Conflict of focus 

I want to both watch TV shows from Netflix and both iterate in coder ai project. Though visibly I can't manage this and it turns mutual exclusive in my case that I need to choose either one of them

My brain is having too much plasticity maybe that I think not being able to focus well  to maths projects whilst watching tv shows is actually a causal link having topic. 

I think my brain gets structure optimized to whichever activity I focus but that makes topics mutual exclusive. I need to select either one activity not both. Shit. I wish I were like others whom can both watch TV shows then also manage to iterate math projects  

Visibly I can't do both

 I think I have an extended level of plasticity situation  and my brain gets organized for whichever activity I focus to.

Maybe all other people are like this not only me.  Or maybe i m like this. 

Ok then how I reorganize my brain to math studies? I need to focus to maths study then rest would come I guess. Ok so I postpone other focus taking activities until coder ai project is ready. 

After coder ai is ready then I might again resume watching tv shows rests awhile. But until then I stop. Cause I just think I really have a high plasticity brain and it makes focus a mutual exclusive topic I mean I can't both watch TV shows and both study to maths. I wish I were like others whom could do this multi tasking in focusing context/scope

Or it could be as well that I have low brain plasticity wtr to others. I dont know what makes tv watching & math study mutual exclusive in my case. 

It could be like this in my case due to low plasticity either. Why the heck I think i have high neuroplasticity. It might be as well be due to low neuroplasticity. 

I don't know the cause of this mutual exclusiveness. It's just I know my brain gets organized when learning and that's very much tied to whichever scope I focus. 

I want my math study process back. I want my focus back. At least until coder ai project is ready. 

Living with an autist brain in a world not quite integrated to autists. I definitely sometimes find we autists as even other human species as since observing many times of misunderstandings of my words in blog. 

I really started to think in my autism case, that we really are like other species wtr to neurotypical people. Just looking to how many times I were misunderstood with words in blog.

I just started to think like that. Autism is really divergent to neuritypicals talks/development of brain/communication skills and I decided it's like this by checking how many times I been misunderstood in blog

Maybe other autists don't feel like this. I think it's related to autism degree I think I have high degree of autism. And makes it feel like being some kind of alien I mean other species.

I just feel like other species wtr to neurotypicals. I an pretty sure most autists don't feel like this. I think this is related to autism's degree/type. I personally feel like another human species (not better nor worse) just only looking to how many times I get misunderstood in blog. Some misunderstandings are horrific some others are funny. 

I think high degree of autism really feels like being another human species(from my case of high level of autism 8 speak these words). I think high degree/level autists would had agreed on my idea. Or might not. Its a neurotypicals world that we try to fit in live in with constantly prone to be misunderstood in various very misunderstandings from topics of neurotypicals world that we don't hold/have.  actually I definitely think we are like another human species. Neither worse nor better wtr to neurotypicals either. But very prone to be misunderstood in blogs by neurotypicals by their worlds topics which we don't have in our worlds. It's our world's are not similar and don't have unnice topics of neurotypicals that they would try to misunderstand our blogs with. We autists our blogs are prone to be misunderstood unfortunately by neurotypicals with topics of their neurotypical worlds which we don't have in our worlds. 

Neurotypicals and high degree autism is very severely incompatible to communication as I observed how many times I get misunderstood in my blog.