weird life

( guh's holiday goals: winning 300k (if its legal to mine on single pc) then going to a casino to spend :P  i always wanted to go to a casino at least once in my life :P  wondered about. never went before. so in one holiday, i would go to a casino. if i could mine 300k from btc (and if its legal to mine from single pc, of course i wont any mine if its illegal to mine in single pc) )

yayyy this weekend's agenda: today: (i couldnt study to this at 5am i rested instead since my sleep came)  N representation study. tomorrow measure theory.   i have a huge day for to resolve N number representation topic or investigate this qm tooling that i see is used for qm  to this task. then if it fails i would go to another 3rd way awhile. i have built some verlet integrator update awhile and that might also be utilized. but this today's  conceptual tooling seems exciting. since i never tried this tooling before in any topic.    ============================================= i am so excited to read anomalies to standard physics from physics labs. it means our standard frameworks are not complete. which is exciting. which means there might be lots of other possible frameworks there that should be found out! :) =================================================== i am much alot excited to that gamma function from Emil Artin. i hadnt started yet. it w...

 yayyy an energetic day starts cause i rested till 9am today. i woke up   at 3am but then rested later after 5am.     

  ok i saw i did unintended coincidences of sentences with people. i really hadnt done it knowingly. i really dont do coincidences with people with their sentences anytime knowingly :) i really hadnt known/seen :)

 ok as i said i guess i would wake up at 3am i woke up at 3:00am:DDD   ok since i rested today (last day i had fell asleep 2am and woke up at either 5:30 am or so)  (today fell asleep at 20:30 and woke up at 3am. so quite alot rested today)  feel alot energetic to day. hmm now i could study to topics i wondered about since now i rested. gosh my energy is back after i had enough rest.  its so silly i had very  much hair color changes recent days:D all because of my nose issues anyway.  ok yayyy weekend came! :) accomplishments for target of N representation: at least some induction i work is ready to be investigated up to some level. but i couldnt iterate that much but it were impossible to study last night cause i were so much lacking rest.   one topic i am happy of; after d vitamin for more than a week, either placebo  effect or not, i really am better in that lesser nose picking behavior. it got so much level in trauma period of my life. bu...

ok now i would work on the number N represesntation task continueation. some silly topics below: meanwhile recent days had dyed my hair and but shown my nose's defect more:D (i had a nose defect due to unrelated topic) but hmm i dont know if i likde my new hair color or not. what i just want is after pandemic settles i really want to fix my noses's issue and this time it wont get worse. since i fixed that behavior of nose picking :S which is unnice. i repeat it when i were in stress but i solved it mostly. anyway. cant get used to how i look right now:D ok would get used to. i recently dyed my hair as mentioned i like dying my hair alot:D anyway i checked rhinoplasty cliniques since this hair made my nose issues look more visible:D (due to nasty nose picking behavior that happent when in strssed etc) (of course i dont do in public:D) (it got very worse in trauma years. now i start to fix and d vitamin also helped. i just do when severely stressed now but fixing. so my nose'...

   yayyy i have an important job interview on tomorrow some hour. yay its fb interview. i quite wonder worklife in fb/google like companies so quite interested in the career there. i might possibly fail in interview process (i am not successful in job interviews topics) but would try my appication chance. since i wonder work life/career in fb/google like companies. and  looks really quite interesting job / career.  i honestly have no hope in job application process. i would try my chance but i dont see much hope in succeeding it. cause i have adhd and have issues with studying to coding exams.  (i couldnt studied to any exam in my university time and repeated courses constantly due to this, i have really adhd) (its weird topic)    honestly i also like my current workplace, but changing job also looks very exciting, changing city (Berlin is also nice but i like moving to other cities also, this time its London) also. and i also like changing jobs. so i ...