i think i watched a lot of movies of world saving or such or also got in to some glass art show tv show and its seems as a very hard style art. (blown away glass art tv show) 

i think i rested alot after last week. 

hmm yayy did restarted biking yesterday. hmm but figured out my silly phone's screen timeout setting were 10 minutes which would mean my music/sometimes not music  i listen to (i like blizzard/win or rain sounds alot ) would change or stop playing. now i figured out screen timer is set to 10 minutes and in that bumbpy parts of the path where phone is in the basket beside other things it would evenchange song or stop playing it :)

biking is severe fun since you can just travel beside vegetations/trees/flowers/grass/river. but also sometimes very tiresome. hmm today might also bike. 

hmm i think i left projects for a while :) i thiink i just watched movies where world is tried to be saved etc.

since by the last week i felt severe trauma. and watching tv helped forget trauma feeling. so i continued watching movies like disaster where world is tried to be saved etc etc. 

hmm last day biked only 95 minutes or 100 minutes. i think i biked 30 minutes in noon time. then biked 65 or 70 minutes after work time. 

today would might keep it like that under 2 hours. since otherwise it would might become too tiresome. and that i also have a sick stomach.

ok i forgot the trauma happent on last week. after alot tv watching. 

hmm for projects, as mentioned, i need to buy particle physics books. hmm but buying books means also having have to carry when moving. i already have a luggage of books of maths/physics etc. hmm so i think i might go slower and not buy all the particle physics books i wanted to but just one introduction one. 

i think its time to continue studying. 

my knowledge of glass blowing, were a genius alike very distant relative that i had not had talked for a very long time. before i would slightly envy since were like genius like person. but then he gave up sone engineering education or in post education to become a glass artist or follow such pursuit of such artistic profession. 

from glass art documentary it looks like  its really very hard craft. i mean some topics they selected, e.g. introducing a ballerine to the tv show to task the contest attendants to draw motion, resembled me myself own attested idea of interest to draw ballerines or dance i mean or posture entirely all posture parts like hands or foot or torso actually i think i been interested all to drawing by then whilst not having talent or skill but interest to drawing dance/motion. So it were pretty interesting to me when the tv show selected such topic whihc resonated with such idea of my own interest to try to draw motion.

whilst watching the show as a person whom genuinely got interested to drawing alot before but not invested alot time nor training yet other than self tries to draw before, i mean it looked very interesting, but at the same time it definitely looked one very most challenging art type,  i mean in sculpting you could carve/change, but in glass it looks very hard to do so from outside at least. even if i really adored that arts, it seems too challenging type art honestly at least to my observation/perception. i watched to think/to decide this arts is too challenging. i mean even sculpting is lesser prone to errors. sculpting is also very prone to doing error in the sculpture that ends up breaking the sculpture i mean its artistic proposition/predicate/existence, i mean its very easy to break up the artistic concept you wish to sculpt in sculpting just with a slight error, but affinity to doing any error and the causal impact to the art, seems as a much more aggravated  factor in glass art, it seems much easier to break the awesome sculpture you did in glass art, so much risky form of art work, that you should be ok with throwing away with the art you created just due to a final change you can't revert back point, i mean the irreversability factor is very high that glass art. which needs definite focus/patience in that artistry. it looks as just needing too much focus/effort/patience beside the original artistic talent, its just looks as this glass based art due to these factors, to my understanding/opinion, seemed as one most challenging artisty type. i mean most one most hard /challenging artisty type. 

i been interested evaluating various type of artistry all my life. eg. i am also interested to making clothes or so :) but this is a very long before interest and never tried in recent period. but i think after watching glass blowing, i think looking to challenges it has, for instance unlike sewing clothes/cloth design interest just as a pure hobby, i just could not look to glass blowing as such an easy to enter hobby since its effort wise or any artistic factor wise its not easy to pursue imho. its for patient people. though nonamateur cloth making also is like that, every art form has similar pursuit similar challenge level if accomplished in nonamateur/nonhobby fashion, but even amateur wise glass blowing seemed too challenging to me. 

its just why it felt like that, siunce i mean with clay or polymer clay, you can just sculpt/change the mold with your hands or tools of sculpting, but in glass it just has an interplay with the gravity even the fluid physics of fluid/solid at the same time for silica, its just too many dimensional wtr to polymer clay. clay just behaves simple/its not that multidimensional. i mean talking about its dynamics, its just stays statically until you mold and create the artistic shape but glass is not like that, it just even flows all the time, so it looks as more dimensional topic to handle wtr to other forms of art where the materials are more static that have static behavior or less dimensional behavior. 

hmm one day i would start cloth making dream hobby as amateur :) it would be severe fun surely:) but that day had not came yet but i am also interested to that, but just as hobbyist. not targeting to be any professional just for fun type level. hmm i think i would continue also polymer clay learning. since it looks very interesting. 

so i evaluated glass blowing glass artistry whilst watching and i decided its not for me, since its too much challenging, its a high dimensional material and too much challenging to me.

polymer clay is much more simple/easy to shape imho. and without that much physical exhaustion. but the gravity/fluidity and coloring and all the aspects the glass art has, also is not in defacto present in polymer clay artistry. so it has both advantages/disadvantages, but i definitely would not start glass hobby since it really looks severely challenging even physically exhausting very much. so i really think it looks as at least, glass artistry is one most challenging artistry among all artistries. 

one must had not started with easier art types to get interested to glass art imho. i mean, i mean if you start with easier artistry types e.g. clay or polymer clay to try sculpting, then that excessive effort you see in glass sculptures seems a little bit too exhaustive but not to all, luckily there are glass artists that are interested to glass artistry which i deemed as one most challenging to pursue type of art.  its results outputs are also very amazing either, not easy to create that in sculpting side either. 

it just seems too much challenging type art. not for lazies. not for me. 

i think polymer clay even also non lazies do utilize to do amazing art, is also for lazies that tend to stay ni beginner or amateur levels at most, to have them pursue.

i think my laziness also selects the art types i wish to work to :) when i ever get interested to do follow as a beginner level in all art types i think my skill set matches beginner level.

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so from 3 particle physics books to start learning particle physics and basics of organic chemistry coming from particle physics side but not just electrons / periodic table/ quantum physics mechanics of electrons and forces there, want to go one level more detail to start with particle physics side to get to know the subatomic world. 

it would be interesting to study to imho. but i would drop the bought textbook count to 1 since its i think its enough and i already ave a luggage of books that i have to carry. 

hmm in continuation of coder ai project, i need to continue the topology study that i paused awhile that i would resume this night. hmm now it might be biking time yayyy :) 

i am eager to move to linguistics learning side of the coder ai project from my basical nlp knowledge to some more beginner to linguistics level information knowledge i think i might be able to attain in such time. hmm eager to start that side of the coder ai project. 

but now biking time :) yayyy :) some sports after taking so much calories today. 

yayyy did some 1hour 40 minutes or so sports. or slightly more. this time 22km.  hmm some 15 minutes passed with  shopping. otherwise biking.

i think i must had burnt at least 500 calories or maybe even 700 calories since i did 22km sports today.

it were amazing every where all trees/green/vegetation and even had found berries that like were in beside train way's  side. it were like other side is a field with on rectangular corners all trees. other side train way with flowers and sideline is full of berries. so also took some nonmarket berries from there some.

so it were very exhaustive sports cause 22kms is really challenging and its not everytime flat though most paths are flat but some have steep hills either. 

its very challenging to do 22km sports to me since i am fat. but going great. 

i think i love the most the part where i bike beside fields in this path or some places with like gardens all that are like full gardens all vegetation/trees. 

and i also as mentioned likethe scenic field like a painting place its like a field of either barley or so that is totally or some thing likem that  that is totally dried out in sun or i dont know it could be just dried out vegetation in a huge field, that also place i like to bike alot. 

and as said its on the distant side of there there is river. than other side train way where side line is berries /green vegetation. 

so its like 2hours extensive in green/fields biking/beside river sometimes sometimes gardens/sometimes historic places/towns with cobblestones ways.

its a very advanture since has various challenges like steep hill at some path point for very short path, tand also adventure because its 22km or so, i mean biking 22km or so is not really easy actually, gets a lot of energy/exercise.

and path sometimes is beside river, sometimes biking paths beside train ways, sometimes beside fields, and sometimes green fields, and most of the time full with paths with surrounding green vegetation/trees all around.

so being not into biking sports before that much, and biking 22kms is quite challenge but a nice challenge since its really like its like a compressed time frame as if its camping or hiking like time. its like i feel like i went to a hiking holiday after wards since i mean bike path passes through fields etc. it just is like accelerated hiking :) just in 1.40 time or so. 

i dont know when my fatness would start to resolve. but its related to calories intake. last week i during trauma order constantly high caloried food(a food type i like but unfortunately has a lot calories) then i think it added up to the fat layers of me. hmm i think losing weight depends on also being careful and moslty being careful on calories in take. 

since everyday biking 22kms seems at least to me infeasible for my energy level. i think i would try to bike per day in noons and in evenings but not like 22kms butsome less. but still losing weight which i have really unhealthy level all depends mostly on calories intake always no matter how much sports done. sports i guess increases BMI  but most is related to control of calories consumed per day i guess as i also read about. 

i think i would cheer myself's sports accomplishment for today with preparing some coffee and cheer my 22kms sports today. ambitious to lose weight and hiking travel mixed adventure it is i think. (i really have some unhealthy level i mean cardiovascular wise quite unhealthy level of fat i mean by unhealthy i mean cardiovascular health) 

hyayyy lets celebrate today's 22km sports then with coffee yayyy. then might make myself some salad or apple for dinner for today.  hmm. i think i choose salad but salad is actually not any low calories if consumed with a lot cheese, but would take care to consume very low calories  portioned cheese if could beside salad surely. 

hmm today's plaen is to continue topology study laterwards after coffee time and after salad time. maybe i add some exercise also today si9nce i consume food at 20:00pm yupp. i think i would also do add that 2 person's exercise set that i shared before to start consuming some calories to alleviate food after 20:00 pm situation. and i feel like i can do sports more (but not biking but just exercise) maybe before i rest. yupp.