ok today planned as, some readings beside cycling. that awesome philosophy language holding psychoanalysis text. usually psychoanalysis is not any area i am that much interested to, but the language and the references of consciousness and will topics made it quite interesting. philosophy, sociology and anthropology languages makes every text very interesting. when ever humanities people write some text, it is always kind of more fun than any paragraph you would ever read inside some studying learning. they made even learning about psychoanalysis a fun type of reading/study, which is not any topic that i were interested to. 

i once got interested to consciousness theories and started with a book about that and actually both 2 books. one were about brain studies. one about more about the general consciousness concept. not the first one but the latter one's lack of interesting language in defining topics or lack of wide scope in its definitions talks made the topics studies halt for me. but when humanities people write some text, you can be sure that it holds in background, thousands of articles readed before hand by the article writers that the article, paragraph written would reflect all different possible scopes related to possible all interpretations on the domain of subject and that makes any even noninteresting topics very interesting to read about.

i never expected myself to read about psychology (subjectively i am not interested to such areas.) but they made even reading about psychoanalysis a fun activity. 

 now, some sports and reading period. then would continue the bitcoin project.

for investigating psychics topics,  i don't know what to do in that. i think repeated things don't work in that, like repeated zener cards stuff. i don't know how to test whether i am a psychic or not. i would brainstorm on this.

that my bleeding nose dream of brother, happens long before i learnt heard about suchnpopular culture. i mean i were interested to these stuff before it became discussed alot topic in popular culture. i am still interested to. but don't know how to test.  i became interested after Leia incident many years ago. then i started to ask whether psychics exist. and i still wonder and don't know any. i don't even know whether if i am any psychic or not. but i really wonder. since it would have been amazing if i were:D would let me learn whom stalked slandered me via remote detectiving :D it would be truly amazing if i were. but i don't know how to test either. i seen repeated zener cards don't work on my tries. maybe that means maybe that simply means i am not any psychic. i don't know. nor i any know how i could test.  (it would be awesome if i were a psychic) I don't know why people shouted El. i think they try to communicate with putting me to a psychic role? using a movie reference? i am happy that that stopped. cause it were very creepy. cause i would never want to be any lab subject ever nor lsd or brain chemicals modifying tests. my silly brain belongs to mine. so it were very creepy that el! come! shoutings happent. because i suspected they were kind of people whom investigate psychic phenomena and they tried to do connect with me making a famous (very cool movie's references. i think they used El word to make me understand they try to communicate me to for psychic topics. but it were very creepy. i am happy that people stopped shouting such stuff. cause i would never come. they shouted come. it were very creepy. one creepiest moment of life. my silly stupid brain belongs to mine. whom would ever want to be a lab subject. i guess in labs they do even give lsd like stuff to psychic people to do tests? nope i would never ever be any lab subject to forever. it were severe creepy moment of my life. and i am happy that ended that they didn't repeated that El! come! like shouints. severely creepy topic this is. happy that they ended that. i think this topic happent for a month, like last month i think. then ended abruptly as i blogged here. i am very happy it ended. their accent weren't from here. but i dont know where they were but their accent didn't any looked as here's accent. but very happy this ended. cause were very creepy. to confront come! sentence from completely unknown people and in such scope. were very creepy:S

ok. anyway. lets tell a bout topics that makes happy: yayyy a text written with philosophy perspectives. 

ok now fun of reading psychoanalysis period. normally i would never call this subject fun if this text were not written by philosophy language. everything with language of philosophy or sociology or anthropology experts becomes severely interesting even the topics i am not interested about. for instance i wouldn't had read linguistics basic introduction that much fast and with that much curiosity unless it weren't a philosophy departments text last time. the way these 3 areas describes topics and the way topics are usually described usually differ a lot and the latter ones are usually making topic uninteresting to an adhd. but texts like this does not any trigger adhd. if a scientific knowledge is written in just definitive descriptive way most of the time adhd would also accompany my reading. but when philosophers write a text there disappears the adhd stuff. the philosophers,  sociologs and anthropologist make enables adhd disappear for people like me with adhd topics cause they don't tell those scientific topics uninterestingly. even linguistics readings were severe fun. when read from words of philosophy department. if that were written roughly with a descriptive language by another department, i am pretty sure adhd would also accompany that reading. those humanities people when write those scientific texts, its a distillation of tons of background study of years of articles readings. so even if the topic is uninteresting, they write define it in a way that makes it interesting to study about.  

yayy time to do some sports (since i ate fastfood today) and fun of philosophical text readings starts. maybe first techno music fun also then would continue with philosophical readings fun. 

some rest period after 140 calories. and also reading that amazing philosophical text. introduced me to metaphysics and made me got interested to Aristotle's writings on that formalism. though this text tries to rescope this concept it studies with transcending the usual metaphycial framework definitions and also cartesian dualism and without focusing on consciousness topic as i see. it focuses on Nietzchean Lacan ways Schopenhauers ways of analysing this topic with also decentering the ego component. it neither tries to setup a Schopenhauer way of an elevated super ego like definition but neither a completely subego definition but going on Nietzchean Lacan alike directions. Tries to free this topic from metaphysical framework's definitions. It also shown me that Freudian definitions are actually very metaphysical. even it timely aligns with postmodernism, the metaphysical analysis methods of Freud are also to be abandoned. It tries to redefine vitalism and essence in a lesser metaphysical way in general i get that this is the direction of this text from its introduction.  I always wondered about vitalism discussions or consciousness discusssions. This topic analysis in more Lacan Nietzchean and Henry like ways. instead of setting up a very strict virtualization or conception of metaphysical methods. it tries to both free itself from metaphysics usual toolings with conflating it with psychoanalysis to reduce the cartesian duality aspects that every metaphysical discussion would accompany. So tries to reduce the mind body dualism through such conflation of encountering those two areas of metaphysics and psychoanalysis.  Now i wondered the following aspects: in encountering metaphysics with psychoanalysis, in its ambitious goal of redefining vitalism effort (of this writer), would it move to a nominalistic sense and would it go to a frequentialist definition of topics through case studies results from psychoanalysis or would it go to an essentialist approach but yet still with a degree of freedom from cartesian dualism with considering the topic nominalist.  i wonder how it would go through this restructuring of metaphysical framework definitions of Freud or antedecents in that sense. would this writers discussion go through frequentialist  sude or yet still dualism free but nominalist and essentialist sude. Though any direction in that sense is freeing this domain from usual metaphysical frameworks burden of dualism.  So freeing this area from such metaphysical practise sets of various predecents, following the Lacan Nietzchean and partly Schopenhauer and Henry like directions, i wonder what kind of new topics this writer would bring. is it just an analytically well mixed conception utilizing thoughts of those 4 philosophers or does the writer brings newer mindsets to those people's crafts? But again even creating such unified framework that is having antimetaphysical measures and providing such features seems an amazing effort. Even if it later turns out that i found out that there is nothing new up to what Lacan or Schopenhauer or Nietzche or Henry brought, unifying and creating a new unified such post-Freud framework is a very elaborate goal and very important surely.  and i think that this study also holds new discussions i already seen and i think i guess i am reading a very important text/study that creates a new frameowkr a post-Freudian framework with unifying various philosophers studies along with his ideas (to add to that unified post-Freudian framework). We always entitled Freud to define post-modernism moment,  this text is about also post-Freud aspects so we could call it post of post modernism this study i read about from this text. post-post-modernism :D  ok its my first time i learn about this topics. i only seen Freud;'s perspective from a lecture i took listened from coursera. now i understand the scope of this topics more through my first 4 pags of this text. cause it introduced first what it would tell about and gave me insight on what i would learn. ok. i wonder how this text would accomplish the freeing the domain from cartesian duality? i mean this is a very ambitious goal cause it is expected to get to the barriers of nominalistic features of these domains. i wonder in that barrier where it would follow.  i see that this study here would confront similar problems of linguistics studies regarding to nominnalist nature of these topics when cartesian duality is tried to be bypassed. it felt like this area could benefit from the experiences of linguistic philosophy studies. because they surpassed metaphysical methodologies long before. and they also conquered the cartesian duality with various submethodologies with various different faculty of thoughts inside the same discipline. Here i see that the path is also to free the area from cartesian dualism (Aristotlean basis) but they are doing it later than linguistics people. I think philosophers in linguistics could lend lots of knowledge to this area i read about. in this effort. two different areas could. lend each other lots of knowledge i think. cause linguists philosophers did this task long before. i from this book see that this effort newly started to get to be constructed in this area. so kind of linguistics philosophers are two steps at least forward in such cool ambitious goals. but i think writer of this text must be knowing any kind of philosophical topic much more than me, and that i think they would alreadily incorporated such knowledge lending in between different subdiscipllines in two philosophy areas. i for instance didn't known how metaphysical basis are until 20 minutes ago until the introduction part described me the essence of those topics. i mean i meant with that i think writer of this text is i think at least 1000 times much more knowing about philosophy than me. i mean my suggestion of lending information sharing with linguist philosophers and this area, the writer would even think that before me i guess, i mean i don't see myself to give suggestions to such topics. since i didn't knew about metaphysics methods 20 minutes ago. :D  but i see that this area is one or two steps behind linguistics philosophies in terms of such agendas like freeing an area from cartesian dualism. but is very interesting to read about. but now i have to stop and continue bit coin project. i would continue in second part of sports for today where i do sports for another 150 calories so that this belly that started to happen disappears:D (too much eating results with a slowly forming belly:D)  at least 300 calories of sports per day with this very interesting readings. that is severely fun to learn read about. 

(i know you people like reading my blog:D since is a weird mixture of various topics) (since i am a weird :D)

i think i would continue studying after bitcoin study. i wish to fix some stuff in. that code to make it work. now continuing to bitcoin project. 

 

ok i decided i rest now cause i feel sleepy. then  would continue on morning the bitcoin project i couldnt study to bitcoin project on today cause feeling tired. and would fall to sleep in some minutes i think cause feeling severe sleepy. 

 

other 150 calories is also postponed to other days not today. 

i want to just fall in to sleep now. 

 

 

i woke up now:D or maybe 30 minutes ago:D

yayy did some shopping then a healthy breakfast.  now work period starts. yuppp :)