weird life

yuppp this weekend reserved to coding exam study for tests. for to get a remote job. then i would live 20 days in beside Aral lake:) guhu the ugly guhu has plans for living in many places whilst coding startup's base code and remote working:) hmm planning to select places of 20 dayts in beside Aral then maybe 80 days Japan than maybe 20 days Bali (days be limited to VISA free period:)) would work and travel in VISA free places (to my passport). (and would code the startups. i select 2 topics initially. first is simulation of atmosphere continual. then also wavelenght project. ) i should work hard to coding exam:) yayyyy then i would be saved from stalk of socio neighbour of sisli if ever repeats. I would have no trace in interent on where i live nor would anyone would know except country's passport departments countries governments registries of entrance/exit to countries. but otherelse i would have no trace on where i live in internet. cause i dont want the stalk to repeat....

i might be half Kurdish half Turkish rooted:) i think due to my Turkish roots the concept of that "yurt" named tents seems super interesting&lovely to me:) my parents says their roots root down to Horosan(mom's side). or Caucaucus.(dad's side maybe?) wherever i come from, my love is Turkey:) confronting sociopath hatred in life(of a sociopath neighbour), i understood such targeted hatred might also be unrelatedly rooted to Turkey as i read history of Turkey.  I understood some people try to destruct till to the end like i been tried to be destructed by sociopathy by a psycho neighbour.  i do guess that happens also in country levels unrelatedly.  so future goals, focus on protecting Turkey with my measures i mean as a single person i might not be able to do alot things. but could at least try to work on to create thermodtynamics based shield like projects for Turkey's defense sector. i wish i succeed in that. an air shield against that disables any thi...

guhus goals to protect her hometown & country; yupp investigate such thermodynamics projects for protection of Turkey's soldiers from such things. yuppp. future project goals. protecting my own country with power of science projects:) with pandora's box of calculus book which gives insights to how to shape nature. and since my love is Turkey, going to work for rthat in some hobby projects to protect my country from all possible attacks in future projects. first owuld start with investigation of thermodynamics projects for defense measures to investigate its shield usage possibilities. 

future goals in hobby projects, protecting Turkey's soldiers yupp we could use thermodynamics to create air shields that would constantly protect soldiers? e.g. from attacks in eastern mountains and in anywhere.

in future wishing to create things as hobby projects to protect Turkey's soldiers against enemy country in southeast (Syria backed by Russia). -----   God bless all those soldiers.  -----

may God be with all Turkish soldiers fighting in Syria against Assad regime.

i newly heard a very sad news from my country/my home city(from Iskenderun), God bless the soldiers:S very sad news:SSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

why i felt as some very famous genius made fun of my problem (of some identity creation thingy i confronted from a  maniac neighbour 😔). hey all best wishes genius entrepreneur!😊 (if it werent a coincidence. it is most possibly a coincidence.  otherwise i have a super succesful super genius person reading this silly coder's blog. must be a coincidence? dont any know if is coincidence. )

ok 20 days for Aral lake, 20 days for Bali, 80 days for Japan cities, 80 days for brazil,  80 days for haiti, 150 days for barbados, 430 days of startup coding be planned as like this:) if i could find a remote job:)  hmm forgot Chile:) ok 80 days to Chile also, would sample days to these destinations and build my services/startup like this on road:)  i wish i had remote coder friends whoma lso came me to such journey:) like it would be great if 4 people went so we could even travel stay with camping option or might had rent a caravan for parts of trip :)

ok super much wanting to go visit and stay for a long while building coding startup and remote working:) https://caravanistan.com/uzbekistan/karakalpakstan/moynaq-aral-sea/

i think i wouldnt even wait to get to learn martial arts to go live like that a year(martial arts for self defense since i might stay alone if cant find travel friends)  whilst building startup:) i would just as i find a remote job, would init procedures to start it:)

since i might stay alone in alot times, would learn martial arts :) to defend myself in case some trouble happens in next 365 days in  traveling world plan in any corner of world. lets find a martial arts course in berlin, i want to learn jujitsu and some fight technique they said is very impactive.

i have super exciting life plans i think:) this work and travel thign  seems super exciting to me:)

gosh this place looks super! i wonder to see the culture alot. ok next goal, fix my ignorance on culture concept. but i am suepr curiopus to get to this Kazak culture super alot, https://newint.org/features/web-exclusive/2017/06/14/aral-sea-fish-is-back looks an awesome place!

more and more adventure please:) my requests from my next life:) less city life and more adventure all around world:)

cant define how much attractive such startup building environment seems to me:)

Kazakhistan seems as a super attractive tourisrtic place to me:) i would also be a part time fisher:) seems also fun hobby to add to life:) ok recent life goals are like this:)

enough city life. some more adventure in life please :)

work & travel i want to do. so would be a remote coder who also codes startup at nights:) guhu's recent life dreams. i want to live in->out - of city life:) would read anthropology or any area i wonder in my tent :) in howling wind outside:)

ok would apply to visa to kazakhistan for coding startup in a tent mainly here:  https://www.westwards.de/westwards/2018/08/aral-sea.html  :) would be super fun:) adventerous life! :) want  more adventure in my life in this age of mine.

i like places like this as touristic places :) i would had wanted to live inside a tent also:) and code a startup at nights:) https://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fsmartwatermagazine.com%2Fsites%2Fdefault%2Ffiles%2Fstyles%2Fthumbnail-1180x647%2Fpublic%2Faral_sea_we_are_water.jpg%3Fitok%3DlwpEjlUi&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fsmartwatermagazine.com%2Fnews%2Fwe-are-water-foundation%2Faral-sea-difficult-return-water&tbnid=e5b8gTYVMOuA6M&vet=12ahUKEwiQ-rTAhPLnAhVZeVAKHaKgAQEQMygPegUIARCWAg..i&docid=JGeaFrzPyovJNM&w=1180&h=647&q=aral%20lake&client=firefox-b-d&ved=2ahUKEwiQ-rTAhPLnAhVZeVAKHaKgAQEQMygPegUIARCWAg

recent life goals: i want to live in a hut in beside aral lake doing remote working and fishing and in nights startup coding  for 20 days since kazakhistan has 30 days free visa:) ok living beside a lake seems super attractive might apply to a visa :) coding a startup in such place seems super interesting:) and  would open the company in Ankara after prototype services of startup is ready:), similarly live 20 days in Bali like that:) than maybe brazil much longer since have 90 days limit for Brazil, similarly much longer in Japan since has 90 days limit for VISA free period checking from this index:) https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Visa_requirements_for_Turkish_citizens does it say 183 days to Chile! :) wov:) i could find a hut in Patagonia then:) wov:) and need to find a spot which has also 3g or 4g. 

this is the eternal/ubiquiously protecting cute love/ country that am born from and I would all return to :) is my love:

yayy wo0uld go to  adventerous places on earth while i do remote work:)

plans: find a remote job. live in by very advengterous places like beside ural lake or in southpole:D or in Bali or in any other place. then work remotely and in nights build the startup. Then  plans be as: go build your startup in ankara:) (I would have a product that works by then:)) buy a big land there thats very big so if i get stalked by sociopath of sisli wouldnt be able to disturb me with coming to my home's street.

This is my love:

wov: https://weworkremotely.com/remote-jobs/data-revenue-machine-learning-engineer-python-2  i could work in Bali in noons in work time to this and in evening build my startup code base/code:) so life would be free of stalk:) since neither linked in nor blog would show which city i live in. it might be either a city in Japan or Mallorca, or a place in Baku. would live n many cities :) i think i would use airbnb thing a lot for next year. lets target living 1 month in a city:)  (maybe 3 months in Bali though:) )  yuppp for sure would apply to:)

ok i applied to defense sector in )Turkey (which i really super like alot) but if i dont find chances. i have plans of: to run away from stalk of stalker of sisli,  finding a remote job and living in bali and of course doing multi projects as expected. or Japan, i told if i say i dont like a place due to some topic (maybe  thing were super high rents that made me back off in applying), i would for sure change mind. Japan also seems interesting. but I also missed Turkey alot. and i stopped being super angry to Berlin and would like to apologize for my bad words on that day. but i wish its understood that my world turned upside down i never felt that much pain for last 5 years. i think i would like to apologize very bad to Berlin for my bad words. but it were such painful time to me.  I understood that, before going to police i need to have video evidence of stalk.  and its not police's fault to not believe in to bizzare stories unless you have evidence. but it were...

i defntly did not liked being abroad & missed my country alot.

the psycho stalker gives me man name and stalked right 5 minutes ago from street. ok this is super insane to get stalked by a sociopath stalker. gives me aliases also:S anyway by mom's talks i get little bit more strong to the sociopathy.  this is super funny, the psycho stalker shouts me tom name:D gives me aliases characters also that she creates. ok having a sociopath stalker is really has been really very very hard. but this sociopath behavior's calling me tom is really funny:D havng a sociopath stalker is i cant define how hard it is kind of situation. confronting names/characters socio creates for me. :S this is really really disturbing. what is this?  a God syndrome like thing or identity thief like thing? i mean this socio's stalker's scheme of creating names/characters to me? it feels like my identity is stolen. since assigns names and characters to me. its really super disturbing. i feel like i look different and stalker wohm somehow fixated to me ...

my mom made me laugh alot :) she said if i would get married any, my marriage would at most stay for 6 months:D she said whomever u marry i would warn him for that :D (since i decided to leave the city i move in ~5 months) (my mom making fun of me:P) (gosh my hair were super bad, mom said lets cut this some part a little and i loved it:) yayyy my mom's touch to hair made my hair look better:) )

tomorrow consulate's related department meeting time.  yayyyy:)  i wish to buy a ticket and fly to Turkey also some recent time. should find a job asap. yuppp. yayyy:) i definitely missed Ankara:) (much more than Istanbul. I think i like Ankara much more than Istanbul:)). maybe would rent similar house in same building i lived:) (the 35th floor one)(I really liked that flat alot. ) since i dont have money(maybe i would only have to rent house) i think for first 10 months i would rent a car from lowest price range. maybe i collect money and then buy a one. rebuilding my life in Ankara again:) ok i liked that no couches nothing including living room other than the study desk setting:) i would again rent a home thats 30th or 40th floor and have nothign in livingroom other than study desk and some cushions. and big windows of glass in living room.  (ok i definitely need to rent same similar flat from where i lived i think) (i really liked that home). but of ...

yupp eagerly waiting responses from job applications:)

i think i like to go to Ankara. i think if i think alot, i think i like Ankara more than Istanbul:)

i think i might rent a flat in building i lived before in ankara:) or similar residency or a place where would be near to where would i work in.

lets continue studying this background study. yupp:)

i started work life in defense sector in Turkey(when i worked for simulation game projects for tactical control topics were like game programming but for tactical control topics.) . wish i could refind a job there. yuppp applied to via sending an email to a professor  to ask if there are any jobs in there :) could build hurricanes for Turkey's defense :P (if could really build, why not) as this love protected me, i would dedicate my life to protect this lovely country:)

yuppp applied to jobs in istanbul ankara:) yeppp. i would never forget how Turkey protects its citizens:) I want to dedicate my life to my lovely country:) yuppp next life goals. dedicating life work life to country:) this is my love as i see how protects citizens everywhere everywhen and how lovely is and yupp this is my love-> being a member of there made me proud for observing how lovely protects citizens of:) normally i werent a person who thinks who is group minded. i always considered myself as a world citizen but found country concept before not something very i understand. but after seeing how this love protects citizens everywhere everywhen and how lovely helps when we need our thcountry being citizens of,  i decided i would work dedicate my entire life to the above flagged lovely country:) and i want to live and till my death be in my country:)  I werent any group minded person but i change. This is my group my lovely country:) In the hardest time of my ...

yuppp for sure woud also have moon/star tattoo on right side of my neck. yupp

yuppp had done applications to Istanbul and Ankara:) yayyy:) might also check Izmir.  yayy:) my new residence in life till to end of my life, my lovely country:) 

i would definitely have this from there:) http://besiktastattoo.blogcu.com/turk-bayragi-dovmesi/19778869 or this one:) this one also i liked:) i want this one.  (our flag or might be without any decor but just our flag's moon/star as it is :) ) to carry for rest of my life with showing everyone else very boldly:) that i am for a place whom protects citizens of everywhere :)<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<33<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<...

i am so proud of being from Turkey whom protects citizens everywhere<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3...

this is a very lovely flag:) that protects Turkish citizens everywhere not limited to Turkey<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<...

Thank you my lovely country for protecting its citizens everywhere everyplace <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3...

yayyy my lovely country;s consulate's departments lawyer  called me & helped me<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 (as i asked helped from them) I am not gonna live anywhere else than my lovely country in myt entire next life. Thank you my lovely country<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 i thin even for holidays i wont go to any other foreign country no else and i am super thankful to my cute lovely country and the lawyer from consulate;s help and the consulate's hep <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

ok calling consulate  lawyer time in 9am. i cancelled my mom;s visit. since i really have no time right now cause i am dealing such issue and i dont want her to deal with such stress. she asked whats goibng on i wont tell until this thing is solved/fixed. so i requested her to cancel her trip cause i wnt be able to host her for real. i would get suggestion from lawyer ad i would go to Turkey and ask istanbul police's help with the same complaint. and i wont any live in germany cause i think checking police's behavior in 2 separate countries to a ciminal complaint, i definitely think Turkey is better in lots of things. and i wont forget how pain its. that whilst i said please check subway video record and i watched dull looking expressions. i went there with a complaint that a psycho stalks me with bizarre acts. and tonight i had an evidence that might find out the group of people here, cause the defamation things shouting guy just passed beside me with a guy saying tio th...

ok the psycho in subway passed behind me saying to another psycho "guher is yours (property)" then in far distance shouted the defamation word. i think my life might be even in trouble due to a socio stalker wwhich defamates me very bad things + i consume inhumane behavior from police.  ok this life is really really unfair if you go to police in Berlin you see it more. i jsut asked them could you please check video records in subway and they behaved as since my sue letter is very bizzaare events they wanted first to check my sanity. and they said that with saying me: that since i talk excited (which is my default talk mood in life, i am always excited when i am talking to strangers) they said since i talked excited i look weirder than other people, they suspected i might be ill instead so they want to check if am sane beforehand. this is how i were behaved. ok  i really dont any miute want to live in this country anymore. i received that comment also from workplace, that...

how i wish it became 9am so that i could call the lawyer in a decent hour.  and i would be very rude if i leave mom to be picked up by aunt people since i am the daughter. but mom why do you come whilst i am dealing with such things:S quite unlucky time

ok i think mom coming in a very wrong time:S i wish i said dont come to her for since i am busy with such things and i dont want lovely mom to be around whilst i am busy with such things.

yappp my lovely country's consulate directly helped me:) <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 and i would try to reach lawyers and i wish i could reach consulate lawyer tomorrow morning yupp. i asked confirmed that its not possible that its any NSA enemies doing this. i been confirmed that maybe my phone was hacked by the stalker and is how could had stalked me as if GPS. so i talked with NSA job offering super intellgnt super kind guy for asking whether could such possibility exist? and i learnt definitely not.  i asked whether if he heard NSA's enemies doing such nefarious things to only people who only got job offer, he told he doesnt any heard such thing happen to any one nor doesnt any  think its any related to NSA job offer. and i think he is super intellgnt so he must be 100% right.  i mean i dont think any inference he does would any be wrong. (since is super iuntellgnt). so afrte rmany years asking could it be NSA'...

aw were in police station issueing my sue. since my sue is so insane looking (cause stalkers does insqane things actually) they wanted to check if i am sane or not first. gosh life is super hard. when being stalked. i would go and prove i am a sane person. but this, this thing of, this things i went through all alone, this stalk this curses and then having have to go to hospital to prove it, its just makes me think life is super unfair. a pscyho stalking me for 4 years with bizarre things, its when you tell it people think this is a bizarre thing and not happens. ok i just think life is unfair. we get stalked. suffer from that. then we have to prove we are sane when we issue the bizarre events stalker did. i think life is totally unfair. i lost my belief in humanity or any fairness of life. 4 years of pain.,and when sueing that confronting pain again. the web sites mademe thought people really help stalked people. the behavior i seen actually told me reverse. when you are st...

i think i wld go to police sttn since stalk hppnt a guy said to anthr guy "guher is yours (property like)" and then frthrly in far said a defamating word. ok if there is camera in subways we mght cqth these people. couldnt stop cryng at outside and i thought lets not even wait online applctn i m drctly gng to police also now after i put hevy bags at home.

yuppp i also submitted to online police in Berlin my applicaiton. for the identity theft/stalk/sociopathy/defamation/stalk crimes i confront from the psycho stalker neighbour (right next building in sisli) but stalks me also here. I am super thankful to my friend showing me online resources. Showed a support group online. Then i investigated and seen there is also an online police station here in Berlin and applied my application.

due to my friends advise in dealing with the crime, i also found that Berlin has online police system. I also submit my application from there. I had no idea such pages existed. Great Thanks to the very kind friend.

yeppp i sent an email to crime confrontng people's supporters and asked advises for the stalker case(for confronting identity theft (sicne creates names characters to me:S this part, creepiest thing :S) for 4 years of stalk sexual harrassing curses/sociopathy/following/severe very severe defamation) I have got a sociopath stalking woman that is literally fixated to destroy me. i wish gets caught by police and gets interrogated so that she cant steal my identity and create names/labels to me anymore:SSS   i understood that this crime i confront is named labelled as identity theft. and beside the stalk, i think this part is the most disturbing part to me:S i confront constant stalk/defamation/identity theft/curse crimes and also they also shouted sleep in many stalk incidents so that type of crime also:S anyway i am super grateful to colleague whom shared me the link to apply when confronting a crime, that there is silent support gropups that help people confronting crime, I app...

yuppp i am super eager to try out chapel maybe. or might go wiht other ways of distributed systems either akka, either spark, maybe erlang.   dont know would see. ok i dont  like erlang(even if is very good/performant, i just dont like its syntaxt) so it wont be most possibly erlang:P