weird life

 hmm day started with tai chi training but i am unfortunately bored right now. ok its enough tai chi for morning. i laughed alot to my lack of coordination capability at some movements like turning arms in reverse directions like preparation movements. is it easy for everyone to do that or is it just hard for me, but i learnt it but still its not any natural movement to me that is easily done. i mean turning arms in reverse directions. i added tai chi trainings to get prepared to the course before going course cause i lag in sports wtr to other people so i think i should prepare before any sports course.  i dont know if i would go to that course in Berlin it would cost. maybe some other time. maybe i find a course in here instead. hmm i am unsure what to do on that topic. for bouldering i might had found one gym that i would invesigate how much it costs to do bouldering sports. e.g. shoes. it means 500 calories or 1000 calories per hour which is amazing. i started to eat less ...

   hmmm human rights abused blog part again: info about today:  the Turkish talking stalker slanderers stalked slandered again. hmm but some other nice Turkish people helped charging my phone. so i dont want to leave a bad impression like that. Turkish people are usually very kind  these people that stalk slander are extremists of there not the usual people. maybe its some thing like a criminal organizaiton being used as proxy by others or maybe a cult or maybe an organization that tries to do ethnic or religious cleansing to people. but normal usual people from there arent any like that. this is just maniacs of a very populated place of course there also happens maniacs. i mean i dont want to leave bad impression whilst telling this. its just extremists of there. some maniacs/extremists. trying to do destruction of torture of people with slandering/harrasment with slandering.  anyway., last day: or coming to 2years ago: the stalkers slanderers started to stalk ...

Yayyy not being agoraphobic feels awesome. Hmm today's goals: Checking human right lawyers to report to one before blogs topic  Hmm going outside traveling Hannover as I m not agoraphobic now. Maybe dining in a cafe. Doing some shopping like breakfast utensils to home. And buying a cheap monitor maybe to use desktop computer to code projects. Yupp maybe also coding project.  Or maybe I assign today to traveling city and doing shopping.  And studying to tai chi/meditation on evening.

 the below blog page is all about human rights abuse of charac. assntn which i would even thinking of escalating to human rights systems: hmm you know i mentioned that these stalkers would shout ugly sentences in outside street incidents and shout names. then this people now tries to after that much disturbing my life with harrassing me, after that theirs harrasment, now they attack with saying fraud with saying as if i am fraud that told those names. this is one level of i think madimak or something this extremists are doing something like madimak. i mean false crime creation i observe happening (with mafia astuff) they constantly harrassed stalked slandered neverendingly and shouted ugly requests. i never replied except first year i would react with stop stalking me. in outside i would never ever reply.  but then they constantly harrassed me stalked me slandered me. shouted ugly sentences to me. now they try to defamate as fraud this time. in stalk incidents:  they woul...

Couldn't sleep last night. Then drove to Rome on noon but sleep started to settle in whilst awaiting my flight. 😴 I  cldnt even slept 1 hour last night😴🥴 (stomach illness' related uncomfort) anyway. Would fix this pylori related(I guess like that) condtn soon.  Guhs mood:🥴 😂

I understoodfrom chi courses that that wave trembling I feel on legs when this excess heartburn hits this time wth such symptom might be really fluid wave related to stomachs blocking blood flow of me due to illness and creating some wave of fluids inside legs region. Hmm. Ok just a theory. Could my brain in lack of oxygen trigger hat wave from spinal cord of me through the more stationary blood during lack of blood flow moment due to nasty stomach of me blocking blood flow due to bloating? S econd, for that sound topic, could it be again some wave whilst happens when blood flow is nt working efficiently but this time wave in qm configurations e.g. momentum etc. That could it be when blood flow lessens some ions or molecules get in more qm active status that they could create such impact? Or is it a part of brain module that gets more activated in threat condition like lack of oxygen and that brain module has more activity in qm levels?  Ok what I see is it might be impossible to l...

I just cant stop finding this topic amazing 😃 I mean if I have chi I think it is amazing stuff. I m so eagerly awaiting tai chi course yupp. 

 In future when I learn chi if extremists from mega cty istnbl stalk slander again in another stalk slandering incident,  of course without harm (with power of chi comes responsibility also of course I wont use it for harm), I would create sound around them as a justice reply to harrasment with slandering/human rights abuse wth slandering. Most possibly it's just stomach illness and not any chi nor any psychic stuff.  But if its chi it is awesome. 😊😃👍 But should learn how to use it. I would try Buddhist meditation methods plus Tai Chi in trying to learn how to use chi.  I most possibly don't have chi but would check out if exists or not. 

But even if it's a very low probability that it's chi, if it's chi it is awesome😃 But I know its very low probable to be chi. But let's see  Going to learn Buddhist meditation types plus tai chi. To try to learn using chi if exists. I might not have either. Lets see. 

But psychic skills usually don't exist in life(not generalizing this either others might have it) and it's most possibly just such a side effect of stomach illness and not any wave of sound happening nor any psychic stuff any most possibly.

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This is so much awesome topic 😃

Guh the sound system psychic it would be like then😂

If I have chi it would be I think volumetric sound skill like chi. If I could target it any vicinity 3d location like open gl rendering then I can create volumetric sound wave resources alike 5d surround systems? 😁

I  eagerly awaiting to learn Tai Chi. Yayyy😃

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It's most possibly stomach illness side effect and not chi. But let's see. If its chi it would be awesome😃

Ok today and tomorrow have no time for tai chi training. But other days would train to. Cause I think it's really very very very awesome if I have really chi😃

I am eagerly awaiting to learn Tai Chi 😃

I think if I have chi it's about creating sounds. If I master it wov ok I would be like a 3d sound creating musical equipment😜

If I have chi then it's cool I think 😁😎 😜

I don't know if I have chi or not. It might be(most possibly) just stomach illness side effect of deoxygenation. But if its chi it's so cool 😎 

If I have chi my chi is about sounds

It would be so fun if I have chi☺ Future Chi justice it would be  😋 5.5 years of human rights abuse of extremists from istanbul's  slandering stalking harrassing with slandering. And then if this guh has chi she won't think for a second of using it (without any impact/without any harm) whenever another stalk slandering incident happens but eould use without any impact/nor any harm. I would just create 3d sounds around them whenever they stalk harrass. I am eagerly awaiting tai chi course.  I think I really might have chi about sounds but I should learn how to use it 

If I have chi I would of course use it whenever stalkers slanderers harrass/stalk with slandering a 150 iqqued engineer wth dumbest slanders but without any impact to them but just playing with their minds with 3d sounds around yayy whenever they stalk slander. 

Yayyy so eagerly awaiting workshop to learn more about Tai Chi  Hmm buy would study beforehand at home since there are very descriptive videos about. 

It happens alit recent hour maybe 4 times happent. Before burp a sound come but it could be false sensation due to not enough oxygenated tissues in my brain. This time with this headphones it ddnt had happnt interctng wthnthis other headphones I have. Last one's tick or patt or knock sound (I dont know what to resemble that sound) come from drawers. It's either false sensation in deoxygenated brain moment due to stomach sickness such instant or its I have chi and it huts surface this time drawers vicinity happemt.  Before one were more of knock sound single short knock came from wall or floor of flat. It either is false sensation due to that instant of deoxygenation moment of stomach illness or its chi untrained chi. I would see if its chi or not as I learn Tai Chi martial arts yupp It's most possibly false sensation during crisis of not enough oxygen moment of brain tissues since my stomachs bloating lessens or cancels blood flow to brain instantly then after burping blood...

Yayyy I arranged everything and this time luggage seems chance of carrying my stuff. Yayyy I am 13th at Berlin for Tai Chi workshop. I think I really might have Chi imho/imso. I am not good in sports so would exercise movements before course/workshop from Tai Chi videos

Not exactly Frankfurt(that airbnb flat canceled) but I wont tell from blog where I go 😉

(I think I m going to Frankfurt yupp I try to arrange airbnb now)

Ok going to stay in beside Baltic sea then. Finally figured out flat to rent yupp. 

Or might go to Hanover or Berlin or Dusseldorf also.  I m trying to plan next month yupp Hmm I think I dnt want to go to mom/dad's place I think I might go to Hanover or Dusseldorf or Potsdam/Berlin most possibly

I think going to family home without paying rents to stay some place looks logical. I might do like this. To go to beside mom/dad. Yupp. 

We're sick due to sinusitis & whilst awaiting laundry yupp tried to do arrange airbnb whilst sinusitis flu feeling hot of sickness or my cloth were thick.  Been searching airbnb also now after I came home. My headache passed& not sick now. I in afternoon were very sick and flu like. Or sinusitis.  Yupp still hadn't arranged but have ideas but hadnt resolved.   I need to tidy up home. Tidy up my luggage. Tomorrow leaving this flat. Bought new luggages cause mine were broken. Bought a hand luggage to have more space. 

Anecdote(I think this time it were coincidence surely:)) : I put my headphone to charging on desk. Then it were leaned on hair dryer. It were standing like that for a lot while charging. Then it started to slide move. I think newton's somehow it must be  not balanced. But felt weird I  to replaced ts position to stop its move with feeling weird about since I hours before told some chi stuff if exists might had interacted wth headphones in today's that sound I described.  I think this last is pure Newtonian and not psychic stuff. Must be staying there on hair dryer unbalanced and might an instant changed configuration started to move due to tthat. This last topic I reported I think isnt chi like stuff and just Newtonian stuff. But still for the possblty of it being chi related I internally thought some words to chi side of me  if its chi side and if I have chi. I don't know if chi exists or whether if I have chi. But this one looked to me very newtonian I think and no...

 i had a change of mind against tai chi :D i might go to the course in Berlin that i received flyers of.  hmm cause i think of the symptoms of the deoxygenation time point. something like cracks like glass of window or else i dont know in the house before i burp. its just either my lack of oxygen messes my sensations most possibly. anyway. i would fix that illness also. but what if chi is real? what if telekinesis is real? i dont think so. but lets try/see.      i got used to that crack sound coming from random place in house when my brain gets deoxygenated due to stomach illness's 1 second  before burping moment.   lets go to fantastical interpretation: what if my brain gets in to crisis of lacking oxygen and starts impacting environment with being upset like crisis mode and impacting e.g. glass' molecules that something in house cracks.  but most possibly it is just senses gets mixed up due to deoxygenation and its false sensation. a crack/...