hey coincidence in tv show were about depression and a person taking life of own in depression topic. i am not any depressed. just when my stomach issues occures, i wonder if it were cancer, then i thought being lazy to go to doctor would be unnice, then i thought if i died of cancer what mom would think, and then i thought world is really a maniac/crazy place and talked of not with any intention of suicide concept, not any interested i mean people whom cut their vessel etc to suicide. since cancer seemed such topic like that depressive topics. not that i have any depression. just cancer topic (i dont think i am cancer but it might as well be) made me thought such ideas i mean i wish not to be misunderstood as if i am any depressive nor interested to such topics. i just thought if i died, what mom would think it would be very unfair to her. when talking of cancer topic and thinking its depressive topic i mean cancer like topics. then in the tv show i saw a mother whose daughter has committed suicide and she were traumaitzed due to that. so this were the tv show coincidence this time. i didnt liked the entire remaining section of that episode so i skipped forward and watched other episodes. but this were the coinciding topic. not to be misunderstood if i am any depressive etc.just what i thought (what mom would think its unfair) part popped up in tv show scene as i thought it 3 hours ago. 

then i thought world is a crazy place with maniacs doing maniac things. any type of maniacness. either character assasinations  wiht trying to defamate or wars in world etc etc . so i just not depressive but this were the coincidence of last night.

but i learnt for instance in tryibng to be defamated with a very impossible lie i learnt that this is like resembles war, and this is their war tactic, i mean try to defamate a person with slandering and i learnt how to fight against protect my psychology against their various character assasination tactics of slandering all along. 

character assasination is like war. metaphor to. but not horrific as war either. war is much more horrific. its so unnice/horrific that war exists right now in world:S 

but slightly metaphorical to wars character assasination concept is. and a time moment comes you get learn their tactics to try to use various tactics in character assasination. and start learning to not care/really not care the psychopathic intent of trying to slander. character assasinations are psychopathic. it holds psychopathic intent to destroy a person with slandering. 

but as time passes, you learn to not care when slandering attempt/effort happens as you observe.

 

its like you get used to their slandering tactics in time. i mean psychopathy having slandering attempts. i think character assasinations hold a huge psychopathy factor. since it holds dishonestly trying to destroy a person's character with slandering with lies. so its psychopathic i think character assasination topic is entirely psychoipathic beside the baseline sociopathy factor (of slandering/lies). so i think character assasinations are mixture of huge degree of psychopathy plus sociopathy applications/process.  but you learn to not care when character assaisntion happens. 

its like that character assasination incidents becomes a nuisance in time that is not important to you. that you learn how to fight back with not caring/with nihiliation. cause its their tactic. something like psychic demolition it is. and processed applied with lies. so you learn how to protect your psychology from psychic demolition with lies/from character assasination. with complete nihiliation whenever another character assasination incident happens with severe defamation intents. with very impossible lie types.   but as you know its metaphorical to wars, some kind of shelling happens to my metaphorical building of me myself with lies, then you got to learn to create a shield over your psychology against it and apply a complete nihiliation to another slandering incident/attempt with impossible lies. character assasinaiton are metaphorical to wars. but not any horrific as wars either. since it involves just one person. wars includes millions of people, wars are exponentially horrific/unfair, so whilst i did some metaphor to war concept, its definitely maybe as horrific as one millionth of wars, cause character assasinations happens to one person, but wars impact millions of people, wars are horrendous. 

you get to understand that psychopath/sociopath type personality type./ would never stop being psychopath and persist yet another character assasination/slandering incident. 

as i confronted both in my noninternet life a character assasinastion with different slander type and plus on online confronted a character assasination with unsimilar & much worse slander type. in time you understand that psychopaths sociopaths would never stop being psychopath sociopath and you learn to not care when you observe yet another slandering attempt(with impossible slander type) with shielding your pshychology against it. cause it  is very untrue/impossible slander type. yet psychopaths would never stop trying to hurt whichever, e.g. with lies. its just you get used to confronting such psychologic disorders on online or outside life in character assntn that happent last 5 years with a less horrific yet again impossible slander type. but online slander that happent werfe much more horrific. anyway, so all along, i got to learn to uncare, because its completely untrue. i learnt to nihiliate. 

that moments of war like moments of hard moments in life(e.g. character assasination), I learnt that this world is really pretty insane place. with lots of insane personality types (E.g. psychopathic/sociopathic personality disorder people that tries to hurt people e.g. with slandering).

 but you learn to nihiliate in time. i mean protecting your psychology from being hurt. because the slander is completely untrue.  and you understand its theirs war tactics. sometimes psychopath sociopath people setup wars to people and they use weapons of slandering. its not as horrific as real wars cause it only impacts one person. though its quite challenging to that person though. though you learn skills to fight back i mean to nihiliate entirely i mean to protect your psychology from being hurt when slandering attempt/intent happens with completely impossible/untrue slander types. 

as you learn to fight back, it becomes much less horrific. cause you understand its like war. its their aim to hurt your psychology and every topic of your life with slandering. so you gotta get used to repetitive slandering attempts awhile since you understand its belonging to psychologic/sociopathic psychological disorders types that such personality type behaves like that. and you gotta learn to nihiliate completely. and you really nihiliate completely after then. and dont let you hurt with slandering. 

as you understand there happens psychological disorders in world like psychopathy/sociopathy, then as you understand also character assasinations happens and such processes are like mechanic processes, i mean it repeats, its a process. cause psychopathy/sociopathy disorders like to behave in repetitive fashion the psychopathy factors/acts. cause i think sociopaths are also psychopaths but they try to hurt with slandering. i had no idea of this type disoerders, until i confronted character assasintn. e.g. on online with a very impossible slander type,  and before that, in character assasiantion with an unsimilar & less horrific yet still very impossible slander type. its just how world its. there exists lots of psychopaths/sociopaths. and you learn skills to cope. and shield your psychology from being hurted, when another slandering attempt you observe that happens. you learn how to not care. cause its completely untrue/completely impossible.

 

 

i think people whom hadnt confronted psychopathy/sociopathy disordered topics in their lives are lucky and people whom confronted are unlucky. but you learn how to really completely entirely nihiliate (learn skills to cope) (when slandering attempt happens)cause its like war. in wars shellings happens and its metaphorical to that. 

though wars are much more worse exponentially worse. i mean my pain of having confronted slandering attempts is billionth millionth of how horrific of wars is. i mean i wish my war metahophor is not misunderstood. cause wars are exponentially much more horrific topics. its pretty sad/shocking to read wars news in world. it has been very stressful to read that horrific tragedy news. i wish peace happens.

 

 

 i wish people be safe from wars/peace happens. its horrendous humanitarian tragedy as read about and is even traumatic to read. i wish peace happens and people be safe from war.

 

 

 

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so coming to world news again:

so i think world news is very horrific. war news is very horrific, also humanitarian tragedies etc. i wish peace happens/war ends asap. its a complete horrific news to read that we have been seeing last week. i wish war ends asap/peace happens. its very horrific to have read war news where 44 million of people are impacted. very horrific :S its surreal war tragedies and very horrific to read about:S 

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