i last day saw some topic about if previous spies did something wrong, they usually go crazy and suicide hisself/herself in his her flat (whilst in reality they get killed by their instituion for ashaming their instituion)

i am not any spy. but i saw a warning about this case.  and if a spy ashames his her instituion due to any reason gets exterminated by the institution. i read a topic if spies do wrong they get exterminated by their own institution. 

ok even if i am not any spy. i saw some sentences some where. so i am not going to any NGO and becoming comfortable with the torture i confronted.  the torture i confronted were i were tried to be saved from by western side 5 years ago.

ok maybe even offered some job even didnt happent is some thing important and i should never talk about it. and i would not go to NGO. ok. 

but i didnt get the job. the guy said, if someone tries to leave sucinstitutionhiupon entering, he or she would be exterminated with referencing saying some one wanted to retire and his body were found flowing in a river. 

but i hadnt got the job. even if looks cool to work (even if its not a spy institution)

i guess i wernt competent.

but since i saw coincidence with some words somewhere i wont ever mention this and woudl get comfortable with the stalk/slander i confront. or it were coincidence? i dont any know? i dont ashame that instituion since i hadnt got the job ever. and stalk is not related to there. i think as told, stalk is due to: 

i might been confused as a spy and people might bse hating spies and they wanted to torture.

or the torture happent since usual psycho type stalker situation. that i have a psycho type stalker that tortures me with stalk slander. 

but since i saw some scary topic about going crazy and being found killed in flat, and seeing some words, i decided not to go to NGO. 

but pain of stalk/slander is surreal:S but i think i would get accustomed to that ;)

i love those cool institutions. i think it were just coincidence that words i saw. 

and thanks for 5 years ago help offer :) (that this dummy hadnt been able to understand by then:))

i understood that, even being offered such jobs is sometopic important. and adverseries even try to stalk slander even to the job offereds. or maybe it were just a psycho. but i reading some thing about going crazy stuff, and 2 days ago about going crazy in their own flat and found dead in flat, i decided i dont any go to any NGO and this topic is closed to forever. 

 

my plan to handle than the stalk slander situation is:

finishing the wind turbine product and creating lots of capital and buying myself a large land. and not going to any NGO.

 

but i observe that i am on a very thin line on this seeing coinciding words. i saw also the words of the slander. and i saw some warning. ok i got it. thanks for warning. i wont go to NGO and would get ok with this topic i confronted (Which is i think either done by a  psychoi type of stalker or really nonwestern agencies backed). so not going to go to NGO. and would try to solve this being tortured by either by a psycho from sisli or by adverseiers(non western agencis) with the windturbine product then. NGO option is closed to forever. as i saw some words.

ok even not being a spy. i think even mentioning being offered job is not ok. ok. going to NGO option is closed to forever. i would instead try to solve the situation with building wind turbine project. 

 i wish those people whom says those wont hate me for my many times dummy words. and cheers from this dummy's blog :) (and this dummy wont ever go to NGO ever.) 

it might be coincidence. btu for incase it is not, this guh would never ever go to any NGO ever. yupp. 

wov you also know how i were slandered. you know how terrible it felt to be slandered like that? :S anyway. ok. i get accustomed to this weirder life style. which seems both hard and both exciting since i got stalked slandered like in spy movies by nonwestern agencies. or maybe just a psycho from sisli did/does. i dont any know. but its ok harder life but also exciting then. i would get used to this harder life version. ok. :) cheers! :)  i wish this dummy guh hadnt any ashamed any your instituion. i werent competent and i hadnt got the job either. but i understood even offered job is something to be kept secret. ok. i am sorry for having said that in blog. and i would never go to any NGO ever. cheers! :) 

ok then goals continue as: building revolutionary windturbine project. ) would build that silly simulation to optimize the original windturbine design and would create a capital from that and then would buy a farm to be safe from adverseires harrasmnt/stalk slander(either a psycho type stalker or a nonwestern agency backed people). not going to any NGO. not mentioning this topic to anyone. closed mouth. this silly's mouth becomes. i thought it were ok to say i were offered job offer. now i understand its not. i am sorry for my dumbness for blogging about it.

(i felt like some people there liked me. that they felt they needed to give warning before doing any thing. i mean i were given a chance. thanks for that:)  cause i know and everyone knows such institutions rules. and but i hadnt known its not ok to keep job chances secret. and very sorry for this dumb behavior for blogging about it. i thought it were ok to blog it. very sorry) 

(i know these type of world institution's rules(i mean spy like places, not exactly spy like but security related organizations). the guy saaid that day.  if anyone gets out, resigns, body gets found flowing under a bridge) . but i thought i dont belong to rules since i hadnt get the job. but i understand that even mentioning such job offer is not any ok. sorry for that. and thanks for the warning. and i would never ever mention the job offer in any blog. nor else. and cheers. and thanks for 5 years ago help offer that i hadnt any understood. i guess it were from you people? sorry this dummy werent any into any understanding any level by then and i ddnt even understood the help. thanks for the help by then. and thanks for warning for now. and i woupld never go to any NGO ever. to forever this topic sealed/closed be never mentioned to anyone to forever. )

 

(i think you people are very cool<3 and thanks for the previous help/new warning which is quite ok since i see its not never ok to tell also job offers. and sorry for me blogging about it. even if i hadnt got the job(since i wrnt competnt). i understood that its never ok to blog about it. cheers to you very very very very cool people)

(and i think i could handle the stalk slander topic then by(i think either a psycho does or nonwestern side agency backed topic it is) just the wind turbine project with creating capital and buying a large landetc.)

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(and world is a such a weird place that even being possibly spy tag means being tortured by adverseries side(nonwestern backed agencies likes to torture) or maybe it were just a psycho from ssli that did/does that stalk/slander torture. )

(but western side tried to save me from that 5 years ago but by the time i hadnt understood as it were happening :)  i newly understood and thanks alot for that:) this silly hadnt understood it by then since i had no idea what were happening. thanks alot even if its a late thanks:) ) 

 

 

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(anyway i  stopped looking to it as a hard life: its both hard and exciting life.:))

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