weird life

 hey I were talking with mom on phone; and then at some point she asked the air fryer cooker. which one to buy she asked recommendations, and how the product is e.g.,  then just talking these, the airfryer in kitchen I made some potato chips and then i put to over the airfryer the inner part later, then during talking with mom on phone, she asked as mentioned about how air fryer product is. then, just she were asking these whilst talking of air fryer product, the airfryer in kitchen fell from over there and the inner side went to floor. weird. how this coincidence happent.  then mom also told that: that recently 2 days ago cooking pot she were cooking has exploded somehow its cover were not fully closed and the cooking came to mom burnt some and then she went doctor and healed. then she told 1 week ago she fell in some place. then she told today she did some nazar protection stuff like puhur they call.   then whilst we were talkingm and when mom asked about airf...

Hey on morning Neanderthals again attempted baba/aga slander harrassment. Like last day evening when biking.  Plus just a min later  some other 2 people shouted bitch slander. Hmm some people don't understand that there exists gulen cemaat like fractions from religions like Muslims /Christianity and other religions which are genocidal & very dishonest. Do not consider anything these genocidal try to plant with false flags  any true they are genocidal dishonests those gulen cemaat like fractions like fractions of religions they did these genocidal activities before they are repeating now whichever fraction this is either it's gulen cemaati from Muslims or similar fractions from other religions that has same sociopathic false flags behaviours and sociopathic goals to slander untrue baba/aga slander with staged sociopathic false flags. These are such fractions of religions are genocidal & sociopathic people. Do always take any thing from such with salt please. (It's ...

( I really think to be a correct human being comes from decent brain architecture and I really started to think some races have issues. but i would never mention which races.  Its I observed this mental issues in multiple races as we all are like anthropologists due to www we observe thinking processes of various races and imho some races really are problematic severely due to their incorrect thought patterns.  but not to be racist would never tell which races.  but its like really imho racial brain circuitory architecture issue. and i observed this issue multiple races. its because www made all we people anthropologists to see how people from various races think /thought processes is/are. and imho some races are really problematic. some like as if I dont know what to say. some kind of absence of thinking thought capability and some incorrect thought patterns.  really problematic imho. one wonders the degree of effect of sociology and culture in creating such errors ...

 ( meanwhile again seeing some online maniacs slanderous thoughts to blog --> )  (  low iqqued type people types never stops shocking we high iqqued people with their very low iq  & slanderous minds imho. shocking levels low iqqued people types exist. its just really shocking to observe online maniacs and their slanderous minds (with slander thoughts) and their very low iq.  kind of as mentioned imho separate speices but very low iqqued imho. absolutely/exactly. even imho one could consider calling nonhuman. stupid /low iqqued in levels lacking human conscience. absolutely a new speices but worser than human speices imho.  I mean i wont call them human knowing what being human is like. I mean some decent iq usualy human speices has whcih these seem to have absence of imho. I think there really exists nonhuman races which has some deficiency in iq/mental capacities and indirectly in conscience.  but i wont tell which races to not be any racist. n...

 hmm I think I might do laziness to art studies today but might soon start linguistics module study and for that  I need to study to Derek Robinson's book's group theoretic study yepp

 I think I would do one more sculpting try every day since to get expert in arts this type then would resume drawing arts study. then after I learn drawing I would switch to painting with drawing tablet arts. then I owuld buy a nice tablet. then would specialize in oil painting with tablet.  yayy this be arts training agenda. final goal -> learning how to paint with oil painting in drawing tablet. 

 yayyy what to do study this evening?

 yayy tea and some rest time. 

-> Its like very good that I dont have to bike 10kms anymore to go to work to code.  (I only need to bike 2.7 kms)  Since there is problem with internet  I have to go to work recent days instead of work from home but soon I would resolve problem of internet with buying a new internet card to the new phone I hadnt setup yet that which has more technology. hmm I would do use phone as modem since this flat's ISP stopped working any last 3 days. its very slow internet last 3 days I dont know why. 

yayy I have to study in work place and bike to work today. since internet is slow. been biking sport its like 2.7 kms yayy not so distant to bike. before it were like 10kms distance:S  yayyy rest time. last day: I did not studied to group theoretic study.  hmm wishfully today I would. weirdly sculptings local coordinate sheer transform effects has had stopped. I thing it stopped after I got ill.  I been trying again whether if the beads would fall to to floor and it does not. so seems as either getting ill or getting used to this art has reduced phenomena occurrence. Maybe its something that happens after stopping art for a period then reiniting. I dont know. it just stopped. I think stomach illness creates sometimes apnea and then it impacts my brain (wednesday I felt such effect like apnea at a time) and maybe thats why occurence of phenomena stopped I dont know.  I think it might be that since I now repeatedly try sculpting it might had stopped due to that somehow...

------------------------------------------------------ one info/note:   (   hey again a false flag with baba/aga smear attempted by unknown criminal organization. seems as the gulens cemaat or alikes (an unknown criminal organization ) still had niot stopped attempting planting slander attempts of very idiotic/irrational/very untrue   baba(it is like mafia slander) slander.  gulens cemaat or alike cemaats gonna never change and continue doing crimes against humanity crimes visibly. (e.g. -> trying to plant very idiotic /very untrue smear with sociopathic false flags: this is  type one crime against humanity crime imho absolutely and I observe this repeatedly attempted by this unknown criminal organization last 7 years, most possibly gulen cemaat imho. since gulen cemaat did these types of crimes aghainst humanity exact same of it before to people. so whenever such thing repeats (e.g. sociopathic false flags to attempt to plant untrue smears) we...

 I started to get better of illness like after 15:00 pm today imho. then rested with some rest activity doing some learning some hobby. then now would resume the group theoretic study.  I hated being ill. it were very hard. specifically sunday illness were very hard. I dont know if it were cold or flu or sinusitis but were very hard to be ill/sick.  Had not been this much ill/sick for very long time.  today's illness were unlike to sunday's. todays illness were stomach/digestive system illness side effects related. I felt dizzy and some ache and no power any at all so I requested 1 day leave from annual leave. then rested until afternoon. yayy finally now feeling better.  but sunday's sickness were very hard. :S (actually today mornign were also very hard:S stomach illness' side effect were also very hard :S ) (but it passed afternoon sometime)  

 I got ill on saturday evening or sunday morning and then got very ill severely ill  all sunday. I got very sick /iill very much and rested all day due to severe sickness.  I dont know what is it it were like flu or cold or sinusitis I dont know I were very sick yesterday.  Today morning again were ill but in very late afternoon got slightly better.  Then decided to sculpt for today in remaining evening time. but somehow messed up later the original sculpture. Maybe tomorrow would sculpt better.  ( hey its not easy to do this type of sculpting. ( polymer clay) i dnt have studio so I cant do the usual clay bust sculpting. but I think sculpy polymer clay is also good for training on how to sculpt but its really not easy. I mean I guess it might be easier to sculpt If I spared some studio like space to sculpt and did usual clay based sculpting. ) But startng from harder type sculpting is imho better. I think this polymer clays sculpting is harder. but other sc...

 ayy I very dislike online slander attacks to blog with impossible slander types. :S --------------------------------------------------------------------------- I when replying the reply toa  recent online slander attack to blog, I talked thousands many sentences and then in one of them coincided unwantedly the tragedy news I read of 2 days ago :S I  just wanted to say that I had not written that intentionally. :S I just always everytime I see a slandering attack to blog with impossible slander types, I write thousand sentences replies and then so I had even forgot whilst writing thousand sentences I lacked to see coincidence I fprot such tragedy 2 days ago happent and that I had not detected my writing has had coincidence somehow to it:S very sorry for that coincidence :S not intendedly. honestly not any intendingly. just I really always get lost in writing sentences and then fastly publish and I had not intendedly did a coincidence. :S truly honestly not:S i just get lo...

 hmm I again see slandering attacks to blog and indirectly to me with very very very impossible slander types.  hmm I observed slandering attacks to my blog with very very very impossible slander types last 3 years due to jealousy and there is good & bad people every where, and the bad people type when gets jealous tries to destroy cool people types with slandering.  really crazy imho bad people types.  I mean people types whom tries to slander people whom they get jealous of. most possibly multiverse skills is jealousy reason. like historical times humans are good and bad in everywhere and bad ones when they get jealous they try to move to any method to try to destroy the people they get jealous of with resorting to crazy dishonesty like slandering attacks as observed to blog. I observe dishonest slandering attacks to blog with very very very impossible slander types. ah guys I got in to in love were -> last one were a basketball player. one were like scienti...

 this guh understood: --> that commander Benedict is the that secret division's commander.  I am sorry for doing journalism to my interpretations of what I seen. I just wanted to write that my multiverse travels is not related to this-> this was setup. its not real. i mean i dont think noone died in that accident. most possibly he entered to that secret division imho.  Lets check watching Star Trek into the Darkness now. to see if there are coincidences more . I that that Commander Benedict is also hiddenly commander of a secret unit that is like Benedict in that Star Trek movie maybe? I mean people whom are super intelligent having super dexterity power etc.  I think that person has not died but has entered to such division. I think this is a setup.  I dont for a second believe anyone died in that accident. Its abosolutely setup and not real.  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ and there is also...

 what should I do? aha.  I think that military unit is creating a secret division and did false flag like that. look to the Commander's name is even Benedict. Alike Benedict named actor's role in one Star Trek movie. that commander is creating imho a that movie alike unit. a secret division inside the army imho. e.g. like that hmm . which movie it were. hmm it were. Star Trek in to the Darkness. I think Benedict coincidence is that coincidence. and this movie starts with a volcano eruption. and there-> again coincidnece with the movie. this means:  There were oence a caribbeans coincidnece very much time ago. like capricornids coincidence. I once told of buying a steamer than I can create steamed rice /and fish and beans. then I told in same blog or one before blog Lucia literal. then the same day I saw Caribbeans volcanoe eruption.  and in the news it were saying also St Lucia island came to help.  i think writing these even is very dangerous since crazy peo...

not to be misunderstood as if opther false flags  me saying such sentence does not any mean:  ayy I dont want to create any slightest misinterpretation:S so I edit these paragraphs to not make misinterpretations of any.  --->   Are there any other literature for false flag terminology. e.g. false flags to smear  false flags type false flags. e.g. unknown criminal organizations last 7 years repeated false flags to smear as bitch/mafia.  and second false flag type : very unrelated to above false flag type ->  and unrelated to that: false flags by governments to maybe message to not go to a country alike. (and this is not any related to unknown criminal organizations false flags, not any related slightest.)  so these both two false flag types are entirely very unrelated/separate concepts.  maybe I should not use false flag to the army's false flag not to have create conceptual confusion.  -----------------------------------------...

its the first time I see a by a government done false flag. hey multiverse topics i think cause of why guh's blog took governments interest/focus.

 and why does army does false flag to guh?  very mysterious. I think they .  I dont know actually what they intended to message in false flags ops. 

when a coincidence with an Army news happens one(guh) is attentive very much and has confusion in interpretation of the false flag. I think its a false flag. I dont think anyone really died. I think its exactly a false flag and also setup and trying to do some false flag message but I had not understood thge false flag's message. 

 I am very confused. what should I do.  what this false flag means?  (how to interpret this false flag?  I have no idea. I dont believe anyone died. I think its a false flag. not real topic. I think like this. but I did not understood interpretation of this. ) 

 hey I dont think its real news I think its setup. But if its setup to do false flag to somehow correlate with this psychic multiverse topics, I am confused. I do reject reality of such news because its very sad. and its much more probable that its a cover up/setup that that person had no any died and instead in media diminished existence and entered to some secret army division.

  I think its a false flag and some entity did coincidence to capricornids meteor shower.  once I searched a food cooker than its ads has had corns which I said corn is also cooked in this? then I were doing psychic tests with meteorites (undestructive) those 2 days and then the other day turned out having capricornids celestial event.  I think the cherry and mirabella  coincidence is done by a secret organization/entity that tried to do false flag to me to blame me as if my usual multiverse travels has any relatedness to that tragic/shocking incident which I dont think noone died in that I think its setup I think the person were saved but they told he died to do create false flag.  or else I were writing simple atheist like sentence then the news has had simple literal passing. ok if its a setup to say you are dead to us (metaphorically ) since you go to China then I think that might be also like that ? I dont know :S I entered shock yesterday reading such news...

(  I think that person has not died but might entered some secret section of the army imho. )

( hey I think there might be a false flag but not from any criminal organization (not that the criminal organization that does false flags is from there, last senbtence had such erronous misundrstanding so I fixed it now) . and maybe even news of it is unknowingly incorrect (there is actually no life loss in that military incident) and is false flag. I think some entity attempted false flag. I think like this now.  ) coincidence is:  I bought online shopping mirabella named stuff and cherries in very last shopping week ago and then I read that scary & sad news yesterday which I entered shock feeling. I also remember seeing a news title in news that says some person and bombers and could person be able to spin from bombers and I read such person in that news. which made me concluded its false flag by an entity. and that person has not died. its setup. I think like this.  I would never able to buy mirabella named fruit and cherries either  I think its title is real...

hey now coming to unrelated topics coming to my daily life blog: hey a plastic bag of beads (maybe 200gram beads) this time beads fell to ground its plastic package were open so there were many beads on ground.  how this happent? I think Newtonian sheer transform happent.  today's plan:  I think I need to asap resume group theory study.  of Derek Robinson's book study. then I think I would do some sculpting now to learn sculpting.  lets put to beads there and see if it would drop again. it were not any on edge of desk there were like 2cms or so distance to desk's edge.  Its less scary then flipchart. 

 I think I today started to sometime later get out of shock. but its still very scary 😭

 Its so scary:S last day's such news is. 😭

( today I am kind of slightly somehow getting out of shock slightly)

I currently still scare of online market shopping 😭 but I have to do shop sometime later some day😭cause I am agoraphobic I cant shop by going to market 

 hmm 3 days ago a very happy news happent from family.  Then I were very happy.  then I saw a very scary news other day. I got depressed for seeing such very scary news (2 days ago I think) then I felt sad and depressed since  I also saw unrelatedly some slandering attack to blog. :S so I felt quite sad for seeing slandering attack to blog with impossible slanders.  Then I were getting over it somehow even still very scared of scary news. then I saw last day another very scary news 😭 I saw a very sad/scary news and I got to shock. I think yesterday passed with shock feeling and I think I am newsly started to get over shock feeling:S my daily life got disrupted due to very scary news 2 days ago and also got sad due to slandring attacks with impossible slanders to blog. then last day again something very scary happent, I read a very scary news & sad and  I got to shock and afterwards even if home utinsils were finished I scared of doing online shopping f...

I think sad & scary things started to happen 2 days ago not 3 days ago.  I think I confused.

 there is something very scary happening regarding some news I read last day :S 😭 regarding some military plane crash 😭

I were very happy 3 days ago. then: read some news and: -->  I felt severely sad last 3 days :S I mean depressed first 2 or 3 days ago since I seen some again slandering attacks to blog with impossiible slanders and felt very sad remaining days.  last day were also read very shocking & very sad news :S  I think i got over the shock or I had not:S I dont know.:S last 3 days I very disliked  :S 3 days ago I very liked the day cause heard dad got healed from lung cancer which were like stage 4. that day were very happy.  then a very unnice news happent 3 days ago with again some slandering tone. Then I felt sad/depressed. or were it 2 days ago I felt sad/depressed, due to observiung slandering attack to blog with impossible slanders.   then I last day saw a very shocking/sad news :S i dont know if i got over shock. I felt scared of shopping afterwards since has had coincidence with shopping 😭 e.g I am scared even to write the coincidenece. due to ...

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 I also scared of doing online shopping from market since a very scary coincidence happent. Then I (since am agoraphobic due to unknown criminal organization's last 7 years happening false flags), I had to order food outside since I scared from market shopping yesterday 😭 so that I couldnt cook:S But i eventually have to shop 😭cause I am agoraphobic thats the only method to do shopping to me 😭

 some again i think possibly newtonian frameworks change happent. there is a package of beads (for art studies in sculpting) in my desk and its plastic package is open but were staying on desk, its something like 100 grams or 200 gram so beads. then as the day started (started at noon today)  and saw that its on ground and many beads spread. so again newtonian frameworks change mighthappent possibly.  but i had not done sculpting yesterday or the day before. so it might be that 3 days ago sculpting's effect. 

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 its always hard to find a job because I think software engineering is one most common job in current times ( there are tens of thousands or hundred thousands software engineers), its always hard to find a job 😭 

yayy maybe luck happens to my life and one of the job applications in China returns. they usually dont return 😭 Its always very hard to find a job in software engineering/data engineering cause there are thousands of data engineers/software engineers. 

 yepp applied to as many as possible data engineering jobs I saw that I can read job descriptions of (Since many were in Chinese and I dont know Chinese)

 but its not easy to migrate to China :S nor to migrate another country also. it were also hard to find job here. or its always hard to find a job everytime very hard😭  

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( hey some very scary(&very sad) news happent 1 day ago that reinforced my decision:S )

 guh's mood to slander attacks to blog with impossible/absolutely untrue/very impossible slander types:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  (why some online sites do they repeat slandering attacks to blog with impossible/very untrue slander types repeatedly? what is their mental issue ? psychopathic illness? my blog repeatedly observes slandering attacks online. )  (its like as if many people are like crazy far rightist or crazy far leftists in recent times:S)  (really I would turn to communism due to these maniac people types. I start to lose my belief in noncommunist ideologies for their crazy sociopathic behaviours)  (maybe I should try to find a job in China if I could) (since they behave not sociopathic)  (I think I lost my faith belief to noncommunist ideologies for their very sociopathic crazy type kind of maniac people types of course noncommunist ideologies also have nonmaniacs that we respect alot such people but they also have very much maniacs. )   lets ...

hey: again detected slander attacks to blog with untrue/incorrect slanders:   (I dont understand the logic of doing such slandering attack to my blog like that.  )  (this guh wanted to find an ascii art for shrug emoji but couldnt so she adds alike the emoji of shrug without ascii art :  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  (when slander/defamation attack detected to blog -->   ¯\_(ツ)_/¯   ) (its an impossible slander type)

 lets buy crosses to people whom misinterpreted the blog in their religions :)  (e.g. I guess Christians misinterpret with demonic occult stuff/ Muslims with jinn stuff I dont know what is considered such occult interpretations for other religions)  Lets prove to religious readers (from all religions) that its not demonic occult stuff. :)  I respect religions and good blessings to also religious readers :)  I would prove it buying various religious symbols to my flat. So that to ensure that its not demonic nor occult stuff  :)  e.g.: This one's various versions many of them :  Catholic Cross Rosary Necklace, Natural Wood Prayer Chain with Medal, Cross Jesus Christ Saint Benedict, for Catholic Christians, Religious Communion, Baptism, Fair, Bible, Wood : Amazon.de: Fashion Motivationsgeschenke Wall Cross Wooden Cross Olive Wood Jerusalem Bevelled Edges 16 to 70 cm : Amazon.de: Home & Kitchen this one many of: SONGK Christ Jesus Wooden Beads 8 m...

(I dont understand the logic of doing such slandering attack to my blog like that.  )  (this guh wanted to find an ascii art for shrug emoji but couldnt so she adds alike the emoji of shrug without ascii art :  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  (when slander/defamation attack detected to blog -->   ¯\_(ツ)_/¯   )