hmm sunday came. 

today passes with after waking up at 12am, hmm passes with some making dinner or noon right now normally i dont like too much effort to cooking since i dont have mood to do that any on weekdays but hmm since its sunday spared more time to an awesome food this time.

hmm meanwhile reading about a proof with controversial maximality principle type proof in some revising some section. yesterday night had talked alot with a relative and had not made my project be believeble to relative but i really believe this coder ai would be built. he thinks its impossible to build such much effort just being one person btu thinks a team of people working on suhc project is necessary and suggested me to enroll in an msc/phd program or such research proejcts involving maths/ai topics and thought i am wrongly believing that its possible to build this project and that i underlook the complexities involved to the coder ai project. he thinks i am too simplifiying and suggested to test everything to believe to a thesis and its anti-thesis, he said test thesis that you believe but the half time you work to prove a mathsz topic also try to prove the anti-thesis also.  dont believe your intuitions they might be wrong he said, i know intuitional maths might also be wrong. he is right. but i still believe that this project is feasible and i would build it in following 4 months as i plan it.i dont do intuitional maths or proofs other than i have idea of compressing the permutation groups or functions in general using some homeomorphism base that i learn from topology as one proof that might be involved. but all postponed to later after coder ai is ready. but relative did not wanted to discourage me also but said please test your ideas first and dont believe bluntly, when working to maths proofs he said, work to thesis and also to anti-thesis at the same time. always test he said. i think he is very right. that is how axiomatic truth values are reached in science. quite right point. but i still believe that i would be able to manage to complete this project in 4 months. he said understanding topology topics real analysis or conceptual probability theory or measure theory, he said these topics are very advanced, you shouldnt study yourself but get course in msc/phd level and work with research groups. he said even teaching such topics is very hard as he were an assistant proffessor before and said you might be misunderstandings concept there and even unaware of that. i mean for instance in topology, he said its quite hard domain. but nevertheless, i believe that its possible to study autodidactively and i believe its possible to build this project in following 4 months. ibut it felt relieving to get to know that time i spare is being too much to learn these is actually normal as learning from assistant professor that these topics are really hard. cool. felt more confidence learnig that cause i were feeling like i am spareing more than usual time to study to these topics and troubles i counter like for instance in some axioms i had a quite challenge to understand exactly what the axioms means and finally reached theiur definitions. i understood his concern that working with professors etc to understand those topics is better than working yourself since i saw that in that. that a proff could had fastly shown me what it means whislt i had to decipher the axioms meaning because its never clearly written and you try to decipher what the axiom could actually mean since the language is always unclear but at least its very happy that they tell about them so we try to decipher them our own :D but its also fun such challenges of trying to understand what they mean in a paragraph in an axiom since their language sometimes is very crude unclear in text books. but with excess effort, you finally get to understand even studying autodidactively. though my relative thinks the topics i been studying last year maybe it has been a year and 2 quarters i been studying to, thinks its not possible to learn in short period like that, and that i need to spare really alot of time to understand these topics and suspected whether if i sometimes misunderstand whats written in those textbooks. i understand his concerns and i quite welcome his suggestions, they are quite legit/reasonable concerns/suggestions/advises, quite true, but i believe its accomplishable, cause i already invested a lkto of effort and i am not at the beginning of this topics (phd/msc topics)s tudies but in a good point wtr to beginner to these topics. though i understand his concerns but I believe its possible to autodidactively learn and learn it in not very long period either. but he might be right either. but i think i am right cause si know i measure my progress in learning and i think its right now near to end of project type status it is. i would finalize maths studies in atmost 2 months furtherly and then next 2 months would work on semantics grammar and i think in 4 months software wise a semantics grammar binded maths grammar initial version of coder ai would be ready. but i definitely understand relative's concerns that he found it impossible and he thinks its not rational to think such project is possible in such period/time. but i know and i believe its possible and would finish building it.

haha it resembled a discussion like its impossible! --> its necessary! type discussion:) (referencing interstellar movie)  i would make it possible cause coder ai project is really very necessary.  e.g. for instance at least to build that detective robots. also build a particle physics lab later with robots to invent such medical device and to build nanobot technologies to become eternals. its necessary and asap necessary. 

monologue:

hold on! everything would be awesome! if others says its impossible being skeptics very right skeptics since i think its very right to think it might be impossible to build this project in short period, but its necessary, and sometimes impossible engineering projects becomes possible. through very much dedication/effort. 

but of course skeptics are also welcome and concerns raised are very legit or querying my rationality in thinking this engineering project is possible in short period is also very right concern but not to repeat self, sometimes its just necessary. e.g. to create defense against an unknown cult for instance with detective robots. or build medical inventions to stop cancer.

i sound irrational to the relative and thought my project plan is impossible. quite legit concern. but its like that interstellar movie's sentence, its necessary.  sometimes impossible  engineering needs to be built. in catastrophic periods e.g. in my case, confronting a psycho unknown cult whom tried to character assasinte me with untrue slanderings, to stop the unknown cult through detective robots that would stop char. assntn activities with inquiries is one of the goals. so sometimes impossible engineering projects are necessary. :) specifically such mode of mind happens in catastrophic periods :) 

i guess  no one would enter to high speed innovation pace unless thats necessary. people like to keep innovate in some kind of slight non urgency period style. but when catastrophes happens, then solution building becomes very urgent. :)

so maybe catastrophes that happens to me is good that they increased my innovation need/speed and set me cool project goals that relative even found impossible engineering project (in terms of its project plan, he thinks a people set need to work in long time to accomplish such projects). 

so character assasintion with very untrue slanders has beside the torture of it that you tried to be char assnated with very severely untrue slanders, it only had only one good side effect, increasing my innovation speed to resist against this unknown psycho cult with coder ai project and with later robot detectives :)

so sometimes even catastophes might have a good side effect :D

so its very twisted i mean to have catastrophes have a singular good side effect,  anyway i feel quite ok i got over trauma of confronting character assainstion and all its torture of stalk slandering incidents. 

i feel very got over trauma though still agoraphobic. i would by then robot detectives are ready than i would by then also got over agoraphobia.

its like that interstellar movie moment when the scientists said its impossibele to the guy and the guy whom werent scientist said its necessary :D

were resembling moment my previously assistant professor brother saying its irrational its impossible. :D

but my inherent mind reply: its really necessary :) so it would become possible. through dedicated effort to build this project :D

sometimes best factor to increase speed of innovations i observe is catastophes as for instance character assasintion catastrophe that happens happent to me.:D

kind of funny aspect of all these :D

though my trauma got passed. i got over trauma alot. i am happy quite happy and very hopeful for future also. :) everything would be very awesome! and coder ai would be ready its first version would be ready in 4 months :) yuppp :)

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so everyone has cooper alike moments in life i guess, at least people whom confronted severe catastophes (e.g in my case tried to be character assaisnated with severely untrue slanders and confronted severe psyops and char. assntnion effort of an unknown cult. quite a lot catastrophe )

but i got over trauma of in huge extents and soon 4 months later also coder ai's first version would be ready :)

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there were some idiom like hardwork of man shines through hard periods or so? i think its really like that :D

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my observations: 

there is nothing more than effective to increase innovation speed than catastrophes or hard periods that happens.

:D i literally observed this in my self :) realluy normally you dont care to invent fastly :) you dont care the speed of innovations usually normally. until a hard time /catastrophe happens :) then that becomes the period you would use your all skills to survive hard period/catastrophe, :) 

so i guess sometimes pace of innovations is related to how much hardness happens to life. e.g. catastrophes. 

nothing more motivating than survival need :) and nothing can more motivate to increase innovation speed or set project goals scopes like that:)

its not a slow going life mode when catastrophes happens you get to use to learn to use your capabilities to its very extents :) i mean learning capability for instance. or creaqtivity capability to design tyour project with full extent of creativity in design of your ai project. or patience capability to invest a lot time to studying on evenings. you force your all skills to its fullest extent in hard periods. 

i never been in survival mode before until a catastrophe happent to me(catastrophe of character assasintion). i observe that you use utilize your skills to very extents in such period.  

i guess this must be like for everyone whom confronts any catastrophe.

kind of only positive impact of catastrophes might be that. and just only postivie impact be that.other else catastrophes are full trauma. but i got over trauma feeling and feel happy now. but still agorpahobic but then when robo detectives are ready, would also got over agoraphobia.  yuppp.

wishing no catastrophes happens to anyone :)

but in tandem i observe, man's skills capabilities shine in hardness :) 

right now its a very cool period after all these last 6 years of trauma of char. assntn process. its very cool happy period right now. i mean very near to end of coder ai projevct that i started 1.5 year ago i guess. hmm also my usual mood has became happy mood and non trauma mood as it used to be very before. for a while it were constant trauma feeling type mood. it passed. now my mood feels happy.quite happy. 

so catastrophes are very hard. i wish not happens to anyone. i wish anyone be safe from catastrophes of any kind. from character assntn to any type of any kind of catastrophes.

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from a comfy type sunday :) 

its a quite happy sunday today be as:) since talking with relative about project were very awesome to take his opinion and skepticisms/criticisms as a prev. assistant professor. 

though i still believe its not an irrational project plan and its very possible to finish first version in 4 months :)

i missed talking with my bru about projects. take his opinions. were very cool to take his side of opinions yuppp. 

last time we talked of any project were i think 1.5 years ago. missed talking to him about science. i like talking science with my family.  not mom and dad though since mom and dad werent scientists.

brother is a multi topics knowledgeable scientist. he used to work as assistant professor but resigned since he wanted to build his own project for a while. 

its so happy to talk science maths sometimes also humanitarian sciences or economics like topics with relatives whom are interested to such topics.  though not having too much scientists in family. but its always feels privilage to attend such discussions surely. whenever happens. e.g. talking of what confused me in zeno's paradox with someone. that someone asks why do you get confused on that? no one other asks such questions. i dont have alot scientist arounds me that asks such questions in family. except scientist relatives. 

i wish i had also other math professor teaching assistant professor friends like my relative. that asks me talks me such topics. so it feels like privilege when bru asks such questions.

i wish i had more scientist surrounding in family. or people set i wish i could set up such surrounding from not family also.

its that to be able to talk of  zeno's paradox with someone feels quite fun/honour :) and to talk of Cantor's diagonalization either. it becomes very interesting discussions knowledge share. i wish i had other scientists in family that we could talk such topics or outside people that talks me such topics :)

but have none such people. hmm i think relative(i mean bru's) suggestino to attend a msc/phd programme to setup such surrounding is quite also good suggestion in that sense that i setup a surrounding that talks topics i wonder of.  also software coders also talks about topics i wonder either. 

but i also miss talking someone like i mean i talk of zeno's paradox, and the counterpart says : what had you not understood at zeno's paradox, its solutions is subtle and been solved 2000 years ago.:D i mean no one i talk to knows zeno's paradox :S its quite sad to not find people surrounding that likes to talk topics i like to talk about.

it feels always honour to be able to attend such discussions.  cauise its very interesting unlike all other uninteresting topics that i find uninteresting. 

i mean someone asks me whether if i have  complexes to set up such huge project goals. then i want to clarify my learning objectives with saying it started with Resnick's textbook. and i moved that i wondered about alternative solutions of Zeno's paradox. then a question comes: Zeno's which paradox? Zeno has lots of paradoxes. then i clarify its rabbit and turtle related paradox. then question again: what had not you understood from that? its has very subtle solution and it were even solved 2000years ago. 

i mean no one asks me even Zeno's which paradox? and noone could reply in such intellectual knowledge yet from any surrounding of me. i have very rare scientists relatives that i like to talk with.

so eveyrtime i have a chance to discuss with relative science topics it feels very happy. cause noone else like to talk science. or noone else i know likes to talk of Zeno's paradox. 

or that when i say about square root of two,  replies with saying that is the most beginning knowledge of every real analysis textbook replies with:)

noone else i know gives such replies to such discussions:S i thinki am very untalented in building a surrounding. not easy to do create a surrounding during char. assntn either. but i wish i could also find other maths assistant professor friends. or such areas or phd having friends whom knows about Zeno's paradox or Nietzche or Freud or every topic i find wonder of.

 my ignorance level when talking with bru reduced.

it were always like this. i thinki am quite lucky to have very intellectual brother:)

our gap of intellectual levels came to reduce but still he is like an encylopedia :) its always very fun to talk science with bru. cause would reply with more knowledge to any topic i raise, like if he is an encylopedia :)

though like rabbit and turtle, me being the turtle, might pass brother's math knowledge. he suspected some kind of jealousy to his advanced knowledge of maths and suspected whether my math study is because of jealousy to him:) 

:D

no no kind of jealousies. he always is a i dont know motivation to motivate, e.g. papers of maths that i cant understand yet. he is an electrics and electronics engineer but very advanced maths knowledge he has. 

along those time, our gap reduced.

actually my interest to philosophy science also started with brother's books. his philosophy boooks i read and got interested to philosophy from there. so has been always source of intellectual effect this brother entity been as to this guh :)

he is wrong about me being jealous about his maths knowledge. he suspected whether i got jealous or motivated by jealousy to learn advanced maths. but its really not like that :)

this alweays happens like this, anyn topic i raise, he usually knows more than me as if he is a walking encylopedia :D 

hmm i wish i could find such surrounding as intellect as my brother. i cant find any surrounding in char. assntn process either. but i guess if i started phd or so i might had built up such people. i wish i had teaching assistant professor friends. it would have been awesome to talk science with so. 

people with phd are like encylopedias :D its always honour/fun  to talk science with them :D

i wish i had could have setup such surrounding. hmm maybe later after coder ai is built.

thoughn my brother were always like encylopedia even without phd times :) is like he is always one step ahead of me intellectual wise and not actually one step, its like he has more iq than me. he is 3 years older than me but seems as iq wise always further.

my further advantage is my creativity i think. but its always fun to talk to brother to see how he knows everytime much more than me in any topic that any topic i raise ever, he knows much more :D from economics to any topic eg maths.

i think he is iq wises a lot ahead of me than wtr to me always :) but i think i am kind of luckier wtr to him in terms of software since i graduated from computer engineering unlike to electric electronics engineering. so that made me had more experience in software.  actually it was his suggestion to me attend computer engineering instead of e&e engineering. 

its always very fun to talk people that are much intelligent than me. since i couldnt find that i am usually alone. i like to be friends poeple more intelligent than me.

but during this char. assntn period i couldnt focus on finding friends either.

so when a communication about science happens it feels awesome. cause i lack communications due to loneliness and i cant setup surrounding due to char. assntn happent last 5 or 6 years. but in future i might find prof friends or phd friends etc that are also like encylopedias that its very interesting to talk to them :)

i like to be criticized of my projects. or my thesis. but noone i have to talk to. since due to char. assntn i cant setup surroinding. but in future i would setup :) e.g. phd finished friends etc. or i mean encylopedia type people:) its alweays very interesting to talk to such people :)

in current workplace there ar elots of people woith phd.  but i dont know currently i cant setup surrounding i think. and i think i like to be instead friends with professors. not evebn phd even. i want to have encylopedia like friends. which i thinkprofessor are like that. 

i like to spend time wiht my age group also always. workplace the phd finished people seems as not in my age so i dont even intend to find friends from workplace. i like to find friends in my ages. i mean near to 40ies. or more. 

i wish i had a phd hae had friend set that are 40ies like me :) tnhat we talked science together :) but i lack that since due to not focusing to finding friends during the char. assntn that happent.

anyway lets find prof friends later. :) (or also autodidactive friends thatdont have degrees but yet are ealso like professors i mean encylopedia alike people either having degree or not :) )

that whom we could discuss paradoxes of Zeno :)

hmm i think i need to find friends from phd in maths type people to discuss these topics. but later.  (or autiodidactive people whom educared phd type info in these topics) cause i really like discussing these topics. eg.. Lebesgue theories, Haar, or new topics i am learning of in topology either. 

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i replaced the privelege terminstantly  snce remembered the very horrific topic of white privelege. i think  white privelege is quite stupid and very dishonest and very incorrect belief cause everyone every race is equal in terms of intellectual capacity. 

its so crazy believe in white privelege :S no one is more talented than other. races are equally talented. no advantageousness in any race happens. its so stupid to think one race should be more advanaged than other :S its so stupid:S undefineable levels of stupid false belief:S

aha sorry they call white privelege to biases right? aha i confused with white supremacy named stupid dishonest stuff. that i mean thinking races are intellectually unsimilar or thinking attributing lesser talented traits to other races is quite stupid since all races are equal. all races are equally talented in anything. in terms of for instance intellectual topics.

i confused the terminologies jargon used in these topics.

i remembered as its called white privelege to think whites are more talented/better than other races  which is very stupid/dishonest cause all races are equally talented.

hmm ok even not knowing the terminology of these very dishonest stupid topics that thinks races are intellectually less talented. its very stupid. cause all races are equal. not to discuss even.its just so stupid. to think other races are having less qualified skills or any such trait. its the most stupid thing i ever heard. cause all races are equal in homosaphiens. no race has any disadvntage. except inequalities induced disadvantages when if happens. but i wish that does not ever happen. i wish so it does not ever happen. otherwise no race intellectuals wise not any better than any other race. or any topic its like that. 

i would just wonder about this very untrue far rightist fantasies which are quite delusional. cause every race is equal in terms of all specutrum of type of talents/capabilities. its just a delusional dishonest fantasy of far rightists as i read in internet such very dishonest stuff like white supremacy type stuff passes in internet. just very delusional/very dishonest/very incorrect. nothing to even say about cause its very stupid. :S

again Freud makes so much sense. i mean group behavior. a group creating some set of group anchors and creating delusional fantasies (e.g. white race supremacy named stupid dishonest stuff) and then feeling good about themselves with that :) its so funny. everyting reduces to psychology actually:)   its kind of a group wise fantasy/divergence from reality of far rightists as i read about. very stupid/bvery dishonest. and needs to be assesed psychological wise. and maybe even Freudian wises. i mean group psychology wise. group behavior wise. i mean such far rightists delusions. its i think human mind has lots of intricate conflicts inside. and some people set like to setup groups to suppress their internal chaoses (referencing post-Freudian mind analysis concepts and concept of defacto human mind chaos topics of ego, super ego etc) with looking down to other people :) i mean with setting up groups then looking down to other people in this right wing fantasy, looking down to other races. its just a psychological topic actually i think. its that about ignorance and a group wise psychological disorder i think such right wing deliusions are.

every most topic roots down to psychology. psychology science is very important imho. :)

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everyone has ego- super-ego motives conflicts in their minds. but some like to do create delusional fantasies to forget their chaos:) i mean just check literature of post Freudian psychoanalysis topics and metaphysics analysis, you would see that acceptance of chaos among super ego/motives/ego is quite the path but also people like to move away from that nonmodern taxonomies built in Freudian era e.g. ego super ego. they tend to go to more nominalist perspectives without also nonmodern metaphysical traditions of Freudian times. i mean trying to reach to more correct taxonomy systems in these classifications of mind faculties created in Freudian times. no more super ego or ego wise distinct classifications is considered the correct way to discuss chaos of mind.  but yet still alots of Freudian concepts still rule e.g. group psychology disorders, e.g. example far right wing delusional fantasies e.g. white supremacy etc or example of such delusional systems of thought that is practioned in groups is also seen in lots of unsimilar cases. so even we love to move to postFreudian era discussions in such topics, underlyingly those inspections of those times still works/still looks correct. but we might change the taxonomy system of classification of mind faculties to nominalist non carteisan systems.

this non cartesian systems inclination not only happens in modernism/postmodernism disucssions in terms of psychology science, but also in every topic. there is a trend of nominalist approaches and deemphasizing dualist/cartesian mode of thoughts. e.g. earlier tradition of thought facultiessystems e.g. metaphysics practices with contrasts.  e.g. ying yang type mentality. and conceptualizations like that. that dominate metaphycial faculty of thought thought practices. 

so with that confusion of changing taxonomies in post modern era in terms of classifications in these topics, after a huge period of modernism to switch to post modernism, though yet still those modernist era's findings still rule and very valuable/very helpful to analyze. e.g. this group type disorders. e.g far rights delusional fantasies like white supremacy. it happens not only in that, lots of other examples might exist.  group wise psychological disorder i like to think such topics as.

hmm as ignorance rate reduces education level increases such group wise psychological disorders tends to happen less. so i dont expect world's far rightists wings to have high education level imho. either auto didactive education or other usual education systems like colleges etc. 

world is a crazy place :) i  think so:)

so many crazy topics happening :)

i just cant stop thinking that world is a very crazy place.

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hmm for these post period of psychology science such concepts anysis, i had not had chance to read some philosophical studies in that post versions of such unpopular metaphysical concepts like ego-super ego etc. so i am quite ignorant on this topic but at least now knowing the trends of such discusssions from a textbook i had a chance to read initial chapters of but coudlnt carry awhile. might rebuy the book. 

it were about how that science changes evolves from Freudian times. i mean psychology science in terms of discussions with philosophy science. it were like philosophical metaphysics but covering mainly psychology topic.  but i had only chance to read inital sections to read about Kandinsky's spiritualist approaches or other new approaches and new popular trends there. yeah that book i think is in another city. so might rebuy cause it were very interesting topic. to see how Freudian such ego/super ego concepts and psychology discussions altered in new era. 

but what i seee every science i read, is moving away from some previously used very cartesian/dualist concetps/aristotelean concepts. to more nominalist approaches nowadays maybe last 50 years. 

that positivism confidence of that everything could be modeled with either deductionism or covering law approaches (that distinctive bifurcation i remember from one analytical sociology article) with basis of carteisan though methods is now not that popular. i also remember that such approaches fallback in aslo another very interesting book called to see as state like or such titleed book. 

so i definitely observe from not that intellectual (since i cant spare time to read analytical sociology or symbolic interactionist sociology or metaphysical philosophy or other topics right now since there is coder ai project first priotized)  from my such not intellect point of view, even from such point, i can see such a nominalist trend and decartesinalist trends. dualism is abondoned i mean aristotelean conceptualizations. i mean not fully abondoned but axiomatically questioned and new thought methods are emerging along side of dualism/aristotelean approaches.

so right now i dont have time to educate myself in those topics due to ai project. but this is my opinions on these topics.  not quite intellectual cause i dont have alot time to read analytical sociology or philosophy or slightly psychology science any now (i dont like psychology cause its a very sad science. but i like more group psychology analysis parts of such sciences but still not that much i dont like it alot. everytime its very sad to read any psychology book since its really sad, psychological illnesses are very sad topics to read of truly. one should have to reduce compassion or correct term would be, emphaty, feeling if can to study psychology without being sad. or empathy feeling. i mean its really not easy to read psychology science cause its really sad. so i tend to not read alot. but i liked more sociology type areas before. later when having time, might check continuye reading. after coder ai and other projects ready i can continue some intellectual aspects building up period with reading very interesting textbooks. e.g. i think that metaphysical philosophy discussions related unfinished textbook were very interesting index like slight encylopedia index type book to read about contemporary approaches set clearly verywell defined explanative styles. )

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hmm coming to topology topics thoughts:

can a universal net in a set include both frequential and both eventual components in a configuration that eventual only gets eventual in infinity? that it is like if is both frequential components of set. 

can a composition of a set make it be like two frequently nets even though in unite complete set its eventual. i think its possible configuration. that eventual net existence could be decomposinited to frequential exitence in terms of components wise. yupp. quite possible. hmm so i think proposition i read is wrong. hmm but need to ask/confirm. hmm might find a forum to ask later. 

hmm now understood that proposition might happen it does not mean every there. hmm. yupp proposition is definite correct. i misunderstood its syntax i think since i were tired of doing laziness today:) i did alot laziness today :)

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