i started liking reading international topics from academia. international relations even if i am super ignorant of, is interesting to read/learn about.
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yuppp i woke up 11am today with headache of sinusitis. only headache no runny nose no illness symptoms. its because i did repeated that unnice eating nose's mucus behavior last day and i think it hap[pent due to that. that my cavity of sinusitis got infected maybe and hurted. and i hate this behavior of mine. i think i am slightly depressed type of person. and i try to break fix that. sometimes it feels just so overwhelming. i mean last 5 years i think load of heavy 5 years when a psycho stalks me (a psycho from sisli) and constantgly does stalk/slander/smear campaign and constant following even with renting flat in where i live type of acts to do stalk from next flat, or constant stalk/smear campaign even if i am out of trauma of it, its burden on myself resulted in various ways. like i find myself eating my nose's mucus behavior from the time my life got stressed such bheavior happent alot. i am even over the trauma of being smear campaigned/stalked and confronted confronting character assasination of the stalker and a constant stalk/following, i am these months much more over the trauma of it. but sometimes i observe its impacts like that nose' mucus eating behavior and i think it creates headache the other day or maybe because i got rain last day awhile. i dont know. i dont know why sinusitis happoent but i would take another headache pill. the stalker does various forms of character assasination and tries to disturb my life with trying to depict me the role he thinks is appropriate for me in stalk/smear campaign incidents. i confronted/confront a severe smear campaign in which i am depicted as very ugly roles. (in street stalk incidents). none of them is any true. this happens for 5 years. so this is a psycho type of situation i believe. i mean i think a psycho is doing this. i mean cause does this with not reaching any goal for 5 years constantly like this. i guess only psychos does such things. I think a moriarty is stalking slandeering smear campaigning me for 5 years. no less different than moriarty. a psycho from sisli. sisli people are usually very kind/nice. not related to sisliu. but i guess moriarty like situations migh happen in every city. i have a moriarty from istanbul stalking smear campaigning me for 5 years. i am now mostly out of trauma of it. it feels like a zombie movie in the sense. the zombie tries to make me a zombie like bitting me. bitting me acts are: creating smear campaign about me showing me like a zombie like the stalker. its no less scary then this. the stalk/smear campaign i confronted if i could summarize in 2 sentences i would summarize like this. it felt like a zombie movie. in first year i would shout back psycho stop stalking me. in every cafe i got stalked but i those times i were even unaware of the smear campaign being done. i just ddnt cared the stalk/smear campaign by then.
it started in where i lived. i were living in zeroth floor in some building long before. maybe 6 or 5 years ago. some Orhan namerd guy startted to pass throguh beside my home disturbing. i would shout back stop stalking me. then i moved to 5th or 4th floor home in same street. then orhan name based stalk messing continued. i would react with psycho stop stalking me. bty those times. i would react to the stalk. then i started to not care the stalk. then a in times i were working in a software company, a label started to stalk me. i remember smoking winston cigar in outside in company i worked, some 2 people stalking with some label from street. then the stalk started to amplify. i were stalked everywhere efvery cafe i go. i wouldnt care. i would think a label is stalking me. but i dont care i would say. then i resigned to create a startup. but since i am stalked i went to iskenderun home. since those times the stalker started to harrass me with depicting my looks very ugly words. and would harrass me in stgreet shouting a sexist curse (would shout vagina to me) or a word which means i am very ugly. i said i have a stalker problem, then i said lets go to iskenderun home. and stayed happily there for more than a month. but mom come and took me back to istanbul. they thought my stalk issue is unimportant and said living in big iskenderun home alone would be not nice in winter. and then that year stalk incidents amplified alot whilst i were staying there. mom and dad thought my stalk proiblem is unimportant. it were like: like you know in stasi topics (even if i hadnt been stalked by stasi any and it were just a psycho) you know people ddnt believed people whom told they are stalked. same happent to me. no one cared from my family the severity of the stalk incident since it felt unbelivable to them. i mean when you depict stalk incidents of you are cursed stalked and disturbed and but peoplke thinks those type of stuff dont happen and dont believe you at first. like stasi. people whom were messed in stasi wernt believed when they told. my family those times dditn believed i am stalked that much severeily. and would expect me to not care the stalk incidents. so i behaved like that i tried to not care. i think family thought when you tell you are stalked from next building, family didnt believed me and instead thought i am ptsd. i mean they thought no one is stalking me in the time but i cant get trauma of a stalk incident that i still think i am stalked they thought. but meanwhile the stalker stalked harrassed disturbed my life continously. and i couldnt get any help cause even family labelled me as ptsd by those times and they ddnt wanted me to care the stalk incidents. so i tried to normalize a life version where i am constantly cursed stalked but i am expected to not care the harrasment/stalk because people think stalk doesnt happen but i am instead ptsd. so i also got suspevcted by those times if i tell ask for help from people to stop the stalk, people would say me crazy/ptsd. so i tried my best trying to live a life like that by then but that time the stalk with serdar/Y1 name from other building started that year i started startup. again tears fall now writing these since i undergone such heavy hard life last 5 years of stalk and something not stasi acts even if stasi didnt did but just a psycho. but the life i confronted were no less easier than stasi. whilst rewriting about this again tears fall. its really unnice when your life tries to be disturbed very badly but your family thought i were ptsd i wernt stalked by psychos but that i cant get out of trauma of a stalk they thought. that year Y1/Y2/serdar/ege/sedat/oguz stalk incidents started alot and also some woman names like hande. i thought i were stalked by those names. it were like, from other building someone would shout some sentence using Y1 name. i would think a Y1 lives there. then would also someone with serdar named started stalkign me in cafes then also from next building also. then i would shout that year psycho stop stalking me endlessly when stalk incidents happent. i remember thne stalker also stalked me using guys i dated names. i would think my ex is stalking me. turned out my stalker creates names to me. i understood that part after 2 years being stalked. i understood in 2 years later stalk incidents that there is no hande nor serdar, stalker psycho creates names to me.
the stalker stalked me with gps accuracy every cafe i went. and tried to kill my life with stalk/smear campaign. depicting me as a bitch in all every time i went to a cafe, the stalker shouted very ugly requests that bitches would do and stalked me with bitch narratives. in start of that 5 years ago, i wouldnt understand this even. cause would stalk me like this: serdar! sleep!. i would think a psycho with serdar name is stalking me. or from next building "Y2! some_curse!" i would think a Y2 is stalking me. reason i wondered whether this is ideological is Y1/Y2 names were a guy whom offered me security job that didnt happent long years ago(so for a while i thought Y1 guy's country's enemies are doing this to me. since the stalkers depiucted me as a bitch with Y1/Y2 names as i understood 2 years later then the start of Y1 incidents. now i think its not like that but its merely a psycho stalker situation.). the stalker stalked me depicting me as a bitch with Y1/Y2 names alot in those years but i couldnbt even understand this either. it took 2 or 1.5 years to get me understand whats happening, that i am not stalked by Y1/Serdar but a psycho is stalking me and shouting me sleep also. the moriarty stalked stalked everywhere i went. like for instance i would sit in a cafe 3 years ago, studying hbase db system. then a guy with blunt hair would sit beside next desk and i observe he saying curses to a woman name i heard alot in stalk incidents. he would constantly in phone say curses. those times i were unaware of the naming scheme. i were sitting wiht headphones studying hbase. as i dropped my headphones 3 years agoin that incident, i saw that incident the guy endleslly sayiong curses in phone to a woman name (that i thought that woman is also stalking me). than that year in a cafe and park i understood that the stalkers naming scheme. that the stalker creates names to me (mostly man names and also woman names) and shouts me sleep in stalk incidents and depicts me as a bitch. it were like stalkers stalked me everywhere i went. like 4 years ago whilst i were trying to build the startup (a 3d interface holding recommendation services management ui like thing), i once said lets rest and went to some pool in kilyos. then there i remember ege is stalking me. turned out ege is also another name stalker stalks with. my moriarty like stalker likes to create names to me. and depict me as a bitch in stalk incidents. but i am over trauma of it. but even i still feel impacts of this traumatic years that like i repeat that nose mucus eating behavior for hours with just sitting thinking life years. and i wish to fix that. i wish to stop that behavior of nose mucus playing.
even if the zombie (i resemlbe my stalker to zombies movies) tried to make me a zombie with bitting me, couldnt. but constantly stalked/slandered as bitch/smear campaigned in ugliest ways.
so this guh had a zombie movie like life where a moriartry stalked her last 5 years. i wish noone ever confronts such situation in their lives. it were super hard. i am a moriarty type of psycho's stalk survivor. i am not also out of trauma either.
reason i lost faith in humanity is this i think mainly. people trying to destroy other people's lives like this.
my stalker were like: in ankara, in flat i lived with my cousin, in below floor the stalker i think rented a flat there cause stalked me with saying "y1! some stalk sentences". reason i thought the stalk/smear campaign i confronted is ideological is this y1 name usage and this capoability set of these people ofg GPS like stalk in every cafe i went and in street outside and in also in places i lived. i whenever couild collect money from my salary i instantly changed the flat i lived by then. in that year stalker also stalked harrassed me from my workplace's street. i remember "Y1! some_slander word!". then in cafe, some people sitting and trying to do smear campaign me, then i go ot outside of cafe, they sitting and laughing out hard with slander word (same slander word used in Y1 sentence).
the stalker even if couldnt bit me then started this smear campaign thing in tandem to stalk. a definite maniac pyshcoi i think. the currenlty gps like stalk still happens. i would change my phone maybe this mointh. to see if my phone is hacked. it is like here also the stalker stalked me in cafes as if knowing my gps location accurately. so i suspected whether my phone is hacked. so i live my life mostly in my home now. before i loved to go outside. but my stalker could stalk me as if has gps location. so i dont go outside ujnless mandatory.
the stalker stalked smear campaigned me for 5 years . but i am now over trauma of it.
my family also now doesnt think i am ptsd but understood i am really stalked. so they try to help me with talks from phone when i feel down. but i observe that, this topic even stopped being a topic of phone talks with family recently. i think i really started to get over trauma of it. stalk slander incidents still happen but i enter no more to trauma.
i would buy a phone. to test how stalker stalks me. i would leave the other phone in home. i would check if stalker stil;l could stalk me like gps accuracy.
its so unbelivable when youy tell people you have been stalked in every cafe you went with gps accurarcy and for 5 years, people tend to think first if you are ptsd. i mean noone believes when you tell such scary topics happens to you. even my family now believes me. but i to0ld this to another memeber of family, i from talks understood doesnt believed me and thought i am ptsd. i mean when you tell these type of topcis, noone believes you thinking such topics dont happen. being stalked for 5 years? why would any one stalk a person 5 years in multiple cities they think when you tell. they dont understand psychos. psychos stalk like that. people when you have been target of a psycho, when you tell it, since they never been target of psychos, they tend to think no this girl must be ptsd and stalkers doesnt exist she is just ptsd. even my family behaved like me like this in first 3 years of stalk incidents. i mean i saw that being stalked is a hard topic because most of the time other people wouldnt even believe you are really stalked. but now my family believes understood and they feel so sad for my life has undergone such traumatic incident of beign stalk target of a psycho. one other family emmber thinks it might be ideological still. that i confronted such torture of stalk/smear campaign due to ideologicalk reasons., but they all ask me to not care and i really also got out of the trauma honestly.
but how it is to be stalked smear campaigned? stalker not tries to kill life with stalk but also tries to kill life of the stalk victim with smear campaign. its not any easy period of life.
it were really weird cause stalker stalked me with names with using names of guys that noone else than my friends knew. like a guy i dated. of mesut name. or guys i dated like mert/timur. i mean i dont know how stalker got to learn my detail;s of life and used in stalk incidents.
its not my country that did this. i suspected y1 named guy's country's enemies whether enemies of y1 guys countries did this to me. whenever i said ideological i meant that everytime in the blog. but now i think it must jusit be a mere psycho. but i dont know how this psycho learnt guys i dated. or unrelated to that. my engineering manager once long before (y1/y2) name. i think i would never be able to learn whom and why stalked/smear campaigns/campaigned me. i mean even if i write its not ideological, it might as well be. i mean maybe stalker were supported by some ideologies that disliked me. i dont any know. but i dont think lioke that. after reading a death threat like news in a foreign newspaper, i stopped thinking ideologies had done this to me, cause i think if they did, i think they would just killed me instead. this is why i think its just a psycho and not any ideological. and i scared upon receiving that death threat like news so i stopped talking any possibility ofqueryting of whether the stalk i confronted smear campaigned i confronted were ideological. and i dont think i am any important person any ideology would try to smear campaign. i dont think if its commie type people, i dont any think Russians did this cause i think i had nothing common nor i am not any important person Russians would even care. i dont think any one cares me as but mostly i dont think if it were ideological, i dont any think its Russians. i think i am not any important person and i dont think i am any person Russian people would ever care. I dont think its any noncommie country either. i dont think its any western country either. i dont think its any liberal country either. anyway. i now think it miught be most posisbly an unfortunate psycho stalker type of situation that a psycho stalked/s\talks me and not ideological. but before i for a while asked queried whether commie type of people did this to me? then i thought they hadnt. anyway. in the end i am mostly out of trauma of it.
(zombie is just a metaphor to stalker. many times i see people(not all people but rarely sometimes not all blog readers, just happens very rarely, hey not the spaceships builder entrepeneur ever misunderstand this silly blog, its not him that misunderstands, i saw the possibility that a space ship building entrepreneur also sometimes reading this super silly blog and its happy to get to know that, i guess he would read with smiling what kind of silly different lifes people have:D cheers to him if he ever reads:D all blessings and cheers :D) read my super silly blog with such attitude: i write zombies stalk me. people think i am a mad that thinks zombies exist. of course zombies dont exist. but zombie and zombie trying to bit me to turn me to another zombie is just a metaphor to the stalk i confronted) (of course i am not any mad person whom thinks zombies exist in real life)
recently i once since needed to have internet and my phone's internet has been finished, went to a restaurant beside workplace to eat some soup of beef/noodles/vegetables. then again gps like stalk happent. 2 people sat beside. they shouted "bitch!" afterwards.
--->now you know you arent reading any normal life :D i have a stalker whom tries to depict me as a bitch in street stalk incidents:D now i laugh to it(i dont any care the stalk smear campaign of the psycho with brain disorders, i think my psychoi has very severe brain disorders to try to depict me as a bitch and stalk and smeawr campaign me in all these cafe/street stalk incidents and alike) but before i lived my life in trauma due to it. now i am over trauma of it.
i think it would required 90 iq points lesseer version of me to ever do act that smear campaign acts. the psycho's smear campaign against me is also super stupid and illogical. but i am over the trauma of being smear campaigned.
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i dont any tiny bit care the stalk/smear campaign of the brain disordered psycho anymore. trauma part is past; i am stronger than having a psycho type of stalker/smear campaigns. now i laugh to the brain disordered psychos's smear campaign about me. the smear campaign? i am just too intellgnt to do such smear campaign act ever in my life. i lived my life doing engineering and would create other products and raise my tea right now to the being resilient when bad people does bad acts like smear campaign. (i would have raised my wine or other drink but i am sinusitis so raiswingf my drink would come in a weekend when i am not ill of sinusitis).
but how it felt to be smear campaigned with acts you would never ever do in life? it felt terrible. i lived in 3 years of trauma. i mean even if i am over trauma of it, it werent any easy period to be smear campaigned. it is not optional but mandatory topic to be resilient when bad people smear campaign.
this incident for instance made me lost my faith in humanity. i mean people doing smear campoaigns to other people (wiht topics they would never ever do in life).
beiung resilient against bad people's smear campaign is not just a mandatory act but also a very proud one. i am very proud of myself that i survived when i confronted a severe smear campaign/stalk.
now my dreams is upon i got over trauma, in trauma my dreams were creating projects so i create capital so that i build myself a large farm so that stalkers cant come beside my home. i would do this also. and would create my 6 legged robots which would protect my farm from intruders. before of that, i would create this revolutionary wind tech techonoplogy if is ever possible to create, i dont yet still know the feasibility of it. this weekend i would try to create its design. then i would create such product and i wish i could create some capital to buy myself a farm like that. then i would work on theoretical physics projects to fiund other possible energy sources. then plan is to go 1000 years later:) to say hi to future people to check if there happens societal problems like smear campaigns. i wish smear campaigns behavior of humanity becomes an obsolete behavior cause its really shitty type of behavior and made me lose my faith in humanity honestly. i am happy there are other people whom hadnt lost trheir faith in humanity. and i think the situation of whether you have faith in humanity or not is like: its luck.if you are lucky and contront none traumas in life, you continue to hold faith in humanity. but if you confront traumas, i personally lost my faith in humanity. i am happy not alot of people confront traumas so that people lots of people still have their faith in humanity. i personally lost. i am happy not all other people are like me. that i lost my faith in humanity.
second reason i lost my faith in humanity is Hebdo like incidents. where some psycho people try to kill life of caricature drawers/satire doers :S as again to restate: Je suis Hebdo. (& Je suis Samuel). I think psyhcos vary. this type of psychos are tryign to destroy/disturb life of caricature drawing people. My psycho tries to destroy my life with smear campaign with shouting me as bitch and severe smear campaign. so i thin psycho acts had made me lost faith in humanity.
like reading about Hebdoor Samuel, makes me lose faith in humanity for seeing psychos tries to kill life of caricature drawing people.
in my case other type of pyshco tries to disturb my life with smear campaign. yet another type of psychopathy like this topic that makes me lose faith in humanity.
i think psychos makes me lose faith in humanity briefly.
like the psycho that destroyed Charlie Hebdo's drawers.
or the psycho that disturbs my life with smear campaigning me.
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. i think its all due to luck. some people ar elucky and confront no traumas in their life so they never lose faith in humanity. and unlucky part whom confronted traumas. i wish traumas dont ever happen.
in briefly. i wish all good luck to all people out there. and good fates/blessings/nice good wishes. i wish traumas stay far from any person's life ever. and everyone lives a happy life without undergone any trauma.
i think maybe in entire world population 1 in a 1000 goes a trauma? i wonder the rate of people whom undergone a severe trauma in their lives? is it 1 over 1000 or 1 over 10000? or one over 100? i dont any know, but i wish every one has a happy life out of traumas. everyone in every city everyone that readrs my blog every person reads my blog, i wish a no-traumas life/happy life.
if God exists, i wish God protect all people from any type of trauma.
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my personal goals in my life having undergone trauma:
hmm as told, i would buy a farm and have 6 legged robots protecting it. then i would go to future 1000 years later with if ever possible through creating projects after studying theoretical physics. i think there is chances of goikng to future why not. since the stalker stalked me in 4 cities, i dont think my stalker could stalk me up to future 1000 years later:)
its really very shitty to have paycho stalker situation thjat stalked stalks 5 years in 4 difrnt cities.
so lets be hard working in next city the psycho from sisli wont be able to stalk me: cause this guh would go to future.(i would investigate new energy sources to check if creating engines with some tech that would let time dilation happen :) )
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(hey i think the space ships building entrepreneur if reads my blog only reads since is a silly /different blog with a person with quite weird/differently hard life:D cheers from my blog to space ships industry and to that entrepreneur! (i liked theirs Mars plans:D it looks fun:D) :) (and also cheers to social media industry:)!) (Cheers to silicon valley and wishing best wishes/all good blessings :))
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ok home cleaning time then would build my wind energy topic.
only one thing i wonder if Russian people did that: i read once in a quora:
a post saying: there is a roko's basilisk being built. it said; started the post with: we are sharing this post not because you would be killed by a Russian spy. then it continued: there is a Roko's basilisk being built. and any people whom doesnt help its building effort would be later terminated the basilisk it self since the basilisk would feel resentful to people whom hadnt helped its building effort. but the post said, you dont have to care if you hadnt seen learnt about it, but you are under risk of being killed by Basilisk after you learnt about it. (said mentioned Roko Basilisk as an ai topic or computer i dont know that which is said to be able to simulate even cells of our body so that would know what any person thinks in their mind. so would be resentful to anyone whom hadnt helped its building phase. ) (ok i would go to future wishfully if theoretical physics lets me find new energy sources and i wish in future i coudl be safe from Basilisk and would be safe from resentiment of it that computer is it? is it a computer? ) ok this again i dont think Russian people writtent this. i think someone making fun of people in quora with creating such stories there. but iut were very itneresting exciting to read a post which said started with: its not that a Russian spy would kill you. i think its not written by Russian people but someone in quora is making fun of quora readers :) (i found it exciting because i love spy topics/i love cold war related topics. i hadnt visited the Charlie checkpoint here but surely i would visit). I dont think i am any person that any Russian person any cares:D i think it were just a joke or such post. but it felt like being in spy movies: as the post started with: " not that you would be killed by a Russian spy. ... then continued with: in briefly it told, a Roko's Basilisk that could simulate every cell of every human being is built that could would be able to know what any person could ever think in their mind in current time and in past. so the Basilisk upon after its build, it would destroy any people whom hadnt helped its building effort, it would know whom hadnt helped it because it would be able to have very huge simulation power the post said. " it were super exciting to read such post with spy topics:D i like spy topics alot:D cold war/spy topics are always very exciting:D i love spy movies and spy podcasts where spies tell them their lifes. but i dont think the post were any wrtiten to me. i think some person tried to make joke in internet. i dont think i am any person any Russian person any cares:D and if Basilisk would be resentful to me: hey i am a person whom has been smear campaigned stalked for 5 years. i would might be able to manage that type of life of scaring from Basilisk since i am used to beingy stalked topic:D (not that i dont scare from Russian spies. i think Russian spies are very scary topic. i think Russian spy sentence there is more scary than a computer/ai which is resentful. ) (respects to both America and Russia for creating such cold war history that we read with awe:D the spy topics are super exciting:) and i love spy movies alot :) ) (only part i dont any like is stasi side. otherelse the spy movies topics are super intgeresting to read about unless it includes traumas that part definitely super disliked:S e.g. stasi like topics:S. its a very different game i think spies topic. a very different chess board it is i think :) i mean international relations topic and spies topics are very interesting topics to read about:) (unless it includes any traumas. i dislike traumas part like stasi topics:S) (everyday i pass around a street that Kennedy made speech thats related to Berlin :) (when going to work) (they say Berlin is or were i dont know, a city of spies and that is very exciting:D) (visible from this blog, i really like spy stories topics alot:D) (i sometimes found a podcast where spies told their lives. ) (and i also very like spy movies:D) i like reading international relations but i am not intllgnt in that sides either. only topic i am intellgnt in life is fast learning nothing else. i just like reading aboiut internatiuonal relations but those chess like topics (of international relations) i would be super dumb to :D i am really only intellgnt in fast learning. but maybe because i am not super intellgnt for, i love reading those chesses or intricate international relations topics. it looks like a very differnt form of chess from outside. (that this guh reads with interest.)
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yayyy making a very delicious meal to myself with also beside a deliucious wine from zeroth floor market :) i felt tired due to sinusitis headache. so i couldnt study today. but would study after meal since i feel better now. yayy a delicious meal time. its some potatoes onions some fish in oven plus a delicious salad plus orgaanic wine :P its a very happy time to prepare meals sometimes it hink. then would study the wiund project i think i could study alot.
meanwhile i liked alot my beanbag. its perfect for a coder. i find myself getting lost on it either side ofsince it gots shape of how you sit/lie and so is very comfy. its so funny my resting on it looks kind of funny. i think everyone should try home24's beanbags they are truly awesome:D
yayy an awesome dinner time!
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i think that post werent to this not super intellgnt guhu. that basilisk post. i dont think i am any person any Russian cares and sends such Basilisk post. but it were like that, i would say that i am on capitalist side i am sorry i am not on theirs side but i respect them. but not any on their side. i am on capitalist side. and that sentence of "not that a Russian spy would kill you" seemed more scarier then Basilisk killing me. i dont think any Russian any cares me nor would send me that Basilisk post. i think it were a joke in internet.
not an everydays life reading a quora which started saying "not that a Russian spy would kill you. " ok i think Russian spies are more scarier than any ai/basilisk that Russians would ever build. i wish it wernt any to me:D i dont think it were to me:D i dont think any Russian people any cares this silly guh :D i dont think i am any type of any type of any important person:D i dont think it were to me. the post said a thought experiment a paradox. and asked what you woud think on this paradox to readers. that a basilisk is being built right now and it would be able to simulate every cell of every human and would know what he she thinks. and that in future would destroy whom ever hadnt helped its building efforts. since would know whom helped its building effort with simulating people's cells i mean it would be powerful enough to know what any one thinks any moment like sentence it holded. the post asked what do you think about this paradox. if you dont know that basilisk exists you are safe. but after you learn either you help building it otherwise the basilisk would destroy any one whom hadnt helped its building effort swhen it becomes independent being. like type of post it were. i dont think its any threatening people to help build basilisk. i think someone tried to make a joke in internet like that. i dont think it were nt said to me either. since i am not any super intellgnt. i dont know but it initially felt as a threatening to me as the sentence started with "not that a Russian spy would kill you but..." then mentioning of Basilisk. i think Russian spies are scary. if they wanted to kill me they would easily. i think Russian spies are scarier than any ai/machine that Russians would built if that post werent any joke. i do think it werent writen any by Russians nor it were to me. i think it were just a joke written by some quora person whom wanted to write a joke to quora readers. i dont think it were any written by Russians nor any wrtten to me to attend a basilisk project. but it were really weird post. i think someone made joke in internet and i think it werent any written by Russians either. i dont any think i am any person any Russian would care:D nor write suhc post to since i am really the most unimportant person on earth:D i am just a silly:D
but lets for a second assume people confused me as super intellgnt whilst not and it were written to me to attend a basilisk project? , in that case, i would say sorry but i am on other side:P i am not on Russian's side even if i respect them. i am on capitalist side. and sorry if i am going to use my intellgnce, as told in blog, its to create a project to go to future. cause i have an unrelated stalker problem and i think stalker wont be able to come to future. i have a stalker whom stalked/smear campaigned me for 5 years. and then but stalker from sisli wont be able to stalk me when i go to future:D yayy:D.
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coming back to my silly daily life:
yayy today passed alot on my beanbag:D since i felt ill and doing such laziness felt nice:) its very fun. i liked resting like sleeping on my face like as if thrown myself to ground:D it is very comfy. much more comfy than the couch or my bed. cause it takes shape of how i lie and that feels very comfy. its like getting lost inside the bean bag:D i really advise anyone to try it really its very comfy. not any slight level. something very comfy;. the comfiest seat i ever seen. this bean bag concept is. and specifically this one from home24 is like that.
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i wondered if i am corona due to tiredness situation. i dont have any symptoms but had headache this morning. then drank some wine beside meal maybe tiredness is related to wine. i drank little. i think its due to sinusitis. i wish its not corona. i got an antigen based test from our company(they sent people whomever wanted tests). i would go to health place here to test it from a doctor. i dont think its corona but i feel more tired today. i think its because i got rain last day kind of alot. and wine + that i think created tiredness feeling. but in any case, i would make it tested on monday maybe. or not. i think i would call Gesundheit to ask them what to do. my friends said Gesundheit says whether its necessary to be tested or not. i dont have symptoms of cough/throat or fever or any runny nose. i have none symptoms yet. but they said incubation period is sometimes 1 week. so waiting monday to check. if i am corona or not. this corona topic happent since we had a colleague whom i also attended meetings (with masks we attended meetings with masks) whom got corona so we were all sent tests and we went to mostly home office type of schedule. not fully home office but rotationally so that there is very little peoplke in office. but next week noone is studying from office everyone is at wfh setting next week.
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i think its not a good idea to be tested when you dont have symptoms cause there is more risk in places where tests are done. i think i would check if i have symptoms and self isolate awhile. and would make a call to health center to ask their opinion.
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ok back to studying. i need to build wind turbine project this weekend. enough laziness. i think i had a time which i enjoyed being solely lazy on this bean bag:D cause its really very comfy. but enough laziness. now studying time.
(i think this bean bag is the most comfy seat i ever seen in my life. never seen some seat as comfy like this before) (getting lost inside it feels awesome). it takes shape as how you rest and its amazing. just try if you hadnt tried ever. its really amazing levels of comfy:D
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