aw were in police station issueing my sue.

since my sue is so insane looking (cause stalkers does insqane things actually) they wanted to check if i am sane or not first. gosh life is super hard. when being stalked.

i would go and prove i am a sane person. but this, this thing of, this things i went through all alone, this stalk this curses and then having have to go to hospital to prove it, its just makes me think life is super unfair.

a pscyho stalking me for 4 years with bizarre things, its when you tell it people think this is a bizarre thing and not happens. ok i just think life is unfair. we get stalked. suffer from that. then we have to prove we are sane when we issue the bizarre events stalker did. i think life is totally unfair.

i lost my belief in humanity or any fairness of life. 4 years of pain.,and when sueing that confronting pain again.


the web sites mademe thought people really help stalked people. the behavior i seen actually told me reverse. when you are stalked, when you tell the bizaerre things stalker does, people first wonder whether if you are crazy or if its really real.


i think i wish there existed a universe where people wernt like this.
i wish three were a universe a place, where people wouldnt hosuted ork to people. or made fun of them. then stalk guhu with shouting sleep.  i mean i wish theere were a place where humans are descent beings. not like this version of life i confronted last 4 years.  i wish life were a better thing.
i wish human species were much more evolved to not do hatred crimes. and when we suffer from such thing, then even proving it is this much painful process.  this is the time point i lost my belief in humanity. from this point of life, i think i going to in future i donrt know i think i would live in a place thats i think i would go to a place where would make me forget these. like i dont know i wish i find such place on earth. that would make me forget these horrible things i been throguh.


if i hadnt had a nephew i thikn i would just get in to depression afgter confronting behavior of police. but i have to stay strong because i have a nephew.

from this point, i think as i confronted the most harsh side of life last 4 years, i think i would find a place where life is not any harsh. i wish i find people descend people like me.

all this pain i through. when trying to prove it i confront yet another bunch of pain feeling.

being strong to haters. being strong. being strong. to where to which extent? this pain is any bearable?  this horrible things i confronted from stalker like defamation, to which extent these things i confronted in 4 years are any bearable?  to where to which extent this life decided to be this much hard to me?

the pycho constantly tries to defamate me. but when i try to prove it my sanity is queried since people think such psychos dont exist whom could fixate and try to destroy our lives with defamation.


maybe i should strong. just for because i am a fighter against bad faith. i am a fighter against the psuycho stalker stalking me trying to defamate me.


but let me restate, as the stalker creates names defamates me,  i query where is the justice on earth? where it is? where it is? i still cant believe a psycho can mess with my life with shouting defamating words rto me constantly? and when i try to sue that, they say are you creating those shoutings? gosh.

ok maybe its nice mom comes.  but i wouldnt want her to come in such period of life.

so people if you have a stalker that does bizarre things like defamating youyr name woith worst curses and creating characters/aliases/labels, dont go to police. police would request first your sanity to be proved to start investigation.  if possible, first hire personal detectives and have video evidences of the defamation acts, then go to police. never go to police in Berlin if you are stalked by a psycho cause first they would ask you to prove your sanity.
i lost my like of any memoery here due to this process.  if police systems works like this, i dont ever would want to be a police. cause i lost my trust to police's processes. they do it lazily. when someone says something they first need a prove of sanity if the said thing is bizarre, but people are you deaf? sociopath stalkers do bizarre things. its like as if police had nev er dealt with sociopath stalkers case. anyway i have to be strong. but anyone here, if you got a stalker whom does unbelivable psycho acts  with stalking you and beside defamating your name with worst lies,  please if you are in Berlin dont go to police. first hire personal detectives and log the stalk. cause police would make you feel pain more with nbehaving as if stalk is a sociopathy is a thing that wont happen and when we issue the complatin first our sanity is going to be proved. i lost my interest to living here any.  i wont live here. going to go find job otherelse place.

its like these people never seen any sociopath stalker case.
gosh.

lessons learnt dont go to police in berlin when a psycho distyrbs in subway and with 4 years stalk summary documtn. they would instea dof investigating subway event, would first want you to prove your sanity to start investigation.

ok. lessons learnt. dont live in berlin. definitely not any month more. going to find job back in istanbul or else. but not berlin. for sure. i liked berlin but due to police's behavior i confirm this gtoo much process based logic seems not for me.


the last 4 years were the hardesrt time of my life. and the way people behave to stalk is making it exponentially harder.  whilst the psycho shouts the worsrt defamating lies whislt stalking me, the other people behave as if its not real in first sight.

Berlin named city, i dont like you any more. because you protect your expat citizens from stalk thing with a hurting way.  you could instead investigate the subway incident first. before querying my sanity since i am an excited person. tjhe police said your excitement made us thing could you be ill? hey you ignorant person i am always excited, it doesnt mean i am any ill. i talk in excited way you ignorant.

gosh. i dont any like this city anymore.



they have a thing like: they wanted me to take english course whilst no workplace wanted. they want perfection from talking like you have to be less excited oin communication. this also been my interest in workplace here. people want perfect non excited people when people are little bit more excited people the police thing her story must be unreal and she must be crazy cause she talks excited she loooks ill to us.
workplace mandates english course since i cant communicate well. no workplace wanted such thing from me.

this place wants people to talk non excited.
i dont liked this place's unifying approach. this look inhumane to me. there is so expected human definition here likke socialist countries. and they expect all people to be same? i confront from this excitement thing that that thing exists that expectation that we need to be lesser excited people.
i dont like any this city anymore. this place is so socialist i think.
due to mandatory business english course. no workplace asked me such thing.
when i talk excited, police tagged me a possible ill and they said it since your talk looks so excited we have possibility that you might be ill.

i dont like this place anymore. they want unified people here that are non excited that talk very calmly everytime. that maybe some person might be little autistic or else, but would be tagged as possibly ill by police since she tpold a bizarre stalk story to them and since she is super excited person since she doesnt talk look like others, then she must be ill? since she told a very bizaerre stotry? what is police for? is not it to solve bizarre things? gosh.


and i felt similarly not likes to mandatory 4nelgish course. i think i am not gonna stay here for long. going to find job in stanbul. i dont want to stay in this country. which expects people to be in default non excited always calmly speaking.

socialist place. is it because of that? that peoplke arent used to different looking differnt talking people here?
or having socialist roots? is it trace of that? this behavior of i dont know this behavior of expecting guhu to talk calm., whilst her role is just to do engineering and talk. but talk wont limit my work efficiency right ifg i am little bit more excited person right? or in police's sue complaint time, since i am excited, there is a big possibility i am ill? the police said since i talk very excited with my hands in air, i mifht be ill and since i told a bizaerre incidents to them. ok i dont any like this place anymore.
not gonna live long here anymore. i would find a job in istanbul and return back.,cause definitely everything shows me this culture is not for me.  unifying unifyingh people to same excitment level. as workplace asked for. as police queried why she talks so excited. she must be ill and we should first check her sanity beforehand!



for sure i am not gonna stay any much more in this country anymore. for sure.

if you are a foreign who talks excited and who has a bizaare story, dont ever go ask help from police. they would make you query your sanity first.


ok enough saying things. i think i would even go back to Turkey instead of this inhumane thing police made me confronted. yupp i really think of like thagt. i would instead go to consulate and ask their help and not gonna any spend any seconds in this country and would depend on my own country's police system to solve the crime i confronted.

Berlin -> i am not visiting either Berlin nor any of this country's cities anymore. i had not liked their stalk handling situation. and i hadnt liked the inhumane thing of saying since i talked excited, i must have probability of being an ill person.
ok inhumane place. end of my worklife here. going to go find another job in istanbul.


i think what i want to do is, just going to ferikouy where stalk started, and video document stalk and have it be solved by Turkish police. and i would never forget how inhumane the police behaved with asking me to prove my sanity first here.

if there is any friend of mine in my life, i want them to exist right now. i would call ferikoy police tomorrow morning so i get suggestions from them or would try to reach consulate people.


ok a nice thing happent from berlin. anti stalk group returned an answerm without behaving i might be insane. cause they are knowing that stalkers really might do bizarre things and wouldnt first ask you to prove your sanity like the police did.

its this last 4 years of my life, its too much pain. and i learnt police institution is not a good insttition. not interested to your suffering. would ask you to prove your sanity when you ask help. i dont want any be to be a cop anymore. cause i think police institution (except Turkey, excluding Turkey in that) is not any good organization type. nope. not any interested to being any cop.


ok lets tell abotu the thing i confronted from police to the stalk institution. maybe they would let know the police that such things rteally happens in life and not because people are crazy stalk happenbs but pewople really get stalked, get sociopathy, get defamated. it really happens.



at least some people here in Berlin arent like the police here. they understood that these type of things really happens, i wished i waited their response before going to police. they responded understanding really such things happens in life. unlike police whom labelled me crazy because i am a little bit excited person? hahh? cant people be more excited? maybe i am a hyper functioning autistic? maybe not autistic? but does being excited means am i ill? ok. i didnt any liked police. i wont any be cop in any time of my career. i drop such plans in life. i would help crime confronted confronting people like the organzation that helps me. police way? its inhumane way.
cause only such stalkj crime confronted people know that these things even when be told looks freally crazy really bizarre but stalkers really do bizarre things. i mean this behacvior to stalk incident report police showed, made me dislike police name concept. since police behaved as if it doesnt have experience of stalk crimes,. it behaved as if such things doesnt happen in life.  it behaved like normal ordinary people's reaction to bizarre stalk stories. i would expect police to know that in real life stalkers really do bizarre things to stalk victims.
maybe its not ok to label berlin as bad since police looks quite inhumane and not experienced in stalk crime. since other people from berlin know that such things that bizarre things really happen.

but still whilst having 4 years of stalk pain, having such behavior from police, became i think an unforgettable memory and would make me leave this place and cause i would always remember that inhumane behavior and how whilst i confronted a terrible crime for 4 years and this behavior of police i dont know it felt super bad.


people just go to institutions which help stalked people in Berlin but never go to police first if your stalker is really doing bizarre things. cause police is unexperienced to stalkcrimes and would request you to prove yours sanity first to start investigating the crime you confront.

i would always remember this place with the way its police behaved and not gonna any stay any more longer i would resign and find a job elsewhere maybe i think i would go to istanbul. and when the stalker stalks would video record it and wont let stalker disturb my life and change cities due to that anymore.  i left istanbul due to stalk. would go back there. and when stalk happens would video document.


ok i think i gonna find a lawyer also for the police's inhumane behavior to me. I already asked from the stalked people's helping orgnization.  and i would try to reach also lawyers in consulate. but i think the lawyers that are knowing stalk situaitons should check. cause i mean noone else understands stalk situations unless theyhad a client whom is stalked., i mean i see that stalk means to else all people who never reallgt confronted it the things stalkers does looks as crazy to all other people. whilst its real.  i mean only people who confronted stalk understands this. but outsiders behaves as if such bizarre things cant happen in life. but stalkers really really do very bizarre things.

 but what i dont understand is the police's not being in to stalk situations. anyway. i wish my contact in crime confronting helping people suggests me a lawyer. and i would ask them to tell stories of stalked people to police for to let them know these type of things really happens.

i think i would also reach out consulate help line early morning and ask their help. if i wernt late that noon i might had talked with relevant lawyer there that i hadnt needed to go to Berlin police. gosh. ok tomorrow reaching out to them and telling how inhumane Berlin police behaved to stalk report. they say they accept calls every hour so i would call them now.


and i would also talk with Tom named person asking his suggestions for asking whther these things i confronted might be due to me getting invited to NSA by him? that NSa's enemies doing these that defmation stalk things to me?

anyway. lots of things to do before morning. i would reach out Tom named very intellgnt&kind person if he has time.
and also would reach out consulate members for to report the inhumane behavior i confronted. and would might even go to consulate if they say.