hey people how day passed ->

I had been all time with family gathering until now (family gathering to celebrate new year)).

i got bored at some timepoint. my funny cousin were very like too drunk faika aunt and ece cousin helped to leave ece cousin to home whom become funnily very drunk. hmm they drank raki.  i drank gin+cola drink. 

I think i tried raki before and couldnt drink alot.  some kind of very heavy drink type it is.  but gin+cola were awesome. (not heavy drink type like whisky or raki etc)

plus I always hate the day after getting drunk -> e.g. too much headache if drink alot. so i took care not to drink alot. since hate being sick the other day after getting drunk.

figured out that this side of my family (my dad's side cousins) have some drink culture. of drinking raki together raki and mezes like hummus or so.  which i dont have such culture alot. so i started to get slightly bored and it were lucky that one of cousins got overdrunk that they left her home early and i also got away from drink gathering table by then :)  (I mean since i would have to ask them to leave me to home since my home is like 500 meters distant alike then they left me also whilst leaving ece cousin to home:))

its that with drunk people, (I were also slightly drunk but not much) one needs to also get drunk to be able to follow. (e.g. singing together etc. or listening cultural music  together. its not that fun when not being drunk imho.  i mean it were fun until the time i stayedbut if i stayed more i would be bored since i were not drunk and my drunkenness would get less and less more which i would get more whilst drunk funny cousins listening to songs singing etc)  its that one also needs to be drunk to follow up singing songs in a getting drunk table imho :D but i had no intention to get drunk more either. since the day after condition of getting drunk is really unnice. lots of headache alike. so i had drunk not much. and had alot cola instead of gin alike. i wish i wont have headache tomorrow and i dont even feel drunk as of now (drunkenness seems got lesser near to none)

hmm i think it were nice fun night of family gathering today, which i had not attended for a very alot while. (last 5 years i think its first time i attend a family gathering) 

actually usually my tradition to celebrate new year were most times alone. e.g. coding sometimes etc.  

but i think this famly gathering i am not very used to. very before we also passed new year celebration like this. but been alot while i had not attended so felt very strange to gather up and celebrate new year.  since i usually passed new year alone myself for a lot time. 

Its nice i think our gathering was nice, were not as bad as other cultural events e.g. someone playing some cultural musical instrument singing cultural songs alike which i find very boring. since songs are unnecessarily dramatic. :)  

i also liked that before. e.g. gatherings where they play cultural musical instrument. or sing songs. (luckily our gathering has had not that) but nowadays i find it kind of boring. 

i saw video of another family branch gathering which they played a musical instrument (saz) which i said i wish my ozgur uncle has some patience :) I guess predict he is also severely bored. even seeing the video of people singing songs along with saz (and dramatic songs as if they passed very sorrowful lives:D not any :D but its they usually have very sorrowfyl lyrics having songs weirdly :D) which i find it very borign now adays. seems as i got distanced to this cultural events. but i very appreciated here in this family branch there were no such event like that(no saz playing with dramatic songs :D ) I am sorry for disliking it. but i really dislike it. since they singing very dramatic songs makes no sense to me at all. and i got bored during. i think since i stayed 5 years away from our culture this traits I think i find myself distanced to. i dont even have patience to listening people singing songs alike.  I think i got very distanced to our culture's such traits of songs alike. 

e/g/ the moment i saw kazim eniste playing saz and some people singing songs its just i said i am very glad i am not there since i would be super bored. and i saw ozgur uncle there, i definitely think he must be suffering of boredom. :D 

ok idont understand this. of why people like following such dramatic songs along saz musical instrument. something of our culture. its but songs are funnilyu very dramatic always thats the boring part i complain about. i mean people singing songs sadly alike very sad songs alike. very very boring to outsider imho. i think i became outsider to our culture after distanced last 5 years alike.

its very funny their songs are very drammatic althought they have no drama in lifes. its just culture is like that :) songs are very funnily sad :) 

i think i could take up on anthropological hat. 

its like some speicif cultural trait imho to have constantly sad songs along saz musical instrument in this culture :) and people really enjoy it :) (singing sad songs:) ) its a cultural shared value i think. to enjoy singing sad songs :) kind of inverted stuff imho. to enjoy singing dramatic songs concept i mean :D why god why i mean :D 

what this guh enjoys to sing normally -> yep this weird guh enjoys singing either rock opera songs :D (yep my family had alot patience to me i think in my university times since i would sing rock opera songs myself from my room in home :D)  it were my fun to try to sing operatic rock :D although of course failing:D and thats the fun of it (failing to sing :D)

so nice that i had a moment to get away from unfun time of staying in drink table whilst drunk funny cousions sing songs together :) Its something onlyto follow up when being drunk imho since i really dont like sad songs alike :) if it were rock or metal songs I would liked more :)  

meanwhile i think i drank 3.5 portions of gin+cola. but not much gin ratio alike. maybe 1/8 of being gin alike. then initially i got also some drunk but later passed. but raki drinkers got drunk alot. since they also place much more portion of raki to glass. and they were very funny :D