weird life

 for the scary zippo coincidence, i want to list all of them: its very scary and i am very scared :S the following topics happent: chronologically; - i made a sculpture and hair resembled leia unintentionally and next day i learnt Leia passed away. and i hadnt blogged it either nor shared this info of Leia's hair resemblance i think. - i were stalked as with a woman name i thought a woman is stalking me. various ugly stalk slander incidents with that woman name were happening and i said i hate this person whomever is. then i opent internet and in quora i firstly saw a woman in forieign name that the name resembles very much i said gosh i hate this does this person has english name also. (since tons of stalk slander incidents (thoise times being unaware of the slander side but many curse holding very traumatic incidents) were happening by then with that) then i said its the first time i saw this ugly traumatic person name i hear in stalk incidents foreign version.  then the oth...

( ok when i said woman whom behaves like man, i meant gender neutrality. i meant that we dont behave like the predefined culturally accepted woman behaviors. i respect gay people alot and but i am not gay. wanted to clarify this since in the slandering topic i also saw i am stalked with man names also. i scared that woman whom behaves like man would be misunderstood as if slanders have any correctness (which are completely untrue). so wanted to clarify that i meant gender neutrality when i said woman whom behaves like man. i have no clusters of behaviors that i assign to woman or man actually.  i wanted to just state gender neutrality.) (and if people called me gay it wouldnt be the slander. slander is different. being told gay wouldnt be any time any slander to me. but slander is differnt. and complete bullshit/lies. they slander me with things i would never ever do in life., and its horrible to be slandered like that. its proud to make them fail in their slandering effort. cause ...

i said i want to stop blogging but wanted to note a topic that creeped me out. i noted i would buy a zippo recent weeks then i read some lovely person named Zappos passed away.  This is very scary. Creeped me out.  i definitely would stop any blogs since saw creepy such stuff like wrtng i like spy movies then next day hearing a spy movie actor passed away and other day i talk zippo and this.  This is very creepy. Why this happens? 😦🙁 i wont blog any blog as told before since takes time but seeing these i definitrly never ever blog cause this is very scary to me and very creepy to saw these. am i a medium or why this happens🙁 this is very scary creepy🙁 i wish everyone stays safe. and this is very creepy😕🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁 i would never blog for chsnces i m some psychic that sees paraphysically? i dont any know but this is very creepy to me. 😕😕😕😕😕😕😕😕😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦😦 i wont go to any therspist and would fastly build the products men...

  ok for a while i stop reading and writing to internet since spent hours and hours to  blog and one month blog free month i decide it to be so that i finish the project. instead of my = blog. or i think i stop blogging completely. no more blogs. bye internet! i am a not A blogger from now on. . wish to code the project awhile for a month. and i wish i entirely stop blogging either.   all best/good wishes! bye internet! :D          

   ---        yayy i  ate 2 thin steaks and 3 tiny fish schnitzels. i wish i dont need bypass op tomorrow:)  just for the sake of serotonin dopamin  levels:) which i found that eating too much celery reduced maybe:) surely veggie diets are much more healthier but i dont do any veggie diet :D i just ate celery i mean just think it hadnt had enough nutritients:D surely veggie diets must be more healthier than nonveggie ones by the way. but i dont have energy to cook a veggie diet these years. never been into cooking food alot:S i wish i were. then i would have a healthier life:D ------------------- ok back to studying:) or design task. of this initial simulation challenge: impact of gravity on a spherical coordinate of atmosphere model. and the pressure of the mass inside such structure around its walls. and a simple model of it. then would try to model rotation of earth and its impact to this volume. how it might rotate. along with the pressur...

 i went with bike to the cigarette shop to buy tobacco pipe than i regreetted since it took me very hard to bike. manyn times i went off. turns out i got used to electric bike and usual bike turns out hard since i am not athletic. stalk slander incident happent inside one street and i think this is really nonwestern agencies backed and i think its torture. some people also said "create a law suit" but i dont know whom to sue. i dont know whom is this group of people that stalks slanders with GPS accuracy? how i can i use people that which seems to have gps skills (whihc means i think they are backed by a nonwestern agency). i mean if i know whom they are i would go to a lawyer and sue. but i need detectiving resources to get to know them. i dont even know. but they seem to have GPS skills. i think some people from Turkey volunteraily investigated cause its the second time a person passed beside and said "create a law sue" sentence.  the topic is i dont know whom are...

(i wld buy myself a gift)

i dont have sleep i would continue studying. i feel very happy as weekend came. would try to finish studying all necessary domain knowledge. so that coding starts tomorrow morning or afternoon :)  how happy it would be if this air simulation would have been ready by weekend. but i dont think it would be. lets see. 

 yayyy exciting day. i rested little bit with listening musics. would work little bit.  then would switch to thermodynamics reading yayyy :D then from today maybe would check some physics libraries and math libraries either java or scala. (since i want to build it on akka) some modules could be from numpy or scipy but they would be analysis modules but the simulation would be on akka and merge of scala/java code and library uses it would be. would search thermodynamics tables or such libraries etc. to model. hmm. i need to model the gravity of earth on atmosphere so would also should learn atmosphere data. about its content every km. to model the dynamics up to some km. but i could initially abstract away that with a standard model either.  target is to model how air moves when earth rotates. so that upon with that model be ready, the earths rotation's frame's impact would be tried to be harnessed in new wind turbine designs if such topic could be any efficient level. so ...

today would work on finishing sgtudying the chapters from this thermodyanmics book in evening than i would have studied thermodynamics enough to code the project.  then this weekend would all would be spent to coding in discipled way the wind turbine simulation. yayy it would be exciting to code the gravity;s integration on spherical coordniates of atmosphere and also magnetic forces would be added. maybe with magnetic core's force the atmosphere would fly away.  or maybe it would stay. would see.  as told, plan as i learnt about thermodynamics recent 1.5 months is, to create a revolutionary wind turbine design. that would try to also harness other dynamics like world';s rotation.  trust me you become very creative in projects when you get stalked by a psycho stalker that does stalk with slander also and an exact form of torture like that i mentioned (i think its either done by a nonwestern agency or by some severe type psycho from unfortunately lovely sisli named pl...

 i last day saw some topic about if previous spies did something wrong, they usually go crazy and suicide hisself/herself in his her flat (whilst in reality they get killed by their instituion for ashaming their instituion) i am not any spy. but i saw a warning about this case.  and if a spy ashames his her instituion due to any reason gets exterminated by the institution. i read a topic if spies do wrong they get exterminated by their own institution.  ok even if i am not any spy. i saw some sentences some where. so i am not going to any NGO and becoming comfortable with the torture i confronted.  the torture i confronted were i were tried to be saved from by western side 5 years ago. ok maybe even offered some job even didnt happent is some thing important and i should never talk about it. and i would not go to NGO. ok.  but i didnt get the job. the guy said, if someone tries to leave sucinstitutionhiupon entering, he or she would be exterminated with referenc...