ok i think my snowboard is little bit big for me. its radius is 150cm but i find it very energy needing to carry it. i think i saw another woman with a smaller snowboard and we had same height, so i think my snowboard is little bit heavy,  or its the appropriate model but i lack muscles, thats also possible cause i never did any activity in mylife that works on muscles.
i think swimming + sauna would be nice right now.


i stopped snowboarding at 15:00 today. i had no energy :) i think people have point in that you should start with skiing.i think carrying them is also easier. this 150cm radius snowboard of mine, its i dont know how many kgs it is but is kinda heavy.


i loved finally finding an exercise that would build a level of muscle weight in me. i mean i think i lack necessary heallthy level of muscles since i dont do any type of activity other than sitting. so i read that snowboarding works on every muscles, so i liked it. finally something some activity to add health to this silly body of me.


i figured out i have muscles. walking u0p the hill with snowboard, i stopped at 3 places to rest:)
i figured out i bought wrong gloves since it feels as big for my hands. other than that my equipment is ok. except the heavy snowboard. its either i lack muscles or its really big for me.
i ddnt found courage to use the upper teleferic that is open to go to higher points cause i went late today. tomorrow i would go snowboarding at 8:00 and would use that. cause they said things close at 16:00.  and the main teleferic that carries from village is closed by 17:00. by the time i went to that region it were 2:48, i thought  if i go there i dont know if i have enoght time. i found some places thats lesser crowded so i can do exercise. i tried to exercise in very crowded region first. and it was mistake. but i tried basics. and what i hadnt managed to learn is hjow to stop snowboard. i just stop it by falling down. i cant flexibly make that toe or heels movement to make the sn owboard stop. if i learn that tomorrow early morning than i would  be able to snowboard. i had no energy left to pracgtice more today i tried 3 or 4 times to do that brake mechanisms of snowboard that i watched in a begginers video today thinking how to stop this snowboard thing without falling throwing myself to ground:) thats the ultimate brake of snowboafrd which i utilize currently:DDDD i throw mysdelg to ground and i know its funny. this beginner moments and without having teacher, is funny:)

i definitely think roller blades needed lesser power to do brakes. it just you slightly press on heels on that. and it stops. of course you need to do it in a controlling acceleration fashion otherwise its a way to fall to instantly try brakes in roler blades. but in snowboarding it instantly accelerates and i have to do a toe movement that carries up the snowboard so that it has lesser region tocuhing ground. i think this is harder than roller blades. but i wish when i go to mountain at 8tomorrow i wish i would have full energy and learn. aha i cant go at 8 because i would have breakfast at 8. (hotel has nice breakfast) ok then at 8:30.  the piste is very awesome. its inside forests. and very beautiful. but i had no courage to try piste since i dont know snowboarding yet and i would have to carry board all way which seemed would take alot time. i thoink i would only enter piste when i exercise well enough and could snowboard. right now i dont know how to deaccelerate snowboard and i throw my self i first bend muself with like n shape and touchting ground with my hands using my hands as deaccelerator and then completely falling down to stop. but i should learn toes and heels movement to deaccelerate. ok so i learned that funny walk with snowboard or other basic things. onlhy left is to learn how to deaccelerate. by the way i think its awesome. but as said, its very tiresome since snowboard is really very heavy.  either mine is heavy (its really big and heavy. i think i been given wrong type of snowboard? possible? its like my snowboard is for a 190cm person not guhu the nontall ? ) anyway, i would leaern with this one. maybe its the correct one. i dont have power to go all way to Chamonix to ask is this correct or wrong. i think they are expert and i dont think i been given wrong one.

i think my boats are a little bit tight in terms of my foot legnth. i think it would be better if it were like 0.5 cm longer boots. cause i feel my toes touching front of boots. but maybe thats the way it should be.

i think having boots tigh saved my ankle from turning today at many instants. tight boots protect ankles fair well as  i see. but maybe if it were 0.5 cm longer it would have been bit nicer.   but they all say snowboard boots are never meant to be comfortable and you would always feel relaxed when you took of. they are designed to protect ankles, bones there so i mean its the style of snowboard boots they say. ok then. i see other skiing nboots feels more relaxed by looking from outside. snowboard is also kind of thougher than that in that also.



as i found an empty spot that people dont ski around alot, i would in tomorrow morning practice alot.

ok now swimming time:) then sauna. then coding:)
aw this look of mountain from my room i wished i were rich(that i hadnt failed in my first startup trial:D) and could had stayed 1 month here:) its like a place where an author could write novels. its just so peaceful and has so beautiful scenery. this chalet hotel is awesome.  i never liked any hotel this much in my life before. i stayed once in a 4 stars or 5 stars. but i ddnt liked any hotel like this. cause is very authentic. i liked this chalet concept. its very peaceful. in investigating architecture, i would try to understand why chalet creates peace feeling in me. it just feels very peaceful i dont know why this architecture type feels like that. if it were a modern building with modern design, i wont find it that much peaceful for this mountain scenery. i would try to investigate what kind of scenery and what kind of architecture match, and why. and i think its personal, other people might want to look to a Alps scenery forests scenery from modern type of structures. but i am interested to learn this correlations in between architectural styles and the feelings it creates. could even do polls to do a sampling data collection. to check my subjectivity level in that. and to see how our brain consumes the architectural styles and what kind of inputs creates what kind of emotional states in places we reside.


i tag this hotel as the hotel i liked the most in my life:)  its the hotel i liked the most ever:)


ok i checked snowboard size metrics and i saw its the appropriate size for me. but its just too wide maybe the proiblem is that, its just very heavy. ok these become lessons learnt so when i would buy mine, i would buy a narrow and lightweight one.

i am dying from tiresomeness but i want to swim cause i feel it would take away ache from my foot.and sauna maybe also. yupp.





okin mountains interesting thing happent. someone said one of song's name (which is not a common song, a very specific one, i collect such songs from soundcloud's recommendation system) which looked like someone reads my blog, follows my playlists said that? due to shyness i coulndt check whom said:) i said what sonmeone follows my playlist? wov i thinked:) but due to shyness i coulndt check whom said that:) i hate being shy:D

ok i later on went to there to drink cafe, eat salad etc, but couldnt understand whom shouted that, and alsomaybe whom said that wernt there at that moment or were there, but i couldnt understand cause it were very crowded:) and in line someone stared me (either i look weird most possibly) then i couldnt look feeling shy. ok i normally dont do this thing of being shy to look to people. rarely. but at times people specifically stares i do such shyness. but normally i dont feel shy to look around people most of the time. i rarely do these type of shyness i dont understand why.

i think if its personal to me, like someone shouting a playlist song of mine or someone specifically by intent staring or looks like that, i become extremely shy:D and cant look due to shyness. but normally when i am around people, who dont do specific stare or just stare but just standard daily life stares i dont be shy. when its personal, i become shy. how to fix this behavior of mine? :D i truly dont know:D i always do become shy when someone says a very personal thing if its a stranger and instantly does such thing and i always behave super shy:D silly me myself. i need to fix being shy otherwise i cant anytime talk with strangers and forever be a loner which is not a nice thing.  i hate being shy at such times.


ok i today plan more fun with watching southpark (i like these shows alot specifically southpark alot) and then coding things. yupp. holiday mood. couldnt got out of such holiday mood. i would rest little bit more with watching southpark.





(things i dont like: being shy at such moemnts when people say something to me and as a result being a loner.:D since never get the chance to say hi due to being shy :D i hate being a shy. )



ok i watched one cartoon. southpark wernt available. i watched another such show.

i decided to do things like reading statistics or reading some text i wondered before, starting Wittgenstein. maybe would get in to Wittgenstein than study statistics (my math books arent here either). coding hobbies pc is not here either. anyway. lets read Wittgenstein or Foucault from pc.