hmm day started with tai chi training but i am unfortunately bored right now. ok its enough tai chi for morning. i laughed alot to my lack of coordination capability at some movements like turning arms in reverse directions like preparation movements. is it easy for everyone to do that or is it just hard for me, but i learnt it but still its not any natural movement to me that is easily done. i mean turning arms in reverse directions.
i added tai chi trainings to get prepared to the course before going course cause i lag in sports wtr to other people so i think i should prepare before any sports course.
i dont know if i would go to that course in Berlin it would cost. maybe some other time. maybe i find a course in here instead. hmm i am unsure what to do on that topic.
for bouldering i might had found one gym that i would invesigate how much it costs to do bouldering sports. e.g. shoes. it means 500 calories or 1000 calories per hour which is amazing.
i started to eat less also. thats nice. losing weight mainly depends on eating sports is just side stuff but it just depends on eating actually mainly. it just depends on calories intake.
i think i would buy my monitor tomorrow. cause i need monitor for the other computer.
i searched working spaces to do work today but none of them thats open on sundays has seemed to have monitors in its pictures. i needed monitor. anyway. so i think i cant work to that coding project on today.
for human rights lawyer, i would investigate today. hmm. other than that, i wish to spend day then studying to some language revising activity plus ai project continueation on bnf side. which i paused some days awhile studying to other projects etc.
hmm happy hallowen :)
hmm would prepare myself some noon food now. then would resu,e bnf ai study. hmm cause its impossible to do work on coding projects i think with this laptop but first task of tomorrow is buying self a monitor. and mybe some more thicker coat cause my autumn coat is nice but i guess colder days might happen in which i might need more thicker one. this one is exactly for autumn period. not for colder
ok i arrange myself every morning and everynight tai chi course cause i want to be fluent in this so that i would check out this chi stuff/theories. using this sports.
and it also helps posture also i think helps muscles on posture either i think. and also energizes person like if sleepy it creates energy feeling. i were feeling tired some sore in my muscles(since i carried my heavy luggage 2 days ago) but then it passed after i did today's training session. helped healing muscle soreness and tiredness in morning.
hmm i think today i arrange studying finishing bnf study of ai project and some comp. language revising studying. ok.
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yayyy its so comfy right now. feels like this study desk feels like studying to maths inside a cafe. i had ordered food today. since i need to do shopping more to cook food. i sip my tea with going over the bnf with jazz or chill out musics.
hmm i revise previously studied topics since gave 10 days or more break to the studying of the bnf. hmm would have today maths studying in this cafes chairs like chair desk that i liked. makes feels like being inside a cafe. hmm studying maths day it is then. lets finish the unfinished study part of the bnf study today to document the bnf today.
guh's maths grammar version study continued on today. yupp.
yayyy i would also continue studying to tai chi since i am really interested to this chi topics :D since i really really might be a psychic.
i think i ran out of anthropology podcasts to do check psychic stuff. i actually listened to them to learn anthropology 90% of the time. but latest i might did tests of psychic stuff with also.
hmm i wonder what else topics i could check for psychic topics. hmm i need to find out another psychic topic to check.
zener cards dont work in my case.
i would try to figure out some automated tests for me. using again words maybe. maybe i could write an ai based text creator and would randomly have it create texts and check coincidences with that. of course it wont be in.tellectual texts anyway. this i think i could try out. of a random paragraph writer ai that works writes randomly that from which i could check out my [psychic skills. like have it write 100 or alike paragraphs or pages. and i select randomly from one of them. of course it wouldnt be any having any intellectual content unlike anthropology podcasts. its just designed to test that possible psychic skill. of eigenvalues alteration theory of mine. that the moment i chose a page from that auto generated 100 or alike pages, that if coincidences happens or not. and would try to figure out the probability of possibility of odds of this happening usually with trying to understand. hmm i liked this idea. i can use opengpt for this. i could then create some mathematical formulation for to model the probability of psychic stuff in my case. of to conclude whether for real an abnormal psychic stuff happent or not. i think might happen i tend to believe i might be a psychic after the red blanket's coincidence.:S in that one, i were cold i went to shop to buy blanket. i from many blankets liked the red very reddish blanket. then i went home. in night i told myself, lets do a psychic test with anthropology podcasts. then i said lets select a topic to think and check whether if psychic coincidence happens or not with the podcast i were going to listen to. i looked to my tshirt with stripes (black stripes). then i said lets think of stripes word. then opent a podcast just randomly again. and podcast told about a movement in an Asian country with a name of red shirted people or such name. i just had randomly selected again a podcast from anthropology podcasts department. then i looked to another cloth i bought (in addition to the blanket) it had cross stripes of red. it were a blanket again but also like cloth. since it were very cold at nights (and it were a summer house with no heating utinsils) i bought two such stuff. then i wondered if the cross stripes on the blanket which are red colored are also whether if they are called stripes in clothing. then when investigating cross stripes word i saw same tshirt i have that i thought of in internet. hmm not that much of coincidence that i think. but in overall i figured out the psychic stuff if exists, doesnt work like: lets think of a topic and have the psychic coincidence happen be based on that. no it happent with an unrelated topic of the red blanket i bought that day. if it is a psychic coiincidence. it might be or it might be as well just usual randomness. but one before, same coincidnce happent with paper and pencil so i tend to stay on the side of believers to psychic topic/phenomena due to my own these experiences. so since i am running out of anthropology podcasts to listne to, i would write such test system to my psychic skills tests cause zener cards dont ever work in my case.
what i thnk of psychic topics. i think subconscious mind part of our minds is much more than normal brain and could read internet without needing to read it. or know about all podcasts without listening to them and moves the random choice of conscious side to the one with the paper and pencil for instance. my theory is like that. of how this works. of like quantum brains like theories mine is. i think subconscious side is maybe quantum level intellgnt and dont find needing to communicate with conscious side alot. maybe in everyone this is like this. and then some people such communication happens e.g. in psychics. that subconscious wants to show its existence with making weirdities like paper and pencil or emerald etc. to present be present little bit on conscious side. maybe to support conscious side. so everytime such weird coincidence happens in anthropology podcasts, i thank from my conscious side to the subconscious side for the magical presence it has. for showing presence of. maybe for supporting conscious side. i dont know. maybe i think all people have this quantum brain side. but maybe only in psychics it communicates to the conscious side. i dont think this brain stuff only exists in psychics. i thiknk it must exist in all people. but just when this communicates with conscious side, it happens be called as psychic stuff.i think all people mjust have this skill inherently actually.
maybe its just randomness and no such subconscious side exists?
for me, i tend to be in believers side. i tend to believe that it really exists. due to my own experiences.
(but its a belief and not a fact.)
i cant make my subconscious cooperate with me on zener tests. i dont know why but psychic stuff never works in that. somehow my subconscious doesnt seem to be interested to zener cards. but it happent to me in listening anthropology podcasts. so i would try to setup tests to me resembling anthropology podcasts but not any intellectually intense nor any having intellectual content unlike those podcasts with very high information density. i wonder if my subconscious would cooperate with my conscious side on that opengpt generated articles test i intend to try. lets see. but later. i dont know when i wuold make it ready. i think,
maybe its about learning new topics. maybe subconscious side related to psychic skills is located near to that functionality. i mean for zener cards to not work and for anthropology podcasts (with veyr very high information density and lots of new topics to learn of) i think maybe psychic functionality might reside right connected to learning functionality.
ok i have no idea if thats the case. in that case, opengpt artciles test wont work.
ok maybe this idea is not definitely axiomatic either, but it seems illogical to think that such theory can cover this topic or explain it any. i thinkits just nonsense explanation.
i dont know how subconscious works to create such result. but i would try to find another test type that works unlike zener cards which never work for me.
i really liked this psychic topic :D
and tai chi seems fun. if i could ever learn to use chi in that? i dont know :) but still its nice that i found a sports to do at home every day. thats good for posture/muscles.
hmm i dont know if it would really enable to communicate to chi? or subconscious?
i think my subconscious likes to communicate with me with other ways :) (i mean anthropology podcasts) that red tshirt made me think as really if my subconscious is trying to show existence of itself to me. to prove that it really exists. so i would try to interact with it. find ways to interact with it. (though these are just beliefs to restate, but i believe to these. but its not facts. but i believe to and i think really might be alike how i believe to. i dont know but i really very believe to these stuff and believe that i have a subconscious mind thats psychics alike that tries to show its existence to me)
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hey when i write last hour "i think my subconscious tries to prove show it exists to meain..." right whilst writing that sentence again burping with patt sound happent :)
so lets ssetup a fantastical narrative on this: (its a belief. i believe i have such subconsciousness with psychic skills)
a paragraph to my subconsciousness be this as :) right to my subconsciousness :)
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hey thank you for your presence :) you know that patt sound, how do you manage to do it? :) how do you can you read internet (learn podcasts) without me being reading/listening beforehand? how do you do these? its amazing :) i thank to you for your presence :) hey if ever my security gets under threatened, can you protect me with the way you do patt sounds? can you always please protect me :) my subconscious side, thank you for your presence :)
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ok this has been just a fantastic paragraph. its just a belief. i believe to that my subconsciousness is having psychic skills :) i dont suspect even that it can be wrong level belief it has became due to weirdities in anthropology dept's podcasts.
i believe to its existence. but would try to ealso continue tests with ways to figure out how to do build up a communication mechanism to my subconsciousness. i would try to setup some easier communication method. or maybe it only attends whenever it wants. ok. that might be the case in which communication effort might be useless :P
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ok too much whimsical paragraphs it has been :P
i liked setting up a whimsical narrative to my blog on halloween :) to entertain you readers with paranormal stuff stories on halloween :)
but this thank narrative doesnt happen like this paragraph but i usually thank it for real whenever an anthropology dept's podcast coincidence happens :) for doing coincidence. but i am not 100% sure it exists. i am investigating. but i believe that it might really exist. and i thank to it for existing :)
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i still dont know what that patt sound is. is it false sensation due to deoxygenation right before burping? or does such sound really happens?
hmm i bought a voice recorder (for collecting evidence to char. assntn stuff if ever another stalk slandering incident happens outside like a slander shouting which i never reply but to record if happens, yuppp my sound recorder that i would open always full whenever i go to outside (not in workplace if ever i work) but i mean outside as outside, cause stalk slandering incidents happens outside, slander shoutings. i never reply. but i would record to collect evidence. it happens in my native language. anyway) but i thnk i can use it to also investigate this patt sound. to check if its a false sensation or do i have brain waves that does patt sound somehow? if i were psychic that could read internet without needng to(referencing anthropology podcasts), i guess that subconscious might invented how sound waves works and might use them with its intelligence with creating waves using its intellgnce. so if i am a psychic that patt sound is really possible. but i dont know if i am psychic or not.
to me being a psychic must be something like having a subconscious quantum brain thats very both intellgnt but non interactive most times. maybe sometimes interacts to conscious side in some people, and those people get called as psychics. i think this is about quantum brain modules. if psychic topic were to be exist, for it to be able to read or know podcasts without ever before listening to that pencil/paper podcast before, it must have skills like using wifi even with wave tech inside it invented since it be intellgnt module like that, maybe we people all have super intellgnt quantym computers inside that but very rarely interacts to us? and in psychics such interaction happens more?
so my suggestion to anyone interested to be psychic, just ask for interaction from your brain itself. i think everyone must have this module already. i dont think only psychics would have it. if i have such module, everyone else must has it, it must be a common feature in brain's modules.
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i think everyone must be psychic. just ask things from your subconsciousness to prove its existence then it might show up :) then listen to oxford university's anthropology podcasts (very high density of information content). then check if any coincidence happens or not. maybe the magic happens to you also? :)
if doesnt happen, in the end, you would had listened to anthropology courses with very high information density.
let me provide the address of the very high information density having podcasts page:
https://podcasts.ox.ac.uk/series/anthropology
take care to select a random choice that you liked the title of and then see if huge coincidences happens with that.
maybe this weirdty happens to you also:)
my coincidences are like: i saw emerald word in a page that takes my interest both emerald word and both page. then 1 hour later i randomly select a podcast i liked title of and podcast talks of emerald word for 5 minutes at least.
i wonder if this happens to others. please check if this happens to you also.
or things like: i told i forget my plant names in blog. then i randomly listen a podcast and podcasts says about something like forgetting plant names.
or asking from people paper and finding a pencil to write to to prepare to an interview. then in 30 minutes beforehand, opening a podcast randomly and podcasting person says asks people for paper and pencil.
or buying a red blanket. then in night making podcast randomness test with choosing randomly a podcast, and podcast tells about red tshirts movement in an Asian country.
so i think that anthropology podcasts with very high information density contents having page might be a place where subconsciousness like hang out, or content that they like to read. so you can test this interaction to your subconscious also with this method i think.
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hmm.
too much psychic topics for a blog page for today:)
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ok since its halloween lets go to twhimsical mode more.
i mean i wish to turn the mood/narrative of the blog to fantasy novels with sourcerers right now. please dont take seriouis. just below lines are just fantasy i build upon weirdities of psychic topics:
a mixture of fantasy plus really happening pyschic phenomena it is.
below lines holds fantasy a sourcerer novel like stuff.
hmm.
so its true that psychic stuff happens. but i just since its halloween now move to create novel like narratives upon that. or just whimsical stuff. since its halloween.
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my queries to myself...
if that patt sound were done by my brain.
if i were ever under a threat, how would my brain protect me i wonder.
there are inconsistencies in everyone has a quantum computer inside logic. for instance then everyone would eventually behave with super intelligence under the hidden directives/motives of their subconsciousness. there is either subconsciousness that all people have, dont care that conscious side that much. or its that they rarely interact with conscious side in some people.
still there is such logical fallacy in such hypothesis. it doesnt have strong axiomatic epistemological grounds. if subconsciousness were their super intellgnt version were present all around, where are they? it doesnt seem to me everything is happening with super intelligence in world around. so this theory feels incorrect. either subconsciousness left caring or interacting to conscious side in most people except psychics it does magic looking like stuff to interact. or else this theory is wrong.
i tend to believe a super intelligent subconsciousness' presence. maybe in all people. but does psychic weirdities only in some just random people whom get later called psychics.
you know i discovered my stupidity in not seeing the tshirt coincidence. in that last coincidence of podcasts i mentioned. it exactly felt like subconsciousness of me replied with doing a coincidence as i asked for. hey subconsciousness, thank you :)
i wonder what else skills subconsciousness has. if its the thing that creates patt sound when i burped. i wonder it but i might not be able to learn since my burping illness seemed to be reduced alot.
anyway coming to fantastic topics:
i know you readers like reading me since i talk of psychic topics :D
if you are reading me, you must be liking psychic topics i guess.
:D
ok but i started to get bored of this topic for today cause i over talked over and over again :P
ok i couldnt convert it to a sourcerer novel since i get lost in temporary topics of my life and intentions to create a novel part failed right now.
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of course in the novel our conscious side wont be the sourcerers. but the unconscious side.
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i remembered one of my dreams. in my dreams there were people with an atlas that when spread to floor had its all drawings with lights. like a light map of current position of galaxy. i liked that dream alot. there were travelers of galaxies. and they just came to roof of 2 floor place to do like hang out there chat/music. then they went to travel another galaxy. i thought i wish they took me together. :D i never forget this dream :D they were peoople like 8 or 10 people. i dont know. people with atlases of light i called them in my mind. but just a dream.
it were an amazing looking atlas. that shows the current surrounding location of world. were holographic with lights. but it werent tv shows like, it were yellow light pink light i dont know many such colors but a holographic atlas like that. i called that dream as people with atlas with lights.
they wernt any aliens. usual people. that somehow can travel galaxies. and have an atlas thats holographic. that they spread to the roof. and looked. i said how beautiful that atlas is. and wished they took me together. but it were just a dream.
hmm need to learn how to write fantastic novels before. there are guidelines for that. to turn my psychic skills to a novel on blog. there are guides on how to write such novels with sourcerers.
i intended to write novels graphically with also focusing to enhance my drawing skills with illustrations and novel pages but with drawings. but i left that and now my drawing tablet is not beside so i cant continue that right now. i had to throw my drawing tablet to carry one less stuff before i discovered that locker room concept to put stuff of mine. anyway.
i am interested to writing novels. but i need to get training for that.
cause i am pretty sure you like reading my blog. dont you?
i am pretty sure you got addicted to reading this blog constantly for how i transferred psychic topics to you. i made it look less mechanic but reflected without altering the mystery dimension of it. i know i made you get interested to psychic topics.
had not you tried the anthropoilogy podcast departmetns pyschic test already? i bet you did that :)
maybe i have some skill of telling stories with making them seem interesting/mysterious. even though topics i told already were mysterious and i might not needing to do be skilled in story telling to tell them better.
but i figured out i like telling stories. even if they are real psychich experiences of mine or my troubles like char. assntn which are both real life. i just reflect.
but i figured out i like telling stwriting skills to uff. talking about stuff. but i need to enhance my writing skills to be able to write fantastic stuff like novels/short stories. or might do it with drawing illustrations. just black ink pen or blue ink pen on white paper. i like that illustrations drawing with ballpen or ink pen. but its not erasable. so i liked drawing tablet more cause in that i could both use ink pen and both could edit.
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hmm coming to psychic topics:
from me to my psychic side:
i really believe in your existence :)
i dont suspect any if you dont exist.
its just so weird. you look to your tshirt on drawer which has stripes. and want some coincidence with stripes from your psychic mind. then you randomly choose a podcast. then that day to be colorful you bought red blanket. then the podcast turns out talking about some topic with red tshirts. i think psychic side does stuff like that to me with such coincidences to shows it exists.
hey psychic side, i want you to protect me forever always :)
i think if you create that patt sounds, you can do 5d sound stuff to protect me if i ever be threatened. please be protect me always and forever :)
(my psychic side is like a ghost i dont scare of. i think ghost analogy would be nice. since i cant see it. but it creates coincidences. hey psychic side, hey ghost, dont ever leave me :) and please always protect me whenever i get threatened :) )
ok the moment blog really started to look like halloween content? :) but my ghost is not scary and does nothign bad/scary. it just does coincidences with anthroploogy podcasts of anthropology dept and sometimes patt sounds when before burping. so its not anyn scary ghost. i just do ghost analogies to it its not a ghost. its psychic module of my brain i think. but i liked calling it my ghost. please dont leave me ever my ghost and always protect me:)
that patt sound might be just false sensation due to deoxygenation right before burping. but the anthrplgy podcast coincidences are i think psychic stuff really. but patt could be also psychic stuff. i dont know that much. but i know i think i believe that anthrplgy podcast coincidences are done by psychic side of me. i believe very much to this explanation.
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hey my ghost (analogies to ghosts). hey psychic side of mine, please never leave me and thank you for showing your presence with coincidences in that dept's podcasts. :) i believe surely to yours existence:)
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end of today's whimsical blog :P
i know you like reading me :)
wishing a great halloween day/celebrations :)
bye :)
i wont blog this much tomorrow i think i blogged so much for today :D i intended to study but hadnt. :S would study now.
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