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 i had right a ptsd moment 10 minutes ago of stalk slander incident. thought resembled as if a stalk slander incident happent.  

anyway i would  have ptsd therapy in new city i move to yuppp.  

yesterday in the living place's zeroth floor a guy loudly said one literal used in stalk slander incidents and guher also :S it were very traumatic :S  i didnt cared nor looked since its slander and that slander literal were quite alot used even in 3 years ago stalk slandering incidents. guy seemed to be sitting in a place in lobby there.  i then forgot about it after getting the room but felt very upset for another stalk slandering incident. that slander literal were exactly started to be used in harrassing incidents following stalk slander incidents 3 years ago. they started ridiculing with slanders all before and also harrassing. and i initially thoought i have some stalker problem. but seemed as stalkers were maniacs trying to accomplish character assaisnation. their method persistent harrasments/slandering. and sometimes they shouted very scary sentences including very creepy words. and it were happening constantly everytime i go outside or in flat's vicinity even. for last 4 years i am mainly agoraphobic. causes its really like really they everytime i go otusidee they somehow get to know where i am, come there to stalk harrass slander. its really like that, i mean i am really not paranoid or else. it is really an organized stalk slandering activity that happens to me. i confronted an organized character assasination effort. i am happyt i am still sane though have became agoraphobic. but i would go to therapy in new place i move to then.  i hadnt planned therapy yet but i would plan. cause 10 minutes ago i had a ptsd moment.

i dont know whom they are but an organized people set been harrassing me stalking trying to slander like this last 5 years. and as told i became agoraphobic due to that. 

i once tried to go to city life here e.g. took some electric scooter, then tried to go to coeiffur many many weeks ago. months ago. by the river side a guy shouted one of the slander literals. then i at the city center, i dropped of scooter to find the coeiffur then found but i were late as it wsere closing, then i tried to find a scooter again to return to my  city apartment flat. then whilst another guy also harrassed using another literal that were used even in earliest stalk slander incidents that it started very before with such literal where the stalkers pass by shouting such literal word, i would think i have some maniac stalkers with that literal word. for 2 years upon start of stalk slandering, i thought i have some maniac stalkers but hadnt understood the character assaisntion/slandering any, i would think by then tghere are some people that constantly stalks me shouts creepy sentences in cafes when i go to cafe or outside also. then i understood character assasination and effort of destruction with slandering.  then that time by then i started to become very agoraphobic. and i really had very creeped life very scared life as i understood i am confronting a dedicated organized character assasination process of persistent repeated stalk following slandering incidents.

the year i understood character assaisnation, i got freaked out, i got lost in scare as the stalkers would for instance come beside my flat shout sentences that tries to depict me as a slander type, it were very scary/horrific. they tried to persistently slander me/stalk follow harrass with slandering.

i wouold tell all these when i ask for VISA to the consulate officers of China/Japan to tell my reason of migration. just to be safe from a dedicated false flag alike, character assasination by unknown people. i were constantly tried to be depicted as slanders with stalk slander incidents. and shouted things that would be shouted to the slander type. it were horrific period. my life's last 5 years were very horrific.

 they would shout sentences that would be shouted to the slanders they create to slander which are very untrue. they would create slanders and torture with shouting things that would be shouted to the slander type every where e.g. everytime i go to a cafe/outside etc or sometimes they would do this with coming to my home's vicinity, shouting sentences that would eb shouted to the slander type :S

it were truly very horrific time/period.

i hope that i would be saved from character assaisntion organized character assasination in China/Japan if i could go/migrate to there. 

i mean i heard that there are lots of polices in Japan. that its very safe that people even could jog in very midnight without being scared. I also heard that its one of the safest countries in world.

same goes for China i learnt that China also people even could jog in midnight even without scaring. and same for China, I heard that its the one of the safest countries in world.

i dont even want to jog even. i just want to save self from organized character assasination proicess which continously happent last 5 years. 

it started 5 years ago just like that and never stops. started with recurrent persistent stalk following harrasments and creepy sentences shouting and plus slanderings and repeatedly happent over and over again and never stops. 

its like people doing this have some huge organizational skills to do such character assaainstions of harrassments following stalk slandering activities.

i confronted repeated such stalk slandering incidents over and over again. 

and as told, i am really sick and tired of not knowing how to stop a character assasination process that tried to be done to me.

i dont know where can i ask help to stop a character assasination process even. its like when you live a lone life, character assaistion becomes very hard, because you dont even know which mechanisms are there you could ask help of to stop a character assasiantion that you only yourself confronts.

and many times when i told people even suspected if i am paranoid whilst i am not and that i really confront charqacter assasination.

so being alone person sucks when you confront character assasintion. and just you dont even know where to ask help to create a safer life against character assasination.

as told last time i tried to go outside in the city, 2 such incident happent. so i really find it hard to go outside afterwards scaring would happen again a stalk slandering incident.

 

i think Germany is also very safe, but i have a  situation of character assasination confrontation and i dont know how to find help mechanisms against it here any.

i just really dont know where to ask help. how to protect mys life against character assasintion.

its like, going to Rome but not being able to travel there.

i in summer went to Rome. 

i first day or second day, took on a scooter, went to that famous city center with the fountain.  in the fountain's vicinity, a guy talking in my local language shouted the slander literal. and also again whilst going to home that day, in a restaurant some other people shouted one slander curse started to be used in stalk slandering incidents last 2 years. in the last 2 years of stqalk slandering incidents, they started to those local language speaking people started to use here's language's curses in stalk slandering incidents.

and in Rome also once more, like i dont know once more i went to outside, then whilst returning home in home's street walk path way, someone shout defamatory slandering sentence trying to defamate in my local language. 

its like these people always knews where i am when i go outside. this organized character assasins trying to slander/defamate/harrass wtih slandering.

its like they have a huge people power that they use in character assasination processes. i mean that people they articulate to stalk me follow me harrass me with slandering.  they really i think must have a huge people capacity to stalk slander me like this like everytime i went outside i were tried to be harrasssed with slandering /defamatory sentences that i thousand times reported in blog as happens last 5 years.

 so its not any joke this character assasination is. i really confronted a very one very worst form of character assasination persistently last 5 years and it never stops.

i am pretty 100% sure, if i go outside to city again on this sunny saturday, that again another stalk slandering attempt would happen. cause it always happent like this last 5 years. unbelievable. i mean to observe a character assasination happening to myself. it were really traumatic. but i am much better with respect to trauma levels before i got over mainly trauma. but i wish to solve this character assasination. and as told, i heard Japan/China are world's safest countries, so i would try to migrate to there.  its like, unfortunately the character assasination doers seems to have huge people resource in Europe a very organized character assasination people set i think they are, and i confronted persistent repeated harfrasmntns as mentioned. 

its not Europe is any unsafe. its just the character assasins are maniacs and they are not from Europe either i think cause character assaisnation started another place. 

and its not like a psychic demolition done by any country either.  its not something like psychic demolition by any country but by an unknown organized character assasins by an unknown people set dedicated to try to destroy me with slandering/harrassing persistently with defamation attempts with shouting things that would be shouted to the slander type.

for instance, its like they create false rumors about the to be tried to be character assasinated person in the city. like for instance i were biking from work to home 1 year ago, and at a light point of red light, some person shouted "they said is a slander!" and then continued with a sentence request that would be shouted to the slander type. so they create very untrue rumors in the city of the to be tried to be character assasinated person. and people shout sentences requests that would be shouted to that slander type afterwards. its very creepy to confront a character assasination. i mean its like a slow motion being tried to be destroyed persistently.  not only that, many times some guy in street would shout a slander word when i pass there with bike to go to my work place. would visibly tracked where i bike and waited there to shout the slandering sentence. seems as they even have had some very advanced position knowing skills in the character assasination incidents. 

like for instance, 2 years ago, i went to a lake, i were reading my book sometimes swimmed, then later some people came some people shouted some defamatory sentences trying to slander in my local language.  then some other people sohuted a slander word and shouted get over. one of the suppression words inslandering were get over word they would shout slander and use get over. or persistently repeatedly harrass with stalk slandering incidents in last 2 years. it were very creepy to confront organized character assaisntion effort of persistent stalk slandering harrasments.

its a very full form of character assasination process having all its dimensions of every character assasination topic in the literature/science of character assqaisnations. i mean some institutes in world analyze character assaisntions in universities, i think the character assasination happent to me included all dimensions of a full form of character assaisntion. 

its like these peoiple even stalked slandered when i went to 2 hours distant place. in ankara, my mom and dad left their second car to me (a honda) then i by the tiem they left, i that weekend whilst being agoraphobic, thought if i go to 2 hours distant place i might be able to go outside travel without stalk slandering harrassments. but i were wrong. i went to bolu lake. its like 2 hours distant to ankara. then 1 hour late i went there, i were eating some food in a cafe in some cafe by lake side. then some people started shouting requests sentences that would be told to the slander types in a distant desk of there. then 2 people were also sitting right beside my deks. and they also started using stalk slander literals sentences they persistently use in stalk slandering incidents. then i called mom and dad and loudly proudly told i am an engineer. and told about my coding projects. then the 2 peole that set in desk after my desk said sentences like "we can't mess with guher". so they whomever these people are they tried to mess my life actually destroy my life with slandering/trying to create untrue defamations. and such a persistent stalk slandering following acts. like i thought that day, yayyy i could go to outside since i would go 2 hours distant place to city. but turned out i were wrong, as mentioned, again another such stalk slandering incidnet happent.

once more, i missed going to cafe that year. i that time randomly went to a noon a cafe that were off city. and again stalkers slanderers came. it were happenign constantly like this.

and i became a full agoraphobic person. cause everytime i went outside i confronted slandering efforts.

and when i went to Berlin, many incidents, some people shouted sentences like "she were told us to be a slander_word! then they would shout some sentences like request that would be shouted to that slander type or alike or creepy sentences. then some other people like awaited in my flat's vicinity to say threatning sentences with saying also the defamation slandering words. 

it were very horrific to confront a full fledge character assasination operation. 

i written maybe thousand pages of blogs related to that everytime a stalk slandering incident happens i would write thousanfs sentences blog telling reporting the incident. and would talk hours with mom and dad and when they told "please dont care! please go outside dont be agoraphic. dont care stalkers" like sentences, i would be very upset to them and fight on phone on how i am not supposed to not care when a psycho comes beside my desk shouts some sentences that would be shouted to a slander type. mom and dad usually suggested not caring topic. that i follow not caring advise. but i dont know what else to do other than not caring when stalk slandering harrasments happens. i dont as told know even where could i ask help where psychos tries to destroy me with a full fledge character assasination operations with persistent stalk slandering attempts. 

you may not know but this group also had used some other tactics of human rights abuses. i wont mention. but one human rights abuse tactic that tries to reduce the empahty against me by the character assaisns, were also used. wehere they i observed they used a tactic from one topics i read in very severe human rights abuses done in history of humanity.  i wont mention their such topic. they shouted some literal in stalk slandering incidents, which were a tactic used in huge scale human rights abuses in humanity history that i read when i were investigating what happens to me. thatsuch human rights abuse tactic  enables the doers ofc the tort of character assasination feel no empahty to the tried to be destroyed character assaisnation confronting person.  i when read about that i figured out that that tactic were also utilized in the character assainstion process i confronted. in alot stalk slandering incidents they also shouted such literal by stalkers in various stalk slander incidents. so the planners/doers of this character assasintion had selected all tactics from human rights abuses happent in history of humanity including all aspects from character assaisnations happenign in world sometimes. it were truly a full fledge character assasination operation. 

so when i told i confonted psychological torture, its not a joke, i really confronted.it happent like that last 5 years or maybe last 6 years. and doers are also unknown. its seems to be an organized character assasintion doing people set. 

if you dont know i confronted a severe human rights abuse like this last 5 or last 6 years. and unknown organized people set are doiong such character assaaisntion to me like this.

its not something like character assaasintions done by countries like topic either. its just an unknown people set that does this. i dont think any country is behind this character assainstion i confront any. i think instead its some unknown people set. 

it were so scary that i had no work from home chance in last job many times, i had to bike to workplace. before my headphones were not good noise cancelling so it were very scary when character assasintion incidents happent as mentioned in the path i bike to go to work. then i bought a JBL and turned out it really cancels noise. so i then even started to like biking to work by then.

now i dont have bike. i sold it cheap when moving to another city. it were an awesome bike. i bought it like 600 euros or more i dont remember exactly. but i sold it 120 euros since i had to urgently sell cause the other day i were moving. 

i had another bike which were not electrical which i ddnt ever used.

 i learnt in Berlin how to setup a bike :) i became some level mechanic :) i bought 2 e bikes that i had setup there. but last final steps were done by the repairman person for first one related to brakes. for second one brakes were innate inside the bike already so it were usable so i had fully setup the second ebike. second ebike i bought were amazing really amazing. it were kind of mountain bike but in city life also were very good when going to work.  i liked this mechanic skill adon :) i really liked learning mechanic skills by then. i also assembled my cupboard there myself :) or my even chair that i ordered from internet. though chair were really really hard to assemble, i needed to have 3 arms/ i mean i needed to have 3 hands instead of my 2 hands to assemble it in some parts of the assembly but i managed to assemble somehow. (cause tyou needed to both hold and both do some other thing to the chairs one assembled part, so my 2 hands werent enough and i used very funny things like trying to use my legs even to hold it but it were very hard, it were definitely not meant to be assembled by a single person, or needed some device that holds some assembly part whilst another assembly part is attached., 1 person(me) werent enough to assemble it. but somehow wioth hard effort i managed to build my chair which really were really very comfy. but some time  later its some part broke but still were sittable. were very comfy and very cheap, i ordered for 120 euros or alike.  a living room chair it were. with resting place for my foot also. but as told, assembly of it turned out not to do done by a single person.but somejhow managed to assemble it. many many months later it broke that some assembly parts. but were still sittable.  it were very very very comfy. i many times fell asleep there during the stomach illness burpings.  my current couch is also comfy. i rest/sleep on couch but not bed due to stomach illness that in couch i can manage more straight position that is more suited for stomach illness. bed is not usable to rest for nights sleep. cause as told due to stmoach illness. )

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anyway, as told when trying to migrate to China/Japan, i would definitely tell this character assasntion topic in advance whilst asking for VISA.

hmm when last week when i heard dad is cancer, it became all overwhelming, adn i felt like wasting my life with agoraphobia due to character assasination. 

then came up the idea of going to either Japan or China if ever i could.

i would try my chances as mentioned like that to try to migrate to there.

my stalkers are not visibly European either (Since stalk started in another place but i think its not any related to that place either, as mentioned its an unknown people set doing this character assasintion not any related to any place)  but seems as I dont know where to ask help to try to stop character assasintion here any. i dont know how to stop character assasintion here. i live in Europe but i actually also dont live. i mean usually people go to holidays in weekends to cities in Europe, i just scare of going outside. cause once i went to Amsterdam daily to travel to go to a far place to travel then again stalkers slanderers also followed stalked there. 

only place i hadnt been stalked in Europe were Switzerland. I actually had not had a chance to visit other countries also.  but i saw they go stalk follow do perpetuate character assaisnation whomever they are everywhere. e.g. i just went to Rome but couldnt travel there. when i went to Amsterdam, again a stalk slander incident happent. its like they stalk do peretuate character assasination activity everywhere. 

its like i lived in Europe but i actually hadnt. i mean people live in Europe travel here. i dont even go otuside. so its definitely not like not any like living in Europe. its just living inside a flat most time.

but 2 years ago new year were awesome. in Switzerland i wernt stalked slandered, i went to Salvan by then. tried to learn snowboarding. and it were really awesome holiday. I also had a chance to see Chamonix city. I had managed to rent a 4*4 car which i traveled through mountains with snow like traveling from Salvan to Chamonix, it were truly amazing holiday :) 

i dont know how but i werent stalked slandered in Salvan. and also Chamonix. 

all my life last 5 last 6 years is like this.

wov i remembered that awesome snow holiday in Salvan :)

just going to Salvan with 4*4 were also fun since there is really interesting path of mountain roads there to go to there. i mean in winter its kind of interesting. I even saw a deer by the side when going there.

i think going from Salvan to Chamonix were very fun. because there are lots of snow cities there. and Chamonix is also very cool city very populated, its not easy to find places to park car.

and one thing i also liked in that journey were no speed limit situation in Germany side :) it were like 150 160 km/h being the usual speed on the left side.  it were awesome cause it were really weather conditions wise bad that day when returning to and all people are were like going in 150 160 on left side it were kind of adrenalin.  i also attended that it were adrenalin :) 

then but i drove too much that by end of driving (by 10th or further hours) i started to feel very tired. like it were midnight at some hour or 1 pm and i were still driving. it felt very tiresome at that point. anyway.  but definitely noon time high speed time were very fun on no speed limit paths. though one can not do high speed with 4*4. and plus i am not used to over than 150 high speed situations 160 even feels very scary to me.  though i might tried 170 by that no speed limit road by then :)

that holiday were truly amazing! cause i never drove such 4*4 before and never had any winter holiday like that:) it were accomplushed by my tax returns that i wrongly payed tax more and it were returned to me in total and i decided to spend it like with such holiday. it were new year eve and days before that 2 years ago i think.  it were really amazing holiday :D

i think i hadnt had holiday by then since. in Rome i just couldnt travel the city since stalk slander incident happent when i went outside as mentioned. once in city center, one in street of home whilst walking to home. 

aha then i remembered one month i stayed in Marina di Bibbonna and there i went outside without scaring from character assasination incidents. cause happent not frequently but yet happent at least twice. but i had car so i felt free to travel and trqaveled very alot bays/beaches there.  and spend alot time in outside there. so for cities i had gone outside were i think Marina Di Bibbonna, and then Salvan and Chamonix (i hadnt had chance to spedn alot time in Chamonix either but it were awesome city). \

i remembered Kilyos beach it were also very cool beach and path to there also were. hmm Sile beaches i didnt liked that much. but i think Kilyos were very cool. (talking about places in istanbul right now). talking about very before times of my life in istanbul city. 

in Germany i hadnt had chance to travel yet. if unrelated character assntn confrontation hadnt impacted my psychology in overall,  i might went to a snow resort also here. or some hiking/trekking holiday. or mayeb i would had gone to Frankfurt again(very long before i had a chance to see there for a day ). or Hamburg or Munich. 

i had a chance to see Paris all before character assasination  confrontation started (That when i were planning per weekend travels to famous cities to learn about, before character assaisntion started, i liked to arrange traveling anytime i could arrange every weekend, i loved traveling so much before, my budget werent much either, but i were beeing economical and finding nonexpensive hotels etc or werent traveling that frequently but at least were trying to plan travels. actually before character assaintn started, my latest wish to visit famous city were Tokyo .  i mean talking about 5 6 years ago in my life. then after character assantn started, i stopped even planning travelings gto other cities but just instead got shocked to feelings of confronting tort of character assasintion and as told it happens for a very long time.  ),. it were like i were working temporarily in Worms city and went to Paris just for weekend and Paris were also very awesome.  but i hadnt had chance to travel alot in just two days yet still were amazing time to discover that famous city. 

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coming to post character assaisntion period:  (first 2 years of character assaintion i were going outside since i were unaware of the char. assntn but thought i have very maniac type stalkers that stalks harrasses everywhere that i dont try to care nor never reply to harrasments. as i understood that the unknwon stalkers are trying to accomplish a full fledge character assasintion operation and shouting things to me that would be shouted to a slander type, i became entirely agoraphobic. they did even that sociopathically i mean slandering me topic. that i hadnt understood char. assntn in first 2 years of confronting but it were still very unnice cause someone would instantly shout some very ugly curse or about my look a very unnice word and shout some sentences and i wouldnt even understand nor would never replied nor cared but were very disturbed.  but then 2 years consistent stalk slandering following incidents, i understood deciphered that the stalkers are also shouting me things that would be shouted to a slander type. they hadnt done that directly. they were doing that sociopathically that i wouldnt even understood i am tried to be slandered. in first 2 years of character assasintion, it were like situation like: i have constant stalkers that follow stalk everywhere and they seem to be very maniac. but i wouldnt care alot thinking its just an unimportant stalker situation and wouldnt care nor reply and would in my mind think what kind of a maniac stalker/stalkers. later when i understood they are trying to slander me and shout things that would be shouted to a slander type, i became entirely agoraphobic. their stalk slandering incidents were indirect. it took 2 years of persistent stalk following confonrtation to understand they shout me slanders and try to defamate me as a slander type. i never replied nor cared entire 2 years or ever after. but as i understood i am tried to be character assasinated like that, i entered severe trauma in my home and every time another stalk slander incident happent i scared alot since the stalker for instance at 3am come to vicinity of my home and shout a sentence slandering. :S it were very traumatic. not only that, in first period of this stalk slandering when happens from my flat's vicinity, i would thought i had a serdar named stalker that constantly stalks and orhan cause they would shout sentences using orhan/serdar words. then i would shout back psycho stop stalking me.  it were like they would shout very creepy sentences in vicinity of my flat like "serdar! sleep". or in outside a constant following using serdar word. i thought for 2 years i have a serdar named stalker and this maniac stalkers has also oguz/sedat like named people since they also used such words in stalk slandering incidents. it were happening right in vivcinity of my flat this harrassment with orhan word for instance.  i were living in another flat then at zeroth floor. some 2 guys would persistently pass in front of my zeroth floor home shouting sentences using orhan word. i thought i had an orhan named stalker initially. and then later me and my family moved to another flat.and right from flat's vicinity same orhan based harrasmsnetn happent routinely. and then serdar based stalk harrassmetn with sentences like "serdar! sleep!" type happent alot. both in flat. and also whenever i go to outside some people would sit in a desk 1 desk far. and would constantly say sentences and also serdar word and look. and i thought i had a serdar named stalker for a long period. and it started to became very disturbing. cause i were followed stalked every time i went outside and they were telling very creepy maniac sentences in stalk slander incidents. like for instance, i started a cool job in bilkent in ankara, in ad sector, then i went to a cool restaurant opent my mac coded some python code, then some people a group of people came sit to another desk, and they started to use name of a guy i dated very before and shouted sentences like "guys_name! sleep!". i for that period i thought guy i dated had turned to a psycho/maniac and is stalking me creepily like that. i would not care nor replied but were very disturbed. these people used ins talk slandering incidents guys i dated's names. they have had such every info of my life. they knew name of guy i dated that noone else other than my very close friends knows. e.g. mesut. i dated a mesut named guy he were a cool guy, i were like 28 he were like 38. but then we didnt werent had setup any serious relation. but we lived in same apartment. we liked to watch tv together only. our relation were just like that. he were very cool looking guy :D but just i mean its just after watching tv alot together, talkign alot together, it just didnt turned out like we were any fit. he were a divorced guy and but still talking to her wife etc. anyway. coming to main topic again, the stalker slanderers even used mesut name in stalk slander incidents in trying to make me ill also whilst durting the character assaisntion. its not known how the character assasins know a guy i dated called mesut.   only my close friends knew i dated a mesut named guy. it were like in stalk slandering incidnets like that, they also used names of guys i dated in trying to make me mentally ill with very sociopathic stalk slandering incidents like that. anyway so an effort to make me mentally ill with very close stalk slandering happent. its like these people would select people from my life in stalk slandering incidents sometimes even engineer colleague i work with. i mean name of. they used a foreign colleagues both turkish both english name in stalk slandering trying to make me mentally ill stalk slander defamation incidents. so it were a full fledged trying to make me go insane/character assasinte me with slandering effort.  at the flat, i would reply with psycho serdar stop stalking me. but it never stopped. and worse, i remember like going to a cool cafe in nisantasi, they used some very sick literal in stalk slandering incidents in many other stalk slandering incidents, and some people would sit to another desk and would look to me and sometimes frequently use that slandering literal. i were completely unaware by those times whats happening wouldnt care nor reply and were just reading microservices architectures to apply to my causalera project by then. but after later i understood the scheme methods of the character asasintion, i understood that incidents were also character assaisntion incidents.they did this very sociopathically this trying to make a person get insane and character assaisntion effort. like thety would sit on a desk use some sociopathic slandering sentences whilst most time i were unaware first 2 years of the character assaisntion but i wouldnt reply nor care, but i would think i have stalkers that stalk everywhere and found it of course disturbing, but not that much disturbing to become agoraphobic, cause i were unaware i were also tried to be slandered.  later i moved to ankara, and there i discovered the sociopathy mechanisms of the stalk slandering incidents and that they are shouting me things that would be sohuted to the slander types and i became completely agoraphobic by then. and neverhteless the stqalk slandering defamation harrassment efforts with very very very untrue slanders never ever stopped and persistently occured. so i lived an agoraphobic life by then. some times they come to street to shout that slandering literal again. but most horrific part were like, in Berlin visibly they defamated me to people there and it were like, i were whilst biking from workplace to home some people would shout "she is told us to be slander_type!" than the stalker would also shout a request sentence that would be shouted to that slander type:S it were very horrific :S i confronted a very sociopathic and full fledged character assasintion and i am agoraphobic due to that as mentioned.it were like sometimes i had to use bus in berlin and bus stop stalker people would say things like if you are that slander type, it wer every creeepy. it were like they defamated me like that slander to people so that thbey harrass in bus place shouting things that would be shouted to that slander type. or else many times slander curses were shouted everytime i went outside i were stalked harrassed slandered. and tried to be defamated with very untrue lies (slander). i were tried to be smeared with very untrue lies and it were done repeatedly. it happens last 5 or 6 years like this.these people everytime i go outside have capability to stalk slander.

e.g. in hannover, when i were awaiting a bus to go to Bonn or Italy maybe i dont remember where, some peeople passed beside me shouting again stalk slandering sentences. it were like they knew where i am every time i go outside and they used my location knowledge to do yet another stalk slandering harrassment. 

and not only that,  they also tried to defamate me like that, once i intedned to bike otuside, and when i park my bike in vicinity of my flat, a guy said the slander word and said very creepy threatening sentences visibly believing to slander (whilst its very untrue/character assasintion).  its like some people also did this harrasmetns with curses with also slander word also. i were full fledged confronting a very sociopathic character assainstion adn confronted insurmountable amount of suffering during this. 

but i in time got over trauma of. but of course i am agoraphobic. cause i know if i go to outside, the stalkers would again do another stalk slanderin incident cause i once went to otuside here, and 2 times stalk slandering incidents with trying to defamate me as a slander type happent. so i dont go outside ever also here.

i many times fighted with mom and dad on phone cause i thought they didnt understand how hard it is to confront character assaisntions. its like their suggestions would make me very upset. they would do suggestions like "dont scare! go outside and so that they would understand they cant mess/character assainste. were like mainly it wer elike mainly: dont care! and stop being agoraphobic. i were very in  trauma feeling those times, so when they do suggestion of dont' care, i would really get upset, and we would fight on phone saying i would say how its very illogiucal to ask me to not care and not scare and go outside when psycho people are trying to character assainste me. but mom and dad told they dont know how to help what to do in a character assasintion. they would just suggsted to uncare and not be agoraphobic. but its impossible to do that imho when confronting a sociopathic type character assaisntion cause everytime i go outside i am trying to be slandered. it feels safer home very much safer at home. mom and dad also suspected whether i am not stalked and think i am stalked due to ptsd. but i am really stalked/really slandered. and its very hard when you are alone when confronting character assasintion. how those times passed (last 2 years i handled trauma of severe trauma of character assasitnion as: i would talk with mom and dad and they woult try to support me with talking and they wanted to have me call them whenever i feel need to talk and they definitely asked to call talk whenever i need their support. then also i would thousand sentences blog everytime blog in blog any stalk slandering incident if when happens that day. i would repeatedly in blog talk about how horrific the stalk slander incident were in blog with thousand sentences everytime. then in my home time, i would sometimes lay on my couch and the stalk slandeirng incident would repeatedly replay in my mind. e.g. people shouting trying to defamate as a slander with socioapathic effort like shouting sentences that would be shouted to aslander type or cursing with curses that would be shouted to a slander type:S it were very horrific to confront character assainstion but it were a very full fledged character assaisntion.

1.5 years ago were peak truama feeling time. cause things like that were happening: like i go to work with bike: 

the stalkers would shout something like "she is told to be a slander_literal!" then shout some bitchy request that would be asked to the slander type.

it first when first started, i thought there were a serdar named stalker stalking me whom they also shouted "serdar! sleep!" sentences. i would think there is a psycho people stalking me. turned out they try to slander me as bitch and shout sleep sentence to me.

so whomever this unknown group is: did exactly what happent to yezidi people to me.

they tried to make me a bitch with shouting sleep! and i wouldnt imagine i wouldnt even be able to imagine there exists psychos in world that would shout such sentence so first 2 years happent of stalk incidents as i thinking i have maniac stalkers that stalk follow everywhere and even flat's vicinity but i wouldnt even understand i am shouted things that would eb shouted to bitch occupation. its just being an engineer, and never have ever been bitch, it seemed out of my perception capability to understand the sociopathic method they use in doing this defamation. its like they would shout serdar! sleep. or for instance, a mesut named guy i dated, same they do with mesut name. or another guy i dated, they for instance come to a cafe, sit in a distant desk, and shout things that would be shouted to bitches. i wouldnt even perceive cause they did that sociopathically and i would think for instance mesut has gone maniac /crazy and has maniac friends and whom talk very creepy/maniac sentences like sleep word and like that, i thought guy i dated went crazy/psycho. or i suspected whether if its not him either. 

turned out these sociopaths/pyshocpaths, create man and sometimes woman names to me taking from my life sometimes like guys i dated, or an engineer colleague i work with, and try to name me like that, and shout things that would be shouted to bitches. it took 2 years  of stalk slander confrontation to understand this. i would by then think i have a serdar named stqalker, never could imagine the stalkers creates serdar name to me and shouts something that would be shouted to bitches. i would instead perceive as, i have a serdar named stalker that stalks me everywhere. and they did this using also guys i dated names. and also sometimes also other woman names.

so i repeat again, what happent to yezidi women, a similar version happent to me, and its not done by any country either, they tried to make me a bitch, they couldnt but they persistently stalked slandered harrassed.

to repeat, what happent to yezidi women, were tried to happen to me. but they couldnt succeed.

to repeat again, to make readers understand what actually happent, what happent to yezidi women, were tried to happen to me.

its like exactly like that. if you are a racist that wants to read this or not understand due to racist biases in your mind, i want to repeat to you again that what happent to yezidi women were tried to happen to me.

its like: a people start to stalk, and shout things that would be shouted to bitches, and then try to slander as bitch. but they do this in an organized fashion, with persistent repeated stalk slander incidents. 

and they allegedly were shouting sleep word in first 2 years of stalk slander incidents. i wouldnt even understand i am shouted sleep word because they were not doing this directly. they would say sentence like "serdar! sleep!". i would think i have a serdar named stalker. it took 2 years of repeated stalk slander incidents to understand that i am shouted such sentence. 

cause i didnt expected world to hold psychos that would shout sleep word to me. and they did not did that with shouting "guher! sleep!". they would instead "serdar! sleep!". i would think i have a serdar named stalker and wouldnt even understand and wouldnt care and wouldnt reply either. but i would feel very disturbed thinking i have very very very maniac type stalkers. turned out they are trying to character assasinte me with also slandering me in stalk incidents and shouting very creepy sentences.

its not done by any country. it seems as a people set/unknown people set, and they have huge organizational skills to harrass/stalk/slander individuals visibly.  and they have also alot of people in Europe even if they are not European, seems as this unknown people set that does character assasintions have huge people power also in Europe. 

and they tried to smear me/stalk me slander me over and over again. and it is very psychopathic sociopathic process the character assasintion these unknown people set do.

and like for instance, once my phone's internet credit were finished, so i one day in noon, 1 or 1.5 years ago, went to a cafe to have noon which i dont do those times since i were agoraphobic,  then i went to cafe like 10 meters beside the worksplace, then 10 minutes later, 2 peoplke came, sat in a desk beside my desk and started saying bitch word and shouting requests that would be said to bitch occupation. and then i fastly finished my meal and returned to workplace as i already also downloaded internet credit to my phone.

these people whom does this stalk slandering harrasmetn wtih slandering ops, have huge organizational skills to do harrass stalk slander individuals.

once, i went to a robotic workshop. to listen about some cool robotics lab i saw there in Berlin. then on return path, it were in distant place of city so i had to use train, then when returning i selected a path to return from my phone i searched trains etc, then in middle train station where i change trains to go to the other train that goes to my home district, in one such change station,  i walked, and 3 or 4 people were standing in the train station, they started shouting slander words (that were similarly shouted 5 years ago), then i walked to the very end of the train station, then they entered the same cabin as me, they started telling slandering sentences, and sociopathic slandering sentences, and i didnt looked nor cared, but felt huge levels of trauma, cause 5 years ago same slandering words were told in stalk following slandering incidents. 

so came up to me, these people even know which train i would had used by then. they visibly waited in the change station. but there were other alternative paths either, maybe with their huge people power they might have been awaiting in all paths in all change stations by that day that i went to a robotics workshop.

its like, exactly like, what happent to yezidi women, were tried to be made happen to me.

and i were consistently tried to be destroyed with attempts of defamation/stalk/slandering harrassments as i blogged in thousand pages until now.

whom they are is unknown. its an unknown people set that has huge stalk slandering capacity.

they are not European. 

it started in Istanbul but its not related to Turkey either.

it just happens like this last 5 or 6 years.

i feel like yezidi women whom were tried to be killed or made bitches.

cause exactly that were tried to be done to me. 

and persistent never ending stalk slandering incidents over and over again, constant defamation attempts over and over again.

for instance, this sunny sunday, if i go to city center, or go outside, these people i dont know how they get to know my location, for sure again would come harrass shout sentences that would be shouted to the slander, sometimes theyt shout requests that would be shouted to the slander type and persistent stalk slandering effort like that that which i never reply. but nevertheless never stops.

i deduced Europe is not safe for me. it might be very safe for others. but an unknown people set are trying to destroy my life with character assasination with persistent stalk slandering incidnets.

so i had setup new horizons, new hopes of a safe life. i had setup migration goals to China/Japan if ever i could and when i try to migrate, i would definitely tell this character assaisntion either.

as to restate, this were not done by Europeans. it started in Istanbul and its not done by Turkey either.

its an unknown people set that does this torture of character assasination with stalk/slandering harrassments/curses/sociopathic slandering incidents.

like for instance you just bike from home to work and stop by red light, then some psychio shouts "she were told to be a slander type!" then shouts a sentence that would be shouted to that slander type.

so in the character assasintion, they defamated me like that and people shouted such things. i mean as in usual character assasinations, they tried to defamate person in the city she/he lives in.  and such harrasments happent. 

they create a defamation/slander lie, then harrass constantly try to harrass like that and persistently do sociopathic acts with stalk slandering defamation harrasments/defamation attempts.

one other example: once whilst living in Berlin, i once went to headquarters of company daily to try to get vaccine of company doctor, on that day. i worked there entire day, and whilst returning to home, i just called a taxi, then taxi came, i entered taxi, then the taxi dropped me by train station (which is like 2 hours or such time i dont remember distant to berlin) and as i got out of taxi,  i entered station, then 2 people started to walk right 1 meter beside me,  then they shouted loudly one slander curse it were started to be used last 2 years, (stalkers slanderers started to shout one curse of here in time here in various stalk slandering incidents)  and they shouted it loudly right 1 meter behind me, then i continued walking then i entered a cafe and i wanted to write this ass to add this unknown people set's stalk slandering capacity. they seem to get to know location of me everytime i go outside and accomplish another stalk slandering harrassment.

i remember another stalk slandering incident back 3  years ago in ankara. i were severely agoraphobic as told by then. everytime stalk slandering incident happens i would call mom/dad told about, then thewy would say dont care, if you dont care they would stop stalking/slandering effort. then mom suggested to be not agoraphobic.  then i followed that suggestion and went to cafe that day. then in cafe, inside i were studying some maths book there. i were trying to accomplish learning some maths topics goal for some physics topics, i had bought some theoretical physics books at ankara home by then, and i discovered i dont know enough mahts, so i were focused on studying to maths to revise my knowledge or learn knowledge i dont know about.  i were sitting in some corner in cafe. then a first stalk slandering incident happent. then i didnt cared continueing studying to maths. then in a distant desk some sociopathic slandering effort started to happen. and then i go to outside. i continued sitting at outside after that being very disturbed. cause a very socioipathic slandering effort were done. then at outside, some 2 people came from outside sat on cafe. then they started to laugh out loud very mich and then repeatedly shouted one literal they use alot in stalk slandering incidents that times. they endlessly laughed and then said slander word also. i can never forget that psychological torture moments of character assasination like this one. i called one of my relatives and told i am stalked harrassed by unknown people,  and but they continued laughing and sometimes saying slander word. 

i then left there.

now i remembered another stalk slandering incidnet, in my home i wanted to go to shop in zeroth floor, it were a very cool shop in place i lived in Berlin very very cool shop with lots of weird healhy foods/cosmetics etc. it were  shop with healthy things all. i liked that shop. were an unsimilar shop concept with lots of weird food types/healthy food types etc. anyway, i started walking then from street a loud same curse shouting happent. 

or once more i again went to shop, 2 people started walking 1 meter beside me and shouted some curses and also literals i heard in other stalk slandering incidents even 5 years ago. 

so i am like yezidi women tried to be destroyed,

i were constantly tried to be defamated as bitch and persistently shouted things that would be shouted to bitch topics. and persistently stalked/harrassed/tried to be defamated and with very sociopathic defamation attempts that i told over and over again in blog in reporting it.

i think Europe is not safe for me cause these unknown people whomever they are seems to have huge people resource in Europe to do perpetuate stalk slandering harrassments. 

it happens everytime i go outside. 

i been living agoraphobic life last 3 or 4 years due to confronting such character assasination. 

in Berlin when i came i thought maniac stalkers had would stop stalking. but then turned out whomever these people are, they have huge people resource in Europe also and they persisted perpetuated character assasination effort.

so i understood when my dad became cancer, i understood life is short, and i waste my life time trying to live an unlivable life configuration where i continously confront a very dishonest character assasination process.

so my new hopes is finding chance to migrate to China or Japan.

and i would tell character assaasintion to the officers of migration like i been reporting from blog all the time. i tried to report every character assasination incident everytime i could had detected and everytime i reported in blog.

most time i might not be able to even detect cause i recent years constantly open some noise due to ptsd, in case another character assasination happens. there is constant music in my ears or noise etc. to be safer against char. assntn attempts and ptsd related to that.  though whenever i can detect i reporteed in blog all the time every character assaisntion incident.

the doers of the character assasintion seems to be an unknown people set. whom visibly has also alot people power in Europe either. 

its not Europeans nor Turkey country. 

it started in Istanbul and continued to happen when i wetn to Ankara and also happent in iskenderun when i stayed 3 months there. then happent also in Europe.

its an unknown people set that has huge stalk slandering capability whomever doing this character assasintion is. 

its like they know my position eveyrtime i go outside, and try to attempt another sociopathic slandering effort when i go outside.

its like going to Rome but not traveing there and staying in home instead, which what happent. i went to Rome but maybe got outside 2 times at most.

cause for instqance once i went outside,  in street of home, a guy in my local language said defamatory sentence trying to slander. then i passed all time at home there. whilst there are lots of places tovisit in Rome. 

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 i tried to report the character assasintion that i confronted/confront fromblog.

hey, 

i have new hopes now, like trying to migrate to China or Japan. 

of buidling a safe life against character assasintion. yuppp.

in Europe also its like these unknown people have lots of people power they allocate in stalk slandering incidents.  they are not Europeans either. anyway. 

its not livable life when you cant go outside due to character assasintion with slandering.

my home is luxury but it does not matter. but i should also add i found some safe stable place whilst confronting char. assntn. i mean in my home i were safe. also economicaly i had nice salaries here to improve my economy.

but i were already getting also very high salaries in Turkey's last job.

in Europe time, it were like good salary/good worklife balance/awesome snow holiday where i really had amazing holiday and cool homes and goood salaries really helped my life like i bnought lots of maths books etc.  i bought cool computer etc. i mean with high processing power. i became a terrific consumer of online shopping and bought lots of maths books/computer etc etc. my salary were enabling me to buy anything i wanted to some limit online. i mean not best gaming computer but still very good one. or lots of maybe i spent at least 1500 euro or more to science books. so my salary here enabled me alot of things either. spending 1500 euros or more to books is were not possible other wise. so even character assantn happent, my life';s good points were: like being able to buy lots of things with my salary. e.g. even near to 2000 euros for maths/science books etc etc. that were really awesome :) 

but contrasting to that:

but its not livable life when i cant go outside scared ofanother char. assntn incident /sociopathic slandering attempt.

its that an unknown group/people set stalks tries to do char. assntn to me.

if it werent like that, i guess i would have an aweosme life.

but my life's last 5 or 6 years is like this, very hard, to confronted/confront a maniac character assasination process like that.

\\when dad became sick, it reminded me how short life period is. and i felt very stressed that i live my life in home being impacted by character assaintn process.

so i had an instant idea of why not migrating to China/Japan if ever i could.

and i have new hopes like that. of being able to attend city life again like going to a cafe/restaurant/cinema or just traveling cities. or traveling Temples. 

 

in Europe i  just couldnt find help mechanisms against char. assntn cause i am a lone person and i really dont know where to ask help for char. assntn confrontation. 

i tried stalk helping institute but they said they cant help since i dont know whom is stalking me. but they listened thankfully. 

in police i asked help but they suspected whether i am paranoid instead since i guess they are not used to see people confronting character assasination. 

since char. assntns are not common, when you tell, sometimes people react as whether if you are paranoid instead. even mom and dad suspected whether if i am ptsd instead that i show ptsd reactions in thinking i am stalked in some instants whilst i am not due to ptsd of the stalk/slandering attempts.

but i am really stalked slandered and i am not any paranoid either.

i confronted a very huge character assasination process.

but since character assasintions are not common, its just not easy to find help mechanisms when happens

i also once went to lawyer to try to init protection mechanisms, but lawyer also hadnt shown me help for charac. assntn. 

i emailed amnesty org and they told my case is not exactly cases since their cases are like cases character assasintions done by governments. since its done by an unknown people set, they said they can not help my situation. i think i twice emailed maybe one very before and one this year. and they told with vey kind sentences with also being sad for not being able to help me. anyway. 

so i dont know what else to do to create protection against character assasintion. 

so i continued living life in home.  and living like that. scaring of going outside either due to agoraphobia.

but when dad become ill,  it came up struck me that life is short and its not how life is meant to be lived, to stay at home scaring from character assasintion at outside so not going outside. i need to figure out another solution to character assaisntion. i am wasting my life time due to a dishonest character assaasintion attempts against me. 

then instantly came up idea of migrating to China or Japan if ever i could.

then i follow this and  would try to migrate to China or Japan yupp. if ever i could find job there. yepp.

i think there might be possibility that another stalk slandering incident happent this time in building.

some one were talking a nongerman foregin language i think and shouted in Turkish then " Zilan, i won't take"

this might be from example of sociopathic slandering incidents where the stalkers sociopathically tries to slander like if you proposed something to someone. cause i remember they also used Dilan word alot in stalk slandering harrasments. so when heard Zilan! i wont take. i think it might be really another stalk slandering incident attempt. i am not sure though. happent like shouting from either lower floor or upper floor to my flat. 

this were one sociopathic slandering mechanisms used by the stalkers slanderers/character assasins.

they would say a sentence with which means as if you did some activity and as if they are replying to that.

like if its a communication, like if you said something, then as if they reply to that. and in this sociopathy example, they would try to defamate the slander with such sociopathy act.

these character assasination doers have bunch of sociopathy tactics they use in this character assasination operation.

its happening like this. constant shoutings of defamations/sociopathic defamatory attempts. this above esxample is one tactic used in character assasination. it happent similarly like 3 years ago, i once were very bored at home and went to a cafe, and in cafe stalk slandering incident happent. then whilst i went outside, someone shouted "fire guher! i would work much better than witr to her". this stalker were talking on phone like this. and shoutedly said that. and i got very upset, to the deception slandering effort and i shouted shizoid sociopath or such sentence as reply. the stalker tried to slander me as if i work to someone with whatever defamation work it were to the endline of the phone there.:S i shouted psycho shizoid or sociopath like reply. 

but these people has various stalk slandering tactics.

they create false rumors and they try to make the slander as if real by sociopathic acts with shoutings. 

its a very advanced sociopathy examples observed in my character assasination process.

i remember 3 months or 2 months ago, in vicinity of flat: similar tactic happent. someone shouted a slandering sentence with defamatory slandering content but it were like a reply sentence. i mean it were slandering as if you told a sentence and if the stalker shouts a reply to that. and it were having again very defamatory slandering content. 

they use this reply slandering tactics also alot in stalk slandering incidents. but not like others. other deception tactics in this character assasination is majorly shouting requests that would be shouted to the slander types. 

i think most scary deception tactics is this: like one happent 10 minutes ago if it were. i am not sure if that were a stalk slandering incident but just coincidence to Dilan literal. but since such tactic were used alot before, i really suspected it might be again a stalk slandering effort. 

like saying things like i think this happent in stalk slander incident in my Berlin time: once,  i were walking in street and someone shouted a defamatory slandering sentence with pattern of "don't do some_slandering activity".  this were another pattern of negative deception pattern i mean via dont' do negative pattern the stalker tries to slander as if the person does that slander:S i think this happent twice.

or other samples were:  of this very advanced character assasination process: 

as told, 2 months ago someone shouted in flat's vicinity shouting very slandering defamatory sentence with smearing but in pattern of:  as if replies. a reply pattern alike. like if you said something and someone replies. but the topic is you never said something. so this reply deception method be like that. and its one of the scariest methods of character assasination. its so scary to go outside due to this. this type of sociopathy. because they do this much advanced sociopathy. 

its like i remember this dilan word also in stalk slandering incidents.

and since i have very much eyebrows, these people also when stalking slandering also sometimes used some Kurdish politicians names in stalk slandering incidents.

i am half Turkish and half Kurdish. and my dad is Turkish and from dad side we have this eye brows (from Turkish side :) ) my mom has might have Kurdish roots and they are like blondish some of them, some of them has not have even eye brows they are like blondie or white. 

my dad side is Turkish and my eye brows are from dad :)  (my weird eye brows :D )

anyway, i remember once walking to a shop and someone doing the same stalk slandering act this time using a Kurdish politician's name. (first name) whom it were i wonder. its like my eye brows were resembling to. :)

so i dont know how name selection algorithm of these of these character assasins. sometimes they used also engineer colleagues i work with names, like i had a engineer colleague with one foreign name and one normal turkish name, and they used both 2 names in 5 years ago stalk slandering incidents alot, i actually initially suspected whether if he is stalking me by that time. but 2 years later i deciphered this naming algorithm of the character assasination process. that they create man names to me sometimes also kurdish woman names or turkish woman names or from even family member names, and shout slandering sentences, and requests that would be shouted to slander type. 

i would never imagine they call me serdar. its like when someone shouts "Serdar! Sleep!"

or "Mesut! sleep!" (sleep word alot shouted in in first 2 years of stalk slandering incidents).  i would think as expected there is a serdar named stalker that stalks me every where. and they everytime were comoing to stalk everywhere i am and shout such sentences. i would by then think i have a stalkers stalking that are maniacs and there are people like serdar named person inside them etc. it were pretty disturbing to be constantly stalked and hear such maniac sentences from stalkers (that i never replied nor even looked, but i were pretty trying to look calm and not care nor look nor reply but i were pretty scared thinking i have maniac stalkers. then i understood something much more scary is happening, that there is no serdar, but they do some kind of twisted sociopathy twisted sociopathy version and they shout me sleep word:S as i understood that i became agoraphobic as mentioned. and went outside very very very rarely and every time i went to outside i were very very very scared. 

one of the engineer colleagues name usage stalk slander incidents, in time in istanbul that engineer colleague's name were used alot in stalk slandering harrasments i would think there is maniacs stalking me and that name is from the stalkers.  turned out the stalkers creates also man names to me in stalk slandering incidents and shout ugly requests to me:S

and as mentioned, they have very very very very advanced sociopathy methods in doing that.

i think reply deception method is the scariest one. when a psycho shouts a slandering defamatory sentednce as if you said something and as if replying to that. it were the scariest sociopathy tactic of the character assasintion i confronted.

and they tried to defamate me like that, persistedntly did such acts with always knowing where ia m, everytime i go outside, they somehow know my posiiton and would come to there and do another stalk slandering incident which i would never care nor reply nor even look to.

if this character assaisntion with this much advanced sociopathy happent to you, you would also like me scare of going outside. cause their sociopathy levels/acts is undefineable levels sociopathy. their deception acts are very very very scary. i mean i think scariest slandering method of them is that that negative slandering method, where they shout something like "dont do slander_word!"  whilst underlyingly they try to slander you as if you do such slander act :S i think the most second scariest sociopathic slandering method is:  that reply sociopathy, where they say a sentence as if its a reply as if you said something and they reply to you. :S its very scary. in that they try to slander you to the surrounding as, if you said something adn as if they are replying to that. and it would be a very defamatory slandering reply eoither. i think this reply slandering method is or the negative slandering method is the top most scariest acts of this character assaisntion attempts that persistently happens happent to me last 5 or 6 years.

and if you think this torture were this much horrific torture you are wrong. they also shouted hang your self in other various slandering incidents. they tried to kill my life. they tried to destroy me with slandering. and for not that to be visible, they also tried to also do pressure using hang word. that also happent in some of the stalk slandering incidents. 

so when i said i confronted a severe psychoclogiucal torture inside a character assasination, its not a joke. its really torture. if you read this blog and if you dont think its torture, i would suspect of your conscience. 

an unknown group of people tried to destroy my life with character assasintion. and even that is not enough, (as they persistently tried to torture my life with persistent stalk slandering acts),  they also shouted hang word.

for instance, whilst i were coming from work to aunt's home in Berlin, there were a bus stop at aunts district to go to there to aunts home's vicinity. in the bus stop, a guy came that is shorter than me with near to all white hair mixture of black white hair then said: hang or else i would shoot you. i ddnt cared and entered bus later.

so these character assasins also harrassed using hang urself like sentences whomever psycho people set they are.

its an unknown people set.

they repeatedly stalk/try to slander with very sociopathic ways and harrass with trying to defamate/curses many times also were shouted and their most scariest actions are sociopathic slandering actions of shouting like exemplified. that for instance reply sociopathy. or negate related sociopathy. those shouting actions are very scary. other else they use a default sociopathy of shouting slander word also. a less twisted sociopathy i think that is. but reply sociopathy and negate sociopathy i think are very twisted sociopathy methods. 

so after confronting this torture from an unknown people:  for last 5 6 years. all alone. been persistently tried to be stalked slandered harrassed and scariest topic is as mentioned those sociopathic slandering methods they use in trying to slander as exemplified in above paragraphs. but i got out of trauma some level. but i were also living my life all at home scaring of going outside due to character assasination and scare of another stalk slandering sociopathic slandering incident to happen, instead i stayed at home all time. scaring of character assaisnation/sociopathic stalk/slandering incidents.

so after all,

i were like in a condition of living in my home and agoraphobic due to that.

but when dad became cancer,  i tohught looked to my life and said wov i cant let character assasination impact my life like this cause life is short. and i felt like i am wasting my life staying at home. 

and then, instantly idea of trying to  move to China/Japan idea came up my mind.

i wish so much i could have a chance to migrate to China or Japan. 

i hope i would be safe from character assaintion there.

i missed going to city center, sitting at a cafe, taking a coffeee reading some book beside. or going to cinema. i lack going outside factor from my life due to agoraphobia of character assasintion for very long period.

the character assasins are not any Europeans and plus is not related to Turkey. its an unknown group/people set that perpetuates such sociopathic character assaisntion op to me last 5 or 6 years. but nevertheless it has not resolved neither in Turkey nor later in Europe, so i think i should try going somewhere else if i could manage to find a job. 

my dream is migrating to China or Japan. please wish me luck so that i fastly find a job and migrate and be safe against character assaintion inciednts outside that so that i could go to a cafe take a coffee read a book or go to cinema, or get escooter travel, or go to some lake side watch lake etc etc etc. i mean just outside life that i lack whilst having agoraphobia due to character assainstion process.

both China and Japan seems quite very interestring places. I already had a chance to live some period in Chiina and it were really great time. hmm Japan also looks very interesting place, e.g. i really wonder that christmas custom at KFC which seems very interesting. or temples also there i also wonder alot. 

wish me very good luck so that i could find a job asap to accomplush my dream of moving to China/Japan. 

please wish me alot of luck in job applications.

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so biking were very scary every time every time i need to stop at red lights.  

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(other else i constantly live in my home as told :) )

but best holiday in this period were surely that snowboarding learning try and traveling around in Salvan/visiting Chamonix :)

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so i decided such decisions last week that i try to migrate to China or Japan if ever i could have such chance. 

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and i figure out i got used to dad's cancer situation. since i talked on phone and i normalized and feel hopeful for it to heal since new medicine tech against cancer is very cool/hopeful against cancer.

i think i got over that period where this topic shocked me. its like i got used to. but i am very hopeful that dad would be ok. and would be like at least a decade with us at least.  i believe his cancer situation would be like a chronic illness case. since new medicine innovations are very amazing i mean immunotherapy or alike innovations. i mean before only hope were other solutions now there are other solutisons that changes survival statics in cancer illness. its totally amazing.

dad's illness started to look less deadly and more chrnoic illness type as i read advances in medicine science and also this illness type also.  anyway.

i think cancer being turned to possibly a chronic illness is one hugest innovations i ever heard. this new medicvine invented looks very amazing/hopeful. i am totally amazed as i read about. like people usually whom had 2 or 3 months life times now are living and alive for last 5 6 years and also like, some people are completely treated from previously deadly type cancers either. i mean disappearing of tumors. i guess mrna vaccines for cancer tech in 4 or 5 years would be also as gets public, cancer would be like a chronic illness instead of being a very deadly cruel illness type. even seems as current advances seems as to turn it to chronic illness in various cases.  but i expect it to become even more becoming chronic illness situation in 4 or 5 years with advances in mrna cancer vaccines.  even now dendrites based treatment and also T cells based treatment (immunotherapy) looks very awesome advances that created hope for cancer illness. it were like cancer does not seem to be as deadly illness like before as I had read about such medicine innovations. its very new, as i see for instance immunotherapy started in 2018 (public use).  its quite amazing i think i mean advances in solving cancer illness. 

at least having hope part is awesome.  usually in cancer hope factor were not much in various types of it. its very amazing that now there is hope for cancer illness and many people pass it like if its a chronic illness. its i never knew about this and whilst learning newly, i am totally amazed. causde i think cancer is one very cruel illness type. 

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 and since i am alone, i didnt know how to find any help mechanism against this. 

it were like a full fledged character assaisnation attempt. and happent routinely last 5 years maybe even last 6 years i think it might been even last 6 years. 

so as told, i did some life decisions last week, 

and i thought ptsd is fixed. then yesterday's stalk slander incident happent ptsd again. 

 

then i have had ptsd moment today 10 minutes ago. anyway.  

so today's tasks applying to jobs in China/Japan continues.

i would also tell he character assaisnation that happent to me in migration application or VISA application with telling the reason to move mainly like that.