immigration journeys:

 

i have very exciting plan of trying to find asylum chances or try out such chances in USA named cool country.  but i would tell all this before to the consulate appointment in Berlin before going there not would tell this there but before here in consulate application.

 

 

its very exciting. i dont know where to go in USA? 

 

hmm since i saw some city, i started checking places to stay there.

 

 

I try to arrange some 2200 Euro  or costs to the travel costs for 2 weeks stay where i wish to try asylum application there. hmm i think i would choose airbnb since is more affordable than other options. Plane ticket i guess might cost totally 1000 Euros  or alike i guess. 

 to spare such money I would spend very little this month.  i would have my bicycle fixed and go to work with bike instead of taxi surely. and canceled my holiday.  

  Its very exciting i dont know if could get VISA to but i never seen USA before and its very exciting.

i canceled my holiday in 2 weeks and postponed to start of July so that i have time to VISA process. though i dont know if i would get VISA or not. lets see. 

 

 i were checlkoing photos of that city then said I am tired of looking to phone screen then i saw another city later and that city also looks cool. 

 

I dont know where people go to apply to asylum. i dont know if 2 weeks would be enough but i thought i go there for 2 weeks and apply to aslyum. maybe i would find such chance or not but would try my chance.

I dont know if i could get VISA or not. but would try.

i would apply to VISA next week i think. to get to know the VISA process result asap. and i would surely mention my travel reason on consulate appointment to VISA application surely also. 

I dont know if i could get VISA or not. i would try my chance. 

 

 

meanwhile i try to find remote work have interview sometime to remote work chances. 

 

 

this weekend: working to ai project time. i stopped that whilst being severely ill.

 

my stomach condition got better. i think i have issue with my bowels but the pill i took (a pill for to fix pylori, it has bacteria that attaches to pylori so that the pylori is taken out. i understand that this triggers also immune system and immune system cells fill bowels and they also create bloating as a result. so i stopped taking that pill 1 day ago since has been 7 days taking and i saw i still burp but not like before,  it were unnice to be not able to rest  due to constant burping. but now its very rare. i understood that the pill i take to resolve possible pylori case (i ddnt knew but since it looked natural treatment i said lets try) also increased burping frequency. but i guess if i had any pylori it might been resolved cause i really took lots of that pill in last 7 days maybe 2 per first 5 days and maybe 1 for last 2 days. (since prescription page said 2 pills per day)  i couldnt believe i rested last night. i slept for half a day last night. i couldnt believe i ddnt burped again. its very nasty illness to burp is. you cant even rest. its now very rare. i still need to go to doctor surely but i observed the stomach issue resolved of the entrance part of the stomach but burping problem not fully resolved and i think i would arrange doctor visit sometime.  not urgent though since i can now fall asleep before it even made it impossible to fall asleep at night:S its like being tired very much but not being able to sleep, exactly like that. so its a nasty type of illness. but its now lesser and i could rest/fall asleep.

 i think this burping needs to be checked definitely. since it could be anything. from innocent type of  food allergy to any other stuff like cancer. i wish i dont have cancer but surely need to be cautious and visit doctor sometime.

 

 

and also even rare burping still happens. maybe because of the pylori solution pill? possible. it might resolve in sometime maybe.

 

i dont know what is wrong with my digestive system. mahybe its allergy to some food types or maybe other. 

at aslyum application i would try to summarize all stalk/slander/harrasment incidents from stasi of Turkey briefly. i told all of them so you readers know all. 

 

 

ok i would tell this to consulate office to get early indicator of if i have chances to succeed in asylum application or not. If i dont have i would try to search in other places.

 

 

meanwhile have an interview soon with a cool Berlin company thats working with work from home practise(has no office). if i get the job i would have chances of doing asylum applications during week since i could go to a country in weekend and apply to asylum whilst i am working and taking 1 hour leave. cool. 

i think i really liked my salary here so that i could arrange 2200 euro costing holiday visits etc:)\\\

 

 ok so this month i would have to use bike for that though since taxi takes 600 euros per month. ok. i need to make bike be fixed first. ok adventuree of biking to work whilst having stasi of Tr stalking resumes. taxis were feeling more comfy and safer. ok i use earbuds and some additional headphones and would do that whilst biking. 

it is at least electric bike. before i were using normal bike which were very stressful cause you cant go fast with that at least in my weight and when stalk happens it feels very stressful moment and dont like it.

  i think i am the miost weird employee of the company that comes to work removes out earbuds:) i guess they dont have any employee that has stasi stalker/harrassing/slandering :) 

i think company never had such employee like me :)

i also before sometime used electric bike then moved completely taxi to before. but it were funny when entering workplace someone says some sentence and i dont understand since hadnt taken out my earbuds yet :) i mean i wonder if colleagues wonder why does any one bikie with earbuds on.  if it were 30 years ago Berlin's east Germany they would might understand :D but its the Turkey's Stasi not Germany related any but still stasi.  so i try to protect my psychology from creepy stalk;/slander/harrasment incidents with earbuds and headphones but still i need very loud earphones i think since my ears hears so good. 

 

 

but maybe some exercise would be healthier :) i mean biking. even electric bike still some level exercise it would be. 

 if i werent lazy i might had taken drivers license and go to work with car but i did laziness and also have agoraphobia and avoid going outside at no costs most time. unless i have to. due to persistent stalk/slandering/harrasment of Tr's stasi. so i think if i wertn agoraphobic i might had attended driving license course and took  license and go to work with car and i think main reason of not having license is not laziness but just agoraphobia whihc is related to stasi of Tr's nasty slandering/harrasment/stalk activities outside that i blogged about. 

 

soon this tort of constant stalk/slandering./harrasment confrontation would resolve i think. i would find asylum somewhere i think. 

 

Berlins' addon to my life is i could arrange visits to other countries now since i have salary that enables it. other else the stasi of Tr, its stalk/slandering/harrasment makes life not a perfect version of life here honestly. i am not ok with my life here cause i cant go outside cause stasi has too much members here and they dont only harrass in outside, they even rented i think a flat in vicinity and stalk/s;andering/harrasment also happent from vicinity flat once. and also sometimes from street. but soon life would be ok/happy again. 

 

i tell every stalk slander incident in blog. so readers all know every side of this stalk/slandering/harrasment topic. 

my workplace is good. but my problem is not with workplace or Berlin but its related to stasi that is usually constantly doing harrasment/slandering/stalk activities. so this is why i dont like my life here. if stasi hadnt harrassed i would be happy also here. but i dont call it any happiness to my life here cause stasi stalks/slanders/harrasses. i dont call an agoraphobic version life any happy life. only happy part of my life here is salary. or my flat. and my math studies etc. or the view of tree infront of my flat. but nothing else. cause i dont go outside. cause everytime i go, i were stalked/slandered/harrassed by the stasi of Tr. 

 

i am grateful to salary here so that i could go to other countries searching for asylum. Germany is not ok to me since Tr's stasi has lots of members here i think.  Turkey is also surely not ok as expected cause stalk/slandering/harrasment started there. 

 

so goal is to find an asylum. i start with USA chances. 

i am very grateful to Germany for the salary part of life here and the tree view and that i could buy lots of maths books to study. 

but stasi of Tr makes it unlivable here to me the default nasty stasi stuff happens happent but in creepy levels. 

anyway i blogged every part of this. dont need to blog this confronting stasi experience more i think. you know it all if you read my blog for a lot while.

 

ok so this weekend i would try to focus back to maths studies. 

 

good pooints added to my life here: i before were not being able to go to visits sparing 2200Euros. so i think my economy got better here.

secondly this flat's view of tree and flat itself is very nice.

workplace is good. 

but otherelse i cant go outside and that makes it a not ok life version. 

but i wish to solve this through asylum chances and i would report all these stalk/slander/nharrasment incidents as told. it were a really creepy level of stasi stuff that happent to me not even slight stasi stuff it were very creepy/nasty level. and i would try to find human rights lawyer to init the protection against stasi's stalk/slandering/harrasment. 

anyway. 

i talked too much of this. 

anyway so i have to wait 1 month to check asylum chance in USA named cool place.

 

 

and maybe biking would be some healthier life version for this next month. 

 

i guess so. 

now i have a headphone that is more powerful so i guess i would not hear if stasi harrasses this time.  when someone waits in the corner like a light stop and shouts you a slander harrassment word when you are waiting for the light to get green, you hear it even with headphones music of noise sounds. but now i have better headphone maybe this would protect my ears/my psychology. this very much repeatedly happent. this like waiting in a place i would pass with bike and shouting some creepy sentence with saying some slander words etc. 

 

 

anyway i feel stronger now to this topic. 

 

 

ok if i could immigrate to USA, i dreamt of what i would carry. i think i would take some clothes of mine and those math books surely definitely with me.  hmm my flat has more items than i came in and i would try to give to the land owner if needs or anyone needing them. like this exercising bike or else.  

in this 10 days visit, i wouldnt carry all my belongings cause i have a workcontract here that i have to work some months after resigning. so i would return back here then in meantime try to find remote jobs and resign and try to cover handle stuff in flat like keyboard i bought maybe if anyone needs. or exercise bike etc or air cooler or some shelves.  

 

ok so i would investigate if have such asylum chances from consulate interview and would try to get to know if i could have any chance or no chance at all. if no chance at all kind of reply i get, i would try out other asylum chances. but if i get might be possible answer then i am surely going to soemc ity there that i investigated some airbnbs of to init my asylum application to try my asylum chance  :)