i had a change of mind against tai chi :D i might go to the course in Berlin that i received flyers of. 

hmm cause i think of the symptoms of the deoxygenation time point. something like cracks like glass of window or else i dont know in the house before i burp. its just either my lack of oxygen messes my sensations most possibly. anyway. i would fix that illness also.

but what if chi is real? what if telekinesis is real? i dont think so. but lets try/see. 

 

 

i got used to that crack sound coming from random place in house when my brain gets deoxygenated due to stomach illness's 1 second  before burping moment.  

lets go to fantastical interpretation: what if my brain gets in to crisis of lacking oxygen and starts impacting environment with being upset like crisis mode and impacting e.g. glass' molecules that something in house cracks. 

but most possibly it is just senses gets mixed up due to deoxygenation and its false sensation. a crack/patt sound comes right before burping sometimes. hmm the day of aldi bag like, some sound. but i think it were just coincidence.  but i confronted this crack sound coming from house right before i burp many times. but i think its just due to deoxygenation my senses getting mixed up and its false sensation i think. 

but why not try out the whimsical stuff of tai chi? :) i think i would attend that course that i twice received flyers of. its 2 days course. 

but most possibly the sound comes from my brain being messed up due to deoxygenation and my brain goes to crisis mode and creates false sensation of crack/patt sound.

lets examine tai chi sports. ok. lets try. what if chi is real? what if telekinesis is really real? though if it were real, there would be recorded scientific results and no scientifically proven any result exists other than videos of telekinesis which we dont know if they are true.

 

 

i did some fantastical brain thoughts like if my brain could alter molecules like silly whimsical stuff and thought such thoughts in that fantasy:  if my brain alters molecules when going to crisis due to deoxygenation,  and crack sound happens somewhere in home, what would happen when i die at my 60 or 70ies whichever tiem i pass away, would a crisis in surrounding me happen? i mean do my brain reacts to crisis somehow physcially? 

but physically its impossible. these telekinesis stuff physically impossible in current physics. cause brain doesnt have that energy nor produce or store it.

 

if it existed, it should depended on another physics version i think current physics does not let telekinesis to exist.  its pseudo science in current physics frameworks.

 

but lets go whimsical. why not. i mean why not try tai chi? maybe chi/telekinesis is real?  maybe just only our physics frameworks dont yet cover?

i as received second time this tai chi course from Berlin's tai chi institute, I think i would this time reply and attend.

 

 ok i really got interested to. hmm would reply to. 

 

most possibly tai chi doesnt exist.  but lets go whimsical and check if exists or not.  since this crack sound right in deoxygenation moment of my brain is weird, if it were tai chi, it would be like some crystal structure in room of material's some part somehow does confront some alterations and e.g glass, and it cracks does crack sound due to that. not cracking but creating crack sound. 

but most possibly what happens is since my brain gets deoxygenated at that moment (due to load of stomach to vessels) it just creates such false sensation. 

anyway but still i got interested to this meditation/tai chi stuff in the second time i received this email. 

 

most possibly its not real i mean chi concept. but what if its real? i think it would be interesting to check whether if exists. 

 

most possibly it doesnt exist. adn for instance that crack sound patt sound is a false sensation due to deoxygenation of my brain due to stomach illness excess bloating moment just happens right before burp. so i think its most possibly brain entering crisis due to lack of oxygen and creating false sensation of crack sound right before burping.  

nothing cracks but some crack sound comes either due to heat change due to winter/autumn you know stuff in home cracks due to heat transfer behavior and its impact on materials. i mean such type of crack sound comes. its not that any thing cracks. but just some heat transfer related crack sound type crack sound comes. i wanted to clarify it. but i think its just my brain lacking oxygen and entering crisis moment and creating crack sound at that moment due to crisis of lacking oxygen and burping happens and vessels carry bvlood again and it resolves. it happens and resolves in an instant right with burp. 

this crack sound is more frequent wtr to other symptoms. like making my legs feel trembling or my vessels feel trembling shaking is more rare symptom. when  this instant deoxygenation happens. such symptoms happens. this crack sound is more frequent wtr to other symptoms. but not very much frequently happens either.

ok guh's deoxygenated brain due to stomach illness and its symptoms. anyway. 

its an instant deoxygenation moment, the moment i burp the load on vessels gets fixed and then instantly it passes. i mean its very instantly happening stuff.  it happoens in seconds. the moment i burp the load goes away and organs get oxygenated again after seconds of deoxygenation.

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ok lets see if i have the Chi or not :)  i most possibly dont have.

ok hmm most frequent symptom or side effect of burping is actually heart burn's extended version e.g. a point in my body burns not receiving enough blood. this is the most common symptom. some days burping happens without having severe such symptoms. e.g. right now i burped but no heart burn's extended version any happent.  it happent without symptom rihgt now. but somedays i think my stomach is very heavy loading and those days burping has very much side effects. like heart burns' extended version of a point in my body feels burning with not receiving blood feeling. anyway.

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it would be interesting i think:) lets see:) lets see  if i have Chi or not :)

 

(most possibly i dont have but lets see :) )

 i dont know if Chi concept is really real. or it could be real. but lets reframe it correctly as: i dont know if i have Chi or not.  (cause Chi might be existing really but i just might be lacking it. so it would be wrong to say Chi doesnt exist just depending on my experience) (so correct sentence is: lets see if i have Chi or not? and i have no opinion of Chi topics either whether if exists or not. but lets try/see:) )

 

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i am trying to study tai chi before attending courses cause i am not good in sports any. and i wondered about also and i liked it.

 

 

that patt/crack sound happent before i started studying before a burp and  this time my headphones were on and it created some closed sound this time that is limited inside the headphones contained in headphones and amplified little bit the patt sound.  i dont know if my brain creates it due to deoxygenation moment or is something waves or such happening during crisis moment of lack of oxygen just before the burp.  but this time the headphone amplified it some level that it as if it hit the headphone. this time it got contained in headphone and not the crack sound came from house or spread to house but got amplified some tiny level in headphone some patt sound. right before burping at the moment my brain gets deoxygenated.  the difference of patt/crack sound when headphone is on made me think it might be really something waves. that brain emits when during in crisis of lack of oxygen. due to my stomach issue. but of course i am not sure. but i observed this time as if some of it hit the headphone and even amplified echoed some level. i have jbls sound canceling headphones i think. but felt like patt got contained inside headphones like it were closer patt this time. ok either its false sensation due to brain lacking oxygen. or really some thing flows through brain that interacts with surrounding and creates patt sound somehow. but sound felt like you know the music you hear from headphone has a tiny echo or bass or some headphone noise type right? it happent to patt noise. it felt like it interacted with headphones. i mean hit the headphones. because patt happent much closer. usually patt sound comes from some distant place in room. not very near, this time happent right beside my head, fgelt like contained some of it got contained hit by headphones it felt like. i dont know. it might be as well false sensation due to brain organ lacking oxygen right before burp. or it could be some wave something brain emits but in crisis mode it emits alot of it and does patt like sound around somehow. or crack sometimes. its like "patt".  but this time when my headphone were on, it happent very near my head. many days it happens coming from even other room or like 3meters distant at least some patt sound comes and i burp. or then i burp with some body point feeling burning of blood not being received. right now for instance my eyes felt heart burn feeling of not getting blood enough. sometimes its my arm a point in my arm. and sometimes this patt happens.  this time weirdly it happent right beside my head. as if headphones contained some part of it right beside my ears. it usually happens at least 2 meters 3 meters distant place patt happens sound of patt. some patt from room or other room comes and burping and other burpings body has heart burn symptoms. so huge mess of circulatuion hgappening somehow but i dont know what this patt is.  this time it felt as headphones somehow contained part of it and it became very right headphones level patt sound. and even echoeing in that system of headphone or having headphone type tiny bit amplification or it felt more because it got contained right beside my head. usually patt crack sound happens at least 3 meter distant.  this is first time it happent right beside my head in headphone level as if headphone contained it.  it might be as well a false sensation since my brain gets deoxygenated and enters some modules enters crisis mode. or it could be something some physical stuff that emits from brain and creates patt sound with surrounding wherever it hits. i think this time it got contained right with my headphone. or some of it. and even interacted with headphone cause sound came like as if it would be a sound to be listened from headphone so the vibration used sound feature of headphone with maybe vibrating the sound creating tissue in headphone.  normally this patt sound comes from a corner of room or even from 3 meters forward from next room as if something makes patt sound. this time it got contained in very vicinity of my head. i think headphones somehow interacted. 

but what i think of this: its either some false sensation during deoxygenated moment of brain/crisi of brain tissue for  lack of oxygen.  

but it felt very weird. that this time behaved diffrnt when i had headphones. made me start  to believe something really physical might be really happening. but it might be as well a false sensation due to brain having not enough oxygen and some modules having crisis momentarily. 

this very contained patt sound started to make me believe something really physical happenign and its not false sensation.  but of course i cant be sure. maybe my brain's modules in crisis tissues in crisis of lack of oxygen creates false sensation.

but i think my honest opinion, some wave something happenign imho my humble and my honest opinion.  that which i right now as i did post analysis, i think it interacted with headphbones this time. its like a sound of patt. or crack sound. i dont know what it resembles its not much sound (though this time it sounded more ) its like patt hmm i cant find what  it resembles. 

i think its most possibly false sensation due to brain tissues modules entering crisis mode due to lack of oxygen. 

but my honest and humble opinion and silly opinion is that, something like wave of brain waves or some stuff really might be happening that creates that sound whislt interacting with near outside.  cause it felt much more this time when i had headphones like if contained in vicinity. its first time this happent when i had headphones. its a not a  sound we hear so i cant describe how it is to you well. its a non existing sound type in usual sounds we hear. its patt like but not like anything actually i think any analogy would be false. ok its either brain being messed up by lack of oxygen and creating false sensation right before burping. or really our brains creates some interaction with surrounding somehow and it happens in my case when my brain is in crisis of lack of oxygen right before burping. 

i myself started to some level believe in possibility of chi like topics. i know its pseudo science in current science frameworks but yet still i started to be less skeptic and started to believe in possibility of chi like topics. specifically after stuff related to podcasts and now this patt sound which i dont know if its a false sensation due to momentary lack of oxygen in brain tissues due to stomach illness or not. 

 

i by the way liked Tai chi martial arts alot as i learnt. i would try to learn and practice and would investigate this patt sound and would try to tie it to chi exercises to get to know if i could use this patt sound on will like creating patt sound when i wish(just sound i mean). i tested it 5 minutes ago. asked my brain to create that sound. some thing created heat transfer creating crack sound in home without me burping but it could be just coincidence most possibly. i mean usual elongation of materials in autumn and creating crack sound it must be. but yet still i would investigate this topic in my Tai Chi exercises cause i dont know but patt sound happening more when i had headphones felt very weird. it felt like it got contained in headphones or interacted with them.  so most possibly its false sensation due to lack of oxygen but why not investigate the odds and i would investigate through my tai chi courses as i learn it whether if this chi could be on will controlled. of this energy inside our bodies stuff. so i would check the meditation sites and learn about meditation also and this tai chi named sport and would attend course that i received flyer of also.  cause this patt sound happening very near more louder when head phone were on is very weird. makes me think it might something might be really happening like brain waves or something else and not false sensation.  or it could be as well false sensation whilst brain is in crisis due to lack of oxygen. i have no idea but my ideas started to slightly lean on oddities that something of waves of brain or something else might be happening and creating that patt sound. most possibly its false sensation due to brain going to crisis due to temporary&instant lack of oxygen situation due to stomach illness (which i think hernia and over weight and bloating due to pylori results) i dont know what to think but i am not any more skeptic sided on this topic. due to this headphones on patt sound's difference  wtr to when happent headphone wernt on. felt as if whatver it is interacted with membrane inside headphone somehow. or got contained by it. 

but most possibly its just false sensation since my brain is deoxygenated instantly due to stomach illness.

anyway. but i am not any more skeptic to Chi topics and would investigate. and would try to learn Tai Chi martial arts type to be able to utilize this Chi if ever exists. i am no more a skeptic in this topic.  i think its most possibly a false sensation due to instant deoxygenation due to stomach illness but its worth investigating since it might noit be as well. lets see:)

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ok if chi exists, hmm what it could be used i wonder. hmm would i be like pushing asteroids away from world. ok i think most possibly my chi wouldnt be that much to protect world from asteroids. i think my chi if exists is just in level of just creating sound. it just creates sound. very low chi i think. 

i think if i have chi its just enough to just make sound and thats all. i mean i think if i learn to use it, i could do shows of this chi stuff :) of showing chi exists with creating patt sound in front of people. ok. would be weirdo stuff. 

 

ok i would try to learn to utilize it since if exists, i would want to show prove to people it exists with infront of people i would had made patt sounds.

 

i think it wont make me a marvel superhero if existed. since i dont think if chi exists is some level that could move asteroids away from world.  i mean it would have been nice to be like marvel superheroes with chi. e.g. spiderman or marvel characters with psi/chi.  but i dont think if chi exists it would be anything powerful enough to be any superhero.  i mean pushing asteroids away from world. or saving people in earthquakes or eleven's like skills :D like pushing cars afloat? no i dont think chi named concept is such stuff if it exists. most possibly i dont have chi either and its just false sensation. but if it exists, its just like something that creates sound. nothing else. its not something thats like marvel characters' skills.  or any thing like jedi skills.  it just creates sound thats all. so its not any sueprhero stuff at all. just sound. if it were music it would be useful like i could had played melodies from my head:D. but just patt sound.  hmm i would try to play songs through tai chi courses then also:) would be funny to be a musical equipment like personality :D  that plays sounds. :D anyway enough joking about my hypothethical chi psi stuff. i am no more skeptical about this.  i would seriously invest effort to meditation courses. cause that patt sound with headphones on were weirder wtr to previous patt sounds before burping.  it felt something interacted with headphone and got contained and sounded more. but of course all could be just false sensation due to lack of oxygen flow to brain due to stomach illness. anyway. 

i wo0uld try to learn this skill if exists so that i can play music with it and do chi shows to people where i play music from my head and create patt sounds based music. to prove to them its real. if i found out later its really real/exists.

but i dont know if its real myself yet. i would investigate. through tai chi martial arts. and meditation stuff. to try to use this energy if ever exists. so that i can create patt sounds and play even melodies with so that i prove to people this Chi stuff exists.

and beside, if i learn to make it more like marvel characters' level, it would have been cool to be like that so that i protect world from asteroids or alike:D but most possibly i dont bhave chi and its just false sensation due to lack of enough blood flow to brain due to stomach illness. i think its most possibly false sensation. but if i figure out its not, i would prove to you wth playing melodies with it. but most possibly its false sensation and that brain goes to crisis and has false sensations whilsts modules lack oxygen/tissues lack oxygen.

i have heartburn happening all over my body due to my stomach illness and it as told sometimes hits my brain like this. sometimes runtime side of brain sometimes nonruntime. sometimes my body's one random part. it is an instant burning pain feeling at any possible part of my body. of having not enough blood flow/oxygen to. 

 

 

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