ok i think if i coiuld i would still send money to family. mom said you dont have to. thebn but also said things that it would be nice.
its a family member with some temporarl problems on money, i try to support via mom& dad.
i feel as but i needed this holiday. cause i really had hard time last years and simimlarly i ddnt wnt to stay at home at holiday time. ok but took much more costly than what i planned. behaved little bit impulsive in that. could had gone to a cheaper holiday/ but i think i needed such thing. cause muy life really had been hard. but feel ashamed also for not having had gone to cheaper version.
ok i think i deserved this holiday. for staying strong in all years all alone. though mom and dad always monetarily were beside me when i needed. feels ashaming when i did expensive holiday and might not fully but partially support a family member. but thinking how much hard life i had, and all i had behaved as ptsd whilst my stalkers in ferikoy were really existing, and visibly very very bad people (in last year i uydnerstood they were trying to turn me to a bitch or alike and i entered a suoper level of trauma yb then. when they shouted serdar sleep, i understood before "there is a serdar named psycho. andthe psycho decieves his friends as if i wld sleep with him ( i said this guy must be a maniac i think) then i understood the maniacs/psychos try to give me names and they call me serdar and 10 or alike names. it became super scary after than:S before it were jut stalk, then after that, it became super much scary, i never replied to them, they always stalked, never talked nor replied (Except in ferikoy home i shouted psycho stop stalking me. when i been disturbed from next building. ) anyway i mean, i think i deserved this expensive holiday whilst since my life has been super hard (confronting psychopathy sociopathy is super hard thoing:S) anyway, mom said you dont have to we can. ok if i cant i would pay next month also. other month also. if needed. i shouldnt be ashamed for doign this expensive type of holiday.
i been there i even sold my car once to help that family member to support wedding costs(not thagt i invested my all car. i just ddnt wanted to attend wedding with no gift. to buy gifts, i sold my car. and i payed remaning part of car's bill and then with remaning money i bought wedding gifts/support.) to me it were super shameful to attend a wedding with no gifts. silly guhu could even sell her car for to not have such shame. i wanrted to support marriage somehow. since marriage were initially very ignorantly unwanted by some people. so i wanted to be there. to show mypresence as aa support. and i ddnt cared whether i sold my car or not. people i like matter to me more than my belongings. but this time, i couldnt be there for this month which i were aked to be there by mom and dad. i were never asked to be there ever in my life. this is first. in wedding time it were voluntary of course. but mom also said if you cant its not important. so i would be there show my presence next month. and partially this month. i dont think i would be able to be present this month or i might be if i have additional tax returns.
but this holiday, became much expensive than what i planned. anyway. let it be like that:) i deserved this through standing still non fallen while storms happent in my life while psycoh people from fferikoy stalked me with psychopath sociopathy. confronting sociopathy were the scariest thing of my life. i understand why they targegt me. they talk sometimes "saf" to me. i guess they target "saf" "pure" people who look weak. who look stupid from outside. they stalked 4 years. never gave up. i never talked nor replied. and that m ade them angrier and they did even more harsh sociopathy psychopathy. it were super hard to be a targeted by a sociopath from next building. it were super hard:Si only understood naming scheme in 3rd year of stalk. they tried to even make me mentally ill with taking names from my blog and use them in stalking me. it were super hard. i never even looked nor replied nor talked. they always stalked. they shouted "saf" to me. maybe i were labelled like that since i endlessly shouted back from my flat stop stalking me psycho. maybe my weakness in dealihng stalk and just shouting based reply nor not repluying when i were cursed (i walked by) made me that impression i am a dumb. it were super hard years. having got a psycho socio neighbour is one thing that is the worst thing that could happen in life. i never looked in stalk incidents so i dont know how these people look like. i obnlky sqaw the "hurrem" saying one as i depict, he were dark haired and brown skinned and very thin. and not tall nor short. so maybe this dark haired pscyho guy tried to make me a hurrem of him. i dont know. it were super scary and super sociopathgic and super psychopathic.
so in overall, i think i deserved this bholiday for being a strong guhu whilst storms happent like this.
i shouldn t be ashamed of going to an expensive holiday. i deserved this. if i cant be supportove i would support next month.
i feel like a bad person since in went to an expensive holiday? ok i didnt thought it would be this much expensive. anyway to support family this month i would try to find a n additional freelancing task. yupp. so that i dont feel like a bad person.and also i think i might take 1500 euros from tax return:) so i would directly pay with that. i wpiu;d find a tax accountant to check on 2st of jan so i would pay my family my support yupp :) so i wouldnt feel as a naughthy bad person who does behaves non cautious in spending without thinking family. but i think i would take 1500 euros or alike tax return so i would support this month family:) yuppp. i would also check whether if company got my tax return by itself? i dont think so, because we were advised to ask tax accountants yupp and i dont any think company should cause i hadfnt known my tax number and so i were given lowest tax number level covering such cases so extra taxes were sent to government. but would check that clearly so that i dont reask tax imbursement if companhy already did and reflected. i should take exact tax info from company(whether they imbursed or not) and then if i need to do tax imbursement, i should visit the tax accountant. i were before told to visit a tax accountant by assistant. and that company wouldnt imburse (as i would expect cause its my fault, i had no tax number which is mandatory, and if its not existing, tax category becomes 6 which is the highest tax type)
ok getting used to tax systems. i am super ignorant on tax topics.
yayy forget that! i am in nholiday:) tomorrow, snowboarding for th efirst time. (ok i never expected this to be this much expensive. the utinsils for it even costed 538 euros! (just the winter coats! goggles etc!) )
its a family member with some temporarl problems on money, i try to support via mom& dad.
i feel as but i needed this holiday. cause i really had hard time last years and simimlarly i ddnt wnt to stay at home at holiday time. ok but took much more costly than what i planned. behaved little bit impulsive in that. could had gone to a cheaper holiday/ but i think i needed such thing. cause muy life really had been hard. but feel ashamed also for not having had gone to cheaper version.
ok i think i deserved this holiday. for staying strong in all years all alone. though mom and dad always monetarily were beside me when i needed. feels ashaming when i did expensive holiday and might not fully but partially support a family member. but thinking how much hard life i had, and all i had behaved as ptsd whilst my stalkers in ferikoy were really existing, and visibly very very bad people (in last year i uydnerstood they were trying to turn me to a bitch or alike and i entered a suoper level of trauma yb then. when they shouted serdar sleep, i understood before "there is a serdar named psycho. andthe psycho decieves his friends as if i wld sleep with him ( i said this guy must be a maniac i think) then i understood the maniacs/psychos try to give me names and they call me serdar and 10 or alike names. it became super scary after than:S before it were jut stalk, then after that, it became super much scary, i never replied to them, they always stalked, never talked nor replied (Except in ferikoy home i shouted psycho stop stalking me. when i been disturbed from next building. ) anyway i mean, i think i deserved this expensive holiday whilst since my life has been super hard (confronting psychopathy sociopathy is super hard thoing:S) anyway, mom said you dont have to we can. ok if i cant i would pay next month also. other month also. if needed. i shouldnt be ashamed for doign this expensive type of holiday.
i been there i even sold my car once to help that family member to support wedding costs(not thagt i invested my all car. i just ddnt wanted to attend wedding with no gift. to buy gifts, i sold my car. and i payed remaning part of car's bill and then with remaning money i bought wedding gifts/support.) to me it were super shameful to attend a wedding with no gifts. silly guhu could even sell her car for to not have such shame. i wanrted to support marriage somehow. since marriage were initially very ignorantly unwanted by some people. so i wanted to be there. to show mypresence as aa support. and i ddnt cared whether i sold my car or not. people i like matter to me more than my belongings. but this time, i couldnt be there for this month which i were aked to be there by mom and dad. i were never asked to be there ever in my life. this is first. in wedding time it were voluntary of course. but mom also said if you cant its not important. so i would be there show my presence next month. and partially this month. i dont think i would be able to be present this month or i might be if i have additional tax returns.
but this holiday, became much expensive than what i planned. anyway. let it be like that:) i deserved this through standing still non fallen while storms happent in my life while psycoh people from fferikoy stalked me with psychopath sociopathy. confronting sociopathy were the scariest thing of my life. i understand why they targegt me. they talk sometimes "saf" to me. i guess they target "saf" "pure" people who look weak. who look stupid from outside. they stalked 4 years. never gave up. i never talked nor replied. and that m ade them angrier and they did even more harsh sociopathy psychopathy. it were super hard to be a targeted by a sociopath from next building. it were super hard:Si only understood naming scheme in 3rd year of stalk. they tried to even make me mentally ill with taking names from my blog and use them in stalking me. it were super hard. i never even looked nor replied nor talked. they always stalked. they shouted "saf" to me. maybe i were labelled like that since i endlessly shouted back from my flat stop stalking me psycho. maybe my weakness in dealihng stalk and just shouting based reply nor not repluying when i were cursed (i walked by) made me that impression i am a dumb. it were super hard years. having got a psycho socio neighbour is one thing that is the worst thing that could happen in life. i never looked in stalk incidents so i dont know how these people look like. i obnlky sqaw the "hurrem" saying one as i depict, he were dark haired and brown skinned and very thin. and not tall nor short. so maybe this dark haired pscyho guy tried to make me a hurrem of him. i dont know. it were super scary and super sociopathgic and super psychopathic.
so in overall, i think i deserved this bholiday for being a strong guhu whilst storms happent like this.
i shouldn t be ashamed of going to an expensive holiday. i deserved this. if i cant be supportove i would support next month.
i feel like a bad person since in went to an expensive holiday? ok i didnt thought it would be this much expensive. anyway to support family this month i would try to find a n additional freelancing task. yupp. so that i dont feel like a bad person.and also i think i might take 1500 euros from tax return:) so i would directly pay with that. i wpiu;d find a tax accountant to check on 2st of jan so i would pay my family my support yupp :) so i wouldnt feel as a naughthy bad person who does behaves non cautious in spending without thinking family. but i think i would take 1500 euros or alike tax return so i would support this month family:) yuppp. i would also check whether if company got my tax return by itself? i dont think so, because we were advised to ask tax accountants yupp and i dont any think company should cause i hadfnt known my tax number and so i were given lowest tax number level covering such cases so extra taxes were sent to government. but would check that clearly so that i dont reask tax imbursement if companhy already did and reflected. i should take exact tax info from company(whether they imbursed or not) and then if i need to do tax imbursement, i should visit the tax accountant. i were before told to visit a tax accountant by assistant. and that company wouldnt imburse (as i would expect cause its my fault, i had no tax number which is mandatory, and if its not existing, tax category becomes 6 which is the highest tax type)
ok getting used to tax systems. i am super ignorant on tax topics.
yayy forget that! i am in nholiday:) tomorrow, snowboarding for th efirst time. (ok i never expected this to be this much expensive. the utinsils for it even costed 538 euros! (just the winter coats! goggles etc!) )
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