today stalk slander incidents happent again from workplace's street but i hadnt entered trauma. i have my headphones always on. most of the times. i am over trauma of being stalked/slandered for today. i hadnt entered trauma when stalk/slander happent. but somedays i enter traumya. this day i hadnt. double fold deception acts again happent. psycho shouted things that would be shouted to slander type. treying to show deceive me as a slander type of person. this stalk/slander/harrasment/sociopathy/psychopathy acts/sentences happens for 5 years. anyway today i hadnt entered trauma and didnt cared any stalk nor slander.
i had reactivated my coursera membership and took lots of robotics mechanical engineering courses. surely i would just for fun read them now and because main time in home is spent for maths products. building land protecting robots is after having 20 million Euros accomplished state. but a while i might for fun to have rest, might buy some or build some 3d printer and build mini parts of robots tyhat i study,. i took tons of mechanical engineering, materials design, sensor/motor design for robots courses today from coursera. i reactivated my membership.
today i hadnt forgot my math book at workplace (i took it to study it at noons whgen i have freetime in noons) but most of the time couldnt either were sleepy or rested instead of reading at noons. but i still carry for since even 2 pages reading is a nice thing to do. anyway, today my maths book is beside me, so would revise the homomorphisms topics all those topics back and would start to work to to create something for breaking Borel Cantelli measure. yayyyy today trying to achieve an impossible goal fun happens:) i know to me also it looks impossible to break Borel Cantelli's lemma about phi addtive functions' measures. but its my main goal in current measure i try to devise and i think i could really discover a way to break hack this lemma.
i bought tons of mechanical engineering courses. this coder gonna have some mechanics fun! i would play with gears bolts motors servos sensors all those stuff to learn and build robots. i bought awesome courses. they are as: (some of them i could took as free (but i wont get a certificate), some of them i wopuld pay 1 week later (they have 1 week free period)). my lovely robotics hobby courses are:
https://www.coursera.org/learn/motion-and-kinetics/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/mastering-statics/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/material-science-engineering/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/fundamentals-waves-vibrations/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/material-behavior/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/engineering-mechanics-statics-2/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/mechanics-1/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/materials-structures/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/mechanics2/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/finite-element-method/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/ferrous-technology-1/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/3d-printing-revolution/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/engineering-mechanics-statics/home/welcome
machine design: part 1:
https://www.coursera.org/learn/machine-design1/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/rigid-body-dynamics/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/sensors-circuit-interface/home/welcome
i am not interested in aerial robotics but this were titled robotics so i bought: (i am interested in land robots)
https://www.coursera.org/learn/robotics-flight/home/welcome
https://www.coursera.org/learn/intro-fpga-design-embedded-systems/home/welcome
and took some physics courses about special general relativity stuff that i wonder abou8t or about big bang/dark matter stuff. but i hadnt lsited cause they are unrelated to robotics topic. i hadnt bought ai ml courseware stuff cause already studied it long before. not for robotics but other things i stued ml stuff ai stuff long before.
i were ill of my stomach. but feels as some meat+tofu+green leaves + chiuli peppers mixed soup healed me. it wernt something i prepared. soups i prepare end up non delicious most of the time.
i would try to learn how to make delicious soups. like this soup i ate were super tasty. i want to be able to cook it. and have it as noons since healed my illness of stomach. i had still stirred stomach in morning but after soup i felt better.
so i understood i cook like shit. i mean food i cook doesnt even heal me when i am ill. i need to learnt o make delicious and healthy meals. i cook like shit. my meals most of the time are not delicious.
i understood that my stomach might be ill related to food i consume. 2 days ago i ate schnitzel which were too much oil holding. yesterday i ate some very heavy food. then my stomach got ill. today but soup fixed it so i understood food eaten has great impact on my health. maybe because my stomach is not super healthy?. i need to check it sometime from a medical place i guess this stomach issues. maybe i routinely need to take stomach pills i dont know. lets see later. i always postpone this whilst i should not.
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today i would try some cold food that some meat food that. we prepare some meat its slowly cooked and in end some butter added. its cooked for hours. lamb meat but i were lazy to take lamb beef so i bought instead beef meat. then i would try cooking that. since it becomes something like you could put to freezer and then i could carry it for my noons. like sandwiches in noons. maybe i carry soup plus this meat for noons. i mean it becomes a ready use sandwich stuff. so that i cdont have to spend so much time to noon. just would eat my sandwich. this is somefood very common in sivas region. they create this meat and put to large cups and they store in freezers and use when necessary. the meat cooks on its own for many hours (very tiny pieces sliced meat) then at end of its cooking period, butter is added. not very much butter sure. then it could stay in fridge/freezer for even a year. and you could take it out from freezer, heat it and ake sandwich. or put to soup. or meals. ready to use meat type of food it is. people usually do italike 5kgs in one batch or some people even do more. i would do with 500 grams today. would try. for easy noons solution. i am not using lamb meat but beef meat that i ordered.
mom and dad hearing i only eat most of the time in noons recently (not last 3 days but many days last weeks) cheese and tomato, they suggested me this food. since i told them when they asked why dont you cook your self food and i said i am lazy. then they said, if you are going to eat a sandwich, eat with kavurma(this food i described). they told me how to cook kavurma(defined in above paragraph). they told start with 500 gram and its done from lamb meat. but i were lazy to go to market to buy lamb meat but in internet there were beef meat so i ordered beef meat. i learnt the recipe form mom dad last weekend or friday. and would try cooking this meat food today. i wish i dont over eat and turn my self to a heart patient. nor i wish i dont put more than necessary butter. i would be careful in butter level since i dont want to have bypass in long future. though meat is also carcinogen as i read. i mean in the end, i should limit how much i eat. but in the end i also need to take protein and i am lazy i dont cook food alot so this is a nice way to have protein, ready made sandwich content in fridge, then taking it to noons and create sandwich.
aha my credit card virtual limit has ended. but i cant extend it because i dont have my simcard of my Turkish operator.
so my internet shopping were cancelled. ok then. i made instead a food with chicken might try beef tomorrow. then might buy lamb instead. but there is no time to buy it since that market closes which sells lamb meat when i leave workplace. so postponed to weekedn then. i have a limited internet shopping range to my credit card and its finished. its actually a good thing so that i dont spend alot. i set it up myself. when i lived in Turkey. noiw i cant change it because i lost my simcard :D so i just pay my card or credit i took 2 years ago. but cant do most banking operations without my simcard. since i cant change my phone number without going to bank for safety reasons there has been such rule setup i read that recently. i mean you cant easily change your phone number (without going to bank) before we could had update our phone number from telephone banking. ok so but again having limited limit currently is a nice thing for me i think. yayy my credit payment has been finished finally:) everymonth i payed 2000TL to my credit for many months, maybe 30 months i guess? it ended this month, aha i need to call bank to say which bank accoutn they should take the payment of last month of my credit. :S i forgot it:S
yayyy my everymonthly 2000TL payment is finally finished:) so only cost i do montly now would be credit card payments to the bank. ok :)
ok i madechicken food which became tasty. i understood i have to add tomato pastry to chicken based food and slice onions small. in that situation it becomes tasty. became perfect sandwich inner. i couldnt stop i ate even its 9pm since it became tasty. so i understood that reason my chicken food always became untasty were because i ddnt sliced onions to small pieces. ok then. hmm then kavurma sandwich material would be done on weekend. since i would have time to go buy to market to buy lamb. i dont think i would have time in weekdays.
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ok i did played solitaire again to monitor weird card consequences:P today first two solitaire game all started with 6 clubs. i said, i think third solitaire wont start with 6 clubs. then it didnt started :D so today also polayed solitaire and today also didnt happent 3 consecutive games play start with same card by random chance. today 2 first solitaire tries started with same card. third one didnt started so i stopped playing for today:D guh;s silly solitaire tries upon weird consecutive +1 -1 or same card happening things so i started to daily check solitaire game to observe thatnothing happens unusual other than random happenstance. today it happent just for 2 plays first 2 plays started with same card. (6 clubs). hmm last 2 days no even such things happent.
i took my tea. hmm prepared meals. i understood even if i am lazy i should cook sincxe my stomach is not a healthy stomach type. ok now mathathon time!
i gave break to sculpting for since i wish to create math products asap. sculpting might continue later after creating 20 million Euros from math products. recentg goals is creating 20 millions for goals i listed, for buying 25km2 land building home building land protecting robots etc.
ok i hadnt had chance to study last inght cause i still had stomach problem very slightly and but more than that also were sleepy so i rested instead. but i guess i would have time to study today. i think i would buy one stomach medicine today thats sold without prescription. i would try to study in noon time if i could spare regarding plans of studying i had yesterday night
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i saw an investor making fun of my being stalked topic in newsletter if its not coincidence. this guh sends hi to the investor & cheers!
i see that investor reads my funny blog at times just i guess its because an interesting weird blog. cheers!
felt like investor said we are also stalked by founders and founders are like sometimes stalkers:DDDD
i sometimes once more saw topics coincidence with the investor. cheers this guh sends all way to there! good days! :)
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ok todays guhs goals are as working on maths products continueing that.
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ok i came home. i have little bit sore throat.
while biking, a lovely mini car passed with someone i think resembled someone in the car, then smiled to me, and i smiled back:) I guess he smiled that my bicycle looked weird:) but he resembled to someone i saw. hmm. i think just resemblence? not him i think were resembling him i think.
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hey i have slight sore throat again. my stomach were ill yesterday last 2 days. so i eat well these days in case i had got cold last weeks. since i once became pneumonia in 2011 i think or such year. and i had severe reaction in my lungs. so whenever i have sore throat i try to fix it with eating/resting well.
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i feel again sleepy i think due to sore throat. but want to also study mathathon. but maybe i postpone it to saturday. i already started that measure theory side and already came to point of investigating ways to design the measure i wondered. so maybe postponing mathathon to weekned is a nice idea and resting now. i feel sleepy.
ok i am postponing mathathon continueation to weekend since i have cold like situation. sore throat and stomach is also not healed fully. hey i again cooked today. i prepared meat for tomorrow's noon. this time beef minced beef. but this time it hasnt beeen nice like chicken i made last day. i think i left food too much on stove/overcooked so this time it hadnt been delicious like last days meal but not bad either.
ok this guh's rest time:) mathathon to be continued on weekend i think. cause i really feel sleepy due to cold.
ok i woke up at 1am after falling asleep in 9pm. i had stuffed nose and more sore throat. and stuffed nose and lack of fresh air in room felt super bad. opent my balcony door so oxygen filled in. then also made hot tea of mint leaves. then also took nose spray and it opent my nose. figured out there is 1 antibiotics left. took it. and took c vitamins. then aft6er that pouring of fresh air/oxygen to my room and nose spray working, i felt much better. and sore throat got lesser also. i figured out whenever most of the time when my nose gets filled up, a sore throat happens. or last week. i had sore throat again 7 days ago with same situation. then antibiotics helped by then also. i have 2 antibiotics of another antibiotic type left. i guess i would continue them. its weird sore throat doesnt hurt like i woke up at 1am now. at 1 am i woke up with sore throat, itching foot, filled nose lacking air since i forget to open windows and i guess oxygen level got lesser in room due to forgetting of opening windows last day. i figure out i need to open balcony door or windows much more. than i do. but with this much oxygen and kind of cold air, my sleep gone. but at least i have no problems with feeling lack of air now(when my nose fills up, i usually feel i lack enough air, air from my mouth does tno feel enough whenever my nose gets filled up most of the times feeling like this or i guess when nose is filled up, it makes a person feel like that, since also inner mucus flow also happens which might narrow down how we breath), 7 days ago, antibiotics healed my sore throat. but i had just 3 antibiotics i thought i had 3. then finished 3 of them. then 7 days later sore throat popped up again today. turned out there is one yet again one amoxiclav left. and 2 other types. i would take them. i took remaning amoxiclav(1 1000 mg) and would continue tomorrow othe rtype of antibiotics for which 2 times 500 mg is left. but other antibiotic is even being 500 mg works very effective. i guess might have different mechanism. i wish i solve this sore throat issue. so i figure out, i need to take more c vitamin in my life. i dont take any c vitamin from anywhere as i look to my diet. if i dont take it, i guess i should at least take c vitamin pills sometime. or i should start either eating kiwis or orange like stuff. i need to figure out a way to increase strength of my immunity system so that sore throat dont happen frequently. 7 days ago it happent again.
i feel energetic now after 1 antibiotics + 1 c vitamin. i feel like as if i healed. i think its related to nose spray fixing nose's situaiton ? and getting more oxygen levels.
i woke up wioth sore throat pain and lack of air due to stuffed nose. now i donrt feel any sore throat. how its possible? i just mean this. i just took antibiotics 2 hours ago? aha i think its just nose spray + hot mint drink maybe. i dont think one antibiotic pill can cure sore throat's pain fastly. weird. or this amoxiclav is really very effective antibiotics. ok i still feel there is a scar there but it doesnt hurt now. weird antibiotics.
i need to find a way to boost up my immunity so that scars dont happen in my throat. 7 days ago scar happent in my mouth cavity then sore throat happent also. today it repeated again but not inside my mouth cavity but in like pharangitis like place.
i liked this antibiotic.
ok whenever my nose gets filled up, it creates sore throat in me this months? or not everytime i guess.
ok more c vitamin i would add to my life cause i stopped c vitamin in take for a long while. i guess this might be related why i have more sore throats than usual.
cause nose being filled up most of the time wouldnt create sore throat before. i guess related to c vitamin intake level. cause i completely stopped taking c vitamins.
or its because i had heavy trauma in life related to being targeted to psychic demolition/character assasination type of acts (stalk/slander) ? that trauma could also reduce immunity level? i dont know. but i am handling trauma much more better now entering lesser trauma when confronting stalk slander now. i think its either a delusional or sociopath maniac type of stalker. or its some topic ideologic. but in eitherway, i am handling the trauma much more bettrer, entering lesser trauma whgen stalk slander hapepns and i started not caring any and dont let it impact my happiness. i today again read lots of documents about stalkers to understand my stalker from ferikoy. for to understand whether is a narcisstic or psychopath or sociopath type of stalkers from stalkers stereotypes. i dont any know. i dont any know the stalker's motive. 5 years stalk slander happens. but i recently started to learn not to any care. last year i been happening to learn to get out of trauma of being stalked/harrassed/slandered by psycho from ferikoy. i mean it takes some time to get out of trauma and its gradually happening. i mean some days i still feel ptsd. and i wont feel secure until i build my robots as mentioned that protects my land which would i buy. i mean as stalker dedicated to disturb my life, i attach to goals to make my life secure from stalker from ferikoy. i as told goal is recently, to create math products. which seems feasible since as it looks feasible. due to topics i mentionedf. like even borel cantelli lemma seems to me some topic to be hacked/breaked. and there is tons of lemmas there to change/create new thjings upon. so i really quite hopeful i could build my 20 million Euros from patent i would create among patents i would create. goal is to create 20 million Euros. to buy 25km2 land and then as told for protection, i would create a self maintaining security system of robots around a region a bracelet like region around my land. since kinematics and mechanical engineering seems not so hard to gasp topics with nice coursera system there. i guess building robots is not that much complexity due to current advanced tech/simulation systems/ai systems i guess. or advanced CAD tools etc. i had investigated even large scale 3d printers for my future self maintained robots security system project. i would have 2 type of robots. one is spidey type. other is would be Atlas like. they would never get out of that bracelet land in the area of land.
i need to get a dr appointment i guess for my sore throat some time. maybe saturday.
what i read in propaganda documents happent to me. like some wiki pages i read and those things happent. i mean psychological warfare stuff. for 5 years. so i truly dont know if stalker from ferikoy is just a psychopath or underneath topic is ideological. i mean just psycho stalkers also stalk/slander for long years. i mean in the end, it could be just a psycho type of stalker. but exactly what i read in wiki pages about propaganda (about character assasiantion sections) exactly things i read happent to me./happens to me.
in one of the stalk incidents last month, the slanderer said "slander_word! honey" i read in propaganda documetns the honey traps is a thing that belongs to propaganda acts or psychological warfare stuff. so it might as well be something ideological andpsychological warfare. i truly have none idea. it might as well be just a psycho type of stalker either. i dont know the motive of this psycho from Feriokoy (again and again neither my country nor my lovely Armenian neighbours are any related to my stalk. ) (when i say Ferikoy, i wish its understood Ferikoy has a very diverse people set and my stalk has none relatedness to lovely Armenian neighbours, not even any slightest degree, neither it any relates to my country any degree)
i dont want to state what kind of horrible thigns happent in stalk slander incidents happens. but exactly one topic i read in propaganda/character assasination topic like some people ideologically for ideologic purposes hiring some people to do slander, exactly happent to me. so i dont know if this organizer of this stalk is just a sociopath or is it something ideological and propaganda/smear camp./character asssntn being done on ideological purposes? i dont any know my stalker from Ferikoy's motive any little bit. it might as well be just a psychopath stalker stereotype. i dont any know. but i obsevred severe deception tactics that i read in propaganda documents of propaganda tactics in wiki pages. of discrediting a person with false rumors/slanders with some type of acts, i exactly observed those some type of acts i read in wiki happent to me/happens to me. though i dont any know the stalker's motive. whether some ideological people doing this? or is it just a stereotypical psycho type of stalker? i read both pages from propaganda and both pages from stalkers topics from internet to have any idea. but i dont any know. i have no idea of stalker from Ferikoy's motive. whether is it ideological or whether is a stereotypical psycho type of stalker. but just i saw quite coincidences about some pattern of things that i dont mention here (but share with my family and get their psychologicakl support when confronting such horrible deception tactics by the stalkers) those pattern of thigns i exactly read in propaganda pages or psychological warfare stuff related wiki pages. about propaganda. about targeted discrediting a person with spreading false rumors topic. in sections of some topics about this, i saw exact match of event sequences i confront i observe in stalk incidents, and saw its a tool applied for psychological warfare to discredit a person. i still again dont know if is some thing ideological or is just a stalker from Ferikoy. i dont any know. i have still none idea. on the motive of the stalker. its exactly i think 0.5 chances that its ideological and 0.5 chances its just a psycho type of stalker from Ferikoy. i truly have none type of idea on which one is happening. i mean i dont any know the motive of the stalker.
but as stalker from Ferikoy stalked/stalks, i attach to goals to make my life secure. recently i set up goal of buying 25km2 farmland. to do that i need to create 20 million Euros. and being an ADHD, i have problems with laziness so but i figured out an exact field i dont show that much ADHD symptoms nor laziness. i figured out i dont show laziness when i study maths. so i selected maths area to create proejcts products for. to create 20 million Euros to make my life secure from stalker from Ferikoy's stalk/slander torture. with buying a 25km2 land and putting a bracelet like region that robots that dont go out of that region ever and protect the land.
in every software project i tried i failed with not being able to continuye project finding poroject uninteresting at some point. but for maths it never happens. i think this is ADHD and but in maths I dont have ADHD. i dont have lazy behaviors that much in maths alike in software side. though still have actually thinking i dont solve still exercises on end of chapters. we are expected to solve to learn better but i have problems like ADHD so i dont solve since i lack patience to solve exercises. to me reading th efurther chaptersd seems more important than solving exercises. i mean i study like a fast covering approach of all topics in some topic first. but i could then restudy with getitng more details but i guess instead of exercises i would create self exercises. i have some issue with solving exercises i dont know why. it must be ADHD. i usually study with a big curiosity and fastly want to see all chapters in once. and go over one by one fastly with understanding every paragraph inside the chapter(sometimes it goes on slowly if i dont understand what texts inside chapter says). then i would create self exercises to me later in related to project goals i set. still instead of solvign chapter exercises i still would favor solving self devised problems. i think this because i feel the time is limited and there is not enough time to spare to solvigtn exercises maybe? since i want to fastly build the projects. i guess it might not be just fully ADHD but just related to the fact that i want to asap create projects. but when i hadnt had urgency i would still not solve exercises i never solved any chapter related exercises in my life either. i have problems with motivation of solving chapter exercises. do i have lacking discipline problems? i dont any know? or ADHD most possibly. anyway. maybe lack of discipline + ADHD at the same time.
yayy weekend is coming. i would try to figure out a way to break Borel Cantelli lemma someway from abstract algebra toolings. even it first looks impossible also to me. i do think those topics are still not objective and hold some subjectivity. nice that Resnick's text showed me that these topics are all subjective. would be always grateful to have bought that Resnick's texts for it shown me the fun of measure theory.
after establishing that initial goal(of breaking Borel Cantelli's lemma, breaking usual solution of Zeno's paradox i mean), would continue learning measure theory andf then move to some dif. geometry topics since topology areas shown me that i need to know also those before getting in to topology areas. i want to study all these areas asap. and create products asap so i could buy my 25km2 land asap.
yayyyy weeekend has come! mathathon time!
yayyy today morning i got lots of rain and all my pants get all wet. including my boots all got wet. i have snow pants and would buy some boots. but luckily i had extra shoes in workplace so i took on them cause my boots were all wet. its not leather but cotton like boots. then i in noon time went back to home to work in home after noon since i felt super cold due to shoes which arent for this season and having got wet. then yayyy now the weekend starts!
i dont feel ill today. i just felt sleepy. but sore throat thing is passed alike. i wouild take cvitamin again recently.
today stalk slander again happent. but i dont care anymroe.
i figured out i am type of people who has unfair disadvantages in life. either ideolkogically or just a psycho from ferikoy is stalking me slandering me for 5 years.
this unfairness of seeing my life being tortured with stalk/slander with very ugly form of torture of slander/smear campaign/stalk/identity theft applied to me with showing me people type i am not any/ think that this happens for 5 years. what kind of unfairness you would feel think that. i were sometimes depressed due to this unfair disadvantage of being targeted by a psycho sociopath from ferikoy. or its something ideolgical. i dont any know. the stalker's motive is yet to be unknown.
then i thought i dont need to be depressed if life has disadvatntages to me (whilst i did nothign for it) i also have advantages. like maybe i could create 20 million Euros from math patents. then make my life super secure against sociopath stalker. i could even create robots that would protect my land. than thinking these made me feel ok lets not depress that much to being targeted for stalk/slander by a psycho from feirkoy for 5 years. think that such torture happens 5 years neverendingly. this happens to me like this. nothiugn less nothing more. the stalker stalks/slanders/harrasese with impossible sentences/ does identity theft to me(depicts me as a person type i am definitely not) (i after 2 years of stalk confrontation uinderstood is creating names to me in that also:SS ). think that such torture happens for 5 years. but i got stronger against. i dont care most of the time stalk/slander incidents anymore. i bought ear plugs whenever i go outside there is earplugs in my ears. and also some additional music from headphone. also read that chewing gum relaxes. so i when i go outside and bike to home i chew gum. and i treally relaxes. today i got stalked from a bus stop with a slander double fold deception activity again from stalkers/helpers. these things i confronted exactly matches up to things i read in propaganda (bad propaganda) topcis in wiki i read about those topics(abouyt psychological warfare stuff, that character assasination topics, creating false rumors about people topics, slander type of warfare topic or identity theft (stalker creates identities to me that i am not any nor have any slioghtly relatedness :S ) (i understood this after 2 years of being stalked by the psycho from ferikoy:S) (before hadnt understood this creepy part of the stalk. i thought a serdar is stalking me or a y1 is :S or a sedat:S or a hande:S) (i later understood i dont have such stalkers but my psycho stalker from ferikoy is trying to do identity theft to me, that creates fabricated characters to me and stalks/harrasses me on those fabricated characters that which i am definitely not! :S think that this happens for 5 years:S it happens to me for 5 years:S the torture is like consisting of: being created characters and being harrassed/tortured with ugly requests that would be shouted to those type of characters. and being depicted as slander tyupe in street stalk incidents. happens indefinitely for 5 years but i hadnt understood even first 2 years:S i would think i have some psycho haters stalking me. turned out i either have a psycho sociopath stalker from ferikoy. or its something ideological. an ideology wants to harm my life so bad with such type of torture. anyway. i even scare to write i am out of trauma of it, cause i scare whomever these people doing this torture to me (of character assasination/smear campaign/stalk/harrasment) would do worse things upon seeing their torture does not work anymore to make me enter trauma/steal my life born being happy right with making me enter trauma. so i scare when i state i am now out of trauma. cause i scare it would call worse torture by my unknown tortureers. its eithe r a psycho type of stalker from ferkoy. or its articulated by some ideology that dislikes me. i dont know any. the motive or reason of this torture act of character assasination (of slander/smear campaign/identity theft/harrasment) to me. for 5 years.
) . i dont even know the motive of the stalker. cause also sociopath psychopaths could also stalk for 5 years with slander/stalk/harrasment/various forms of sociopathy. so i have none idea whether this horrible torture i confronted is just a psycho type of stalker from ferkoy or is it something ideological and some ideology tries to harm my life. i dont any know.
(i know its not any rooting from my country nor not any related to any Armenian neighbours)
(stalk happent in Ferikoy and continues for 5 years)
but what i know is i am handling the trauma of being stalked/slandered/harrassed/confronting identity theft situations (its super creepy) (psycho in street stalk depicst me as a person type i am not and does that with creating names to me. i understood this after 2 years of street stalk incidents. i think in overall 5 years. there has must been over 1000 street stalk/from home flats surrouidng, from workplace's surrounding stalk incidents )
but minute by minute i started to get over trauma and started to feel happiness in life again. i were 3 years in trauma due to this. last year i started to get out of trauma.
but i startyed to feel happiness in my life again:)
and i am quite hopeful for near time:)
cause, i would create my math products soon. i wish i could break Zeno's paradox's usual solution this weekend. then goal is to create products for math products i would build. and create in overall 20 millionEuro from one patent i intend to. hmm. so would going to create disruptive math products. goal is that. goal is landscape changing products it would be. or differnet views generating products it would be in over all. goals are like that. then i would have fun of building my own land protecting robots:P then in my home in my peaceful home i would build more science products in maths and other areas. i always wonder fighting possibilities against hurricanes in some way for instance this would be definitely investigated in that living in my home time:)
its bit by bit my life's happiness is coming back:) as i learn to uncare not care slandr/identity theft incidents when they happen.
i mean i feel like, my life's happiness is coming back this year. for instance even slander incident again happent, i am not any in trauma today. and this weekend would be an amazing mathathon weekiend:)
ok i am hungry, i would make myself some food. then would work on my mathathon product. this weekend's iteration is expected to figure out ways to break hack the default solution of Zeno's paradox, in other words breaking the Cantelli Lemma. it also seems infeasible to me initially now. but i think math topics are super subjective even they initially look as objective to many people. i mean i believe in my stoic instinct in that reality is not boring as Borel Cantelli's lemma. i dont want to believe in that unexciting inductive thinking methodolgoy. i feel as i need to change it. cause there is something very wrong with it. all from Resnick texts, this feeling of there is something very wrong with usual solution of Zeno's paradox feeling is felt in this guh's mind. i mean even if i cant break it, i would try. i wouldnt be able to do otherwise. i mean its super fun. to try. no relevant math p;roject is more eexciting than this current math project goal initially. but i guess as i learn i would try to change what i learnt in other areas of maths or other chapters or other lemmas i would read about either. i wish to change lots of things in these areas. and from one patent i wish to create 20 million Euros to build a dream farm home to me:) and build self maintaining robots system in the bracelet region of the farm land i would buy.
now making food time. i know its 8pm and i am late for cookign and eating in general its a late time to consume dinner. but anyway. yayyy weekend fun starts!
soon mathathon would start:)
i had headache (i guess due to sinusitis) so i rested instead. i would take ache pill. in morning i had little bit headache still. but getting lesser. i am super happy sore throat feeling passed. itrs super weird. maybe its just when mucus of nose flows inner wise it makes ill makes sore throat. and upon nasal spray + 1 antibiotic pill + c vitamin it passed. i cant believe pharangitis like thing passed fastly. so i figure out maybe i deprived my self from cvitamin maybe it were reason. i dont know its just i think i would start taking c vitamins in times i dontg like eating kiwi oranges alot. 2 days ago my throat were hurting very bad and a scar had formed. then i feel no pharangitis now. so either mucus flow constantly makes a scar with constantly infecting. or that i deprived myself of c vitamin so that i became ill. i dont know any but glad that pharangitis like thing healed.
last night i felt lack of energy in degree i couldnt wash the dishes even i wanted (due to headache of sinusitis). today feeling better.
yayy an exciting weekend starts! as told, i have the goal of hacking Cantelli lemma. i dont like how it is. its just so unplayful non exciting. this inductive methodologies there. i search for to decompose to restructure infinity differently with homomorphisms that are quite different in handling how we discompose/structure infinity. . and i find it super uninteresting how we perceive measures. its just so dependent on our perceptions(the additivities, the default form of additivity) which we as stoics dont know if its correct.
so goal is to revise abstract algebra knowledge to break that inductive definition i saw in Cantelli's lemma.
like thinking to infinity infimum of a set is if elemtns that dont exist only finitely amount. it depends on the fact that - > infinitity minus infinity must be finite. and i said at that point why? like this i object to this definition of infinity. and everyone would object there but this is stated as one of the main definitions in set theoretic constructs of measure theory. of giving this set theory such bases. and this shows these topics are all subjective. even i myself find it initially looks impossible to hack cantelli lemma. but this err i saw in set theoretic approach make me rethink that i might be erroring in thinking hacking cantelli lemma is impossible., it might be posisble but i might be thinking in a single approach which might not be the correct one. this shown me maths area is yet to be underinvested and its being core of quantitative sciences makes it very important to solve these topics, to make it not be bound to single interpretations or suibjective interpretations. we needto devise not that concept of set theory's such interpretation in tackling infinity topic but also should employ our analysis of numbers in abstract algebra side. or analysis of groups/algebras/classes. i think we could tackle recode infinity side in different ways and create differnt versions of current virtual construct of infinity definition. our construct is definitely a virtual one(we dont know if it correspond to real reality, it is just based on our perceptions, i mean i point to whether is it aristolean concept that is decoded wrongly or if is not aristolean but nominalist but still we over simplify and decode incorrectly or unnecessarily in a such only that way), why not create other virtual ones instead of making entire quantitative sciences depend on this version of measure understandings.
yuppp had created that sandwich food for noons (kavurma named meal) so that i dont spend too much time in noons. had cleansed home since it should be done. now would wash my hair which should be done also. then mathathon time!
yayyy i am very cheerful that my happiness is back and i am out of trauma most of the times :))))this ugly weirdo's mathathon starts now! (washed my hair)
even if i want to also do sculpting right now. (10th tutorial) i postponed to period after i build my math products.
but my mom said the one i shown, said, wov your sculpting getting better she said. so i became very happy :) sculpture i did (last one i shared) is sitting beside my main chalk board thats devised for maths projects. i really want to create busts and do sculptures but postponing that fun to later. now breaking cantelli lemma tries fun!
its super fun to try to break how we structured infinity topic!
i mean i think i find it fun because it would enable using the tools i learnt/i got introduced in abstract algebra side.
i am revising topics i studied then gave some break and would continue now. yayyy today and tomorrow all abstract algebra totry to restructure infinity topic.
when measure theory chapter again started with a statement i am very against about infinity, i wanted to investigate this more and more. i thought its error of Resnick turned out its commonly accepted in measury theory area. that i am against part of definition/structuring in some part i mentioned in above paragraphs.
today i had cleaned both clothes both fridge (fridge also gets unclean after sometime) and floors and finally my hair then mathathon started. then whilst reviewing my tools (abstract algebra chapters) (for my goal of breaking the usual solution of Zeno's paradox) i gave some break then would continue now.
weekend feels nicee. some popsickle time and continueing on study. took some coffee.
i am just super excited for this study for this weekend.
hmm.
this popsickle is tasty. its lemon tasted.
yayyy puzzles time. restructering infinity tries time!
ok whilst revising tools in abstract algebra, i got focused on solving proving Goldbach's conjecture, i think i might prove it. if i am not wrong thinking. i might be wrong. not that hard to prove proof it is:P i mean not np hard problems alike. but since porime numbers are a lot used tool in abstract algebra, i investigate their properties. for since i want to utilize abstract algebra to restructure infinity understanding if possible. or to restructure set theory tools.
my proof must be wrong or idea i hadnt materialized it yet. for since it were this much easy, people would figuyred it out long before, so must my goldbach conjecture's proof be wrong. but lets analyze in case it were missed by chance.
the structure of groups analysis basing prime numbers. their behaviors, i guess people did it long before than me:) but i juyst want to redo since i want to restructure infintiy and abstract algebra analysis might give clues on me on how to.
no no no no i hadnt any proven Goldbach \conjecture yet., i remembered the conjecture wrongly i guess. ok. \continueing investigating behaviors of prime unmbers cause they seem to be one basic tool in number theory/abstract algebra. to investigate on how to restructure infinity and find different homomorphisms that are nicer than that inductive approach which is not correctly defined even in one part i saw as that i stated. i mean even definition is not quite formalized in a nice way in that part i think as incorrect.
just a minute, i think i really solved Goldbach conjecture. why its unproven yet? its proof is not that hard? :SSS? ?????
what the heck? either this historical notes part of the chapoter is kidding us that this conjecture is yet to be p[roven and not known. are you sure? i think they are kidding with us. for sayinjg this easy type of proof is unproven yet. i saw hard proofs that i had problems even reading of. i mean its impossible that this is yet not proven. there m,ust be an error in this.
i think this textbook is kidding with its readers with making humor that Goldbach conjecture is not yet solved yet. this is really so easy type of proof:S made me think this is a simulation and this is a glitch. that people say this topic is unproven when the proof is the possible easiest maths proof there. this is so unreal. to see this is not proven. only in a simulation such an easy proof would have not been proved yet:S ok it might not be simulation or simulation. but this is super unbelievable if people dont see this proof :SSSS i mean for instance proofs i saw i lacked maths to understand yet by then(and i think i still lack most possibly), i saw such proofs that is expected to be proved lately, but this one, it feels so unbelievable that its yet not proven:S this made me again query the subjectivity in this domain. very hard proofs are proven but the easiest ones are missed. ok this must be a kidding of this text book. this textbook kids with its readers like this,. with saying easy proofs as showeing it as unproven yet. they must be kidding we readers. i think definitely this textbook's writer is like thjose mathematicians whom hide their theories or state it in a playful way or make it hidden with some layer? i mean mathematicians whom hide their crafts. its just so unreal feels so unreal to see what this textbook teaches (the nway to prove the Goldbach conjecture) and then it says as if as kidding us, says Goldbach conjecture is just proven up to some numbers. i want to say to the textbooks writer, are you kidding with we readers?
yayyy i have two chalkboards (one erronously ordered:DDD)
its nice i study on coach with putting chalkboard beside so i use it as my paper and its so nice. cause i dont want to study with standing up and writing on the second one. this chaljboard second one is non attached and i had put to wall beside coach so i could both sit and use my chalkboard.,
a theorem i create: :P
lets say we look to mod N
for any number smaller than N,
i analyzed some ideas on this.
and the symmetry based on prime numbers to N is a place that i would investigate possible homomorphisms to. from possible infintiy definitions. firstly this abstract algebra texts tools would be revised. then the possible definitions of infinity and their models would be investigated.
how we stop the infinte inductivcity there would be investigated so that zeno's paradox is solved wioth another way other than cantelli lemma.
the symmetry feature of this domain is amazing. but these just are brainstorming things. might not be relevant to final solution design. just revsng abstract algebra and brainstorming on the problem current sttm is like that. even this symmetric domain's existence is a proof that the additivity is/might be an illusion. that when we add a volume of matter to another and think it added up? became something larger? what if large has no meaning in reality and reality is symmetric? what if parsecs of distance and nanometers are no different? what if large notion large knowledge is just an illusion of our perceptions? i mean the usual additivity concept we know/ though i read physical frameworks behave different in macro and micro scale. what if its because we depend on such frameworks depending on usual definition of additivity? all to be investigated. as i revise what i learnt in abstract algebra & continue brainstorming to devise different measure theories then investigate physical frameworks based on differnet form of measure theories. first and first Zeno's paradox's uisual solution is to be changed/investigated to be changed/tried to be changed.
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hey something so happy happent if happens:) i mean i dont know if i would win the chance. but an email in today's evening came (i newly saw) and its very amazing! if i win the chance this is so amazing! wov! wooov! :) so exciting and so amazing! WOV! :))))))))))))))) so exciting!woooov (its about being cofounder chances :) ) (wov:)) hey CEO should be the other cofounder surely cause i am not talented alot in being a CEO, i guess my cofounder would be better in being the CEO) but wov! being a cofounder chance! wooooooooooooooooooov! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))) if happens, this is a very happy topic:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOV
so chance to build products with being a cofounder:) wov:) its just so exciting:)
ok products in my mind to build in a practical time limit: some ai that we could teach how to understand topics that would have been able to code a game engine
other than that; i liked robotics area. product might be on that area either. merging mechanical engineering and ai topics etc. kinematics etc.
ok i have 2 product ideas in my mind roughly now. but maybe it would be cofounder's ideas. i am ok to that also. wov!
for maths products. surely i would also propose that if also gets ready by then, if products for entreprenurship gets created on that also. but wov. wov. wov. wov. this is so happy news:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
yayyy lets build maths products ASAP before this exciting journey starts in November if i get elected to being a cofounder:) yayyy its super exciting!:)
guh becomes a cofounder maybe in November :) (if i get accepted to the program:)) (Its super exciting!:))
i said my life's happiness is coming back bit by bit but this is alot happiness that i hadnt dreamt even recently :) (meaning being a cofounder and building products with the cofounder/cofounders. )
yayyy the program starts on November 2 :) if i get accepted i would work wiht a cofounder to build a startup:) this is super exciting! :))))))))))))))))))))))
So it means, as i like robotics, i could be able tocreate a company in near further time that i study kinematics/robotics/mechanical engineering to build robotics products to help people's lives(due to my recnt interest to this area and the courseware seemed super interesting). or any product i dreamt of. i dont know what our first product would be the product that we would company upon. maybe causalera like topics? or any topic cofounder puts the table is also ok upon discussion of our company's future/initial product. its so exciting! i wish i get selected to this program so much!:) itsa very exciting and very happy journey! :)
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today's agenda is :
ok sometime cheering to this happy chance to become a cofounder, i know i would cheer alot time surely:) (cause its very exciting and very happy! :) )
and followingly, i continue to try to hack Cantelli's lemma with going over abstract algebra topics and investigating their features and going over possible alternate ways to break the usual solution of Zeno's paradox.
then in some near further time i would recode all physical frameworks with these new measures i would intend to create:)
being a solipsist for measures right now:) that large and small actually is an illusion of our perceptions(our perceptions has a bias to think that addivity would always hold on. i suggest to change that. that additivity is just a regional behavior but in universal scope there is no such constraint and is symmetric. or different. but we dont need to create it as a universal rule, the additivity rule i read in Cantelli's lemma needs alternative definitions other than that i think. cause what we observe might be just regional behavior in space time. we dont know surely if additivity rules are nonsubjective nonbiased and objective. we dont know any. ) with trying to create new measures that would define how this is possible :) firsty one goes along with my symmetry investigations in some point regarding to prime to N numbers. but this might be underworked area for me now, i need to work alot to be knowledgeable on this, though have no issues on working for. cause i dont like that we defined all maths's usual toolings based on our default perceptions. lets change this!. (first with trying to break usual solutions of Zeno's paradox surely)
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for startup building chance if i get elected on November for;
as told product would be decided by me and cofounders. meanwhile i would try to make my math products ready so that could be also an alternative product to cofounders on product ideas we would discuss and decide on :) if they dont want my math product, ok :) we could chose another product. e.g. i tried to build a causalera named startup. i could also suggest that. or suggest creating a reading learning expert system that could learn instead of people when needed(e.g. i would loved to have a product that learnt opengl's new standards intricate details instead of me). or robotics projects to help lives. these are my initial set of ideas i would propose to my cofounder/cofounders :) of course all of their ideas aree also welcome:) i would be happy to work to build their suggestions instead of my suggestions:)
aha! also fighting against hurricanes could be yet another product idea:) yayy!:)
or might be a product of our possible company with cofounder or cofounders. if they ever get interested to also build such product:) (if i be lucky to start this program on November and find my cofounder or cofounders :) ) yayyy! its super exciting this just building a startup journey with cofounders looks as a super exciting journey! :)
yayyy all sci fi projects i dreamt of to test/build might happen :) yayyy!:) its so exciting:)
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yayyy continueing abstract algebra study :)
i want to change how every person looks to additivity topic:)
i want to reconstruct new versions of that :) and new forms of algebras that has differnt forms of additivity and integral would be no longer like that:)
lets break this universal rule. cause this rule is so biased based on our perceptions. how are we sure additivity holds in entire and we are just not a region of universe that additivity works like this?
i want to change all tools of calculus for different measure versions:)
if possible. dont know if possible. but to me it looks our current constructs are very subjective and very biased on our perception skills in our region of space time. i mean this additivity might be also changing like models of space time. lets have investigate whether such change of behavior happens already in algebra level :) lets get on to the first fact that, if we are inside an illusion we wont know it. cause reality is isoltd. for our knowledge/perception would also build on that regional rules/systems/frameworks working rules. i mean i think whatever we build on just our perceptions have the risk of being incomplete. cause we dont know whether this physical reality version is attaining extndng to entire space time or whether is regional. so would investigate altering what we say think as true with constructs we built upon our perceptions. i mean those constructs, would try to recreate that disentangles with our perceptions. like set theoretic constrtucts i saw. i already saw a commonly accepted but toi me its not any certain, not knowing whether is true or not knowledge that i mentioned. it shown me all our consturcts are very subjective and hold no guarantee of being objective constructs. so why not build more of them to look differently at least. is the goal of this project.
i wish i make my product ready before November 2. (before the program starts) so i could propose different products based on this new versions of frameworks in maths to cofounders. but its ok if they dont like that and want to pursue another proiject. whomever's project idea gets accepted its ok:) i welcome cofounder's project ideas entirely. i would be happy to work on their project ideas instead of mine :) collobration and building things matters most :)
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yayyy generative manufacturing with generative design explorations for aerodynamics projects. and making them secure with different form of motors around those devices. one another area we could tackle might be aerodynamics which would also be super fun! would learn SOFA toolkit and would make it turn to big data supported to investigate design options.
but first this abstract algebra and math products should be investigated and i should become expert in graduate maths before i go to that program on November 2 so i give lots of product ideas utilizing that knowledge. maybe my product would be already ready by then if really find out ways to break Zeno's paradox's usual solutions :) yayyyyyy this is so enthusiastic this November 2 program gave me super levels of energy:) cause i am noit a person who could create a company myself. i dont have talents to be a CEO. i but have lots of project ideas that i want to execute/implement as cofounder:)
robotics also seems as a super interesting area:) actuyally i mean mechanical engineering seemedd also super fun! and kinematics sides.
but first first. lets become expert in graduate level maths before the program starts on November. it would be better if my maths products are ready by then :)
(life becoming more fun and more and more fun :) ) (as i see i might find chances to buidl sci fi tech in furhter years)
ok maybe i wont be able to leanr grad maths topics before. but goal is to try :) (i mean finishing grad level maths study context before november) why do i said 2 months its not end of November:S i only have 1 month to become ready to programe!!!! ok i cant handle entire grad maths i think. in 1 month. but i need to again then, learn just: create products i mentioned, then also get expert in abstract algebra, measure theory sides and topology's some parts and differential geometry parts if ever possible.
ok this weekend's goal is either creating the solution or coming more near to the solution of breaking how we solve the Zeno's paradox usually.
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(i this morning 2 hours ago checked twitter. ok were it a coincidence i saw History word also in NASA's posts? as told many times before wecoders<3NASAalot:) ) (i think it were just coincidnece, but if is not or is, i wanted to restate my intense/great admiration/adoration to NASA:))
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yayyy i liked Berlin alot:) and next home might be Amsterdam:) if to this programme i get selected.
Berlin is also very beautiful city. and Amsterdam also looks very exciting/amazing. specifically that building i saw while touring looks amazing (some different arhitecture type, that research building). and also those colored buildings:) looks so lovely:)
i liked Berlin also alot:)(Berlin is also very beautiful) and also current company i work for is amazing.
but having get a chance to be a cofounder seems super exciting since i once invested even my car to a startup try :) i spent 1 year to mystartup try last time:)
this would be second try. but this time i wont be alone and i would have support of cofounders and an investor firm. that last time i were all alone. and i were also unexperienced in startup topics. now grown much more and became much more stronger in dealing wiuth hard life/stress etc. its just super exciting:) there would be totally 40 or 50 people like me and we would be assigned cofounders:) so no more feeling so lone since always working alone. (that i felt in my last startup try ). now i would have support. wont be alone in path of building a startup topic. and it feels super amazing to have a set of founders to build a company :) working alone to build company alonme is not any easy. and this time we would have investment support, last time i also had lacked that:P last time when investors get interested, i had already got stopped building the startup. i mean i were burnt out already. but this time investor support would be in the beginning. and we would have cofounders:) which looks awesome! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
this is just super exciting!:)
a very exciting journey of building a startup:)
but before that i need to finish all my study topics i should learn all topics i wonder about graduate maths before that,this month is very important, need to study all topics i wonder in grad maths before. cause we might instead build aerodynamics related products who knows. or creating big data products with merging with SOFA for generative design tgopics in various areas. i think this might as well be a nice product idea for our startup. though as told, i wellcome whatever other type of idea my cofounder or cofounders woudl state. i would happily work on theirs idea instead of mine:)
i think before and before i need to asap finish my math products and learn all topics i feel i need to learn in grad maths before this programme starts. so we co-founders for our startup could utilize my knowledge ion those in tandem:)
i do think i might even create possible product area in maths awhile for our startup:) i wish so:)
this would be like a dream:) me building a startup again but this time collobrated with cofounders and an investor firm:) this is a dream :) if happens i would be super happy :)(so we could together even in future build hurricane fighting like sci fi products which would be super super levels of fun! :))))))))))))))))))))))) our sci fi company :) with cofounders :) ) (super exciting! :)) and generative design and aerodynamics projects and various sci fi topics that comes to mind, would might be created/crafted :) wov!! this is super exciting:) or could be in totally other domains either:) i dont know what startup area would be decided by me and the cofounders:) i would be happy to work on theirs project suggestions also surely instead of my suggestions :)
if happens, this would be, a dream came to life like topic:) super exciting! a very exciting journey of building a startup and products :)
i have a desktop pc but i would buy a laptop since i would might build a startup and need to be mobile with making presentations demos of product and would need laptop. i also have a laptop but its not in good shape:D anyway i think i would try i7. and 16gb and some nvidia chipset. thyis monhth i said hey i could spare extra money. then this happens but it is nice. because i think laptop would be better than desktop. i think i would sell my desktop for cheap. and if i move i need to sell my bicycles also for cheap. cause i dont think i would be able to carry my bicycle to Amsterdam. if i had driving license, i would rent a car and fill all my belongings and so bicycle could also come but since i would not be able to do that (i hadnt got my driving license yet or converted i mean i hadnt done that yet) i would sell my bikes. i dont know if i am accepted or not yet:) the email felt as if i am already accepted:) its just super exciting:) i dont know if i understood the email correctly but it really might mean i am already accepted:) i dont know for sure. i would learn tomorrow:) i would learn and tell from here :) whether this guh becomes a cofounder :) this is super exciting:) startup building journey might start soon :)
i really liked Berlin city. its a very lovely city. then Amsterdam journey might start in November. if you ask which district i liked the mos tin Berlin, i liked every district of:) but the most Kurfurstendamm :) Berlin is a very beautiful city.
Now Amsterdam journey might start and Amsterdam is also very beautiful city. i liked that research building alot and i liked those colored buildings alot, the lovely architectural style. this year i had a chance to visit and i spent awesome time of traveling around the main train station and also an awesome boat tour. Its where i saw that nice architecture of building that looks very intriguing to travel. I really said wov i liked my travel alot. a harbor city :) i grew up in a harbor city i like harbor cities alot:) and a very beautiful harbor city it is as had a chance to revisit this year.
lets search for flats in Amsterdam:) if i am really selected and i hadnt misunderstood the email:) tomorrow it would resolve :) its super excviting:)
life in Amsterdam going to start maybe (if i hadnt misunderstood and i am really selected for the programme. its so good/dream like(of having chance to attend such programme) that i couldnt believe i am really select4ed so i would double check tomorrow. i mean i might had misunderstood the email. but it looks like i am selected to apply to. and its super exci\ting:) cause i think its one dream of my life it were, but i got burnt out in my first try (startup building) and seeing now i have application chance, it just so happy if i am really selected and i hadnt misunderstood the email ) (its just too happy if its real(that i hadnt misunderstood and i am really sdelected to that programme) ) (i want to dance with hgappeinsss in my room right now. its just too hyappy. its a dream becoming real:) having chance to build products with a cofounder team:) wov:) its super happy:))
as i read we are 40 or 50 team cohort of possible entrepreneurs. we would find or be selected cofounders and build our startups.
its super happy:))))))))))))))))))))))))))) this is the most exciting most happy news most happy email i ever read in my life:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Yayyy Amsterdam journey starts!:)
(if i hadnt misunderstood the email :) and i am really selected and i hadnt misunderstood the email).
its one of the most exciting news of my life. maybe one most exciting/most important. :) so i would have chance to build products? with being invested? wov! this is super levels of happy :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i would have to take not all my belongings since it would spare alot of place and i cant carry that much luggage. so i would take the most important clothes. as they could be also bought there also :)
yeyyy checked rental flats in Amsterdam:) very exciting:)
i just cant believe this is happening. i meaqn starting an entrepreneurship programme with being attendee entrepreneurs to build a startup. its just a dream come true type of topic to me:)
(i would call tomorrow to understand if i hadnt misunderstood and is really happening:) if happening, then a dream is coming true :) ) (its so happy :) )
someone should say its not a dream and this is really happening. so good to be true:) cause i werent expecting such great chance of being an entrepreneur in my life at this moment:) i wish its true :) (that i wish i hadnt misunderstood the email :) and i would really start the programme withthe cohort on Nov :) )
yayyy then guh if she hasnt misunderstood the email, starts an entreprenurship programme on November 2 :))))))))))))))))))))))
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yayyy Amsterdam journey starts! :))))))))))))))))
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ok would prepare in home time the topics i need to learn e.g. the math topics and wishfully i would have maths products by then even before programme starts. so that i could put lots of ideas to the table as suggested projects to my team :)
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i also liked the generative design ideas. integrating SOFA and big data toolings to do design epochs of structures or design choices for any topci to simulate the design with an auto generated alternative. this might be also possible.
other idea would be modelling climate change with very concrete very detailed model to predict air conditions and to try to setup a model to understand.in this one i would have to check mie scattering and also world's orbit fluctuations even and that 3 body problem like topics to model it very high detail way. to investigate climate change models and explore ideas how to stop it. like modifying the stratosphere content with someway or reflectors in mesosphere. or some other way. to cool down earth little bit tiny bit. or that radiance related equation of reflection/refraction/energy transfer to electrons of air be iterating little bit different with maybe reflectors in mesosphere? or ground level reflectors where most heating happens. and also impacts of current change woul;d be modelled on earth's sub systems related to radiance/heat transfer. ok this might be very hard project type. but again doable. with nice compuyter systems out there. but it might be already done i guess its done, and our study might become redundant, need to check this redundancy factor in this, whether its moidelled in high accuracy level in simulating sun's radiance with simulations of atmosphere levels like ways. i guess it must be modelled like that. but would check if such need exists for climate change topic. whether high accuracy simulations already exist or not. i already simulated radiance in months of year but very crudely not in any high fidelity. but i would be happy to create a high level simulation if it would help fight against climate change. but i feel like it might be alr4eady existing and my simulation would be a redundant work. as told could be learnt with investigating.
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another idea would be creating aerodynamics based projects like air crafts/copters designs with generative approach. hmm but seems alot challenging area. i might favor other project type to build for startup ideas since this one is challenging alot in implmentation period time. not easy to build products. i liked robotics projects more interesting.
for instance investigating robotics products common parts and providing optimizatrion solutions to them based on generative design approaches. or consultation of optimization of machines parts. with some big data toolings tied SOFA simulations tied tries to optimize the machines' design. type of startup idea. but i didnt quite liked this ideas. i would instead create robotics products that helps people's lives i guess that seems more fun than this project of optimizing machine parts designs consultation service.anyway i think i am more ionto math products or software based prodcts or hurricane fighter products or figthing climate change with high fidelity simulations like ideas in this startup building try. but would be happy to do implement the idea suggested by cofounder also instead of my idea:) ok would create a set of ideas to propose to cofounder or cofounders:) we would collobratively decide what to build together. aha forgot to add the game engine builder ai idea to the idea stack i would state to my cofounders. but i think i liked the most math product ideas/hurricane fighting ideas(i mean fighting against hurrcnes, fndng sltns to try to stop them)/ high fidelity simulations (e.g. climate change) most interesting from ideas i would propose. but i would propose all of my ideas that i think. and its also very ok/i would be also very happy if we build cofounders ideas instead of my ideas:).
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another idea is trying to rewrite physical frameworks with new math models. tghis is what i currently work on in my free times but currently working on maths part. so we model the gravity/space/time differently than against current models. i wish my math models are ready by november so that i could also propose this idea to the team. for creating products based on those type of knowledge set.
( and utilizing new forms of optimization based on math products to be built. and investigate unknown with those type of goals also this project has. )
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ok i would try to create ideas for our startup to my team there. i would be very happy to implement their ideas instead of my ideas either. but by then, i would collect a set of ideas that i investigate, and also wishfully be expert in math areas i wonder (abstract algebra, some areas of topology, dif. geometry, measure theory sides)and wishfully already create my measure theory based products.
:)
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