i really hate ui of program that you cant navigate correctly on tv that responds slow through command interface that you click on another menu whilst you actually tried to open search button instead. :S

anyway fixed from pc to recover.  

hmm watched dont look up movie. were kind of i wanted to watch some kind of more detective stuff or spying stuff type movie today actually i think today. 

i think i started to get of trauma as by this afternoon. some hours ago. 

but i think i became sick of trauma. i felt physically so tired and wanting to constantly rest/sleep. i felt very sick. and i felt nausea when trible coincidence came up to my mind. and my stomach got also sick either relatedly or unrelatedly i dont know. but i were severe sick today of feelnig severe tired and wanting to just rest only.

i think if a tv show topic(trible) coincides with some horrific topic, its kind of severe trauma topic. but after watched dont look up i started to forget about the trauma feeling. hmm maybe if i could find a spy or  movie like saving world typemovie i would be better my attention to trible topic would resolve. its just so horrific, that a topic like tribbles in a movie then i see some key chain with voodoo stuff on sunday then Trimble incident i read that i read later from tribles topic that it were the script writer of tribbles got inspired from a keychain with something looking like tribbles. so i mean when a tv show sci fi tv show topic coincided with a person's death and coincided with the keychain i looked on sunday, i felt devastatedly trauma. i felt physically sick of trauma. i got physically sick. my stomach got so sick yesterday. and i wanted to fall asleep all time. and i wanted to slightly vomit when trible trimble words coincidence comes up to my mind:S

i just dont want to go back to that trauma mood that i had recent days. its like i searched Trimble incident and then, look to tribble topic and see keychain coincidence, and i got suspicious of someone killed Mr. Trimble :S and i felt severe trauma. and felt like as if the killer had done a special reference to my which day is 23th of December 2016, i 1 day before Trimble incident i searched that day to learn which week day it is, and ingternet said its friday. then i learnt Trimble incident which has Gooid friday topic.

i been devastated with trauma feeling afterwards. and constantly read about this topic fixatedly. and felt nausea when this trible trimmble reference of the unknown evil killer happent to come to my mind everytime my stomach felt nausae everytime. its just its just so psycho.  i mean the unknown killer's specific reference to Tribbles. its just so psycho. i dont want to return to that traumatized mood that happent today till afternoon and made me even physically sick, i had no power to even cook food to myself and ordered. i had zero power to even go down stairs but went down stairs to open door to pizza i ordered to try to cheer myself some since feeling severe trauma. 

among all things i tried to relapse from trauma feeling only watching tv dont look up worked and i forget the trauma. now there feels a distance to trauma feeling.

i strongly suspect that someone killed Mr. Trimble. an unknown evil person an evil killer. 

i felt heavil traumatized last days due to that. since the unknown killer did some references to me. like voodoo keychain and tribble keychain :S and also good friday topic. the day before i searched what day is 23th december 2016 and it told friday before Trimble incident happent, the day before i searched that.

so i felt heavily traumatized. specifically tribble topic is so psycho :S

pssycho killer. :S an unknown psycho/killer has i believe targeted Mr. Trimble :S 

maybe listening to psycho killer song of run run run run away song might also hae me forget about this trauma feeling i felt or make it recall the trauma feeling? 

i dont know. 

there is an unknown psycho/killer that killed Mr. Trimble and did special references to me whilstg :S

i felt every time nausea with my sickj stomach when i think of Tribbles topic:S its very psycho. psycho killer/unknown evil person. 

i dont believe its natural death. i believe some unknown psycho has killed Mr. Trimble.

it is like the similar to: one day i told i ate too much cake. then the other day i read in news in Australia some woman passed away some hours later than i told that(less than a day passed), some woman passed awayt in cake eating contest news popped up in news. so i suspect maybe the same killer it is that also.:S

its very psyccho. 

anyway i been sick of trauma feeling last many days after reading this Mr. Trimble incident. 

and i want to forget cause i get sick of trauma. its like i want to fall asleep every hour since my body has no energy to stay awake type pshyical illness happent after trauma feeling. its like i just couldnt think any other topic most time and felt sesverely sleepy like and nausae happent whenever Tribble/Trimble reference comes to my mind even right now i feel nausea when writing it.

ok lets go back to healing from trauma mode if ever possible with watching another tv movie where people save world etc (though in this one of dont look up movie world werent saved unfortunately.) 

i figure out watching movies where world is tried to saved gets your attention from truma topic and helps distancing it in your mind to not create nausea feeling that it consistently comes to your mind and creates nausea feeling:S

i wish people capture this unknown psycho killer whom killed Mr. Trimble and i think same person must had killed the cake contest death topic in Australia that happent i dont know maybe 2 years ago. 

i wish Sherlock Holmes existed and captured the killer. 

ok i dont want to talk about this cause i want to forget this trauma. since it physically makes me even sick its very traumatizing. :S

observing references of an unknown evil psycho's psychopathy is severely traumatizing :S 

its so much traumatizing:S