wov i seen coincidences with a news and also coiuncidences with an entrepreneur :) 

ok this silly guh has readers as i see :)

Cheers  & Lots of blessings :)))))))))))

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hm i hadnt received email reply today from programme emailing maybe she had not seen. or maybe i misunderstood i dont know any.  my friend said wait 2 days later maybe the email sender has not seen yet your reply.

For since i like stones (in hotel my dad managed there were stones on a furniture (as design) with diff4erent looks all colorful all with different texture and weight and shiny surfaces. i liked to play with them when i were a kid with weighting them in my hand. since they were more heavy than usual stones.  i am noty a geologist so i dont know what they were but they looked very beautiful. coming to today topic:

i like stones topic. i also 12 years ago would had buy stones and put to my desk. when i coded simulator resembling like program i think. and i like bracelets with stones and were searching for good energy stones i know they are unreal such topics like energizing stones or such topics. but i still find it nice. so i plan to buy bracelets of Buddhism concept and also i even being an atheist i find the cross symbol kind of peaceful or we all have religious tendencies even if we are both atheists at the same time :) (we complex beings :) ) i also liked to carry cross 12years ago as a necklace. i liked a jade stone cross. i would buy that. cause i find religious symbols and stones concepts relieving. i also liked those Buddhism necklaces with Buddha carvings. i would also get them.  wishing my cross gathers good luck and protects me from stalker/slanderer from sisli) i guess it would give me more power inherently. cause stones  i believe kind of makes us feel better. i know its just psychological i mean stones dont have powers or energy, but in the end, it makes feel better. For cross topic, i am both atheist, but i find sometimes religious symbols kind of peaceful also. and love the idea of carrying them. i liked the idea of buying a necklace of Jade stone like that:)  I am still atheist. but  i also have religious modules in my brain visibly.  and also atheist modules. so a confused brain it is:) i like the idea of religious symbols and carrying them. but i also have atheist brain modules:D ok :) this topic is like this :)  both atheist and both religious  guhu? :)   (i am definitely a weirdo since have conflicting modules in my brain on this topic. both atheist and both religious tendencies. i guess being confused is also ok on religions topic. i mean i guess its ok if we are both atheist and both believe in religious symbols. feeling for instance feeling like carrying the cross Jade necklace hidden on my shirt (not to showcase it just would be over my heart)  would make me feel stronger in life and create good luck to me. i also quite liked Buddha carvings:) i would also buy them:) and some days i would carry Buddha carvings some days cross carvings. i wish it wont be weird to do like that? mixing power of 2 religions to be beside my heart :) ) (to give strength everytime and also lots of good luck :) )

( ok lets not miss other religions symbols. lets find Jewish and Islamic Jade stone writings and carry them other days. hmm 4 religions power for to bring luck/nice faith. )

i like this stone carvings topic alot. i liked the Jade stone. 

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ok now maths studying time. mathathon time. would asap build the math tools. but just little bit resting more with this lovely music. but then would go revise another chapters topic and brainstorm on the problem. i learnt that the philosophy discusses this topic also i today read this page:

https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/paradox-zeno/

 and i also today saw Cantor also focused on this metaphysical topic and insisted claims on infinity which werent accepted though. so i saw its a popular topic around. this tryign to restructure infinity topic. 

yayyy i saw a Spanish scientist saying table to science wov:) Blessings to this coincidence of words also alot:) Cheers & lots of blessings :)

ok this guh has lots of study to studyand sending all these amazing people who did coincidences lots of cheers & blessings :))))))))))))))

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ok stopping resting and continueing studying to abstract algebra topic. 

i feel so stupid wtr to people other than else me actually you know? i really havehigh levels of impostor syndrome. and i am really both stupid and both intellgnt. and i wish blessings to all people all readers and cheers and lots of love! :))))))))))))))

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i am sure all my blog readers from all areas arts/entrepreneurship/sports/science/theology/politics are at least 50 iq poitns higher than me.  and this creates pressure on me so bad.  since i am super silly person. 

 

 

and wishing cheers and love and blessings to all blog readers. 

lots of love & blessings & cheers! :) wishing all studies goes perfect wishging ever goals get achieved:)

 

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since i saw a scientist mentioned my blog, now this is abstract algebra study time again with more energized brain to study to science since i saw a scientist used put to table word :) wov this is super cool!:)  cheers cool scientist woman! :) (A Spanish person this cheers went to! cheers coool very intellgnt scientist person :) Blessings :)wishingall researches goes perfect:) )

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(ok this type of references puts a lot of pressure to me. since i am not any intellgnt person neither like that lady nor any like any people any institute that referenced my blog at times or sometimes coincidences it were and i misudnerstood? .  but whether coincidences or not,  would work much more harder surely since motivates me :) Thanks for motivating to study science more :) )  This guh sends lots of cheers &blessings!

 i adore you people/institutions super much :)

 

 

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(i am sorry once for saying a bad sentence to a politician. he is also i think 50 iq higher than me. )  

 

 

(apologizes if ever i said any bad word from here to anyone. i had unrelated problems unrelated to anyone whom read reads my blog ever. )

 

(i think anyone i communicated must be 50 iq higher than me. if ever i said any bad word from here to anyone sorry fdor that so much. i am a very stupid person. sometimes cant tghink of the counter side's perspective and be rude. sorry for if i be rude ever anytime )

 

(i am a both intellgnt and both a super stupid person. maybe asperger side. i sometimes saw i understand slowly or not understand at all what others mean. sometimes i understand correctly fully even more not like any asperger either. i dont know if ia m asperger or not. i am a really weirdo. sometimes my brain works prett5y fast. sometimes i got and look to myself and say how stupid my brain is. in some topics i learn very fast and creative. so i am a complete wierdo. both very stupid and vbery narrowly (narrow areas) intellgnt in learning only but very stupid person most of the time. ) (and most possibly asperger people must be 50 iq higher than me, lets add that also)

 

i really have conflicting brain modules. i am both atheist and both religious. both very stupid and both intellgnt at the same time. both super levcels of emphat both severely slow in understanding whats said sometimes. so i really am a weirdo. 

 

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yayyyyy zeno's paradox's rewriting tries time. i saw i am not the only one whom obsessed with this topic. i saw from Mediuym that Cantor also has obsessed to this but people rejected the ideas byu thgen since its kind of metaphysical domain this domain. of infinity's structure domains.  

uyayyyyyy focusing to rewriting physical frameworks time again:)  working hard to recreate measure theory again :) i m not any intellgnt but i am curious to this area. i saw Cantor were also curious to. it feels as Zeno's paradox's usual solution i hadnt liked. 

ok goals goals goals. learning grad maths in one month. for to try to establish the goal of rewriting physical frameworks. since the current infinity structuring felt just very singular. lets try to retry Cantor's dream:) i saw today that my dream were also dreamt by Cantor (Cantor is also 50 iq higher than me i guess )  but those times it were rejected. but maybe this time it could be accepted.

like the decentralization topic. the centralization like current measure systems of numbers are all Roman constructs right? i have no problems with that. but i saw that it changes along.  i mean since the

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wov i saw tyhat Spanish scientist is from NASA:) wov:) super cooooooool:) 

ihey i would be very happy to bring my science products to table of NASA :D:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) if i could build:)  (it would have been a dream to work in NASA:) )  (but i dotn think i am intellgnt like those scientists ever. but if i could build a product i woulod be super interested to put to the table for to serve space exploration topics :) )  

(though as told, i am not any intellgnt like scientists working in science institutions so i am pretty sure people woulod be much doing better than things i would build. but if ever i have any chance to work for NASA, it would be a dream come true for me surely :) )( though since i dont have PHD i dont think its possible. but if ever gets possible i would be super interested to :))  (though i think i have zero chances since i dont have enough background to get a role in a science institution i guess. but would be very happy to surely :) cause NASA  i think is like a dream institution. i even when were a kid, were amazed by spacecrafts pictures i saw in bilim teknik magazine in Turkey or the gold disc's story thats sent to space.)   (i think i have zero chances to get ever accepted, but lets note that, it would be a dream to ever have any chance to work for NASA :) ) 

(causei think those scientists there are 100x more intellgnt than me:) ) (like that Spanish scientist woman scientist. ) 

(but lets note here, if ever i have any slighgtest chance of working to NASA, i would be super interested to apply for:) )

(i think i have zero chances :Pi think it were just coincidence4. or not i just cant believe this is truye if it were somehow interacting with a NASA person? this is real life and not a dream? ) (cause it feels like dream since i dont see myself as intellgnt person like intellgnt people) (oir it were just coincidence i guess) (but again, if ever i have any slightest chance of working in NASA, i would be super interested to :) ) (wov:) it would be super cool:) ) (wov i would be covered with all robotics/science/mechanical engineering interested nerds like me:D wov:) it would be super cool! :) if ever i would have any slightest chance4, i would be super interested to :) ) 

 

(though i think i have zero chances for this i guess snce i am not intellgnt enough most possibly)

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anywya, after seeing this super cool coincidence, i want to dance with happiness in my room and then continue studying to abstract algebra. lets work on to learn grad maths as stated in 1 months yupp. this week lets finish this measure brainstorming design if ever possible. or at most 2 weeks time it should take. then other week measure theory's other chapters should be studied., other 2 weeks differential geometry learning time. then starts topology cauyse topology without dif. geometry is impossible as i saw :P i intended to study topology before even measure theory but turned out its impossible topology is the latest area in the orderiung of topics of dependencies to each other. i saw that dependency list is as: 

abstract algebra -> measure theory  

and in tandem

dif geometry & abstract algebra---> topology

 

 

yayyy this week spared for Cantor's goal (i saw that Cantor also put this goal today newly and but failed. i might faila lso taking to consideration i am not any intellgnt any as Cantor)   (Cantors goal is restructuring infinity, and reconsidering usual solutions of Zeno's paradox). then other week is completing measure theory. further week is for dif geometry. further 2 weeks is for topology. ok it doesnt fit to month surely. 

ok lets continue studying. as if with this cheer factor (of seeing coincidence with Spanish scientist in NASA) as if i could study whilst i only think wov what does that coincidence could mean. could it mean chance at NASA? if ever possible, i would be super levels of interested to apply for :) )  (i dont know if it meant that? if its like that, i would be super interested to apply for. its a dream to work in there :)  i mean i think i could only see that in my dreams:)  (of working in NASA) but if ever its not dream category, and i could have any chance to apply to, i would be always super interested to apply to :) )  (i  wish i checked twitter 23 hours ago. i saw its posted 23 hours ago. i newly saw it. ) 

 

 

just to note:

if ever being entrepreneurship chance happens either now or in future and working at NASA chance happent at the same time, i would surely prefer working to NASA:)  i would prefer working in NASA than being a millionare. thought both are very cool :)  since NASA creates curiosity like rovers. new rover were what named? it wre about strength/staying strong. aha its Perseverance. 

(though i am pretty sure noone would give me any working chance in NASA since they are 100 iq higher than me people scientists there. but i send my cheers&adoration from here to them all for this lovely coincidence. and would like to this silly curious would like to state, if ewver she gets any internship nor studying there chances, she would be super levels of interested to any time:) )

(i guess i again misunderstood people. i always misunderstand people) (i guess they hadnt meant that (i mean i guess they hadnt meant working for there) ) (i always dont know if i understood correctly whatrs meant)

(stupid silly i wish i had read twitter 23 hours ago:S) (i newly saw the tweet:S) (i guess i am late seeing it) 

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Sending love&cheers&blessings! :) 

I wish everyone's days goes awesome/amazing! :) 

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(for any chances i would apply to NASA's internship pages. but i dont think i have relevant cv. i thgink i should first build my math prioduct than after try applying. cause i dont see my cv relevant to science yet. i should build first my math product and try my chance to apply there after this coincidence.) 

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(i guess i again misunderstood people. i always misunderstand people) (i guess they hadnt meant that (i mean i guess they hadnt meant working for there) ) (i always dont know if i understood correctly whatrs meant) 

 

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ok when exciting things happens in twitter i then for a while dont enter twitter. like this moment. since my heart cant handle this much excitement of cool topics. so i wouldnot enter twitter for a while. but as told, i would definitely try my chance to apply for internship in NASA after this coincidence. for sure i know i wont be accepted since i am not intlgnt enough most possibly. but i would try my chances. if ever exists. lets first build the math products. this week wishfully i come to some stage in math product. 

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aha i learnt now (this ignorant guh) that internship is a concept for schools. i am not at school so it wont be internship. ok i tyhought its also possible for after school life. i saw its not. so i wont apply for internship but for scientist roles if ever possible (i am prettry sure i wont be accepted since i dont have enough science background or scientist sided iq but i would definitely apply to and try my chances :)  but firsts first: building math product asap. but after seeing that coincidence i got lost in thinking about this and it turned 00:36am. ok lets study. i were revising chapter 4. to brainstorm on problem. then would revise all other chapters. )

(and lets open investigate NASA's application pages.) (but surely i wont apply until i have a math product. cause i wont feel my background in science is ok until i have a crude product in science. i would feel like an impostor if i currently apply without my math product and without having learning grad maths. i wont apply until i have a math product. i wish to have it soon wishfully. ) 

 

yayyyyy then my mechanical engineering interest(thgat i wish to learn from ) wont turn out for nothing if i have chance to work in NASA ever:) cause they do mechanical engineering there also!yayyy! theyt do create robots!!! yayy!!!.

 

( but my cujrrent interest is maths. i want to learn all grad maths soon and build new math tools if possible. and then try to recode physical frameworks this interest is as. but i would also be soon interested to mechanical engineering stuff and robotics afteraccomplishing that)

until i have my math product, i wont stop feeling like an impostor. i should have it to feel not lioke an impostor. its just i have my hobbies like this. but i am not super intellgnt. i am intellgnt in learning and nothing else and maybe creativty i am intllgnt in. so i definitly feel like : until i have my math product, i would feel as impostor since i other than radiance calculating product i built nothing hobby project to reality in my life in any area. all got in the middle. so until i have some product thats fully finished, i would feel myself as impostor.  

but honestly i could learn any thing i want to learn about. current interest is mechanical engineering in coursera i saw and want to study after the current hobby projects goals finish (which is math products then trying to recode physical frameworks with those math products, after this happens i want to learn mechanical engineering stuff or maybe at the same time in free times, but i need to fastly build math products so such rest time mechanical engineering learning hobby is postponed to later time).  at the same time i lose interest fastly to an area. i didnt liked ai that much after sometime like year or 2 years even if its a very very important area. but i figured out i never lose my itnerest to this maths named area. maybe physics would be also like that. i think mechanical engineering and robotics would be also like that. but till i have my product ready, i would feel myself as an impostor.  since i had realized no hobby software products fully in to life yet. all got in the middle. 

 

so lets fastly implement the math prioducts and initial goal of trying to recode physical knowledge/frameworks in different measure versions. 

as i finish my graduate math study and have my products, surely i would apply to NASA upon seeing this coincidence in twitter 2 hours ago :) (it happent 25 hours ago but i saw it 2 hours ago cause i wernt in twitter last day).  maybe it were just a coincidence and it wernt meant like that. I dont know any. but surely definitely I would definitely try my chance :) (but after i have a math product that i dont any feel like an impostor regarding science area.) (it would have been a dream to work in NASA surely :) ) (i think i again misunderstood people and they hadnt meant anything like work chances:) but surely definitely this guh would try her chance with applying to :) (after i have my maths products) 

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