ok the psycho in subway passed behind me saying to another psycho "guher is yours (property)" then in far distance shouted the defamation word.


i think my life might be even in trouble due to a socio stalker wwhich defamates me very bad things + i consume inhumane behavior from police.  ok this life is really really unfair if you go to police in Berlin you see it more.

i jsut asked them could you please check video records in subway and they behaved as since my sue letter is very bizzaare events they wanted first to check my sanity. and they said that with saying me: that since i talk excited (which is my default talk mood in life, i am always excited when i am talking to strangers) they said since i talked excited i look weirder than other people, they suspected i might be ill instead so they want to check if am sane beforehand. this is how i were behaved. ok  i really dont any miute want to live in this country anymore. i received that comment also from workplace, that i am too excited. this is my default mood. maybe i am a hyper working autistic? very long before, i always queried if i am intellgnt or not, and mom asked a dr and he said her children's brain hormones are more than other people since they are intellgnt and its ok that they are little bit more excited. if the dr were wrong or right i dont know, but i here confronted many objections to me being excited. like being mandated to go to an english course thinking my communication skills is lacking.i definitely think i dont any like this place. after police also mentioned my excitement in daily talk to ask me whether i could be insane since i talk more excited than other people and i have bizarre story i told them, but since i am excited i might look ill to them, they said this to me. i dont any like this country any more. and the words of police/behavior of police to me super inhumane. similarly workplace wants me to improve my communication skills with asking me to go to an english course. i worked in many places and noone askedme such thing. cause engineers arent expected to be superb communicators. i might cominicate good well whilst being an engineer. but i mnight also not be. so this expectations of workplace to commmunicat eperfect or police thinking i am ill since i talk weirder than other people(more excited), this thing i quite disliked. that the expectation that everyone should talk calm, unexcited. i never saw such requirement be asked from me in Turkey. everyone would know i am little bit excited person and they wouldn t even mention nor care.  ok workplace's everything is really greart. but i think there is culture difference. and i dont liked this culture of expectation of everyone to be good communicator. i even did management in worklife. i mean i should be communicating some level. i mean ok its an improvement requesrt butits mandatory by the way. ok. i understand that i dont fit to culture of here. first of all, and secondly, i would never forget how inhumane police behaved to me. so even if i might had good memories also, i really dont any like to live here any minute more. cause i would never forget how inhumane behaved police. ok not everyone is like them. like the stalk victim helpers understand stalk situations unlike police. but its like this. when you confront something very hurting whilst you are already hurted by a stalk situaiton, i mean you dont forget such type of things and i truly dont want to live here anymore. i should resign. and find job in istanbul or other cities.

i think i would go to istanbul. as next city.





ok i would call the lawyer of the consulate for asking for help directly tomorrow.  ok for stalker case, i would get my country's help, not this place's. and for the inhumane behavior also, i am asking help from lawyer from consulate. yupp. i wish it wouldnt be rude to call lawyer at 9am tomorrow.


yupp i think i would prefer having no place to stay, nor not being able to carry my all things but would prefer even if i cant find job fast, i would prefer even being homeless in Turkey (if job search gets long)  instead of living here from the moment police behaved like that, i thought like this place has died for me. i would always remember how police behaved. and i would dislike lviing here. so i think guhu & berlin breaks up. i wont  live here anymore cause i dont like the perfectionism here. even police wants everyone to talk non excited. everyone must be a good communcator even for to sue a complaint. otherwise would be taken as ill by police since i talked excited and have a bizzare sue topic? gosh:S nope. not gonna any live here nor any would ever in my life time come. to any city of.


truly i would even prefer being homeless in Turkey(if i cant find job there) than living in a place where police behaved me like this. from now on, everywher ei look in this city would make me remember my time in police visit to sue the stalker problem and asking for if they could check video records of subway since i would want to show them the stalker whom passed behind me at some point. (whilst i were sitting in subway).  but they didnt listen nor interested in that. they tokld me i talk very excited and i look different than other people's communications so i should first my sanity be checked. every minute i live here, i would remember this. so this place is not any place i would like to live anymore.  these place's police people expect everyone to be a suiper perfect comunicator, even when sueing a stalk application.
stalker insults with worst forms of defamation. then you go to police and police also insults like this.
not any place this city is anymore a place i would ever live in. i would prefer sleeping in streets of Turkey being a homeless there isntead of living here.  (i mean if cant find a job fast, i gmith really be homeless sometime since i am unemployed) and i truly want to close my communication with family soince they would bother me for why i leave jobs/workplace this fast this time etc.  i dont want to share their anxiety or listen any. i am sick of having a sociopath stalker but noone seriously taking in to concern (except Turkish police they took serious). this place died for me. not any in life time i would ever any second visit. neither here nor any city of here.


and i am pretty sure Tuirkey's polices would catch the stalker of me. unlike this inhumane behaving police here, i am pretty sure Turkey's police would help & even catch the stalker.