i like the state of sometimes doing nice a thing before ever studying to such area beforehand nor the state of not needing to study alot in some domains (😝 not much areas thoug are like that to me. )
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whilst planning to soend 100 euros to oil painting reinit with modulor visit and also sketch things bought and took 200 euros. yayy at home i wld study oil painting and tomorrow there is acyrilic painting course ! first painting course in life . ok rest of month i wld care my spending alot. right nw dining + drinking then yayyy reinit of paintng thing today. i bought also 20×20 cm canvases yayy lets see. i bought charcoal pencil and such pencils and a sketchbook so mght attend portrait drawing sessions also. yupp. ok my head drunken hadnt drank for ages and took a coctail and its very much impacting. yayyyy weekend😊 home i wld create my painting corner in my tiny flat😊 gosh oil painting reinited😊👍
i might go to hospital because some kind of bump came up in evening today and my under side of tongue started to get inflate and also there is a tiny bump on under my chinon right side of my throat . something happening. allergie? i ddnt had allergies before? what i ate different? hmm i ate tomatoes today, in night evening i made a meal of bulgur + meat mixture(tried to make it like risotto but ddnt became any good like risotto) plus a veggie dish of vegetarian mixture of Brussel sprouts + mushrooms + pumpkin. should i go to hospital now or wait/observe if it would pass? i never had any allergies before, looks like allergy. something made my under of tongue and throat gegt inflated little bit and i dont know what. if i hadnt got mumps in my childhood i would think its mumps since my throat got bump. it happent all in evenin after i ate meal (veggies + bulgur with meat). maybe something in meal? i have allergy to? never had any allergies befor...
ok i am near to ordering alot of things from modulor named art site. i always dreamed of doing sculptures with different materials (i added them) i chosen lots of oil painting instruments. but then i said, lets go theere instead of ordering. i saw lots of clay things. would reinit that. today is reserved to some drawing trials and maths study. yuppp. guhu found even materials to do try to create sculptures like: https://gavinworth.com/ i know
the story of this drawing (i had no drawing pen and reason i cant erase resulted in such maniac drawing)(since there is no undo with ball pen drawing😂 ) while resting 2 beings in dreamlands, the sleeping lady from her left shoulder from where it touches groynd, a fruit grown silently covering up her creating a psychotic neoroinhibitator creating a slight sleep state to her with making her think its night: tried to reflect temporary anxietys in life (rooting externally not from us) and that if we hold our head little bit, all anxietys would dissappear. happiness conquer dont let sadness/anxiety ever reside.
yuppp to get help against stalker from ferikoy (stalk happent inside subway cabin today also, a woman talking wiht phone said stalk sentences in english) would get help from https://www.frieda-frauenzentrum.de/en/anti-stalking-project/ i think these people might be really a hzbllh like thing cause this thing happens for 4 years and they were able to follow me every shopping center every cafe i went. they seemed to be backd by a scrt srvce i think and i think its a USA's enemy secret service since due to things i told before. i would tell all details of 4 years of following in Trky startng in ferikoy and the character scheme i observe and curses and characters creations and very unnice things of words:S i wish so much they help me. yuppp
ok self confidence is being self confident no matter what hatred happens in life :) yeppp this is it:) guhu is super self confident :) i am a sexy babe also by the way:) to all sexy people haters said this! hate guhu more please:) she wouldnt dare to care any hatred:) unrelated topics below: ok in subway the i think hzbllh or such group? disturbed again with similar stalk. since thing i confront looks like such acts that my life is allegedly tried to be destreoyed with trying to show me as a bitch by them. whilst i am actually an engineer who is a talented engineer little bit thats interested to many areas in coding. since i lived my life correct, i didnt cared. i dont get impacted by outside stalk anymore. i in home open ventilator to not impacted if stalk from street happens. i dont any enter trauma due to this psycho thing i confront in life. since they use labels like şah i wondered if those stlkrs are hzbllh and stalk independen...
i try to decrypt what insta says in all way coming home trying to analyze pictures i saw 20 minutes ago:) ok i truly had understood nothing:) this guhu is analyzing:) ---- took my likes of David Guetta songs topic:) ok:) i like techno music insta:) hey i saw snowboard references:) ok:) ----- hey is it becausse, of the tragic coincidence happent? is this alien things? --- you know, i told Anna name and a helicopter crash happent with Anna name whish is super tragic:S and secondly i told i shouldnt eat cakes, and i read a news a woman died from eating cakes, i also queried if aliens exist and some aliens hate me? and does such acts like that? i know you also queried that? ok what is this aliens thing with me:) these things started before, i did some sclptre and next day a sclptre's hair resmblng person passed awy as i learnt. i said i hated this name's english thing as i saw it in quora (for a person name whom stalked me in ferikoy) and n...
yayyyyy I am taking first ever painting course on next Saturday! its acyrillic painting course and we would learn a very famous painter's painting style. The artist giving the course is a Peruvian American art teacher & art therapist (whom has graduated from Virginia edu) who lives in USA and Berlin. And an Anna named lady and guhu the ugly silly attending:) counting days to next saturday from this moment this guhu:) ----- there is also salsa course for expats in Berlin i wish i have courage to attend, i am not any good in dancing even if i am in love to dancing concept. i wanted to get courses to get better but this might be advanced I think salsa is a hard type of dance(to start learning dance, by the way its a very beautiful dance). but if i could collect courage to try(since i am not any talented, have to collect courage to init that) i would also attend:) I liked this expat events in Berlin alot:) yayyy first ever painting course and i wish i learn & ge...
for i had no chances no time to focus on domain knowledge studying for 1 or 2 weeks, today back in domain knowledge studying yayyy i think i want to finish part of it today. i saw an earthquake news from Elazig. I wish things recovers fastly and wishing condolences! (and I had no idea Elazig were an critical earthquake region. ) also read scary news about a scary epidemic. i read its 1280 people were infected and 40 like people passed away. ~1/30 is quite scary thing. i once very long years ago had slight pneumonia and it were really ntany easy illness(i stayed in hospital for 4 days i think). virus infections scare alot. bacteria is kind of easier maybe (for instance my pneumonia were bacteria based one so antibiotics worked. scary news:S 1/30 is quite scary metric:SS quite unnice news. wsh it fixes heals fast, without taking a lot lives:S ---- in that slight pneumonia days long years before, before i were super sle...
guhu works on studying to learn physics so she would also work in her freetimes to science. ok i like art but science is i dont know learning science is one love of my life. guhu wld try to do those simulations she mentioned before yuppp. (about luquids for anti gravity problems) i wish climate change prblems also get solved via science/tech. may e even with altering stratosphere? or mesosphere? Exciting Anthropecene! you have tech power to fix climate change and i believe it would be fixed. guhu's dreams:i wld also work on possible atmosphere simulations on posdible ways to cool down our cute world and of course measures to take carbon signature lesser levels is also nonetheless very important. while guhu has art and high music liking dreams, she also has science related dreams. Exciting Anthropecene. i like this exciting era we live so much! I constantly observe super cool things happenstances!
gosh i wish I had a chance to watch a rocket launch! meanwhile we are in world right now people live in ISS and their lives are super cool. like sci fi movies. Similarly soldiers/officers who works in space force wov they must feel like being inside sci fi movies! Super cool! a topic i cant find enough words for how cool it is!
ok time could made flow backwards in our brains like waring like old times and doing what old times painters do in street:) (which looks as a super fun goal) and also as a passive income like that:), and there is real such hypothethical theories about time, that would be studied also:)(like in movie Dr. Who, i am fan of that tv series:)) as told, uttermost goal is learning physics that much. ok I am super excited for 2020 goals, 2 passive income sources are to be worked on which are super fun:) one is portrait drawing :) personalized painting service from internet (wanting to learning painting portraits in various styles and try to get orders from internet like that:)) and going alot snwboarding with passive income outputs and also learning physics and working on also the 3d model camera creator project. yuppp major goals in life for 2020 structured like this:) let the drawing hobby initiative begin tomorrow:) exciting 2020! let the title of 2020 be like this! :) i dreamed ...
yuppp taking my coffee and startging 3d model creator camera's domain knowledge study now. today is reserved for that. tomorrow yuppp portrait drawing meetup. inside week, buying painting utinsils again:) and reiniting painting hobby:) cause it looks fun to try to learn how to do paintings of portraits :) and turn it to another passive income:P (this guhu wants to spend alot money to snowboarding thing:P) (like snowboarding in summer also but this ttime in south side of this cute earth named planet:))
as guhu enters Berlin's art scene events, she reinits her secondary hobby goal of personalized paintings, like receiving painting orders from internet with pictures and sending paintings:P for people with narcissistic tendencies:) everyone of us is little bit like that right? :) (in the age of individualism, and its not any bad thing i definitely think)
next life goal set as being a portrait drawer in Italy in weekends:) guhu and guhu's silly hobby projects that she is in love to :) life is exciting:) i cant imagine how fun it would be :) it would feel like time traveling to times where taking picture were just based by drawings:) i think i would even feel adrenaline or such feeling for such context change in my life:) like time traveling and visiting feeling such time in my brain:)
ok the boat meetup is just so out of my style. if there is a party, i like it to be loud with lots of bass (like pasha club). so might as well not go to the boat based meet up for new berliners:P but might try attend such type of event for first in my life even if its not the event style i like alot.
aww already started dreaming of doing portrait drawing in Italy in a touristic place:) i wonder if there are other weirdos who have weird hobbies like me. e.g. who doesnt find getting broke a bad thing and who is interested to such hobbies:D like being a portrait drawer in street in a touristic place thats very wide.
ok since i am broke i cant buy personalized pencils for portrait thing but its ok, i also like being broke state at times:P since it needs micro management of life aligned with that:) ok woudl go there with a square dotted drawing boook and normal pencils not any carbon pencils. ok its first time i would meet with artists community in Berlin:) yayyy:) wish i find lots friends i wish to create dunbar number friends? nope guhu being a neanderthal(ok kidding on that, but my social skills in dealing with friendship really sucks, i am not good at that), she would have problems in dealing with that much people :P ok but lets add some friends to life! yayyy my first meetup with artists community in Berlin, starts tomorrow:)
guhu's career: game coder(simulation/game like things coder) telecommunications side project side things general software coder failure in startup trial software engineer then data engineer&data scientist(even if i had title of de, i were doing ml things whilst there is no ml engineer employed and even after employed:P) data engineer --- now:) current. would guhu be able to add passive income of portrait drawing art and i also planned personalized painting service before whilst buying my painting tools:) (which i couldnt gather here) i had a plan of learning how to paint and create personalized paintings to people:) so that i create such fun type of passive income:) (might also reinit that:) there is place in this home to put painting utinsils. i wish i could gather them so that i dont have to rebuy.) ok if i create a passive income i can even go to Chile in summer to do snowboarding:) passive income is a target i plan to add to my life if i learn how to draw ...
i fell in lvoe to portrait drawing hobby when i had my portrait be drawn beside a toursitic place:) of course i would pay the tax:) from such side passive income. this is a very exciting plan. the idea of working in street with arts as part time seems super exciting (of course only in weekends) i could collect my holidays money from that. and if it goes well, maybe i learn caricature and find a job in a french newspaper or such places. i mean, if i learn it good, i might as well make it my main income:) (switching from data engineering to arts side:P)
ok i slept till now:) i went to shopping at 7am since i woke up and were hungry. and did an amazing nice breakfast then slept back. ok cooking food all weeks for noon (since i spent lots of money in holiday) worked out and i lived in minimal spending state for 1.5 weeks. ok mom got suspicious if i needed money but hadnt wanted to disrupt them in that and managed to go through this tiny economic crisis of my own myself with cooking my food all noons myself. next time, i woudl spend money in holidays better:)
and some python and ml events other i also be going to yupp which i couldnt find the links. but the most interesting ones to em is about workshops about painting bags or such things i think :) ok creatingh a chair looked super fun:) i am as always said interested to chairs/tables design topic in my inner universe (like yesterday in breaks tried to design a chair :) ) (guhu likes trying designing )
but this one also stolen my attention: ok definitely attending since i like creating things (as told i started that when i am 4 or 3 years old, would create things using utinsils i have like paint polish in summer house, little plants, little lids and creating miniature plants polished in paintnail in mini lids:P) https://www.meetup.com/artmasters-berlin/events/266488026/ (aha i think i wernt 3 or 4 years old but maybe 5 or 4 i dont know, but its the first thing i remember as any such output i created:P) i remember putting it on to tv with very hard effort (my first very sculpture that i created upon myself due to boredom. but i remember noone showing any attention but me myself liking it alot finding it very cute:) it were very tiny plant and i all painted with paintnails and created it in to a very tiny lid with also painted with paint nails. :) all humans had heart shaped heads the drawings early drawings memoeries i remember them:) but first ever sculpt...
ok someone hated me for since i ddnt wanted to be friends? or i dont know. ok trash me i already ddnt wanted to be friends with because you are too complicated/far too sophisticated. i want my friends to be super simple. yupp trash me. i dont like to have friends who are sophisticated. i like my friends to be simple very easily understood people. yuppp trash me please. its a request i already did. i already told i dont want to be any friends. because only because i like my friends to be super very simple. thats the only reason. I want to easily understand my friends and in this things i saw in this things i see i never understood what you really say. in all this, i never understood what you really said. so i labelled your friendship as not any simple type. but i like my friends to be super simple. so we arent compatible people to be friends. only reaosn is nothing elsde but because i really never understand what you really say, and first thing of friendship cmoes from und...
today wavelengths domain knowledge studying time:) after work in free hours. yupp & would believe in myself. so fixating to nose is a common thing about people who likes architecture? :) (guhu is a very newbie to the architecture topic(she is in pre new bie level, not even a new bie but super interested to I love looking analyzing design of buildings and try to understand why it feels like that). I am not any master like the architect whom talked in insta:) I am just only pre new bie who knows nothing in that:) ) Thank you resembling me to an architect whilst i like architecture topic alot:) Thank you very much insta and to the architect also:) Guhu sends infinitely many thanks :) <3 Thank you super much:)
insta took word references. insta this guhu waves hi. i think Japan seems a super interesting & very beautiful place. -- i saw Berlins subways that i seen also myself here☺, i also like alot Berlins subways yepp(cute subways) coincidences word including post is funny☺ why not related post is lovely, ........ hey, thank you insta, infinitely many thanks!🙂😊
I would by that time would turn an expert in some area in humanities. so if any friend whom is interested in humanities and who is also liking electronic music is interested to attend with me, definitely invited:) or similarly whom is interested to Maxwell and also liking electronic music, definitely invited. but i want a degree of simple mindedness from my friends(guhu likes to have similarity, having similar weirdness areas) yuppp i want to be friends whom are as simple as basic as me. i am not any sophisticated and i favor to have non sophisticated friends yupp (sicne we wont understand any each other in such situation, not that being sophisticated is a bad thing). a time segmentation thats separated to this hedonism type( electronic music) of fun of vodka+electronic music listening activity:) Armin Van Buuren's music: definitely a nice type of hedonism i think:) (the thing about mediterranean references: i think mediterraneans are inherently little bit hedonisti...
guhu only likes dancing after getting drunk. before being drunk i cant dance any dance move:) vodka + electronic music in Pasha club in Ibiza: some kind of hedonism that is super fun type:) i might want to be hedonist at times like in Ibiza holiday:) might want to also be a scientist at times in hobby projects:) so we are all mixed people of various things, right? :) viva hedonism at holidays:) (ayy vodka + Armin van buuren;s music + dancing in that would be super fun:))
who said i ever wanted to live in NY? NY is for sophisticated people, i am a simple person thats interested to science(that is my one love of life), I am not any sophisticated for NY, i wish insta would stop doing this, cause I am really not any NY person sorry:S i am a simple person. and i respect gay people alot but i am hetero but i wish i were gay since thats cooler than being hetero i definitely think i wish i were gay since its far cooler than being simple hetero. I wished i were at least binary. i hate being simple as hetero in that actually but i am like this anyway. i am a more Colorado person if i had a chance to live in USA:P (not any sophisticated NY person i am any). please stop trying to build additional molds to me. if i dont fit in any mold, than maybe guhu wants no molds in life? and but you are trying to create new molds to me? please stop:P wishes so bad insta stops trying to create extra molds to guhu. guhu is a simple person not any sophisticated NY person she ...
