weird life

 i started liking reading international topics from academia. international relations even if i am super ignorant of, is interesting to read/learn about.         ---- blog coming to my daily life's part: yuppp i woke up 11am today with headache of sinusitis. only headache no runny nose no illness symptoms. its because i did repeated that unnice eating nose's mucus behavior last day and i think it hap[pent due to that. that my cavity of sinusitis got infected maybe and hurted. and i hate this behavior of mine. i think i am slightly depressed type of person. and i try to break fix that. sometimes it feels just so overwhelming.  i mean last 5 years i think load of heavy 5 years when a psycho stalks me (a psycho from sisli) and constantgly does stalk/slander/smear campaign and constant following even with renting flat in where i live type of acts to do stalk from next flat, or constant stalk/smear campaign even if i am out of trauma of it, its burden on myself ...

 i woke up at 3am and couldnt sleep with headache.sinusitis.    took spray&ache pill and feeling better now.   ok monday is the deadline to see if we got coronavirus illness.  (incubation period) (a colleague unfortunately got sick of corona virus) (even if we wear masks, still risk happens) i did nothing this night. just relaxed on my bean bag.  further weeks we work from home with a rotation policy but next week we all work from home. I saw topics like:  i read news about Mars and smiled. since mentioned freedom word :)  i think there a space tech entrepreneur sometimes reads this silly guh blog:D or it were coincidence. i dont any know if were coincidence or not:) wishing all blesisngs  and future Mars settlement also :) cheers & blessings  :)  ------- (this guh smiled with happiness seeing the freedom authority words:) i think i have that entrepreneur or Spacex reading blog:) or it were coincidence. ) Wishing lots of che...

 as told, i would build my wind turbine project this weekend wishfully.  i dont have to move my home as said by my landowner. then i would learn physics and maths more to work on the new energy sources project to investigate going 1000 years later:) i guess 2021 i would be creating such projects in hobby projects side. first one about to be studied on this weekend and this day. second i think it would take maybe first half of 2021 to learn theorerical physics with all maths stuff i mentioned. or it might take 4 months i dont anyknow. i would see as i study.

 since we are 2.d degree contact to the coronavirus patient, i guess we would self isolate for 2 weeks? or upon the result of tests. i last saw the team mate on friday. on monday i were also ill. i dont know. we had meetings i dont know if i also caught. we abide to 1.5 meters stuff and we always wear mask when we get out of our tables which are quite far away from each other. i have no fever yet. last weekend i felt ill but it were menstruation related and sinusitis. and headache. but no fever. no cough. it were headache of sinusitis plus menstruation headache mixed.  i see that i am kind of lucky since i were ill on monday cauyse monday the guy who got ill were in office. but i might still have it. we would be tested on i guess on monday or otherdays. letssee. we are 2.d degree contact level.

one of our team mates has been tested corona positive(i learnt newly) so we are studying from home till next weekend's end and i think we would tests on monday maybe.

 i tried to fix my bike's sitting place turned out i dont have necessary gadgets to fix it.  then lacked energy to go to repair shop so left bike at work's park place. even if there is 1 week work from home setting. 

aha my bikes sitting part get broken and had to stop every 15 meters in ròad to fix sitting places angle since its bolts seems loosened. would commute wth taxi for a while until its fixed

 there are times i lost my faith in humanity. like reading they try to forbid free thought.  or like me being smear campaigned with topics i never done in my life.  (actually my intellngce even is too hight to ever do such act they smear campaign me :S i mean its impossible. so i dont even care the smear campaign i am were smear campaigned of). so i decided 1000 years maybe humanity gets better. that humanity doesnt tries to ban free thought/free caricatures.  or people doesnt smear campaign people 1000 years later maybe?  its a pain trauma i got over trauma of. but it were hard whilst i were inside in trauma. could you imagine how it feels to be smear campaigned with a topic you wqould never do in your life for 5 years? i hadnt understood i were smear campaigned in first 2 years. now i am over trauma of it. i dont any care. but it werent any easy during within the trauma of it.  i mean the smear campaign is something i would never do in my life. due to my ...

 ----- today goes with studying the necessary study for  the wind turbine related project then would move to theoretical physics /physics learning part.  since this guh has plan of tryign to create new energy sources (to try to go to 1000 years later) if ever possible to create such tech sets. i had made some food. washed dishes. now just 15 minutes or 20 minutes more would rest. as told i am investigating my weird learning capability. would test later with physics whether i could learn that fast there. if happens so, plan is to try to investigate build new energy sources from topics i would learn/simulate there if possible. so that going to forward 1000 years later kind of becomes possible if ever possible. today i wish i could finish a part i postponed. and start coding.  i know it sounds weird to blog readers. but its my life is like this. i mean i am not highly intellgnt any but can learn easy topics fastly. i guess all other people are also like me in that sense...

 I carry a cross on my chest and a bracelet with cross since i am interested to Christianity religion & be a Christian.  ----- yet again another very sad news i saw in internet:SSSS

 i again read sad news from news :SSSS

 yayy today i had to study some topics. had to work from home since my bean bag arrived today.  its awesome. its quite comfy. ok  now had finished some unrelated coding topics. now continueing wind product's design task. with studying final background infroamtion before starting coding.  ok i have one new project goal after wind projec tgoal of: extending this energty sources task to theoretical physics side after i study theoretical physics. i w0ould investigate similar/different ways to create energy from physics topics i would study. cause the idea of going to 1000 years future time seemed interesting. Its possible to go to future with time dilation stuff. but need to study engines/energy  sources nad physics. nice that some part of backgrouynd information is being studied during this wind turbine project. though its i guess the topics i would have had studied till implementation would be maybe 1% or maybe 0.1% of physics knowledge. i mean i have alot to lear...

 guh's goals: as i figure out learning is I think possible, after this wind turbine related project, I would also study theoretical physics/physics to try to create new energy sources from simulations there. to create space ships to go to 1000 years later. (so that i don't see freedom of caricatures is discussed ever. i want to live in a world where thought/caricatures is completely free and the freedom of it is well respected. that free thought discipline is not ever even need to be discussed and exists. that people could talk/think and draw freely.  i think in 1000 years might be such future where freedoms are well respected by everyone (whether its freedom of religions or freedom of caricatures/atheism ) ) so lets build new energy sources to go to such future instead of living in current world where freedom of caricatures is discussed even:S freedom to caricatures & drawings ! (i wish 1000 years later world respects free caricatures & free thought) (guh's current...

 never give up drawing cartoons! freedom to cartoons... freedom of thought! if you give up cartoons people would also try to ban philosophy. cartoons are free thought's indicators. Freedom to thought & Freedom to cartoons.. (I like alot French's philosophy ecoles. if you dont exercise free thought then its no different than forbidding philosophy. )  (Created rights are not created to be reverted back. Freedom of thought freedom of caricatures is a right that were created long before and it werent created to be given back to mindset types that dislikes free caricatures. ) (<3France) (<3freedom to drawings&caricatures) (.. i dont think people would be able to stop French people drawing caricatures freely because i think French people are in love to freedom ..)   (freedom to caricatures & Je suis Hebdo) 

 ok lets build projects asap then learn theoretical physics asap to try to build new physical frameworks to build spaceships with tech that would let go 1000 years further in time. it would be awesome! i am happy that i learn those chapters that i lacked to study physics science so that i could study physics and theoretical physics later.   one thing i wish never happens: Muslim people never be discriminated. I am happy awareness to protect Muslim rights happens in world. Actually if you have seen my personal talks with people, you would see i supported scarf wearing people to have right to wear scarves. or that other people have no right on their self expression on any religion out there on their wear or religion.  one thing i wish also never happens: i wish France never gets blamed since protects freedom of caricatures.  I dont any think France is any against Islam religion. cause i think France is just against radicalism and is protectiung freedom of speech right ...

( as told i would vote for Mr Biden because of immigrancy policies of like wall or such stuff in current period. i mean such policies against immigration workforce made me more Mr. Biden liking since otherwise seems not aligned with my view. i mean even if i am apolitic i had chosen such view since to me immigration politics is not any politics i like. like wall topics etc i ddnt liked alot from previous administrations being a foreighner whom might no has right to say any idea being a foreigner maybe. but if i wernt a foreigner i would vote for Biden for due to that. for that immigrations policies of current period there..  ) (secondly i think Uygur's detaining is sometopic to be condemned with all heart. but also slander smear camp[aigns about people that doesnt align to your world view is also somet opic to be condemned with all heart.    in view of these discussionsm i think i find France's acts against radicalism quite legit in the sense they dont do anything islamop...