weird life

 its like in first 2 years of this character assasination that happens to me, i were also unaware whats happening. from other 2 buildings people shout serdar or security guy's names and say some sentences. i would shout back psycho stop stalking me. thinking such people stalk me.  then in cafes, everywhere some people are stalking with some names i heard repetitively thinking as stalkers. and it happent everytime i went outside, or from next flat also happent:S and it happent also from workplace's street i remember some guys in suit clothes harrassing in workplace street with saying the security guy's name and saying slander words. and also they allegedly tried to make me mentally ill with persistent stalk/harrasment. so real life version of stasi happent to me honestly. and it still happens i hadnt survived stasi any yet:S it were security institution were some cool institution of some cool country. a foreign country. i applied to job thgere,.  i think some cotuntry, try...

Stalk slander incidents happnt from home street wth syng mafia and I replied wth sentences saying clarifying it's slander chrctr assntn in 2 languages cnsectvley.  If I could have appointment chance to Visa application(yayyy I submitted application today :)) I would also tell about this violations/chrctr assntn I confronted for many years and wld tell I am also going to apply to ucsis chances. Then if I could get visa and go there I would also tell all stalk slandering stuff to ask for help/immigration chances.  It's an alleged chrcter assntn. In 2017 I remember from other flat some people shouting sentences using a foreign security person's 2 names. Then they wld also try to make me mentally ill through constant such stuff. Then I wld think I had such stalker turned out they shout me tht persons 2 names and slandering me as bitch /mafia which I cldnt even understand, all I did were whilst cnfrnted real stasi in Istanbul I wld sht psycho stop stalking me to the stalk. I thi...

From character assntn side of blog: I went outside for biometric photo this noon and slandering cursing incidents happent in somewhere. (Of bitch like curse slander) In home vicinity again some such similar incident happent and I reacted wth sentences in 2 languages consecutively. 

 i continue now.  i need to take VISA application photo today to attach to application. yayyy :) hear to final sections of the passport application :) yayyy my application would complete today.        its very exciting :) and i think just 2 or such sections left to finalize the application:)   then would receive either appointment or rejection or VISA chance :)    If i could get VISA: i arrive by monday noon on 2nd Aug and wish to do attend UCSIS office on tuesday.  then rest of 5 days(last day i have flight ticket early so i dont include it in traveling days)  i would travel LA, Hollywood place, beaches, art museums, museums, restaurants :)                                 -          

 ok trying to focus to normal remaining day. hey i think one stuff like 1 in a 2 million probability happent with exercises yesterday of the 3 card selection sequences or maybe i forgot maybe its 1 in 500000 i dont know.  i try to select a sample size and checkout the distribution of this test of communication to subconscious.  i hadnt learnt about martingales yet. i need to learn to get to know more advance to have idea of weak and strong law of large numbers so that i could get to know about this psyhhic test results. i mean how one could select a sample size to a psychic test i wonder.  i mean how many times i should draw that consecutive cards or 2 same cards test. and how could i teach my subconscious to do care  the word of  `consecutive1 and how to do set a sample size to this test. i need to go over some statistics basics again since i forgot some topics there.  why this is interesting, because it feels like i dont kjnow it is very fun to explo...

 of course i would try to immigrate to :) (would try my chances to immigrate to :) )

 i liked some nature photos then i thought might be misunderstood so i wanted to take back but couldnt :) i mean the one place name i disliked because:   its about, i before resembled my nose defects to famous people with nose defects (but any their life related stuff in any sense that i learnt later about them before resembling my 1 rhinoplasty nose before :S after learning that those famous people had such issue, i never ever resembled my nose to again :S i didnt any knew that in any :S if i knew i wouldnt make fun of my nose (1 rhinoplasty before nose ) like that ) then i liked some photos then i saw some  name than i said ok lets take back for since i scared i got misunderstood:S since internet people have racist attitudes and like to assign bad traits to other race people. whilst we dont definitely have such any type of such type of bad traits ever.  i dont want to publish this because even talking about such topic is disgustingsuch topics like such bad traits a...

Yayy this evening I would complete VISA application and very excited about 🤩😃   

Yayy I would try to immigrate to a city in California but it's unsure cause not everyone applies finds chances of asylum in asylum applications.  I bought plane ticket to LA🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩  I would init the ucsis application if I could get visa. I arranged plane ticket then also booked a motel.  I if I could get visa I would be there on 2 August and would stay for a week.  And then I might have appointment chance then if appointment happens I would come to LA on appointment date again later also and would prepare for my UCSIS interview  Now this recent evening I would complete Visa application to USA (type B VISA) & of course I would mention my Ucsis application in Visa interview if I have interview. Yayyy I m in LA on 2th Aug if I could get VISA🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 Then would come again to LA later if I get UCSIS appointment.  Yayyy so exciting I never had a chance to see USA before ever in my life🙂 (of course I would be able to visit  if can get VISA:) )...

Yayy if I could get USA Visa I would go to Los Angeles 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩  So excited about this 🙂 I would also try asylum chances from immigration office there  but I don't know if I would find chance and would try.  I never seen USA before so much excited about this visit 🤩 I would buy plane ticket this month. Hmm its 730 Euros alike which made happy I thought it wld be much expensive.  I would stay at airbnb of course to reduce staying costs and spare 2 weeks time to init application to some CA city and also would travel LA🤩  If I receive an interview I would come again Finding asylum in a country is not easy I might not find such chance but in any case whether asylum succeeds or not I would visit LA which is very cool 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 If I could get Visa I am in LA on 2th of August🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩

Stalk slander incident happent in vicinity of home and I reacted with sentences anyway. Then opent ventilator. Madimak process be repeated to me but I wont let. Madimak with method of character assasination/spreading false untrue rumors about/slandering/stalk/harrasment/cursing/severe slandering  I observe repeatedly happens starting from 2015 or 2016. Anyway. That to be sued to human right lawyers and to create protection against along with that in new place. 

 visa application started its very exciting :)    

the thibgn about cards is at that huge stuff: its making 1 difference along selected 3 cards and expecting 2 or 3 of them to be consecutive. and this night this happens alot. i figure out if i dont look then instantly look and select i could always nearly always make this 1 diff happen :D tonight at least:D sometimes 3 cards are consecutive.  this is not a huge topic its not huge significants its easy to replicate. i need to test many times to conclude this really works. i mean its very easy to have 1 diff among 2 cards of selected 3 cards its very plausible to have be repeatedly happen.    more important is making 3 of them consecutive.    this rarely happens but weird is: when this doesnt happen like 1 consecutive stuff, then other card duplicates. duplicate is kind of resetting the consecutiveness property.      tonight is weirdo. ok lets go over the setup to setup a goal of trying to change randomness but i need newer cards and would buy....

I got very scared of one image I saw😱😰😭 in those weird/mysterious earthquake events investigation I accomplish😨😱😱😱😱😥

Meanwhile something really weird is going on in earthquakes topics and I wish I could have report to someone? Its really weird. 

(Ai related maths study now.) Yayyy eagerly awaiting week start to init immigration Visa related topics:)

todays log:  woke up late. had a bath cooking some food. burping happens but in ok levels.   (Next week visa application yayyy:)) (i saw a very  interesting topic)        

Hey awaiting week to init immigration chances topics yayyy:)

Figured out macadamia nuts is never ok. Burping happens again. It before makes feel like world is little bit shaking today burps feel as like this. I m scared this impacts my brain.  Living through genocide like stuff all many years. Constant harrasment stalk slandering curses. Anyway I would tell all of details of to the human rights lawyer. Then I wonder I feel like very sick  of a weird sickness but due to agoraphobia I dnt wnt to even go to doctor.  Ok everytime I gulp impacts my circular system that like apnea but today's impact is feeling like earth or legs circulation trembling or getting weaker that makes feel world little bit trembling. I m so sick of the neverending genocide like stalk slandering happent happens that I postpone going to Doctor for this when I feel my human right violation7 confrontation gets fixed.  So asap I would search for immigration chances starting from Monday. So that I don't scare of going to outside of stalker from istanbuls genoci...

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So Monday is 🇨🇦 application day & since brother lives there and yayyy Monday is  time to apply to try chance for Canada 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦  🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦 🇨🇦...

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One good topic from my harsh life burping happens less much less.

I wish to create alot human rights violation suits yupp to the perpetrators of this stalk slandering harrassment thing. This is real genocide to a religious minorty I rooteds in Tr. Like happent in madimak. In there they defamated people and burnt them. I observe it happens on singular basis in modern times. They stalk slander harrass persistently wth things that would be shouted to bitches trying to defamate.  It's religious based genocide intent. For to try to defamate people wth bitch/mafia like impossible stuff and do a witch hunt to the defamateds or constant harrasment/stalk/slanderings. No different than madimak I think even if I m theist and don't belong to Alexis religion. I think this is really having genocide intent underlyingly. And I would open human rights violation law suits to perpetrators. Of trying to degamate me wth impossible stuff. Of bitch of mafia to make a Neverending harrassment slandering stalk afterwards eg recently a slandering incident happent from ...

It's so weird, this earthquakes topic is

some weird topics side of blog:   is it sometopic like interstellar movie?     -------------------- i still dont know. whats happening at least in my life.  just this: i posted hela meme and that night hela including earthqyakes happent.  or else. i noted else also. did some unknown place unknown to all we readers including me learnt how to do gravitational waves?  or is it extra-terrestials?  i dont any know. i just monitor/watch the sensors of earthquakes data alot recently after all these. it stolen my mind this topic alot and i routinely  monitor seismic data. since it could be sometopic like interstellar movie. or maybe even upside down? i think at some point the counterparts called pet orca to me :)  since i asked about is it a fermi basesd hypothesis true and extraterrestials's monitoring i am inside?    the day i told about  some hypothesis and the night afterwards i saw petorca earthquake...     i think if it...

Yayyy would apply to🇺🇸🇺🇸USA🇺🇸🇺🇸   VISA.  It's very exciting🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 Yayyy I would try immigrating to USA🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 I dnt know if I would have chance to immigrate but would try🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 It would be very cool if I could be a USA citizen🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 (but I dnt know if I have chances but would try my chance) 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸...

This is really weird there is eureka word on my board then also I were listening interstellar music 10 minutes ago and saw an earth quake named eureka recently.🤔 I dnt any understand/have no idea of honestly truly🤔 someone understands please explain to me also. I really have no idea on this. Or else like this. 

Yayyy awaiting week to come to init visa application 

immigration journeys:   i have very exciting plan of trying to find asylum chances or try out such chances in USA named cool country.  but i would tell all this before to the consulate appointment in Berlin before going there not would tell this there but before here in consulate application.     its very exciting. i dont know where to go in USA?    hmm since i saw some city, i started checking places to stay there.     I try to arrange some 2200 Euro  or costs to the travel costs for 2 weeks stay where i wish to try asylum application there. hmm i think i would choose airbnb since is more affordable than other options. Plane ticket i guess might cost totally 1000 Euros  or alike i guess.   to spare such money I would spend very little this month.  i would have my bicycle fixed and go to work with bike instead of taxi surely. and canceled my holiday.     Its very exciting i dont know if could get VISA to but i ne...

(Read very severely sad news😢)

After some psi reltd tests my belief to psi is broken.  Cause it should have not poisson or random dsyrbtn but shld work more like  uniform to make me think it exists. Though data is nt enough surely also.  My idea is tht it's sttstcl hiccups when topics like psi hppns.   It's 1 success of psi test then anthr but then consecutive failures in estimtn. Time between successes dstrbtn or ratio of successes to think to check... in my opinion psi don't exist in repeatable fashion.  I m testing simulation hypothesis in some topic and it don't seem like it is. It more looks like sme tpc other. If its a simulation thn I wanted to see what word I tght in a randomness but repeated failures. 👎 Just once success of test results and partial success in other then repeated failures and I stop thinking simulation/psi  topic exists until I see tht word in randomness. Until then I deftly dnt any believe to this stuff. It more looks like to me hacked by people type of st...