i postponed the remaining part of the sprint task to tomorrow. and left at 2pm since i had headache. i want to accomplish this sprint task before holiday starts. but then i think main part is already finished:) just functional tests and just one more table integration like stuffs left:) i would finish it on tomorrow i think. or Sunday i don't know. or Monday either.
i had to take ache pill 1 hour ago and finally no migraine :) (i didn't wanted to take ache pill today waited till evening to have it pass then gave up and took ache pill to heal it. it weren't severe ache like yesterday. this migraine sometimes happens to me. today were slight headache not any bad as yesterday. but still disturbing. but now no migraine left as pill started to work
yayyy i cant define the happiness of 3.5 weeks holiday :D i have holiday till 21th jan :D
found out a Denovali record to listen this evening. Denovali records are awesome.
ok lets continue the simulation project since headache issue resolved.
i like pomelo fruit a lot but i had not even energy to prepare one. i struggled with slight migraine today also until i took ache pill. now i could prepare one i think but still not very energetic.
but so happy since holiday starts:D YAYYY! my simulator would be ready by then :D i have my nonslow i5 pc also ready to code:D its so exciting:D coding molecular simulation on akka and redis
hey i made a salad i bought recently pomegranate sauce (thats very sour) and made a plate with fried egg on one corner then basilikum/fresh onions/yellow tomatoes/hot pepper and a lot pomegranate sauce with little bit olive oil and other corner cheese, it were very tasty dinner. the pomegranate sauce made it feel like summer i felt like i am in summer since the salad became very tasty and all green leaves inside were fresh a lot. i liked this basilikum named thing i newly tried. it goes very good with pomagranaate sauce. guh's dinner reflections. this were really tasty. pomegranate sauce makes salads severely tasteful.
having a nonstop migraine last 2 days, as it completely passed after i take pill today at evening, it feels so relaxing. missed this lack of migraine status. it were very unnice to have a migraine that happent for 2 days second day were muchless painful but still sick. i have these at some times happening like this. it feels so relaxing that migraine healed:) i feel like as if my brain is filled with mint now, lack of pain feels so relaxing. migraine were severely painful issue when happent. and this salad tasted awesome beside. and there is 3.5 weeks holidays :) i feel awesome levels happy :D 3.5 weeks holiday started today and my health's normal condition resumed.
ok have 3.5 weeks to build my product. i think its feasible. last 3 days i couldn't any study. resuming studying today :) i wish in one week i code the simulator and other week code the simulated device and test designs. and thirdweek i wish i 3d print design to check. then end of 3rd week i wish i knock wind turbine industry's doors to sell my design to some millions :P (goal is creating my first millions in life:D and if it becomes something like 15 millions or such, i might buy my winter home where i would study theoretical physics) if its 1 million like stuff i create from project, my winter home might have to be cheaper but still i would buy some home in such case. maybe cheaper alternatives. ok. then would work the theoretical physics stuff at my lovely winter home:D it feels as an awesome plan:D i wish i create 15 millions from this product so that i could buy a nice winter home like with very large land some kind of farm/country home in mid of a farm. then there would study some topics i wonder like as told. i want to recreate write new versions of lots of stuff there in those topics.
this is my one room design i wish in the farm/country house: (it would be in mid of a very big farm)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oakA7RLvmWs&t=10790s
3.5 weeks:) starting 1st week by 00:00am :)
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ok one other goal is to make severe fun of imbeciles type of slanderers constantly. not to forget. to make fun of character assassinators/imbecile slanderers. specifically everytime i create a product or rewrite some theory somewhere i would post making fun of imbecile slanderers whom slandered me with the most irrational most impossible lies. making fun of 10mg brain holding slanderers is a constant task i assign to me. since they terrorized my life with stalk/slander with smear campaign for 5 years (they slandered me with the most irrational most impossible lies like if i am a mafia/bitch:S) i would severely make fun of those 10mg brain holding slanderers. and would sometimes create/attend gatherings with other people who has been smear campaigned/confronted character assasinaton in their lives which is a very painful process. its stealing of your life years with placing trauma instead of happiness. confronting smear campaign with things you would never ever do in your life, is exactly people who do it steal your life's happiness dishonestly. anyway. as told other goal is to make severe of those imbecile type slanderers whom slandered me with most irrational most impossible lies. everytijme i build a physics or maths theorem or such stuff i wont forget to make fun of those imbeciles whom slandered me with things i would never ever do in my life. i confronted something systematic i think it were backed by an unknown nonwestern unknown country. but in any case, i don't care. i just would make severe fun of their lack of brains whomever they are those imbecile slanderers are. making fun time with imbecile slanderers time is every minute of my life. every time i write a blog i would severely make fun of those imbeciles with no brains to slander a person with most impossible most irrational lies. i never made fun of people with lesser iq than me but this is an exceptional situation where i wold make severe fun of those low iqqued imbecile people whom terrorized my life with lies with things i would never ever do nor would ever need to do. never forget to make hell level fun of imbecile character assassins. one task of my life. as i confronted a severe form of it. so this is one of my daily tasks. not to forget any time making fun of imbecile people whom slandered me with most irrational lies. as told February is selected as making fun of imbeciles month of every year of my life. i never made fun of people having lesser iq than me before. but this is an exceptional situation. some imbeciles terrorized my life with things i would never ever do in my life. with slandering me/stalking me/smear campaigning me for 5 years. so "never forget to make severe fun of imbecile slanderers". is one core narratives of my life afterwards. i wont forget to make severe fun. everytime i remember i would make severe fun of those dishonest imbecile slanderers that terrorized my life with slanders i would never ever do in my life. i would also set gatherings with people like me, whom confronted smear campaigns. or find such events. causes it were very painful to confront such process such mechanism of slanders/smear campaigns. i think my slanderers were backed by an unknown nonwestern country that's completely doing it with proxies. but i would make severe fun of them since how they failed in destroying me with lies. i would make severe fun of their failure of their slander operation/character assntn op. making severe fun of imbecile slanderers minute/day every day of my life is. as my life's peace were stolen for 5 years with stalk/slander/smear campaign process. this suffering wont ever be forgotten by me, and i would whenever remember make fun of those imbeciles whom slandered me with things i would never ever do nor would ever need to do in my life. cause no one has right to steal 5 years of peace from one other's life with slandering him/her. another side effect is ptsd. i have ptsd due to that. i feel i need to constantly have ventilator open everymnute since scare that slanderers would come to street and slander. i have ptsd due to this. of constant desire to have a noise in home. or similarly i have agorpahobia afterwards whilst i were a person who liked a lot going outside. but they have GPS assisted stalk skills so whenever i go to a cafe these imbecile proxies come there slander me there as a bitch. anyway. i would make severe fun of those imbeciles whom slaandered me. people with no brains lets call them like that since they can slander a person with most irrational most impossible lies. or proxies most possibly. anyway. i don't care. i would just make severe fun of the imbeciles and the imbecile slandering process either. everything of the character assassination topics are imbecile and to be made severe fun of. "never forget to make fun of those 10mg brain holding imbecile slanderers". my one narrative in life afterwards.
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ok i think i feel healthy energetic enough to study the simulator topic again.
sounds of my home... a constant ventilator sound. some drink bottle created voice due to changing air temperature with where did this sound come from slight shock... some wind sounds from opent video... a no sound Christmas tree there... breeze of cold air with no sound.... since i have constantly have one window slightly open to have fresh air (maybe reason i had migraine:D i would take care to have it be lesser opent since i might be getting cold from that) .... beginning of a 3.5 weeks holiday:D this is awesome :)
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i feel definitely awesome as my headache healed. i think reason i got headache is most possibly left open window. i closed it now and home got warm. and mom called and we talked 2 min ago. i feel awesome its start of 3.5 weeks holiday:D never had this much holiday whilst working in a workplace before:)
its just so happy:D 3.5 weeks holiday:DDDDD
ok i would also learn to draw caricatures maybe meanwhile. my uncle frommom side draws caricatures. my cousin from that family has an extreme talent (unlike me:) ) (is son of that uncle) (could draw really good paintings/drawings). but i wonder caricatures styles different to that so i might try out. and make imbecile slanderers making fun of imbecile slanderers caricature series. why not:) it seems a funnier way to make fun of those imbeciles whom slandered me. like slander in cafe incidents. i could draw them with making funny drawings of those imbeciles slandering me instance. ok i wont do this hobby since it would be reliving the trauma moments. or else i might choose not funny caricatures as holiday hobby but just life instances like comics series like stuff. . heyyy i can resume also sculpting yayyy :D cause i have 3.5 holidays i think there is enough time both for simulator and hobbies:D but i am more in to drawing these times. i think i would instead work on drawing hobby yupp. ok i think i wont do caricatures since i am not severely interested. i think i would try drawings atmost. i once bought violin as hobby but didn't learnt yet but left in other home in iskenderun. i could buy a violin and try learning violin hmm. i like violin sound alot. there is 3.5 weeks holiday:D so i can choose any hobby. i think piano is harder. i left piano course when were child since i disliked the teacher teaching:D i wish i hadn't because piano playing would have been an awesome hoobby if i could :D 2 hands playing piano is severely hard needs left right brain sycnh which seems to be lacking in mine:D or i hadn't worked out well i don't know. but violin is hard but if i learn it its severely fun type of hobby:D ok i think i might buy a violin and try to learn like i did when i were in Turkey. cause it would be awesome to play Vivaldi :D even listening Vivaldi's music is severe fun i cant imagine how playing those would feel. ok i think among sculpting (i feel i don't want to do this since i would buy a 3d prointre and could build 3d models and print instead of sculpting), caricatures(nope not interested), drawing(interested), violin (beginner level i would be, very interested) i select violin and drawings as this holiday's hobby activities. but most important hobby of this holiday is this simulator. i am stopping laziness right now and starting studying to it.
this looks awesome: https://www.amazon.de/-/en/Vangoa-Electric-Octagonal-Shoulder-Strings/dp/B08GCD24D2/ref=sr_1_30?dchild=1&keywords=geige&qid=1608928897&sr=8-30
or otherelse, i might have other hobby. ok i postpone violin hobby to try to learn it to someother time. i think i would resume my philosophy learning hobby. ok i think i would add bicycling hobby (indoor) with listening podcasts of philosophy and anthropology. ok i resume philosophy hobby that i paused. ok. since learning violin needs teacher but i cant take course now. self learning violin i don't feel as very easy nor feasible. but violin must be an awesome hobby for people who can play violin.
this is my favorite version of 4 seasons: just one part of it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWg5ugyMjIc
beside classical music i like mainly chill musics lounge musics and techno surely and beside that also soundtracks and in soundtracks:
i also like some soundtracks from action movies since they are also very interesting and richly composed music and because also i had a weird life that i confronted chrtr. assntn so action movies music also i like since i feel like my life's 5 year were like a movie. cause i confronted insane things like character assainatn/pshycic demolition/stalk/slander with GPS. i think they were proxies of a nonwestern unknown country (due to stalk slander incidents some contents) anyway. most of dayss i am over trauma of it.
i would also wanted to play piano i wish i hadn't left the course when i were a child. i wish i knew to play with 2 hands. (left/right brqain sycnh topic, playing with 2 hands needs that) ok from hobbies set i filtered out to the caricature/sculoting. i might do drawings. and would buy that cycling device and would resume philosophy readings not by reading but by listening books/podcasts. and also anthropology which always have interesting topics like homomorphisms/isomorphism tries in between different cultures etc. i never expected to seed abstract algebra there and just admired again the humanities related branches as usual whilst listening the lecturer. humanities lecturers are very always very interesting to listen. anthropology is from humanities most interesting topics holding area i think. philosophy is also interesting but not like anthropology or that Oxford university has very awesome lecturers that's why i think anthropology is more interesting than philosophy. i think also sociology is also very interesting always. but due to awesome lecturers of anthropology dept of Oxford uni, currently my favorite podcasts are from anthropology area. ok i loved this idea. i love doing multiple things at the same time (even if we do sequentially there is no multiple processes in brain as i read before, how they know that i wonder, its about consciousness studies, they say that attention is solely single processed) i love doing 2 things at the same time. like doing sports and same time listening a topic i learn, like i loved listening recommendation systems lectures while i do jog in park 5 years ago in iskenderun. i think i love this sports + learning concept. just doing only sports i get bored fastly of those heavy routine exercise that is not easy to do since it is tirening its hard since i am not sportive. but if i listen something beside sports and listening both time becomes very fun. ok i loved this idea:D ok cycling device definitely going to be bought. and philosophy learning hobby would be resumed. i would buy audible books if streamed here. ok. i am filtering out hobby set for holiday. ok one hobby is this. i think this is enough fun i don't need other hobbies else than this. i wish i had anthropology or sociology side friends also beside other friends i wish to set like wishing to find friendsets like coder friends etc.
ok main task is surely building the simulator. yupp.
i cant believe headache is gone. weirdly only region on my left eye hurts when this migraine happens. mybse sinuses in that region got inflamed i guess. due to open window. now home is warm. ok i would only have it open during day not nights also. wov sinusitis is healed yuppp :) its not a nice idea to have window left open when air temperature is like:
https://www.accuweather.com/en/de/berlin/10178/weather-forecast/178087
i think i had migraine due to this silly behavior of having window left open just for fresh air. i think lowering heater's heating level and having windows closed is a better idea.
ok it feels awsome to start the holiday:D 3.5 weeks holiday:)
ok i blogged too much today. ok back to some formulas editing time, back to simulator coding time. i wish i weren't sick and could had studied last 3 days also but were very sick. ok now resuming studying. i wont blog like this much other days :D i would study instead:D its just first day of holiday so i did this laziness of postponing starting studying. yuppp.
never forget to make fun of imbeciles slanderers. ok i never forget. never ever forgetting. ok one other word to imbeciles slanderes is i selected people with no brains. people type that slander others with the most impossible lies. people with no brains. i liked these words sequence to my slanderers. yuppp.
this be my future home's one room's look definitely. :D
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oakA7RLvmWs&t=10790s
maybe i find somewhere in mountains :) that snow a lot happens:) (cause i r4eally like snow/trees/wind/storm voices)
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