weird life

 a day i got up in normal hour today:D (it were weird to get up at 3am, 5am last weeks. today 7:30am but rested more)   i really got out of trauma and also got over agoraphobia feeling :) and i also spared some money to lawyer costs and i would consult some cost to the stalker situation that stalked me for many years(the psycho liked to say sexual harrassing sentences to me in street(like some sexual activitiy words saying "should some_sexual activity_stuff" when passing beside me), and also stalk saying other creepy sentences. and stqalks for more than 5 years and then this psychopath tried to harrass my life in various ways constantly. anyway i blogged everything of this already. ). ok. since i learnt stalk is not belonging to amnesty like places focus, then i decided lawyer firm.  i would also report the topic i saw on sunday.  in my mailbox. and also a previous topic i saw in mailbox i would also report to the lawyer. about that fascist covert stuff. i would also...

 yayyy some measure theory studying period. 

 yayy i got over agoraphobia :)

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------    i am completely out of trauma cause i know we women are not alone here :) ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  the method used i observed in this internet slandering is as:  : takinga blog sentence and put to a wrong incorrect never could ever be thought of type of context and trying to slander via lik e that. with covering sentence  in wrong in sick contexts. like trying to make a person corelated to a slander using a sentence from her blog and saying the same sent4ence in a slandering context covering in an incorrect/untrue/not ever be able to think of either type of context. they do apply this method constantly last months. this topic happens to my blog recently alot.  tnhey covertly try to slander like this last 2 months as i observed....

 lets reshare:   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QkS24D8kCU   ----------------------------

:  i written i liked to party when i were young (meaning 28 ages of mine) (since i am 38 my young times are 28 ages of mine) and then some such company used that in wrong rewordings:S its nice that people here saw this fascist covert dereputing effort. of i blogged i liked to party when i were young and then the haters there tries to create a covert slander on using that words from blog:S. first happent from some company then other company also took my words. then other a newsletter writer also took my words and tried to create slanders.  i observed 2 hurting slanders tried to be crafted recent month.  (we did nothing bad in party:S and my friends were like same like me, working in it sector, or banks or alike and 28 or such ages like me. )   then i saw this sentence of me taken  to very sick very incorrect contexts to create an online slander to me.:S with covering the sentence in very sick iother sentences tryign to dereputate. :S  as if they search out s...

i cant define the happiness of me right now:)  soooo happy :)  

Tusind Tak... Vor Viele Danke schön... :) -------------------------------------------------------------------------- ( and also raising my feminism flag also here from blog also :) )

----------------------------------------------- lets reshare this amazing interview here again: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QkS24D8kCU  :)

 ok i am just so euphoria of happiness:) this is so happy:)   ------------------------------------------------------------------------ yayyy raising my feminism flag from here also :)

 ok a day which started very awesome very happy:) and i truly love this feminist place of named Europe:)

 Sending infinite amounts of gratitude/respect/cheers/love to that cool woman politicans:) i wanted to restate:)  ----------------------------------------------------------------------

  ok the video is as: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QkS24D8kCU i truly adored. both Mss. Merkel and Mss. Vestager in this video:) i defintely adored their words/sentences:)  i remember i told about causalera startup. and see era word here:) ok :) cool!:) might be just coincidence or not.i doint know:)     ok i like Europe named place so much since its really feminist place:)   i liked these people in this video from other countries women politicians also so much:) hey sending lots of love/cheers to you! You are truly amazing people :) ok i just cant state enough gratitude to this :) if its not coincidences. ok cool women politicians there in this video, you definite are so cool!     ok my word coincidences must be just coincidences i guess. but yet still its a very amazing video:)   this is so happy:)   cool women politicians i admire you :) and this video is awesome:)  ------------------------------------------------------------...

ok today feeling awesome after listening that sentences of that awesome woman politician.  (about feminism)   ( ok yet another very reason to like Europe alot yepp.) (i loved that politicians' interview alot :)   i raise my feminism flag from here from this blog:)  its so happy to listen her sentences about feminism and her entire talk is amazing :) (including other politicians there) a happy awesome day started:)   ok the video as: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QkS24D8kCU i truly adored. all women politicians in this video:)  

 yayyy an amazing day started with trauma feeling(from sunday) completely healed from my mind:) yepp:) 

 one more reason i like Europe alot:)   ok :) woke up at 3:30 am and have no sleep. as told i usually wake up early these weeks.     ok now would continue measure theory study.  after a coffee in my balcony.    or might rest either.  might make myself some cafe and have rest either.     

 raising up my feminisim flag from here:) from the blog:) i am so happy i live in Europe:) i had this in my mind i knew this. i knew that when coming here :). that this is a feminist place :)    and a place of rights of women and all people :) ------------------  it were very happy to listen:) ---------------------------------------------------------------- raising my feminism flag from here :)   yayy:)

 i feel so happy upon reading about this interview news :)

and i heard awesome politician saying "get out" to all women there.    i were coincidentally getting also out of agoraphobia and this coincided :) yayyy :) i liked her sentences so much:)       if world consisted of more women politicians, world would be much better place like in that infogram we see how much progress needs to happen for that :)   i liked her saying "barriers" and "enablers" words. coincided with my tantrum of seeing "disability" word in a barrier word holding text. she is so cool! she also said words of "get outside" to all women:) yuppp we would. :) she is totally awesome & cool!    i am so happy i am living in Europe :)                

 wov i listened an amazing interview now about a feminist woman politician :) i newly seen:) its amazing:)      

 ok i learnt 5 years of stalk slander type of stuff is not amnesty like organizations area. ok then (i mean stalk/slander topics). said its a topic about woman insttns or other places etc.   i had not mentioned alot about stalk slander anyway in the mail. the other topic of blog haters happent that tried to do slander blog / dereputate blog as menitoned,  i also hadnt mentioned in detail(new topic). just slightly mentioned.        ----------- ok  i saw then i should handle these throgu law systems. ok then.      tonight i wnat to rest now.   i would then continue measure theory study.   i think i want to see measure theory before i continue on algebra study continueation. hmm for lawyer consultation money i would create from btc maybe. since i think that algebra in dirac's textbook might really work out but would need some more effort more than anticipated effort.  after sunday's trauma, i could barely newly...

 yayyy i inited amnestyb consultation application with sending an email. ok. yepp.  ============== now i would rest have some rest time. ------------------- ok some newsletter i really like alot truly. its a medical university's health suggestions newsletter. sometimes topics coincides and i like that. sneding lots of cheers :)  (is one of the newsletters i like alot/most.  and i like to follow their lifestyle or such advisesalot. ) (its a famous university's newsletter for health topics) ) i said my life's happiness mood (i meant my cheerful/happiness mood in my life) were stolen from me with stalk slanderingtopc last 5 years. then the newsletter had sucht title referencing giving suggestions on depression robbing life happiness topics.:) there an editor of that cool medical university newsletter might be reading my blog. or else its just coincidences. i dont know but sometimes topics coincides and i cant deny a smile happens since makes happy to see some pal editor...

 ok i count days to amnesty org visit.  ok now studyibgn towork time sinnce i couldnt studygood. --------------------------------------- ok trying to resume my brains stauts to happy stgatus. but not possible.   ok.  i think i dont know what to do this night. i decided i wake up early and finish myr emaining wokr very early.  but else i feel i dont know what to do now. i wish i liked watching tv. or had friends to chatter now.  i postponed mt study continueation until my happiness state resumes.   i think my stalker were that 5 years stalker were listening my communications and using names from that either. e.g. i think used security names guy from that i think(since in home we sometimes also talked work topics from some work life like people) . cause stalk happent from other flat. and i think my stalker were a psycho. i think also hacked my internet cause also used a name from a page i visited in internet:S this were very creepy to have a psycho stalk...

 the topic of representation of N fastly moved to  orthogonal operators.  in brief representing  N with toolings i saw in qm area... 🤔 ok if methods need to be transformed to operators versions there might be alot effort there. but still doable. ok representing N with orthogonal operators, yupp not that creative solution if turns out doable would be an uninteresting solution if it solves the btc topic. but would make me get more expertise in qm's toolings. i were expecting a more creative solution werent expecting to solve with orthogonal operators. but its unsure if it solves. i need to check more.  and might also study measure theory awhile since might be needed. but i think an orthogonal operators might extend this usual algebra in one to many fashion to an extrapolated algebra version which might work to make really 1111111110 less than 1 and greater than 1 at the same time in that countable one to many mapping. in this morphism (not isomorphic) an algebra ...