yayyy planning an amazing weekend:)

i wouild find somewhere to do boating things. and also next week is amazing sinc ei would talk with stalk victims support group about what to do about my trauma or stalk confrontation situation. the kind guy reserved more than 1 hours. i am super thankful to these kind people. yayyyy finally to talk to people whom understands how destructive confronting sociopathic stalk is. my stalker were either commies ? (stasi?) or a psycho whom  does stasi like acts. i would tell all incidents for 5 years. i want to send infinitely many hearts to that institution for this appointment chance:)<3<3⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮 (again  and again this topic has none relevance to any blog readers' any topics.) infinitely many hearts sent from guh to stalk victims helper organization here⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮⁕⚘💮 yayyy i finally found help. it really resembles that one stasi biography i read. the things i confronted in 5 years of stalk. so i really susp[ected whether commies? did this? or a psycho stalker with commie tactics? i dont any know. would tell all stalk incidents. i guess stalk victim institution would be expert in stalk topics so they would better analyze the stalk than me i  think. i mean i really have no idea whom stalked me. i sometimes think it must be commies like topic? since it were like really step by my step be stalked situaiton. every cafe. every place i went the stalker stalked for most of 5 years with constant stalk then slander. i mean it looked as an organized group and really resembles(actually looks quite similar) one stasi victim's biography i read. but maybe its how sociopath stalker topic is. i mean, i would tell all incidents 5 years. people would better know what it is. i sometimes think it must be something like stasi*commies). sometimes i think it must be a psycho stalker. 

its so happy i finally found help. i would tell each every single stalk slandr incident happent.

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hey which lake this guh should swim. tons of lakes here. which all feel intriguing to visit. since there are forests and sometimes pools also with those swim tubes. yayyy bike around. have picnic. i dont have friends yet so would picnic alone. yayyy i am super excited also for tomorrow. since4 it would pass like holiday. i would go swim, ride bike in forest like places around lake. maybe most possibly would hire a boat. a 1 day holidya. maybe 2 days. i think i would most possibly go on sunday also:D in evening i would study abstract algebra topic. since i think i would come at most 5 pm i guess. or even 3pm. i think i am counting hours to travel.

ok what kind of picnic things i should gather with me. hmm. i could take things to read when i sunbathe on shore. and maybe apples/sandwiches. definitely drinks. maybe would go where somewhere with cafes so dont have to carry drinks. i figured out i never ever swam in any lake before in my life.  it were all either pool or sea.

ok lake selection now.  i think i would try to take holiday recent weeks and swim/sunbath alot.

ok i think this ugly guh found her travel place for tomorrow. or i have not found.

i think i have not found. but it is very exciting.

ok i tried options of finding an airbnb or hotel place. but then it felt nicer to bike and return to home cause i like spending time also in home.

ok so tomorrow is picnic /camping /swimming. wouldrandomly go to a place. the idea of picnic looks fun. and camping/swimming.

and other day sunday i guess i would spend time at home studying.

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ok tomorrow seems very adventerous. would randomly go to a place. ok i actually have selected the place due to one picture i saw. but seems not so many cafes around so surely would take my drinks/food with me.

---time to study abstract algebra.

yayy bought6 my chalkboard:)

my brain got nondecisive in between having chalkboard delivered tomorrow and not traveling tomorrow and having chalkboard on monday. then i said lets have chalkboard on monday.  i am already kind of feeling dizzy for going to lake tomorrow. i already got more in to studying algebra instead of traveling for tomorrow. maybe lake on sunday? i think so. so would buy  chalkboiard to tomorrow:) since chalkboard fun seems also as fun as traveling.

hmm i cant buy chalkboard. hm mbut again studying abstract algebra on saturday than traveling on sunday still feels more interesting.  i dont have traveling energy that much for tomorrow i guess. being an old person. or i might find. i dont know. to be decided tomorrow. i think i wouold study abstract algebra all weekend cause i really missewd that also. i think i could swim later. could sunbathe in balcony either. ok i am definitely old. usually i would definitely favored traveling more than staying at home before:D.  just cozy time at home also feels nice. with abstract algebra. 

ok today had subbathing plans before sun goes away but had some work so sunbathing postponed to tomorrow.

ok i see i am purely old. for favoring staying at home to traveling. or maybe thinking i need to bike alot. such type of laziness. but might change my idea tomorrow.