scarlett Johansson were playing the main character.it were agn weird coincdnce. cause right before the movie i said i wnt justice in my private unpublished blog.


another weird cncndnce: i wore a dress that is very weird designed(a black dress, woman fashion), that is not i saw in street nor tv. and as day i wore it, the ngiht in tv show there were a costume with such weird arm design that is depiction of aliens etc. (my dress has very weird armo's top design that i hadnt seen in tv or street until that time) but this is jut a coincdnce i think, i mean this can easily happen but again  fdelt  weird since i dnt wear that dress maybe 1 ine a 2  years etc. an d that arm design of dress i hadnt seen anywhere i mean its a really weird dress type really weird arms tops  side. ok this were a causal coincidnee, not any weird. but the other coincidnces i told are weirder but i do thin k suhc coincidnces happens to everyone, but only weirdos like guhu detects them, i mean this is how life works, coincdnces always happen. not only in my life, everyone else's life. i mean there is no weirdness in coincndnces. and i am atheist . i mean these mst be just coincidnecs. just happens in everyone's life not only in my life. i jut notice since i am weirdo, but happens in everyone's life.

aha another thing. i saw in my dream that my brother's nose bleeds. in morning in breakfast they told nephew's nose bleed. again timing same ty pe of coincdnce.

just correltns they are. they happen in eveyrone's life. just weirdo's like guhu notice them bt its normal course of life. coincidences happen. in veryone's life. i mean i dont belive its a simulation (eg..religions etc). i am still atheist.

just but if i gonna for a second analyze this things in different perspectives, like in some movie i saw, could others exist and making coincidnees? but i wont be chosen if there were others ? (since i am not genius:D)    (though my brother who invented p=np is kind of genius) (so thes ecoincidences, if they arent coincidences and others exist (if for a second i look to life in differnt nonstigmatized perspective (we modernist like to have a self stigma against alien topics, like our initial reaction is always nope aliens dont exist ways)) if others existed, then maybe others does coincidenecs. but i dont think aliens existed otherwise they would just commncte normally nt in psuedo science ways:) i mean i do think these coincidences are just simply life, normal course of life, i mean these type of coincidences happen in everyone's life.


the trinity thin g were weird, i in mornin g blogged about trinity/philosophy of religion and in after noon in a public common tv channel(in most popular public chnnl here), the guy talked about a person with trinity name. i  mean i fail in trying to understand how thesde coincidences happen when they are like this.



hey could it be "others" (alien s/future generations of humans) :) i guess i would never be able to learn :) (ok this turned to a paragraph like if from xfiles:D ) but the  couincidence of plant names aere also weird. i mean how did it happen. it were a really weird coincdnce. ok it must be normal course of life. i mean these type of coincidences happen to everyone else other than me? is it like that? everyone sees in life such coincidences right? ok i do think these coincidences happen  to every one else. i just since i am a weirdo think as if its weird to have coincdnces happen but its normal course of life. its normal. not any weird.  i m ean i dont thin k "others" exist. but if you start to nte coincidences list, as expected it wuold grow in time, since coincidnces is a normal fact of life. it happens in everyone's life. not only me.
ok the weirdest one were definitley the podcast thing. it were the weirdest one.


Ok guhu's weird talk on cndncs but these coincdnces really happent. but i guess these coincdncs happens in everyo0ne's life right?     yeppp must be like that.



yepp Instellar movie were awesome.  its a shame i hadnt watched it yet till last night.  I liked alot:) and gave me a dffrnt perspective to cncdncs topic? ? :)  nope cause i m not a genius, if others exists, they wont commncte with nongenius guhu:)  there are millions of people to cmmncte othr thn guhu:) it wont be me if others existed and had chosen people to cmmncte :)
i liked last night because i watched 2 awesome movies. Instellar were the last one I watched and the most amazing one i think:)


ok lets contin ue workin g for game thin g. and buy a cute Alaska home with a huge garden :) or a mini island:) with thing i win frm gamey thingy.



and yeppp :)and this song is sooo nice & peaceful :) (Skye's song).amazing voice and lyrics.


ok  yepp continueing Spark tasks.    but mom called so going down stairs. mom called me with phone:) (since i have headphones on)



this song isnt it amazing:)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AwuuuaKlXJ4




and i wish so bad police systems catch these impersonators. national/international police /justice/securty systems.  i wish so bad that this torture appliers are catched.
justice, its a simple word. but means alot of things.
injustice. its one word. but means lots of things as i observe.
impersonation: is a severe form of human rights violation. i wish  these psychopaths whom impersonate me with various names  with various labels get catched by justice systems like police like national/international police systems.
i tried to note every stalk incident in every happening time.   if there is a police dept reading this blog, from cell phone registrations they can catch the p[eople behind this i think. i have no such capability to catch these impersonator sociopaths. but police has power to bring justice. i wish so bad this blog is read by police departemtns. and i wish the people whom does this impersonation things are catched by law systems/national/international pol;ice systems. 
i wish in this human rights violation i confront, people who works for justice helps me. impersonation is a severe form of human rights violation. i dont know whom are doing this. but i do confront this impersonation things for 3 years. i wish there are people who believe in justice existence in world, and who fights against injustice or hman rights violations. i wish the sociopaths whom are doing this injustice/human rights violation of impersonation get caught.
living a life of honor, i wish i expect to find justice to this severe form of human rights violation i confront. maybe there are more important things in world, so that my justice request voice wont be listened since i might be not priotizied, but if ever any justice system worker has any spare time, i wish so bad he/she spares time to my justice ask voice. if ever priority comes to me:) cause i confront a severe form of human rights violation for 3 years. been impersonated as a prostitude like character with hande as i get from stalk incident words. and even man names also. and many more labels, some labels i dont even get meaning of.
living a life i am quite proud of, if ever this case has any priority, i ask for help, for to see justice. to learn whom are doing these sociopathy acts and their motivation and their punishment for doing such sociopathy/criminal level sociopathy.
i reported for instance a stalk inciedent at 5am. i do think that person might be related to the stalk cause used one stalker name i heard. so, police departemtns have cell phone  registrations right? they could easily catch these bad people behind this sociopathy/impersonation acts. if ever this gets any priority (i know there might be more important things polices works on) but if ever this gets any slight priority, i ask for help to catch the sociopaths whom  are doing this. i mean i wish police departments catch the sociopaths whom are doing this. and learn their motives. this is just a silent justice request.
maybe coincidences are, since i cant find justice and suffered alot by sociopath people's stalk, real God cmmncts with me through coincidences to give power?, to show he cares? ok i am atheist, but if i wernt atheist, i woudl also think like this.
 but i want help of world's justice systems help. to catch psychos socioapths whom  are behind this impersonation thing. if ever any slight justice exists in world, i want theirs help, to catch these sociopaths whomever they are that are behind this impersonation things.  i ask for help of justice systems. if ever they get interested. i know my help request might not be priotized, since there might be  more importnt things in world that they work on. but i ask help of naitonal/intern ational systems to catch these sociopaths. to catch these impersonators. who even give me prostitude character(hande name as i infer from stalk incidents is created a s aprostitude character) whilst creating characters/labels.


myu human rights are violated like this for 3 years. and i dont know where to go. whom to ask help? i as told havent understood that i am impersonated. by many names/many labels till last year.  i before thought i have got psycho stalkers whom shout me "orc" / "fukara" /"oluk" and last year also understood the impersonation schema also happens beside that. that i am impersonated with many names/many labels.
if ever people working in justice departments have little bit tiny bit time, could they check my help requeest? if ever anyone working in justice systems have time? to check this human rights violation case? where should i go ask for help to human rights violation topics? this ork/oluk/fukara shoutiungs and worser thing, impersonation thing i confront. where should i ask help from for this 3 years of imperonsation/ork/oluk/fukara shoutings? worse than ork shoutings is the impersonation thing. i am impersonated as many names, many labels, even as man.  where can i ask help for this torture thats applied? where do we go for human rights violation? i ask help from national/international justice systems/police systems' help. i would try to note everytime i confront stalk. i already note everytime. if ever any national/international justice system/police dept has free time to analyze a citizen's help request for a human rights violation topic, ( impersonation is a severe form of human rights violation) (i am impersonated by many names/lab els/ beside ork/fukara/oluk shoutings).   where should i ask help for human rights violations? having lived  a life i am proud of, confronitng sociopathy for last 3 years. i wish to ask help from police departments, both national/international. but maybe i am not an important person or important priotization that noone would analyze this. but as told, if ever any justice police system has time, could they please help me? to catch to learn whom are behind this impersonation thing?  this severe form of human rights violation?  is there anyone hearing my voice?    my human rights are severely violated for 3 years. i have created 3 theories on that: either i have got a sociopath stalker (hamit named? ) or a psycho religious cult doing this? or commnsts doing this?
i want to learn whom are behind this human rights violation thing. that this torture i confront, i want to learn whom are doing this and their motive. i want ask help from justice protecting systems. to catch the sociopaths whom ar edoing this? to learn whom they are?  and their motives.

this is a silent help request from a person whose human rights are severely violated.  this impersonation things i confront (i am impersonated as a prostitude even (of hande name as i observed) ) is has repeatedly happent for 3 years. both ork shoutings. it started with orc shoutings and alike that i constantly report whatever happens. i report every stalk incident as happens.  if ever any one hears my voice (from justice/police departments , whehter its for atheists or religious people, w might have dfrnt religions/no religions, differnt languages, diffrnt in everything but justice is something we all need to exist )  i want their help to catch the impersonators/sociuopaths. that are doing this acts of impersonation of me/giving me different names/labels.

and for coincidences topic, if i believed in God, i would think God is doing them(like doing jokes) to give me something other to think on whilst i confronted torture of impersonation acts /sociopathy acts. thought i am atheist.b ut whether we ar e religious or atheists, what we all need is justice.

i wish so bad the people who try to impersonate me gets catched so bad. and confront justice system's penalties according to this sociopathy acts they do. i wish the sociopaths get catched so bad. whether we are athists or not whether we are short/tall whether we are fat or thin  or else, or whatever else, all we need is justice to happen/exist. so i wish the sociopaths whom are doing this impersonation things are catched by the justice protection systems. sociopaths poison the world with injustice. make lives unlivable with sociopathy acts against other people. so i ask help of justice people to help this case /to fix injustice. to catch the sociopaths doing these. i created some initial theories on people who might be  doing these. either its a sociopath stalker (hamit named?) or a psycho religious cult? (since i am atheist?) or cmnsts?

I want also help of Church or Islam authorities or Buddhists or Jews?  i want also ask help of religions. to ask for justice to exist. i dont know in confronitng severe form of human rights violation, i dont know where to go ask help. i c onfront severe form of human  rights violation and dont know where to go ask help.

whether i am atheist or not, that i am not religious doesnt mean i live a proud life. sometimes i m ake fun of being thief (for creating money easily with creaating a popular game) bu t that doesnt any mean i m any thief or else. i mean b eing atheist doesnt mean you dont live a life thats dffrnt than religious people.

whilst confronitng a severe form  of human right abuse, of being iumpersonated, i ask help from justice mechanisms of world. like police departments. national or international. i ask for justice. for to catch the impersonators. i ask police systems help that does impersonation type of torture to me for 3 years with impersonatin gme (i get impersonation only last year before i were also unaware and thought those names are my stalkers). and b efore i thought i were stalked by people who i dnt know why hate me and shout me orc/fukara/oluk.  last year i understood i am also impersonated by these sociopath people in their high vicinity stalk.

i ask for justice,. i ask help of police systems to catch the sociopaths behind this sociopathy acts. if they have time and this could enter their priotization things,)  i confront a severe form  of human  rights violation and if any people works to investigate human rights violations and justice systems, i ask for their help. to catch the sociopaths that are doing these acts. to bring justice. wether we are atheists or not, whether we are ugly or betfl, whether we are tll or short or else, what we all need is the fact of justice to exist. i ask for to see justice. to see the stalkers sociopaths who are impersonating me to be catched. i want to see justice. mybe my voice of asking for justice to see the sociopath people/ criminals to be catched isnt important in world's important matters, but ifever any justice departments (police systems of world) has some free time, can he /she check my help request please?if ever anyone in justice systems have free time?


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take for instance, i entered a game chat group, and in chat group some people instantly posted a blog about orcs.  these people doing that, might be related to this sociopathy acts i confront. whom have power in world to catch such people? whom should i ask for help ? whom helps these type of human rights violations?

i ask help. 
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like i told about i am resembled to cockroach. and that i am a strong person. and a local news paper posted a news that is that a strong cockroach has been detected. i do thin k, whom does this might be related to main human rights abuse i confront. can people learn whom are doing this? whom can i ask help to these things? whom can help me? i ask help for justice
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worser than orc thing, is impersonation i confront. i ask help for that. from people who believe that justice is the core milestone of civilization, and that civlizations are important and that justice is super important, i ask help. to catch these act doers. i ask help to catch the impersonators whom impersonate me. i ask help for this human rights abuse i confront with even  seeing a local news about cockroaches in most important news paper here. i ask help for justice. i ask justice.
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whilst confronting this like torture, it feels dreamy unreal, this torture i confront, this severe human right abuses. i mean i cant believce such things happens. its super evil that i cant even grasp. it feels unreal. i after such human right abuses, continue my life like its normal. but the day i confront passes so bad for 20 hours or alike. but since these things i confront are super evil, i just cant even grasp them. i mean i continue living if human   right abuses havent happent. but they never end.  this human right abuses i confront, it feels like i am inside a dream, it feels unreal. i just cant grasp the fact that i am confronting human right abuses even. its so bad that, i continue life as if nothing happent, whilst i were resembled to a strong cockroach in main news company of here. i want people whom are doing that to be catched. i jwant national/international justice systems help. mybe that were just a coincidence but were very weird timingly.

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so my summary of injustice events: i before only though i were shouted orc/oluk/fukara only. but i get now i am impersonated as 10 or 11 names/labels.  being impersonated is super levels of scary:S and i scared of going outside all last year due to that. i want ask justice for these criminal acts done by criminal people(sociopath people). i ask for justice. if ever anyone works in justice departments (police or things about justice) i ask theirs help please. to catch the criminals doing these sociopathy.

i am constantly dehumanized/impersonated/messed with super evil ways as i report. i ask help from justice departments/justice mechanims of world. i ask their help to catch the criminals behind these acts. i ask help of people who believe that justice should exist or exists. i lack justice for 3 years. i ask help of people who are against human right abuses.  i confront human rights abuse for 3 years like the ways i report. i want to see the criminals whom  are doing these to be catched. i ask help from justice systems/mechanisms.

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lets con tinue coding game as if i am not confronting human right abuses for 3years:)  but as i tell i heal quickly, but i also want to see justice to happen. so i ask help from justice m echanisms of world to help me to catch criminals who are doing these.  specifically the impersonation topic. i want the catching of peolple whom impersonate me. i want to learn their identities and their motives in doing such sociopathy/human rights abuse type.

hey world, if you have anytime to make justice happen for a guhu named silly person, please help me.   i want to see the criminals who are doing these acts to be catched.

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ok when  i do confront human right abuse, i just cry/stress for a day, then i continue my day as if nothing happent. this is insane i know. but i think human right abuses feel like a bad dream to me, i mean whilst its real, it feels unreal. cause i am not used to a life with confronting human right abuse.  i mean it feels so unbelivable to happen that it feels like a bad dream/unreal due to that. i mean i cant grasp the fact of confronting human right abuse.

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ok whilst it feels funny to say the following sentence, whilst i confront human right abuse, lets contnue coding game:)  this positivce mood is because i dontlose hope anytime from humanity and believe in happy things. i mean i dont fixate in human right abuse i confront. i just can easily be happy since i am a coder and would code amazing game. and even also be happy for that:)
i just believe in happy things/happy future/all happy things. i do call human right abuse just as a bad dream.

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and how should we fight to protect human rights:) it first starts with protecting ours:) being silent is not any option and feels not any adequate.

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some people ar etalking outside but i cldnt understnd if stalkers or not since cant hear the voices. i am alert to possible sociopath stalker s topic so that i can report the incidents here.  hadnt been able to hear whethr is sociopath stalkers or not. since its not noon i cnt go outside to chewck either. normally stalkers shout the socioapath sentences alot loud.  like a hatred filled "oluk" shouting. or such "ork" shouting. and sometimes in i mid level voices like sociopathic sentences in wanderin ghere and but i couldn t get whthr stlkrs are outside or not right now.

i try to listen i heard some stalker names but cant hear fully. i dont know if the pepole talking right now a re stalkers or not. i am trying to listen from my room.  i dont know if these people are stalkers or not. i heard as if my name be told but i dont know if i heard correctly. not possible to know if these people are stalkers or not whilst i cant hear cleanly whts told. i dnt know if my name were n amed. since my room is away i cnt hear crrctly. (guhu turned to a detective while trying to catch sociopath stalkers. ) i dont hear fully bt heard lttle bit as if my name wer etold. but cant be sure since i cant hear nice. i do think really named. so these people really might be from stalkers perpetuators people set. as told, they visibly rented a flat in 2 flats or such distance left. i just cnt confirm  but i heard the "kava" labnel also. so these people might be directly the stalkers. but cnt hear well. so its not sure if they are sociopath stalkers or i heard wrong this time.also said olga name also if i ddnt heard. so the people talkng might be really from sociopath impersonators people set. since i remmbr olga n ame in stalk incidents last year. hw can i learn identities of these people outside? cause there is a high possblty that these people are sociopath stalkers.  if any police dept is helping me, these people talking outside has chance of being the sociopath stalkers, if any police dept is helping me, could you check their identities? these people might be the sociopath stalkers. cause i heard the labels on e of the last year invented labels by the sociopath stalkers.  the impersonation thing. i heard the label used in impersonation. they are  visibly gone now, but 1 minute ago they were still talkin g  outside. ok my way to ask help from police is super weird i know. i think the impersonation crime also happent. but not fully sure since i cldnt do detectiving thing well. i scared of going outside . next time i would be a better detective and somehow succeed to go to outside. if a police dept me is helping me, the impostor sociopaths ar emost possibly these people. i  think i correctly heard. its 99%. anyway. next time i shld be a bette rdetective in catching crime a nd do voice recordin gthing. or video recording thing with voice. but to do that, moim should tell me how t o open one door that i can silently go outside and record video. to capture evidence of impersonation/labels/stalk.     cause last time i went to police, police asked me video evidence. lets ask mom how that diffrnt door is opent so i silently record the video evidence of the impersonation & stalk & sociopathy. and if e ver any police dept is helping me, people who were outside are mnost possibly the sociopath stalkers. and i know i n eed to prove that with video recording. postponed to next time. guhu learning to be a detective to fight against sociopathy/impersonation/stalk crime. but if a police dept have resources that can some how in technological ways know whom were talkin g  outside  5 minutes ago, these people are the sociopath stalkers cause they repeated stalk narratives. and next time i going to prove with video record. i wld silently go outside to record the vide of stalk/sociopathy/impersonation thing applied by these people. when   next time they stalk like this. currently we hyave guests in our house (relatives) so i cant also do detectiving thing., eg. i could use the balcony in  one side of the building to record video evidence of the stalk/impersonation/sociopathy, but in that room a relative stays right now. so video recording of impersonation/stalk/sociopathy left to second time.

there are many impersonations. i am impersonated as tom name as i got. as 10 or 11th name as i got from stalk incidents. another foreign man name is also said. thats also an impersonationas i heard. ok lets catch these criminals i wish they come stalk next time, i would learn to be detective:) like how to do video recording of stalk/impersonation/sociopathy.  i if mom topld me how to open some door,  todqay would ahd recorded the stalk. btu since stalk repeats, i would learn tomorrow and would do create video recording so that we could catch these sociopath stalkers/impersonators.  i wished so bad i learnt how to open that door, so that i could had silently video recorded stalk/sociopathy/impersonation tht happent around th ehouse today. tomorrow i wld le;arn from mom.so that police could catch these sociopath impostor stalkers and learn their motives and justice happens since sociopath impostor stalkers would be catched.ok so the video recording of stalk/impersonation/sociopathy left to next stalk incident. since i dnt know how to open some door in house and that would be the very ultimate place to do video recording of the stalk incident in outside. i could silently do the video recording of stalk/impersonation/sociopathy from some place in home (to record video evidence of stalk sociopathy impersonation things happent in outside of home. a  place where i can do a video recording of the stalk/impersonation/sociopathy incident. and share also here. and also to the police. ) (the video evidence of the stalk left to next time) (how happy it would be t o catch the criminals who disturb life for 3 years with stalk/sociopathy/psychopathy/impersonation. i would feel really a relief and it would feel as 3 years of life hadn t spent with confronting constant psychopathy/impersonation/stalk/sociopathy. it would be a big relief to me. to catch the sociopath stalkers thing. and see that they are punished for their sociopathy/impersonation/stalk acts. since this stalk events repeats, i know i would have the chance to record the video evidence. only i need to learn how that door is opent in house. that ihas dffrnt opening mechahnism. then i would have a place to record video evidence of stalk when happens. then the stalker sociopath would be catched via the video evidence of stalk/sociopathy/impersonation. i would truly feel a big relief of justice when i catch these sociopath stalkers with video evidence.  )

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ok so agenda, learning how that door opens. so that next time sociopath stalkers come to do impersonation or alike things, would record video of. to catch these sociopaths. so that justice happens so that these people doing this sociopathy get catched by legal system for impersonation/stalk/psychopathy/sociopathy crimes.


ok today i felt better. but last night whilst in trauma i ate mucus inside my nose alot. my trauma behavior is that. that i constantly ate mucus inside my nose with my big fingers. when i am super stressed, e.g. when i confront sociopathy/impersonation/psychopathy/stalk thing i mention.  so my nose feels weird today. feels like its fallen or more weighted. ok. so after i fix life problems of solving this sociopathy crime i con front, i would do a rhinoplasrty and so that  scars of trauma goes away. (like a defected nose thingy). so going to catch the sociopaths with video recording their sociopathy act.  since sociopathy/stalk repeats i know in soon i wouold have chance to  record video evidence of this. maybe this night it would rehappen. i would be recording video evidence this tiem. so that i would go to police with video evidence of the sociopathy/impersonation/psychopathy/stalk. so lets learn how that door opens so that i could go record video evidence of the stalk from there. i would notify you blog readers all stages of this crime investigation. i start recording video evidence of the crime i confront. last nigh t i confronted this sociopathy/imerpsonation crime again. but hadnt had chance to do video recording. the next time they come to do those acts in vicinity of our house, i would be recording video evidence and so via the help of police systems, and via the record of e vidences of repeated sociopathy/impersonation/psychopathy/stalk  crimes, i would be able to sue to police system to see finally justice happens for this torture type i confront. gettin g impersonated is a severe form of human  rights violation. and i would make sure i would catch the criminals doing this act with recording video evidence of this crime.in the next time that happens around my house, they would be video recorded and so i would have evidence to go to police. i wont leave any trail of catching criminals, i woul dmake sure i make justice happens with catching criminals doing this torture to me. (of impersonation/of sociopat hy/of stalk ).


so maybe we should do a constant voice recording around house? and in time stalk incidents happens i record the time so i collect evidences like that?. but need video evidence. thats the only way to catch this repeated stalk/impersonation/torture of sociopathy type crime.  lets collect video evidence and go to police with that. and catch the criminals whom are doing these acts.  next time they come around house to do such acts, i would be video recording. and i wouldnt leave any trail any clue of this criminal acts against me. i wont stop investigating until i catch the criminals. that they repeatedly apply this stalk/impersonation acts even with coming beside my house. these criminal people would be catched. there is no way of running away from justice. i would make sure justice happens. i would catch the criminals that are disturbing my life with sociopathy/impersonation/stalk (for 3 years) with video recording evidence next tiem they come beside my home to do that act.  so that police could inquiry them/their motives and punish them for their stalk/impersonation/sociopathy crime.  i would catch these criminals(impersnoators/sociopaths) with video recording stalk/sociopathy crime. they would pay back their dues to legal system for the sociopathy/stalk/impe rsonation crime. would make sure these psychopaths get catched by police so that they confrong inquiry of police so that their motives are learnt.  and that they pack back the dues to legal justice system for disturbing people with impersonation/sociopathy/stalk crime. next time they come beside my home to do this impersonation torture,  i would video record.
but if any police dept is interested to be proactive: they could also catch without my help. the names i heard in stalk incidents are: ege/ada/tugra/srra(not any my cousin. they randomly chose names as visible)/hamit(not an impersonation name but used)/ olga/tomris and or tom (impersonation name)/aga/hami(dnt know what it means)/kava&kav(dont knw what it means). if some people say these n ames and use the stalk narratives, you could be sure that these are exactly these sociopaths that these acts like stalking me in high vicinity. if any police dpet is interested to be proactive in catching these criminals, tyhey could even catch without my video rec ording of stalk/sociopathy/impersonation. they could do detectiving and catch the criminals. but if this criminal's socioipathy acts is not important/priotized thing, then i myself wont also leave it to anyone but would catch myself these sociopaths with video recording of the crimes they do as they come beside my home to these crimes. i wont let this crime applied against me get uncaught. theyt would pay back their dues to justice system for disturbing a person like this. i wont let this get unpunished. they would be sued to police and justice system. i wont let. i wont let they do this torture of sociopathy/impersonation/stlak for 3 years and be unpunished for that.   they would pay back their dues to sjustice system for their criminal acts against me. i wont let this stalk/sociopathy/impersonation  acts get unpunished. they would be catched. i would do video recording evidence of the crime when they repeat the crime against me. when they come beside my home to repeat this psychological torture act of sociopathy/impersonation/stalk/curse things, they would be video recorded. there is no way running out of justice in this specific injustice situaion.they cant run away from justice.  i would make sure justice happens/exists. with recording video of the criminal acts against me when they do repeat. they cant run away from justice for the criminal acts they do against me (which is high viicnity stalk/impersonation/constant stalk/constant following/constant names creation/last year also labels get created/constant high vicinity following & stalk with such acts) they gonna pay their dues to legal system for these criminal acts they do against a person (criminal acts of sociopath y/stalk/impersonation. they gonna pay back their dues to jutice sytem. justice gonn a happen. the criminals cant run away from justice. i would make sure  they pay back their dues to legal system for this stalk/sociopathy/impersonation crimes against me. they cant run away from justice. they would pay back their dues to justice system. i would both sue these sociopaths to police and legal system after i could collect solid evidence of their criminal activity (of sociopathy/stalk/curse/following/impersonation crimes) they could not run away from justice. i wont let they do this like 3 years of sociopathic acts against me and being unpunished also. they would be punished by the justice systems/legal systems. i would make sure justice happens. they cant run away from justice system. would collect video evidence4 of this sociopathy and go to police second time. first time i went police even ddnt listened me. but that time i were also unaware of impersonation acts but were only aware of ork/oluk/fukara shoutings. this time i would go to police with all solid evidence. there is no way of running away from justice. they wont be able to run away. they would pay back dues to the justice system for this crime against me. they wont be able to run away from justice. i would make sure these criminal like psycho socio people get caught. so mom opent that door since i said i wanted to spend also that part of our house. that would be my place to do video recording when stalk/sociopathy crimes happens and it has a very big view around house. i would succeed to collect video ervidence of the crime of stalk/psychopathy/sociopathy/impersonation.  so happy mom opent that door i ddnt knw how to open. it would be continously open. (there is another door behind it so there is no security leakage due to having that door being opent) ) i dont believe in many things. but one thing i believe is justice. the thing i believe in most in world is that simple world:) another word i like to belive is love. another word i like alot is art. but the word i like the most in any language is justice:) i would make sure justice happens:) i would turn to a detective for that temporarily. a stationary detective. since stalk happens around my house. (it also happens when i go to cafes. butr i dont go to cafes so the only possible left stalk sociopathy way is doing that around my house. so they constantly some days stalk around my house. next time they come, i would be collecting video evidence. so that the word i like the most (justice) happens. they would pay back their dues to legal/justice systems for doing sociopathy/stalk/impersonation acts against me. the thing i want most in life right now is to justice to happen. i dont care if my startup succeeds or not. but the thing  i dream most is to see justice happens. and that these psychopaths pay back their dues to legal system/justice system for the crimes of stalk/harrasment/following/constant degracing with ork/oluk/fukara words/impersonation crimes they do against me. my dream the dream i want most is to see justice happens. i wont let this flow, i wont let this injustice stay. i would make sure justice happens.   i would turn  even to a detective to make that happen. with video recording stalk harrasment impersonation curse shouting ork oluk fukara shouting crimes.     they would pay back their dues to legal system/justice systems for these criminal acts they do against me.  )

they also impersonate another foriegn name either me as a gay person or else. but i wont write the name here for misunderstanding.   but a woman shouted that foreign name as "foreign name is ex". she might be calling that foreign name to me. i mean on e thing for sure that fgoreign name is impersonated. the shouting came far away so not possible to record this sociopathic sen tence. they would in cafes before, sat bside me and say "some foreign name is ex " .  but those names are always impersonation. e.g. i were impersonated as a tom named person. so this "ex" including shoutings, you c ould be sure they are coming from these sociopath stalkers and that the names are impersonations. they impersonate both me and both other people. i have no chance to record the sociopathy of impersonation this time. but i know i would have many other chances. 


and another guy loudly told "am is still..." (am is a curse that means vagina). then said "aga la". as told i heard this aga name also in stalk incidents alot. but not sure this belongs to sociopath stalkers. since this might be unrelated.

ok i would have chance to record video evidence of these sociopath peoploe's criminal acts of sociopathy/curse/impersonation/stalk for sure and make sure they pay their dues to justice/legal system for these criminal acts (sociopathy/impersonation/curse/stalk). lets go to that place and try to do video recording. cause i figur eout right now impersonation happent. lets try to find the source of that impersonating shouting sentence. from that place. lets find. i would make these psychopath sociopaths pay their dues to legal/justice systems for this impersonation/sociopathy/curses/stalk crimes.
no i couldnt catch the stalker now. but i know i would catch. not this time yet. but next time.i would make sure these psychopath impersonator sociopath stalkers are catched by police.

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ok news from normal side of life:

ok i have agenda of adding spark side tasks to do flux extinction simulation. little things left. but i couldnt studied yesterday due to trauma.  but tomorrow would work on.

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another news, we setup a company like thing to get jobs. wish we company creators luck:)  not officially formed company would exist until we get our first job.

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another thing the whites in my temporal side of my hair (temples they say that to in English?) looked nice to me i dnt knowwhy, there is little bit white in that.  weirdest thing is my eye brows has white, happent this year. temples had whilte for 3 years like time, but newly it little bit got much. but the tiny little bit whites in my eyebrow are weird:D but i liked my temple's whites:) i would paint my hair but it looked charismatic to my eyes i domnt know why. i liked them:) somehow makes me feel as a very grownup person maybe thats why i liked them? :) i dont know but i liked the whites in my temples. this year whites happent in my eyebrows its weird. i never seen someone with white things in their eye brows. i only have:D this year happent:)


ok i today would right now in focus do game c oding for 3 hours. yepp.lets write some fun code. i dont have energy to do detectiving today. i actually had no energy today to code or nothing(except helping house clenasing task) . now lets code for 3 hours. and if stalk happens it might happen after 12am as happent yesterday. so if stalk happens i would be  recording video record to catch the sociopath stalkers next time they do apply stalk sociopathy around my house.


ok lets change the trauma mood to some happy mood please. i actually couldnt get out of trauma today due to yesterday's stalk incident.   lets try to code game and be happy with that. yepp.

one tyhin g to happy our un official c ompany with someone would ask for jobs initially for the first time today:) thats some excitin g news. if we get such job, how nice it would be:) thats the exciting thing but since trauma impact hasnt fixed yet, i ddint get happy to that in way i would had. i mean its actually very happy news:) just my mood, i couldnt switch to happy yet. since 24 hours hasnt passed after traumatic stalk incident. its impact passes i think in 22 or 24 hours. i dont know i usually find it to happen like that, that my mood gets happy back after some hours after traumatic incident. ok would be happy again next day:) hmm i thin k i am already fixed now. i feel happy now:)yepp guhu is  back to happy mood again:) yepp:)

lets code the game:)

lets listen funny 8 bit music types also now:) i like that music also beside normal music:)



ok we are really constructing company with someone that i always wanted to have a chance to work with :)

yayyy:)  after an uphappy day, today turned very happy as we are constructing a company :) yayyyyyyyyyyyyy:)

I always wanted to have chance to work with this co-founder:) first company:) that gets created in an unhappy period in life:) but life would be happy again:) its already very happy now i think:) yeppp its already very happy :)

how could i not be super happy when my dream happent:) yayyyyy dream of setting a company happens. and having a chance to work with a co-founder (that i make hidden) (since lets tell not everything from b usiness)  that i always wanted to have chance to work with, this is super good&super happy news:)
yayyy company naming hussle in progress. i wish co-founder gives the name to the company:)
wov. this is a super good news:) wov:)


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and this 8 bit music is alsofun:)
guhu the coder making head moves along with the music:)
this music is super cute :)

funny type of dance moves i make:)
lets celebrate this with a sip from whisky:) this is super good news:) this is the best news that happent in my life i think:)

this is the 8 bit music:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RreryzfxxxE (i sometimes like to lsiten alot:) yeppp head dance moves and arms la la la  :D thtis is super fun music :)



yeyyy i think whilst it were an unhappy day, it became super happy since the happiest news happent:) a company is being setup: )and i have chance to work with the hidden co-foudner whom i always wanted to have chance to work since is a genius person. (i am not any genius. so having had a chance to work with a genius person is super:))  (wov:) ) (dreaming of setting up future bioinformatics projects :) but starting with other projects first:)

ok after i take our first project i might even code the proejcts in Bali sometimes:) why not:) ) i always get jealous of freelancers who both travel and code awhile. ok if these things happens and our company gets profitable, i would code in Bali for a while:) for a month maybe:) wov:) we are going to have a software/research place like and offsourcing company:) nice:) very nice milestone in my coder life:)  finally some milestones would be established:)


hmm rhinoplasty to be done where?:) i dont know:) something later. i wont do have rhinoplasty for at least 5 months or 12 months.


yayyy lets celebrate the company creation:) and find possible places we c ould  get our first offsourced coding/algo design jobs:)

yayyy:)
its super exciting:)
of course i would also code game in free times :) since game  could create an extensive income:)  so that we could work to create bigger companies.   but most exciting&happy thing is this company being formed now:)(that would do offsourcing project) its more exciting  and more important than game. but of course in free times, i would continue also game:) I always wanted to live in multiple cities:) that i say home to many cities :) maybe this happens :) yepp:)
they say sagittarius people like to travel alot:)i do also i am like that also :)

i plan to work also wrk for human rights topics in free times. yepp. maybe SDG goals or. dont know. or maybe organizations like One. we would see in time:) i were before an apolitic person thats self immersed in self topics. but after suffering due to stalk incident, i saw how bad is human rights abuse  when confronted from sociopath stalkers(that comes beside my house to do stalk me with sociopathy) and decided to also work for human rights/or organizations like One.org (aha  what were such organizations called i forgot the label for such super big organizations:S ignorant guhu:S). i were planning to work for SDG goals in long future but its priotized super much now after having hard life due to sociopathy/stalk i confronted. so lets work for humanity also beside normal work life:) yeppp. one other very important goal:)  (i were already a One.org member, but only internet member, i would enhance my presence in such groups more, would become much more active members)





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one information i read from a super interesting & awesome blog:
read that NASA has Jupyter's Europea mission in 2020:) wov super exciting:) People who work in NASA projects are super lucky i think:)  we <3  NASA:)
and its like Interstellar movie, the project of NASA includes search for alien life in Europea:) wov:) people who work in NASA must be super lucky to work in such super cool projects:)
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yeppp working on some tasks.

yeppp  sociopath stalker shouted sociopath/psycho sentences outside. but i ddnt cared/stressed since  have to work with some task for the to be constructed company so i ddnt cared this time the sociopathy event. i would check the sociopath stalker situation  in 20 or 1 hour later and if stalk sociopathy exists, i would do videorecording. currently working on some tasks for the newly to be constructed company.

ok 20 minutes ago i checked the stalker situation but there wer enone. then right now someone shouted a sociopath sentence from outside. its not an easy task to do detectiving for real. a psycho sentence be shouted. i wish i were still at the place where i were for to record video evidence if such sociopath/psycho sentence be shouted from sociopath stalkers. anyway. i know i would capture the video evidence next time then. a very psycho sentence got shouted this time(about selling :S). a woman shouted this time (last night stalk wer efrom a man's shoutedly talk). anyway, i know i would catch the stalk some time(to take video evidence). cause it constantly happens. get stalked continously by these people in home's surroundings. so i know i would capture  the stalk sometime. maybe not for today(that i couldnt be a succesful detective today) but maybe tomorrow.  I would forsure capture the video record evidence of the sociopathy/impersonation/stalk/curses/following.   this is my first  day in being a part time detective to solve the stalk sociopathy impersonation crime i confront. 

      ----------------------------ok ending stalk inciden t reports. i wish i get caught this stalk incidents with video record evidence next time. ok being a detective is not any easy, but i would manage to capture the video record of the stalk as happens next time. 





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from work side of life:
for our newly to be constructed tech company:
ok we did 30 or alike form  submitting for our newly constructed company.    (to init contacts or alike)
now resting time cause its 2:46 am. i thin  k i would submit 20 or alike proposals also tomorrow:) wish our newly to be constructed tech company alot luck:)


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ok one detectiving detail. one person shoutedly told Srap fire hamit from work. so a Hamit named person works to someone in place i crrntly live as i told this sspcn. i wonder if thats the Hamit that stalks me in istanbul&Ankara. i am a terrible detective so i have no idea if its like that or just nme coincidnce. and some guys talked "to:re" word outside("kuma" custom having people? since to:re thing belongs to such customs?  ). so ok this stalk situation is a big puzzle. i still dont know whom stalkers are. but i would catch their video evidence as they come beside my house to do stalk and catch them an d sue to police v ia that.  and in mid night or later, 2 guys entered a car kind of voice came outside, they saying "naive! she doesnt care any little bit". so "naive" were one word i heard multiple times in stalk. ok.   and one more detail: some people shouted a scary sentence saying "damla has cmmttd suicide" last day. before they shouted "damla is kava". ok these sentences are super  super creepy:S i wish i could catch these criminals whom are doing these acts/stalk. its like a puzzle. as told whenever i catch stalk/sociopathy/curses, i would try to do video recording evidence. last night a woman shouted "sell vagina!". ok this is the narrative of these stalkers i confronted also before in one another stalk incident. that i also reported this psycho sentence but not fully lsat day. as told i have super creepy super psycho super sociopath super maniac impersonator stalkers and i wish i could catch these criminals since what they do is a criminal act(stalk/sociopathy/impersonation/curses/very bad harrasing sentences:S ). they shouted "expell the ork!" (in  Turkish orku kov). in stalk in Ankara by hamit named person in a cafe, a woman shoutedly told same sentence "Hamit orku kov". so this Hamit is the Hamit name they tell here? or differnt people? where is this Hamit doing this  kov act (expell act) ?  ok i really wonder if Srp named woman behind my stalk and whether the Hamit that works for her is the Hamit that stalks me? what the fck is going on have not any even slightest idea:S tryign to collect evidence more and more in this criminal activities against me?  and they shouted "Srp expell Hamit." i wonder if this Hamit is the stalker sociopath that stalks me in  Ankara?  so is this, a worker that works for a neighbour disturbing me? is this Hamit the Hamit that continously stalked me in Istanbul&Ankara?  ok this is like a puzzle.  i have no idea wht the fck is going:S or whether that Hamit they tell is the stalker Hamit. but  would try to collect video evidences as much as i can whenever sociopathy /impersonation/stalk /curses happens in outside of my home. hadnt succeeeded yet  because to be a detective necessitates constantly waiting in outside for stalk incident to happen so that i can record video evidence of stalk/sociopathy/impersonation/harrasment/curses etc. i cant do detectiving thing good since i have other tasks to do.but i know i would catch the stalk either this night or another night. since it repeatedly happens. noit needing to constantly wait in outside to wait to stalk to happen to take video evidence (to go to sue to police). it constantly repeats so i would catch in this or next time. guhu the nonperfect  detective:)  that solves the puzzle not like a good detective. but i would solve this puzzle and sue the criminals to police whom does these criminal acts of stalk/harrasment/curses/impersonation to me. maybe not today but the other day. as told last stalk word were last night were "sell vagina!" :S this is the psychopathy/sociopathy i confront in this stalk. gonna sue these criminals psychopaths sociopaths so bad to police as i capture the video evidences. police would inquiry them and find whom Hamit is. there is a b ig chance the Hamit that they named is not Hamit that they shiouted as "Srp expell Hamit".

but last day the same sent ences repeated. these ork sayers a nd Hamit named person's people also said sentences like in stalk: " Boris should sell this ork". ok this is the sociopathy criminal level harrasment impersonation i confront. i gonn a catch these criminal people doing these. in  one stalk inc ident i saw Hamit character, its a gray haiured  brown skinned guy. anyway.  i am fighting against sociopathy/impersonation/stalk/sociopathy crimes. gonna catch these criminals as they are applying the crime with video evidence when they do the crime of stalk/impersonation/curses thing out of my home.

now tjhey do this crime, they tell me  naive since i dont care theirs acts. nice to let them  i dont care but i actually trying to do detectiving and collect camera records of the crime they are applyin g to m e (crime of stalk/impersonation/sociopathy/curses)

this is really like a puzzle. i wish i were rich and could hire detectives to solve this puzzle. but whilst not yet being rich i have to do detectiving myself:)



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anyway goals in life: 50% creating companies, 50% working for NGOs  since human rights become one most priority in my life as my human rights are attacked by sociopath/impersonator stalkers/psychopaths.           i saw how bad it is to confront human rights abuses whilst being shouted ork/oluk/fukara.

the guy whom told "to:re " word also used fukara word. ok this thing  i confront has definitely a linke to "tore/kuma " things that i confronted "kuma" shouting 3 years ago. so that "to:re" people are shouting me these? but whats the connection to hamit named stalker. hamit nam ed stalker from such to:re people? i have none idea.
i would catch these criminals(with video record evidence) and sue them to police so bad for their this criminal activity against me of sociopathy/impersonation/curses/stalk of 3 years.


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ok goals in life: 

* working with genius co-founder on that company
* creating millions from game project:P
* working so bad so much priotized for NGOs and human rights organizations (since as i confront human rights abuses from a sociopath stalker (hamit named ) human rights fights became my one first priorty in life to work on) (for instance, the to:re things? that should be definitely fight against. i would start with that in my NGO membership goals. fighting for protection for woman from blatant ignorance. (e.g. to:re like things and violence against woman like impersonation like stalk) ).

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from some news i read about African rooted people's hair, then i figured out i have same hair type:

* ok i think my hair genes comes from Africa. we are all RAE from Africa. but my hair definitely resembles African hair:) yayyy i might have African genes genes like black colored people :) nice:) i liked that:) yeppp not only pool  water, any water makes my hair like that unless i use a hair conditioner so much.  the news were about pool water's impact in hair. seeing my hair resembles African people's hair, i definitely liked it:)


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yeppp the song in random playlist has weird lyrics:S
there are hing in our world beyond our understanding, things we cant explain, that are super natural, that others dont wanna know about. sometimes shit happens and someone has to deal with it and we gonna call.

ok this were a creepy techno song :S i ddnt liked it:S  never had heard any creepy techno song before. and this song is definitely creepy. people please dont make techno songs. we listen techno songs to feel happy.  not to feel creeped.
 


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ok i played with my hair and give short cut like designs. and i think i would have rhinoplasty in 10 months. i liked some hair styles alot. even if i am ugly, somed poem in an important signing day told me i have beatiful eyes. but i have  ugly  nose :P
ok today i liked some hair styles that shown cute style. ok. so one whilst have long hair could  also have short hair styles an dliked playing with my hair today:) i liked having styles. playing with hair feels fun  :)

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ok lets continue coding the gamee thing:)

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ok the sociopath shouted sociopath sentences. i think i need to go to police and ask help. cause i have got a hell bent sociopath stalking me in terrible way with things i mention. again shouted sociopathic sentences. i think i really need to get help from police. i mean i cant solve this sociopathic stalk case on my own. we need a constant detective wandering around and catch thesde people as they do commit stalk/sociopathy crime. again shouted ork with a sociopathic sentence. definitely need to catch this sociopath stalker, the police should catch this maniac stalker.  the guy also shouted "if only sedat got over". this sedat is as i told a name that is from stalk incidents i heard for  3 years. and he insisted i am fan to him(whilst i am not). a maniac. then  due to rejection, or else or manipulated by a hamit named sociopath? i dont know the root stalker whom is root stalker is, but due to revenge of rejection, just saying ork is not enough, they say sociopathic sentences. they commit impersonation crime. I need to catch this sociopath stalker with video record evidence. whom tries to steal peace with criminal activities of stalk/harrasment/impersonation/degracing/dehumanization with ork sayings/constant curses/constant stalk.is compulsive to sshout constantly ork  to come beside my house and shout ork with also sociopathic sentences. whatver worst in life, that could be worst, shout such sentences to me this maniac psycho.  i do thin k this might really be a revenge of rejection situation or else. but the psycho stalker has compulsive behavior of making me shouted ork and also very bad very bad sentences. i mean whatever is bad, makes me shouted like such ways. a real life psychopath/sociopath. impersonator maniac.  i want this psycho be caught so bad. a real psycho sociopath.



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yeppp when constructing a reti project company, do i need to add this:
sin ce when  we enter workplaces they ask for such things. maybe we also try to construct game company asap:

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1EgeFOmIOscubtxqj_YzYkWS2XqPYgQpJ/view?usp=sharing

why i also shared this, since the sociopath that stalks me (hamit) claimed i am some type of thing thats in forgivenss of legal system (yes i have got such psycho sociopath stalker that even does such type of gaslighting/sociopathy) , so let this be open/shared. that its a lie.  sociopath shouted i am in forgiveness of legal system. its bullshit lie. ok i have got a psycho sociopath. so this is why i shared this document to fight against that gaslighting the sociopath is trying to do,  does many gaslightings, so to fight against that gaslighting he does, i share this document to fight back against the sociopath's sociopathic sentence.
i definitely think i need maybe police's help to fight this stalker. i mean having a sociopath that does sociopathic gaslighting is super hard situation. i dont know how to deal with that. maybe what i should do is just go ask police's help. cause this is super disturbing. the gaslighting effort of sociopath. and the sociopath sentences/lies. i think i need police's help in solving this criminal level sociopathy/stalk i confront. 
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ok i tried to take selfies, and my nose were super ugly:S i need to do rhinoplasty sometime. and need to lose wieght since weight dont fit my look it fits some people but not me. and i look super ugly in selfies. that means i am ugly:P

definitely would fix the rhinoplasty need sometime later on.
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an d delete that docum ent since its not ok to share such documents in public. b ut since i observe a gaslighting effort, i wanted to fight back. i dont know how to fight against sociopathy. its really hard. this stalker compulsively cames around my house to have me shouted ork or else things so thats why i sharedsuch document. constantly makes  me get shouted ork, constant gaslighting. i dont know what to do. so i shared document since did gaslighting in recent shouting around my home, said ork and said some sentences. so as a reply to that sociopathy, i shrared above document. 



guhu has a hard life. since she has got a sociopathic stalker:S  either sedat named or hamit named i dont know the root stalker's name:S maybe hamit articulates sedat name guy to do such stalk or sedat articulates hamit so that hamit named psycho also stalks.
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anyway from life:

i used some hair style, but after taking selfies i felt disgust to how that hair style looks on me. i am bored of being fat and my nose. anyway those would fix in time. but i really felt disgust to my hair style which i myself created then after selfies show it doesnt any look good. the worst hair style ever like hair style it is as i saw from selfies.


i felt super ugly due to myselfies. since i am not in  my usual weight i am used to and due to my nose that got defected. and anyway.       


lets continue coding the game.


----- they say alone people like to think inner worlds:) i did crafted a theory that soundcloud sound is personzlized for me :D but n ope it  must be because in my blog i tell things like x files (the podcast incident etc), the personalization system must had broguth that song and not that i would be called. it were creepy to have thought being called for such thing:D the song that played and creeped me is: that got randomly played i n  my play list: ok i forgot to like it. and i just commented on it. so i cant find it now. but it had creepy sentences. since i blogged x files likes incidents than such random song playing in playlist felt creepy. it said things like:

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there are hing in our world beyond our understanding, things we cant explain, that are super natural, that others dont wanna know about. sometimes shit happens and someone has to deal with it and we gonna call.
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super duper creepy song:S i cant find it now. but its a groove album song. but i just cant find it now. and it creeped me alot. even if its because, i blogged xfiles like incidents. then i think soun dcloud list's ai crafted such playlist due to that. but it creeped since i thought what if i get called. i would had creeped out or faint out due to scare:) i do think, i dont want to think on this topic. its super creepy. i wish people dont make such songs with such creepy lyrics. aha i remembered it were "who are you gonna call" album like thin g. i found it, its this: https://soundcloud.com/egroove/mirco-caruso-who-you-gonna-call-2drop-records

ok its just ai's work:) i mean ml algorithms:) its not done by humans. i mean ml creates soundtracks' based on our digital data like our blogs. since i blgged xfiles topics etc, ml algorithms creates such playlist.


ok so lets not ever again such things ever(like the x files like thingies of weird podcast etc), since i also scare myself:) and such things dont happen now. and i think it were jst weird timings/nothing more.  it were jut weird timings nothing more.



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ok funny talks passed whether we should devise soemthing blockchain mining v2.0 :D  but we dont, due to  ethics, do that:P i am not the genius who could surpass the current mining methodologies. its my cofounder:) have a genius cofounder:)
lets code game and forget about disrupting blockchain mining things:)   we c vould had won millions from that but we dont do:P since dont fiinding it ethical. since it would erase mining industry completely:P  (that we would be the left only miners:P) (so we wont do it ever) (its being the  best miners just with algorithms not gpus or fpgas. just by being better in algorithms way. so that being best miners via algorithms. but we dont do since it looks both unethical (since it would disrupt the blockchain mining tech)   an d also it kind of feels not ok/not ethical since its like disrupting all and  i dont know. but it feels disvalidating a sector completely. so we wnt do it ever)


lets code the game... thats the least disrupting  way to create income. i am not leftist(i am not against creating disruptive tech) but the disruption of entire blockchain mining industry in just short time feels not ok. so wont do it anytime.
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wont reveal my genius cofounder:)  (whilst not being any genius in anything , i have a genius co-founder. just lot of luck i think:))


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i wish i never took selfies:S i felt super ugly today due to that. i might be ugly but i werent confronting that without selfies.    ok so whatever pain rhinoplasty process has, i should have, cause i dont like hating taking selfies.
and this time i wont let my nose get defected.

i am  not any happy with my curren t wieght. and constantly repetitive afcts of fighting with sociopath stalker, not bein g productive in game, getting more weight than i am used to, having worse nose due to soething, i am not happy with my life these days. but things gonna be better :)

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i cant define how cool it feels to have a genius co-founder:) 

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ok this feeling ugly thing, i think classical music listening would erase it. that feeling i hadnt felt long time. till today seeing how my nose got worse in selfies:S so selfies i forbid myself until next rhinoplasty yepp. feeling ugly feeling is shitty. forbidding taking selfies until next rhinoplasty definitely. not in any single instant i should do that act cause i felt like shit afterwards seeing in detail my defected nose:S


ok classical music made felt better:) yeppp. why does it have such impact:) this music type ? it has very nice impact of making happy:) its awesome. first Mozart then Tchaikovsky now. playlist arranged by soundcloud, awesome playlist:)

i would do a fun act. wuld go to roof and place some carpet there and sleep on carpet with looking to sky and with Mozart in my headphones:) wov. looks super nice activity to do now:) lets go and do watch stars with Mozart/Tchaikoc vsky but i dont have Tchaikovsky listening mood today. can only listen  Mozart today. then should go continue coding game and stop being lazy today as i were lazy all day:S



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ok i feel better now:) since sleeping resting in cold air were nice. and now coding time. some  spark coding time. havbing demo and iterating in demo would make me feel better. if i can become rich, i can hire detectives to catch the stalkers. i just dont i just am not any good detective. but i feel severe loss of justice feeling due to sociopathy iu confront. that lack of justice feeling. but if i become rich, i can hire detectives and detectives could learn identities of stalkers whom come around house and could finally sue these sociopath stalkers to police. they constantly do this torture acts of sociopathy/stalk/curse/impersonation/ork things. constantly. i feel a sever form of lack of justice since i confront such sopciopathy but i dont have  powers to catch the criminals with hiring detectives to learn  whom are stalking me. so agenda to deal with such torture of stalk should be becoming rich fast and hiring detectives so that i would be able to hire detectives to catch the stalkers whom constantly come house's surroundings to do those criminal acts of ork/curse/sociopathic sentences/ gaslighting things/impersonation/constant stalk/following. i would for sure sue these crimin al like stalkers. but first i need to be powerful to be able to hire detectives. and in future, i would make sure st alked people get suc h services freely, i mean i woul donate my part of income or whatever it is to help people that are stalked. cause i am stalked with sociopathy acts for 3 years and its super hard. if i become rich, i would make this sociopath st alker catcher detectives service free. so that everyone can live a peaceful life.there is strong injustice in this thing. i feel strong injustice. but if i stay strong, code my game and then hire detectives and would sue these sociopaths to police so that they would get penalties of sociopathy crime they apply. cnostant confrontation of gaslighting, constant stalk, constant sociopathy, constant ork things, constant impersonation, constant following, constant stalk. the people whom these acts would pay their dues to justice system so bad. and if i become any rich, i would definitely democratize detective services since stalked people's life could be super bad due to torture of sociopathy/stalk/following. we need detective services to be freely available to us when we n eed in getting stalked situations. thats onething i saw in 3 years. so if i become powerful, i would figure out a way in economy to create such service be freely available. cause confronting sociopathy is super bad/super hard. i cant define the torture level of it. its really a torture like thing. we lone people need free detective services in case we are stalked. i would somehow someway create such service as free to lone people who cant afford detectives to hire to catch the stalker stalking him/her.i do understand that, since mentally ill people could exist naturally, i do feel that there is also a need of free detective services in case a stalked person cant hire detectives himself/herself.  otherwise life turns to constantly confrotingin sociopathy torture. repeatedly. since mental illness holding people exist and would also exist in future since human brain is non linear, lone people(unmarried people or weak looking people) might be target ed by mentally ill stalkers. as happens in my case. we need this as common right. to have free detective hiring service. cause a stalker can torture a person to foreever with stalk and if the stalked one is not able to hire detectives, it turns to repeated consumption of torture of sociopathy. so my one other goal definitely added to my life: i dont know wit h which ec onomy model i could establish that, but for sure it should be established, that free det4ective services should exist for people who are stalked and who need detective services but whom dont hold ability to hire. other wise a mentally ill can continously create torture of stalk/socioapthy but the lone person who has no power to hrie detectvis have to unfortunately consume the repeated acts of sociopathy/stalk. we need some philantrophic model in that maybe. like a system, where people voluntarily do detectiving. in case of possible stalk incidents. maybe based on blockchain. i dont know. but i do think, whilst human race has mentally ills, and while stalk topic is a blind spot, that a sociopath can constantly come around my house to shout sociopathy, and its a situation i cant solve unless i have detective services, we need to solve this blind spot with makin gdetetctiving services freely available to ones whom  cant ha ve such power to hire deteectives. i lost my nose's shape due to this trauma i confront and my trauma confronting behavior. this is a serius problem i think. and only small portion of communities confront this problem. i mean its not a common topic. but its impact to people's lives that are targeted for such acts is super bad, the impact is super bad. we need to protect people from mentally ills. we need to make b etter protection mechanisms.if i become powerful, this is one very priotized goal. to create free detectiving service. when  you are a lone person lviign life alone, and you just dont have power to hire detectives, a psycho mentally ill can torture with high vicinity stalk to forever. we need better protection mechanisms for the bad impacts of mentally ill people. we need free detectvng serv ices to people whom cant hire detective services.i consume constantly sociopathy/gas lighting/impersonation/curse(ork/every shit label/every shit word/every bad thing that comes to this mentally ill's mind) crimes from the mentally ill stalker. for 3 years. this is a blind spot. i mean  when you get stalked by a sociopath and you are alone, the sociopath tortures with extreme ways. like impersonation/like curses constant ork shoutings/ like trying to say you very bad labels/some labels even meaning not known, its a continous consumption of torture to the stalked person side.    constant gaslighting/constant impersonation/constant ork/oluk/fukara shoutings/constant sociopathy. i consume these continously for 3 years. i wish our societies have free detectiving services so that the stalker could never do these acts. think of any very ba d thing, the sociopath attacks the target with such way. i mean the sociopaths have no conscience/no ethics/nothing of rationality. but a constant targeted trying to destroy impulse with sociopathy acts. whom protects us from such mentally ills? this is a blind spot of current civilizations. noone protects alone people. a shit sociopath can stalk forever and we just continously consume the sociopathy the sociopath does whilst in constant following/stalk. this is a blind spot. the damage mentally ills can give to society is huge. but noone does any fix to that problem yet thats of great ways. if i become powerful, i would make sure free detectiving service becomes a thing for people whom cant afford to hire detectives. cause the mentally ills constantly if they are targe4ting a target to stalk, they do constant trying to destroy acts with sociopathy. we need protection from mentally ills. we need to fix this blind spot. that people get tortured by mentally ills contin ously but iuf they are alone, they just consume constantly the torture. this shouldnt be like this. we need free detective services to people who are stalked. we need this for sure. this must be basic human right. cause damage given by mentally ills to societies are huge. we need to take bigger steps to protect people from mentally ill people's sociopathy. current human civilization doesnt protect civils from mentally ill sociopath p[eople's stalk very good. we need better things to protect other people from mentally ill people's damage range. i consume sociopathy constantly for 3 years. i dont know what to do. i know what to do. i woudl become rich super fastly and hrie detectives to catch the sociopath stalker (either hamit or sedat named). but the thing is, this should be freely available to all people whom cant afford to hire detectives. i would make sure i sue to police my sociopath stalker whom does sociopathy acts against me. but people who cant?? whm protects them? this is a blind spot. we need to create some economic models so that free detective services to people who are stalked becomes a real thing. or a detective platform. like other software platforms, we need existence of a detective hiring platform. and i wish people could donate to let free detectiving services there by some blockchain mechanism, so it becomes also including donations. we definitely need this. cause the damage mentally ills create to others is incommensurable. we need to treat mentally ills in  better ways so that they cant damage others life with sociopathy. i mean we need better protection mechanisms against sociopathy in societies. like the free detective platform i men tion. i would make sure it becomes really real. cause i consume  constant sociopathy/constant ork/oluk/fukara/constant gas lighting/constant impersonation for 3 years. if there wer e a fre e online detective services, i could have solved this maybe 1 year ago an d the sociopath mentally ill should get treatment to not damage others lives with sociopathy. since there is no such service yet, this torture of sociopathy confrontation constantly continues.

as told, my goals in life are also shaped by what i confront, so i would deinfitey work for human rights. and also for this detective services. so the needs of personal security/detective services get democratized. so that a mentally ill cant destroy our life's peace with sociopathy acts with constant stalk/impersonation/gaslighing/ork/oluk/fukara shoutings around our hoomes or in cafes.  we need some digital serv ices that blends these security topics also to normal citizens, that citizens also start taking such responsibilities, either donation based or else. but this need to exist. because mentally ills really exist. and this is kind of blind  spot. we need to protect people from mentally ills better much better. the current protection mec hanism of societies for mentally ill/sociopath people is not any enough. this security services should blend to also normal civils. i mean  there should be a digital economyu created on democratizing security much more, so that stalked people could hire detectives freely if they dont have power to hire. the sociopath in my case whether sedat or hamit named, hates me super much visibly, then constant ork/oluk fukara shoutings happen then also comes impersonations. then last year i heard 3 labels also. in a cafe, a woman shouted me one that label and laughed super hard. last year 3 labels are innovated. one is "hami" one is "kava" other is weird it feels super unnice so i dnt write it. so stalk started with oluk/ork things then impersonation than last year the sociopath calls "hami" "kava " labels to me. what the fck? why society doesnt protect me from this mentally ill? why do i have to consume this sociopathy ?why? why?current civilization of humanity cant protect people from mentally ills super ways. i do consume constant sociopathy for 3 years. and constantly continues and gets worser even. why? why? why humanity hasnt solved this yet? why cant it protect people from mentally ills nicely? i do think maybe because if everyone becomes detective it would be like dsytopia?  might be.  so this is not an easy solution to solve? but if person of interest movie like ai systems were protecting people from lower form of crimes like stalk, it might b e better?(beside big crimes, also stalk crimes gets solved by ai systems? )  i do think this should be solved either this way or that way. cause confronting stalk/sociopathy is super hard. as i observe in my own life:S its super hard.  this is onething that needs to be defginitely solved.   dont know which way. either ai way or collobrative ways of blockchain platforms of detective servives for helping people that are stalked 


fr instance the stalker said a curse to my name beside all sociopathic sebntences. then t0old "ork eke" (in our language). in English,  meaniung (ork is immune/powerful to our maniac acts the sociopath means that).   what to do in such case? why humanity doesnt protect other members from mentally ills nicely yet? (i guess its because it hasnt been priotized yet?) its time to priotize this definitely:S cause the damage mentally ills can give to everyone is super bad:S i wish so bad person of interest thing  existed(like person of interest movie). or things like blockchain based detective services platform for stalk cases that stalked people can hire. either ai or humans, shoiuld solve  this i think.  cause it is really super bad, to confront impac t of sociopathy/psychopathy aka mentall ilnesses. its really super  bad.humanity should sovle this. i would in future work to solve this definitely.

a person shouted a sentence using an impersonated foriegn name and kav word 3 minutes ago. these sociopaths wont stop doing ths sociopathy. we need free detective services to make these mentally ills stop disturbing people with this impersonation/stalk/constant sociopathic acts/constant curses/constant gaslighting/constant labels. we need free detective services.to be ab le to sue these type of people to police, to sue mentally ills to police when they try to destroy other peoplee's lives due to mental illness. they should either get treatment or should stop trying to destroy others lives due to mental illness(for whatever mental illness is that, either sociopathy or psychopathy).             


how superb it would have been if person of interest really exists:) so that stalk crimes were hadnled by such universal ai system:) how nice world it would be to live in:)


dont sociopaths have common behaviors? dont psychopaths have common behaviors? would it be possible to observe such behavioral traits with an ai system (from cctv cameras? from all information of all data of people) so that such sociopathy acts would not happen? what cost would this system have on freedom and economically also? as a stalk victim of sociopathy, i m ight have biased view on that, since i am consuming sociopathy for 3 years, but i wish my fav physicist who loves to calculate costs of such inventions had also calculated such unviersal ai system's cost to freedom and  its economic cost also. and also aspects like, would it be possible to have it stay at non dystopian ways so that its not used for authoritian thjings. i wish we had such narrow and wide intellgicece ai systems, that are narrow in ways they dont destroy freedom but wide in their enhanced analysis methods. this could be a merged ai mechanism, that also looks to cctv (that might be computationally high maybe?) biut more easiluy checks cell base stations registraiton records (this is the easiest way to capture stalk) and also connected to social media accounts and taking dtaa from there also.  and everyone could have a citizenship helper software, and could ask this software things like i am stalked, can you check please. this would be an utopia. i wish my fav physicists calculated the dynamics of such in ventions, so that w3hilst solv ing stalk , it doesnt destroy freedom ro becomes tool to authoritarianism. i am so unhappy i am born in a time where this is not the basic universal service yet. would it be in future? i believe it would be. might be. and super unhappy that i am born in  a time frame where this things arent built yet. so that my 3 years life's peace isnt stolen by a sociopath stalker (named either hamit or sedat).


i do think the stalk could even be solved with an machine learning system that analysis cell base station registration records. that the stalk victim would push a button to record incident of stalk and sentences be used. and a list of possible records would exist to be tracked. and whilst second time this happens the cctv's record voice? i mean for such stalk criem solving thing, also audio analysis should exist. is it possible to do that? i mean in case of stalk risk, the audio listning  things would be activated from cctv cameras. not everytime. only in case of stalk suspicion. which is rare thing. i dont think stalk is a common crime. so, that i mean even with not super intellgnt system, if audio analysis exists, stalk crime might be easily very erasily solved. because stalkers like to distrb stalk victims in outside, with repeated narratives. or around their house. such a system could super easily capture stalk and solve stalk crime. like citizenship softwares, we need ai's chatbots that interact with us, like every government citizen  should have. then in stalk case, the system would get details of stalk situation and would   solve it via ways i tell. is it possible feasible to  build such system? i cant an alyze it un biased sinc ei am stalked for  3 years, if you ask me fi its necessary to build such system, i would strongly say yes (sucha  stalk focused machin e learnin gsystem i am talking about) but as told, unbiased people should answer maybe. in my b iased view (since i am stalked by a socio for 3 years) i would strongly want existence of such system. but unbiased people should calculates costs (costs to freedom/risks etc) and yeah i wish i lived in suhc a future. i wish i were born so much later years.


the woman shouted impersonated foreign name (its nt that foreign person(its nth foreign name they taken from blgos/my profiles, this one another foreign name that they stolen from my previous public accounts) . the socio  shouted  " "forng name== sogu" 5 minutes ago.These people like to impersonate me/others.  i report every incident dnoe by these socio people. since they are constantly hard working for a deceival effort with impersonated names. this is the last impersonation including sentence of this night. i would wear on headphones and move to game coding.

my fav phsyicist as i told, is from quora domain, its i have chance to read in quora i like to read alot articles is Mr. Richard Muller: (since teaches physics also via that:) and not only physics,  we also learn different things sometimes, like i learnt organic food is not as healthy as it is from his articles:)  and seen how costs are ccluclated so thats why i told about cost calculation:) its an amazing blog or article place in quora: => tadam : best quora articles i like   to read:  and there is one another physicist i like to read alot:) and a philosopher. i called him philosopher sicne talks like a philosopher. so there are 3 accoutns i like to followin quora.

https://www.quora.com/profile/Richard-Muller-3

though i lost the link of the other physicists i like to read  in Quora:S  :SSSSSS i wish i had followed:S



ok maybe i sleep in day and work in nights to run away from stalk sociopathy. yeppp. would force myself to be awake in night and code game via that.cause i cant let my attention be stolen by sociopath stalkers in day time. yepp. lets code this game thingy:) and save mylife from stalk:) lets hrie detectives so that i can catch these human right abusers of criminal acts of stalk/curses/impersonation and sue them to police. as they come around  my house to stalk, the detectives would record the repeittive stalk/sociopathy act around house and so we and detectives would sue to the police and the justice wuold happen. but for that to  happen game need toi exist. but for games existence, i need a peaceful corner to code. so: decision: work in night time and sleep all day along. i thik i want to be inside even in coma to not confront stalk in day times. i mean stalk is really a seevere very disturbing crime type. and since there are no person of interest machines(computers) yet, we suffer from stalk.

i thinking now: i want to query whether following is ethical:
think you make current bitcoin mining methods obsolete. that yours algorithm is faster infront of whatever algo there. is applying that algo to create money, is this ethical or not. if people think its ethical i would try to convince cofounder to do such thing for a hour or else. so that i create income fastly and hire detectives in fighting this dishoenst sociopathy crime i confront.
so i qould like to query, is making current methods of mining obsolete and being unbalancedly stronger than any bitcoin mining tech, is it ok to utilize such tech for a hour or else duration? i wonder if this is ethical?if i had 20000dollars i would work hire detectives and catch these criminal like sociopaths (what they do is a criminal act, this sociopathy i confront is a criminal act) with help of detectives. so i want to ask blog readers,  mining  with mining from future, is it ok to do that whilst mining is in ucrrent days tech? if you people think its ethical i might find it ethical also. whilst i have sociopath stalkers. to solve that.but i dont thin k i have any courage to do that either. but if i had advisors from startup area, that could talk me on how ethical is that, it would had been great. cause without confirmation from intellgnt people on that is ethic thing to do, i wont do that. since i have no idea if its ethical to do that or not.

why its not erthical argumnts:

A1. the tech might be stolen and used for bad purposes. if a to be created mining software resides in network, its susceptible to get stolen also.  (the algorithms behind that i mean. m giht get stolen. )

A2. if we somehow protect it strongly from being stolen, still:
 it might be unfair to mining industry? i dont think so since, since if it has been  used,it wnt be used full time. maybe just 1 hour or alike. whats the transaction size of mining in 1 hour. i dont know. i mean it wont disturb mining industry that much.


why it might be ethical argmnts:
B1. i lack justice in life. i need to hire detectives to capture the sociopath stalkers that stalk me(repeatedly around my home) an d sue themt o police.

B2.    people always disrupt tech one way or other. i mean yeah. we wnt be the first disruptors of mining  tech. fpga mining tech builders also dsrupted pc based miners business.



the onily critical thing is A1 therefore. and its mitigation doesnt exist. so we cant do this.
and it feels unethical to use such thing for to mine blockchain. nope we wont do it ever. even if life is harsh. let life be harsh. we are strong also. 

but A1 can be solved via: hmm we can operate the information transfer of block hash code to be solved, we can give it to the computer with human entry:D i mean in that way the algorithm's execution wont ever get stolen:D the netwrk would be human based. the human would get the latest to be mined hash codes and give to pc thats not in any network env ironment and the puzzle's answer seen by human, would be entered to the pc connected to blockchain. so A1 risk would be eliminated. but for to do this, we need to live in same place with cofounder, so that  whislt i code the algo  she/he built,  we could code in  a non networked place. on a pc with no any kind of network.


hmmm. but again this looks like being bad people:S i mean no, i cant stop thinking this is unethical way to create money. t o disrupt blockchain mining via algorithmic ways. so i dont think we would ever do it. since it looks unethical to myb eyes, i dont know why exactly. but it looks like that. so we wont do it. and i dont think co-founder would ever do it. i dont think we would ever do such thing. i mean if i wanted (i dont want) cofounder would never ever accept doing such thing(cofounder's conscience is stronger than guhu's most of the time). so i do think, as a result we would never do enter mining tech.

but i cant stop thinking it would have been super cool to win millions since only because our mining wld be best even   wiht a human person that returns the puzzle to bve solved by hand to the pc:D(to not have mining software be ever stolen)  but due to reasons told, we cant do it.  so  decision analysis ended as:  nope we cant do it. no matter how much i want to capture the sociopath stalkeers that are stalking me with hiring detectives and sue them to police, i need to follow the slower path of creating income with the game thing then hire detectives.


ok, so tomorrow, lets study well to game and have steel soul while i have got super sociopath stalker(either hamit or sedat named) stalking me that does every shit sociopathy against me including gaslighting:S



by the way while i said blockchain, i were talking about bitoin, not other blockchains. ethereuym etc. already have short minign  times. so such solution would be aonly applicable to bitcoin. but we would never do it. since its unethical in many ways to our view. even if i wanted, cofounder would never accept it by the way.

i know the exchange firms even use image data and very fast commuincatins in trading things in normal market. i mean people do their best to win most.  bu t in this domain, it just simply doesnt exactly, i mean  being bes t in mining, doesnt look same as being best in trading side. i mean , bitcoin side doesnt look ethical if you becme the best miner, it is not same ethical as being best in technology wise ways in trading side. because, in trading, there is black scholes still. but in bitcoin mining, having best tech means you always win, so its not any ethical. i dont find it any ethical. even if i wanted it my cofounder would never ever accept. and as i went over is it ethical or not analysis, turns out this is not any ethical. so no matter how much i wa n t to create fast income to be able to hire detectives to catch the sociopath stalker and sue to police,  i hav eno t any chance of entering minign sector. nope. i would never tried to convince cofounder. i thought of it tonight as visible here. after i feel strong need to be able to hire detectives. but i would neve rdo that cause after decision analysis, its blatantly, this entering mining sector thing lkooks blatantly unethical thing t o do. so we would never enter. i thoiught of trying to convince cofoudner if i could convince myself. though i coudlnt convince myself either. since it looks blatantly not ok. better create slow income with games and consume little bit more sociopathy/stalk torture. i know its unfair to confront sociopathy/stalk torture. but to fight with such unfairness doesn t mean i could any follow any not-ok way. i mean i need to be strong and continue coding game. and after slowly creating income(slower than blockchain things),  i can finally hire detectives, so that the sociopath stalker that stalks me with sociopathy(either sedat or hamit named) gets caught and sued to police.

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 for calculation of cost of person of interest like topics:  i meant: the utility value:
i mean what it returns and it  steals as a utiltiy:
model of it, for current time and future:

for instance:
what does it takes from freedom (freedom is super important): to overall society
what service/value it creates to society: how many people are effected from such stalk crimes
what further risks it creates now or n future: (like could it be utilized for bad purposes)

my fav physicist as from blogs is since super  intellgnt person, is called out to do such calculations in terms of assesment of technologies.

I wish he also analyzed this type of techon ologies.

for instance is there a way to create such techonolgoies, without possibly being a tool for authoritarianism but also created a super value to society.

thinking, i would prefer being a stalk victim if its gonna be a tool for authoritarianism. i mean the utility it creates vanishes away if it creates so much bad impact to humanity in generally.


i wish my fav physicists also evaluates these type of tehcnologies and finds ways  to do create   non risky ways?

so cost calculatuio n were about that,   calling out super intellient people in designing the best ways of suhc technologies.


i do think design of such systems without hurting freedom(making it a tool of authoritarianism but to only protect people from crimes. ) is quite possible. only some measures needs to be added so that they dont become tools to authoritarianism.  this is my idea on this topic. though i am not super intelligent. i think super intelligent people are already called out to discuss these issues so yeah. not need to talk my idea on this.

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so agendas n life:

code game thing beside other company tasks' that other company has chance to take jobs:) one good news is that:) we might get jobs.


then hire detectives and catch the stalkers whom do a torture of stalk/sociopathy/curses/impersonation/followin/ork/oluk/fukara and many other sociopath sentences to me. (think of very bad sentences like sell ur vagina like of. the stalkers say every bad thing to me that you can any imgaine). and sue them to police so bad. so they get punished by justice system for this sociopathy acts against me. first need to capture stalk evidence with help of detectives and detectives would get know these sociopaths that does this stalk/sociopathy/gaslighting/curses very bad sentences acts and they would be sued to police with video record evidence fo the sociopathy/stalk/fololwing/gaslighting they do. i would sue these peopleto police and to also legal systems. the stalker either has sedat or hamit name.a woman shouted 3 days ago , "ece, i am a psycho". so this woman is articulated by these stalkers also. and a woman shouted "my love, my nash" 5 days ago. since i blogged unbelievable things these people tagged me as nash visibly. constant stalk/constant curses/constant impersonation.  never en ding stalk torture with lots of impersonation of labels/names/whatever bad shit that could be said. i would hire detectives and record evidence of repeated stalk torture and impersonation sociopathy and bad labels thing (bad labels started to be told just   last year) .these people are articulated by that  "to:re" word talking people. i mean i am actually a v ictim to "to:re" . cause the stalker whom 3 r 4 days ago, in outside told things like:  "fukara" (some constant word used in thus stalk). (means super poor). then the guy told words like "to:re" or such things. so those woman are articulated by the to:re people visibly. to try to disturb my life with impostoring/sociopathy/stalk.

recent incident,  a guy outside said things like "some curse to guher. (not saying the sentence). selda is gem"(in our local language, not in English, none of sentence they tell are in English, just i try to translate to English). so you people rememebr i blogged my name means gem/pearl.  dont know whm the fck is selda either nr this psycho guy. but i confront constant impersonation/constant stalk/constant bad words/constant labels a never ending stalk with sociopathy.

i gonn a hire  detectives and catch these sociopath stalkers. and sue them to police. i wouoldnt sue them if only they shouted me ork or fukara or oluk. i dont care such curses. i would sue them for impersonation, since that is very super disturbing.  they invent labels and invent characters and try to assign to m e, and labels which dont look any slight good. and be stalked with also. (that started to be done last year).


like last night a woman shouted "she is olga". assigns a character  a name to me this sociopath.


this character creation and assigning constantly happens.

i gonna sue these people due to this impersonation thing.  they would be sued. sicne they apply a human rights abuse action with such stalk/sociopathy/impersonation/constanty high vicinity stalk with such sociopathy acts. i would sue them for this human rights abuse/crime of impersonation they apply to me.


what kind of impersonation happens: they just decide to assign to you a "kava" label. and  in shopping center a woman shouts "kava! ork! get over from running away from our stalk".
or similarl;y in street a sociopath woman says follows you saying "she is my hami". whatever shit hami means:SSSS this hami label started to be said invented last year. in this 3 years of stalk, kava/hami labels get invented last year.  first it wer estalk like "ork! she is hande" (i thought there is ahande named stalker, but last year i get that its impersonation). and many ork/fukara/oluk shoutings proceeding that. than last year, hami/kava labels added to that words. dont know what the fck they mean,  but they dont i think look any good words. this is realluy like a horror movie. a maniac woman  in street says "she is my hami". so they try to make me a "hami" whatever shit it is? i would sue them for this trying to create characters and assign to me so bad to the police. this is a criminal activity i confrnot. my life's peace is tried to be stolen with impersonation /stalk /constant socioapathy/.constant ork things.  b ut mostly, i would suew them for the impersonation thing. they try to place me in their world while i dont belong but they do this with giving me names/labels i dnt knw wht means either. and they do this for 3 years constantly.

so since that guy outside shouted "fukara!" and some "to:re" words, i do think i am victim of "to:re". as i rejected beign a kuma 3 years ago, they try to destroy my life like this with sociopathy/with impersonation/with constant ork/oluk/fukara things. i would sue them so bad to police. they gonna pay their dues to legal systems for this sociopathy crime they apply against me.




this criminal activities against me, i would sue them super bad. for this impersonation activities. not because ork/oluk/fukara curses. but for this criminal activity of targeting a woman aand trying to impersonate her. they would be sued super bad.

i remember in a cafe, a woman outside laughed out super hard shouting the label. she got fun of shouting such label to me. so there is a sociopathy instinct in doing these acts. that they get fun of doing this impersonation activities. she couldnt stop laughing super hard while also saying such label.



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recent stalk incident report, the woman from these people shouted "**** is bla bla"   they impersonate a foreign name (3rd foreign name, a man's name is impersonated). shouting happent with foreign name happent 2 minutes ago. the people who are sociopath stalkers shouted that sentence. reporting such incident as long as they happn.

constant deceival effort. neverending impersonation.
    

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 my normal life blog: my dreams:)

ok i  thought of camping in Patagonia in next year, yepp. oen thing planned. i like nature so muhc:) thought there is risk of getting shot by lightening there right? dont know, might be knowing wrongly. just its super charming to me, going to such place, camping:)


ok lets continue coding game and hire detectives and catch the sociopath stalkers and learn their motives in dogin this sociopathy acts against me. i would make suyre they got inquired by police to get motives for this sociopathy acts against me. cause the thing done is super criminal level i think, trying to impersonate a person is super criminal thing and is a torture type i think, and i confront this ork/oluk/fukara/impersdonation torture for 3 years. i would make sure these sociopath people are get caught  and i would make sure they get inquired by police so their motives get learnt. i would as my income happens, i would hire detectives. and also inform the police system for this detective thing. and we would capture evidence of the sociopathy acts and so that police could inquiry them to get their motives. i guess motive is "  töre" since one fukara shouting guy last day also used this   töre word. so this really this torture acts of impersonation might be rooting from   töre. since i rejected nor never interested in being a "kuma" 3 years ago, they try very hard to steal my life's peace from me with ork/oluk/impersonation stuff. i would make sure these socipaths get caught with hiring detectives and i would make sure they would get inquired by police for the criminal act of impersonating a person. i wont sue anyone for since she/he called a curse to me. i dont car e such things. but impersonation is shitty. i want to sue them because of impersonation. because its human rights abuse. its trying to steal my dignityy with dishonesty. its human rights abuse. so i would make sure these sociopaths get caught and inquired by police and get also penalty for this torture acts of impersonation/sociopathy against me. i would make sur ejustice happens. i wont let  human right abuse stay. i wont let injustice stay. i would make these sociopaths get caught by police and so that they would be inquired by police. so that lie detecting machines and etc all that stuff could be  applied for this serious crime of impersonation thing.  i would make sure justice happens. i confronted human  rights abuse by sociopathy for 3 years and i wont let this injustice stay. i would m ake sure these sociopaths whom try to disturb  my life with such sociopathy gets caught by police with collecting evidence with detectives i would hire. and so also that they get inquired by police so that this injustice goes away. i would make sure justice happens. impersonation is a human rights abuse. its something criminals do. i am confronting criminal acts against me/my dignity. i would make sure these sociopaths are caught by justice system  and get inquired by justice system so that they get what they deserve, that penalties from justice system for this crimes they do against me. i would make sure justice happens. in this personal injustice situation.



this sociopaths whilst calling me tom once also now another foreign male name. constant deceival/constant impersonation.  n many labels both woman and both man. real maniacs.  i need to hire detectives for sure. as soon as i generate income. must be done. justice must happen. these sociopaths must be inquired by police.




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yeppp lets integrate spark to my game project.yeppp:)\

i hate that jackson library incompatibility proiblem whenever we integrate a spark project for  the first  time. or hadoop created that i don t remember. le ts see. maybe newer version of spark doesnt hold it. lets integrat e newest version of spark.


yeppp today i found a nice music: Espanol is it ?guhu ignoran t doesnt know if the language is Espanol or not.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5PQbMQfrv4




silly code of mine:) yet another code sharing:

package utilities.sampler.non_random
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.CoordinateSystem

import com.github.jpbetz.subspace.{Quaternion, Vector4, Vector3}
import utilities.sampler.Sample
import utilities.shape.{SingleEndedLine, Geoid}
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.wgs84.WGS84
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.GeodBasedCoordinateSystem

case class GeodeticCoordinateSample(val entity:Vector3) extends Sample[Vector3]

 
class GeodeticCoordinateSampler(val coordinate_system: GeodBasedCoordinateSystem) {

 
  val unit_sample_count=100.0 //on latitude
  val azimuth_delta = 10.0 //in degrees
  def convert_spherical_coordinate(v:Vector3): Vector3 = {
    var geoid:Geoid=Geoid(Vector3(coordinate_system.semi_major_axis.toFloat,
        coordinate_system.semi_major_axis.toFloat,
        coordinate_system.semi_minor_axis.toFloat))
    geoid.intersect(SingleEndedLine(Vector4(0.0f,0.0f,0.0f,0.0f),Vector4(v.x,v.y,v.z,0.0f))) match {
     
      case Nil  => null
      case a::_ => a
    }
     
  }
  def gen_sample(azimuth:Double, z_axis:Vector3):List[GeodeticCoordinateSample]  = {
    val unit_count = (math.sin(azimuth)*unit_sample_count).toInt
    val angle_delta = 360.0/unit_count
    val rotated_line: Vector3  = convert_spherical_coordinate(Quaternion.forAxisAngle(Vector3(0.0f, -1.0f, 0.0f), azimuth.toFloat)*  Vector3(1.0f,0.0f, 0.0f))
    List.range(0, unit_count) map ( (a:Int)=>{
       GeodeticCoordinateSample(Quaternion.forAxisAngle(z_axis,  math.toRadians(a*angle_delta).toFloat ) * rotated_line)  
       } )
    
  }
  def generate_samples: List[GeodeticCoordinateSample] = {
 




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so after sampler, times comes for spark based parallelized flux extinction modeling:) yeppp so then i would move  to rendering the spark's output textures of spherical coordinates in 2d in fragment shader yeppp. hten comes the cloud models' spherical harmonics based light model and its sun  light based  differnt diffuse models and their addition to the frontend. yepp.




ok i figured out way to deal with stalk sociopathy (the timing that stalk would happen is unpredictable. but you constantly stress that it might happen anytime since it is somthing very repeteadly happening. i figured out, whilst i dont have detectives resolving this stalk sociopathy i confront, i figured out solution is: blocks the stalk when happens. (do people remember Gandalf's sphere of protection , yepp my sphere of protection from stalk of sociopath stalker is this: (guhu the Gandalf:))  and another refernce to the mvie:P -> stalkers shall not pass! :D here is my protection from stalk magic:P  (since they called me ork, i wanted to say i am Gandalf actually:) and this is my spell that generates 3d protection from stalk that could happen any hour during day. (since stalk if happens cant pass throuigh this noise) )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5PQbMQfrv4&list=RDP5PQbMQfrv4&start_radio=1&t=2144

i tried being detective, but when you are the victim of stalk, you cant do be a good detective, its too heavy task, i just dont ever like being  any detective either. so i figured out that, first i would code the game project then as income happens, i would hire detectives. i hadnt become computer engineer to do wait to video record to catch if stalk happens. i became computer engineer to code. to design. not to do stalk reporting or trying to do detectiving of the stalk. so the agenda with dealing stalk sociopathy is: hiring detectives when i could have such income and they would resolve the stalk situation and so that stalker sociopaths could be catched by police and inquired by police.



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ok i know i could just use one quarter of sphere to do that samples generation thing, but in code wise this looked easier to write. but its slower cause half of sphere has z's reversed and similar thing of symmetry in both 8 quadrants of sphere exists. but it were easier to write this version. and this belongs to an expectedly non fast component of game (a non real time component) so it doesnt  matter:P i mean its not a service that needs to be fast.


ok i figure out i forgot things from scala:SSSSSSS anyway lets revise:S blocks me whilst coding:S lets revie fastly:S


ok i gave some break and lost time in remembering map fold things syntax,
the stupid slow version of  code is as:

package utilities.sampler.non_random
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.CoordinateSystem

import com.github.jpbetz.subspace.{Quaternion, Vector4, Vector3}
import utilities.sampler.Sample
import utilities.shape.{SingleEndedLine, Geoid}
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.wgs84.WGS84
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.GeodBasedCoordinateSystem

case class GeodeticCoordinateSample(val entity:Vector3) extends Sample[Vector3]

 
class GeodeticCoordinateSampler(val coordinate_system: GeodBasedCoordinateSystem) {

 
  val unit_sample_count=100.0 //on latitude
  val azimuth_delta = 360/unit_sample_count  //in degrees
  var geoid:Geoid=Geoid(Vector3(coordinate_system.semi_major_axis.toFloat,
        coordinate_system.semi_major_axis.toFloat,
        coordinate_system.semi_minor_axis.toFloat))
  def convert_spherical_coordinate(v:Vector3): Vector3 = {
   
    geoid.intersect(SingleEndedLine(Vector4(0.0f,0.0f,0.0f,0.0f),Vector4(v.x,v.y,v.z,0.0f))) match {
     
      case Nil  => null
      case a::_ => a
    }
     
  }
  def gen_sample(azimuth:Double, y_axis:Vector3):List[GeodeticCoordinateSample]  = {
    val unit_count = (math.sin(azimuth)*unit_sample_count).toInt
    val angle_delta = 360.0/unit_count
    val rotated_line: Vector3  = convert_spherical_coordinate(Quaternion.forAxisAngle(y_axis,
        azimuth.toFloat)*  Vector3(1.0f,0.0f, 0.0f))
    List.range(0, unit_count) map ( (a:Int)=>{
       GeodeticCoordinateSample(Quaternion.forAxisAngle(Vector3(0.0f,0.0f, 1.0f),  math.toRadians(a*angle_delta).toFloat ) * rotated_line)  
       } )
    
  }
  def generate_samples: List[GeodeticCoordinateSample] = {
 
    List[GeodeticCoordinateSample](GeodeticCoordinateSample(Vector3(0.0f,0.0f, coordinate_system.semi_minor_axis.toFloat))) ++
    List.range(1 , (unit_sample_count/4).toInt -1 ).map( (a:Int) => {a *azimuth_delta} ).foldLeft(List[GeodeticCoordinateSample]()){ (l:List[GeodeticCoordinateSample], a:Double) => {l ++ gen_sample(a, Vector3(0.0f, -1.0f, 0.0f))} } ++ 
        gen_sample(0.0, Vector3(0.0f,-1.0f,0.0f)) ++
      List.range(1 , (unit_sample_count/4).toInt -1 ).map( (a:Int) => {a *azimuth_delta} ).foldLeft(List[GeodeticCoordinateSample]()){ (l:List[GeodeticCoordinateSample], a:Double) => {l ++ gen_sample(a, Vector3(0.0f, 1.0f, 0.0f))} } ++
       List[GeodeticCoordinateSample](GeodeticCoordinateSample(Vector3(0.0f,0.0f, -coordinate_system.semi_minor_axis.toFloat)))
       
  }
 
 
 
}

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lets change it to nonstupid way later on. i just need to do symmetriy according t first y-z plane then minus x - z pla ne then minus y-z plane the first quadrant and with same z, then reverse their z coordinates that above list, it would be the faster way

by the way the azimuth sampler wors as if azimuths trajectory is not elliptic . it is. but as told, i would do constant angle change in azimuth since its too complex math there to do constant perimeter change in there.


let this stay in stupid slow way and later on makje it the correct faster way (tomororw) lets continue in coding the spark code.

now lets  code the lights' path along these samples in specific  elliptic coordinates.


ok sorry what i say as azimuth in above paragraphs is actually zenith:) sorry:P ignorance is sopmething like this:D confusing azimuth and zenith:DDDDD shame on me:S



the other code i written and liked till now is:


package utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.equirectangular
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.wgs84.{WGS84Location, WGS84}
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.geocentric.spherical.{SphericalCoordinateSystem,Latitude, Longitude, East, West, South, North}
import utilities.coordinate_systems.geographic.{Location, NonSupportedLocation, CoordinateSystem}
case class EquirectangularLocation(val x:Double, val y:Double) extends Location

//width and height are image's width and height
case class Equirectangular(val width:Double, val height:Double) extends CoordinateSystem {
 
  def convert(loc:Location, targetCoordinateSystem:CoordinateSystem): Location = {
    loc  match {
      case locInLocal: EquirectangularLocation => {
        targetCoordinateSystem match {
        case v:WGS84 => {
          //initially
         
          val lat: Double = (( height/2.0 - locInLocal.y )/height)*90.0
          val longt: Double = (( width/2.0 - locInLocal.x )/width)*180.0
         
          WGS84Location( { if(lat>0) {
            North(lat)} else {
             South(lat)}
          },{ if(longt>0) {
            West(longt)} else {
             East(longt)}
          })
          }
        //add exception instead
        case _ => NonSupportedLocation
           
        }
      }
      //add exception instead
      case _ => NonSupportedLocation
    }
   
    }
   
  }


yayyy converting equirectangular to WGS84 code. i know its silly code but i liked it:)


ok and there weredefects in code to words translation, what i said as azimuth were 90-zenith:P


when you are writing code, to do some task, you need to first write some utility classes before, finally for first task, the utility classes are finally complete. nice:) nice to be at spark side task right now:)
ok thin king of my nice spark code now. finally at simulation part.


ok when i study at nights and sleep at day time, i have great level of losing weight thing. today i woke up at 11:30 am or alike then had  breakfast and slept again and woke up at 03:00 pm or 03:30 pm  like hjour. so its ok to have work at night today. i have no sleep. and i like that switched day tiume setting cause i can lose weiught faster  i dobnt know why if i code like that.

it s 0:52am and i have none sleep:) nice:)

one decision point i am  trying to make is:
should i store flux information as spheres around center. or a grid based flux definitions. spherical things is better in rendering. but cubic representation grid based such flux data representation could be used  but in sampling to preojection surface, the movement on the screen rectangle needs to have same angle dif c hange if i chosen spheres no no, as we move against corners of rectan gle,  there exists some distortion.   we need to iterate in lesser frequency in angle delta changes in corners. or we could just stay same angle increments.(this is because the spheres are world's center basic, but the camera is centered on crust of earth or on a mountain or sea. i mean the center of sphere for cam and the flux information is differnt. but the curvature shape difference is, the flux information fo geoid has lesser curvature than the cam's. so corners in cam's view actually reach lesser data from geoid's flux definition which is centered on geoid's center. but that doesnt disrupt any rendering quality. we could still iterate in angles of camera with same frequency in screen rectangle, just the data it would be lesser sampled due to differnt curvatures of two diffenrt sphere centers. hmm. checking. on rendering that part. but if i chosen grid, i need to calculate the sphere positions of the grid in game. whilst i wan t a grid based flux information, better store it in spheres around geoid's center due to that.  hmm sicne now this topic belongs to rendering in realtime, the performance matters alot, so decision point whether flux is stored in spheres way or grid based way matters alot. lets decide on possibly faster way then continue with that.ok by the way why i had wrong argmnt saying the screen rectangle areas covers same area no it doesnt. why i said such dumb thing. two different curvatures. whilst having single rate of change in inner one how to do handle rate of change in outer one. i mean without executing the intersection code which is kind of costly, should figure out a way to change rate of sampling rate in outer place according to inner cam's sphere's curvature. hmm. yepp lets check.



ok i think i fall asleep at 230am i couldn t study:P but i woke up at 8am weirdly.
ok so what  happens in the rectangular plane to  spherical structure's pixel to spherical coordinates conversion thing?
in that, each pixel region's related spherical theta has thing like when pixels move x left the q change in left has arcsin(x/d)'s derivative like theta change.

so if we represent sky domes or things with spherical coordinates, just pixels convert to theta representions. so we do ray casting without calculating where ray casting hits.
so but if center of the camera and the center of the painted object is differnt, we need to do just 4 ray casts (for to define corners) and convert thetas to the new sphere's theta's which is easy to calculate after 4 ray casts are known.


so in painting skydome from spherical coordinate representation of textures, everytime came's fov changes, we need to do 4 ray casts in this method. we could even store theta representations as a texture already. is doing 4 ray castings feasible in that? i wonder. i dont want to deal with initially grid based flux calculation method,  it  is little bit more complex in that, but might be computationally lighter.  i have to deal with that also. but lets first try to optimize this spherical rpresentat ioin way as much as possible.
guhu's stupid method in trying to render sky's flux :P yes i liked this spherical representation thingy. definitely utilize this. so flux extinction algorithm would create n many spheres each one over top  of other one.so i do a shortcut decision in decision analysis of whether i should have a flux extinction algo that generates 3d flux info or spherical coordinates based def thingy, i stay with spherical coordinate based thing since its easy to render that.  and it looks efficient. yeppp:) so could continue on my flux extinction code.

ok this spherical coordinates based rendering could bve done to everything in game engines i think, that objects could be defined with spherical coordinates.
but not have time to work on such thing right now. (that z information is also calculated via that). lets only render sky thing  like that. the screen rectangle we see, it could be defined as a texture of angles for spherical coordinates referring as our camera's near clipping plane's surrounding sphere. and the coordinates might get transformed accordingly to other spheres around we look at. the core idea is that in that. i liked this idea.  might be stupid idea i dont know. anyway would render sky like that. but first lets give some rest, take some coffee etc. and move to flux extinction code.



not taking in to ground radiation in to account right now:P
yayyyyy:)lets write some more stupid code now. the topic is not stupid but the code or the simulation i write is stupid (very coarse grained model:D)  (not taking in to black body radiation thingies at first)
and initial atmosphere m odel would be also coarse grained:P
lets write and see how it looks.
on clouds the direction of light would be also super important. not adding clouds to flux simulation right now. first lets see cloudless skies in frontend. then next step add clouds to the generated 3d shell textures of atmosphere in spheric coordinates  but there would also have not light but also direction of light very important. maybe i can use some samples of direction and distribute the direction accordingly. yepp. but mie phase distribution wouldnt be any scientific since i cant rightnow work on its underlying legendre polynomial soluytions etc, lots of things t o do there, so would model very simply initiall, so in models sections i would have dummy models folders since my initial models are not any fin e detailed, and pseudo science in case of mie modeling.  i mean its not currently6 any realistic  simlation. but lets see what as output it creates to me. its super fun this place in code i am, is super fun, cause i would bake spherical coordinate based textures and then render them. just simply fun:)
but right now felt hungry lets first eat something .



had close relative came. so took time with relatives  in uncles home  .  awhilst, i have detected that the psychopaths whom shouted "hami",and some sociopathic word used in stalk narratives are living inside a placfe near to there(since they shotued such words from there). so if i could hire detectives, i could easily detect these stalker sociopaths. whom stalked me with such word also. ok i am not any detective or any interested to. i dont  like such things. so need to asap code game, and  hire detectives to catch these sociopath stalkers and sue to police.  the confrontation of sociopathy is super bad:S i mean it feels a lot injustice. confrontation of a stalk/sociopathy crime feels super bad. its horrible. i should asap code my game and hire detectives and sue these sociopaths to police. their voice came so near to uncles home. the guy shouted some song and even other people told whom is this person. the guy's voice came from one or two near houses's gazebo. agaion said some gaslighting sentence a sociopathy sentence.  this sociopath is such a maniac stalker that even hires home in place where we live. and constant stalk/constant maniac sentences/constant gaslighting/constant sociopathy. ok one day i would be able to hire detectives and sue this sociopath to police. this is a horrible thing, to  get stalked  by such sociopath:S i hate going outside:S  when i go outside i am suspectible to confront stalk of this sociopath:S ok even if cousin(Ece) that came friom  istanbul is close relative, sorry but i wont spend alot time cause going outside means being suspectible to stalk of this sociopath stalker  whom even  hires a house in place i live:S i as told, to deal with this, i constantly open rain sound (which is my fight magic against sociopathy, so that whenever sociopath comes around my house to shout sociopathy, i wont hear) but this night, i had to consume sociopathy again and sentences from this sick maniac person's brain again:S shouted agains some stalk narrative this  sick psycho sociopath. one day, maybe soon, i would have power to hire detectives, and this socipath stalks me with sociopathy,. my detectives would record video evidence, so that we could sue to police. its been  3 years of stalk. a never ending stalk. sociopathy. impersonation. every type of gas lighting. e very type of constant high vicinity stalk (e.g. even hires a house from where i live. a definite psycho.) i want to see justice happen. i want to sue this sociopath so bad to police. but i dont find it easy to do video recording like things. i mean i am  not any detective nor could be. it means i have to 24 hours wait stalk and  then record when  stalk happens. i cant do that. and whilst you are victim of  a stalk, you feel urge to run away from stalk. so that, i mean being   detective of stalk and being victim of stalk dont work together. you try to avoid the stalk. (rain sound). i cant succeed to be a detective to solve this. but luckily i am a computer engineer and would code my game asap and would soonly have capability to hire detectives, and my detectives would do that stalk recording things and learn identity of this psycho guy or woman and we would sue this sociopath to police.  because does impersonation to me/gaslighting to me/constant forever never ending stalk to me/ constant never ending following things.   the shit part is impersonation. and gaslighting. creates super disturbing stalk sentences. super disturbing. like this psycho could shout me "sell vagina". i mean its undefineable level of disturbing/sexual harrasment /gas lighting. so i would sue this sociopath to police. since this thing happens for 3 years.

i hated that i went outside today so that i confronted consumed the sociopathy again:S. i am safe in my room with my rain sound safe from stalk.  so i know the stalkers hired a place in place i live. if i had detectvives, it would be super easy to capture the stalk/sociopathy acts. anyway iu wish soon i could hire detectives so that i could sue these sociopaths to police. so that they have to apologize from me for doing such sociopathy torture to me which is super psycho/super insane/super maniac/super sociopath.i dont even want apologize. i just want them to pay their dues to jutice system fr this stalk/sociopathy torture they do. cause they stolen my life's peace from me for 3 years with first shouting ork/oluk/fukara then comes impersonations(that frst i ddnt understood) then last year comes new labels beside impersonations. last year i ddnt go outside. i constantly stayed at home.  (though my home were super btfl. but i like social life). i mean this is a serious crime. this stalk sociopathy/impersoantion  thing is a serious crime. i want to see justice happen.  so i would hire detectives and detectives would figure out where they live and their identities and would video record the stalk/sociopathy and we would sue them to police.  as i get, one of repeated names in this stalk sociopathy is rahmi. since today they also repeated that name. i do thin k also t here is hamit name since i remember the stalk incidents where a hamit name comes to coffee repeats the same stalk narrative in a desk beside my desk. and as told i remember also boris name in stalk incidents. i guess when these sociopaths get inquired by police all these people would also be known. my dream is that these sociopaths get inquired by police. and i see justice happens.  




something i definitely wont sue to police: a woman shoutedly tells "guher is gay" ."guher has very big hands if she holded ugur's hands her hands would get lost". ok whilst this is disturbing, this impersonation as gay and disturbing  in front of my house, i wont sue to police. lets take it as a serenade like thin g and even its disturbing to have someone disturbing me from my house with impersonating me, its something ok.  i mean i would just open my  music and not care the stalk. this is not something to sue. this is just serenade like stalk the serenade is just disturbing the stalk victim beside her house. this is not something to sue ever. this is life. so a gay woman in love to me. and delusionally thinks i am gay also. i would just not care the stalk and just open the music.


when i say i want to sue people, its for impersonastion acts, not the being impersonated as gay act. i mean the disturbin g part is not b eing resemblbed to gay. it is  they call (i dont these gay people are any behind that) me labels i dont know meaning of. and which look nasty /shitty. that impersonation  is criminal type.  and also giving names is sociopathy also. and stalking continously the stalk victim with such narrative is sociopathy. and i wrnt that much disturbed froim ork shoutings either. i dont care such things or curse shoutiungs. but the thing disturbin g is: the sell vagina and sell like shoutings. thats sexual harrasment. and gaslighting things. like they sell first "sell! if only she sold" then they do gas lighting of "sold!" . this sociopathy i would sue. i dont think the gay people are any behind that sociopathy. and if they are, for that sociopathy of "sell vagina" thing i woint do any positive discrimination. i mean i normally think gay people should confonrint positive discirimination, like happens in gender equality things. i mean they shiould their inclusion to social life or else should be happening with support since t hey have been once their identities once tried to be opprssed.    i mean they should receive any type of support for inclusion to society since there has been once oppressioin by families maybe or friends. but, the thing is, no one can steal my social liufe with stalk with  gas lighting like "sold!" . or "sell your vagina" like super sexual harrassing sociopathy sen tences. i mean whomever does this, if i learn whom does, would be sued to police. cause my social life is stolen due toi this sociopathy. they shout me "sell vagina" .give me differnt names. this happens last year. b efore it were just oluk/ork/fukara shoutings and impersonations that i had no idea that i were impersonated either. last year, they added "sell! " narrative (sell your vagina) narrative to the stalk.  and i dont think the gay people are doing this horrible thin g.  but i do think its the "to:re" "kuma" thing doing this.  i do think gay people are even articulated by that "kuma" "to:re" things. they do things like first l;ast year, some people shouted me "sell!". and i said what the fuck. then also "sell your vagina". thehn i said what the fck. then they make fun of words like gaslighting like "seller". then that gaslighting happens with words like "sold!" "seller". i remember in a cafe, a woman laughed out shouting seller (selling her vagina) to me many times with laughing out super hard. and people telling  narratives like "borish should sell this ork"... and gaslihgint like "sold!". this is the horrible sociopathy i confront. i am not for sale. nor never sold. nor never been ever interested to. but confront such narratives like "sell your vagina" and gaslighting along with such narratives as if i sold. this is the sociopathy/horrible stalk i confdront. constant impersonation. constant labels. constant sexual harrasment. constant gaslighting. this is super horrible.


ok if this is from a delusinoal gay woman (whjom thinks i am gay) and does stalk to me like this: i think i  dont know what to do on sueing in that aspect. cause i mean i do believe in positive discrimination.  but this is over positive discrimination topic. i mean  i dont know if i would sue to police for stalk or not. i do think even if she ius gay and from an oppressed group, i do think she doesnt have right to some unnice acts. i mean positive discrimination doesnt give right to steal life of others. i mean i doint know whether i would sue or not in such case. but this person shouldnt do this sociopathy (that is not related her gender) ag ainsty others. i might not be the only victim. but since  i belive in  positive discrimination, i would most possibly not sue to police. cause she looks like a delusional person for telling i am gay. but i also feel a bit huge injustice cause i confronted a horrible stalk torture last 3 years. i dont know what to do. i think i would get advises from people for what i should do. cause i also believe in positive discrimination but i also feel a strong lack of justice since i am tortured for 3 years with such stalk.



i do think what i would do is, when wi th detectives i catch the identity of the stalker, i would talk her and tell her what kind of torture she has done to me. and how bad it is. so instead of sueing to police, i would simply tell how horrible how bad stalk she has done and that she stole my last year's social life, my 3 years of life's peace from me with stalk. i mean, if the detectives catch the identity of stalker as that gay woman, then  i would make sure even if i dont sue to police, i would make sure she learns what kind of horrible stalk she does with telling her that (maybe by a mail or such thing. since i dont even want to coinfront the stalker) i mean she shouldnt behave like this to people. she has no right to torture other people like this. and this is an out of gender topic. as told, stalk happens not as "men stalking woman" or "woman stalking men" but also happens as "men stalking men" or "woman stalking woman" .i m ean its a topic out of gender. its not any related to genders or anything. its just stalk. this is not any related to gender or else. stalk could happen in all genders. so for sure, lets make it clear its not any related to genders or else.


whilst i am not gay either:S i am 100% hetero. and i believe in positive discrimination in gay people's rights/inclusion.

and if the detectives detect that its done by "to:re"(people who tried to make me "kuma" 3 years ago but i rejected nor ever even looked), this sexual harrassment/gas lightin g/stalk/impersonation, i would sue them for sure.



so agenda is hiring detectives. ok guests came so i have to go outside. i dont want to see any guests. i just want to stay in my room code my game. i dont want to go outside. 


         

a woman shouted outside "hande is naive!". constant stalk. constant impersonation. c onstant sexual harrasment. constant gaslighting. constant following. constant stalk.anyway soon i would have detectives. i would hire 10 or alike detectives.



ok outside some pscyho voiced guy people talked my name:S and they said "ugur is an impostor". ok i heard socio sentences. so these people are messing with me since t here isan ugur named impostor stalker? i dont want to even listen the stalk/sociopathy until i could hire detectives. i need to code game and hire detectives and solve this puzzle. cause there are criminal acts of impersonation/sociopathy/and as told very bad sexual harrasment sentences and also labels very bad labels. the guys also told "to:re" word. ok i wont listen to these sociopath ugly voiced people's talk (some guys with ugly voices talking). i gonna hire detectives and detectives would solve this puzzle for me and we would sue to police. if it tuirns out an impostor gay woman is disturbing me, i wont  sue to legal systems. since i believe in positive discrimination. but for sure i would sue these people for this impersonation/sociopathy/sexual harrassing sentences/gaslighting acts. i want them to get inquired by the police. to solve this puzzle of crimin al acts against me. maybe gay woman has no fault. if she has fault, i wont sue her to legal systems(because i believe in positive discrimination). but there is sonething for sure, i would sue to police everyone that has any relatedness. these people(the tore people and their perpetuators) would get inquired by pol;ice. since they apply criminal acts against me. (gas lighting/ sociopathy/sexual harrasment with words/stalk/sociopathy/impersonation) i would make sure they get inquired by police. i do think "to:re" is behind this. i would hire 10 or alike more detectives. an d my detectives would solve the puzzle and learn their identities. and they gonna  be sued to police. and inquired by police. i would make sure i hire detectives and they record the video evidences of this stalk i confront. and they would be sued to police so bad. and the police would solve the entire puzzle of this criminal acts against me. i dont think gay woman is behind this stalk. but visibly her friends. because psycho sentences telling guy people  used ugur nam e and my name also. so its her friends doing this stalk sociopathy. one thin g i am sure, these all people would be inquired. and sued to police. and if ugur named gay weoman has fault, she wont be sued to legal systems cause i believe in positive discrimination. but edveryone related to this stalk would be sued to police. and police would solve the stalk puzzle. i confront constant gaslighting/sociopathy/sexual harrasment sentences/stalk-high vicinity stalk/impersonation/labels. i would hire 10 or alike dtectives and video record these criminal acts against me and that they would be sued to police.

can you imagine how hard it is: how horrible it is. a maniac falls in  love to you. you dont ever show attention. and then she/he starts to shout you labels. and then he/she starts to shout you "sell sex". then her/his friends in a cafe make fun of you if you sell sex with laughing out. and then they give you labels like seller (of sex). can you imagine how horrible this is?
they shout you to sell. you dont even look or any reply. then they make fun of you with "seller" word and do more oppression to sell. and you dont reply or casre. and then this continues like this. can you imagine how horrible this is:S

a psycho p[eople set first shouted me ork/oluk/fukara. then last year they shout m e to sell. i dodnt looked nor replied i just ran away from stalk whenever it happens. then they make fun of you as if you sell. while you arent for sale nor ever been sale nor would prefer being dead instead of doing such thing.

i would make sure i hire 10 or more detectives and catch these stalkers. and so that they would get inquired by the police. and that police solves the puzzle i couldnt solve. i could nt solve whether its a sole sociopath stalker case or is it "to:re" stalking? or is it a psyc ho religious cult? i dont know? so i would hire 10 or more detectives and detec tivces would video record evidence of stalk sociopathy and they would be sued to police and inquired by the police.

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ok today passed nice. we visited relatives. and relatives also visited us first. then we visited as told. all day spent in indofdor with cousins (with air conditioner on snice its super hot air here) and it were very relaxing day. since misseed talking wiht c ousins.

Erhan cousins wife's unborn bab y, they  resemble her enose to mine since its lifted. my current nose isnt lifted (its defected now)  but my initial original nose were alot lifted and its cute they resemle her nose to my original nose:P


they said things like, guher had the most btfl nose and she went to rhinplsty to make it bad. then i had one fixing rhinopalsty but it maybe had fixed. but it got defected due to other thing later on. anyway. i lost my lifted nose in the end . anyway:)

and i couldnt say no to Ece cousin when she asked to go to sea together. i just couldnt say no. so we would go togerther to seaside at least once. happy its weird hours.

it were very nice time today. passing time with cousiuns were awesome. and lets share a picture from time where relatives were in our house:


its a feast here. me not having any religion, i just like seeing relatives i like feasts due to that:D my mom and my dad also look like having no religion:P  but they believe in God. and they also attend feasts rituels like visiting relatives on first day of feast etc.
ok feast visit in our house as :)

(i am not here in photo cause i am the photo taking person)
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ok i had a super peaceful day. spending time with cousins all day were awesome:)
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ok even without detectives, i detected some house related to the stalkers. they used some words and saral name which were repeated in stalk sentences. the woman said "we thought she is gay" (i try to translate from local language to English). the guy said "her vagina is not hungry". and the woman said some company manager to the guy. and they told Ege name. the guy repeatedly uses "kava" name. ok these are the root stalkers.the guy repeatedly uses kava word. they also named osman name which i also heard in some stalk incidents.

i wish so bad i had some mini robot thing helping me and going beside that house and taking video eviden ce of the sociopathy/stalk crime. so this guy is the inventor of "kava" word whatever shit it means? these people during day told also things like "Ugur is impostor". so Ugur is the gay woman stalker. and she is visibly related toi these kava saying people. ok i am trying to understand whats going on. how i wish i had detectives helping me.
if i had detectives, first thing to do would be knowing when  those people moved to that house (newly? ) or they are before residents? and also i would video record all sociopathy/stalk. so that i could sue to police. so that this psycho sentences/sexually harrassing maniac sentences/psycho stalker/sociopath stalker cant stalk me. i have got a sociopath maniac stalker.

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the talking guy's voice looks like he is over 50 or 60 years old or alike. the harrassing sentences sayer.


kyeah i c an most of the time predict people's ages from their talk, older people have kind fo different talks due to tooth problems i think.

and their sen tences/their talks show they are super ignorant people whomever these people are.
anyway i would hire detectives and learn identities of these psycho people and sue to police.
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first and first lets code the game asap and win income, then as told, i would hire 10 or alike detectives. and they would solve the puzzle for me,(learn identities of these stalker psychos) and they would be sued to police so bad.

i dont think the gay woman is any psycho. but these people surrounding are super psycho.  her friends are super psycho. i never seen such ignorant/such psycho people like these people ever in my entire life:S the guy talked a sentence of "her vagina is not hungry" .this is the most psycho sentence i ever heard in my entire life:SSSSSSSS i have got psycho stalker problem. but my game wuold save me from this stalk with hiring detectives, i would record vid4eo evidence and they would be sued to police super bad. and since i believe in positive discrimination the gay woman wont ever be sued, but everyone would be inquired by police whomever has relatedness to this sexual harrasment i confront/sociop[athy/impersonation/dehumanization(ork/oluk/fukara etc) /labels ,     so we see the whole puzzle, that whom  are these psycho people and so that these psycho people are sued to police super badly.
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these people twice or like said "guher boyun ey". means guher stop fighting and obey to us like meanhing. the woman shoutedly told guher eydi. they think i am boyun egiyorum to them? i tried to do video record the stalk evidence, and they think as if its boyun egmek? whom are these psycho people?  is the woman trying to forcefullyt make me gay and thinks i boyun egmek to this torture? or unrelatedly are they trying to make me a prostitude and think i am boyun egecegim to them? maniacs. psychos. i would make sure these people are sued to police super bad.  they take silence as "boyun egmek"???. i just dont ever want to reply to such psycho people.  i am trying to collect video evidence to sue them to police. there is no "b oyun egmek" not even a slightest degree of.

sick psychos.


the gay woman shouts me to sell. i dont reply nor look ever. i been shouted twice sell word. then  they try to shame me with saying seller to me such gaslighting effort. whilst i never reply these psychos do gaslighting due to my silence or non  caring attitude to their shit sociopathy. i confront constant stalk/constant sexual harrasment. i need detectives so much to help me. 


these psychos has been stalking me for 3 years. i never replied 2 year.they constantly shouted me ork/fukara/olukl for 2 years. in  3rd year i twice heard someone shouting me sell. in subway a woman shouted "guher sell" in outside a woman shouted "guher sell ur vagina".     in some other place one other person shouted "sell!" i n ever even looked to them in such sociopathic in stances. then  last year, these people do also gaslighting of "sold!" "seller". beside their sexual harrassing "sell!" requests. i am not for sale nor would ever be. but they first create request and they b ehave as if their deluisonal request is happening. its like i am  forcefully tried to be a prostitude. my silence to them doesnt count. they shout you to sell. even if you dont look, then they start saying thing like "sold!". i do think what is happening is, i am forcefully tried to be made a prostitude or such thing. i definitely need detectives to video record this stalk/sociopathy. they need to pay their dues to legal system for this sociopathy/impersonation/psycho sexual harrassing sentences/labels/gaslighting thing (like saying "sold!").  they gonna be super sued to police. when i could hire detectives.


so when you reject a woman's attention whom has mafia looking like friends, they even try to make you a prostitude for since you reject her attention since because you are not gay.


ok why the fck i am this unlucky? and why do i have sociopath stalkers? and sociopathy is sometopic thats not any related to gender or else. i mean this topic is out of gender topic. every gender could hold sociop people. maybe gay pe0ople has lesser psychos. i do thin k its like that. but this thin g i confront is not any aceptible. i would make them sued to police for this sexual harrasment/stalk/sociopathy/impersonation/gas lighting things.  the gay woman wont be sued to legal system. but all people who are in t hsi stalk activ ity gonna be inquired by our police system whom i trust judicial power of .



so 2 years being called ork, last year i am tried to be turned to a prostitude. ok what else these sociopaths would do i wonder?:S i am not for sale. never been nor never would be. and these people whom are doing this sociopathy all of them gonn a be sued super bad to police.



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ah seeing my cousins is like theraphy:) my cousins visited and felt super happy whenever i spend time with them:)

they went to watch netflix movie in uncles' home. i stayed at home since i have to study to game.
Thiis Ece and Erhan are my childhood friends:) whenever i am spending time with them i feel super peaceful/happy:)  seeing therm is even like theraphy:) no other friends/cousins make feel that like that. so i get that friendships that extends from childhood time are very important. whatever age we became, it feels always super happy like happy as a child soul whenever we spend time:)

that people you trust super much becomes best friends.  what best friend means, is some people that feels lke theraphy to see them (when life is traumatic) i forgot all trauma of stalk. now i am super happy after spending time with them:) we were very good child friends:) i think all friends that extends from childhood are like this? i mean its like theraphy to see best friends:)
i think best friend is, liek you know other sides as like super much, i mean talks/and even things you care, and characters also resemble. sometimes best friends becomes from odd characters. but  we cousins, our characters also resemble:) and i think i like that also:)  so i wish everyone has chance to grow up with cousins at similar ages and knows that best friend feeling:) we grew up in sometime of our life with three floors like: 3rd floor Erhan's home, 4th floor Ece's and our house were at 5th floor. and we had an awesome childhood:) so whenever i see these people, its super happy. i wish i let them know this in some place/some words. cause i never seen people other than them that makes it feel like spending time is like theraphy:) i mean seeing people makes me happy friends makes happy. but best friends that extend from childhood, is something other. it is like, seeing them, is like theraphy:) noone in life makes feel like that. best friends, and best friends that extend from childhood times, is something other in life.  is people that makes spending time with them is like theraphy when you are in trauma. and when  you arent in traumaitc condition, then its super happy:) i mean, yeah it feels like that, best friends from childhood times, i think this is  something other in life:) its something super valuable. since we never behaved bad to each other and were very good friends in childhood and were never bored since we always grew together. our lives passed either in Ece's housde or Erhan's house or our house:) we went to school even together:) Erhan  usually tried to make us carry his school bag:D it were super happy times. we had super time together like playing atari together (we had commodore 64, Ece had atari) there would happen queue in front of Ece's atari:D we played hide and seek, we song songs together etc, it were super happy childhood all because of our friendship which were very nice.we had super nice birthday parties. we were always together:) I luckily had a super nice childhood:)

and i even if like my brother/my mom/my dad also alot , but seeing that, the only people to me in life that makes it feel like as if its theraphy(in this hard time of life) is seeing those childhood time friends:) i think that means they are my best friends still:)


i remembered one dream. in my dream, i saw a roof place in top of ferikoy's house. some people best friends gathered there. some people that are super happy ( like best friends as me and my cousins:)) then they played some atlas on ground. the atlas had many lights/colors and they chosen next place to go. like Peter Pan ? i dont know but that scene were super peaceful:)  i liked that dream and that atlas were super nice/looked so amazing:) it were like foldab le material that could even project light. but very bright lights. and the  friends that are partying on roof top chosen next place to go from their foldable atlas.were very nice dream:)


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ok coming  to problems: i need a detective super bad to collect evidence.

can you people understand how horrible this is? someone fixates in stalking you. then shouts you "sell!" the n you dont even reply. then shouts you "sold!" or such word. can you imagine how horrible this is? that a maniac fixates you adn even puts you as a proistitude role since you reject attention of?  can people understand how horrible this is?the woman says "aga" to the psycho. so this is really "tore" stalking? and the disgusting is, they always stalk in very high vicinity. and constantly.never ending stalk happens constantly.
a woman passing street shouted 2 days ago "onur has become cold to this issue. if only she sells!". i am tried to be made a prostitude:S psycho maniacs:S i need detectives:S
some people shout me sell this were 3rd time last year. whats wrong with these psychos:S we arent for sale:S i am a very intellgnt computer engineer. if i wanted to win money from doing bad things, i would have been a hacker and steal money instead of selling again. i would also never do that. but the thing i mean is, what the fck is wrong with these psychos? why do they want a computer engineer to be sale? what kind of psychos these people are? if were going to be a bad person who does bad things, prostitude wont be my thing. i would instead had been a hacker. i mean these people's dumbness in asking a computer engineer to be prostitude makes me crazy. super stupid super dumb people. i mean one must be super low iqqued to ask a computer engineer to be a prostitude. my stalkers visibly lack any iq or rationality. if i were going to be a bad person doing b ad things, i would be hacker. i dont need to be a prostitude or else if i were abad person.  so it would have been nicer when they due to revenge of rejection trying to do bad things to me like trying to make me a prostitude, i wish they had chosen  a batter more suitable bad charcter like hckers. cause i would prefer being dead instead of being a prostitude.  they call a word like seller:S they shout you to sell. you dont care. whilst you dont care, they then do gas lighitng of calling seller.  i wish i could hire detectives asap. i need detectives super much. these psychois need to get inquired by police and get penalties for this sociopathy they do.


i dont need to do bad things in life by the way. i have a powerful family who i salways supportin g me when i need. and being a little bit intllngt computer en gineer, i could even create millions to myself with just writing code.

so the dumbness of this sociopath stalkers with wanting me to sell myself? is the dumbest thing i ever seen in my life. or doing gas lighting of seller? for they requested to sell myself? that i ddnt even looked to.

this revenge of rejection is super sociopathic way. so this guy or man, (dont understood the root stalker, ) tries to make prostitude whom ever rejec ts him/her.

needless to say, i dotn need to do bad things in life to have a nice life. i am an engineer graduated from best school. and also super talented coder in coding things. so their dumbness tyheir dumb   acts of this gaslighting, this sociopathy this stalk is super disturbin g. i wish if i had enemies i wish i had intellgnt enemies that dont tell create super dumb sociop[athy. i mean i would find being insulted as a hacker more suitable to a person like me. cause i would prefer being dead ins tead of being a prostitude. and not needing to add the fact that, i always have a supporting family that sends me money whenever i need, so i mean why would i ever want to be ever any such thing? and if i somehow if  i would had done any bad thing  in life, it would be just being a hacker. though i also doint do any bad things like that. but if i wanted to do bad things in life, that would be just simply being a hacker. though i doint do any bad things in life. cause i am just a very intellgnt compute4 rengineer.
i mean in our local currency whilst i have 13000 salary last year, these psyhopaths as told shouted "sell!" sentence to me. i mean i dont get the lack of rationality in this thing i confront. i have got super dumb haters. i mean as told, instead of being aprostitude i would just prefer being dead. i mean if i would do any bad thing in lkife, that would be being a hacker. i wont do nor hadnt done any bad thin g in life. but if i would had done, it would not be selling self:S

so having super dumb sociopath st alkers is super disturbing. i would have preferred more intellngt more rationale holding sociopath stalkers. i mean having a dumb sociopath stalker really is super disturbing. cause the sociopathy the sociopath creates gets aligned with his/her super dumb world view. and i confront super dumb things as sociopathy acts accordingly. like the sociopath shouts me "sell your vagina". then does gas lighting of "seller! sold!". creates a sociopathic world and then executes that sociopathy fantasies this sociopath. and i confront such super dumb sentences as a result.


i have a powerful family whom always sends me money when i need. so i would prefer being dead instead of selling. as the socio woman shouts me sell, shouted me sell, i figure out she is from another world? i mean what kind of dumb would ask a computer engineer to sell? what is these people's problem? they visibly lack super levels of rationality. if i ever gonna do any bad thin g in life (that i would never do also) it would be simply being a hacker. and i wont either also be any time hacker.
i just could win good salaries in here. and always had nice salaries. my dad made me b uy a nice volvo s40 when i graduated. though i sold because i couldnt pay my bills well (cause i never leartn spending money ever. i only learnt how to spend only after my 30ies. before i were like, i always asked money from mom and dad when i needed)  i mean if ever i need money (like i need now since i am temporarily unemployed and my mom and dad helps me as alwyas they helped me all my life) i would just aks mom  and dad. and beside, i graduated from best university. and beside i am a very talented computer engineer. i mean the lack of rationality of this sociopath stalkers is not any comprehensible. these people's ignorance and dumbness is something  undescrible. i mean whom would ask a talented computer engineer to become a prostituyde instead? what kind of brain illness they have to ask for such thing?  i have visibly super maniac super brain illness holdin g stalkers. i mean this sociopathy i confront is super stupid/super dumb.

so even when  you have an enemy(sociopath stalker), its good if they are in same intellectual level as you. i wish if i goning  to have a sociopath stalker, i wish he she were in same intellect level. i mean the lack of rationality i  confront from sentences of these sociopaths is uncomprehensible levels. i have got super dumb super sociopath super psycho stalkers visibly. i wish if i were going to have  a psycho stalker, i wish he or she would at least be at same intellect as me and when gas lighiting agaisnt me, would craft better sociopathy/lie in doing gas lighting against me.   i mean the gaslighting done is also super dumb. i am confrontin g stalk fo super dumb people. i wish my enemies(sociopath stalker) had at least same rationalite same intellect as me.  its super hard to have a sociopath stalker that has no rationale or any level of intellect. and the acts the stalker does against victim  gets alighned with his/her rationale/intellect. i wish i had a more intellgnt sociopath stalker that does gaslighitng that is more rationale. i mean this stupidity this gaslighting this sociopathy is super dumb.



so one thing i see, not only for friends, but for even enemies, its more better if i would have enemies, i woudl had preferred them to be sharing same intellect as me. since their sociopathy acts are super disturibg cause they are super dumb sociopaths. cause i would prefer being dead instead of being a prostitude. if i ever gonna do any bad thin g in life, it would be simply being hacker. i hadnt done any bad thing in life. b ut if i were somehow super stupid and want to destroy my life, i would instead be a hacker. i mean why would these super stupid sociopaths expects a computer engineer to turn to prostitude. the lack of rationale in this is super disturbing/severe. i have got super stupid sociopath stalker. i wish if i were going to have a sociopath stalker, i would prefer someone with same intellect as me. so that wont create such stupid gas lighting or would shout m e "sell!", "sell your vagina!" . the lack of rationale in these super dumb sociopaths is super disturbing. why the fck they expect such things from a computer engineer, that has graduiated as second honor student in high school, graduyadted from best university of Trkey (maybe second best university ) and had a very nice career in various fields and were always succesful in workplaces. i mean the lack of rationale in these sociopath stalkers is super disturbing . if i were gonna have a sociopath stalker, i would preffered a more rationale/more intellect having one. this lack of rationale kills me:S i feel it super disturbing  to confront the sociuopathy of super dumb people:S

so things i figure out n  life: it sucks to have a super stupid enemy that does super stupid sociopathy act. i would also want my enemies to share the same conscience/same intellect/same raitonality as me.   having super dumb sociopath stalkers definitely sucks. its super disturbing to confront sociopathy of super dumb people:S

i would never be any hacker also:S nor never ever been:S
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ok i detected the home of the stalkers. i am trying toi collect record so i become sure and then even without detective people, i would myself sue to police. but first an d first i am trying to collect auido evidence. then i would go to cumhuriyet savciligi to create a suc duyurusu. i definitely get the home location where the stalk perpetuators reside.
maybe i dont need detectives. i wish they next time also be careless in stalk sociopathy this time they were quiet. the guy used onur name. the name used in 2 days ago sentence of "onur has became cold to this topic. if only she sells sx ", ok so lets collect evidence and go to cumhuriyet savciligi. this time they are careful, 3 or 4 nights ago they shotuedly talked in these 2am like hours. now they talk silently. ok. so next time. so i dont actually need detectives. the stalkers rent ed a home right beside my home.

would make my phone in voice record mode. and leave it in window.

ok next time they loudly talk harrasment/sociopathy things i would catch with video recording. yepp. 
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ok today started with attneding cousin's invitation to seaside at 7am:) we swam. i walked on rope thats over sea with water gages,  it floats on sea and trying to walk on it is super fun :)  i liked that. but waki ng  up at 7am were kind of hard since i usually wake up at 11am here:)

my color got browner whic h i liked. normally i wnt to seaside aft er 5am like hours so never got really brwon color. now since its mornin g and since we left at 11am i think my color changed. yepp. hmm more D vitamin please:) sunlight = d vitamin :)

ok lets continue coding the gamey:) yepp lets move to frontend finally today. cousins visit to our city took alot of break to game. but it were quite happy break:) cause seeing them is super happy as told : ) yepp, today lets work hard to the game:)


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ok this music  i right now listen is of strings and nice composition :) its super relaxing/nice:) how i wished i knew how to play violin. something to be learnt in future not now:) I have got violin but havent started any course yet:)





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yeppp using color convertion from: (from wavelength to color)
https://gist.github.com/friendly/67a7df339aa999e2bcfcfec88311abfc
finally i might see some sky today:)
not the clouds yet:)




yeppp :) i am quite hopeful right now:) i mean for everything :)  (since i read a nice blog:) )


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coming back to how game coding works:


i written some silly code:P i know it shouldnt be converted like that:)
like list of wavelengths is not the accurate way to define that. anyway. lets continue coding now:)


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ok my RGBColor class :)


package models.light.color

import models.light.{WaveLength, Color}


case class RGBColor(val R:Int, val G:Int, val B:Int, val Alphae:Double) extends Color

case object RGBColor {
  //this function is taken from gist of
  //https://gist.github.com/friendly/67a7df339aa999e2bcfcfec88311abfc
  def convert(wavelength: Double, gamma:Double=0.8): RGBColor = {
     
    var R,G,B = 0.0
    if (wavelength >= 380.0 & wavelength <= 440.0) {
        var attenuation = 0.3 + 0.7 * (wavelength - 380.0) / (440.0 - 380.0)
        R = math.pow(((-(wavelength - 440.0) / (440.0 - 380.0)) * attenuation),gamma)
        G = 0.0
        B = math.pow((1.0 * attenuation) , gamma)
        }
    else if (wavelength >= 440.0 & wavelength <= 490.0) {
        R = 0.0
        G = math.pow(((wavelength - 440.0) / (490.0 - 440.0)) , gamma)
        B = 1.0
        }
    else if (wavelength >= 490.0 & wavelength <= 510.0) {
        R = 0.0
        G = 1.0
        B = math.pow((-(wavelength - 510.0) / (510.0 - 490.0)) , gamma)
        }
    else if (wavelength >= 510.0 & wavelength <= 580.0) {
        R = math.pow(((wavelength - 510.0) / (580.0 - 510.0)) , gamma)
        G = 1.0
        B = 0.0
        }
    else if (wavelength >= 580.0 & wavelength <= 645.0) {
        R = 1.0
        G = math.pow((-(wavelength - 645.0) / (645.0 - 580.0)) , gamma)
        B = 0.0
        }
    else if (wavelength >= 645.0 & wavelength <= 750.0) {
        var attenuation = 0.3 + 0.7 * (750.0 - wavelength) / (750.0 - 645.0)
        R = math.pow((1.0 * attenuation) , gamma)
        G = 0.0
        B = 0.0
        }
    else {
        R = 0.0
        G = 0.0
        B = 0.0
        }
    R = R * 255.0
    G = G * 255.0
    B = B * 255.0
    return RGBColor(math.floor(R).toInt, math.floor(G).toInt, math.floor(B).toInt, 1.0)
  }

    def build(l:List[WaveLength]) :RGBColor = {
      l.map((c:WaveLength) => {
        convert(c.v)
      }).foldLeft(RGBColor(0,0,0,1.0))((ac:RGBColor, c:RGBColor) => {
        RGBColor(ac.R+c.R,ac.G+c.G,ac.B+c.B, 1.0)
      }) match { case c:RGBColor=>{
         RGBColor(math.floor(c.R/l.length).toInt,math.floor(c.G/l.length).toInt,math.floor(c.B/l.length).toInt, 1.0)
      }}
    }
 }


actually rod cone cells have differnt frequency peaks so last method hasnt been any correct. but let have it initially like that. then would add perception frequency model,  but very later i think because lots of things to do now:).



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ok i defined a silly(ever code guhu writes is silly:P )  model framework as:

package sim

trait Step {
  def execute:Any
 
}
trait Model {
  def init:Any
  def steps: List[Step]
 }

trait Stage {
  def model:Model
  def execute(v:Executor):Any
  def dependsOn:List[Stage]
}

trait Executor {
 
}

ok this is  not any complex as akka streaming i know. but initially enough for current taks. in future might integrate akka streaming to here. since its chaining mechanisms are nice.  currently added a very simple work model.

(now would add spark implementations for these traits. and now the flux extinction models would use spark based implemntor.)

hadnt coded spark alot more than 2 months. lets add some spark code:)


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my way to deal with stalker whom come around home's surroundings :
socio shouted guher is gay. sociopath. i am not offended from being told as gay(being gay is cool) but offended from this stalk from my home's surrounding from this stalker. i am not disturbed from lie of being told as gay but disturbed from constantly lies/constantly gaslighting/constant impersonation/constant stalk from high vicinity around my home. i am not gay nor never been. this is just another sociopathy act. but this is the only non disturbing sociopathy act. but other sociopathy acts are very disturbing. like impersonation topic. and also constant gas lighting topic. anyway. i open my protection spell of rain sound. which protects me fromm confronting targeting of stalker. constant labels(gaslighting) and constant curses also. a never ending stalk constantly happens. i want to buy a mini island to be saved from this stalk. cause i am scared if i move to another place, this socio would also stalk me there:S cause stalks me with this sociopathy for 3 years. (gender is out of this topic. i do think sociopaths must exist in heteros more than gays. i mean this is not any related to being gay or not. it is related to stalk. not any related to genders. i mean its really cool to be a gay and sociopathy and being gay doesnt any resonate. i never seen any gay socio before. i mean i do think sociopaths must exist in higher rates in  heteros. and this is too much stalk. i mean i just want to go to a place this people cant stalk me. this stalk with sociopathic  acts happens for 3 years like this. its not related to gender. a hetero could also did this stalk like this.  i mean stalk topic is nto any related to genders. stalk is just stalk, out of genders topic. no topic in earth is related to gender. gender is a topic out of any topic/unrelated to other topics. so i wish my blog doesnt gets understood as if i am  against being gay. no i am not. i thin k being gay is super cool. so this stalk i confront is not any related to genders. it could much more came from a hetero persson. so iwsh my paragraph doenst get understood as if i am against being gay. no i wish all my friends are gays. i mean i dont have such attitude. its just unrelated to genders. its just a stalk & sociopathy situation that is not any related to gender.

i want to buy a mini island to run away from this socio stalker. i confront constant gaslighting/constant curse/constant high vicinity stalk/constant lie creations/constant impersonation. i just am sick and tired of confrontin this stalk. i want to buy a mini island that all surrounded by sea so that this stalker cant reach me out)( i wish noone understand as i talk like this due to gender or else. its jut because of sociopathy, which is not any related to genders topic. sociopathy could exist in  all genders. and i do think it must be rarest in gay people. since they are emphats usually as i see.


so i am not any gay but i wish i have many gay friends. (woman/man)


and i want to buy a mini island to run away from this woman's stalk. cause doing sociopathy acts against me for 3 years.

curses/constant curses/constant lies/constant impersonation/constant sociopathic acts/constant curses/constant super high vicinity stalk.

i just want to buy a mini island and so that this woman could stalk me no more.  cause stalks me like this for 3 years, that the gaslightings she does is super  horrible. makes me get cursed as vagina, tries to make me seen as prostitude and does such gaslighting and various labels. various gaslighting. various impersonation. i just want to buy a mini island and get protected frmo the stalk of this socio woman.
and i wish i have many gay woman friends and gay man friends also.

these maniacs do say sentences like  "vagina (they call vagina to me) is our hunt". i am a person labelled as various shit labels and also as vagina thats tried to be hunt by these people.


as told, as repeatedy told, i want to buy a mini island and so be protected from this socio people's stalk.
    

creates labels to me. makes me impersonated in many names/many labels. makes me behaved as a prostitude. i am confronitn g a high degree of sociopathy holding stalker.


as told, i wish i copuld buy a min i island in future an d be protected from stalk. and i wish i have many m any gay woman/man friends also.


and not the gay woman but whom help her (man help her) would be sued to police. when if i could find detectives. but since i belive in positive discrimination, i wont sue the gay woman.

i just want to run away from reach of stalk of this sociopath woman:S i wish i could in near time buy a mini island so that i be i feel protected.  there is no chance that this socio stalker whom stalks me for 3  years could ever stalk me when i live in a mini island thats surrounded by ocean. yepp.

lets open rain sound. and continue coding game with much high ambition. cause my life;s peace depends on saving myself from stalk or not. and that depends on buying a mini island. cause this gay woman looks as rich, stalks me everywhere, if i go to another city, she might stalk me also there. so the only solution for a stalk free life is to buy a mini island so that she would n ot be able to stalk me ever again after this sociopathy torture type of stalk she does against me. 


its like some people that ran away from mental bakirkoy hospital is stalking me. the man that helps her in stalk definitely look like bakirkoy runaways.  i mean they really look like freaks (the man whom helps her in her stalk against m e). and i do think  this woman has very high severe version of sociopathy mental illness.
(i wish that its understood that sociopathy topic is nmot any related to genders. sociopathy might happen in all genders. its an out of gender topic. i defntly think it happens rarestly in gay people. i do think the rate of sociopathy in heteros might be much more higher. so i wish i am not understood as a person who dont like gay peopls. i like gay people. they are cute. i just am talking about sociopathy which is not any gender related topic. i mean even in rare situation of that i have a gay stalker doesnt mean i dont like gay people. i think gay people are cute:)(e.g. seeing a same sex couple walking in street, its lovely:) or seeing a wedding cake with same sex dolls on top of it, thats also super cute:) ) and they are more emphats. and i like gay people alot :) and i wish i have many gay/trans friends in future.  i like wedding cakes with same sex dolls on top of it. its super cute:)  i wish in future i have lots of gay couple friends:) and also trans friends also. )




  and i think being gay is super cool. i wish i have many gay woman and gay man friends in now and future life also.

lets open rainsound again.  thats the only thing protecting from stalk.

ok lets have high persistence in hard life conditions. of getting sociopathically stalked situation. 



ok in high stress moments i have a pink toy i hug as a way to handle stress fo stalk. whilst i am not stalked, ideas of being stalked or possibility of stalk sometrimes sum up and i feel stress. and then i  try to relax with listening nice songs.and i today tried hug to my pink toy. i dont know if helped or not.

but getting stalked with sociopathy is super hard situaiton:S its really super hard:S 

i had a plan of agasin tomorrow going to seaside wit cousin. but since i felt scared(of confron ting sociopathy whcih really hurts)  i cancelled that. ok agenda is coding game asap. and wishing it gets popula rand if it gets  buying a mini island. and some tim e i wish i find a bf in future so that stalker couldnt stalk me and so i could continue my nonscared city life. i mean i wont live in my min i island forever. if i find a bf, i would nonscaringly move to city again(since if i have a bf i woint scare frm this stalker woman). since i have got a sociopath stalker that does very unnice form of soc iopathy against me. so i thin k i would at least live sometime in mini island i buy. cause i missed peace super much. i misse4d my nonstalked life super much:S

and as told, i would be a much more active emmbers of NGOs i am alreayd member of. like One.org.  and would fight for woman rights. and also LGBT rights similarly.










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starting the day and coding gamey alot today.


i entered goodtheraphy site but it were expensive to me. i saw other people are also stalked like me (being stalked by sociopath situation).   b ut its currently expensive to get to site.

since nowhere feels safe to me (since  sociopath stalker woman is visibly rich, stalked me in 3 cities constantly for 3 years) i would buy a mini island and feel safe with that way.                


there are houses like they are islands. they stand in ocean and so noone uninvited can ever come besidee it. so thats my plan to run away from stalk of sociopath woman.

and would create a helping fund to stalk victims of sociopaths. since i have a sociopath woman stalker. i mean if victims need to hire detectives, they would be able to do so. or other things. it would be a shelter to sociopathy stalk victims. so that they cvould find some protection mechanisms against sociopathy stalk. e.g. when if stalker harrasses constant ly around her house, she or he could  get micro funding from such place to go to another city all before she/he gets scar in her soul(ptsd like) due to stalk-sociopathy things.



and if i become powerful i would create projects to fight for woman rights and lgbt rights also.


ok i wish i could enter goodtheraphy.com  bvut dont know if reading stories of similar suffering would help me or not. i mean i think reading same suffering might not help either. i think best solution is  buying a mini island so that  the sociopath woman cant come beside my home's surrounding to stalk.


currently my survival method  against stalk is opening rain sounds. but my ultimate survival method from sociopath woman's stalk would be buyiung a mini island (as i seen homes like that, that home on a sea like place, that home is like an island) or if i could afford in future(i dont know if ican), i could even buy a tiny very tiny island.


lets continue coding gamey. thats my survival thing from the sociopath stalker woman's stalk.



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guhu wonders how it would be to camp in Patagonia. yepp some such camping adventure is planned:)


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ugliest executor classes ever written  :D not done good softwar e engineering any in this. but as told, this could be made better by other people in fut ure. currently game's world creator need to work and execute some spark steps.

i could used akka streamin gfor that, but dont want to. so written this executor thing.

since the flux extinction code's base components are needed to be  ready. every step generates a new spark task to do. i dont either also want to use any airflow right now. since this project is currently investing effort in a ready demo product as fast as it can.


ugly classes:

package sim

trait StepMethod {
  def execute(context:Any, a:Any):Any
}
trait Step {
  def execute(a:Any, executor:Executor):Any
 
}
case class Model(init:Step, steps:List[Step]) {
 
 }

case class Stage(model:Model) {
 
  def execute(e:Executor):Any = {
     e.initContext
     model.init.execute(null, e)
     model.steps.foldLeft(null.asInstanceOf[Any])((a:Any, b:Step)=>{
       b.execute(a, e)
     })
     e.exitContext
   
  }

}

trait Executor {
  def initContext:Unit =  {
   
  }
  var context:Any = null
 
  def exitContext:Unit ={
   
  }
}


case object DefaultExecutor extends Executor {
 
}



and the other ugly implementation:


package sim.spark
import org.apache.spark.sql.SparkSession
import sim.{Step, StepMethod, Executor}

case class SparkStep(val method:StepMethod) extends Step {
 
  def execute(a:Any, executor:Executor): Any = {
    method.execute(executor.context,a)
    }
}

case class SparkStepWithSelfContainedContext(val method:StepMethod) extends Step {
 
  def execute(a:Any, executor:Executor): Any = {
    val spark = SparkSession.builder.appName("Simple Application").getOrCreate()
    method.execute(spark.asInstanceOf[Any],a)
    spark.stop()
    }
}

case class SparkExecutorWithContext() extends Executor {
 
    var sparkSession: SparkSession= null
    override def initContext:Unit = {
      sparkSession = SparkSession.builder.appName("Simple Application").getOrCreate()
      context = sparkSession.asInstanceOf[Any]
       
    }
   
 override def exitContext:Unit ={
    sparkSession.stop
  }
}





why i hadnt used templates and instead used any? cause iu dont like how the templates look. or should invent a bette rway instead of templates. lets chagne any's to at least some base classes. that would look b etter . (since i dont want to use templates ([]  thing)    )

and i dont create domain model classes or dao entities so that execution of these stages c ould be tracked from some ui curren tly. as told they are all further tasks. not needing such advanced framework right now. if needed in future, would add.

best would be being able to define state machins and execute spark tasks with them.
and having rest interfaces to control /define/modify/delete state macvhines. but not have time to do wriote such framework right now. nor have the motivation to write such thing either. since motivation is to have a ready product as fast as possible.

its still very ugly code, i have updated it as: (better than 5 minutes ago code):

package sim

trait StepMethod {
  def execute(executor:Executor, args:Any):Any
}
trait Step {
  def execute(executor:Executor,args:Any):Any
}
case class Model(init:Step, steps:List[Step]) {
 
 }

case class Stage(model:Model) {
 
  def execute(e:Executor):Any = {
     e.initContext
     model.init.execute(null, e)
     model.steps.foldLeft(null.asInstanceOf[Any])((a:Any, b:Step)=>{
       b.execute(e, a)
     })
     e.exitContext
   
  }

}

trait Executor {
  def initContext:Unit =  {
   
  }
  def context:Any 
 
  def exitContext:Unit ={
   
  }
}


case object DefaultExecutor extends Executor {
 
  def context:Any  = null
}

case class ExecutorWithContext(val context:Any) extends Executor {
 
}


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package sim.spark
import org.apache.spark.sql.SparkSession
import sim.{Step, StepMethod, Executor,ExecutorWithContext}

case class SparkStep(val method:StepMethod) extends Step {
 
  def execute(executor:Executor,args:Any): Any = {
    method.execute(executor,args)
    }
}

case class SparkStepWithSelfContainedContext(val method:StepMethod) extends Step {
 
  def execute(executor:Executor, args:Any): Any = {
    val spark = SparkSession.builder.appName("Simple Application").getOrCreate()
    method.execute(ExecutorWithContext(spark.asInstanceOf[Any]),args)
    spark.stop()
    }
}

case class SparkExecutorWithContext() extends Executor {
 
    var sparkSession: SparkSession= null
     override def context:Any = {
      sparkSession.asInstanceOf[Any]
    }
    override def initContext:Unit = {
      sparkSession = SparkSession.builder.appName("Simple Application").getOrCreate()
     }
   
 override def exitContext:Unit ={
    sparkSession.stop
  }
}


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ok i gave some tiny break of coding. now back to coding.


ok i read a little bit from Steve Jobs book. since i am developing a product even if i am not an entrepreneur or that i dont understand from products or economy either:) but reading such topics were nice. even if i am not an entrepreneur(maybe in long future) but i would have a game product initially, so i tried to learn as much as from a product/marketing expert entrepreneur since game is also a product. and reading that exciting stories from there is intriguing. i wouldnt call myself any entrepreneur until i build any popular/or lightly popular product:) since i dton hadnt read enough to be an entrepeneur. for that i need to read about lots of topics at once. so until i read alot/learn alot, i wont tell i am any entrepreneur or such role. or until i have game product which people are interested. and i am not adhering to entrepreneur profiles we see since i am not product focused entrepreneur/nor i understand any from economy/marketing. i  think i could be a nice cofounder but not any ceo since i am not good in communication skills either like also lacking understanding from economy/lacking product perspectives etc. i think best thing for me is to be a cofounder and initial product builder for this game product. but even if i wont be the ceo, reading things from biographies of entrepreneurs is intriguing definitely. i liked definitely reading about Steve Jobs today.

so i wish the cofounder of the game project (hidden cofoudner) accepts being the ceo. i suit to be a cofounder but not the CEO since as told i lack things like product management or understanding economy or reading alot. i woudl read alot like i used to before. but still CEO should be the cofounder. (I hide my cofounder since i ddnt liked sharing alot things from company:) (whilst i share classes(code) of prduct of our company here :)  ok they are not the whole product:) they are just glimpses of what we are tryiong to do. )

but this Steve Jobs book doesnt belong to me. i need to send it back. since i took it from library of previous company. but whilst coming here(to Iskenderun), my mom and dad in home collected my belongings so this slipped from my attention wth coming to Iskenderun hom e. ok so, hmm need to post it t o workplace or buy a book from amazon and send. i dont know. its best to ask to them. i dont like also talking people like that, maybe i ask a colleague from there. yepp i could send an email to the friends there and ask what should i do. maybe i buy and send them Steve Job's book from Idefix. yeppp.

lets send a mail aft er holiday ends so that my mail doesnt get lost in theirs mails. (there is an official holiday here). so lets send such email on Thursday and ask for the most suitable method to give back this thing.

my mom and dad had helped me in collecting my belongings because whilst i resigned, thehouse i rented get sold so we moved to iskenderun very fastly. so mom and dad collected things in my home instead of me.
it were very busy time.

i discovered in my things 10 days ago or maybe like that.  i think  i should send it back or send sometihng from idefix(the same book from idefix. i mean instead of sending this one, lets buy a new one from idefix or i send them money and they buy from idefix. dont know what to do? best is asking the cpmpany and saying my discovery of that their book is in my shelf :) ).
there is a unluck with this book i lended:D i first lost the book(in an airport). so buyed it again to get back to library. then i resigned and this time it came to iskenderun home by mom and dad and due to confusion since we had a very little time frame to move since house were sold as i resigned etc...



ok lets email on thursday, the holiday as far as i know ends in thursday yeppp.

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ok even if its a tiny product, (not as big/complex products), talking sentences like "what we are trying to build bla  bla" looked happy things to talk:)  i liked talking such sentences:)

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we talked with cofounder to be more productive, to be faster in demo production. i think so. i am already faster and would become faster:)


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ok some days i like classical music alot. and repeatedly listening one very famously known symphony now: Symphony no 9  in D Minor, :Beethoven




if there needed to be streaming like execution. that the data is taken in windows adn have to be paritally consumed like that, i forsure would use Akka streaming (i liked the reactive manifesto and its elegant implementation in Akka streaming and constructs in Alpakka. i think Akka thing is the hallmark of software engineering done good:) i dont do good software engineering right now since my motivation is to build the game asap and not motivated to do the very best software engineering whilst. i try to build the game in economic resources in short time.

 but when the time comes to use something like Kafka and or (i think i would prefer Akka instead:) i like Akka thing alot :) ) Akka Streaming, i would use. i mean i would invest such effort when its mandated. but not  c urrently for only sake of perfect software engineering. current reti_creator (game's skies/worlds creator) doesnt need that big data engineering pipeline yet. but when it becomes necessary of course it would be deployed employed.

my game currently needs just simple non windowed spark execution tasks. and i dont want to learn an orchestrator like Airflow yet. just simple classes is enough for current reti_creator big data tasks. in future when task orchestrator like Air flow is necessary, i would utilize Kafka or Akka streaming and code such orchestrator  instead. i dont like python that much. though i have to like python of course:) but for our big data pipelines, they all would be coded in scala&Java:) either Kafka or Akka Streaming. i think i liked Akka Streamin g in one introduction to it in worklife. so in devising our pipeline for game's assets creators or worlds cr eators i might be biased to use Akka Streaming. but i saw blogs people usually favored Kafka in stream processing tasks. so it would be a thoughly analyzed decision point.


 for machine learniung pipelines integration to our big data pipeline,design of that weould be fun. again economic coding /maintenance would be favored. most possibly would be coded in scala since its both a functional and object oriented language so most fun to use i think.
or might not code such thing. if the game gets popular, people more experienced than me could help me to devise appropriate things in there.


i think i liked AirBnb's attitude of writing their own orchestrator of big data tasks as Airflow. i want to follow same attitude in ours future company. that we write ours own. but in scala (since i dont super like python even if its liked by all people. and optimizing python is harder than optimizing scala. i mean optimization things in python is harder than scala i think. it has very intricate constructs. i like python usage in m,achine learning tasks. and like alot python based ml libraries. they are truly awesome. but  in such orchestrator/framework code, since i like scala lot, i would like to have scala as main framework lang in that. ).


ok i think this like/dislike of computer languages is a very specific topic. like that i state i dont like python, some people could come and say they dont like this and that of scala. i mean its something subjective. and so python usage as an orchestrator framework is actually good choice since i dont like python that much, i would prefer scala instead.
its something like cpp-java gifs(that people ar epartisanly either cpp or java likers:P its from older times of coding.  before,  there were just c/cpp/java only:D and people were partisanly favoring either cpp or java usually and gifs related to that were funny) . i mean somepeople like java some people like cpp. its just so subjective.
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ok even if its a tiny product initially, i liked doing an engineering project right now:P (big data engineering project:) reti_creator:) since i like qt and it had creator named software, i named it as reti_creator :)
even if i am doing big data en gineering, its forsure not any hallmark of good software engineering right now since my motivation is to produce the game asap. excelling in software engineering would come later.


i liked creating a tech product as a game  and talking sentences  like "we do this due that bla bla type of" or "our decision in usage of this instead of that bla bla " sentences:P

sinc ei liked reading  blog posts of companies (E.g. visibly i read Airbnb;s latestly ) i liked talking things like this. e.g. we select this methodology for that type fo task. or stopped doing detailed analysis in that sub task due to that bla bla.


why i am liking one.org, since it has a very nice slogan that catched my attention: poverty is sexist.  since i am interested to SDGs and specifically gender equality topics in all world, i get on some campaigns. but never been an active emmber yet that donates. i had no idea it were specific to one continent. i from maillists took it as a globe NGO?  i were mail news list member an d hadnt analyzed the pages fully. but i loved their gender equality signature collection things that i attend always. since they work for SDGs they are an  NGO i like:)  like protecting children from marriage/ laws that are against gender equality etc. hmm might had been a member i think for 4? years(or 3? i dont exactly remember when i entered) . whenever they do a signature campaign i try to attend. I also like UNICEF. and would check other NGOs also. but  children rights and gender equality and LGBT rights fighters are my fav ones in NGOs topic. as told would be a much more active member to NGOs.

i learnt about NGOs from a coursera international politics like french course. i attended it in trying to learn French, then liked the topics being talked (they even mentioned Malthus:)) so i finished the course.
ok trying to learn French is sometihng that get lost in during other activities. i figured out i nncould try to learn French with reading subtitles in French qand listening in English. but  then as told, the lectures captured my attention and i forgot learning language activity:P the course were from a French university professor.  and learnt about NGOs and how much pwerful they are from that course. it were an international relations/topics course. talked about migration dynamics/ conflicts dynamics, how wars shaped world (even mentioning 100 years wars also) country groups based on regions/based on trade strategies, and game theoretic perspective like sentences in intern ational anf intra relations /dynamics etc. were an amazing course i think. i think I learnt a  bout NGOs then registered to One.org due tot hat course. since i am also interested to SDGs. I been interested t o SDG topic for 5 years i think.

then i said lets try learning French in course about Kepler from university of Geneva, but couldnt and left in the middle. university proffessors talking in  French i tried to understand, but my level wernt any enough.


so after i learn a language, my trying to get advanced in method is taking a course wqith English language as main  talk language (since i know little bit English) but having subtitles as the to be learnt language. or reverse way. its really fun to try to learn a language like that. but if the course is very interesting, this method might not work since you get lost in listening course afterwards.

I think my journey of being member getting know One.org happent due to that course that i listened i think4  years ago. when the course said good things to NGOs, i wanted to register to an NGO and yepp. or i dont know how One.org membership started but i think right after that course since i were intersted to  NGOs after that course, i must had become a mail member after that 4 years ago. i am just a signature attender. they do amazing gender equality campaigns. but in future i wish i also donate.

cause they are super gender equality fighters.

Kepler's course were about his impact in religion. it looked like an amazing course. since i like learning about religion topics also. b ut in my trial of trying to learn french there with both understanding the course and both tryijng to learn, i failed in  that.

i think i am curious to lots of topics. and i like coursera platform since has amazing courses.  and also other MOOCs. i like to learn new things firstly from that MOOC platforms.

my university colleague has created a MOOC startup:) (its Udemy:))
he were a hardworking student very succesful student. were medalist in ollympiads of some science area as i know. and i wish those times i passed mroe time with that game dev friend/colleague(Eren) so that i would learn things from him(he were doing commercial projects even whilst at university. i might captured some entrepreneurial spirit. if i had spent more time with that people, i definitely would had learnt lots of things.

i liked going to library, selecting a topic i like and read about it. and but if i had more social university times, i would have been lesser ignorant and might even captured some entrepreneural spirit from them. i mean  we learn lots things from others i think. so social interactions means  really alot. like even reading ab out Steve Job's life, even if not socializing with that people, but learning about other people, their ambitions, their philosophies is very helpful way of experience change. i mean connecting to people lifes and learning from them is something very important. most valuable knowledge are usually taken that way like entrepreneural spirit or other topics.. .i wish i wrnt so ignorant in university years. anyway. ). i entered a game development team with them as a hobbysit but left those4 times.  (it were to be done with java applets. those times, java applets were the thin g:) java were the thing those times:) though i were partisanly liking c  based languages like cpp, but also liked java's only java applets:)) (yepp the partisanly language selection topic:D its funny:D ) 



(i liked physics alot at high school's first years. i wanted to study to physics topics in science Olympiads area(when olympiads topics had been talked in all classes)   but our high school wernt specialized as a science high school so i couldnt:P  should have gone to a science high school. i hadnt. wish i had. getting away from home might teach me a lot of life. which would have been quite nice.  i left my curiosity there. since topics told were super easy. but if i had gone to science high school i would hadnt lost interest defntly.  it would be hard for me i think i might hav e to study more but it would be an ar ea i wwere interested to and i wouldnt left my curiosity due to easy things repetitive easy things told in high school . and not having chance to enter education of olympiads.  though it were my fault. i wish i had gone to science high school. cause all i wan ted existed there. so it were all my fault. and lost curiosity to science during that uninteresting 3 years of constant repetition of easy topics over and over again:S it were kind of unnice thing to have to en ter  classes over and over again to see easy things written  on board and have to stay in class and have to listen that un interesting easy thing drawn. it were place i lost curioisty. but i had chance to be curious in university, due to stupidity i lost that chance. since i could have hang out with people that i would learn things but instead i read what i wanted ab out computer science but did no type of self improvement. and wernt any interested to courses. so i am a quite stupid person as i always state. i always lose important self improv ment moments. but  anyway. not everyone is intellgnt. i am definitely not. i alwways usually lose things (like having chance to get experience from friends in  university times from hobby gamedev team) or lacked important aspects i think. anyway. )


so learning from other people is something very important . i always missed that perspective. so stayed ignorant in m any years. in focusing only in self selected topics. but whats learnt from other people is quite important. i wish i knew this when i were young. i mean i wish i had known its importance.  being open to other people's experiences/learning from them/listening other people more, is something i lacked in life and made me stayed as ignorant in many many years of my life. i am still trying to lower down my ignorance level.

its like i were always like this: i like an area, an d i only rea din that area(so become ignorant with this single area selection). for instance for 3 years i only read introductionary level philosophy books in high school  when i go to D&R like places to get things. i did bought no other area. and whilst being a very ignorant on philosophy side also ( since things i read were like philosophy in 101 level, not any deep philosophy texts, not any advanced philosophy texts/analysis, were very single perspective holding areas in that science area )  also left myself ignorant in all remaining areas. so i would fixate to a topic and read only about that. so it were one mechanism  that left me learn nothing. i n either learnt philosophy (since i always read introductory texts not intermediate nor advanced texts)  nor any other thing. luckily i left this fixation to learning about only one area thing for when i go D&R. i only visited one stand there in huge D&R like shops. just one stand. later on i left that. but i left myself ignorant in many topics via that. like for linguistics, i later on in university wondered about linguistics, and bought things but would buy very advanced ones so i would be perplexed also. so linguistics studies halted due to that. i should had started with basics)

i wish i had intellgnt friends at high school that would show me many things to read. if my brother were at home, might had taken  role models for learning many topics and nto fixating to reading single topics. and school friends wree just focused on SAT nothing  else. so there were no role model either. and since it werent a high school, i had no interesting courses (since my interest that times were to science but lost later on). so role models and learning from other people is quite important. if i had frien ds that read lots of differnt areas instead of banal talk topics, i would also might followed that approach. and i wrnt any genius to create my own way either. i mean some people dont need role models. and create their ways without needing to look to other people. but i wernt any genius. so stayed ignorant. i wihs i had nice role models in high school. but everyone else were just fixated to SAT. only SAT. no philosophy talks no science talks  no art talks no politics talks. just SAT. only SAT.. no scien ce projects( since it were not a science school. it were my fault. if i had gone to science high school it would be the way as i wqould wanted, there would be many scien c eprojects in that case). i think that SAT fixation created a blatanly ignorant people set. since people were just focused on SAT but n othing  else. luckily its changed so and many universities had opent so having a high SAT thing might not be that important anymore.friend interested in being doctor? top most priority SAT. friend wanting to become lawyer, top most priority: SAT again. nothing were left away from SAT. no role models other than high achievers in SAT. all things were just SAT.though it were my fault. if i went to art school or science school, i would find an interesting shcool. but school i went wernt any aligned with me i think. if i had gone to science school,. i might foun d science projec ts, olympiad training courses that i would wanted to at least attend even if i most possibly wont be chosen to attend the exams. i might found my curiosity instead of losin it in non interesting things written with board markers repetitively over an d over again. there were interstng things told in science schools. but due to stupidity, i hadcnt gone to science school. so i am repeating this many times, a super stupid person.

but in university library, i liked to read multiple areas in library. but still very ignorant since not taking enough basics.


i were like this. leaving my self blatantly ignorant. or not giving enough importance to learning from other people(not my own peculiar interest areas that i go to library to learn a bout, but what is important as i understan d is also learning from other people what other people tell/share knowledge of), which is actually maybe the most important thing. anyway.


so if i one day have a child, my biggest advise would be to also learn from other people and that knowledge shared by other pepole is very important. i lacked this information and made me quite ignorant in university years this lack of knowledge.  if i had not left hobby game dev project, maybe i would lear n something  from Eren, some entrepreneural spirit at least. but instead i stayed fully ignoran t and stayed in ignorance state.

anyway lets stop this stupid topic (like telling my  ignorance state, that super state of being super ignorant person and being always like that before:)  ) and open the new blog page since this blog page is also full.

new blog page is as:



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