weird life

 yep last night had passed alike as mentinoed visiting relatives. then i in home studied some more to ml algos study but not much. then my sleep gone since i were like studying till 2pm or so then my sleep had gone already. then i thought watching a sci fi movie. hard to find some interesting movie since i watched nearly most sci fis.  then  selected some sci fi and watched.  (to spend spare time since i were bored(due to relatives visit on late afternoon ) and wanted to spare rest time with watching sci fi  any some weird sci fi alike. plus lacked sleep since i studied to ml algos project till 2am or so then when one studies late to project, then can not fall asleep afterwards (due to possibly dopamin) ) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- then i think yesterday study schedule has been slightly disrupted due to visiting relatives like this above. on return i resumed studying but not efficiently. hmm then i set...

 today in afternoon studying were not efficient since i had a lot add/adhd alike -> i instead of studying wanted to buy daily or weekly planners to write schedule ml algos remaining tasks :)  I had moment of wanting to buy post it notes-large weekly planners to e.g. create kanban board of project. but then i thought i already have some board alike stuff evene not wide as kanban then i could also utilize miro for kanban right?  meanwhile -> yayyy happier that my mom's lung bronchitis has some healed (she had some alot bronchitis alike )  she became ill after funeral has ended (possibly because of sadness-sorrow/tiredness of 7 days of constant flux of visitors of funeral etc)  and been taking medicines last 6 days and last 2 days she seems like more healed. doctor even prescribed cortison medicines since her lungs had alot bronchitis. today I saw her health much healed so made me very happy :) 

 yayyy today started with -> yep i got up late today then breakfast then helping house tasks/coffee drinking etc etc now i continue studying ml algos project yep :)  yayy today's first task is to finish studying this book -> 'Sets for mathematics, Lawvere, Rosebrugh' then afterwards revisiting topos book,  I plan to spare these 2 days for finishing to study of revisiting topos and then switching to ontology design coding task again.  i had forgotten my some design options e.g. `for every` struct and `there exists` structs (via topos) (I need to revisit topos and redesign these common logical structs ) (along with completing design of NLP structs, in that i would priotize coding of ontology structs first then would resume finishing NLP structs via category theoretic defs and topos structs for some. )  then whilst studying and resting some (with ADD or ADHD alot which i tried to alleviate with focus songs) and in between cleansing some home/home tasks prepar...

 yep today i were kind of ill alike (half power alike) and then today had passed as ->  -  visiting relatives  - commutting my mom to hospital for medicine shots (she has bronchitis alike) then commuting mom to city side also - then now i would study to project.  -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

observations -> the criminal psycho in its tirades of stage 5 incident(smearing attempt with worst type impossible slanders), at some moment said -> "ja, kpp." (resembles a terror organization id)  so we think these criminals might be somehow linked to terrorists maybe dunno.  unsure. maybe the psycho tried to show its affiliation indirectly during stage 5 incident (stage 5 the cartel ciminals attempts genocide incitement with worst type impossible slanders, every stage is worser wtr to previous stage :S they attempt genocide level cartel violence in each stage and every stage is worser wtr to previous stage :S). we dont know if we understood correct/incorrect. dunno. but psycho whilst attempting stage 5, attempted such incident pattern.  -> second -> in various incidenets we also observed some smearing as les attempts by these psyhcos which has also women stalkers which in one fabrication ops attempted smearing as bf in theathral fabriaction ops. they not onl...

Hey I detected various stage incident patterns by criminal ferikoy cartel stalkers to report  Devolved type sapiens of ferikoy criminal now also attempts now stage 5 of genocide incitement with worst type impossible slanders. (The criminal cartels articulated cartel  seems as ferikoy criminals abroad extension since talks multi language in genocide incitement attempt) I think these sociopath psychopath cartel people really need extinction from this universe clusters(not physical extinction but sending to isolate universe clusters, via multiverse isolation tech (ferikoy criminal cartel and abroad extension) cause they really attempt genocide level reaching cartel violence, every stage is worser then previous stage they really attempt genocide level reaching cartel violencewith also their organized cartel mafias. In stage 1 they attempted forceful conversion-coercion attempts to bitch in stage 2 to pena in stage 5 this time genocide incitement attempts withworser type impossible...

yayy today passed like going to sea side. hmm maybe tomorrow i would again go on morning this time maybe.  yep.

(  possible stage 5 incident pattern detected in some domain at some time (degradative/ incitement attempt with worst type impossible slander types. ) )   ( imho:  the maniacness of sociopath psychopaths and delusional untrue hatred filled delusional slanders such maniacs thinks is really a severest level craziness/maniacness type.)

 (hey at some time ferikoy criminals cartel again attempted some very disgusting criminal attempts with also horrific batteries /incident pattern to again fail (viciously criminal agendas attempting some global criminal cartel of most severe criminals ))  (they as from this incident pattern also used prey concept in their criminal attempts as to report always) as mentioned its very clear that there is some global criminals cartel with alot presence in ferikoy vicinity and in many world cities. and they when they target out of their criminal favela (e.g. batteries/forceful conversion-coercion attempts), they do it very viciously (e.g. I detected maybe many many thousand incident attempts of batteries/forceful conversion attempts to their cartels-bad occupations via articulation of their mafia forces which does batteries/shouts slurs of the stuff they try to forcefully convert to/do battery to and fabrication ops theathres with many cartel people whom does theathral deceptive co...

 hmm then later i reurned home then took my mom to hospital (since she has some medicine shots since she has had some bronchitis alike last 4 days) then we went to find some chrysanthemum flowers in flower places since my mom wishes to grow such november flowers like chrysanthemum in garden. then later one of relatives of my mom told wishes to share one of their 3 aloe vera flower plants pots. then we went there and drank tea and then carried our gifted aloe vera flower pot.  then mom did not liked the chrysanthemum flowers pots at flower shops very much yet and we would check more later.

 i think the sea were awesome! it were like that much clear that sands are all visible from even surface and were fun to dive since there is no waves.  on morning my mom suggested me to go to sea, i thought its a good idea but had not thought i missed swimming and sea alot. (i think last time i went to sea were 2.5 years ago)  i think sea were really awesome! its like none waves at all! very awesome! (since then there is no sand dust in sea and diving becomes very fun then that even without snorkel one can open eyes under sea to check sand and get rocks etc fishes etc ) )  sea temperature were also very nice. not any breezing nor hot. so it were very nice swimming since sea really were cool! i first went to mercan site there before my family liked to go swim there in shore. then but mom also suggested to go somewhere elsee, since 1.5 year ago they went to there to see the sea's initial shore meeting side has became alot stone due to that place being open sea wit...

Hey the last place I went to swimming it's like very clear sea and imho good for swimming diving. First swam in mercan site vicinity then but it's hard to walk in sea there(sea shore has lot stones) but here there is also stones but easier to walk and there is near to none waves either. Sea is like none waves at all and nice to swim. Quite nice sea place imho and water isn't neither very hot either. Seems as sea here in this month is awesome. (No waves at all and I can see the sands of sea from surface that it's that much clear water) And nice to dive accordingly.     

Hey I went to swimming today and then meanwhile ferikoy& globe criminal cartel attempted their specific incident patterns which I would detail later in some place that I didn't swim but stopped by(some hour ago). Then later at one possible incident pattern detection(this second incident  unsure if incident pattern fully detected or not or were it coincidence) I gave reaction of saying what I think of this ferikoy criminals cartel -> psycho sociopath psychopaths cartel criminals favela criminals cartel which attempts severe sociopathic psychopathic criminal violence type  and that we would always fail their any attempt and would stop/disable these criminals of global criminals cartel from this universe (via to be invented multiverse tech) )   In first incident pattern the cartel member shouted their conversion coercion attempts bad occupation slurs then said forgivement (these cartel criminals as their every incident fails to convert they do this incident patte...

 i wish i believed to spirits but i dont. i think having believed would have helped grief of having lost my dad :S that today as mentioned before, changed the wooden struct (which were temporary) on grave to some wooden craft generated by carpenter, then after, and also placed some roses (from our garden specifically mom says he liked this rose's smell (actually seems as only rose in garden since other rose (of same type ) has dried )   so we got all roses and then placed to soil of my dear dad's grave soil. then after whilst sitting there, one of the flowers moved alike. i became "what???"  in my mind,  most possibly that since we placed the wooden craft and there were opening in soil and that soil itself settling due to meddling and then flower (not the rose one but ones we delivered 4 days ago or so) somehow moved.  I just wanted to think idea of that spirit of my dad moved the flower which would help relieving the grief of losing my dearest dad.  b...

 in afternoon we had learnt from visitors of relatives of my relatives that my aunt has had some severe accident which her head were hit :S they told they did not told us (that it happent one week ago) since we were already had funeral situation.  so my last many hours were passed with trying to find some gift box to say good wishes to my aunt which is very good/unique person.  gosh they said initially there were 3mm brain brain bleeding but then later in last check there is none issues/no brain bleeding etc. since my aunt is a unique and good person, I spent very much time to find some gift or flowers etc so to send good wishes to get better.  but since i dont have alot money, I spent alot time to find some not expensive versions of something like gift box etc. its just so unnice :S we had our parents funeral. then later on today afternoon we now heard this situation of aunt having had an severe accident which her head were hit :S gosh :S  (it turns out they di...

 today as mentioned passed with:   - getting up early then preparing breakfast, then after breakfast visiting my dad's grave. - then had promise to also commute my relative to city today whilst we did went, so I to have full afterwnoon sparede to studying project, I went before noon after returning to home, then some time later, we went with cousin  -  then came home and had noon time and some coffee etc etc, now currently its time to resume studying to ml algs project to finish revisiting topos study today and then resume ontology/NLP translation task first with hmm coding of ontology translation task which i guess would might take a couple of days so.   

 yep today started with visiting my parent's grave, with crying there also some then also replacing the wooden craft there writing his info with some carpenter created one (its required to await some months to make the grave (with marble stones etc) and since my brother told he would come and have built it. we initially wanted to have built it now and investigated some grave types from:  https://www.huzurmezar.com/  but then later told that its required to await some time to have soil settle and also that my brother told he would come and have help building of grave etc so currently there is some basic grave setup there with bricks etc but not marbe stuff present yet. I next time would go, would also go with some coffee and would drink coffeewith my dad to chitchat how life is going etc etc.  (and even would pour some coffe to his soil) (since my dad loved to drink coffee in mornings  but in chemotherapy he stopped drinking mostly but rarely drank) 

( dunno but possible very disgusting/criminally very sick levels maniac-mentally sick/horrific stage incident patternthen some very time later again very disgusting stage 2 incident pattern detected from severely devolved criminal cartel sapiens (of most severe sociopathy/psychopathy/criminality condition) of ferikoy global criminal cartel at some time today. no worries to protect people from this severely sociopath/psychopath criminals/criminal cartel of ferikoy's vicinity criminal favela cartel and its globe extension of criminal cartel , we are developing multiverse universe isolation tech and we would send these very sociopathic/psychopathic most severely criminal sapiens of this global ferikoy&globe criminal cartel to isolate universe clusters to protect all people from very sick level sociopaths/psychopath criminals/criminal cartel ) 

 yayyy today i succeeding studying to ml algos project some. but i also thought of  -> whether if i could finish the project 1.0 version in 30 days to then start inventing quantum computer designs via? (since i need to pay flat rent in Germany due to contract there and i dont have money to pay following month of next month) hmm i might try to sell my razer blade i9 - 32 GB laptop in mid of next month by then so.  hmmm i also started investigated some remote data engineering jobs in case project can not finish in 30 days.  hmm I have two plans -> - if tax return happens, i have nearly capable of paying following 2 months,  (then sell first quantum computer design to interested people to for some money(yayyy maybe some many thousand money)   (since i have to pay rent of the flat in Germany which i dont live but there is contract until new year))   -  inventing molecular based quantum computer designs in 30 days if i could finish hmm ...

Sometimes rarely to get over ADD / ADHD whilst studying to papers, I like to listen metal music of which i dont even understand lyrics of  (due to my listening skills is not good in english)  (e.g.  metal  genres I sometimes listen when i am bored of listening other music genres like classical music/epic rock etc)  i found one such trash metal group by chance and dunno other similar genres.  it weirdly helps alleviate add adhd when having severe add adhd when studying to papers.  as mentioned, when having given break to reading papers /msc books or phd books, then whilst trying to resume the project/reading studying a couple of days really i have severe add/adhd issues. I usually alleviate it with music e.g. finding an epic rock music i had not listened before. this time i am also bored of epic rock/instrumental rock music and this time i try out  metal genres to help alleviate focus issue (add/adhd issue) not that i even understand lyrics of. (I ...

 hey less evolved than default evolution level of sapiens type ferikoy criminal cartel and globe extension (whihc talks multi language) attempted both stage 6 (threatening life of my family member with shouting aunt, threatening life of my nephew alike:S) at some place and then later stage 2 (battery / symbol enforcement fabrication ops theathre with shouting aba b... ( b is one symbol they use in symbol enforcement activities of their various sociopathic psychopathic conversion attempting fabrication incident patterns (of coercion of symbols in their forceful conversion attempts) along with batteries they do with their articulated mafias which of course every incident attempt always fails/everytime nihiliated/never interacted to/always fails. simply devolved type criminal favela which visibly is global also (visibly a global criminal cartel as analyzed/reported before in blog countless times) )  no worries people like we would eradicate cancer disease with to be developed med...

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------\ i started studying to project  but not with very much efficiency either.  yep  this is the current reading to learn more about some formalized epistemology methods in 1960s alike ->  from Ditmarsch/Halpern/Hoek/Kooi: An Introduction to Logics of Knowledge and Belief since i gave like 25 days break to studying to ml algos project, it kind of is not easy to resume fast to previous work efficiency to these abstract topics of various formal logic constructs/methods.  i thinki studied yet only few paragraphs yet.  hmm i also have some time frame to finish project. since i dont have unlimited time. since due to getting broke -> I am still had still payed rents of flat in germany since I had rental contract last months even if i dont stay there. then that finished my existing money of 4000-5000 euros or so alike nearly. then i counted on the...

 technology really becomes necessary in countering devolved type people which we had not known existence of until having moved to ferikoy (visibly favela of criminal cartels) 7-8 years ago.   no worries people we are going to isolate universe of these devolved people of favela of ferikoy criminal cartels and globe so that all people be safe from these severely maniac insane level sociopath psychopath criminals.   (moriarty resembling criminal cartel)  yayyy today there is lots time to continue studying to ml algos project yayyy we gonna universe isolate (via to be developed multiverse tech)  devolved people(criminal cartels, criminal favela of ferikoy and globe) to protect normally evolved people from these insane level sociopaths psychopaths. 

( -> hey devolved type (due to abnormal sociopathy psychopathy level and anthropological regressional condition (criminal favela's) of normalizations of sociopathy (as they constantly attempt sociopathy behaviour repetitively duing their criminal attempts) and sociopathy methods usage in criminal attempts and attempting criminal attempts) sapiens of ferikoy criminal cartel (and globe) attempted another sociopathic this time solely fabrication ops attempt incident type theathral fabrication ops context(to smear) among their stack of battery/fabrication ops patterns in criminal agendas. no worries as mentioned we normally evolved people are developing technologies to protect we normally evolved people from theses devolveds of insane level sociopaths psychopaths(is called devolveds due to insane level sociopathy/psychopathy/anthropological regressed condition) of devolved criminal cartel of ferikoy vicinity (and globe.)  )

 yep last sunday were 7th day of losing my dear dad and on that day there also had been meal giving in home (this time from other relative) again. but seems as this period of relatives constantly giving meals in home has ended.  so today I have time to study to ml algos visibly. day again started with long thoughts of our family's loss (my dearest dad) last 60 days. :S had lost in thoughts like what if we went to another oncologist would it be not like this like helpless thoughts then i gave up thinking since there is nothing to do save him now :S its that most possibly it would have happent like this if we went to other oncologist. but again one gets lost in thoughts of. Since his cancer were stage 4 most possibly we would lose him but again queries like.  in my multiverse theory its not very possible to alter already happent universes. where which every universe version of past present already exists. thereby no matter what multiverse technology i would have developed, ...

 some days ago some weird topic happent which i thought as it must be that audible uses in game data of pico VR roller coaster game like i thought. (I queried whether if its coincidence or is it some kind of audible using in game data of Pico VR games? )  what happent were ->  I played Roller coaster this time with bullseye targets in roller coaster in VR where I had to select some weapon for bullseyes and I selected dart. ok? then I played with dart once the roller coaster with lots of bullseye target frames in around surrounding alike. then inlater evening later, I wanted to listen audio book from audible. in star trek books section in its recommendation engine,  there were hearts and minds titled book with captain Picard  and I thought lets open this book. then ->the book sated with Star Trek Crew members playing dart game all together? I had not thought i multiverse traveled, since it were the first book suggested in star trek books section of home pag...

 hey meanwhile devolved type sapiens of ferikoy & globe criminal cartel as mentioned attempted some stage incident patterns last night, which i partially detected e.g. this night as reported in blog some hours ago. how devolved they are, :S the criminal cartel criminals or its stalkers shouteed first prey. then someone later shouteed "suspicion"   (they also many times use suspect literal) gosh -> these sociologically devolved criminals has also this working mode of cartel violence-> they do spread smears to either professional cartel criminals or ordinary people (dunno, since i never interact with these less evolved type sapiens of criminals/stalkers whatsoever) then people stalk with shouting "prey" so they not only do attempt cartel violencec with batteries and forcecful conversion agendas with fabrication ops theathres to plant smears to their agenda of forcefully conversion roles, then they spread these smears to other people which like ku klux klan h...