my inner power to handle illness got better today. I kind of depresesed in weekend which i became very ill (since I were both sinusitis and both other digestive illness symptoms happent and became very ill ) also depressed on monday either. since th region hurts now. and since weekedn 2 illnesses mixed.

but now i healed of depression of it. I felt like depressed randomly cried for illness. but then depression passed today.

I think now I resumed inner power by today night. but today I also were depressed. I left work earlier today and fall asleep. I mean I depressed to illness. I mean usual depression symptoms e.g. remembering how illness were hard and crying alike. e.g. like remembering how its symptoms were hard etc. or weekend not being able to rest due to symptoms etc. 

I think I had depression after friday. due to illness 2 illness mixed. but now finally inner power is resumed.

buyt today i were still depressed and i left work early 2 hours before and fall asleep. I usually fall asleep all weekend. even sunday. usual depression symptoms. having illness is kind of depressing when illness has hard symptoms and when on friday night 2 illness mixed, it were very hard to me. 

but when the psychic phenomena happent, it made me forget the depression even taking my curiosity :)

Since my dad were cancer before I had not told family the iullness symptoms either. dad healed of cancer.  it were like stage 3.5 or stage 4 lung cancer and yayyy healed with hmm first chemotherapy then they tried also new immunotherapy and also ray therapy against tumor in lung and then revertng to chemotherapy again(after deciding selected immunitherapyu drug did not worked out in that specific case)  then as told chemo for 6 weeks and then after 6 weeks they figured out cancer is healed and none present.  we theorize maybe also immunotherapy still not thinking thought very effective might also be effective. 

hmm I sometimes depress these last years when illness symptoms happens. 

I usually am a inner power wise powerful person very cheerful very inner wise powerful against depression (since I had once severe depression by like 20 years ago or so then learnt to not depress anytime afterwards that experience. I had severe depression due to not knowing I am autist and trying to cope with autist symptoms by then alike. but then I never depressed ever after in my life after that severe depression. I mean I gained skill to be always cheerful inner powerful mode and never enter to depression after like 20 years ago once entering severe depression by then. then I never entered depression again ) 

I oibserved depression reactions like crying and over sleeping last weekend siunce it were too hard day for me when 2 illness mixed. and I also cried to hardness moments I remember from illness like lungs stopping due to somehow. I entered the default depression loop opf alike crying to the hardness of illness alike. and then but today I got over depression yayy. specifically multiverse phenomena also helped me getting over depression :) since it created momentary curioisty and wov! reaction in my mind :) 

Its amazing to observe multiverse phenomena and creates wov! reactrion in my mind :) and it cleared all depression remnants in my mind that temporal crying depressing period. 

I think I would try to learn to not depress to illness symptoms. and do purseu as usual with inner power like maximum inner power/cheer and not depressed.  its all experiences in life. e.g. this illness depression I experienced and then learnt it and not to depress afterwards. I mean depression is also some experience that makes it learn how to not depress. I leanrt this weekedn skll to not depress to illness symptoms. I mean every depression is like learning skill not to depress. I think I had as mentioned depression stuff twice in my life. once e.g. 20 years ago severe lost in depression. due to not knowing i am autist and not knowing how to cope with autism. e.g. walking in front of people to use the minibus were very stressing to me and I did not know why. it were very hard to observe my regression state in social skills communication skills(with respect to nonautist people) or stuff like being very stressed when walking to minibus/bus to go home to university to lectures e.g. passing in front of people waiting bus etc . hten I in total entered a very severe depression. since I had to walk to minibus/bus and I very disliked it it were very hard since I awlays need to walk to go to university lectures or walk between departments it were huge university with buildings very separate so I routinely had to walk in between people lots of people and it were harder for me. (then but I got used to being autist later. and got used to this.). then by then life became easier when I got driving license and did not used public transport alot by then. 

nonautist people can not know that hardness of being over stressed by just having walking outside e.g. its very stressful to pass beside a quueue of people waiting minibus/bus.  or alike. its really not understandable either most possibly to people whom are not autist either I guess.  only autist people would understand imho. 

but later I get used to autism and get used to autism symptoms.  but before getting used to it, it were really hard to get used to being autist. e.g. specifically when not even knowing i am autist and having digfificulty e.g when walking between different departments or from dormitory to department to go to lectures etc. I also liked socialization vbut it were hard to walk in place full of people. only ajutists would understand. but by the time i stand and socialize i would have lesser autism i mean i likde talking socializing to people. but walking in outside were really hard and I wouldnt understand why. Later i learnt i am autist and its autist symptoms. .eg. its harder for me to walk in places full of people. e.g. outside. its some autist symptom. every autist has different symptoms some are very autist alike me, some are less (e.g. aspergers have less autism symptoms lesser severe symptoms) 

 I even with autism got used to autism symptoms and loved to go outside until I became agoraphobic due to an unknown mafia's stalk/sociopathic false flags/ugly requests batteries.  ayy lets not talk such unhappy things now since this blog paragraph is happy  blog paragraph and dont want to talk unhappy topics yayyy.

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yayyy lets now measure magnetism direction strength in various places in home and write. so that I measure tomorrow also to see if there is flux already. hmm I added postits to two spots on wall with measuremnt data yepp.