yep trying to check again. lets find something to try to spark neural nets e.g. lets set A of what? yepp. lets try. hmm did not worked out :D I selected something and this time thought lets check from a podcast. and none coincidence happent with A at all :D but again I think the hebbian scheme has not happent. yepp no associativity link so it were silly to expect to create quantum jump. But i wanted to test this also. i mean various hebbian contexts. This time i selected again an exercising cardio stuff. then opent podcast to see if podcasting professor or Phd doer person in mid of podcast mention something coinciding with the selected topic. None. I thikn for this I need to test when the hebbian mechanism happens instead. since i mean no mentioned hebbian mechansm were present. I actually setting the cardio stuff (treadmill) as A selected B as something that not itself associated but just i thought as possibly associat...
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maybe a coincidence happent or not -> I were watching star trek tv show some episodes again this time another Star Trek series. Then i did not liked to watch many episodes, and stayed at one episode only since its interesting includes time travel and there the villain person is kind of funny gestures and one time travel having episode. then all before during the day, before even deciding to watch Star Trek today at rest time, I were checking something for bathroom, that i when clean bath once 2 weeks or week, water goes to washing machine under place, so I investigated what if any bathroom carpets to place to help not access water go to there. (since it seems inclined to that direction). then I checked those bathroom carpets and one were having a pattern I liked and opent it and turned out very much like the future century Star Trek ship whom is controlling the timelines and whom were trying to fix the timeline issue generated by a villain from there whom were hell ...
i tried. it does not work in my case. (qjm concept) i end trying. since it really does not work in my case. (only works in 1/52 over prob regimen in pdf imho and that region I might continue to test some days (e.g. card tests). but i mean ending testing significant changes in universe type qjms. it just does not work in my case. I tried. it does not work. )
i tried. it does not work in my case. (qjm concept) i think it would be severely boring to do meditation today again:S since it does not create alot changes in universe ever. I am already bored. I tried. qjm (quantum jump meditation) does not work in my case. maybe works for others to qj. not for me.
i think i might only meditate to handle excess stress etc. e.g stress meditations. but bored of qjm meditation concept. since its just is contrary to positivism and its just really boring if having done one qjm. i mean imagining an alternate universe part is boring. its the first time i tried that. (I before were trying it with deck cards) first time i tried this imagining alternate universe topic and already severely bored :S so much boring that i wont be able to do qjm for today imho. but i liked the meditation concept in terms of reducing stress in mind. but not specifically quantum jump meditation concept very much. specifically imagining an alternate universe part of it is very boring imho.
i am already bored of quantum jump meditation i just had a instant idea on sunday to test this. but tested once and it does not work. and its boring imho to have repeat. I mean dreaming of Star Trek spaceships alike spaceship etc in quantum jump meditation. I think my instant want to test this topic for being scared of ww3 risks and reading very scary such news of ww3 flash points in world, turned out i dont have skill to quantum jump maybe somepeople can. I mean my pdf region in tihs is yet 1/52 like pdf region. not much.
or maybe i need to wait 1 day and give alternate universe some time to have aliens visiting this sol system happen. or else i need to meditate more on this. but i am already bored :D i just cant go 3d wise travel in such meditative mind many times. since repeating any such activity is always boring:S (only excluding jogging, jogging is always fun)
so meditations to quantum jump does not work for everyone. (I mean for me at least) e.g. i tested, it does not work to create significant universe changes e.g. aliens visitation alike changesets etc did not happent. so to my tests, it does not work to create any significant universe change. only 1/52 prob regimen in pdf (prob density function) of such not yet known pdf data , opnly 1/52 and higher than that prob regimen changes. ------------------------------------------------------------------
weird to have some skill which is not useful for any significant quantum jump :) i mean its near to not having such skill in my case. that my skill is near to none. it randomly happens and not high prob regimen changes. only 1/52 probability region ( probability density function) happens around but not any significant universe changes.
how cool it were if i were like people (e.g. meditation guide whom visibly might have such skill since does meditation of quantum jumping) whom could really quantum jump to universes with significant changes :D only aliens visitation stuff happens in Star Trek tv shows I guess if a universe happent it would be change of tv show script casted 30 years ago to create coincidence. but not actual aliens visitation alike.
i think they had very interesting facial structure.(they have very thin chins and very wide faces) i mean the aliens that hosted me in their space ship. and there were other aliens types. they were more resembling like hmm not exactly like sapiens notdefinitely but slightly. and there were also robots. hmmthe aliens that hosted were like : I mean I dreamt of these of course in meditation session. since meditation asked me to think of a dream reality. then I thought of e.g. running beside star scenes on window pane of another constellation star systems. and also the aliens were like: hmm of course this is just a dream: i mean I dreamt benevolent aliens whom hosted me like this. in this dream reality. Aliens were like: they were not like grey aliens any. let me try to draw: i failed would retry they had like very wide faces and chins very forward coming and they had no eyes no nose either. but rather some vibrant colored something that...
hey I had meditation where I imagined the Star Trek ships alike ships having aliens coming and my life there since meditation asks to dream of dream reality. Aliens were like tall beings some of them like robots like some of them like some dark haired like some of them had weird skin colors (like grey and very vibrant colored one color facial features and not any like aliens you would see not like grey aliens depictions) and facial shape. the 2 aliens which I were host to were in a round table and so. and then they had even built a treadmill of running for me, where I run with watching some star system from the view point where I did sports.
hadnt meditated yet :S since been reading of quite scary world news all from globe :S and ww3 escalation risks etc :S very scary topics happening in world alot :S ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ many possible flash points for ww3 in globe :S. perilous times in world :S :S (my preparation for emergency is ready (i mean some days lasting drink/emergency luggage like ) . (I mean in case of ww3 happens :S) ) :S -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
some news site has like/unlike news comments button but its not cancellable. I usually am accustomed to read news comments every time i read a news. but a news site comment section is not cancellable. and routinely happens this there. I dislike wrongly clicking like button when instead trying to scroll news comments page ☹️ ii didn't liked the comment actually just were trying to scroll page instead☹️ (I did not understood even what that comment means even :S)
Meditation preparation activities: Maybe snowboarding. If I were knowing and were in a ski center in holiday. I once tried that zipping (zipper or zipping dnt know which). My cousin had took me to such activity. Bungee jumping? No. Roller coaster? No. Rafting? No or yes. Hmm then I think hmm I couldn't find Tiesto songs or so. Hmm i liked to listen Tiesto alot like adagio for strings or so alike. Hmm also exists some fitness music might try that. Trying to figure out how to increase glatoma (adrenalin) before meditation.
I tried to find some scary movie to create adrenalin instead found nonscary & stupid haunted themed tv docs which hadnt watched afterwards couldnt find interesting any. is there any scary movie that i could watch to make adrenalin. since i discover that adrenalin created one neurotransmitter is mother of all neurotransmitters. (what were it Glatamonine like but forgot it ) or I should do bungee jumping or rollercoaster or so. or i should do have very cold water shower which they say also creates adrenalin. i think i find horror movie option very unpleasant. I mean very scary horror movies. professional, musics also being very scary. then and I checked the haunted docu series all of them (checked if there were any interesting) nah all were very uninteresting, did not watched after 1 minute seeing its chapter/what about with forward button and couldnt find any to watch thats interesting any. all seem very quite uninteresting. then i think also...
yayy some exercise time! then representation theory studying time! for ultimate goal of leaving planet to another constellation! yayyyyyyyyyyy! everything I do study is for this goal! every project I work to is for this goal! every project I been studying my life motive is for this! I want nothing of a life in this planet or sol system even! I do dislike living in this sol system very much! because its a crazy sol system :S with lots of crazies :S I want nothing of to stay ever in this sol system. hmm newly came up to my mind: if i meditate, i would meditate to ask hitchiking from aliens to move to other constellations i think this is also nice fantastic method to attmpt to fastly move away from this sol system thinking, if they give free rides to other constellations, hey there is this hitchiker wannabe. lets meditate every day to aliens to come and pick me and help me move away from this sol system which i labelled in my mind as too much crazy...
eagerly counting days to the day I would go to a space ship and say bye bye this crazy planet to move to another constellation. either via aliens help with the multiverse device to be built and asking aliens help via that or else i need to build ai to build spaceship asap. since world is crazy :S I dont like any like living in this planet :S neither solar system even :S all my projects have ultimate motive of moving away from planet and sol system. I have only one single goal in my life and thats it. moving from this solar system. I dont like this solar system place. I dont like any. I need to either build space tech or else there must be some helpful aliens whom would help to hitchike to another galaxy. yep. my only life goal in life is moving to another constellation or else moving to another sol system in this constellation very far from this sol system. yep. my ultimate life goal. my only life goal. I dont have any other goals in my life. only this. every project I...
I think this requires "women" literal also beside engineer :D (since man are usually relatively slightly more of imbeciles wtr to women kind :DDDDDDDDDDD ) (not any meant as if i think like that for man engineers I worked with. no I dont have such ideas like if they are less intelligent wtr women engineers so. no. they are equally intelligent I mean man engineers I work/worked with were the least, intelligent as me. but, in general, I think women are much intelligent than man in overall world populace ) hah!
for being a women engineer and for the hatred that routinely happens to my blog in internet (as happens frequently at random times, happent from a distribution which is equally distributed over all races/religions/irreligions I mean race/religion of hatred occurrences. since maniac people types are equally distributed to all races/religions/irreligions imho:D ) , let me reshare what i think ---> I think we women engineers have 50+ iq points wtr to man in every science field:D (since man cant even think of science projects we think/build/design :D ) (ahahaha :D ) (its always funny to make fun in iq topics since I am like i guess 50 iq points more in learning topics wtr to most people types :D does not that slightly show off from my diverse science field knowledge :D ) (unlike (i mean wtr to me) with respect to me, people whom specialize in only one field, I can in short term specialize in any science field I want/plan to specailiz...
to restate also /beside previous blog entry some more to add --> yepp we engineers are always right :) ---> you would see my theory is going to turn out being accurate/ correct (ahaha cause we engineers are never wrong :) it felt funny to add this here also :D ) -> I would prove it that its multiverse and mind's hebbian sysem's algebra\s emergent quantum dynamics that interacts with the multiverse universes yep :D I would prove the macro level emergent quantum process in hebbian systems (ising systems of multi dimensional) yepp. current quest :) (figuring out the most simplified representation for the emergent slow(by slow its meant: not very frequent state change occurrences in such macro quantum system. in usual quanta world quantum systems, it constantly changes with not even possible to detect state change boundaries even until something happens that sticks the quantum state having quanta level element to one universe)...
hah mentally less evolveds even tried to smear/slander my worklife with unnice slanders whilst i am an engineer and worked all my life completely doing completely software/computer engineering all my worklife. needless to state even. ) whilst advocating engineering job in blog---> ---> not needless to say this also boldy--> hey of course occupations other then engineering are also very cool! --> e.g. art occupations are also very cool! also humanities and every job/every thing people does every thing every creativity at every field is very superb! very cool!. every occupation is at the least as much as cool as engineering surely!) (but since sometimes being confronting maniac type hatred in internet at randomly at times (yepp happens from many races maniac minded maniacs(I mean people whom has hatred to just other races/religions) are equally distributed in every race :D I mean in internet its routinely observed maniac type hatred concept from e...
yepp we engineers are always right :) ---> you would see my theory is going to turn out being accurate/ correct (ahaha cause we engineers are never wrong :) it felt funny to add this here also :D ) -> I would prove it that its multiverse and mind's hebbian sysem's algebra\s emergent quantum dynamics that interacts with the multiverse universes yep :D I would prove the macro level emergent quantum process in hebbian systems (ising systems of multi dimensional) yepp. current quest :) (figuring out the most simplified representation for the emergent slow(by slow its meant: not very frequent state change occurrences in such macro quantum system. in usual quanta world quantum systems, it constantly changes with not even possible to detect state change boundaries even until something happens that sticks the quantum state having quanta level element to one universe) changing quantum processes of hebbian systems (ising systems of multi dimensions) to formula...
in my data engineering job I work as specialist but i am a generalist engineer in hobby projects at home I study later to. In my job I work as specialist (data eng. ) but in out of work -> I am very generalist engineer-> e.g. currently learning representation / group theory etc. yep always learning studyng new fields. e.g. 15 days to read quantum physic.s e.g. a month to read thermodynamics or nlp or linguistics or sumerian to get to learn about first written langauge to map gather concepts of linguistics, or else studying to philosphy of linguistics to not design software incompletely since philosophers tackle in all aspects the linguistics subjects etc. yepp in my self study time I am quite a generalist engineer yep :)
i think web and science articles access in web is what makes engineering a generalist job. without web, we would also have been specialist whcih would have been quite boring. its just i were knowing ising theory like from 2016s 2017s but forgot about it. then typed something in search engine, and ta da! ising theory page to revise it and i had even forgot which theory it is called since I last time read such stuff in2017s imho when learning ml. web is awesome helpful to engineering job imho. ( and to coding job most time stackoverflow site is very helpful :D )
i think science articles in internet makes it very possible to be generalist! without web I could never read the science articles necessary to be a generalist! so web is the power for generalist type people. otherwise I would ahve to spend more time to reach out just in seconds to science topics and their taxonomies access.
yepp we engineers are always right :) ---> you would see my theory is going to turn out being accurate/ correct (ahaha cause we engineers are never wrong :) it felt funny to add this here also :D ) -> I would prove it that its multiverse and mind's hebbian sysem's algebra\s emergent quantum dynamics that interacts with the multiverse universes yep :D I would prove the macro level emergent quantum process in hebbian systems (ising systems of multi dimensional) yepp. current quest :) (figuring out the most simplified representation for the emergent slow changing quantum processes of hebbian systems (ising systems of multi dimensions) to formulate (creatively extrapolate/theorize) their multiverse interactions possible theory sets (It does not have to be only single formulation. It might turn out multiple theories that extrapolates the multiverse interaction/multiverse dynamics yep ) task's duration: 45 days. I give 15 days to myself fo...
did some coding but not finished. now time to study to fun representation theory topic! and lets try to finish this time. since its very important for discovering algebras for multidimensional ising systems of hebbian systems solutions. I think for this puzzle: this representation theory knowledge is very important, then secondarily, group theory book to resume afterwards to finish wishfully in a week later some chapters of, then some algebraic topology introduction and differential geometry review and topology basics revising then yep then i think i would manage these tasks in following 2 weeks. then starts 1 month duration having solving the ising equations puzzle for the hebbian systems emergent macro quantum processes for regarding multiverse universes. yayyy :) now some slight narcisstic fun of cool engineering since engineering makes one generalist and specialist (when becomes necessary) at the same time-> some funny narcissm time:DDD --> -> ...
so seems as mind can really alter universe (I mean not alteration but switching to other universe alike). maybe this skll being this much not much in my mind, its possible that might be more in some people and then the most advanced skill level for it could be then historical prophets :D I mean of course I dont have such alike of this skill :D I am in low skill range in this topic:) there might be more skilled people that are in mid range. then there might be really maybe once a many centuries eons prophet like people happen which has ultimate level of this skill :D I only have low level capability of this skill. not much. but I anticipate some might definitely have much more advanced skill levels for this talent/skill. but maybe prophets were people with this skill very much amplified wise be present :D i now think its really possible :D since I mean really, I observed this phenomena repeatedly in my daily life last 6 years. not every day. but still. I mean kind...
I even investigated whether if Bektasi Alevi people might somehow be descendants of Jesus :) since this seems like happening specifically some neurotransmitter high minds posdsibly. that being not maybe just Jesus's minds property but spread out to large populace :) Since seems as possibly we are not Jesus Descendants. since i mean due to geographically region of origin of Bektasi Alevis etc etc.
some more Data on this topic to theoretical physicists that investigate the multiverse theories for my real life observance of the phenomena --> ( hey opponents and proponents of the many worlds theories usually say multiverse theories are not scientifically provable. On the contrary, I observe such phenomena in my life last 6 years. So thats why I think its important to share these findings to theoretical physicists to share such data of observances of multiverse through macro quantum processes of mind. (seems as due to hebbian structure there creating quantum states, seems as mind organ is a multidimensional organ :) ) actually everything in universe is multidimensional (considering universes as other dimensions in this definition set/syntax) but mind is like having a virtual macro level quantum process there unlike quanta world quantum processes. so we can consider mind as a virtual but yet still quantum macro process somehow :) so thats why i l...
self harming multiverse jump happent :D --> I were like I were like reading world news and saw a weird news where some people stole a bust or so in Kansas in America. I said weird news and remembered Kansas association to Wizard of Oz. of course I am not such wizard any. just associated right. I mean brain works with associations. and hearing Kansas literal in news, came up topic of Wizard of Oz, and of course this wizard is none such wizard any :) I mean we engineers are all wizards and we are not any Wizard of Oz any kind. we dont have any relatedness to such Wizards any at all. none. Then in late day today like 1 hour ago, my right eye's covering lids below part seemingly has some issue now like seeing some white stuff there like a 1mm stuff that possibly infection maybe. Then i checked eye doctors. to see the eye doctors list in nearest starts with some Dorothee named doctor. :D were not the Wizard of Oz were related about Dorothy or so? If not remem...
yayy closed cayley trees they mentioned for possible model of neural net models (Hebbian structure's ) interactions model: Ising model - Wikipedia to read learn from. to see how usually ising models are solved. and hebbian possible dynamics to extrapolate multiverse universe dynamics in this hebbian structure's stable behaviours patterns to how to result like that. thats where i am suspicious of the evolutionary function added from multiverse dynamics come in to effect. of resulting some mode of ising behaviours in clusters of neural net populations. hmm so first task after repr. theory/group theory, reading of ising system solutions form 1d to 3d or so.. and also reading neurophysics initial formalisms like cayley trees and trying to define some checking of equivalent or similar groups of such mathamtical process' dynamics/structure. how could its hamiltonian states defined elsewise. eg. its transition matrix at a time. which is surely a statistical matrix either. but. st...
yayyy after learning repr. theory and group theory to become fluently in that the new topic would be learning algebraic geometry and topology : Calabi–Yau manifold - Wikipedia yepp lets delve to String theory definition sets later. since might be a baseline to utilize logical definitions of each univer'se physics framework system. one other tjhing i very wonder is the compactness property in our universe. so this is an addition to why i wonder very much string theory again. as told before i do not consider it as even finite dimensional even if particle physics or physics behaves in 3d usually, that does not mean its 3d imho. but the mathematical structure of voidness and the iterations which are like noncontinous iterations i mean for instance eigenvalue changes instantly happenstance. this mathematical structure that based on the universe regimen via its force dynamics there creates some effects which is noncontinous. so is it a hausdorf space in ter...
hmm yesterday thought more of how hebbian system could create universe eigenstate value changes. that I had not deciphered yet very much. specifically this I think like that: ->that hebbian quantum state of mind is slower quantum system. e,g., universe flickers less frequently to mind (I mean clusters of neural net populations in mind) since its slower changing quantum system there. but for everything else, i guess universe can flicker very abruptly. i mean from one eigenstate to other possibly. or not. I dont know. to investigate later. but I wondered of: e.g my mind's cluster of neural nets neural populations have some quantum state of its hebbian mechanism there: -> then another person comes. then e.g. let think of a place. a person sits. another person also comes there. the mind of person A's mind's neural net populations connected clusters hebbian states flicker (universes flicker) slowwwwwwly. -> ok? now same for B person there?...
yepp not any less narcisstic about my existence today:) specifically when my blog randomly has haters. :) yayy again feeling quite narcisstic about my existence/my personality -> (as beign an awesome person and being a person whom is never wrong/always right and also slightly narcisstic about this also -> and very intelligent in some specific fields like integration/creativity thanks to high neurotransmitters :) )
yeah this must be this slightly narcisstic guh;s pullover (not of course narcisstic to my obesity? nope :D i am not narcisstic in my shape:). but thad doesnt matter to me for me to be narcisstic of myself -> but what matters is --> this is what i think of my personality/my character/my existence -> i mean this is whati think for how i am as a person) --> i am very awesome! (yepp very very awesome!) i am quite a good person! (I lived all my life good. all doing good things. all my life. ) i am never wrong/always right. (yep coming from high iq, it delivers skill of seeing right/wrong correctly always. ) yepp this is my analysis of my personality/my existence. and i am quite narcisstic about my own existence due to those traits. (that i am a very awesome and good person :) I am quite narcisstic to my personality/existence type yep :) ) now coming to my occupation --> tjhis b...
in a maniac world with haters of blog with impossible slander thoughts to blogs in their maniac minds (very crazy maniacs type personality types imho), its sometimes needed to affirm say what I am as an individual: ---> yep i am always awesome and i am never wrong :) I am always right :) (coming from high iq lets say. to not confuse right/wrong ever. ) yep. that be it :) I am always awesome :) and always right. never wrong. yep :) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
what i did in my long engineering career (my work life): started as a simulation/game engineer then web-cpp engineer or so then scala engineer beside qt/qml and cpp engineer then ml learning and some 200 or so or more ml articles studying for an ml staretup proejct which failed eventually since i were obsessed on coding home page's 3d gl widgets (like 7 years ago or so project) and lost alot time without prioritization or so. but learnt read alot ml articles /read alot ml articles. then data engineer and partially ml engineer for a short time then been data engineer for lot time and in my free times, i were like doing various engineering studies and so some ml project study. which like were coder ai project firs tthen turned to theoretic physics related project later which is long time being worked to and to be studied lots of still work to do. now --> new engineering career title would be added if i succeed to solve multiverse formjulations:...
i were thinking hey i had not contributed to open source projects alot in softwar eworld alot. but then --> but i think i contributed to science alot by telling my brief analysis of how multiverse works :) i think for that theoretical physics scientists should be thankful to me ;) for solving that theoretical physics puzzle and sharing in blog:) now time to formulate it and test the formulations later yep :) (maybe my theory is incorrect. science could be very hard that it might turn out my theory is incorrect after all these effort. but its very likely its really like that (That multiverse works like how i thought of it works as). since its the most reasonable definition of how multiverse mechanistics works is. lets see. its not known in advance if the theorization of multiverse mechanics is correct or not. basic scientific approiach: -> creating formulations and testing would then give some bayesian data for this theoretical physics the...
yayyy this weekend's plans be as: - finishing one code PR which I did not finished ( now's task) - doing one more meditation for quantum jumping and some card tests again. but might not do because---> because ----> -yayyy -> since i understood how quantum jumping works in brief --> no need to retry same thing (meditating and deck tests) ---> its instead time to ---> its time to formulize its formulations. and continue ml projct. but all that depends on ----> -> learning representation theory and group theory and even commutative algebra slightly very well. I spent some time investigating this multiverse travel phenomena I encountered by chance of having more neurotransmitters being autist :) and by my philosophy skills/by my introduction briefly to group theory (just introduction not learnt yet) / introduction to quantum physics in 2022 which i need to surely relearn/revise since i forgot many knowledge ...