weird life

/ my mom and my uncle were chatting in balcony . i came then sat and then uncle suggested (to have me socialize more instead of staying in home alot) find some again a technology job in software engineering. then i reacted as no i wish to not find a job then continue my ml algos project and finalize it. then i explained i dont need to find a job again after such project completed since it would code instead of me etc. or that i would design quantum computer designs etc. etc so no need to find a software job anymore i clarified to my uncle luckily my mom also thinks like that. that she said to uncle that my dad also supported my ml algos project and wished i worked to finish it first. (as working to data engineering /software job and doing ml algos as hobby project (in evenings/on weekends as i studied to ml algos alike last 4 years) really is not very efficient method to build ml algos project but fully working/focusing to it is many times fold more efficient )  yayy so i have 1 or...

 i think our funeral traditions in Turkey are quite nice. since thinking if i and my mom were alone in this period, it would be much sad. last 5 days we constantly had relative guests until late hours for funeral (every day some relative creates some meal to entire relatives visitors in our house)  we had not had time to even scratch our hair like constant flux of relatives visitors in our house had been like last 5 days and I spent alot of time with my very funny cousins either, so it really helped the getting used to after-funeral period of severe sadness period.  I already had got over grief period with funny cousins funny jokes last 5 days. we never been alone any last 5 days and had constant flux of relatives visitors.  first day we had prepared(from food company) meal to guests then second day also. and then 3rd day when some relative had  prepared I were like gosh wish she had not. since i mean i thought we are tired! (since meals are served in our funera...

 the multi language talking ferikoy (& global) criminal cartel mafias again at some time point attempted stage 2 shamelessly to of course fail again like any incident pattern anytime. 

 hmm last days were severely sorrowful. on monday we unfortunately had lost my dad (when staying in ICU due to metastasis in liver and other organs)  i think losing a family member is one of the hardest things that could ever happen in life. imho last 15 days were severely hard either since in ICU it were like constant heart broken of our hearts for feeling helplessness of not being able to even communicate to my dad alike due to his lung not working and constant ventilator intube situation. it were some insurmountable level of sorrow that I had first ever encountered in my life. i mean family member being cancer and being in ICU since lung has stopped/liver not functioning well enough yet then they told also kidneys dont near to none work etc. I just cant define the severity of sadness/sorrow we went through. its a sorrow/sadness severity I had never felt in my life ever. and feeling helpless of not being able to help either to my dad (since current med tech in world is unabl...

 i today have had a very weird turkish coffee cup. I initially saw a dino then an entire scene of era where dinos existed. (with even those scenes like from such eras stuff like brontosaurs or such )  i had not had scare emotional reaction so i dont think an asteroid would happen.  (last time weirdly I had a very risky multiverse traveling or coindince, in whihc I saw a dino in coffee cup which i scared of thinking me geting extint thinking myself momentarily thinking am i dino to be exteinct alike then the same day on same day an asteroid fell to philliphines sky alike, sorry i did not wanted to travel to such multiverse version intentionally  if it were me multiverse traveling and not a coinidence. )  but this time since i had not given scare reaction to seeing something resembles dino so I dont think I would multiverse travel to such a universe version. last time it were kind of weird. I instantly thought happenst dino as if it symbolizes me and am i to be...

 hey it were so much cool! my dad has for the first time for last week opent his one of eyes today when his brother were chattingto him in ICU visit hour :)  so turns out maybe also listening to cool music really helped traveling to a better universe version (which my dad slightly some more healed) so lets retry multiverse traveling today so that my dad heals that much so that soon he returns to us/to home with getting more healthier yayyy :)   I today hadnot visited since I were slightly sick and of course I also went to hospital to visit and saw my dad from tv monitor screen (1 person is taken to ICU visit hour and rest visitors could chck from tv monitor alike )

yayyy today is awesome day!  since seems as my mother praying in Kadir night and me praying to multiverse traveling some how slightly worked,  that my dad for the first time last many days has opent his one of eyes today. Today I had not entered since I were sunisitis alike sick and my dad's brother has attended critical visit hour and my lovely dear dad has even opent one of his eyes today :) so this engineer has stopped for a while working to ml algos project since I spare time to try out multiverse traveling to create miracle to my dad's health so that he returns to us and seems as it might slightly worked since he for the first time has opent his one of eyes today :) yayyy :) this engineer guh has a very weird life. unfortunately (or fortunately since it made us aware of existence of to be eradicated global criminal cartels) a global criminal cartel has started to target me for criminal attempts in ferikoy then they repetitively attempted to everytime fail at every attempt...