yep this silly did some vr exercise.

since her psychology were broken due to untrue propaganda she saw she couldnt study today but blogged upsetness :S

but i did found some awesome mode in a vr game and i played 50 minutes alike such game. and did exercised 64 minutes cardio with vr.  



so i had stopped vr exercise since i were depressed of how i adhd i were to coding and I tried to focus alot instead of vr cardio time (cardio exercise time of guh)  

then after code slightly has started to be slihgtly to be completed, then i started vr exercises slightly and continued coding also. but then last day i coudlnt code due to being sad alike then today i coudlnt code since i saw untrue propaganda and got upset and couldnt even study to anything and spent time with upset and blogging.  
i mean last night i constantly blogged about trauma but that also makes me relive trauma at the same time:S relived trauma last night and blogged nearly till morning i think, 


so today already were started depressed alike due to that then i saw untrue propaganda and got depressed even more day and constantly blogged about how upsetting untrue propaganda is during day.  

then i coudlnt code due to feeling depressed alike. 

but then i played some vr game alike (pistol whip) which i found a new mode and it were alot adrenaline! but then i did vr exercised 64 minutes alike since it were alot adrenaline the mode in pistol whip game i before hadnt known that mode and discovered and its totally adrenaline! 



so weekend passed very unnice:S constant depressed mode. 

except last hour which passed all adrenaline! (whilst trying to return back my mind from depressedness, i said lets play vr game for cardio exercise (since i think its something to do to try to get over depression. since i just even couldnt code/study  due to depression today)  then found a new mode in pistol whip and that were utter adrenaline!)



but i dont know if my depression is fixed. 
yep i think i would fix my broken psyhcology and would slightly try to resume normal life again. 
I got depression this weekend :S and its that if you think blogging helps the depression of trauma of ptsd of attacks in ferikoy and abroad,  you are wrong, since when i blog it, i relive the trauma of it also.


then my day went to depression on sunday  alike :S

but maybe lets go do things that makes happier. e.g. spend time with my mom. then start minute by minute resuming my life again taking my life from depression mode. i think playing vr were good thing. i mean instead of the depressed mode sitting and feeling all depressed. (since when i blog about the terror happent to me of suspects, then I when blogging i squaredly or iadically relive trauma of it.  and so :S sunday already started unnice  then some untrue propaganda i saw i became even much more iadically depressed :S and spend time sitting on beside computer then sitting depressed and but sometimes blogging alike reflecting how upsetting untrue propaganda is. 

  
the ferikoy attaqcks suspects(which attacked like that in all world streets) are very unnice terror grp imho (of 3 suspects). their terror is like horrific:S whilst blogging it were already made me depressed since when telling it describing it i relive the trauma of it:S 

then unrelatedly I saw some untrue propaganda on internet and I became even more upset/depressed and all day sit beside computer and sat upsetness (even from my sitting place giving my funny eye brows even constantly giving very upset reactions alike overwhelmed by upsetness and sometimes blogged) and then studied none today. 

and then  saw again untrue propaganda which made me remember 4 years ago or 4.5 years ago (e.g. in hannover) untrue propaganda i saw in some place with taking literals from blog and changing its meaning and untrue propagandist cult members waits in some corner and attacks untrue propaganda from there:S  (some religious cult alike people:S)  something i saw made me remember that trauma also:S

i have multiple ptsd topics. one is ferikoy terror grp attacks and its world wide attacks in world streets. (

then this separate topic of 4 years ago such attacks. (some religious cult attacked me 4 years ago, e.g. when i go from staying place in hannover, some religious cult alike people a day waited in corner and would change literals from my blog and do defamatory untrue propaganda attacks :S) this happent not only there i were stalked by people whom does such untrue propaganda attacks alike:S  (I think this topic is separate to ferikoy attacks. although ferikoy people also started such untrue propaganda attacks 4 years ago in stage 5 of attacks. maybe not inseparate topics:S dunno :S )    



so also remembered this when saw an untrue propaganda attack in internet 1 hour ago->


so i went full depressed today and write due to that very upset blogs also on sunday alike:S


untrue propaganda is a very unnice thing:S


there is very much very insane people also in world whom work alike religious cult and do organized untrue propaganda attacks :S 

and so day passed like this. 
constantly blogging and even here my eyebrows even given some reactions of gestures of very upsetness whilst writing. 

this much depressedness i hadnt felt for a while. 
i am usually a cheerful happy person and internally strength having against all the trauma of ferikoy attacks. and world streets attacks by ferikoy people of 3 suspects. then later also even more untrue propaganda. crime/terror attacks by ferikoy's terror grp (of possible 3 suspects). 
and then more crazy people attacking like religious cults doing untrue defamation attacks to my blog with changing conntext of literals:S 

so this guh went full depressed today :S of remembering all theses first remembered ferikoy terrorst grp\'s attacks (of 3 suspects) then later relgiious cult's attacks of with changing meaning of literals and untrue defamation attqacks 4 years ago. 

so I relived trauma of it and went full depressed today and couldnt even study to projects. unlike my default cheerful to study to projects.


i think i would slightly get back to life. from depression since i got depressed this weekend.  and whenever i saw something that is untrue propaganda I gave the uttermost rude reaction  in blog alike since i mean untrue propaganda is very unnice.  

since untrue propaganda is very unnice :S  but i gave the uttermost rude reactions today since i were depressed due to reliving ptsd (of ferikoy terror grp) this weekend. so started sunday already depressed then after i saw untrue propaganda, i gave the utter rudeness reactions in blog alike yep. but untrue propagand ais very unnice :S



but slightly would try to fix my broken psychology yep.  alreayd playing vr exercise instead of sitting and thinkijng ptsd and due to ptsd even at sitting place doing gestures of eye brows due to stress anxiety is not a nice thing to do and its like spending time depressed. 

yep lets resume life slightly minute by minute after a veyr depressed lost to depression type weekend time.  completely lost to depressedness of on saturday whilst blogging of 3 suspects attack patterns, i relived trauma as if reliving their 4.5 years ago attack patterns(whilst blogging i also relive the trauma of i) then sunday already had day started depressed.  then i saw untrue propaganda and gave very rude reaction alike. 

then day passed all depressed alike :S 

then at night i started to do something against depression and decided to play vr. etc etc.

then  now wishfully i would heal psychology from depression until wednesday wishfully.

aha i confused as if today is sunday. turns out its tuesday today. ayy. i thought last day were saturday and today were sunday. turns out today is tuesday. 

yep. lets fix pscychology from depression and continue studying to projects.
yep. 

 



 yep first task is -> some time spending with my mom then coding yep. 



 

 

 





 



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